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meatriarch · 23 days ago

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i just think marias ability is always going to come across to me as such a wasted opportunity. they claim this strange connection to gramps but then that connection is ...? lackluster to hell when showcased in the way her ability / lore is presented. like youre telling me this guy saw his wife in her in some manner & chose to ?protect? her & help her out but all he does is show her where the family are? i feel if there was such an oddly strong bond of some kind that gramps made with maria ( or at least like, latched himself onto towards her idk ) then like.... showcase that?

could have made her ability be where when he sonars after she asmrs itll drop him down a lvl or two or w/e with a feeding cooldown every scream ( so for her x3 sonar route it'll actually Mean Something ). instead of yknow... her shitty one-time one-lvl decrease for her ability. like something that ACTUALLY combats blood builds..? considering how fucking fast they can get him back up anyways?

the ?scrapped? blood-bucket-healing perks... forever will be pissed they didnt let her keep this but WHY not let her be a team healer?? make it so when she gathers blood to heal herself / team, the buckets unusable for a cooldown. hell, same buckets she gathers from once ready has a one-time thing of "oh this blood has a negative affect & reduces gramps a lvl / he refuses it & the blood gathered is lost" or something. like idk man im salty as hell that Crimson Cocktail was scrapped for her.

& then if they wanted to make her a baby-co-tank then WHY does she have no actual fighter build. no part of her ability that grants her some sort of dmg shield in a sense that gramps maybe gives her?? this girl was canonically Tortured for the time she was there!! she is RESILIENT & STRONG in her own right!! physically & mentally!!!! she has an upper hand that the rest of the friends kinda dont which is she KNOWS the family / property!! why does she not have any sort of part of her ability or perks to actually showcase that?

i'd argue she'd know her way around the different traps, the different exit options, all of that shit. maria canonically should have some kind of better idea / basekit that shows shes been there for a while & SURVIVED ON HER OWN, outside of grandpas "help" in...whatever actual capacity that even was bc as it is rn? literally how tf did gramps do ANYTHING helpful when apparently all he does is sonar for her..?

sorry mini-rant over i just sincerely wish there was any actual shred of thought behind maria's ability / perks / story during her time at the house & how those experiences shape & manifest in game-mechanic sense that would ACTUALLY be remotely beneficial to bother using her ability at All.

#sowwy for the mini-rant i shush up now but -#this all just reminds me that i need to crawl back into that drafted run-down of Sweet Talk ( Renee's Version ) & get it finished #i just think there were many wasted potentials in where to take maria as a character w/ her abilities & perks & i need to remember #to sit down & finish my Fix of what i feel Sweet Talk manifests for my maria & her lore here like i did nancy & need to do for raph.

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spiffysixxsense · 4 years ago

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Hello annoying best friend here to fulfill my duty by asking you to answer all of the cute asks

angel; do you have a nickname?

not really. my name is already short and I don't have a prominent quality to nickname me after. The only person who refers to me as anything other than my name is my boyfriend, but I don't think “babe/baby” really counts as a nickname lol

awe; how old are you?

baby; favorite color?

dark teal (blue-green? I've never found a good name for my favorite color)

bloop; spirit animal?

so because I didn't have a good answer for this, I decided to google a quiz to find out, lol. My answer was a deer. here's why;

When you have the deer as spirit animal, you are highly sensitive and have a strong intuition. By affinity with this animal, you have the power to deal with challenges with grace. You master the art of being both determined and gentle in your approach.

The deer totem wisdom imparts those with a special connection with this animal with the ability to be vigilant, move quickly, and trust their instincts to get out the trickiest situations

blossom; favorite book/movie/song?

i don't really have a favorite book, i don't read much outside of school (I wish i did)

movie: A Beautiful Mind

song: oh dear lord i cannot pick just one, but all-time favorite band of mine is Shinedown

blush; what was your stuffed animal as a child?

a little stuffed dog that looked like Kipper from the TV show, I still have him :)

breeze; most precious childhood memory?

lmao what came to mind was when i pledged to never drink, smoke, or say bad words. two out of fucking three ain't bad i guess.

bright; mermaids or fairies?

(honestly neither but) fairies

bubbles; do you have a best friend?

given the asker, i would say yes :) also i am lame and my boyfriend is also my best friend

buttercup; showers or baths?

S H O W E R S. hate baths!

butterfly; dream destination?

I've never had a huge desire to travel honestly. like sure i could say Italy or Greece look beautiful, but the actual act of traveling overseas really stresses me out lol. so i would have to say more like upper midwest, like Maine, in the fall time for all the pretty trees.

buttons; are you religious or spiritual?

i am neither

calm; favorite scent?

anything fruity - pineapple, mango, berries, apples. at least in terms of what candles i like lol.

candlelight; what did you dream about last night?

i do not remember anything from last night - the last dream i remember involved my boyfriend, dad and i being lost up north lol

charming; have you ever been in love?

currently

cozy; eye/hair color?

hazel / brunette

cuddly; what’s your favorite time period?

the 1970′s for the fashion

cupcake; favorite flower/plant?

love me a good succulent

cute; what did you get on your last birthday?

well this last birthday was amidst quarantine, so I got some candles and granola (my boyfriend knows me well lol)

cutie pie; most precious item you own?

i have no idea? what an odd question? probably some stuffed animal?

cutsie; what makes you happy?

picnics, alone time, my boyfriend, my cat choosing to cuddle with me.

daisies; describe a moment when you felt free.

I really cant think of a time I've ever felt truly free. maybe when i drove myself to school earlier this year & didn't have to wait for someone to pick me up?

daydream; how do you want to be remembered?

as a light in others lives. happy, bubbly. things i currently am not

daylight; favorite album of all time?

gosh these dang music questions. well, Nickelback - All the Right Reasons was the first album i ever bought myself. then maybe Shinedown - The Sound of Madness (i cant pick one OKAY)

dear; zodiac sign?

Taurus

delightful; concerts or museums?

concerts

dimples; have you ever written a letter?

yes? this question makes me feel old, lol.

dobby; dream job?

criminologist. some way to be reducing the mass incarceration rate in the US.

doll; how do you like to dress?

comfy, v necks and leggings. As i have gotten older i have slowly wanted to be more feminine i think, because i really want some sundresses for summer lol

dovey; any paranormal/magical experiences?

one! when i was 12ish, i swear i saw a reflection of a uniformed man (like old school soldier uniform - blue blazer with gold cufflinks) behind me in the glass of my snakes tank at the time. it was weird because the only reason i even looked that way was because my snake started shaking his tail against the glass, something that corn snakes do when they are scared, but also something that in his entire life had never done unprompted ever.

dreams; do you want or have any tattoos?

want yes, have no

drizzle; do you believe in aliens?

100%. no way we are alone in this universe

euphoric; talk about someone you love.

he makes my days so much better :)

fairy; do you have a pet?

I have one little old kitty :)

fluffy; ocean or mountain?

to vacation, ocean. to live, mountain

forever; where do you feel time stop?

the secretary of state? lol

froglet; are you a good plant owner?

I've never owned a plant lol

garden; how many languages do you know?

one :(

gem; who are your favorite tumblrs?

@cy-ne-fin

giggles; what is your aesthetic of choice?

sepia photography/old books that have yellowed into sepia. or fresh greenery on white marble.

glittery; do you like anons? why/why not?

i don't really get any anymore, but as long as they are nice or just questions/venting, im down. don't be offended if i never answer though, for some reason i never get Tumblr notifications lol

glow; list the top 5 things you like about yourself

im compassionate

im empathetic (which is similar but im struggling to get to 5 lol)

im goal-oriented

im determined (once i have said goal. again, related lol)

i guess i like my lips/lip shape

heart; silk or lace?

lace

honey; coffee or tea? how do you take it?

tea. iced, black or green really, with sugar.

hugsy; do you enjoy people watching or bird watching more? why?

bird watching because it means i am probably alone and in nature as opposed to somewhere in a crowd of people. and i wont feel creepy for watching the birds lol

hunnybunch; what sounds help you sleep?

white noise, a fan running. if that's not enough, i enjoy asmr. if i am really struggling/having anxiety, i will look up sleep stories from the headspace app on youtube (life hack to not have to pay for the app lol)

jewel; what’s your favorite kind of weather?

to be outside, i enjoy just warm enough to be comfy in pants and a t-shirt (so like 65F-ish) and sunny.To be inside, i love when it is cooler (like 50F?) and raining. I love the look, sound, and smell of rain but it is usually just inconvenient to be in.

jiggly; what do you usually like to do on weekends?

well now all days are the same for me, #quarantine, so the same thing i do every day, just about nothing, lol

joy; do you laugh loudly or giggle more?

i guess laugh loudly because i am a loud person in general. i have a deep voice

kinky; do you blush easily?

i don't think so, my embarrassment turns into sweat, not blush, lmao

kisses; what romantic cliché do you wish for most?

i guess being proposed to someday? but i don't have a certain dream way of it happening, just the fact that its happening is enough for me lol. id enjoy if someone (cough Elle or also maybe Michael lol) were secretly filming and/or taking photos of it? I am not sure how you'd manage that though

kitty; what’s your favorite time of the day?

late at night when everything is quiet

ladybug; what’s your favorite artist to listen to when you’re sad?

old school three days grace (one-x album in particular)

love; what is your favorite season and why?

i always gravitate to fall for the leaves and pumpkin patches. but honestly, i think my favorite season is spring. i love the newly budding trees and flowers, the feeling of renewal, the release from the horrible Michigan winter lol, but most importantly, spring time for my whole life as of yet has always meant that school is over for the semester! as opposed to the fall when the semester starts. this is very long winded but spring final answer lol

lovey; what is your favorite flavor of macaron and ice cream?

I've never had a macaron and blue moon ice cream

magic; what are five flaws you have?

ooooo boy

im short tempered/angry too much

im unmotivated (which is confusing maybe because i said i am determined earlier. you see, once i HAVE a goal i feel determined to finish it. but i am unmotivated to create said goals, lol)

im nonconfrontational to a fault where i always put others’ feelings before my own

i let fear of change stop me from ever taking risks/ am anxious

i am stubborn and sometimes have a hard time admitting i am wrong

moonlight; do you prefer soft pastels, warm neutrals, or cool darks?

this depends - screw pastels. warm neutrals for makeup purposes, but cool darks for aesthetic or decor purposes

munchkin; what do you look for in your significant other?

someone who feels like home. I am not entirely sure how else to explain that. you just feel peace and content with them.

paddywack; how would you describe a perfect date?

something that allows you to only be with your date - so like a picnic or hike or just a walk even. my boyfriend and i liked to walk around in the fall for me to take pictures of leaves while he played pokemon go (man i miss the pokemon go summer and i have never even PLAYED it, it was just so fun to be with him while he played)

pebbles; how do you spend free time by yourself?

on youtube usually

precious; what is something valuable that you learned in your life?

The blood of the covenant is thicker than the water of the womb. if your family is toxic for whatever reason, you do not owe them your time strictly because they are family.

pretty; do you like to cook or bake more?

cook, im not super into sweets & i want to enjoy the final product

prince; how would you describe your handwriting?

normal? like its legible but its not pretty or cute

princess; do you play any instruments? if not, are there any you wish you could play?

no:( wish i could play bass or drums

prinky; how do you relieve stress?

i don't :)

i really don't have an answer other than solving whatever is stressing me out, lol. i wish i had more mechanisms to calm me down but nothing i have tried has ever really worked

pumpkin; what is your favourite kind of fruit/vegetable?

you know these favorites questions are hard for me lol. right now, i am loving watermelon, but i also love most fruits. kiwis! vegetable, i feel like i have to say potato lol

rainbow; what was the last line of the last book you read?

lol the last thing i read had to be some academic text, so that's boring

roses; what is the most significant event in your life so far?

meeting Alex i guess, it changes my whole life path to have someone you want to do life with

smile; what is one thing that has greatly affected you?

quarantine? lol

shine; art or music?

music is art.

shimmer; do animals tend to like you?

i think so. Elle’s dog griffin loves me for some reason lol

smitten; do you collect anything?

not really

smoochies; how many pillows do you sleep with?

snuggle; what is your favourite candy?

jolly ranchers

snuggly; do you have a camera? if so, what kind?

nope

sparkle; do you wear jewelry?

nope

spooky; sunrise or sunset?

sunset

sprinkles; do you like to listen to music with headphones or no headphones?

headphones

starlight; what was your favourite show as a child?

Spongebob probably. unless we are talking like really tiny, toddler age, then Winnie the pooh

soft; describe your favourite spot in your house.

i live in a 2 bedroom apartment, there arent any spots. lol. my bed i guess

soothe; digital or vinyl?

i mean digital for convenience but vinyl for aesthetic

squeezed; who do you miss right now?

i mean the only person i really actively miss ever is Alex. @cy-ne-fin sometimes, but i have also grown used to living away from each other

sugary; what traits do you value most in friends?

loyalty, honesty, & humor

sunshine; do you prefer for things to be practical or aesthetically pleasing?

if i must pick, practical.

sweet; do you find it easy to open up?

absolutely not. i feel like a burden with my feelings even though i shouldn't

sweetie; do you like kids? if so, do you ever want to have any?

honestly not really. am on the fence still about ever having any

thimble; is there somebody you look up to? who are they?

not really

toot; what is something you find unique about yourself?

i am as average as they come man, nothing is unique about me lol

tootsie; what kind of friend are you?

like a background friend? like i am not very social, so we do not have to talk every day to be friends. so like im here if you need me, but i enjoy alone time.

treasure; what was something that made you smile today?

the way my boyfriend looks at me, & as i was working on this my cat came to cuddle, which i gave as an answer earlier before he jumped up here :)

velvet; are you an early bird or a night owl?

night owlllllll

whiffle; if you could have a magical power, what would it be?

the power to heal those who are hurting (including myself)

whimsical; do you prefer doing stuff at home or going out?

home home home home

whiskers; do you usually wear makeup?

not anymore, i did in high school/early college years. not I've stopped caring

wiggly; are you a messy or tidy person?

messy? kinda in the middle really.

wispy; do you like the place where you grew up? do you think you will live there when you get older?

my state, sure. my city in particular is definitely pretty boring

wobbly; have you ever wished upon a star?

I've never seen one :(

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mastcomm · 5 years ago

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Fran Drescher, Millennial Whisperer – The New York Times

Fran Drescher’s voice, if you ever have the chance to hear it deployed in very close vicinity over shrimp tempura and spicy tuna sushi, is actually quite soothing.

When Drescher played Fran Fine on “The Nanny,” the 1990s sitcom she created with her then-husband Peter Marc Jacobson, she was pitching her voice higher, squeezing it up her nose, acting. Back then, The New York Times compared Drescher to “the sound of a Buick with an empty gas tank cold-cranking on a winter morning.” But here in her living room above Central Park, sitting among crystals, fresh lemons, fine sculpture and photographs of herself meeting establishment Democrats, she sounds more like a Mercedes purring out of the Long Island Expressway. For those who grew up with “The Nanny” as our nanny, her voice is so embedded in the subconscious that hearing the softened version is almost therapeutic. Imagine if Nanny Fine had an ASMR setting.

“I’ve heard it’s like a foghorn, a cackle,” Drescher said carefully, balancing her plate in the lap of her little black dress. “I always just describe myself as having a unique voice.” When she left Queens for Hollywood in the late 1970s, her manager told her, “If you want to play other parts, besides hookers, you’re going to have to learn to speak differently,” she recalled. Instead Drescher leaned into her natural gifts. In 1992, she pitched herself as a sitcom star to the president of CBS: “Because of the voice, they think I’m the seasoning in the show,” she told him. “That’s wrong. I’m a main course.”

America has not heard from Drescher much lately — she has not appeared regularly on television since her TV Land sitcom “Happily Divorced” ended in 2013, and “The Nanny” is sadly hard to stream — but this week, at 62, she returns to TV with NBC’s “Indebted.” As in the pilot of “The Nanny,” Drescher appears unexpectedly on a doorstep, except this time, it belongs to her adult son (Adam Pally). She and Steven Weber play Debbie and Stew Klein, a couple of boomer dilettantes who crash their kid’s married life with the news that they’re in debt. The role of Debbie, a boundaryless hugger who swans around her son’s suburban home as if it’s her own personal retirement community, inverts the “Nanny” dynamic: Now the kids have to take care of her.

When Drescher weighed whether to take on the show, a family sitcom that draws on generational conflict, she thought of her own family. “My parents, who are still alive, thank God, were so excited about me being on network television again,” she said. “You know, not everybody could find TV Land,” she added, “but everybody could find NBC.”

The role was not written for Drescher, exactly. The pilot script had called for a “Fran Drescher type,” and when the real Fran Drescher signed on, she required a few adjustments. “People are used to seeing an annoying mother-in-law in a sitcom, but that’s not what I signed up for,” Drescher said. “When you have somebody whose persona is bigger than the part, you got to make it right for me. Or why have me?”

That meant giving Debbie Klein some passions of her own. “I had to bring myself into it,” she said. “I really infused the sex appeal, the sensuality, the vivaciousness of the character.”

“Indebted” creator Dan Levy, a comedian and producer for “The Goldbergs,” said that he originally modeled Debbie and Stew after his own parents, but that the steaminess was all Drescher. “My mom was like, ‘That’s not based on us,’” Levy said. “She elevated that to a whole level that I was not expecting.”

In the decades since Drescher first opened her mouth onscreen, the Fran Drescher type has achieved a quiet dominance over popular culture. “The Nanny” has been syndicated around the world and remade in a dozen countries, including Turkey (where it was called “Dadi”), Poland (“Niania”) and Argentina (“La Niñera”). In “The Nanny,” for anyone who doesn’t have the chatty theme song implanted in her brain, Drescher plays a Jewish woman from Queens hired to tend to the three precocious children of a wealthy English widower, Maxwell Sheffield, who is also Broadway’s second-most-successful producer (after his nemesis, Andrew Lloyd Webber). In foreign versions, the ethnicities are recalibrated — in the Russian one, the nanny is Ukrainian — but the Fran Drescher type is otherwise preserved. Wherever she goes, the ethnic striver is transplanted into a posh setting as the help, and her appealing culture and individual charm pull off the ultimate makeover — reinventing the strait-laced insiders in her own brash image.

Across the internet, Fran Fine is helping to perform similar tricks. With her pile of hair, power-clashing wardrobe and cartoon proportions, she has been fashioned into an avatar of stylish self-respect. In GIFs spirited around social media, she can be seen in a cheetah-print skirt suit, sipping from a cheetah-print teacup; inhaling a plate of spaghetti with no hands; and descending the Sheffields’ ivory staircase as if entering New York’s hottest club.

“I send this when I’m excited,” Drescher said, summoning her phone from her assistant Jordan and thumbing to a GIF of Fine twirling across the mansion in a fuchsia dress and a self-satisfied look. “How many people can send their own GIF?”

The Fran Drescher type is a kind of advisory role. First she was the world’s nanny, showing kids how to mix prints and be themselves, and now she has matured into a cool-aunt persona, modeling a fabulous adulthood. (“Broad City” made this transformation literal, squeezing Drescher into a low cut rainbow and cheetah-print dress and casting her as Ilana’s Aunt Bev, and by extension the spirit guide for a new generation of Jewish comediennes.) “I’ve never had kids, so I’m not really parental,” Drescher said. “I’m a mom to my dogs.”

“I’m kind of an influencer,” she added. Drescher has led an unconventional life, and “I share it,” she said. “It gives my life purpose.” In two memoirs, she has discussed being raped at gunpoint in her 20s, surviving uterine cancer in her 40s, and divorcing Jacobson only to acquire a new gay best friend when he subsequently came out. Recently she thrilled the internet when she revealed that she has secured a “friend with benefits” whom she meets twice a month for television viewing and sex. “I don’t think it’s that shocking a thing,” Drescher said. “I’m not in love with him.”

The kids who grew up watching “The Nanny” are now Nanny Fine’s age, old enough to properly covet her closet and cultivate a newfound respect for her persona. On Instagram, the @whatfranwore account catalogs classic “Nanny” outfits, and @thenannyart pairs them with contemporary art pieces. Cardi B once captioned a photo of herself in head-to-toe cat prints: “Fran Drescher in @dolceandgabbana.” The actor Isabelle Owens will mount a one-woman song-and-dance show dedicated to Drescher in New York this month, called “Fran Drescher, Please Adopt Me!” “As everything from the ’90s comes back, people are rediscovering her,” Owens said, noting Drescher’s fashion, her confidence, and her voice; Owens is still working to perfect her impersonation. “There are so many layers to it,” she said. “It’s so delicate and lyrical.”

The Fran Drescher type, no matter how big it gets, still risks reducing the woman behind it. “All of her is in me, but not all of me is in her,” Drescher said. “I don’t think any of my characters could have ever created and executive-produced ‘The Nanny.’” Fran Fine might have been able to wrap the boss around her red-lacquered little finger, but Drescher is the boss. When she secured her own New York apartment, in 2004, it was here, just across the park from the house that stood in for the Sheffield mansion on “The Nanny.” Soon her transformation into Mr. Sheffield will be complete: She is developing a Broadway show of her own, a musical adaptation of “The Nanny” that she will co-write with Jacobson.

“The Nanny” is a timely bid for Broadway. Drescher takes the stage’s most classic feminine archetype and gives her a modern upgrade: She is Eliza Doolittle if she refused to take her voice lessons.

That’s perhaps the biggest misconception about the Fran Drescher type — that the voice is an unfortunate obstacle, rather than a cultivated asset. Once, a fan asked Drescher about the classic “Nanny” scene where Fran Fine goes for sushi, naïvely swallows a wad of wasabi, and says, in an eerily neutral broadcaster’s voice, “Gee, you know, that mustard really clears out the nasal passages.” The fan wanted to know how Drescher had managed to pull that voice off. Sitting in her parkside apartment, perched in her producer’s chair, confidently apportioning her wasabi, Drescher revealed her secret: “I’m very talented.”

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hcafarp · 4 years ago

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TBOYD - Simple or complex?

That is the question . . . .

It will be possible to read 'The Benefit of Your Doubt' on different levels which I need to unpick to find my way forward.

How many levels of engagement does this, or any piece need?

Option One - open engagement - not led by a linear intention

At a purely sensory level, this is an immersive installation that visitors can respond to emotionally. In a darkened room, a sizeable tank-like structure emits a soft light from its open top. Gentle lapping and dripping sounds fill the space. Beyond this, pin-pointed from different directions, can be heard indistinct whisperings in various languages. These drop in and out of the overall sound-scape blending and merging with the sound of the water. Approaching and looking over the side into the tank, the visitor sees gently moving water at the bottom, which appears to be slowly rising and falling back.

The immersive environment created is, at the same time, soothingly womb-like yet discomfiting and disconcerting.

Whispering compels listening. We become quiet and focus on whispering because of profoundly ingrained survival instincts, as talking loudly with predators in the vicinity would be dangerous. Consequently, we devote more mental energy to listening to whispering. However, whispering also connotes intimacy in various ways. It forms part of our first sensory experience as babies and develops further in life as a widely used bonding mechanism, from the bandying of gossip and secrets to the 'sweet nothings' exchanged between lovers, whispering triggers the right hemisphere of the brain, the so-called emotional, intuitive side. It also triggers our Autonomous Sensory Meridian Response (ASMR) - the tingling (paresthesia) and psychophysiological response to rewarding auditory stimuli and the release of serotonin, oxytocin, and other similar stress-reducing substances.

The incomprehensibility of the content is intentional and relevant. Comprehension is not necessary; it is precisely this that creates the intended effect - a sense of dissonance, disassociation and disability, to hear a fellow human speaking but not know what is being said. That these voices are from across the globe is highly significant. That they are whispering is meaningful.

With no information regarding artist intention, no content or context and with little, if any, sense of meaning gleaned from the whispering, how might the visitor begin to read or understand this piece?

The title, "The Benefit Of Your Doubt" gives an entry point. It is was developed from 'giving the benefit of the doubt', an aphorism used as a concession when a statement or person might be believed as accurate, but veracity cannot be proven.

Can the piece, therefore, be assumed to be about truth, trust or fake news?

The only other information available would be the accompanying artist statement:

"We rarely question conventions, received wisdom or examine our unconscious beliefs and biases.

Through my work, I attempt to establish conjecture, creating thoughtscapes with the materials, experiences and titles I present.

I explore existential identity: mine, yours, theirs and ours through conceptual text, video and relational installations."

In theory, the piece as described above, with its title, and this statement should be enough for cognitive engagement, a search for meaning and interpretation to begin. Observations/interpretations might include:

truth, honesty, trust: an exploration of a post-truth world

racism - questioning our ability to understand people from different cultures and backgrounds

environmental: rising sea levels that will displace people in many countries

neo-liberalism - globalisation, the reach of capitalism

birth and rebirth, baptism

issues surrounding LGBTQ

issues surrounding disability, accessibility and inclusion

issues surrounding human trafficking

. . . to mention but a few.

The installation realised at this aesthetic level only requires recordings in a variety of languages, the content of the whispering not being significant, and these can easily be appropriated from YouTube.

Option One will create an impactful piece that offers visitors extensive opportunities for interpretation with minimal control and direction coming through any conspicuous artist intention. This resonates with my statement - Through my work, I attempt to establish conjecture, creating thoughtscapes with the materials, experiences and titles I present.

Option Two - complex and directed interpretation

In this option, the 'whispering' recordings do have content. The piece being the same in all other respects.

I wrote an abstracted prose/poem as a response to the Post Truth era brought lately under particular scrutiny by the Dominic Cummings fiasco. Initially, the idea for the work arose from the phrase 'the naked truth' and a saying attributed to Democritus, "Of truth, we know nothing, for truth is in a well", which was interpreted in Jean-Léon Gérôme's 1896 painting The Truth Comes Out Of The Well To Shame Mankind. I used as 'plot' the Roman fable of The Truth and Falsehood and wrote a monologue as if spoken by Falsehood.

The various recorded whispered performances would involve collaboration with participants from around the world, translating from English and reading/whispering my pre-prepared script in their first language in situ in their home countries.

I sent a draft of this writing to Sarah Jane Crowson however, with no contextual information and no indication of references behind the prose poem. It was eye-opening and fascinating to receive her three readings.

"I read this as having three key meanings.

One is a straightforward narrative – the protagonist goes bathing with a lover/partner/sibling and, in the manner of a dark Shakespearean comedy they swap clothes/identities and our protagonist steals the others' identity, abandoning them naked in the bathing place.

This narrative reading references Shakespeare's comedies, gender-bending, the ideas of clothes as cultural signifiers, reinforces the idea of nakedness as something which is culturally unacceptable, and hints at ideas of dualism in the good/bad twin, which evokes both modernist/classical philosophies and some folk myths (but generally re-told folk myths rather than the aural tradition).

In a second reading, the poet is writing about their psychological state and the piece is a presenting ideas of 'awakening' and 'knowledge' as a construct which causes the narrator to split psychologically (personified by the idea of the protagonist and their twin/lover). The poem explores of ideas of personal growth through the metaphor of an abandonment of an earlier self that is in some ways simple and innocent being left behind by the (potentially sold out to contemporary society and neo-liberal ideas) less virtuous and innocent self. There is a sense in 'looking so fine' that the message in this reading is that appearances can not only be deceiving but also treacherous, a 'sell-out'.

In the third reading the poem works on a meta-level, and is interrogating/critically examining ideas of the contemporary creative process. In this, it plays with the notion of 'authenticity' in creative practice, presenting the idea of the creative piece (including this poem) as a complex simulacrum of reality.

In this reading, the narrator/s are personifications of different ideas of what makes effective creative practice. This is explored through narrative as the poem discusses ideas of self and representation (through referencing ideas of clothing, nakedness, classical 'virtues' and corruption).

The piece shows frustration as the artist/creative becomes aware that they are stuck in a Mobius loop of their own invention, as they are dependent on a context with a specific value-system and understanding of cultural capital which requires them to strive for authenticity whilst being equally aware that the construct of the 'authentic' is ambiguous and relativistic – and what is a personal 'authenticity' would also often be considered uncritical and naïve (naked) within the world's cultural context."

Without distinct contextual support, Sarah's readings bear little resemblance to the 'critical, creative investigation' she later describes the source of my ideas for the piece to be.

Sarah's critique has brought me to a critical juncture both with this piece and my broader practice. I wrote a little on 'intention' in an early essay: https://hcafarp.tumblr.com/post/612217544979496960/art-acts-intentional-honesty

In the blog, I wrote: "The word 'intention' does indicate thought processes that would occur early on the evolutionary timeline of an artwork. Yet, as is the case for many artists, the primary intention is to make art: what that art speaks of and what it might be about is for others to say."

Option Two adds a considerable layer of artist intention and would be a pointless undertaking unless this process is disclosed as part of the contextualisation of the work.

As mentioned, I have since supplied her with context, and she replied, "I LOVE the parable/story/myth you're using to underpin this, and doesn't it just go to show how far myth/folktale/narrative has such great legs when it comes to interpreting it in terms of our own contemporary contexts/understandings. Good to see a critical creative investigation of fake news too. Feeds into all kinds of things, including the complex algorithm and uncritical social media."

To realise Option Two, however, would require a discernable English rendition of the whispering to signal that the whisperings in other languages has the same content. It would also require written contextualisation - an explanation of the process.

This, unfortunately, conflicts with the intended effect of the incomprehensible whispering representing hidden truth.

Also, my experience in realising 'Unremebering' (a previous audio/visual piece utilising ASMR) as an art installation was that nobody in the room actually fathomed meaning from the whisperings despite the English language version being included. Feedback suggested they would like to have accessed written text.

My uncertainty is not about the underpinning - after all, without the research and its various routes offering inspiration, the whole installation would not have evolved. The question is: will revealing further information unduly influence interpretation, and will this detract from the sensorial and aesthetic impact of the piece?

If my research and development and subsequent linear intention are made public, will it impinge upon or enhance the agency and freedom of visitors to arrive at their own interpretations?

The whisperings are intended to only be discerned as being in a different language - to hear somebody is speaking but not understand what they say. Does it not then defeat the object of the piece to disclose what they have all said?

When Mark Houghton cast in bronze a love letter from his grandfather to his grandmother that was patinated in off-white to look like the original envelope, he did not disclose background information. He presented the piece, detailed the materials used and offered its title "Testament." From these three simple elements emerged an intricate and profoundly meaningful artwork. He created a piece that resonated with meaning without any of the above explanation. This information was later disclosed to me, adding poignancy to and empathy with his artistic response but possibly impeded the personal resonance I had previously experienced with the piece - ownership of the work remained with the artist.

I could exhibit Option Two with supplementary information in the form of gallery text or in book form, thus offering an optional level of engagement. Or, I could provide no further details in the gallery but include additional material on my website.

But why? What does this achieve? Is the piece in its pure form not sufficient? The linear intention is available to the visitor, without supplementary material, as one among many other possible interpretations. In her email reply, Sarah asserts, "Good to see a critical, creative investigation of fake news", but is a critical, creative investigation a fundamental, crucial or indispensable component of the piece? The research is still there, underlying and underpinning the installation, but is it integral or ancillary.

It is my creative choice to include that research as an integral part of the work or separate it out as an interesting adjunct.

For the purposes of my degree, the critical investigation is desirable. Undeniably, my ego would also be massaged by the recognition that the piece was predicated upon a thoroughly academic approach. The question becomes: does a displayed 'how clever I am' entangle, ambuscade, narrow or detract from the piece and restrict access to independently reached meaningful engagement?

Does it add value or detract?

I think it might be useful to explore how the piece ‘plays out’ and how this aligns with my objectives for this artwork and how I hope visitors might come to understand by it.

it is immersive

it is atmospheric

it is performative

it evokes responses at an emotional level

it perplexes and disconcerts eliciting cognitive engagement

conclusions are reached

Who is my audience at this juncture? Is this how I would wish them to engage with me? Do I want to narrow down audience to an academic or au fait Fine Art audience? If anything narrowing down the scope for interpretation by offering 'explanation' and further information is counter-intuitive to a Fine Art audience?

As well as visitors interested in the arts yet having no connection to the college, my audience will predominantly consist of past and present students, tutors and staff, their friends and family, and also include artists and curators from outside institutions. A mixed audience with varying degrees of 'art appreciation'.

Simple or complex - that is the question?

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onisionquotes · 7 years ago

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YouTube Is Shutting Down My Channel (Slowly)

What goes into YouTube deciding who lives and who dies on this site? First off, an argument that people might make is that I don't make as high of quality content as I use to. Which is untrue, because I make lots of videos and may of them are awesome. So that doesn't quite fit. My content has been consistent for the longest time. Another argument is that people get bored of the same repetitious content. Firstly, I have some of the least repetitious content, especially on the Onision Channel. But even so you can bring up Happy Wheels number four-hundred-and-fifty-two-thousand on whoevers channel and that can get a million views per video. You know? So repetition isn't necessarily a bad thing on YouTube. You could bring up controversy. You could say that suddenly I'm irrelevant because of controversy. But I've had countless incidents of controversy through out many-many years. There are a number of things that you can say are the reason my channels are no longer doing well. Like for instance on UhOhBro, where you could say well your transferring a lot of videos that some people have already seen to that channel. The problem with that theory - Onision Archive did quite well when those where transferring videos from one channel to another and then that channel plummeted as well. Onision Archive, Onision Encore, UhOhBro, Onision Speaks, Onision - all of those channels have tanked. But why now? Why are all those channels suddenly falling apart for the last few months; coincidentally right around when the adpocalypse hit. It's very confusing to see an entire network of channels go down inexplicably. When your content is consistent. When you consistently upload. You haven't reduced the quality. What is the explanation for the death of Onision? On top of that, whats really sad is the death of my channel has also effected my spouses channel. They use to pull in a hundred-thousand views per video. A video they just uploaded just over a day ago has fourteen-thousand views. (ASMR Video). Typically by now they would of had at least eighty-thousand views. So, it's not only seeing the death of my own channel but I'm also seeing the death of people I care about channels. So this is a problem and sadly this is cancerous because the source of most of my traffic for all of my social media was YouTube. So if my YouTube dies - then all of my social media starts to die as well. Now lets ask a question about this sub-glitch, because there is a sub-glitch. If you go to socialblade.com and you type on Onision, or UhOhBro, or Onision Speaks, you'll see that I've been losing hundreds of subscribers daily. Actually thousands if you combine all of them. Daily for no reason. Why would I consistently lose subscribers day after day after day regardless of the content I make unless there was some kind of glitch in the system. Now you might say, Onision - you're just making excuses. That this is all BS to convince yourself that you don't suck. Problem, I talked to YouTube and they both confirm and deny, depending on the person who I was talking to, that their was a sub-glitch. And I talked to other and they confirmed the same thing. That there is a sub-glitch and they've talked to YouTube and they had also confirmed and denied a sub-glitch. Like for instance, a while ago I contacted YouTube about paid channels - Whether or not they are being cancelled and YouTube couldn't give a strait answer until they finally said "uh, we don't think it's gonna happen. We don't think paid YouTube channels are going to get cancelled.' And then they announced that paid channels where going to be cancelled. YouTube doesn't seem to know what it's doing and they don't seem to have their story straight. But one thing we can rely on is common sense. If a YouTube channel or channels have done well for about nine years, like mine did. Consistent and beautiful growth. I would get thirty to seventy-thousand subscribers a month. If they did that consistently and then all of a sudden adpocalypse hits and then suddenly the channels start to die - that seems like an algorithm problem, doesn't it? So YouTube is picking people to kill. People that have invested their entire lifes into YouTube. They are with out notice, without compensation, without anything - ending. Firing without justification essentially. Which is convenient because we are not technically employees, we operate through 10-99's. We're contractors so they're allowed to screw us like this. But I just think it's interesting that I can pour my heart into a video these days and where I use to be able to expect a potential of five-hundred-thousand views, I can now expect a potential of maybe twenty-thousand if I'm lucky. What is that? How come YouTube is preventing people from staying subscribed to me. How come I get so many reports of people that have been automatically unsubscribed from me? How come the system is so rigged? I don't understand it. And I've seen many other YouTubers struggle for a long time. Inexplicably, especially LGBT channels. There is a select few LGBT channels that thrive and the rest - it's like they've been picked off one by one. It's kind of like the token black kid on South Park. 'See, we have a black person - we're not racist.' So YouTube is like 'See, we have a LGBT person, we're not homophobic.' It's an interesting strategy. Regardless their is something very-very wrong with YouTube. It's very-very broken. There are people that are thriving beautifully. Who are making millions upon millions of dollars because YouTube has deemed them appropriate for you to watch. It's interesting, it really is. It's interesting to see you're whole life ripped away from you because of a personal opinion that a few employees may have. Regardless, I have to make a living. Obviously. Right now I'm making enough to survive. I have pending debt but I'm remortgaging my house so I can take care of that debt and then be in debt for the next thirty years like the typical American. But I want you guys to know that if you want to make sure that you're not forced to unsubscribe. That you… To follow me on social media or something like that so you can actually keep up with me. Or if you want to see me continue to make videos successfully - patreon.com/onison. That seems to be the only site right now that isn't sucking, to put it politely. Thank you so much to everyone that has supported me all this time although I know many of you will never see this video. Many of my supports. Because YouTube doesn't show it to you. Doesn't notify you in many cases. You're probably already unsubscribed and you don't even know I'm struggling right now because YouTube has made sure that I've been silenced. It's very interesting. Alright, Thank you for watching. Now to all the haters - I hope you're enjoying my downward spiral.

#onision #I got this from The Forums again #thank you based transcript annon

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mastcomm · 5 years ago

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Fran Drescher, Millennial Whisperer – The New York Times

Fran Drescher’s voice, if you ever have the chance to hear it deployed in very close vicinity over shrimp tempura and spicy tuna sushi, is actually quite soothing.

That meant giving Debbie Klein some passions of her own. “I had to bring myself into it,” she said. “I really infused the sex appeal, the sensuality, the vivaciousness of the character.”

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