#realitycheck what or serves me and what or whom doesn't - come to terms with any unresolved sentiments and learn to counteract them/move on | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

lunasilvis · 2 years ago

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My head, heart, being feel too much of a mess for now to say a reasonable thing. But I haven't privately journalled in my notebook so much in so so long. This trip has been so important to undertake. Place things into perspective, see it as it is. Running into old feelings and crying like a toddler about those, not expecting them to swoop along. Idk. Idk what I must do now next. But I clearly can detect some of my own roadblocks now and I feel driven to break the strain and unlearn certain patterns or have a good reality-check.

#i'm still in moments of sudden tears outburts: happy grieving sad serotonin tears #it'll take a while to straighten out my head and communicate to you about it - i feel it is not fair otherwise #anyway i feel the intense urge to finish my college - get a job + good income - create my desired life - and take us wherever we want to be #i feel i have been in a slumber a bit and i need to manifest all the things i dream about #get that toyota land cruiser : take you to joshua tree + westcoast : learn the guitar : save for a house / appartment : get a stable income #realitycheck what or serves me and what or whom doesn't - come to terms with any unresolved sentiments and learn to counteract them/move on #- or evolve them if they have the space to be here #anyways... something has struck a nerve with me after this week. and it's a good thing - underneath the instant emotional niagara falls lol

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