#reenacting is my escape from reality 100%

[acracana]

Spoilers for Book 7 Ch. 13

my coke filled thoughts

Considering that twst is a Disney game rated for 4+, I highly doubt they will kill any major characters (any of the boys). I'd even wager that no permanent bodily harm will happen at all (Malleus's horns are insured for $7 billion. There is no way they actually chop them off).

I liked this chapter, and I am actually surprised at the way they decided to approach it. It's proceeding faster than I expected, but maybe they're in a hurry to get book 7 done (real).

I'm shocked that Malleus decided to dispel the dream because like,,, really? After over 100 episodes of jumping through the dreams and being like, "We need to escape to reality, guys!" they're just out of it? Just like that? I don't buy it. I think they'll pull an inception on us or something, and they're all still in a dream. It would make sense why Lilia can't be woken up, and imagine the revelation when the boys realize "it was all a dream" again (this will likely not happen). If it's not a dream, does that mean Lilia lost in his own dream against Malleus? I 100% believe that if there is a fight between Diasomnia and Malleus, Lilia will be there because every fight with the OB so far has had the rest of the house there... I think...I don't remember tbh.

I saw some people upset that Lilia's magearm will be used to fight Malleus with Silver wielding it, and I understand it, but maybe I'm thinking too optimistically. Yes, it parallels KoD's fight with Maleanor, but it also flips it by having Silver as one of the only cast members who understands where Malleus is coming from and still wants to save/protect him. At this point, Malleus is considered an enemy of mankind, and he's being treated as such by literally everyone else. Silver and, of course, Sebek understand that Malleus's actions come from a place of hurt and loneliness (Silver mentions it in the summon line…I think. It was Google Translated). Silver isn't wielding the sword to harm him; he wants to make sure Malleus stops his OB so he can understand that he isn't alone. Idk. I'm still hopeful that Silver doesn't fight Malleus and instead uses talk-no-jutsu to convince him to return to reality. As I said before, Silver is likely the person who understands Malleus's feelings the most, and he did say that it was his own tears that helped push Malleus to the edge; maybe if he cries again, he can convince Malleus to stop or something.

Malleus being considered an enemy to the world parallels the negative stigma surrounding Maleanor and Briar Valley with the humans and Silver Owls. Which… ouch. It hurts to see since we, as the players, understand Malleus's feelings, but the rest of the NRC boys (sans diasomfam) definitely do not. I don't necessarily blame them because, let's be real, empathy and foresight are not these boys' strong suits.

I am hopeful that they don't repeat history, though. I was kinda worried at first about Silver's and the Knight of Dawn's armor being identical and, thus, a reenactment of the war, but I think it said that Baul is helping the Shroud parents make the armor. There is no way in hell Baul lets them make a replica of KoD's armor. I hope it's similar to the Briar Valley royal guard armor but, y'know, silver.

Also, Sebek being the shield and Silver being the sword!! I think we all figured this, but I was so excited to see it in game. It reverses their personality and kind of signifies their growth throughout the book. Sebek, who is hot-headed and tends to attack first with words, wields the shield to protect his prince and his friends classmates that he gained through his experience. Silver…tbh I'm too tired to think about how it would connect to his character development, but I feel it in the back of my brain that it does.

That's all until the 10th. I'm excited to see Silver's SSR since he has, like, what, six or something? I'm also excited to see Malleus's upcoming breakdown because god knows the amount that he bottles up.

[diavolosthots]

Hello! First of all thank you for your amazing writing!! 🖤 I wanted to request the brothers catching MC watching porn even tho they thought they were sneak 100% ฅ'ω'ฅ Thank you!

First of all thank YOU for reading my amazing writing 😌💅❤

warning: slight NSFW

THE BROTHERS reacting to MC watching porn

Lucifer:

Listen its kind of his fault for stumbling in but he will never admit that and ask what you're doing. Like dude what does it LOOK like I'm doing? Anyway chances are he'll tease you and you end up bend over your desk, taking all of his dick

Mammon:

Yeah so he'll freak out and demand what you were doing even though it's quite obvious. Calls you weird and sexually frustrated but in reality hes hurt that you didnt just come to him for sexy time

Leviathan:

PORN? who watches porn anymore?! No no hentai and R18 audios is where its at. Will tell you that too, completely ignoring the fact that he just stumbled in on you... Watching porn...

Satan:

A smirk would creep onto his lips as he closed the door behind him, carefully approaching you. He would tell you to continue watching and sit beside you, slowly running his hands over your skin in hopes you could reenact what you just saw

Asmodeus:

Why watch porn when you have the Avatar of Lust right here? He would approach you, pushing you onto your bed before kissing you, promising that whatever you saw, he could do it better.

Beelzebub:

He would honestly feel embarrassed that he caught you watching something so... Interesting and mumble a little apology. But not all is lost! You can convince him to stay with just a little kiss 😌

Belphegor:

A chuckle would escape his lips as he stood there, watching you. He could smell your arousal from watching the scene unfold and he was desperately fighting the urge to pull you flush against him. But dont worry, he will still do it.... After you finished.

[ao3gingerswag]

Witnessing violence has a huge impact of kids, often more so even than being physically abused themselves. I could see Dean and Cas starting to notice that with Sammy. He could draw scenes of Dean hurt or draw revenge against John. When he’s playing, he could act out things that are similar to real events, or play with themes of being able to save people, because he could never protect and save Dean.

When he’s playing with kids who come through the inn, he could try to talk them out of going to their parents if someone gets hurt, especially if their parents have had some ale.

He could also project his own feelings onto their animals. Luna doesn’t like sleeping alone. His cat hates it when people yell. When he’s talking with Pastor Murphy about the books he reads, it’s always through the lens of the world being unsafe, and people being violent just because they can be.

But he could also play out the positives too. He could be playing with another kid and the kid is pretending to be wounded in battle and Dean sees Sam kneeling down and saying “don’t worry, it’s going to be okay, it’s not too deep, you’ll be okay” (like how Dean remembered helping Sam in KYIS when he was getting glass out of Cas’s foot) and Dean can see that Sam only knows to play that way because that’s how Dean has talked to Sam.

-Ace

oh god why was i cursed with emotions. yes yes i so agree with u!! how much witnessing violence fucks kids up is a really big theme in my stories, bc i think it lowkey is a really big theme in canon dean and sam’s traumas. like the show makes it pretty clear that dean has always been the Protector and has bore the brunt of the abuse in their household, but. that fucked sam up so much. that survivor’s guilt baby!!! its fucking powerful!!!

so YES thats def gonna come up in Wander Home. oooomg i love all of these ideas!!! dean and cas watching sam play “pretend” of really really fucked up things, reenacting things that he’s witnessed, but like changing the endings so that he saves the person being fucked up or whatever (its always dean, really, even if in sam’s games it’s some random unknown figure). and both of them r like :/ bc they know whats going on but like have no idea what to do about it.

maybe sam starts doing that thing where the playing pretend starts to merge with compulsive lying- like, cas will see a horrible scar on dean’s body and be like oh my god! what the fuck happened! and sam jumps in before dean can say anything and ramble out some fantastical horrific story in which sam saved dean from some even worse fate than what happened in reality, and dean escaped with only that scar. (like a huge rabid dog broke into the inn! john threw dean towards it bc he didnt care about dean and wanted the dog to eat dean bc then it wouldnt be hungry for the rest of us! it almost got him but i stabbed it with my knife before it could eat him!! so now he only has that scar!!)

ugh maybe this happens with a scar on sam’s own body that he got in a really tragically mundane way, like john just hit him with something and it left a mark. but he again makes up some story about how he got it defending dean against the Bad Guys how he got hurt but managed to fend everyone off, and his scar is now a testament to his bravery. cause that’s what he WISHES happened. and he cant really process what actually did happen, and the guilt he feels about all of it. and like....he Knows he’s lying, ya know, but also he doesn’t, bc that’s what compulsive lying is, he’s not like “oh i’m gonna tell a lie now” but he’s also not like “hm yep that is 100% what actually happened.” he’s just like. not evaluating his own thought process at all.

and yes!! he def thinks all adults are scary and bad, so assumes that parents will hurt their own kids like his own hurt him. he def freaks the kids out sometimes- like generally he’s actually a nice kid who’s fun to be around, so kids play with him easily, but he’ll say horrifying offhand shit or take their pretend games in alarming directions or yeah like freak out when the kids want to go get their parents. so the can freak unabused kids out.

yess projecting emotions on to animals. ;~; goood luna doesnt like sleeping alone! my cat doesnt like it when you yell! hes so transparent but he doesnt realize it at all, and he gets really pissy on “the animal’s” defense. he’s like excuse me the chickens do NOT appreciate you being loud rn. meanwhile the chickens r not noticing at all.

and then ;~; he’s so fucked up and so transparent about it, dean and cas can see 100% thru him. and it worries both of them but it makes dean feel guilty, bc he thinks it means he didnt do a good job protecting sam. but then yes!! he sees sam playing pretend and showing kindness in exactly the same way dean always did, clearly mimicking him, and dean is like oh! oh. maybe i did have a positive impact ;~; <3