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so... i did something

wind breaker chapter 147

[noahsenpai]

GUESS WHO JUST FUCKING GRADUATED AHHH AJSHSJDHEJHSJSJS

@orang3lover went up to the mic and yelled “pussy” after she got her diploma lmaoooo

[lynne-monstr]

I'm so emotional!!! Magnus getting his magic back in that particular way! BECAUSE IT LOVES HIM BACK, because it comes back to him just so, because of MAGNUS. And not because of Asmodeus or anything to do with his father. Just because of who Magnus is and that this magic belongs to him, to his whole being, and cannot be forced away from him! That way he treasures and nurtures the feeling of its presence as it returns!! His eyes coming back to him! Oh I loved that fic so much! SO much!

omggg thank you that is such a sweet message to wake up to!!

and yess even on magnus’ lowest days (when he curses being a warlock and the pain it’s brought him and knowing it will never ever end) he could never hate the magic. it curls up inside him, a constant companion and protector, there for him on the good days and the bad. he loves it and he nurtures it and he’s so fascinated by how whenever he thinks he knows all there is to know about it, he’s always proven wrong.

and in true magnus fashion, he doesn’t realize that all the care and devotion he pays is returned in kind. magnus would go to war for the people he loves, is it any surprise they’d do the impossible for him too :D

(also, imagine the elated, soft smile on alec’s face when he sees magnus’ eyes back!)

[agron-rps]

just finished you and w o  w what a wild ride that was.

if you haven’t watched any of you, please don’t read below the cut. i’m not going to post play by play spoilers, but if you’ve seen any of the show leading up to the final two episodes, you might be able to guess the ending based on the tone of my rambings.

i am horrified. i am disturbed. i am sickened. i am at a loss.

i knew everything that was going to happen in the finale and yet i still sat there shaking my head and holding my breath hoping and praying for a different ending that never came. i was on edge the whole last eight or so minutes of “candace” and even now having finally finished “bluebeard’s castle” i still am. because this was a lifetime series led by the same people that created riverdale, i had low expectations but i was hooked by episode 2. the writing, the plot as a whole at the end and holes in the plot (like why did no one question where benji was the whole time, did anyone look into what happened to the other you know who in the finale, or why beck didn’t do what we all would have done in that situation if given the chance -- if you watched, you’ll know what i mean) /questions that the final minute of the finale raised wasn’t the best (like seriously... how??? would??? he??? not??? know??? or??? be??? surprised??? the way the line was phrased didn’t make sense to me unless it’s just joe being joe and the lines between reality and fantasy are blurred again), were annoying for all their various reasons but FUCK did penn and elizabeth actually blow me away in those 47 minutes. her entire performance in the finale was captivating for me, as was his (i got used to him and his creep factor throughout the show so wasn’t really expecting more but he brought it, fam. especially the last couple minutes that were a direct callback to the first minutes of the pilot - fucking CHILLS and it made my stomach turn.) because besides episode 4 we never really got a real taste of beck and who she really was of a person. we were only seeing what joe wanted to see in her up until the bitter end of season 1. we only saw his rose colored glasses with green and red tints version of her. the one that just showed and voiced his obsession with her beauty, body, and the “perfect” nature he imagined. it showed her having no real humanity or any real substantial emotion other than love towards him. i wish we could have seen more of her personality, not sexuality, throughout the series. learned more about her past. heard more of her stories and poems and explored her creativity. instead she ended up being this bland archetype and i think that’s why a bunch of people didn’t really connect with her. and with that being said, it’s funny how out of their way the writers went to make joe relatable.

i understand he’s the main character and that the story is ultimately about him. i understand they want you to see the persona he puts on v. the REAL joe that is kept behind closed doors or in the woods or dark alleys. i understand they want to emphasize that this could have been anyone. even the seemingly nice and introverted guy that works at a bookstore. and that’s fucking terrifying. but still. they gave us so many moments for us to laugh during his internal monologues/voice overs (they need to give dexter major props for that idea) or for us to try and fawn over him and root for him in moments where he’s being “sweet” or “romantic” towards beck and claims everything he does is out of pure love. they gave us moments where we could say he was a giant fucking MOOD when he was around benji or peach or had to run. they even gave us moments where they tried to make us sympathize with him and show that he’s human and went through some shit. 

but beck really didn’t get any of that, did she? funny how that happens, isn’t it? women characters being overlooked for their male counterparts and only being used for a plot device. also that HARDCORE VICTIM BLAMING FROM PEOPLE WHO’VE WATCHED THO. it’s honesty amazing that someone would blame beck for being stalked and manipulated because she was confident in her sexuality/”used” joe and then say she’s unlikabe and they don’t really care about what happened because she seems “shallow” and “self centered” it’s mind boggling.

 i’m not even going to say anything about her annika, lynn or especially peach because... the first two were literally irrelevant, poorly written (though i imagine because of joe’s warped and unreliable perception of them) and served basically next to nothing for the story except annika once for 2 seconds and i just don’t have anything to say about peach fucking salinger. a rant comparing her to joe and how she was made out to be just as manipulative and predatory is for another day because was that really what peach was like? or was joe so threatened by her that it was mostly if not all a facade that made us turn against her to make him look better? is that what happened with benji too? we honestly don’t know because joe can’t be trusted as a narrator due to his behavior and obvious bias (which is why he claims both were a problem in beck’s life so things must have been done about that) so you have to question everything. i now question everything.

also, my most spoiler-y moment for last because I’M UPSET: 

PACO WHY DID YOU DO THAT. I TRUSTED YOU. I WAS ROOTING FOR YOU. WE WERE ALL ROOTING FOR YOU. that was SUCH a fucking betrayal and i took it personally. as if the rest of the episode wasn’t already hard to watch (and maybe that’s because i watch a lot of true life crime documentaries/series and like i said before, joe could literally be anyone and so could his/her victims) that moment with him just left me speechless and I felt helpless. i need paco to fucking explain himself and apologize to me and women everywhere.

that’s it. goodnight.

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okay i remember seeing a post on here that mentioned this but thanks to said post this fucking panel of suo has not left my mind for the past few days and will probably not be leaving it for the next month or so

suo in this chapter >>>

literally me (im so feral)

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the absolute horror on my face upon the realization that a pearl by mitski is literally sakura MOTHERFUCKING haruka

"You're growing tired of me"

- his doubts about how everyone will think of him when he thinks he 'failed' his duty as a grade captain, a leader

"You love me so hard and I still can't sleep"

- ok I can't really remember when it happened but this reminds me of the time sakura spent the whole night tossing and turning and then kotoha teased him about it

(i seriously can't remember why tho but it's gotta have something to do with how the people of Makochi treated him)

"And all the things I don't talk about"

- 'Everybody's got a thing or two that they don't wanna talk about' by sakura haruka himself

"Sorry I can't don't want your touch/Sorry I can't take your touch"

- him being so used to physical contact through violence, he doesn't know how to be soft, he never got the chance to

"It's not that I don't want you"

- he does care about them all but he's scared of getting close to people, he's only had himself so he pushes them away unconsciously :(

"It's just that I fell in love with a war/Nobody told me it ended"

- my interpretation of this line is that you're just so used to the toxicity, even after you've gotten rid of it, it doesn't leave you, in fact, you might feel you're still in the war, or worse, be the trigger of another war with a different "enemy"

- but in this case the "war" really did end for sakura (WARRR ISSSS OOOOVERRRRRRR)

- it's just like how sakura has been ridiculed by people all his life, he automatically assumes Furin and the townspeople will be the same and eventually reject him as well

"And it left a pearl in my head/And I roll it around every night/Just to watch it glow/Every night baby that's where I go"

- basically him overthinking things, I don't really know how to explain it 😞

"There's a hole that you fill/You fill, you fill"

- his thoughts about how he wants to be with these people, and then he realises he wants to be here, that he belongs here, that this is his home :((

- this town will heal him, fill the hole in his sore, lonely heart (im so happy for him sobs)

🙏 sorry if any of these information are wrong, I wrote this purely by my memory !

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tbhk 115 rant </3

god this whole chapter was a harder read than the entirety of jjk

obviously the biggest change in this chapter was hanako following his future as planned

before actually reading the chapter i alrdy saw the panels and read through em but actually reading it and not through a tiktok slideshow fr broke me

when i first read that hanako was supposed to be a science teacher i cried

but now that im reading about hanako being a science teacher, one that students are comfortable enough to be asking for advice and career guidance and can genuinely have fun with I'M CRYING AGAIN WAAAAHHG

he looks like such a friendly teacher i'd love him irl, as someone who would've joined an astronomy club if my school had had one :')

and with this new present, the fact that kou and nene never interacted, HANAKO AND NENE NEVER MET AS WELL

i hate this 😭 bring the old timeline back..

that whole scene with nene talking about how the 'plant' she's been taking care of, which represents the old world

being replaced with a "prettier" pot of plant, the new present which is indeed more peaceful and has lesser problems and everyone is enjoying themselves in this new world, save for the people who have memories of the old world who are suffering instead...

but as nene expressed, it was important to both her and us readers

and from here it's like she's not giving up on it, even if it's been causing her so much problems

she's giving her best to nurture and fix it, or at least make it bloom a flower, to at least have one good thing come out from all this struggle

sighhhh aidairo loves bittersweet pain.. everyone else is happy or just content but my girl nene just can't catch a break

the only plus in this new present is this yuri scene <3

aonene my beloved 🙏

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GROANS IN PAINNNNN i was searching for some sakura manga panels cus i was planning on making an edit 👉👈

i just finished reading chapter 147 and his eyes that's full of life again just inspired me !!

little did i know i'd end up crying for 20 mins because i'm just so so happy for sakura and i'm so so glad he's at Makochi and that he met kotoha first because the townspeople are just so so nice (i'm so so jealous)

so look forward to a pasilyo edit with sakura? 🙏

(in like 2 months because i'm rarely motivated)

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literally addicted to ripping off the plastic of a newly bought manga

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wind breaker.. chapter... 145...

IM NOT THE ONLY ONE WHO THOUGHT OF "WHAT ELSE DO YOU NEED BESIDES PRIDE" RIGHT ⁉️⁉️

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i'm like twenty chapters in the windbreaker manga right now ^^

and it just got me curious if there's any character deaths as they're quite literally beating each other up

if there is I don't think my poor heart can take it

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finally started watching windbreaker and sakura's a lil cutie patoot

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guess who's literally on the verge of death

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help life literally got so busy and now I'm falling down the kpop stan hole (??

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I'm so cooked I have so much sakura drabble ideas in my head rn but I'm too busy to write them deownnnnnn

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what do people usually gift as birthday presents