#ps: if I see you on my writing blog I just may cry... it's happy tears I promise

[glmfic]

a love letter & I have BIG news

Hello my lovelies. It is I, the writer of Ghost Hunters, Lies, & Money. I have been writing this fic since 2007 (!!!) Eighteen years as of this March!!!

This is something really amazing to me when I reflect on it. I am a perfectionist, which means—as I’ve learned—a  procrastinator. To know that I have managed to commit to something so long and dedicatedly…it means soooo much, and truly it is because of love. My love for the cast of characters the incredible Fuyumi Ono has created in Ghost Hunt, and the love of my loyal readers. It’s emotional to feel such a strong love of something, and then get to share in it with such a special group of people—what a gift! Ah, I’m getting choked up…brb…

Okay, this might be coming across kind of sentimental and thus lead you to think I’m about to say this is the end of my writing on Ghost Hunters, Lies, & Money—but actually it’s the opposite!! I am here, ahead of my BIG announcement, after a year of not posting, to hard core reaffirm my dedication to GLM. In fact it is because of my BIG announcement that I am even more focused on GLM. So what is this BIG announcement…?

[drum roll]

I am writing a novel!! A bona fide, original, novel. I am a ball of nervous energy announcing this and I wanted to tell you, my dear readers, first. Many of you have been following GLM for years and years and have been my motivation that has resulted in every chapter I’ve ever posted. Your support, your kindness has made such a difference in my life. More than you know. Because of you I’ve kept writing all these years…when I could of just not? I could of just let work take over and never practiced the thing that I am most passionate about: writing. But I have you. And knowing that, I kept going: someone out there wants to read what you’re writing Amber!

Fear & doubt are real things I live with every day (an authorly occupational hazard??), but with every interaction with you my dear readers, those fears and doubts get smaller. I have been working with a wonderful mindset coach since September who has helped me throw into clarity all that I am grateful for and what I want my future to look like. I face a lot of uncertainty, but this I am sure of: I am so thankful for you my dear readers, and I would be honored if you stayed by my side through my new adventures in novel writing.

I am at ground zero when it comes to my novel and I would really love to share my experience every step of the way with you. I have opened a new Tumblr blog to document this journey and I plan for it to be an interactive and fun space to share my writing updates, get your input (very important!), share spoilers and previews, ramble incoherent writing things, ect. If you’d be interested in coming along with me learning step by step what it takes to write a novel from scratch, I’d love to see you there :)

So what does this mean for GLM??

UPDATES.

Because of my novel writing goals, I’ve had to come up with a writing schedule. And this (of course!!) includes GLM. In fact, it’s a necessity. Writing a novel is frankly pretty terrifying. I know I can do it, but I am waaaay out of my comfort zone. But writing GLM? That IS my comfort zone. Writing GLM will be so good for me, it will preserve my sanity. Nothing like a dose of Naru to cheer you up :) But I digress…back to the point: updates! From now going forward through the month of January (and beyond), I will be dedicating Saturdays to writing on GLM. I will post my writing updates here of course and we can scream together as things are really ramping up as we head towards the climax of this case…ahhhh! If I am mathing correctly…you could roughly expect chapter 35 in time for Valentine’s day: I love you here is a new chapter! That’s just 6 Saturdays between you and the next chapter! WOW.

My dear readers, I don’t know if this rambling post conveyed it, but— whether you choose to follow me on my novel journey or not, thank you for being here. Thank you for reading my writing. Thank you, thank you, thank you. I’ll link you to my novel writing Tumblr below, which will have more details about the general premise of my novel soon (think rom-com/kdrama), and I will see you again Saturday for a—gasps—GLM writing update!

Later lovelies! xoxo

Ambernim8 | novel writing blog of yours truly

[dream-a-little-longer-1]

Hello! Your writing is amazing, it always makes me smile when I read ^-^

Can I request William and Moran with a sweet female s/o? Like, William is seen as a smart, logical guy and Moran is like the big, tough guy but the gang sees them trailing behind their s/o like a lost puppy asking for affection.

Thank you!!

Hi!!! omgs, you'll gonna make me cry!!i made this blog JUST to make ppl happy and smile 😭😭😭😭

Awww such a cute idea!!! it'll be my pleasure to write it for you!!!

Ps : extra romantic!!

Love, Luna

✧*.｡*♡✧*.｡*♡✧*.｡*♡✧*.｡*♡✧*.｡*♡✧*.

William

•William can always control his cool even in the worst situations,we all know that

•the world can come crashing down,and the man wont bat an eye

•but with you

•William feels so lost

•its not often,that you see a man like William fall in love, specially this hard

•to feel so attached to someone

•the feeling of wanting someone

•William isnt used to it at all

•but he doesnt try to shake off this feeling,nor get rid of it no

•he grab at it with both hands,and lets himself feel the love he always feels when he sees you around

•to the outsiders,it may be dumb,to see a brilliant man like William,falling victim to love

•his family and friends watch in awe,how his eyes always search for you in the crowd

•or how it fallows you wherever you go with something close to yearning deep within them

•its funny

•its unusual

•but to William,it doesnt matter what the whole world will say about it

•he will continue to love you to his heart content

Sebastian Moran

•Sebastian,a player,never one to set for someone

•finally falls in love,hard,when he lays eyes on you

•since he's been with so many women,he knows what he's feeling for you isnt just a simple and passing feeling

•since he'd never felt like this toward anyone before

•so he decides to play along;not knowing that he'll fall ever harder for you when he starts knowing you better

•so after that,he starts getting attached to you by hip

•always following the sound of your voice or your laughter

•always trying things that makes you happy,just to see you smile so brightly

•its a hilarious sight,really,to watch a man like Sebastian

•strong, merciless

•someone that can snap a man's neck with only one hand

•follow after you like a lost puppy

•always seeking your attention,always needing to be near you

•but for him,its the first time that he's ever felt so happy being with someone

•so he decides to follow you,even if you're planning to walk till the end of the world

[kithtaehyung]

HAPPY NEW YEAR RYEN 🎆🎇( its 2023 here already and want to start the year with thanking people who carried me through last year) I hope this new year treats you well and help you archive everything you want o⁠(⁠(⁠⁠^⁠▽⁠^⁠⁠)⁠)⁠o

When I say I definitely would not have been able to survive this year without your blog ( both you and your writings ) I truly mean it (⁠θ⁠‿⁠θ⁠) simply saying this may not make you realize how much you helped me but now you are basically my older sister which I never had ಥ⁠‿⁠ಥ ( yes claiming you as my sister now hehe) *send you a hug and a hundred*

It's also been one year since I discovered 3tan cause I found it like a month after it was posted, so 'happy 3taniversary' and to discovering your blog (⁠ ⁠╹⁠▽⁠╹⁠ ⁠) my first story was actually 'ugh f*ck' ( talk about an introduction) before I read 3 tangerines like a few days later and realized you wrote both stories (⁠≧⁠▽⁠≦⁠) I end up reading rest of your masterlist after that (⁠✿⁠^⁠‿⁠^⁠) and end up commenting for the first time ever which was how comfortable I feel around here (⁠ㆁ⁠ω⁠ㆁ⁠) Thank you again for the amazing stories you give us which I'm sure take lot of brain power and thank you for creating this loving community too (⁠人⁠ ⁠•͈⁠ᴗ⁠•͈⁠) I hope you are proud of what you did this year even though you may have regrets. Just know you made a person who lives oceans away from you happy and inspired multiple times throughout the year (⁠◠⁠‿⁠◕⁠)

Excited to see what another year with you brings and to start a new chapter of my life ＼⁠(⁠^⁠o⁠^⁠)⁠／I have not been excited for a new year in years cause nothing seems to be different anyways but things will be very different this year I'm both excited and scared but hopefully I can make it work and get step closer to how to the life I want to live (✷‿✷)

ps. My commentary is coming along , I seems to have underestimate how burnout I was but I have started multiple chapters and they are all coming up together. You can expect to get them all this month hopefully (⁠っ⁠.⁠❛⁠ ⁠ᴗ⁠ ⁠❛⁠.⁠)⁠っ

-🍯

HONEY BABYYYY omfg i smiled so wide when i saw this message i'm screaming !! first, i'm glad that you're actually excited for this new year and going for the life you want to live. i'm doing the same, so let's go for it together :D

thank you so much for reaching out. when i tell you that you and your feedback box commentaries have been the fuel that keeps me going, i sincerely mean it. i spent so much time going through your feedback and squealing/laughing/crying the whole way through. no matter what i was doing - even if i was on my afternoon runs - i would get the emails and stop what i was doing to read them<33 and then would go back and read them again later in the night when i had time to settle in and read a lot more relaxed. each time, they have given me much joy, so thank you endlessly.

i can be the older sister you've never had! of course i can be that for you, babe. you're so sweet. i'm glad you were able to find this blog (and ahahaha both ugh f*ck and 3tan?? what a combo!) it's been a joy to have you. you never fail to mention the work and brainpower that writing this series takes, and it makes me feel better each time. this does take a lot of me so thank you for highlighting those aspects of the process. you've made this person happy, too. happy new year and i'll be thinking of you when i see fireworks🎆🎇

[tinyboxxtink]

"Clueless" *Part 3*

Okay so my dog ended up being totally fine, and luckily I had most of this written beforehand. <3

PS- REALLY shouldn't have watched the actual movie while writing this...lulz. Count how many actual lines from the movie you catch.

Part 1

Part 2

Part 4

Tag List:

@lolliepopsicle

@chasingeverybreakingwave

@wanniiieeee

@milkshqke

@gibbs274

@aprildecker-blog

@objection-argumentative

@word-scribbless

@stars-in-the-skies-world

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He drove back up the Beach House, but you and Ariel had abandoned it for a loft in the city, no forwarding address. He asked himself why he was putting so much effort just to get back in contact with you. He couldn’t explain it, it was like something against logic.

He dialed Ariel’s number.

IGNORE.

Redial.

IGNORE.

Text: “Answer your phone!!!”

Redial.

“What do you want?”

“I want to talk to Y/N,”

“Well she doesn't want to talk to you,”

“What did you tell her, Ariel?”

“The truth,”

“I don’t...I can’t even begin to imagine what that means in your language,”

“Oh whatever Raf, what does it matter what I told her? She’s MY friend, not yours!”

“You don’t OWN her Ariel,”

“Don’t I?” She smirked. “I feed her, I clothe her, I give her a roof to sleep under. I even gave her a cute necklace with her name on it, like a collar,” she smirked.

"You're evil," he sneered.

“I’m a saint,” She scoffed. “Do you know where that girl would be without me? Do you know the years it would take in a therapist's office to heal the emotional trauma I so selflessly saved her from? Her life will be enriched and better because of me, how many girls can say that about you?"

“Oh right, like helping her hasn’t served you any purpose?”

“What purpose could it possibly have?”

“Please, if I ever saw you do anything less than 90% selfish I’d die of shock,”

“Oh that would be reason enough for me,”

“Look, I get it. You've never had a mother so you're treating her like your personal Barbie doll,"

“And what, you wanna be her Prince Ken? Or, lawyer Ken,”

“She’s NOT a Barbie doll!”

“You’re right, she’s not. So I’m not going to let you play with her emotions,”

“What does that even mean? For fuck’s sake Ariel, I just want to be her mentor,”

“Really?” Rafael could hear her rolling her eyes through the phone. “You’re trying THIS hard to mentor some girl you met less than 24 hours ago? REALLY,” She chuckled.

“I may not be ‘Harvard’ smart BRO, but I’m not stupid. I know when a guy has let’s say, less than moral intentions with a girl,”

“It’s not like that,” He growled. “She’s a sweet girl, Ariel. And I’m not going to let you try and change her into your clone,”

“Wha--my clone? Please, Raf she could NEVER reach my level. Believe me, I’ve tried for four years. She’s a good sidekick,”

“This isn’t over,”

“Isn’t it? You have ZERO idea where we are,”

“Please, there’s maybe 5 places in Manhattan you’ll go, and they’re all on the Upper East Side. It’s not hard,”

“Well then, I guess we’ll see who’s better at hide and seek!”

CLICK.

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Ariel rolled her eyes with a smile just as you walked in the living room.

“Who was that?” You asked, toweling your hair from the shower you had just exited.

“Mom,” She rolled her eyes. “She wanted to make sure we weren’t tearing this place up,”

“Oh?” You asked, suddenly hopeful. “Was she going to ask Rafael to check?”

“What? NO,” Ariel shut down that thought quickly. “I assured her she didn’t need to send that dog over here to sniff around you anymore,”

“Ariel,” You rolled your eyes with a sigh. “I’m a big girl,”

“I know sweetie,” She walked over and scrunched your face. “Such a big girl,”

“Whatever,” You rolled your eyes again walking back to the bedroom.

“Hey…” Ariel grabbed the TV remote. “Do you wanna watch Clueless?”

“What? ….Why?”

“I don’t know, you mentioned it yesterday and now I can’t stop thinking about a young Paul Rudd,”

“....Who looks exactly like present Paul Rudd,” You laughed.

“I know right? I want the magic face cream he must use,” She giggled as you both sat down on the couch to watch the movie.

----

“See, Cher isn’t a bad person, right? She saved Tai,” Ariel gestured to the TV.

“Am I Tai in this situation?” You eyed her.

“Well, yeah,” She shrugged. “Duh,”

“I’ll take it, I love Brittany Murphy,” You shrugged.

“RIP,” Ariel made a sign of the cross with a kiss looking up to heaven. “We should pour one out for her,”

“On your mom’s thousand dollar rug?”

“Okay, so maybe just pour one for us,”

Her phone vibrated wildly; it vibrated so hard it fell off the coffee table onto the floor. You picked it up to put it back, but you happened to glance at the screen.

BHOLE BARBA: You can’t keep her from me forever, Ariel

Wha….keep who from him? You? Did...was he...did Ariel….?

“Alright, who’s ready for mimosas?!” Ariel said in a singsongy voice as she returned with two flutes of champagne.

“What is this?” You held the phone up to her. She read it, her eyes grew wide.

“I...He’s talking about the Adele CD I borrowed from him forever ago, he’s weirdly possessive about ‘her’,”

“Ariel,” You interrupted her with a stern face.

“What?” She played dumb.

“...How could you do this to me?” You asked with a hurt expression.

“Do what?” She rolled her eyes with a laugh. “Protect you from my loser ex brother?”

“You--! Oh my god,” You couldn’t believe it. Your own best friend was trying to mess with your happiness?

“Oh come on Y/N, it’s not that big of a--” She rolled her eyes with a laugh, pissing you off even more.

“It IS a big deal!” Tears stung your eyes, you hated that you started crying when you got angry. How pathetic was that?

“Why? You can’t possibly be in love with him or something,” She scoffed.

“NO! Of course not,” You crossed your arms. “But he could help me with school, with my career! Don’t you want me to get a good job, eventually move out of here?”

“Maybe I don’t!” She yelled suddenly.

“...What?” You asked in disbelief.

“Look, Y/N,” She sighed. “I...you...we both know under normal circumstances, we would never be friends,”

“...I mean, I guess…” You shrugged.

“Oh come on,” She gave you a look. “You’d have to explain every sentence you spoke to me,” She had crocodile tears rolling down her cheeks.

“Oh come on Ariel,” You sighed and sat next to her. “You’re NOT stupid,”

“I’m stupider than you!” She cried.

“...More stupid,” You corrected her.

“See?” She sniffled.

“Okay, but-- still,” You took her hand. "You're my best friend. Do you think that if I don't have to live with you anymore, I won't be your friend?"

"Maybe…" She looked at the floor.

"Ariel!" You cried. "Really? Come on,"

"You come on!" She was actually getting upset now. "Look, Y/N. I don't have...friends,"

"What?" You snorted. "You have the biggest social circle I know!"

"Yeah but--" she tried to find the right words. "They're not like….friends, friends ya know? They're more like…. followers, or leeches, of--"

"Sycophants," you chuckled. She did surround herself with as many people who would tell her she was amazing as possible.

"I don't know what that means but probably, yes," She nodded. “You’re the only one who I can actually talk to, you’re like my little sister,”

“....Right, so…? You think I’ll just give all that up if I move out? If I don’t need you financially anymore?”

“Maybe…” She mumbled. “But ALSO, if that stupid asshole gets into your head about me!”

“Oh God…” You put a hand over your head. “Ariel,” You took both of her hands and looked at her very seriously.

“You are my absolute best friend in this entire world, no…’boy’ could change that! I’ve known you so long, I know you completely. Nothing he could tell me would make me turn on you, I swear it,”

“Really?” She raised an eyebrow at you.

“Really! You held a hand up like an oath. “AND, even if-- WHEN, I get financially stable and can live on my own two feet, I will ALWAYS be your friend,” You used the oath hand and placed it in hers again. “I swear it,”

“....Okay, but absolutely ZERO sleepovers here,”

“Oh, my god, ARIEL,” You gasped. “I JUST want to talk to him about law stuff!”

“Yeah, that’s what he said too,” She rolled her eyes, not believing either of you.

“He did?” You felt your face fall.

“Ah HA! See? Disappointment!”

“Shut up,” You hit her. “I don’t care, we should just be professional anyway,”

“Uh huh,” She nodded sarcastically.

“Are you going to give me his number or not?” You gave her a look.

“No,”

“ARIEL,” You crossed your arms.

“No, then you’re going to immediately call him and give him ALL the power,” She wagged a finger at you. “I’m going to give him YOUR number, and if he calls you, he calls you,”

“Ariel…” You gave her another look.

“What? You don’t believe me?” She feigned offense.

“I really don’t,” You shook your head.

“Alright FINE,” She pulled out her phone and opened her texts with Rafael, typed in your number and hit SEND.

“Happy?” She showed you her phone.

“....Maybe,” You hid the giddiness that was building in your stomach.

Almost IMMEDIATELY after sending the text, your phone lit up wildly.

“Good god I’m gonna get out of here before the nerdy phone sex starts,” She ran out of the room with her mimosa in tow.

“Shut up!” You hissed, mentally preparing yourself for this phone call. The phone call you’d been waiting for for days, even when you thought he was a “player”. You took a deep breath and hit ANSWER:

“Hello?”

“Y/N?”

“Yeah who’s this?” You asked coyly.

“It’s...Rafael, Barba…”

“I’m sorry, who?” You teased.

“Ariel’s….brother?” He skipped the asterisk that went along with “Brother”.

“Ohhhh right right right,” You nodded, keeping him nervous. “Yeah, Ariel told me all about you,”

“I knew it,” He growled thinking about Ariel and her lies. “Whatever she said, she’s lying,”

“Oh so you don’t want to be my mentor?”

“Wha--?” He was shocked. Did Ariel actually change her mind? Or dare he think...a change of heart?

“Yes! I mean, I do! I absolutely do!” He may have said that a little too overzealous, so he dialed it back. “I mean, if I have some time I’d be up for it, if that’s okay with you,”

“I might, maybe…” You were twirling your hair in your fingers. “When do you think you might have time?”

“Well you know I was thinking--” He started, but there was a knock at the door.

“Oh sorry, one second,” You got up and walked over to the door and swung it open to reveal Rafael standing there, right in front of you. He was dressed in a black suit with a pink tie. As amazing as he looked in street clothes, you thought you might mount him right there in that suit.

“I have some time right now,” He smiled, acting as if he was still on the phone. You couldn’t help yourself, you leapt into his arms and kissed him, HARD.

-------

“Hello? Y/N?”

You snapped back to reality, Rafael was talking to you on the phone.

“Oh! Um, Yeah, sorry what?”

“I said I have some time right now, if you wanna meet for coffee or something,” He half laughed, still enchanted by your awkwardness.

“Yes! Sure! I...let me just get dressed, just text me the address, I’ll meet you in a few,” You were so glad he couldn’t see how beet red you were from that little fantasy you had just been in.

“Sounds good,” You could hear him smile; even through the phone it made you weak in the knees.

You hung up and ran to Ariel’s room, hoping she’d help you get dressed.

What could you wear to impress him?

[x-lulu]

hii y’all, so I wanted to say thank you to some people and wish them a lovely new year. we of course have to deal with time zones and different religions that have influence on when the new year starts, so i’m just gonna post it now.

I love you all, to some I talk every day, to some just a few asks so now and then and others presence I just enjoy on my dash, nonetheless I love all of you and I’m grateful you put up with my shit haha x

I also wanted to say a quick thank you to all the lovely anons, your asks make my day and I’m honoured that you take time to send me some :) so thank you and I hope y’all have a lovely 2021!! ofcourse I wish everyone a happy new year as well, all my followers, everyone on this site, no matter who you are have a wonderful 2021 and may you get all the love and happiness you deserve x

@rafej-cambanks​

dani, my older and wiser sister! I love you, I haven’t been texting you as much as i used to sorry, i think we’re both quite busy. anyway this doesnt make me love you any less, i love you lots bby! you were one of the first people that welcomed me, supported me and cared about me, most important of all, you were the first that gave me the feeling i wasn’t completely worthless and that you did that means so much! you are such a talented person and your writing is incredible!! but the most amazing thing about you is how lovely of a person you are. you care so much and you’re there for everyone, you defend your friends and anyone who needs defending. you always know how to cheer me up with pics of your lovely princess, chels is just absolutely gorgeous!!! I think you’re a wonderful friend, someone who you can laugh and cry with, thank you, im grateful i’ve met you this year and i hope that there are a lot of conversations to come. have a lovely new year babe

@deionswannabegirl​ 

bubba, bella, how gorgeous are you ma’am????? i dont think it’s fair for the rest of us!!! i dont know where to start, you honestly mean so much to me. which may suprise you because we havent talked that many times, but i loved every single conversation we’ve had. you really helped me become the person i am, you helped me feel comfortable with my sexuality and gave me the confidence to come out to my parents, ill forever be grateful. but apart from how much you helped me, i think you are such a lovely woman, who sadly had too many things thrown at her by life. Im so sorry you’re having these hard times and i wish i could take those away from you. you are one of the most beautiful persons i’ve ever met, inside and outside!! you’re funny, you’re caring, you’re intelligent, you’re talented, you’re loving, you’re amazing bella and im honoured to have my cuddle bear be named after you hahah. I love you bub and i know it can be hard to talk to people or ask for help or just a distraction, because sometimes we dont need help or dont know what to talk about, i just want to let you know that i will always be here and i promise you can talk about anything with me, you are so strong love and i believe you will get through this and that you are gonna make beautiful memories, i love you! may 2021 be a year to make wonderful memories and may you get the love you deserve and you deserve lots of it <3

@aquariusholland​

kyr! hi! i love you and every time i see you on my dash i get a smile on my face. you really have your own sense of humour and randomness, both which i adore. your jokes make me laugh in public and people are like wtf she laughing about haha. i relate to a lot of things you post haha and while we might not talk that much, i feel close to you. you kind of feel like a sister to me haha. you’re also a queen and come up for yourself and your believes, but also in a respectful way and i just admire that about you. I hope you have a wonderful new year and that it exists of a lot more of your random asks ;)

ps. can i call you kyr bear? idk i was thinking about you and my mind went to kyr bear hahah

@https-luna

lunaaaa bby! we both thought the other didn’t like them haha, but gosh i love you 👉👈 we haven’t been talking for that long yet i think two weeks maybe? idk but you’re already really important to me! i wish i could do more for you than just listen and maybe give some advice, but sadly i cant hold you in my arms and protect you from the world. i will however always do my best and ill be here for you no matter what. you deserve the world my love and things will get better and im here along the way and so are lots of other people, you really are loved bubba!!! i also started watching hannah montanna since you mentioned you loved that show ;) and finally someone with the same love for the little mermaid hahah. I hope that in 2021 we can get even closer, but i think we’re going down the right path <3 i love you and wish you a wonderful new year with lots of love, healing and health, because you deserve it so much! you’re also so strong and i fully believe that you will get there x

@sortagaysortahigh

hey love, we don’t really talk but i wanted to add you to the list. i really admire you!! you stand up for what you believe in, you educate so many people and do what’s right in this world!! you love your friends and i believe you’d anything for them!! you’re also hella funny and seeing you in my dash can make my day. i just wanted to tell you that you’re a wonderful human being and you make the world a lot better!! i hope you keep being the amazing person you are and i wish you all the love and happiness in the world!! also you’re a badass haha, happy new year angel 🖤

@annab-nana

anna bby, you’re the sweetest person i’ve ever met!! i love interacting with you so much, you always bring a smile to my face and i believe you do that to a lot of people. you’re an incredible presence on tumblr and in the world, i believe you make everyone’s life a bit brighter and i hope i can do the same for you. on top of that you’re also hella talented, idk what god thought when he made you ;) I love that we have gotten closer in the past few weeks, i cant believe that i hadn’t made the connection between you and your sideblog hahah, but now i know you and im grateful for it!!! you’re a loving, caring and supporting lil bean and i love you! i feel like i can come with anything to you and you’ll be there for me and that is an amazing feeling, so here just a reminder that you can also come with anything to me <3 i hope 2021 is gonna be a good year for you, you deserve it!! 

ps - you’re absolutely gorgeous

@mxltifandoms06

hi sweetheart!! when i think of christmas i think of you ;) (i wrote this when it was almost christmas not new year haha) you’re such a cozy and sweet human being!! you’re supportive, caring and loving!! you always make my days better and i’m so grateful to have met you!! also your dog is just the most adorable ever!! im so glad you decided to come in my ask box and start interacting, i love you babe, i hope all the love you give you’ll receive in 2021, you’re deserving of a lot of love <3

@killingbxys

my queen! hi! we don’t talk as much as I would want to, but gosh i just have a comfortabel vibe with you, i feel like i can come with anything to you and every time i see you on my dash, asks, dm anything it brings a smile on my face. i’ve said it before, but you’re that one friend who you can both laugh and cry with. i feel like you’re this amazing presence here on tumblr and everyone is grateful to have you x i love you babe and i hope we will get closer in the new year :) if you’re up for that as well ofcourse hahah, im not going to force you to be friends with me (well... maybe i am... but we’re not gonna talk about that...). I wish you the best and i hope 2021 will treat you wonderful x

@jellyfishbeansontoast

izzy hi!! babe i love you and all your randomness, every time i see you in my dash i get a smile on my face!! also your work is incredible!!! and i love seeing you simping haha!! your whole blog is basically a mood and i love it 🥰 thank you for being your lovely self!! i hope you’ll get the love and happiness you deserve and i also hope to get closer in 2021 hehe ;) you’re just this amazing person and im honoured to be moots! have a lovely new year x

@demxters

elle my love, if we’re gonna talk about lovey and talented people ofcourse we have to add you to the list. you’re one of my favourite writers of all time, your titles, your aesthetic, your concepts, your way with words, it’s all so perfect!!! you always amaze me and then we started talking and omg you’re such a sweet person and every time i get an ask or a message from you it puts a smile on my face. i’m grateful i met you this year and i wish you all the best, i believe in you, you’re so strong!! i know you go through some difficult stuff, but i will always be there for you, remember you are worthy and so loved!!! i love you, have a wonderful 2021.

@pink-meringues

pink gosh im gonna miss you so bad, but i’m also really proud of you for doing what’s best for you and i really hope it will have positive effect on your well being and your happiness!! you’re such a loving and welcoming person!! thank you for being who you are and making so many peoples lives better, we all care about you babe!! have a lovely 2021 <3

@sunsetholland

hey love, if i’m gonna be honest here, you were the person who gave me the confidence to start being myself on this site, you probably don’t remember but once you send me an ask and wished me a lovely week, which brought a smile to my face!! that was the moment that i decided to be myself, thank you for that!! apart from that you are so freaking talented, i say it all the time but your work is like reading poetry, how you come up with your sentences i have no clue, but it’s wonderful and i’m amazed every time!! you’re also a lovely human being and your posts on my dash always make me smile!! i hope you have a lovely 2021 babe, i love you <3

@skiesofthesketchy

sky my love, you’re such a loving and supporting human being. you really bring peace on my dash and give me a calm feeling!! I honestly still can’t believe that my tumblr crush knew who I was and wanted to talk to me haha. I’m obsessed with your work and there are so many people who admire you, which you totally deserve!!! It’s almost unbelievable how talented you are haha and your music taste is also on point!! and how cool is it that you can play the guitar and have a job to do with music, I love it and you’re so talented and well deserving of every good thing that comes on your path. have a lovely new year x

@cognacdelights

hi bub, you’re one of my role models 🙈 you’re a classy badass who I admire so much, you’re one of the most talented persons I’ve ever met! you’re also so lovely and sweet!!! and you’re a really fascinating and interesting woman as well!! I wish you all the best my love, remember to take some time for yourself and try to ignore those toxic people, you’re more than enough and deserve to feel happy and loved

@mind-with-a-melody

tess, i know you haven’t had the best time lately and i wish 2021 could be a whole new start for you, sadly mental health doesn’t work that way. however i really hope it will be better for you and you’ll learn to have hope and maybe love yourself, because you are so worth it. you are beautiful on the inside and on the outside. you send love to people and make others peoples days better and that is the most wonderful trait someone can have, i believe in you, you are strong and even tho it may not feel like that but it will get better and i’m always here!! you’ll get help along the way, from me but also from so many other people who love you!! i hope 2021 will treat you better, you deserve all the love and the happiness ma’am, happy new year!!

@all-alone-he-turns-to-stone

hi audrey, we haven’t talked that much yet, but you’re the first blog i followed on here. you’re so talented and seeing you on my dash always brings a smile to my face. so i decided to send you an ask and then i found out that you’re a lovely human as well!! i wish you the best for 2021, you deserve all the happiness and love in the world!!

@nxsmss​ 

well lara, where do I start, last but definitely not least. I just had to put you last because I knew your message would be one of the longest haha. it feels so weird for someone to accept me completely as who i am, but you do exactly that! okay now im starting to cry again, but you mean so much to me. you’re the best that happened to me in a long long time and you’re honestly the person who helps me the most, gives me the best feelings, it’s incredible how much talking to you can cheer me up and when i think about you i start to smile (and sometimes cry hahah, jeez i come over like a cry bby, i promise im not hahaha). you’re one of the most loving and caring persons i’ve ever met. you were so welcoming since the first time we met and i feel like we kinda immediatelly hit it off. we didnt have that ‘how are you and where do you live’ kind of conversations, while there is nothing wrong with small talk, i feel like we pretty much immediatly started being our weird selves around each other and i love it. we have like three dates every week haha and those are honestly what gets me through the week. and we basically interact almost every hour, no matter if it’s trough text, snap, tumblr or tiktok hahah. ive never felt more myself, more loved or more capable than with you. on top of that you are hella talented, wise, intelligent, gorgeous, pretty much perfect ;) i absolutely love everything about you, from the clumsy stuff you do to the sweet good morning and good night messages, from the random snaps to the deep conversations, from the weird asks to just basically acting like we’re a couple hehe. i just love everything and i cant imagine my life without you, im never letting you go babe. 

@dmonchld @jiaraendgame @vintageobx @rafeyybabyy @camillemonty, @amorejjaygron​ 

we may not interact that much but every time I see you on my dash or asks or something it brings a smile to my face!! 

also @dmonchld you are my icon 🙈 and i admire you so much, im just a scared lil bean which stops me from interacting with you hahah, but you’re so strong and brave. i think you are a wonderful friend and just an incredible person in general

@jiaraendgame your music taste is just on point!! and im so grateful for you, when ive posted about tough subjects you comment and even when we didnt know each other you supported me and comforted me, thank you, i think you are this amazing person and i love every interaction with you

@vintageobx and @rafeyybabyy you guys were some of the first people I started talking to and you’ve always been supportive thank you for that!! you’re both really kind and i hope 2021 will treat you with nothing but love 

@camillemonty and @amorejjaygron you both make me feel welcome on this site and I’m really grateful for that!

i wish you all a wonderful new year and may it be filled with love, laughter and making wonderful memories 

i love you 

btw i started writing this like a month ago, because i never work on the stuff that i need to work on and knew i wouldn’t be able to finish it if i didn’t start already haha, so yeah, with some people the relationships might have changed a bit, like we’ve already become closer, but i think it’s all pretty up to date, but if it isn’t then you know that that’s why <3 and there are probably a lot of errors because it’s barely proofread and i’m a horrible at typing so that’s that 🙈

[kodzuken-chan]

Hello~!!!!!

I'm working on MJ's scenario currently , but I'm so busy with my finals to complete it, bit ofc i will....until that time , i will share with you something I've always wanted to do🙈

I will write how do i expect Astro members to act around you in different situations based on how do i see them from my perspective 💕 i hope you like it~!

PS. Its not an imagine so that's why i haven't posted it on my Scenarios blog😊

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©®. to all who owns GIFs

MJ

So Mj would be the type who always jokes around and make you laugh in various ways

He sucks at cooking even when he tries to surprise you, the kitchen ends up being messy, but you'd still love it

Whenever you're sick, he would ask either Rocky or Eunwoo to make you some soup , since he sucks at cooking

He would make weird sounds and faces just to make you forget the pain of the illness

On dates, he'd love to wear couple matching outfits with you, Honestly it would be so cute

When he does sth he likes, he'd be too serious about it and makes you always wonder is that my Emzayyyy?but still looks awesome

Myungjunie special hugs and kisses whenever you're super sad or super happy~

Always locks you between his arms whenever you're crying and buys you some ice cream later

Plays with your hands and you do the same when both of you are cuddling at night، Mj has the most beautiful hand i have ever seen

Teaches you how to hit the highest note while singing and gets impressed.

Dates are always on Carnivals, but, you have to see the doctor after visiting the haunted house, you must check your ear drums later

May give you lots of tinny soft ppuppu's

Jinjin

The SOFTEST PUPPY PERSON ON EARTH!

Kind, Sweet a Gentleman+ his personal Charms

When he's with you, He'd be soft and would look like a teddy bear that you don't want to stop hugging it.

Can cook a bit, and sometimes makes you some Sandwiches

Dates are always in Nature, either on land or sea, and you both take pictures of the views+ some selfies together.

Whenever he pins you on the wall for a kiss, you always end up laughing on his highet with him like monkeys, tho you're shorter than him but its still funny for you

But sometimes being pinned to the wall be jinwoo was a serious thing, he'd just give you that look that which makes you fall for him even harder

Will listen to all of your problems and helps you with the biggest smile ever!

You're sad!, No! no! not with Jinwoo bcs he would just let you in his embrace until you feel better . LOL I'M MOONBIN BAISED

Eunwoo

Literally a Gentleman

Tries to act evil when he teases you sometimes but fails and end up being so cute, and it turns to be you who is teasing him

Would take you for shopping as dates and buys you everything you want, as you both holding hands

Would carry you on his back while walking on the beach, and tells you that he will throw you in it, but then he just says I'm joking bcs you're cute

Takes you to fancy restaurant for dinner, and later when you're done and head back to the car, he will kiss you passionately, okay wait i blushed

Brings you a ring on your anniversary, with your and his name letters carved on it

Would play in your hair but ends up sleeping before you, and you will observe his handsome face

Moonbin

His name is CuddlekissBin

He loves to cuddle you no matter what, being all lazy is his favorite game

And he also loves to give you many kiss whenever he has the chance to do it

If you're feeling hungry don't worry, with bin you will have a stomach full of food

But he will also takes you with him to work out, but when he sees your tired pouty face, he'd stop you immediately to take some rest

Likes to comb your hair, he is in love with your hair, he'd also ask you to dry it for you after showers

You both like to stay home, so you have home dates, watching dramas and mostly Animes

You like to draw animes to and sometimes you create imaginary webtoons, he would do some aygeo just to let him read it

He won't leave your side if you're sick, he'll give your medicine and will massage your head and body

If you cried, he'd kiss you, and give you the best back and front hugs in his embrace, king of Hugs

In your heart , he is your Mermaid Prince

Rocky

This boy is literally the cutest, he might act manly and serious but deep inside he's just a crackhead and cute

Cups your face with his wide palms when you cry and pulls you in his embrace

Gets jealous easily especially if you were hanging out with his members

Loves to walk along with you in the park with his arm over your shoulders, he will be like see! She's mine

Loves to make his moms recipes for you and waits for your reaction after eating, gets super happy when you say its delicious

He likes to sleep on your lap, when you watch movies at night, during your picnic and also in the practice room on the sofa

Loves to dance and teaches you some of their song choreography, when you dance it perfectly, he'd be SUPER PROUD and would brag about it.

Gets you a similar Ring that he wears in his finger but with his name inside it, he's inside your ring even if he's not around

Sanha

He'd play the one who's hard to please, but he's too cute and soft

You like to pinch his full cheeks but he doesn't, and he'd give you his pouty face asking you to stop, but you'd still do it, its fun to tease him

In your free time, you both will play some video games ofc you end up loosing but he becomes happy like a baby when he beats you

He'd fight anyone who makes you cry or sad, don't underestimate him, he's trained by The MOONBIN

He brings you all kind of stuffed animals and dolls for your birthday

You both sneak out at night to eat candies, teases you bcs you're short and you can't get them from the shelf, bcs he too long

Many challenges of doing the cutest agyeo and you're always the winner

You're dates mostly are going to Random places and also doing Random stuffs

Whenever you go out you both hold hands and call it a date , even if you went to drink water from the fridge

Plays guitar/ sings for you before bed time, and sometimes you make song covers

[skzshortcake]

may.... i’m so sorry you’re feeling so doubtful of yourself. if it makes any difference, i think your blog is super cute! your layout is amazing, i love the colour, i love your writings and the way you respond is always so precious and kind and it makes my day 💛 plus your writing literally helped me out of such a terrible time and i’ll always be grateful for that. i can’t cry easily but i cried that day bcs i felt comforted and it made me feel lighter. and that’s a very big deal 🥰

you’re allowed to feel sad about this. it’s okay. everyone doubts themselves every now and then but please don’t be so hard on yourself. your blog is amazing and your tags are just fine. but also, reorganising the tags is also an option.

but really, your blog is special the way it is. it’s your blog. it’s a piece of you. it’s unique and nothing like anyone else’s. and i think that’s amazing in itself.

i hope you feel better soon

- 🐥

your writings are the right amount of cheesy!!! they’re so cute. please don’t put yourself down like that :( i love how cheesy they are! it’s not annoying at all. especially when u write about chan. like he’s a cheesy person already so it fits so well 😂😂

no but really. your writings are great and the more you write, the more you’ll improve. so please don’t give up on yourself

p.s. *whispers* my opinion’s pretty legit i’ve got a degree in literature and creative writing. i know good writing when i see it 💛

- 🐥

🥺🥺 no i’m getting tears! baby you’re so sweet, thank you for always being so encouraging. I think i’m kinda in a weird place right now where i’m not feeling good about my writing and just everything about my blog and me in general, but I think i’ll turn around sometime soon? I hope so.

jeksjssjsj I guess I just like to write cheesy and sappy things because it makes me smile and makes me feel soft? I know a lot of people don’t like cliches and a lot of the things I like but sometimes I just wish I had the ability to write angsty things, or even could write some soft things better like my bby @luminois .

I do agree that i’m improving though! I look back at my recent writings and only dislike them a little, compared to hating things from further back so that’s good at least!

I think you’re very unique and your asks always make my day, you’re so sweet and uplifting and you have a good spirit. good things are in your future, angel!!

ps: that makes me so happy that you like it!! i’m really glad that people find comfort and solace in my writing, thats what I wanted this blog to be when I made it. I started it with the intention of storing fics I wrote that made me feel calmer and distracted from my sickness. I never expected that many people would find it, but i’m really thankful that it serves that purpose for you as well!! 🥺💝

[kuviras-eyeliner]

Hey! I just found your blog and I was wondering if I could get a LOK (and atla if you’re comfortable with doing both and it’s not too much) matchup? I’m a 5’0” girl with really short dark brown hair and brown eyes. Im kinda curvy and not 100% confident in my appearance. I’m a FLAMING bisexual. I’m a Ravenclaw, personality type INFP-T, and my friends tell me I’d probably be an earth bender. I love reading, writing, singing, listening to music, and watching movies and musicals. I also really love physical affection (both giving and receiving, ngl probably touch starved a bit over here). I love any and all animals SO MUCH. I can be kinda silly sometimes but I know when to get serious. I’m pretty protective of the people I’m close to. I’m also kind of stubborn. I have a small obsession with dragons and kind of just mythical beings in general. I usually feel happy when I make others happy. And I guess it might be helpful to mention that my main love languages are physical touch and words of affirmation. And idk if this will help but I am a switch. I don’t really know what else to put on here so yeah! (PS YOUR NAME IS REALLY PRETTY!! And I’m also gonna send a request after this cause I’d love to read your writing!)

Bby I’m so so so so so so so so sorry that this took so long! Haha I’m just glad we’re finally here, let’s get to it!

I match you with...

Sokka!

Yes, our precious boomerang man would definitely be one of the most perfect matches for you. You kind of seem like the type of person that would get really hyped up about something during a call with friends, try to explain it, but end up talking so much that you take up the entire call? Haha maybe I’m wrong (but that’s honestly something I’d do), but either way, you seem like such a chill person, if I knew you in person I’d love to hang out sometime. Anywho, Sokka, the one and only Armbender would be the member of the Gaang to fall in love with you. Since Sokka was really, really developed so amazingly, I’m going to make this one prettty long, so buckle your seatbelts and let’s get to it. As we all know, Sokka is one heck of a precious warrior who has gone through, well, a lot. He always makes people laugh, and considering romantic relationships, I’m pretty sure everyone would want to be looked at the way Sokka looks at Suki. Sokka is someone who will immediately start crying even when he hears anything about you being negatively thrown, or if you ever feel hurt. He’ll make sure that if you ever feel down, he’ll cry with you and tell you that it’s going to be alright. He also loves your eyes-- the tone and shade of brown, with small tints of black and when they light up against the sun is what makes him want to throw his arms around you. And when he sees that smile in your eyes? Yes, definitely, he decides that there’s nothing more beautiful than that. He thinks your smile is the most beautiful thing about you, and the truth is, he doesn’t care at all about how you look! As long as you’re the same, talented, outstanding, charismatic and sweet person you were from the start and you are comfortable with yourself, he doesn’t care. And if you don’t feel that way, without manipulating you, Sokka will care for you until the end of times until you know that you feel safe. When you feel tired and useless, he’s always going to be the first person to notice. When he sees you not acting as you normally do, even when you say, “I’m fine,��� he’ll always be the first to grab your shoulders, pull you into the softest hug in the world and say, “you’re not. It’s okay to feel that way,” and trust me, and can and will listen to you for hours, days, weeks, months, and even years if he has to! The fact that you love animals sometimes really ties in with his meat jokes, so he might tease you a bit on that and say, “what a beautiful dog that is. I wonder what would happen if I just, ya know, accidentally-” (*this is when you’re supposed to judo-flip him,,, lightly-) Sokka is always laughing in that wholesome Sokka way he does, and no matter what you may go through, he’ll always make  sure that you feel safe and comforted around him. He honestly believes that it’s so amazing that you’re capable of doing so many different things. And even though Sokka isn’t one to make a big deal of fictional and fantasy-like phenomenons, he’ll make an exception for you, and he just makes this cutest face when he tries to understand the idea of fantasy creatures. “A- a what? Okay, look, I know dragons are real, but how- how is there a scientific explanation of a horse with a horn?? Doesn’t it like- hurt?? I don’t understand,” and you kind of have to explain the same idea multiple times, but every time he acknowledges your ideas. 

Alright, 682 words, let’s go! I hope this was enough, and yep, feel free to send in that request! And thank you so much you’re too sweet ;U; I honestly hope you’ll come back some time because WOW, your vibes are amazing?? I hope you’re doing well, lemme know if you ever need anything!

[iconastrology]

Intro

So, I decided I waned to start a blog, I wasn’t really sure about what, I just knew I wanted one, so, here I am, trying this thing I’ve never even thought of before. I think I will start introducing myself so here it goes: I’m 13, I live in Argentina so I also speak spanish (for some reason I feel more comfortable communicating in english but if you want, we can talk in spanish), I love reading, I am a huge fan of Emma Watson, Jennifer Lawrence, Emma Stone, Mila Kunis, Natalie Portman and a million more actresses I could just go on and on about, but I don’t wanna bore whoever is reading this. I curse a lot, I’m very impulsive, I cry in secret because I am actually ashamed of having feelings, I despice them; I like writing, but I don’t think I’m really good at it. I am an astrology nerd and I live associating people, books, movies, characters with zodiac signs. I love space, the sky, the stars and evetrthing that has to do, not only with astrology, but also astronomy. Since I was like 5, I’ve been a One Direction fan and the obsession everybody thought was a phase has not faded away. I am a feminist, I talk about that a lot and I feel like it’s an extremely important movement. My favorite book authors are Stephen King, Virginia Woolf (who, I just found out, died on my birthday but some 70 years before I was born), John Green, Isabel Allende, Jane Austen and Vladimir Nabokov. My favorite animal is the octopus, I have a giant one painted on the wall behing my bed. My least favorite is the snake, I actually have Ophidiophobia, which is the irrational fear of said animal. I want to travel to Italy and England more than anything, I hope someday I’ll live in Europe. Now, to really talk about me as an astrological individual. I am what people would say, a textbook Aries: Yes, I am the stereotype of my zodiac sign, an impulsive hothead who is also a huge softie on the inside. I get angry easily and I also am extremely agressive, sometimes without meaning to, but I can say I am working on that. I tend to obsess over stuff like books, movies, celebrities and scientific facts a lot which would also mean I am extremely intense. My mind is working constantly, I am doing maths in my head 24/7, for example, right now I am calculating the average of words I’ve written basing on how many there are per line. Some of the words people have frequently used to describe me are: Crazy, smart, violent, kind, funny, nice, obsessive. I always say the phrase “not to brag” and I end up bragging. My favorite zodiac sign is Capricorn and despite my former hate towards Leo, I now find myself loving its qualities; even though I have a least favorite I will not share it because I don’t want to hurt anyone. I keep a journal but not those pretty ones you find on pinterest, it’s just a way to let my messy feelings out. Some of my favorite movies are The dead poets society, Call me by your name, La La Land, Black Swan, The Rocky saga and multiple Disney movies including Tangled, Beauty and The Beast, Mulan, Little mermaid and Hercules. I wish I were a lesbian, but I can’t control my feelings, so for some strange reason I could say I am either straight or still not sure. I keep watching Brooklyn 99 over and over again, it is my favorite show and I feel I shoud say that, unlike many many other people, I hate the TV hit show Friends, I just cannot stand it (I love Monica and Chander tho). I want to meet a Gemini so bad, but I still haven’t so, if you are a Gemini and you are willing to stand me for a little while, please let’s have a conversation. People usually say I have a lot of self esteeme but I atually think that’s a cover for all the horrible things I think about myself. Whenever I find something good abut my own person, a trait I like, I can’t help but highlight it constantly, but I don’t think that tiny bit of self love makes up for all the other self hate. Weirdly, I am not an anxious or depressive person and lately, I have been strangely happy. I love talking, as you may have noticed and I so strongly hope this blog thing will work out. Well, I believe there is not much more to say since I have written a gigantic paragraph full of whatever that is. Nobody follows me but it’s nice to get this all out not only to yourself, with the hope that somebody will read it. Anyway, I still don’t know how to use this app but I suppose there are direct messages or something like that, so, whatever way there is to communicate, mine is aways open.  Ps. I’ll see what I’ll post as we start moving on, I can’t plan shit.

[hari-kurono99]

Hey :3 first of all I wish you good luck for your blog! Hopefully you will have a lot of fun! I would be so happy if you could write a scenerio with Hari spending some time with his long time crush on the rooftop of a very high building to watch the stars. How would he try to make her understand that he fell in love with her? ❤️

YES I CAN..... if it is not good i am really sorry i am new to this but Hari needs love just like everyone else. Also Thank you so much that means a lot to me!!! Ps bold text is gonna be Hari thinking in his head.......

Come on Chrono we are almost there just a couple more stairs and we can relax (y/n) said.

Alright alright im coming stop it's been a long day overhaul made me run so many errands today im exhausted "but its all worth getting to spend my evening under the stars with you"

As we walked out of the door to the roof i droped the blanket and Chrono took off the back pack with the snacks. After everything was set up we sat down and just stared at the stars and lights over the city listening to the cars drive by under us not a care in the world.

So since you have been running errands all day i figured this would be the perfect get away since we are best friends "i wish we were more then best friends so much more" Yeah of course Chrono said staring at (y/n) while she stared out into the world. I miss us just hanging out now overhaul has you always running around and i never get to see you it sucks. Do you remeber when we used to just lay on the couch and cuddle and watch movies and overhaul would walk in and scream like a girl and run away because of the germs. Chrono laughed saying yes while scooting closer to (y/n).

Damn i should have brought a jacket its chilly (y/n) said as Chrono started to take off his jacket to give her she stopped him NO WAY then you will be cold ill survive im a strong independent woman thank you. Chrono then decides this is his chance to get a lot closer to (y/n) and unzips his raincoat and pulls (y/n) to his chest and holds her there while she trys to squirm away.

Chrono stop (y/n) says giggling you may get my germs and then overhaul will have a hissy fit "kai is the last thing on my mind honestly im trying not to kiss you youre so warm and soft and shit my face is on fire" Overhaul doesnt matter to me right now its me and you (n/n).

God i hope he doesnt notice how bad i am blushing i love him more then life itself and i cant get the courage to tell him im an idiot he probably already has someone.

Hey Chrono can i ask you something? Yeah of course dork why couldn't you. As (y/n) looked up at Chrono she lost all hope as she drowned in his beautiful eyes and decided im gonna do it hopefully i dont ruin or friendship. (y/n) leaned in and kissed Chrono with as much passion as she could all the while Chrono is in shock "SHE IS KISSING ME HOLY SHIT HOLY SHIT WHAT DO I DO" when he didnt kiss back right away (y/n) pulled away and started to get up to leave fearing as though she just lost her one true friend. Chrono grabbed her wrist as she was walking away snapping out of his shock and kissed her with just as much passion. When they broke apart they were both breathless (y/n) i have loved you since that day we watched that stupid vampire romance movie please be my girlfriend i hate the idea of someone else holding you close and kissing youre soft tender lips everynight, i want to be the one that you rely on to cry on their shoulder to hold hands and take showers together and just do the couply stuff with. At a loss for words all (y/n) could do was pull him close and kiss him with the tears streaming down her face from overjoy of finally getting Chrono to herself. Chro... Stop chrono is not my name for you anymore its Hari or daddy im kidding but seriously dont call me Chrono is Hari im youre boyfriend and i love you.... The rest of the night was spent with more kisses and cuddles.....

Sorry if it sucked i hope you liked it...

[sin-zawa-blog]

Congratulations on your blog! May I request an Aizawaxstudent!reader where the reader is jealous or insecure about their feelings for their teacher after seeing Ms. Joke? Please and Thank You! Happy sinning 😉

Thank you! I’m pretty nervous about sharing my writing with everyone since I think it’s kind of weird, but I’m also really excited! Of course, you can, my little sinbun! I feel every blog has a weird name they call their followers and for that reason, you shall all be my sin bunnies! And if it’s already taken, well, fuck. 

I hope you enjoy it! :D

PS: I literally refer to Reader as “Reader”. I just prefer it over using Y/N.

-x-o-x-o-x-o-x-The reader felt shame for having such a terrible feeling bubbling in her gut. A feeling so strong that it felt as if someone had punched her right in the chest, ripping her heart out, and leaving her a  hollow shell left to rot. She just couldn’t help feeling sick to her stomach every time she looked at them – every time she looked at her; the definition of beauty, with her silky long seafoam green hair that bounced with every boisterous laugh that would spill out of her throat and into the air around her, captivating everyone near and far, including the man of her unrequited affection – man, not  boy.

The envious feeling only grew tenfold when she watched his reactions, how he patiently waited for her to finish her sentences before offering some short remark in return, and how every now and  again he would show a flash of amusement behind his tired eyes that she would kill to have directed at her, if only once. Jealously and envy swirled together in the pit of her stomach in a violent dance that had her choking on her own breath. She hated herself for feeling this way, hated herself even more for letting it affect in such a crucial in her future career as a hero. People around her were being taken out left and right in an all-out battle royal, but she herself was too busy ogling her teacher and his voluptuous friend, who was sitting just a little too close for her liking.

Reader felt…helpless. 

She knew that her feelings were irrational, and something that could never be returned; a sad, one-sided tale of love and taboo, that would never be written. She was briefly pulled out of her self-inflicted agony when her third target began to beep, signaling her elimination. Reader’s eye widened as she looked into the eyes of one of the Ketsubutsu students, grinning triumphantly at her defeated. 

She…lost? 

Reader frowned, again looking to the stands where Ms. Joke stood cheering and praising her student on a job well done while throwing small,  playful jabs Aizawa-Sensei’s way.

Reader and Aizawa-Sensei locked eyes, where shame, met disappointment.Reader hung her head and walked away trying to fight back tears and the bile that threatened to crawl out of her throat at any given moment.

Reader avoided the waiting room where she knew all of her friends who passed would be. So far, she was the only one to fail, and she didn’t want to deal with any of it. She was well aware that she screwed up but not even the fact that she flunked could drive the feeling of jealous rage out of her. The reader took comfort in the security of the locker room, finding it surprisingly empty which really  didn’t shock her since those who have passed and failed headed straight to the waiting for for food and rest, and to not cry about a man twice their age who would never be interested in a pathetic  little girl.

Reader hiccuped, swiping the hot tears from her red and puffy eyes that burned and itched the more she rubbed at them. Once she started, she just couldn’t stop. It was as if the dam containing all of her emotions finally burst and was spilling out in fat teardrops that rolled down her flushed face. If anyone were to see her right now they would assume she was upset because she failed, and not because she was jealous of the attention her Sensei was giving to another woman. The gut-wrenching sobs continued to pour out of her as she placed her head in the comfort of her arms and drew her knees to her chest, cursing herself for being so damn stupid.

“So this is where you ran off to.” Came a deep tone laced with boredom that seemed to echo of the locker room walls.

“It’s not like you to act this way. You’re one of the few out of the class that actually uses their brain, especially in moments as crucial as today. What happened? You seemed distracted.” He said, shuffling closer to her, and crouching down.

Reader’s heart thundered against her chest and her breath seized in her throat; it amazed her how just his voice alone could bring out strong emotions inside of her. She slumped against the locker she leaned on for support, hiding her eyes behind her hands as if they would mask her pain and heartache. She didn’t want him to see her like this! To see her so weak, so vulnerable, looking like a  scared little girl; she wanted him to see her as grown, mature, enticing? – like Ms. Joke! That’s how she wanted to be seen in the eyes of Aizawa Shouta, but she was nothing like that, and they both knew it.

Reader chewed on her lips feeling the tears begin to flow again. Reader shook her head and babbled under her breath words that Shouta couldn’t understand. Shouta sighed, allowing her to pour all of her emotions out even if he couldn’t understand what she was saying, he had a lingering thought of what it could all possibly be about. It didn’t take a genius to figure out something as simple as a  schoolgirl crush…but Shouta believed this case to be a little more extreme, and something that needed delicate handling. He gently pried her hands from her face revealing her swollen red eyes and puffed out cheeks that he found to be quite adorable.

“I can’t help you if you don’t tell me what’s wrong, Reader,” Aizawa said, brushing a lock of hair behind her ear.

His hand held her face for a lingering moment, absorbing the warm that pooled from her blushing cheeks. She sighed, leaning into his touch as a way to savor a moment that she would never get again. Reader pulled herself away from his touch with reluctance, though his hand lingered as if waiting for her to return to his touch and cleared her hoarse voice that suddenly felt too small.

“It’s…nothing, Sensei, really. I’m just upset at myself for getting distracted, is all.” And for letting you down, she wanted to add but remained silent.

“That can’t be all.”

Reader bit her lip. No was her chance! She could finally tell him and get it over with. She could finally let out everything that has been eating her alive since she met him and maybe, just maybe he would…she mentally scolded herself, knowing that she was being foolish.

Reader opened and closed her mouth like a fish out of water. Her fists tightened at her sides and her mouth formed a tight line. 

What are you doing!? 

Open your mouth and speak you, idiot! 

Again she tries but nothing. 

Frustrated, she runs a hand through her hair that has long since fallen out of place and sighs. 

You’re hopeless, she thinks to herself.

Reader thickly swallowed. 

“Even…even if I told you the truth, it isn’t as if anything would change.” She spoke in a broken tone. “It’s much easier to fabricate a lie than to face the reality of a disappointing truth, isn’t it,  Sensei?”

The room was thick with unmasked tension and a dead-silence that weigh heavily in the air. Reader cradled her knees to her chest and looked away from the eyes of Aizawa Shouta that has filled with pitty – that is what she wanted to see; she didn’t want to be pitied by the man she had fallen in love with, all she wanted was to be loved by him.

The sudden lifting of her chin and dark eyes gazing into her own snapped Reader out of her cloud of depression. Aizawa held her chin firmly between his long, slender fingers, showing a flash of concern and guilt that made her heart skip one too many beats. Reader lifted her hand in an attempt to push him away – to push away the reality of the situation – but Aizawa grabbed her hand and held it in his own, gently, as if she were made of glass and would crack if he held on too tightly. 

The world around them seemed to freeze and Reader could practically feel her blood pumping in her ears. She wanted to look away but she couldn’t, his eyes captivated her; everything about him captivated him. As id her body were acting on its own accord she too reached out, and gently cupped his stubbly cheek, inching her fingers upwards to the scar that maimed the underneath of his eye  as a reminder of the sacrifice he made to keep them safe from harm and invoke a feeling inside of her that not even that of All might could bring about.

“You.” She breathed. “You’re on my mind, Sensei. I-I know that it’s wrong, but, I just can’t help it! The truth is, that…that I have really strong feelings for you, and it’s not some stupid schoolgirl  crush – there real!” Reader cried out, clutching her chest. “I can’t stop thinking about you and I really can’t explain it but when…when I saw you with her, with Ms. joke, I just got really jealous and angry because I wanted it to me! I wanted it to be me you look at that way!”

Reader whimpered and shook her head as the tears began to fall once again. 

“And I know that it’s stupid because why would you choose to fall in love with some stupid kid who can’t even control her own emotions?! I’m not as pretty as Ms.Joke or as cool or as funny! I’m just a stupid kid that’s way in over her head, right? But it’s all true and, and –”

Her words were smothered with a kiss. It took her by surprise. So much she even let out a squeak that was muffled by the older male’s mouth; the kiss was scruffy and tickled her face. The reader was frozen, having never experienced a kiss, let alone attraction so strongly towards someone. Should.. she kiss him back? She really wanted to, but it was like having him kiss her made her brain lose all function.

Aizawa sensing her hesitation pulled back and studied her face.  Her eyes were wide and her face was tinted red, which he thought looked cute on her. Again he brushed the hair from her blushing face and gently wiped the tears from her eyes.

“Sorry,” he chuckled, “I couldn’t help myself. It would be improper for me to let you take all of the blame when I was fully aware of your feelings.”

“You were?” Reader’s eyes widened.

“All you staring and blushing gave it away.” He smirked. “A part of me knew that I should diminish your feelings before they grew out of hand, but the other more illogical part of me dismissed those  thoughts because I started to feel attracted to you, as well.”

Aizawa sighed and brushed a hand through his hair. 

“I told myself that it was unprofessional and that it was more trouble than it was worth, but it did little to my growing affection and feelings for you and that’s why I began to distance myself from  you, however today, when I saw how upset you got over the thought of Joke and me, all reason went out the door…and here I am now. I think you’re smart enough to figure out what that means,  Reader." 

Aizawa sighed. "I guess I got a little carr –”

It was Reader this time who silenced him. Her lips smashed against his in a hasty and sloppy kiss that had her tumbling into his lap. His lips were cold and chapped, not warm and soft as the books always said they would be, but she didn’t mind. Slowly and unsurely Reader put her arms around his neck and poured her heart into their forbidden kiss. 

Aizawa chuckled and grabbed her by the waist and pulled her close. He found himself reluctantly pulling back from the kiss and burying his nose in the crook of her neck; his breath warm on her skin.

“Sensei, won’t the others start to notice how long we’ve taken?" 

"I’m not in any hurry.” Aizawa purred against her skin, leaving butterfly kisses on her exposed skin; Aizawa nipped at her skin, running his tongue over the flesh he wanted to bruise and mark as his own.

Reader groaned and knotted her fingers in his hair. Aizawa growled sinking his teeth into her skin, taking pride in the moan that vibrated from her throat and out of silky lips that he wanted to turn from pink to purple.

“S-Sen-s-e-i!” Reader whimpered.

Aizawa paused, taking hold of her chin and locking their eyes together. “Call me Shouta,” he murmured, brushing his lips against her. “Now, scream it for me, Reader.”__________________________________

I’m not very confident in my writing but I love doing it and I hoped I was able to deliver what you wanted! You never specified any sexy moments, so I left the ending open, but if requested I would be happy to write a sequel for it! :D

[nochuuuenthusiast]

tag!

hii~ so i got tagged by @snugglemejeon thank you so much ! i think this is really cute hehe (to the people i tagged: i’m sorry if i tagged you and we haven’t talked that much... i don’t know that many people on tumblr... and also, you don’t have to do this challenge, so feel free to ignore it !) 

rules are: (1) tag the person who tagged you (2) answer the questions (3) tag 10 people (sorry i don’t know that many people here on tumblr so i’m only gonna tag one or two :( but ps! if you wanna be friends with me, don’t hold back and just talk to me hehe) 

(1) how tall are you? 

i haven’t checked in a bit but i’m about 5′2″ (ish) so that’s around 158cm (*sighs* yeah i know... i’m pretty short) 

(2) what color and style is your hair?

i actually got a haircut yesterday before my blackpink concert hehe so now my hair is layered and it goes a little past my shoulders. i didn’t start growing out my hair until late last year since i used to always cut it short (like, a little above my shoulders) so yeah... i used to dye my hair a longgg longggg time ago but now it’s its original color which is dark brown 

(3) what color are your eyes? 

a solid brown (not totally light, but not too dark) (my mom has really pretty light brown eyes but they didn’t get passed down to me so ahhaha *cries*) 

(4) do you wear glasses? 

yes, but no (?) i have glasses but i don’t wear them 24/7 since my eyesight isn’t that bad... i only wear them in class when i’m too far away from the board. i have kinda circular, brown glasses (lmao, i know no one asked but...) 

(5) do you wear braces?

i used to wear braces a couple of years ago so now i just wear my retainers once a week (you’re supposed to wear them every night but whatever,,, i’m pretty lazy and irresponsible and my teeth haven’t shifted sooo once a week will do ahah) 

(6) what’s your fashion sense? 

i care about how i dress but i don’t worry about how i look all the time soooo... i’ll sum up my style in a few words: 26 year old single korean girl walking to an aesthetic cafe on a sunday afternoon. yeah. that’s basically my style. lol i hope you guys understand what i mean... if not, i’m terribly sorry

(7) full name? 

only a few people on tumblr know my name... but i don’t want to reveal it here since i know everyone can see this, and tumblr is the only social media platform where my identity is hidden sooo... 

but if you want to get to know me and learn my name then you can definitely message me or send something to me :) i’m nice, i swear

(8) when were you born?

july 2001; i’m 17 ;) 

(9) where are you from and where do you live now? 

i was born and currently live in los angeles, california however, i am 100% korean. both of my parents were born and raised in south korea. and yes, i am fluent in korean. 

(10) what school do you go to? 

i am a highschooler. and that’s all i’m gonna say. skool sucks :P

(11) what kind of student are you?

i would like to say that i’m more of a hard worker than a naturally smart person, but i am currently getting straight As and for those of you who live in the us, i’m taking 5 APs (which totally sucks :’( but i’m handling them kinda well... i think). and i don’t really like being complimented because one of my biggest fears is of me becoming arrogant so let’s move on,,, pls. 

(12) do you like school?

hell no. but i have to deal with it since everyone does so :/// school isn’t that bad if you daydream and think about bts all day hehe. but in all seriousness, i think school is okay if you have the right friends to hang out with and talk to 

(13) favorite subject? 

history!!! i know this is really weird since not a lot of people like history, but i love ittt!!! i think it’s really fun since it’s kinda like one big story of our world (i’m sorry, i’m such a dork)... i took ap art history last year and i fell in love with it! 

(14) favorite tv shows? 

i used to watch kdramas a longgg time ago, but i kinda stopped but idk why... but my favorite tv shows are friends, the office, stranger things, jane the virgin, etc, etc... i can literally name so many tv shows that i’ve watched but then i’d go rambling on and on and on and i don’t want to bore anyone...

(15) favorite movie? 

forrest gump !!! (and also, did anyone see the two bts movies? i watched both of them at cgv and i literally exploded when i saw the members... okay, moving on (sorry... i get off topic really easily)) 

(16) favorite books? 

i read a book called “pachinko�� by min jin lee over the summer and it was so! freaking! good!!! i highly recommend it everyone~ it’s a historical fiction novel about 3-4 generations of this korean family who lived in korea and then moved to japan. it takes place a little before the korean war and it talks about the discrimination that koreans faced in japan at the time. i recently went to the library to check it out since i wanted to read it again but they didn’t have an english copy of the book so i’m reading it in korean at the moment. 

(17) favorite pastime? 

rewatching and rewatching and rewatching bangtan. oh, and streaming their new album ;) oh, and stressing over the new test questions on the fan cafe that the staff upload every week (i need to level up but the test is so hard... i cry every time) 

and writing for this blog! i originally made this blog to de-stress and write some scenarios and reactions and i didn’t know that people would actually like them and respond to them,,, so hey, thank you :) you make me happy every day 

(18) do you have any regrets? 

yes. too many to count. but i’m not gonna sit here and list them all lol

(19) dream job?

i don’t really know... but something in corporate law (?)

(20) would you ever like to be married? 

yessss! have you seen my entire blog??? it’s an entire fluff kingdom!!! i mean, i know that marriage is not just one big fluff and i know that it’s tough, but i would still like to get married one day 

i have my own little fantasies about how married life would be, but that’s a little secret so i’ll save it for next time ;) 

(21) would you like to have kids? 

as much as i love kids, i’m not too sure if i would want any... i mean, obviously my answer will change in the future, but i kinda want either no kids or just one kid... the responsibility of being a parent kinda freaks me out...

(22) how many?

oops, i kinda answered this already in (21) but i’ll answer again anyway: 0-1 

(23) do you like shopping? 

no, i absolutely LOVE shopping. i think i’m addicted lmao. 

psssss: i know no one asked, but my favorite retail shop is madewell

(24) what countries have you visited? 

ahhh finally... the question i’ve been waiting for... so if you get to know me, i really really really reallyyyyy love traveling and i’m so grateful for all the opportunities i’ve been given to travel at such a young age. 

so, let me just list all the places i’ve been to (an i know not all of these are countries, or out of the us, but just hear me out,,, okay?) : france, italy, south korea, mexico, us (hawaii, nevada, utah, etc (lol, i can’t remember all of them)) 

my favorite location out of all of these places is definitely italy <3 (italy has my heart)... i stayed at rome and i also visited pompeii and positano (which were absolutely stunning and beautiful). i went to rome last spring (around april/may) and i personally, really love sightseeing and history and since rome is full of those two things i reallyyy enjoyed it there. oh, and don’t even get me started with the food <3333 

i also really loved france... i stayed at paris and my favorite thing about paris was definitely the louvre museum (once again, i love art history) as well as this place called montmarte (ahh! it’s so pretty) 

and last but not least, (as much as i love love loveee south korea) i really enjoyed mexico! i love calming, relaxing vacation spots so i got to go to cancun (twice!) and snorkel and swim and see little fishies in the clear turquoise ocean... yeah, i miss it there... :( 

(25) scariest nightmare you have ever had

i would totally tell you guys, but it was too complicated so i’m not even gonna bother. 

(26) any enemies? 

i am a lover, not a fighter (hehe)

(27) any significant other?

does jungkook count? lmaooo it’s a joke... he doesn’t even know i exist lol. 

my answer is no. 

(28) do you get along with you family?

yes, yes i do.

(29) do you believe in miracles?

i believe things happen for a reason... so does that count? 

last but not least... (30) how are you?

i’m actually doing pretty well :))) i was in this really big emotional slump that kinda felt like a roller coaster ride last year, but i’m over it now so... yeah... i doing pretty well :) 

okay, so now that i’m done, i have to tag people, and like i said, i don’t talk to that many people on tumblr since i’m a loser lol so here are the people i’ll tag (sorry, i’m not gonna tag 10 people) : 

@pjmochii @jsuga @kpopsffct @ anyone who wants to do it... 

but yea, i seriously don’t know that many people since i haven’t been on tumblr for a long time, so i’m sorry to the people who i tagged (if i haven’t talked to you a lot, i’m sorry... i’ll try to be a better person and try to talk to you more ...) 

[queenofmahishmati]

❝ Hey there lovelies, 

You guys are STARS for making me reach this milestone!! I’m still surprised that this blog has reached so far ((given the terribly mixed bag of content i post)) but I’m grateful to each one of you for bringing it to this point. I owe you all one and I thought I would do a little giveaway. To appreciate you guys for sticking by me despite all the weird things I post, for standing all my rants and for staying even when I take my own sweet time finding my way back to the blog. Each one of you is so damn special. What wouldn’t I give to know you all individually?! That’s why I’m making this a wee bit personal. I will take a single request from each one of you, be it an edit or a drabble fanfic of anything of your preference from my fandoms. You can always check my navigation for links to them or read under the cut. I will take requests till the end of this month, Sep’18 :) Finished requests can be found here. 

Send one of the following to make a request here ⇢

— ☾ for a url moodboard or a character moodboard

— ☼ for a character edit of your preference

— ☆ for a drabble fanfic from the listed prompts below

Once again, thank you all so very much from the bottom of my heart. I love you lot!!

~ sharme ♥

Ps. For drabble requests, please read under the cut.

I will write for baahubali, klaroline, got7, marvel cinematic universe, indian mythology, harry potter and any south indian cinema that I have watched or know of. Send me a number from the following and the pairing (character x character/reader, or a ship from the fandom) you like and you’re welcome to add any other details you want to include like a particular scenario, a fusion or alternate universe. Cheers :)

1. “Do you want me to leave?” 2. “I swear it won’t happen again.” 3. “I’m not jealous.” 4. “You can’t keep doing this.” 5. “I’m going to take care of you, okay?” 6. “You can’t die. Please don’t die.” 7. “You did what?!” 8. “Were you ever going to tell me?” 9. “Don’t ask me that.” 10. “I might have had a few shots.” 11. “What’s with the box?” 12. “Say it!” 13. “I could kiss you right now!” 14. “Are you done with that?” 15. “Are you still awake…?” 16. “Excuse you?” 17. “This is all your fault!” 18. “I shouldn’t be in love with you.” 19. “I could kill you right now!” 20. “Just admit I’m right.” 21. “That doesn’t even make sense.” 22. “That’s irrational.” 23. “Just pretend to be my date.” 24. “Are you really going to leave without asking me the question you’ve been dying to ask me?” 25. “When you love someone, you don’t just stop. Ever. Even when people roll their eyes or call you crazy… even then. Especially then!” 26. “I think I’ve been holding myself from falling in love with you all over again.” 27. “I’m not going to apologise for this. Not anymore.” 28. “That’s almost exactly the opposite of what I meant.” 29. “It must be hard with your sense of direction, never being able to find your way to a decent pickup line.” 30. “Can I sit here? The other tables are full.” 31. “You weren’t supposed to laugh!” 32. “This is, by far, the dumbest thing you’ve ever done.” 33. “I’m not going to stop poking you until you give me some attention.” 34. “These stars are nothing compared to the ones I’ve seen in your eyes.” 35. “Before I do this, I need you to know that I have always loved you.” 36. “Did I say that out loud?” 37. “Do you think they could have loved me?” 38. “Everyone keeps telling me you’re the bad guy.” 39. “How long have you been standing there?” 40. “Have I ever lied to you?” 41. “Have you lost your fucking mind?” 42. “His ego is so visible; I can almost watch it grow.” 43. “I am not losing you again!” 44. “I don’t know why I’m crying.” 45. “I had a nightmare about you and I just wanted to make sure you’re okay.” 46. “I just need to be alone right now.” 47. “When I picture myself happy… It’s with you.” 48. “I made a mistake.” 49. “I may be an idiot, but I’m your idiot.” 50. “I need you to forgive me.” 51. “I see the way you look at me when you think I’m not looking.” 52. “I think I’m in love with you and that scares me half to death.” 53. “I’m flirting with you.” 54. “I’m not good enough for you.” 55. “I fell in love with my best friend.” 56. “I’m sorry, what? I keep getting lost in your eyes.” 57. “I’m up to the challenge.” 58. “I’ve been in love with you my entire life. Ever since the day I first met you.” 59. “I’m yours.” 60. “If I didn’t know any better, I’d say you were trying to seduce me.” 61. “If you go anywhere near them, you’ll have to deal with me!” 62. “It’s okay to cry…” 63. “What do you mean? It’s exciting!” 64. “Talk to me.” 65. “Look at me—just breathe, okay?” 66. “Look, I don’t have much time, but I wanted to say I love you.” 67. “Oh my god! You’re in love with them!” 68. “Well, this is where I live.” 69. “We finish it the same way we started—together.” 70. “What are you afraid of?” 71. “You are the single best thing that has ever happened to me.” 72. “You deserve so much better.” 73. “You don’t have to stay.” 74. “You don’t know you the way I do.” 75. “You fainted, straight into my arms. You know, if you wanted my attention, you didn’t have to go to such extremes.” 76. “You need to wake up because I can’t do this without you.” 77. “You shouldn’t have even been there!” 78. “You weren’t supposed to hear that.” 79. “You’re safe now. I’ve got you.” 80. “Teach me?” 81. “We’re in the middle of a thunderstorm and you want to stop and feel the rain?” 82. “Looks like we’ll be stuck here for a while.” 83. “Just once.” 84. “I can’t believe you talked me into this.” 85. “It’s not what it looks like.” 86. “I got you a present.” 87. “Hey! I was gonna eat that!” 88. “See, now, what that so bad?”.” 89. “You’re the best part of me.” 90. “I don’t want to think about what I’d be like without you.” 91. “Can I hold your hand?” 92. “Let’s move in together.” 93. “It’s a real shame nobody asked for your opinion.” 94. “What time is it?” 95. “Just wait a second.” 96. “Here, let me.” 97. “You’re so cute when you pout like that.” 98. “Hold me back!’ 99. “I don’t care what they said, it doesn’t mean shit!” 100. “I adore you.”

(( prompts credits © )) 

[shcjfrance]

Shinhwa Changjos

I warn this will be a long and especially the last message I will post on this fanbase. Last message, simply because I decided to stop the fanbase, even if this decision will surely seem to you abrupt, it was made after careful reflection, months to question myself to finally decide to continue. But today the decision to stop has become the only solution for me. I got to the point where holding the fanbase became too difficult on my own. Not out of Shinhwa's disinterest, on the contrary my love for Shinhwa dates back of so long and only grows over the years; but mostly because I'm exhausted, and some other problems that I talked about not so long ago, like the fact that I ask not to repost my links without credits or to upload elsewhere etc etc (I do not want to talk about them anymore, because I just do not want to remember them) Holding this fanbase is hours and hours of my time, everyday, for years, and now I'm not so happy to do it anymore, it's make me feel sad and I'm just not good enough at it anymore. Some of you are already aware of this, especially the translators, I wanted to give myself time to think about this decision, at least until the next comeback and Shinhwa Broadcast, I wanted to finish on something "big" and not like that, but I can not take it anymore. Believe me, this decision was very difficult to take and hurts my heart, I want to cry by writing these words, but if I continue, I will end up remembering only the bad times and I want to remember only the good things, Shinhwa Changjo France held a big place in my life and my heart, it's been 6 years, 6 years of my life it's not nothing. I started when I was 18, and I was around 14 when I first started a French translation blog. The closing represents a big page that turns for me, it may seem selfish for some, because without wanting to throw flowers to myself, I know that I contribute a lot about the videos of members TV SHOWS, and I risk making things difficult to those who don't know how to have them other than with my links. I'm sorry and I'm not asking you to understand my decision. Clearly in this decade to hold a blog, fanbase on Shinhwa, there have been ups and downs. But I have always been able to count on the majority of you to cheer me up, support me, and thank me every day for what I was doing and it will always be warm to me to remember all this. Even when I had a bad time in my private life, those who have not been following me for a long time surely do not know it, but when I had my cancers, I always had a good time thanks to all of you, because the fanbase was my only way out of my daily life that was more than rotten at the time. I met so many incredible people via the internet and in real life via this fanbase. For all this, I will never be grateful enough to you. Thanks again. I think I have reached the point where I simply want to support Shinhwa by being a mere fan without obligations to anyone. All I can say is that I can not wait to continue supporting Shinhwa and the members with you all, because as long as Shinhwa is there, I have no reason to leave. I'll be there, even if it's as anonymous, maybe you will see me on twitter with my personal account shout out how great the comeback is, or that Junjin is so perfect xD I have so many people to thank and I'm so scared of forgetting names that I'm just going to say thank you all for all these years. Thank you. Jenny of Shinhwa Changjo France.

PS: I will let all my SNS, videos accounts open, maybe this can still help some of you.

Je préviens ceci sera un long et surtout le dernier que je posterai sur cette fanbase. Dernier message, tout simplement car j'ai décidé d'arrêter la fanbase, même si cette décision va sûrement vous semblez abrupte, elle a été faites après mûres réflexions, des mois à me remettre en question pour finalement décider de continuer. Mais aujourd'hui la décision d'arrêter est devenue la seule solution pour moi. J'en suis arrivée au point où la tenue de la fanbase est devenue trop difficile à moi seule. Non par désintérêt de Shinhwa, au contraire mon amour pour Shinhwa date depuis tellement longtemps et ne fait que grandir au fil des années; mais surtout car je suis exténuée, et quelques autres problèmes dont j'ai parlé il n'y a pas si longtemps, comme le fait que je demande de ne pas reposter mes liens sans crédits ou encore d'uploader ailleurs etc etc (je ne veux pas plus parler d'eux, car je ne veux simplement pas me souvenir d'eux)

Tenir cette fanbase c'est des heures et des heures de mon temps, tous les jours, depuis des années, pour qu'au final je ne sois plus si heureuse de le faire, que cela me zappe le moral et n'en suis tout simplement plus à la hauteur. Certains d'entre vous sont déjà au courant, notamment les traductrices, je voulais me donner du temps pour encore réfléchir à cette décision,  du moins jusqu'au prochain comeback du groupe et Shinhwa Broadcast, je voulais finir sur quelque chose de "grand" et pas comme cela, mais je n'en peux plus. Croyez moi, cette décision a été très difficile à prendre et me fait mal au cœur, j'ai limite envie de pleurer en écrivant ces mots, mais si je continue, je vais finir par retenir que les mauvais moments, hors je veux me souvenir des bonnes choses, Shinhwa Changjo France a tenu une grande place dans ma vie et mon cœur, cela fait 6 ans, 6 ans de ma vie ce n'est pas rien. J'ai commencé quand j'avais 18 ans, et j'avais autour de 14 ans quand j'ai commencé un blog de traduction en français. La fermeture représente une grosse page qui se tourne pour moi, cela semblera peut-être pour certains égoïste, car sans me vouloir me jeter des fleurs, je sais que je contribue beaucoup concernant les vidéos des émissions et que je risque de désemparer ceux qui savent pas comment avoir les émissions autrement qu'avec mes liens. Je suis désolée et je ne demande pas à ce que vous comprenez ma décision. Clairement dans cette décade à tenir un blog, fanbase sur Shinhwa, il y a eu des hauts et des bas. Mais j'ai toujours pu compter sur la majorité d'entre vous pour me remonter le moral, me soutenir, et me remercier au quotidien de ce que je faisais et cela me fera toujours chaud au cœur de me souvenir de tout cela.    Même quand j'avais des malheurs dans ma vie privé, ceux qui me suivent depuis pas longtemps ne le savent sûrement pas, mais quand j'ai eu mes cancers, j'ai toujours pu compter sur vous pour tenir, car la fanbase était mon seul échappatoire à mon quotidien qui était à ce moment là plus que pourri. J'ai rencontré via internet et dans la vie réelle tellement de personnes incroyables via cette fanbase. Pour tout cela, je ne serai jamais assez reconnaissante envers vous. Merci encore. Je pense que j'ai atteint le moment où j'ai simplement envie de soutenir Shinhwa en étant une simple fan sans obligations envers quelqu'un. Tout ce que je peux dire c'est que je suis impatiente de continuer à soutenir Shinhwa et les membres avec vous tous, car finalement tant que Shinhwa sera là, je serai là, même si c'est anonymement, peut-être que vous me verrai sur twitter avec mon compte perso crier à quel point le comeback est génial, ou que Junjin est tellement parfait xD J'ai tellement de gens à remercier et j'ai tellement peur d'oublier des noms que je vais simplement dire merci à tous pour toutes ces années. Merci. Jenny de Shinhwa Changjo France.

PS: Je vais laisser tous mes comptes vidéos, et réseaux sociaux ouvert, peut-être que cela peut encore aider certains d'entre vous.

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Takemasa’s Blog: Thank you for Mitsuki’s Birthday Festival (2018 February 26)

Home. Sunny.

Thank you all so much for attending Mitsuki's birthday festival.

Mitsuki's birthday festival was held on February 24th. So it was called a birthday event, And I think of course it was promised that we'd be in a mood to celebrate, I wonder if maybe it wasn't just because we were increasingly boxed up in that idea? Once we overcame that idea that we had to celebrate him, We came to actually overflow with feelings of happiness toward him.

After all, everyone around him and the fans as well can clearly see that Mitsuki tries harder than anyone else. Something like that.

But even so, we told our junior BPRecords members so many times Not to leave their photoshoots and whatnot to come to Nagoya. lol

(Koudai and Hayato, truly thank you. Koudai was with Royz just the other day in a photoshoot, then left immediately and traveled all night to get here. Haya-pii arrived the day before and spent the entire time with Kiryu.)

Everyone was sooo red, Overflowing with the day's celebratory mood.

Of course it was fun, But of course, in usual Mr. Kujou-style, I lost a competition and was awarded a penalty...

I revealed an original birthday song. lol

You may call it a penalty, But it wasn't totally out of my hands. If you look at it in a different light, I was awarded an opportunity at an important event, And I felt ready to take on the privilege of this challenge.

But, When I got home and really had to think about it, I suddenly felt lost.

First of all, it's Mitsuki's birthday, And I've been by his side for countless years, So I wanted to convey to him words from one of our shared stories of the past.

I was doing it especially for him, and I didn't want it to be like anything else that's been done before.

First of all, what kind of song do I write? How do I convey my own feelings toward him? ／(^o^)＼

...I didn't know what to write. lol

When I began to really think about it, If I beat my hands lightly and thought about a springy, pop-style melody, "Happy birthday Fu〜Wa♪ Fu〜Wa♪" I made something that went like that. lol (Although I feel like that was that song's only good point.)

I made it about halfway through the song... NO!!!! WHAT AM I DOING WRITING SUCH A CARELESS SONG TO END SUCH A MAGNIFICENT DAY?!!!!! I thought as I deleted the entire thing. lol

I ended the song with this thought:

https://t.co/XvBBiVh0wc

As a penalty for losing a game, Kujou Takemasa released an original birthday song he wrote. The full story can be seen on the official fan club website.

I want to be the kind of person who can change the lives of others.

You can see the whole thing on the fan club website ♪

I put a lot of effort into conveying my feelings.

I'm really happy Mitsuki seemed to like it. I'm glad I worked so hard! I'm glad I started over! lol I don't have a lot of chances to write something for someone so close to me. I was nervous and my face was red and embarrassed, but afterward, the sense of relief was overpowering. lol

I guess I did an okay job. lol

And, well, actually, After the show was finished, Mitsuki's parents came backstage to see him, and oh how he cried. lol And when I saw that, it made me want to cry, too looooooooooool

I guess it makes people happy to see their parents proud of them. And even as the other members of Kiryu watched, everyone looked happy for him. That feeling was genuine.

Thank you, everyone.

On Mitsuki's birthday, the lead character was Mitsuki, But I wondered if I also wasn't a main character? It was that sort of level of happiness. Truly, everyone who loves Mitsuki and who loves Kiryu, thank you.

PS

Everyone looked so relieved when the opening sound effects played.

Goodbye!

[janeeet-n]

**Disclaimer: This is a really, really long post.**

You have not only provided me with a wealth of knowledge and opportunities but you’ve equipped me with probably one of the best support group a girl could have ever dreamed of. I could not have asked for a better group of friends here at Davis, so I’ve decided to do something different on this blog. I want to take this time to share with you my friends here in cow-town that have been here for me since day one. (There isn’t a specific order, friends!)

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Lizzy,

My high school sweetheart! Hahaha, we’ve known each other for a while now, and I’m so glad that we got even closer during our time here in cow-town. I’m always so inspired by your resilience and the unending love you have for everyone. You’re so down to earth and easy to talk to. You’re relatable, and you’re not shy to be who you are. I really admire your ability to understand people at all sorts of angles. Every time I come to you with my problems, you always put it in a whole new perspective. I truly am so grateful for you. To have known you since high school is honestly a blessing. We’ve literally been through so much. I remember during summer, you even went with me to get the Nexplanon when I was such a wimp. You are such a true one. You have guided me through a shit ton of mishaps, and I’m so blessed to have someone so anchored in my life. Girl, we got so much ahead of us! Thank you for everything! By the way, thank you for always being the first to reach out to me and dragging me out of the study lounge or lonely library to hang out. I always get so excited to hang out/study with you. (Sorry about your tire. I’m bad juju.)

Myat,

The badass. I remember when I went through such a hard time, you would always AMPLIFY things, and it was always so bizarre that it made me feel better. I remember when we were on the bus together to go to Trader Joe’s (?), and I was pretty sad about my recent breakup. All you said was “I’m going to cut him like filet mignon.” Hahaha, I still laugh so hard just thinking about all of the bizarre, outrageous things that you always say when you’re feeling heated. You never let anyone hurt your friends and that warms my heart. You will always fight for people you care about. If I ever need a partner in crime, I know you would be the go to girl for that. You’re literally badass. On the real though, you’re extremely sweet! I remember when our friend went through some problems, you would literally come to me and ask about what to do when s/he acts a certain way or how to comfort someone. You’re so caring and compassionate. You don’t always understand what someone else is going through, but you actually put yourself out there and find a way to understand people better. You genuinely care, and I’m so glad to have someone who is so badass yet such a softie. Also, you introduced me to the fangirl world and honestly, I’ve learned SO much about your fangirl life- things I did want to know and certainly things I wish I didn’t. (Thank you for guiding me through my ginger-basketball fangirl phase.)

Michelle,

The sweetest, purest little flower in our group. You were the first person to make Davis feel more like home to me. I remember meeting you as my roommate for the first time. You were so chirpy and happy! I was feeling pretty sad but you made the move-in experience a lot lighter, and it always felt like everything would be fine. I remember asking you if you missed home because we come from the same hometown, and you bluntly replied “no.” Hahaha, in my head, I was like, “damn, okay, Miss Independent over here.” You always have the purest intentions, and I really appreciate how hard-working you are and how you manage to “nap” for three plus hours. It’s quite impressive, I must say. I think it’s so cute how I can always find stickers on the messenger app that reminds me of you. You always fill my heart up with so much love and joy. I’ll never forget the time you set out some time of your day to sticky-note my desk, take down pictures, block out names, AND write encouraging notes on little post-its. I truly did not understand true friendship until I came back that Sunday and saw my space filled with nothing but positivity. By the way, I will never forget the times I almost died in your car and our spontaneous Jan and Mish trip to the biggest corn maze in the world! + figuring out how bad you were with your left and right. Hahaha.

Reca,

My model. I don’t know how you do it. I still don’t to this very day understand how you literally do it all. I love how you’re so 100 with everything. You are literally perfect. Reca can literally be that girl that breaks the curve in your math class to being that girl getting so lit at the parties. You are the definition of work hard, play hard. Hahaha. You literally inspire me to overcome my challenges and to never take things for granted. You always think outside of the box, and I really appreciate how real you are with the life you’re given. You bring a different perspective of hard work and passion into life. You somehow don’t ever need to say a lot to get your point across, and I really admire that. You’re such a boss lady! You’re who I would want my daughter to look up to. Seriously. Not only are you great at all that you do but you’re also a real friend. You’re always so, so easy to talk to and so understanding of the circumstances. You don’t let anyone stand in your way, and you have such genuine intentions. I am so glad you slid into my DMs before freshmen year and asked me to be your roommate. It felt like we were online dating, to be honest! (And when we did a Skype call to make sure we are all legit humans. Hahaha) I remember how you totally catfished me when I saw you in real life, and you were literally like 2 inches taller than me instead of 5 inches taller. You’re also freaking queen. You know how to transform- like damn girl. You out here to steal someone’s girl. (& thank you for sharing modern slang with me because I’m a literal grandma.)

Mary,

You’re so down to earth. You’re so funny, even if you don’t intend to be. You have a heart made of gold. I will never forget when the whole “clown scare” thing was going viral, and you told us that if a clown appears, you will run the clown over with your bike. Hahaha. Mary, I hope that you will one day learn that your heart deserves more than what you think you deserve. Never be afraid to be vulnerable at times. I’m always rooting for whatever you choose to do!  It’s always so nice having someone the same size to borrow and trade clothes with! Hahaha. If you ever need anything, I got you. You are such a wholesome person to be around. You are so easy to talk to and you really bring me home. You give off a very cozy vibe, and I really find comfort in being around you. It may sound so weird, but it’s a good thing! Here’s to many more years of us watching scary movies together, gossiping about anything, and trying to understand the quarter system of university. (And listening to each other spill tea about anything we can think of!) To tackling university together a quarter at a time and crying over how we don’t know how to study. (We’ll get there one day!!)

Alice,

I think our first time really ever interacting was probably going to Ike’s together. We made the plan randomly and somehow carried it through successfully! I remember thinking I can’t cancel on Alice, because I want to get to know her better! You’re always so calm unless you copied down the wrong BIS2C notes or dropping your pens everywhere in class. You never back down from anything, and I love that so much about you. You’d literally tackle anyone. (According to Bryan) I remember freshman year, always wondering how you did it all. You are my superwoman. You somehow manage to wake up early to go swimming everyday, whether it’s hailing or sunshine. You run marathons. You know how to play an instrument (maybe even more than one?). You study hard. You work relentlessly. You eat healthy- literally. You stay on top of your shit. You amaze me every day with all that you do. You are hashtag goals. Hahaha. You are so admirable, and I hope to get to know you even better as we spend the next two years together in undergrad plus many more!

Kat,

You’re literally the only person I bother like way too much. I love talking to you. I love being around you, studying with you, and eating with you! You are literally the best study buddy I’ve ever had. I love how I can just ask you everything, and you won’t judge me but instead guide me through the basics. You’re always pushing me to my fullest potential and always reassuring me that I’m meant to be where I am. Hahhaha, sometimes, I really do need that type of encouragement, and you always give it to me. You always believe in me, and I want to make you proud. We have such meaningful conversations, and you openly share your culture with me all the time. You’re literally the best. By the way, lets visit Kouba again! I really miss him. I remember when it was our first Christmas together, and you bought me an elephant plush! That was like after a quarter of knowing you too. We somehow got so close so fast, and I’m so grateful for you. I remember our talks about witch doctors and just really deep talks anywhere and everywhere. I love that I can get real with you and share my stories with you. I’m always here for you, girl! (PS. lets take more classes together.)  By the way, you ARE SO TALENTED. You have such fantastic art and musical skills. Don’t ever hide it from the world because we need more people like you.

Bryan,

You’re sweet. I don’t care how many times you are going to deny it. You’re just utterly, truly the sweetest. You give everyone a second chance even when they truly don’t deserve it. You have a heart made out of gold. You see the best in people, and you’re never judgmental. Since day 1, you’ve always been so easy to talk to. You love to bring people together, and you love to be around people. You’re a people person. You’re humble and kind. You’re also super funny even when you don’t remember the next day. Hahaha, you truly made NorCal feel more like home for me. I really also freaking love how you don’t understand jokes- just like me! Except maybe too delayed. I think it’s so funny how you will literally laugh FIVE minutes later after the joke has already been told. I’d be like,”what are you laughing about?” Then you’d answer, “the joke earlier.” Shake my head. Hahahah. I also admire the fact that you run for fun every day and then continue to call yourself “out of shape.” (Like how.) You’re always down to hang out and go on adventures. Growing through university with you and sharing our tragic life events together- I cannot wait to see how you’re going to continue to grow and find yourself through university. We’re going to make it out better and stronger by 2020. (Process to 2020, eh? No matter what you hide, you can count on me to get to the core!)

Neil,

Oh Neil, oh Neil. You are someone I can ALWAYS count on. You have my back every time. And you best believe I got yours too. Even if you’re going to vomit all over me, I still won’t let you down. Even when you’re out and about, I’ll still drive you home. You’ve always been so kind to me and you’re HEHlulLA funny- sometimes. Being around you is always going to be a litty titty time. (HAHAHAH) I love hearing your past stories, your struggles with fat mentality, and your hoe stories. I can always get serious with you one minute and the next minute be laughing about how you thought making out was kissing yourself on the floor. You’re such a homie. Or how you say it, HamMEE. You’re so charismatic and lovable. Your smile lights up the room. I remember coming to you and crying about nothing. I ALSO remember when you made me cry in the study lounge as well.  I would like to partake in part of your ‘glow up’ when you asked me about whether you should get piercings, and I straight up told you how those baggy ankle jeans and Nike Air won’t get you that ‘look.’ Also that time that I held you back from vomiting as you continued to vomit all over my hand and arm- true friendship. And the time I slept on the couch so that you were forced to clean up your room. You’re welcome. You’re like a brother to me, Neil!! (JaNeil was real.) By the way, you’re super handsome, don’t EVER trip about it or feel as if you’re being too full of yourself by taking second looks in the mirror. You deserve it after working so hard to get to where you want to be!

Eric,

You wizard. Your brain is literally engineering wired- it amazes me. You’re so smart but at the same time soooooo crazy dangerous sometimes. You’re definitely an engineer for sure though. You always find such creative ways to solve problems that I would have never thought of. You fix things when they’re broken and neglected. You’re always so real and straightforward as well. You say it as it is. You’re so fun to talk to and be around. You were also one of the first to make me feel as if NorCal was home. You are such a great friend, and I love that I can always come to you with my problems and you’d literally just sit at your desk and listen to me ramble on and on. By the way, thank you for always observing my cooking and telling me that I cannot boil water at medium heat. Hahaha. You used to be such a grandpa and sleep at like 11PM, but woah did that change. You sleep at like, what, 1AM? Insane. It’s always great to see you out of your comfort zone too. You need to get out of that comfort zone more, Eric!! You need to just let loose and let those spaghetti arms and daddy long legs do whatever they want to do! Another note, you are always so prepared. Literally, for everything. I am SO SORRY that I have used up all of your Tylenol. I will get you a new bottle, so that I can use it again. Hahaha, just kidding. But seriously, you are so resourceful and I know that you literally have everything just an arms length away. You’d survive an apocalypse. But then again, you did slide down the staircase head first.

Brandon,

I still don’t remember meeting you at all. It’s quite funny how I literally only remember celebrating your birthday with complete strangers. You have always shown me so much love and care. I remember when you walked me back from formal in the dark because I hate the dark. That was very nice of you. Then we just sat in Bryan and Eric’s room to talk until like 4AM. You always try your best to be so patient with me when teaching me about physics and never questioning how I don’t understand anything. Your passion for dentistry has made me really excited for dentistry, and it’s so nice having someone to talk about toothpaste and flossing with. You’re so kind and the way you think about others always amazes me and brings me to tears. I’m so excited to be your co-dental head for this upcoming year. I’m so excited to see this professional side of you as we make Benit and Roger proud. I really look up to you, Brandon. Please get into dental school and show me your ways! You’re literally so knowledgeable and resourceful. Thanks for all of the curry and pasta in return for all of the times I gave you my end products in organic chemistry lab because you always somehow failed to collect enough products or even have reliable data. Shake my head. Thanks for being weird and such a breath of fresh air.

Andy,

You keep it one hundo. You will always say things the way you think it should be. You’re so knowledgeable about literally everything. You always know bits and bobs here and there. It’s so easy to talk to you and learn more from you. I also admire how hard working you are, yet so relaxed at home. You work so much, and I don’t know how you do it!! I remember asking you once why you work so much and you responded, “well, I have 16 hours that I don’t anything so might as well just work.” Hahaha. I really admire that! I have 16 hours that I don’t do anything too, but when I work, I ain’t subtracting any of my work hours from the 16 hours of doing nothing. (Probably why I didn’t work for long, hahah!) You’re a great listener as well! You have such an open mind and you always logically think things out when us girls are literally overthinking things and being extra as hell. Or whenever we’re stuck, you’re always willing to help out. I can always count on you, Andy! Thank you for always being here for everyone. I remember how shy you were when we first hung out, but then as you warmed up to us, you got real quirky. You’re such a unique individual, and I am so excited to see what the future holds for you!

Rheymart,

Bish. I don’t even know where to start. My first out-of-same-dorm friend at Davis. It was a sea of college students taking MAT17A at like some absurd time in the morning and from a distance, I spotted you. You were SO easy to talk to the moment I came up to you. You gave me your number right away, we clicked so fast, and we’re now friends for life. Hahaha. I love how extra you are. You’re a drama queen, but you’re also so shy. I LOVE all of our memories from freshmen year, even though you were a bitch at the end at one point, but I just blame your extra, petty ass for it. You’re hilarious and such a great dancer! This is so random, but remember that one time before our MAT17A final, you took out your angel figurine and legit prayed. That was gold. You always went to office hours with me too, so I thank you for never complaining about me dragging your ass to Kouba’s office hours literally every day. The only reason I got an A in that class. We always have such great memories together. Ugh, I miss seeing your booty popping moves in the dorms and sleeping on the floor in the hallways of Tercero with you. Remember how we pretended we were studying on the floor and “accidentally” fell asleep, so that when someone caught us we’d be like “oh shit, we didn’t mean to! We were just studying.” You’re my partner in crime and remember our pact- if we end up lonely, we’re going to move in together and live life to its fullest!!

Enriquez, Matthew, 

You were the first person to introduce me to the college “life.” You are one a kind. You never fail to make me laugh from such smart jokes. You are literally the life of the party. I’m so glad that you approached me that one time that I was eating breakfast alone at the dining commons. Do you remember that? We were just eating cereal together for breakfast. You then somehow got into the topic of pot and parties. It was very interesting with all of your spazzy “woo’s” and “ooo’s” and awkward arm flails. I remember after our brief meeting, we never stopped snapchatting! We became really great friends, and somehow we connected through mutual friends. It’s so baffling how small this world is. I’m so glad to have met someone who is so free-spirited and so intelligent. I remember how after my confrontation with my ex-boyfriend, you messaged me about how you looked up to me and were proud of me. That made me tear up because I never really thought of you as one to really say such things. You were always so out of the loop and all over the place, hahaha, It really touched my heart. I really admire you, Matthew. You are such a bright, entertaining soul. I am so excited to see you doing big things in the future.

Jeff,

Jizz. I remember when I first met you, you were eating vanilla yogurt out of the big tub. You had yogurt ALL OVER your mouth, but you just didn’t give a damn. You kept eating and boy, did you keep talking and talking. I remember asking one of the other boys, “does Jeff talk this much?” Hahaha! I always get pulled into your conversations, and they are so inappropriate for the real world but you always got a point. You always do. You’re so loud and funny at home, but in public you’re such a good kid!! Hahaha, that facade you got on is too good. I’m so glad I got the chance to get to know you. You’re such a real one and your boujie clothes/fashion style are A+. You always make me laugh, and it’s never a bad moment when I’m around you! (Remember when we had a deep conversation in the middle of your room, and you legit out of nowhere just decided to strip into your pajamas.) I can’t wait to spend the next couple of years in college with you. You’re such a joy to be around, and I hope to one day conquer the Picnic Day scavenger hunt with you!

End note: I know this was such a long post, but I seriously could have kept going on and on about each and every one of you. You all hold such a special place in my heart. Y’all have been here for me through my ups and downs. I understand true friendship because of y’all. You are the reason I love Davis, the reason I look forward to coming back up after break even though I’m so, so family oriented and homesick all the time. Thank you for everything and for always pushing me to be the best version of myself while at the same time telling me to let go and relax every now and then. You are all so individually unique, and I don’t think I would have ever been able to find a more wholesome, perfect group to be around anywhere else. I understand why I’m where I am, and it’s because we were all destined to meet. We’re literally family away from home. My university experience would have never been the same without you all. Here’s to us, the Sleepy Pasta Bitches, est Fall 2016.

From the very bottom of my heart,

Janet Nguyen

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