#rlly nice as a print :3

[stqrgirl3]

PLZ READ GUYS IT RLLY LONG I KNOW BUT ITS RLLY NICE I SWEAR ITS ABT MY CRUSH PPELASE <3333 and give advice bbgs please <3

OKAY SO SO WE HAVE A SCHOOL FEST COMING UP AND MY CRUSH AND I WERE DOING STUFF IN THE DECOR TEAM LIKE MAKINF ANF PAINTING POSTERS AND ALL (it was alot of fun!!!) ADN AND THERE WERE LIKE FIVE? PEOPLE WORKING ON ONE POSTER AND MY CRUSH AND I WERE ON THAT POSTER (FICE INCLUDING US) ASJDJDF SO WE HAD TO KEEP ROTATIONG DEPENEDNING ON WHAT PART OF THE POSTER WAS THE PERSON WORKING ON AND THEN ONE TIME WHEN SHE AND I WERE TOGETHER LIKE ON THE SAME SIDE SHE HAD WHITE PAINT ON HER BRUSH AND SHE PUT SOME ON MY CHEEK AND THEN SHE WAS HOLDING MY FACE AND SHE MADE A LITTLE WHITE HEART ON MY CHEEK ASKJDKFHJ IM FUCKING SCREAMING AND THEN I MADE AN ORANGE FLOWER ON HER HAND :(( LOOK ME IN THE FUCKING EYES AND TELL ME THAT ISNT ONE OF THE GAYEST THINGS EVER WTF LIKE TELL ME SHE DOESNT FUCKING LIKE ME??????

AND THEN LATER ON ONE POSTER THAT OUR JUNIORS WERE DOING NEEDED HAND PRINTS AND SO THE TWO OF US (crush and me) WENT TO THEM FOR THE HAND PRINTING AND THEY COLORURED HER HAND BLUE AND MINE PINK AND IT WAS SO SIMILAR TO THE TV GIRL ALBUM WHO REALLY CARES AND WE BOTH WERE LIKE "OMG TV GIRL REF!!!!!" LKSJDLKJADFH AND ASNDANSDJN FUCKDKJFKK HSES SOOSOSOOS COOL I RLEALLT LIKE HER SOMUCH!!! OK AND THEN WE HIGH FIVED AFTER THE HAND PRINTING AND THEN SHE HELD MY HAND AND THEN I HAD SOME BLUE ON MY HAND AND SHE HAD SOME PINK ON HERS AND IT WAS LIKE TOTALLY TV GIRL AND SHE HELD MY HAND FOR A BIT AND I GOT UP COZ I WAS SITTING DOWN ANDSJFJK I FUCK

AND THEN LATER ON SHE WASHED HER HAND BEFORE I COULD GET A PICTURE </3 AND THEN I WAS LIKE "NOOOO YOU WASHED UR HAND??? I DINDT GET TO TAKE A PICTURE" AND SHE WAS LIIE YEAH :( AND THEN THEN I HIGH FIVED HER AGAIN AND THEN LIKE HELF HER HAND AND STUFF AND SHE GOT SOME COLOR ON HER HAND AND THEN WE GOT A PICTURE :>>

AKSJDKDFHH PLEASE SOME1 TELL ME WHAT ALL OF THIS MEANS??? BECUASE FIRST SHE SAYS SHE DOESNT WANT ANYTHING ROMANTIC AND THEN SHE DOES ROMANTIC STUFF IM LOSING MY MIND SKJFKJF

[lampiridaes]

HELLO!!! iys me again heheh, id like to request ermm.. tsukasa and minori, with a s/o that RARELY shows affection by physical touch, BUT gets really clingy when theyre half awake or when theyre sick,,, though when they fully regained their consciousness/health,, they get embarrassed about it? thank yew :3!!

♬ now playing: "suddenly clingy"

-> when you've got a partner as aloof and reserved as you, can you really blame them for being so surprised?

★ — chars ; tsukasa , minori

★ — notes ; MWEHEHE HELLO AGAIN LYN (i hope thats ur name and im not misreading anything somehow huhu)!!! another tsukasa and minori req... rlly love writing them so im always grateful :3 DID U KNOW I DREW MINORI FOR MY CLASS PIN THING!?!?! my teacher was nice enough to print it out for everyone hehe... still have yet to receive it bc of break but just a fun little thing that happened!! hope u enjoy <3

★ — warnings ; implied fem!reader for minori (implies that reader also attends miyamasuzaka) , otherwise none!

★ — taglist ; @akitosheart , @mintchocaur (tsukasa!!)

affiliated with @virtualbookstore ★

★ track #1: tenma tsukasa

to put it simply, tsukasa was really surprised! just the night before, you were so calm and reserved, maybe holding his hand a few times. even kissing his cheek once or twice.

... but right now? after you just woke up? you're all over him. literally. he doesn't mind, please don't get him wrong! tsukasa finds it endearing, if anything. it's just...

"tsukasa... love you..."

feeling your entire body cling onto his with such desperation... he wants to question it, but at the same time, it might risk embarrassing you and making you back away again, which isn't what he wants at all!

though the embarrassment was basically inevitable, as 20 minutes or so later, you're back to your usual self, just a little more shy this time.

"oh, goodness... tsukasa, i'm sorry, i didn't-"

"not to worry, [name]! i don't mind it one bit!"

he knows that you don't show a lot of affection normally for a reason. maybe you're too shy, maybe you're uncomfortable with it. as much as he loves it when you do, tsukasa doesn't force you to do anything! sure, he'll ask once or twice every once in a while, but he's very understanding if the answer is no.

... though, if you do it when you're fully awake for the first time... expect him to suddenly get all quiet and freeze up. it's a good thing, no worries.

★ track #2: hanasato minori

minori's way of showing her love for you is mostly words of affirmation or gift giving, so she doesn't mind that you aren't too keen on physical affection!

that doesn't mean anything bad, of course! it's not like she doesn't want to hug you, hold you, or kiss you, it's just that... she's a little shy about it. which means your lack of physical affection works out just fine.

so you can imagine how perplexed she was when you started begging for her attention, holding her hand and asking her to stay with you when you got sick.

"minori, stay a little longer... i'll feel so much better if you're here..."

minori may be an idol now, but hearing compliments from someone she truly holds near and dear to her heart... might give her a heart attack.

... but she also really adores it. after all, it makes her feel loved and special, more so since it's coming from you, of all people.

with all the training and practices she needs to attend to nowadays, minori makes sure to leave cute, handwritten notes or sweet text messages to check up on you! if you're allowed to use your phone when you're sick, that is.

when you finally recover and go back to school, it's absolutely over for the both of you. minori gets flustered easily on her own, but now that you've also lost your cool, getting all red alongside her? it's quite a cute scene from an outsider's perspective.

... the outsiders being the rest of more more jump, of course. as silly and clumsy the two of you can be, you're really the perfect pair for each other.

[ghostbite0]

Hiii sorry if this is really poorly written or like illegible (I think that's the word) I'm like rlly awkward with these things lol but I just want to say that I admire you so so so much and you're such a sweet person and this might sound weird but that also kind of comes across in your art as well? Like you can just tell you're a nice person by just looking at your drawings which makes them so much more like good?? I can't think of any better words right now sorry lol. Anyways I just really think you're a neat person and I wish more people could be like you!! You're so kind to your fans and its clear that you actually appreciate and care for them as well and I just think you're a really lovely person :3

anon i need you to know i read this and got so emotional and felt so happy i had to step away for a few minutes and pace around my house then take out my contacts because i was in tears .... this is so freaking sweet oh my god

legitimately going to like print this out and hang it on my mirror or something you have no idea how much this means to me ;o; thank you so much for taking the time to send me this this made my entire. existence. this is so so so so kind and thoughtful ill WEEP

thank you thank you thank you!!!!!! i love u guys so much ill die

[sasuke-and-naruto]

Hello, hello! It's been a long time since I made this blog and til today I am a loyal ✨SNS stan✨. Sadly life moves on and after all this time I am now a responsible adult with adult duties. So I have to say goodbye to my SNS collection and looking for someone who wanna buy it! My collection is an amazing zine, the CD "Yours for an hour" with all the translations, stickers, postcards, prints and charms that I loved so much I actually never unpacked them haha

I would sell everything for 35 € (38,28 in Dollar) plus the shipping cost. Ideally you live in Germany or Europe. I hope everything can find a nice and new home, sharing would be rlly appreciated! <3

[viscericorde]

Do you have any good inde or small businesses that sell good quality alt clothing? I've been struggling to find any good shit lately, and I'm hoping you could possibly help my dilemma 😕 😔

idk if most/any of the places i shop from count as indie honestly ;o;! but here are the brands i shop from most regularly and can vouch for the quality of tho.

Disturbia (https://www.disturbia.co.uk/en-us) - i buy a lot of my most-loved/most-worn pieces from here! some stuff on the pricier end but quality is worth it 4 me. check the garment measurements instead of just going by the size chart bc it can sometimes be wacky. darker/gothy aesthetics, a nice mix of edgier/rougher pieces but also some nice frilly feminine stuff!

Minga London (https://us.mingalondon.com/) - i refer to this one in my head as the e-girl store a lot lollll...i do like the stuff they offer but i just have to make my peace w having the same sweater as a lot of tiktok alt girlies. ngl some of the pieces are NAWT worth the price point so i wait for things to go on sale mostly

The Ragged Priest (https://theraggedpriest.com/) - "streetwear" type stuff, a lot louder colors and prints than i usually wear, but there's a fair amount of monochrome/darker stuff that i sort through it for. mostly i buy jeans/pants from here bc that's kind of their main gig and it's v nice quality. higher price point, but also has p frequent sales that i take advantage of!

Lamoda (https://us.lamoda.co.uk/) - shoes!!! i buy most of my platform heels from here. less pricey than demonia but also i never buy anything that isn't on sale

Demonia (https://demoniacult.com/) - shoes again. i specifically only buy platform boots from here. obviously big money. but also i bought a pair of boots back in high school and they are still serving me well now that i have graduated from college so worth it.

i also used to buy from killstar every so often but their recent selection has been so gd ugly i've kind of given up on it, and anything i'd be able to rec from there has been sold out for literal years so. sighh.

a big percentage of the clothes/shoes i have are from these places, but my closet is also supplemented by a lot of "basics" from places that i wouldn't at all consider alt brands lol. sometimes i will head into extremely whitebread shops like urban outfitters or smthn to see if there is anything there that i know i will be able to coordinate with a lot of other stuff i already have, and that helps me out a lot.

also disclaimer for this list that my usual sizes are XS or a US 0 to 2, so i can't rlly speak for the fit of larger sizes or inclusive sizing, sooo your mileage may vary <:3

i know that a lot of these brands are pricier than average so vewy sorry for that orz im just the type of person who can make peace w spending big money on clothes so that may skew my tastes

[birdofmay]

I saw your post about liking hearing music stuff and took this as permission to ramble about my favourite pieces / composer!

PIAZZOLLA. I am obsessed with his tango-etudes at the moment and I can’t stop telling everybody about them! They’re all so beautiful and they rlly show off what you can do with a flute imo

interesting fact, almost all of his tango etudes (possible exception is no. 2: Anxieux et Rubato) use a dotted crotchet, dotted crotchet, crotchet rhythm (3-3-2). Or a variant of that- no. 1: Décidé uses a 3-3-3-3-2-2 rhythm in the A section.

he is an Argentinian composer who is very important for tango nuevo.

my favourite section is in no. 3: molto marcato e energico, from bar 30 to the meno mosso. I particularly like bar 42 (my bar numbers might be wrong as my copy doesn’t have them printed, but this is the one with the grace notes gfe before the a with an accent.) I also really love no. 1: décidé but unfortunately the double tonguing at the end is too hard for me!

ahh wait you’re not a wind player so you might not know what that is! Basically, usually you articulate notes by going t t t but when they’re too fast you have to go t k t k instead. This is called double tonguing. Unfortunately I’m kinda bad at it :/ Which is a shame because most of the tango etudes are fast and so there’s a lot of double tonguing

anyway they’re super pretty and you should listen to them! I also like them because they’re unaccompanied which most flute pieces aren’t, so that when you play them alone they sound a bit incomplete but these pieces aren’t like that!

If we talked before I'm quite certain I know who you are - if we haven't, know that there's another person who's into exactly this 😎😁😂

Listening to some rn and the pattern sounds nice 👍🏼👍🏼

[zhuhongs]

hhhhh so im on a ridiculously long ride home and just my phone so tumblr diary entry time lol. if you have my instagram this will make more sense but yk. anyways. so yesterday was the last day of the semester and i was tbh pretty normal abt it. but leading up to it i was a mess and tbh i think my stomach issues actually came more from the stress of knowing im leaving but the alcohol seemed plausible enough an explanation so i ran with it. but nah i was just. hhhh overwhelmed. bc anytime i was out with ppl it disappeared and as soon i was alone and not busy i was like. oh theres the stomach pain. LOL. but yea. so i decided my going away present to everyone would be a drawing of them plus a message bc like. i always said i liked art but never rlly showed my classmates my art so i was like. welp lets go out with a bang. and it felt good bc i really wanted to do smth like this sooner. my initial plan to make a good impression was to print stickers of my art and put my IG on it and get close to ppl that way. but i was just far too stressed and thought itd be weird. so i just. Didnt. and i regret not putting in enough effort at the beginning. but i also feel like its okay, especially given my upbringing. i needed that time to myself to figure it out, and now i really know that i can just. talk to ppl. and not be afraid. bc the ppl i got closest to were the one i swore would judge me most bc of my own preconceived notions, but i told the the parts of me i hid the most and they accepted it. and could at least sympathize and actually relate and i just. why was i so silly. why was i so mean to myself to be convinced that i was so unacceptable that no one except for those who already knew me could accept me and enjoy my presence? i was so silly. i wont do that again, but if i do, it will still be easier than doing it this time bc I'll recognize the patterns and quickly snap out of it.

in a way, i really do feel like i needed all this time alone to process myself and rlly look myself in the eye and recognize the ways ive lived that i can just stop doing now that i have the freedom to be free of my past. and part of me feels like I'm saying that as copium bc i didnt connect sooner and i possibly could have also had a better time with others and still have come to realize the same things and more through the help and company of others. but i also know that i cant live life always thinking so much. so i just need to live and let the regrets be what they are, and move forwards. but the regrets do indeed linger. like i made the decision not to stay in taiwan. bc of well A. money and B. i felt like if i had more time I'd just fucking waste it like i wasted the first 4 months. i might as well force myself into a corner and see if that would make me do things i was too scared to do otherwise. and like, it worked! i did say fuck it and rlly just let loose bc i was gonna leave but now its worked too well. and like i wish soooo bad that i had those 3 months to fully enjoy every chance working out. Part of me says that its best to leave with that hope. rather than have taken that chance and it fizzled out. the thing keeping me from extending the most was honestly knowing I'd have my birthday there. and i could not take the possibility of spending my birthday alone... i legit couldnt stomach it. in the past i used to spend every bday alone but in recent years ive had a mazing friends that actually made my bday special and i just. I'm so used to having that day be nice that i really couldnt take the possibility of it being awkward. but now i realize that it wouldn't have been like that. it couldve been wonderful. but thats okay, in another life. or maybe a few years. who knows. im considering doing smth like this again in like 2 years after I've worked a bit. i have nothing but time. but man. sometimes i just wonder yk.

and last night i had a rlly good one on one talk with my classmate and that was amazing, but i got home and checked IG like a dumbass and say another group of classmates partying til 3am and i was like.... man i should've done that. but like, logically no. i had a great night regardless and i partied with those classmates last week. ive had my fill, and i had things to do today that i needed to be coherent for. but i couldn't help but thinking what if. and i know its not so easy to kill that voice inside my head. its always gonna be there. its not just me, thats the devil of SNS like instagram. bc you see the best parts of everyone's lives at all times and feel like you're missing out but you're not. you only see a sliver of what it really was..but yea. its okay. I'm still so very young. and i just need to treasure now and take whatever chances i get to nourish the connections i have right now and put yourself out there to make new ones when the chances arise. its okay, there is not life that can be lived without saying goodbye. but damn, yesterday at the school gates two of my classmates hit me with the さよなら and that. man i felt it in that moment. theres so much i wish i couldve said in all that time we had to spend together but i just held my tongue bc i was scared. but this was really playing social interaction on hard mode, like the cultural differences, the language barrier, the introversion, the fact it was my first time on my own fr, just, there were soooo many factors working against me specifically. and fuck man, i still did it. and i am still so young, i really can do whatever i want. it feels so weird. ive only been here 6 months but in a way it feels like this is how its always been. like the fact that im going home feels so strange. like i havent been there in years, i honestly cant fully grasp that im gonna be in a place where i speak the language fluently and am fully aware and familiar with my surroundings. like, why does that feel so odd. it does, i legit dont even know how to feel besides strange. i just have a strange pit in my stomach. but its okay. it will pass as everything does. but these days will always live on inside me as everything does. even if i can't fully recall it. so i just have to keep going as always. god. life is trippy man. but yea. Yea. thats it. i think

[jlonejacketwthe30out]

CONTINUING HAND & EYE - typography, poster design and final results❗️❗️

(yeah. sorry it’s even later. my bad !! 💀)

OKAYYYY!!!! so after finishing my panels i got to making my zine into an actual physical outcome - which included making my title cards ^^

now for this i thought it would be fun to do some stencilling - and it was! not sure why but i really enjoyed this part, i think i was getting pretty hyped cos it meant i was almost finished😁

and to add extra flair, i cut some star shapes from some neon yellow paper i had! i wanted this to add even more colour and just some more dynamic shapes to the zine - i also included these in the poster that i made to go on the other side on my folding zine

the poster on the other side was also SOOO fun to work on - probably because i got to be a lot messier here 🙏🏾

to keep with the theme of trains, i used a bunch of collaged train maps and travel card forms as the background of my poster, above which i put my neon stars and graffiti influenced arrows - and ofc my trains.

i’m not sure if i included this fact in my notes or submission or anywhere, but another reason i really like the neon stars idea was because they reminded me of sparks that sometimes fly off the tracks and trainlines because of either the friction of the track and the train wheels, or the electric trainline wires. i love being a chronic train user🩷

HERE ARE BOTH MY NARRATIVE AND MY POSTER COMPLETED 😁👍🏾❗️❗️

after this, i scanned both and edited them together in photoshop. from this point i could print a sheet that had both outcomes on either side! i finally had a zine !! woohoo !!!

bearing in mind that the zine i was making was meant to have copies i could sell, i tired to print on some thicker and higher quality paper!

unfortunately for me!!! the paper i had (which was like… 350gsm i think… SUPER thick) was too much for the printer i used and it came out deformed 🛌

because of this (and my last minute rush el oh el) i chose to use the standard cream paper that was available in the library - it did the job😹

and here are my outcomes at the zine fair!!! i sold 2/3 copies - pretty good since i honestly would’ve gave them away for free😭 i love lots of really good feedback too so that was rlly nice :DDD

i kinda sorta loved this project and i was okay w my outcome but as usual for stuff this year i fumbled a little bit - mainly down to my organisation and timing BUT IT WAS SM FUN🩷💛💚🩷

thanks SO MUCH for looking at my process!!!!😭

[venusandsaturnsrings]

Biggest flex is that childes va is going to a con I'm going to (I might get a print just not get it signed cause i dont rlly like his va as a person) BUT IM GETTIMG A PRINT SIGNED BY XINYANS VA CAUSE SHE WAS MY FIRST MAIN AND I LOVE HER SO MUCH SHES SO UNDERATED -chubby darling anon

WAH u are so mean flexing all these cons on me :(( there are NONE to go to where i live stop be so mean to me… </3… tarus va has society very divided!! he seems nice enough but tbh… i think he caused the bulk of tarus mischaracterization… not to point fingers but yknow… idk i’m not caught up on any va drama outside of what happened with tighnari so if i’m missing a reason to be a hater lemme know!! xinyan is the cutest i swear i loved her and fischls friendship in last years summer event :(( never mained her but i’m SO. HAPPY. FOR. YOU….

[quuma]

Q HOW WAS UR ARTIST ALLEY???? OMGG DOD OT HAPPEN YET??? if u ever come to san francisco…. let me know… bro my wallet is screaming for q art prints… ALSO WHAT ARE YOU SELLING??? i love twst merch SO MUCH that would be so cute if u had keychains EEEE would u ever consider (or do u have) an etsy page open??? i am whoring over the idea of your riddle art on a professional print good heavens I MUST INVEST!!! anyways i hope it went well if u had it!!! if u didn’t yet GOOD LUCK ITS GOING TO GO AMAZING. also omg a fellow nctzen??? who is ur bias MINE IS JAEMIN AND JISUNG I LOVE THE DREAMIES SO MUCH

KIMI I JUST GOT BACK FROM IT ABOUT 4 HOURS AGO, AND DESPITE HAVING SOME,, QUESTIONABLE,, PEOPLE COME TO MY TABLE, IT WAS ACTUALLY PRETTY GOOD!! :D

It was so tiring tho I’m ngl 😭😭 I’m gonna need at least 2 weeks before I leave the house again ;^;;

legit spent the entire event trying to juggle with drawing (bro I haven’t done traditional art in so long - idk why tf I thought it’d be a good idea to give myself such a short timeframe [40mins - 1hr] to draw sketch comms), dealing with ppl complaining about my keychain prices (I was literally using the price recommended to me by the staff 😭😭 most con keychains are literally more expensive so idk what they were complaining about), and talking to random 50yr old men that were asking me about digital art (as creepy as that sounds, they were both v v nice - ended up convincing one to buy an iPad for his daughter for Christmas [she better be grateful >:(]),, ;-;;;

I doubt I’ll ever go to San Francisco (America sorta scares me hahaidhbkjjh) [actually maybe I’ll visit just for you pookie 🤭🤭😍😍], but I’ll definitely let you know if I ever open an Etsy store !!! I’ll probably end up doing it once my catalogue is larger & I figure out how to get higher quality prints :))) (so,, sometime next year :D)

I was selling art prints (TWST, Genshin, Nijisanji), keychains (Genshin), and commissions !! :D

My prediction was right tho LOL - only one TWST print sold (my mootie who loves Riddle bought it eheheh) (actually maybe 3 sold if you include the art trade for Leona and my brother buying a Ruggie print) - and as disappointing as it was, it’s a good indicator on what to make more of in future though!! As much as i love making TWST content, I do still want to make art that sells at cons 😔😔,, i.e. I probs have to focus more on vtuber/Genshin/anime art sighhhhhh

The way I’ve written this post makes it sound like the event was entirely miserable omfg i promise it wasn’t !! stressful, yes, but not terrible !! I did enjoy the experience a lot, and will be applying to proper, bigger cons in the future !! :D

IM SO GLAD TO HAVE A FELLOW KEYCHAIN LOVER AS A MOOTIE <3333 I LITERALLY LOVE KEYCHIANS SO MUCH THEYRE ALL I EVER BUY ONLINE <333 I’LL DEFINITELY DESIGN SOME TWST KEYCHAINS IN FUTURE FOR YOU POOKUMS <333 I’ll even pay the stupidly high shipping costs to send them to you snookums <333

ALSO YES I AM A FELLOW NCTZEN!!! MY BIAS IS TAEYONG <33 (can you tell that I like the overworked type ahsbjdahsfgdgb) BUT TBH RENJUN AND DOYOUNG ARE RLLY CLOSE BEHIND HIM SO IDK </3

OH AND HERE ARE SOME PHOTOS OF MY TINY LITTLE STALL !! sorry that they’re so blurry 😭😭 I was nervous so my hands were shaking a lot 🧍🧍

had to partially cover poor Ruggie and Leona’s faces with labels bc I didn’t know if I was allowed to show blood ahahjshkskn

[yvesolade]

q&a hello ! i have a lot of asks accumulated since i went awol, but i'm back now + more illiterate than ever and am going to answer all the anons here instead of like . spamming my feed, ur welcome

"hello i have sent u a nice message" hello, i have read the nice message and am keeping it in my inbox because i want 2 keep it and look at it forever <3

Hello. I’m looking for your poem called Cut. “You who never touched anything without wanting to destroy it. You who never loved anything at all.” Can you help? hello! 'cut' can be found in dark when it gets dark ! sorry it's on am*zon, i do not control distribution ! if u rlly want to read it w/o buying it tho, lmk and i'll see what i can do !

hi there! i really really love bloodsport, but i like being able to annotate physically. is there anywhere i can give you some money and then print it out for myself? i'd love to fairly compensate you for your stunning work <3 have a lovely day mentioned this a long time ago but i hope to one day put together a collection of bloodsport + slaughterhouse poems + get it printed but haven't had the time to look into it yet so ! in the meantime, go wild + if u want to throw some money my way, u can send some 2 my ko-fi ty ty

I was watching the 2006 Pink Panther movie, one of the best films put to screen yet when I found a character named "Yves", his name was pronounce 'eve'. Please do not tell me that is how you are pronounced. Belovéd will always be written by "ee-ves" Olade in my heart. this is so funny . live ur truth king xx

hi! i read an excerpt from mercy recently and i loved it so much. i was hoping to find the full thing somewhere, would you have a link? mercy is part of slaughterhouse which you can read here ! free to download but tips open if u can spare it <3

hi!! i read some excerpts from your works and i wanted to know where can i get a copy of them? like pdf or ebook thanks

Where can I find the books or full poems. This writing is beyond beautiful and I need it to consume more of my time.

Where can we buy some of your poetry?* slaughterhouse * bloodsport * dark when it gets dark those r three collections i have open at the moment !! thank u for ur interest : ) <3 <3 slaughterhouse + bloodsport are pay what u want !

hi from a beginner poet!! i'd like to ask what's been the most helpful writing advice you have been given? :D "start writing, no matter what. the water does not flow until the faucet is turned on." - louis l'amour. very important !!! much better to make trash than to make nothing at all

hello!! do you have any thoughts for baby poets and people just starting to write? other than the above i would encourage u 2 do 3 things. 1st and most important ! read !!! 2nd . write what u want 2 write !!! 3 : read again !!! those weirdos on twitter who say u don't have to read to write are narcissists + they're lying 2 u

I really want to get a tattoo of one verse of yours. go ahead !!! only rule is that u have to send me a photo after !!

[f1nalboys]

Peacemaker S1 Ep5 Monkey Dory (last episode for the night 🙏) @tinalbion

-giggles :3

-ugh him drinking the eggs

-worst trope ever

-eagley :((( he’s so worried abt chris

-he looks so fucking pathetic uhm…. guys…. 😼 SORRY

-NOOOOOOO eagley brought him a squirrel to eat to feel better :(

-noooo this episode is gonna be so sad i can feel it

-ADRIANANNNN

-sorry

-“they go in through the butt??” JFJEIDNDJD

-superman w the poop fetish 😭😭

-now that we know murn is a butterfly im confused as to why the rest of them don’t know

-but i get it

-NO RHE EXPLOSION IN THE POWERPONTISIDJSIJD economous is so me

-HIM NAMING ALL THE PEOPLEKDJWINDJSBX

-“the fucking cunts from riverdale”

-ADRIAN ANSWERING THR RHETORICAL QUESTIDONCKSNX

-“fargos on tonight” ofc he watches fargo

-he’s so baby girl!!!

-“nice penmanship asshole and fargos not on till tomorrow night you fucking nerd” followed by adrian’s laughter JFJSJDJDJ

-larry is sexy

-ugh. i hate his dad

-leota defending economous <3

-“i didn’t care bc i don’t have emotions like other people do” when he clearly has shown multiple emotions like ok

-“i got bullied too” “how” “by the other kids calling me a bully all the time, saying i was abusive” SHIT UPPPPPP

-they’re finger printing what’s his face

-can they just lie and say he did it anyways

-also fuck larry is. sorry i just love a good silver fox dad bod man

-hehe i love that he loves glam rocks

-they’re bondinggggg :3

-me starting a show: i jsut want everyone to be friends :D

-has he been a butterfly this whole time? like even when he was back doing whatever?

-“evan you fucking pussy!” JFNSODNISHD

-“i finger bang you, i’m not using my pinky” IFNWOFNISD good point king!

-“i forgot women had fingers” IFKOWNCSIND

-stop this shows humor is nailing it for me tbh

-“UGH FUCK i’m never ever gonna kill someone with a chainsaw it’s so not fair” adrian u can kill me w the chainsaw. ok???

-chris and leota r my fave friendship actuslly like idk why but they bounce off of each other really rlly well

-JFNWONFJD

-LEOTA SHOOTING EACH PERSON AGTER CHRIS KILLS RHEM SHES JUST LIKE ME

-ok i’m eating breakfast so who knows how much i’ll type as i watch

-show me some fighting 🗣️🗣️

-why didn’t they just blow this place up

-YESSS BUTTERFLY FIGHTING LETS GO

-who the hell is charlie

-is that the like major guy that’s giving them the stuff

-OH EHAT THE FUCK

-“idk i invented it this morning” he’s smart

-EAT PEACE MOTHER FUCKERS

-poor economous just having to watch :(

-THE GORILLA

-HDJSJCKSKJDS

-IM LAUDHISICIWBDIS

-all of them fucking this gorilla up together <3 teamwork babey

-YESSS

-ENONOMOUS CAME IN W THE CHAINSAW LETS GOOO

-ALL OF THRN HAVING FUN TOGETHER IN THE CARTRRT

-🥹 they just mean a lot to me guys

-all of them dancing 🥹🥹

-WAHHHH HARCOURT TAKING A PIC OF THEN :,)

-HEHEHHEHEEH

-the guy who agreed to help murn is making sure chris’ dad stays in jail 🙏🙏

- ew not him trying to gaslight my queen 🙄🙄

-go get larry and get his ass

-“so we can assume butterflies can use any life form as a host” “chihuahua? :D” “probably wouldn’t fit” “would be cool tho!! :3” adrian chase. i have feelings for you. major ones.

-everyone being mean to adrian he’s just silly guys!!!

-he’s not a thimble

-“we can trust him” “what’s his name” “judy” “JUDGE JUDY???”

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-“we can trust him!” “so you’ve said” “and plus he’s my uncle” “😳” Hhehehehehe

-WAHHHHH

-HARVOURT MAdE A GC FOR THEM

-NAMED 11TH STREET KIDS

-IM SOBBINGGGGGG

-there’s 11 minutes left in sad

-adrian using the merman emoji hehehe

-“he says it means happy sad and everything in between” WAHHHHH

-:,) he wants to hang out w JFNWKNFKWNFJD

-sorry he wants to hang w leota and she goes “are you trying to fuck me but claiming ur dicks a lesbian or something” JDNSKNFJS

-he framed his first newspaper article about himself.

-guys i’m crying now.

-ok had to pause to send a video crying abt this to tati i don’t wanna play it i don’t want them to be sad

-her almost throwinf the drink up HFJSIJDJRJRJ

-they’re having a beer together :3

-LEOTA HELPING HIM W HARCOURTJSIFNIE

-oh i’m giggling

-“don’t talk about her tits or her pussy” “yeah but…what abt when we’re fucking” STOP ITTTT

-john cena plays christopher smith so we’ll it pisses me off

-“you really aren’t a bad guy. you just use being s fuck as a way to push people away, but if you would just take second and just drop that and be Chris Smith, i think people actuslly might like you” WAHHHHHH

-THEYRE BESTIESSSSSS

-“i just never had this before” “what?” “this, you, you know, giving me advice and having my back” SHES HIS FIRST FRIEND GUYS WAHHH

-I JUST WANT EVERYONE TO BE HAPPY IM SO SCARED

-him crying :(

-leota still planting his diary :(

-NOOOOOOO

-her voicemail to her wife :(

-OH NO

-oh no

-FUCK. she’s using chris’ helmet and she’s gonna see that he’s a fucking butterfly FUCKKKKK

-LEOTA IM SO SCARED FKR HER

-NO

-LEOTA GET THE FUCK OUT GHERE

-OH MO OH NO OH NO

- THATS HOW THE EPISODE ENDS

-WHAT THE GUVK

-i was gonna stop after this episode but i have to start the next one i jsut have to

-end credits

-THE NAME DROPPSSSS STJDISJDNKWNFKS

-silly end credits

OK THOUGHTS ON THID EPISODE: holy fuck! just!!!! OMGGGGG i love leota and i love her bonding w chris (even tho she still put his journal there :/) but FUCK I KNOW SHE DOESNT DIE BC ID BE PISSED BUT NOW I HAVE TO WATCH EP6 TOO

its 6 am so i’m a little tired but my god ALSO harcourt has officially grown on me see i just needed her to get away from that ‘strong girl doesn’t like girl stuff or other people’ thing, strong women r allowed to have friendships and close bonds and stuff !!! and now i lowkey ship her and chris -_- annoying i know hehe

anyways episode 6 time

[ricotyrell]

don't rlly have anything extremely important under here i'm just rambling really

last weekend? couple of months even? probably changed me more than i expected but also at the same time... not really. i think i'm scared of what's going to come up and what responsibilities i have to handle. i think i don't have that many in the first place so i shouldn't really be complaining. my confidence level has always been low is all

Last saturday i joined my first counter-protest. It wasn't for long since i arrived late, but it was nice meeting people who are all in for the love and support of lgbtq+ kids. It was near a playground and we gave some donuts out to kids. I thought a lot about how different their lives are due to covid. how there were people always willing to fight for them. how i should have joined these earlier There was also a Palestine protest going on here which i didn't attend, but they were loud enough to hear from streets away, and i hope their rally comes through to the cdn govt. it's extremely disappointing and beyond blood boiling (but not surprising) to see trudeau (who is already letting genocide happen in his own country) express his fake love while continuing to allow senseless massacres to continue. The biggest thing I can do is speak out, I really wish we could do more.

On sunday, i attended my first market, as in I was selling stuff personally. I managed to sell a coaster and a pouch that i crocheted, and I was really happy since I didn't expect to sell anything at all. But a part of me felt ashamed that i couldn't do more because my mom's always expecting more out of me when she hasn't even tried what I've been doing. It was overall a good experience and I'm looking forward to trying again this weekend. My friend is truly a great motivator and she also has a really good social network. I think I'm really beginning to see the magic in the connection of humans, but I am also very afraid of it considering how many bad fallouts i've been through. She gave me a lot of courage and passion to finish my artwork, get them printed, open my own shop, print out my own business cards... I even got my own acrylic charms and stickers printed. This was something I dreamt of doing when I was a teenager, so it does mean more to me than I let off. When I list it like this, I actually do see that I've done a lot.

But i'm scared that I'll lose motivation to take care of my own products and keep creating. But i'm also scared of being so slow I do nothing to change anything about my own life, like I've been living like this since 2017 when i dropped out because I was anxious about my life at the time and there was a huge strike. The strike was just a great excuse to me to get out of education. I don't think i was ever meant for higher education.

Life just keeps going on too, my dog has cushings which has an expensive treatment plan, consistent ear infections and ear cleanings have probably made her deaf, she's just growing old and... I feel like I'm just not prepared. It's similar with my dad, he's been ill and out of work for 3 months now while the canadian healthcare is in active collapse and he has to wait months for tests while he continues to faint at home with more rest. He's in his 60's, and I feel like I'm also turning into his caretaker which I don't want to be. I love my dad, but I just don't feel like i have the skills to take care of someone, I'll try but I don't think i can commit to it. But he's also my dad so I feel like i have no choice. Especially when my mom takes every opportunity to freak out and make us all feel as miserable as she does, if she isn't there to take care of him when shit sucks for him, then who is??? My brother is working basically full time too

I don't know, I'm just feeling really anxious about everything, even about the good stuff. I hope I can get past it, but what other choice do I have. I don't even think I succinctly worded everything as I actually felt

here's to my shop opening on nov 1st without too much of an issue. trying to keep it as simple as possible

[sulkyshot]

My mom always asked me various times if something were to happen to her and my father ,who I would choose to go with. Including the fact that I only have one choice per parent. Kinda. On my dad's side I have a single uncle who lives in his own home 8 blocks from my home, and another uncle with a wife and 3 kids: all boys of ages from 10-4-0. who live in their own home 3 blocks away from my home. On the other hand on my moms side ,i only have one aunt. This aunt lives about 20 minutes away driving, she lives in an apartment vuilding with her husband who works quite alot and 2 children. They shouldnt be rlly considered children, theyre both guys; one 23 and the other 17. Might seem like an easy response but all their rounding personalities are what brings me to my decision.

My response had always been my aunt. I think it was mainly bc she is my mother's sister and I couldn't betray my mom. Another part was that I could tell my uncles loved us, but they couldn't. Not enough before their own needs and responsibilities. You see I also have a younger brother. And while he's closer to all of them than I, I can tell he would be wouldn't be taken care of well, even with my aid. He'd be dismissed bc of the machismo that still runs in this side of the family that contains all boys as their offspring. Which prevents me from being able to do much aswell. They are quite good manipulators and whenever I come along as the raging eldest feminist, I can get ganged up against. Considering that I myself wouldn't be comfortable much and my brother would get ever so little attention and love.

Of course there's pros and cons but I highly forsee future cons coming upon the vision of staying with either uncle.

Then there's my aunt. I realize if something were to happen to my parents I would most likely want to flee, the people around us as huge gossips and we wouldn't be able to go anywhere without whispers surrounding us , our presence present or not. So leaving atleast 20 minutes away would give, most importantly , my brother a fresh start. Apart from that my cousins care deeply for him and I can tell they see him as a younger brother of their own. He'd be in good hands whenever I wouldn be around.

Although there wouldn't be much space due to the limited rooms, I think we'd adjust well. My 17 year old cousin and I used to have multiple sleepovers as toddlers, it was nice. Regardless, I finally noticed how close their public library is. I've known of its existence and I loved whenever we would sometimes venture there with my aunt to get something printed out. But I never took the time to realize how I could go to the library everyday, have some peace and quiet . Live the aesthetic life of going somewhere to read for a few hours.

That library would be the soul of my continuing to live, aside from living to protect my brother. My aunt surely wouldn't mind,,,I hope. Either way I would still be able to take the train since it is always just a fee minutes away from the library itself. I'd have more freedom than ever.

But to have that in exchange for my own parents and home,,, likely not. As much as I despise their way of thinking soemtimes, they are my parents. And no one can replace them I guess.

[cruisinfdr]

[motheyes]

also i got a great idea for my shop