#qj taking the role that li fan originally held so even when the twins escape they never actually do. they're held in these roles.

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li tianxi blaming herself for her parents not divorcing and because they don't things escalate past boiling point. blaming herself in the first place for the tensions between them because she has needs and not everyone is willing to try and meet her with them. li tianxi choosing to look away and not say what she sees anymore so this won't repeat. but in the process just ending up enabling tianchen as he spirals down and down.

li tianchen blaming himself because he wanted to fix things for his mum and do what she couldn't but instead he gets her dead. and tianchen just wants to protect tianxi like he failed to protect his mum but he doesn't try to actually *understand* her. so instead his efforts eventually drive her away because there's only so much she's willing to take. she didn't want to be 'protected' like this.

they've both lost their parents and tianxi doesn't want anyone to suffer as she has whilst tianchen wants everyone else to suffer as he has. everyone except tianxi.

wanting to protect someone but not giving them the agency in the decision. in whether they even want to be 'protected' in this way.

[muninnhuginn]

Was looking for a different post and came across my own tags on this post instead. Wow, I think I was onto something here actually:

#me as always linking it back to the shiguang dynamic with that last sentence huh#link click#link click spoilers#sth again about cycles of abuse. tianxi the eternal victim. tianchen the victim at first but needing the control to never be a victim again#calling it 'hunter' bc that's what he's been told and it's what he clings to bc if not he's just another wild hurt beast#I don't know how much is intentional but the way that the twins' roles are gendered is kinda interesting?#not totally sure if I'm a fan (esp w/ what happened to ltx) but I can see what I think it's getting at#when they had ltc refusing the phone call bc 'no one in the family is mentally ill' + qj's arc having those toxic masculinity vibes#qj taking the role that li fan originally held so even when the twins escape they never actually do. they're held in these roles.#also. it's interesting that ltx was always considered disabled before anything else happened. + then the mutism was the trauma response.#like. her very existence she felt was the cause of tension and she had that knowledge but wanted them to stay as this happy family#that probably never even existed. + like I said not a huge fan of how her chara was treated but she represented hope for a reason#she had that hope within her back then and held onto it until now. it could only die with her. and that's why tianchen lets go.#shiguang daili ren spoilers

li tianxi blaming herself for her parents not divorcing and because they don't things escalate past boiling point. blaming herself in the first place for the tensions between them because she has needs and not everyone is willing to try and meet her with them. li tianxi choosing to look away and not say what she sees anymore so this won't repeat. but in the process just ending up enabling tianchen as he spirals down and down.

li tianchen blaming himself because he wanted to fix things for his mum and do what she couldn't but instead he gets her dead. and tianchen just wants to protect tianxi like he failed to protect his mum but he doesn't try to actually *understand* her. so instead his efforts eventually drive her away because there's only so much she's willing to take. she didn't want to be 'protected' like this.

they've both lost their parents and tianxi doesn't want anyone to suffer as she has whilst tianchen wants everyone else to suffer as he has. everyone except tianxi.

wanting to protect someone but not giving them the agency in the decision. in whether they even want to be 'protected' in this way.