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glmfic · 17 days ago
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a love letter & I have BIG news
Hello my lovelies. It is I, the writer of Ghost Hunters, Lies, & Money. I have been writing this fic since 2017 (!!!) Eighteen years as of this March!!!
This is something really amazing to me when I reflect on it. I am a perfectionist, which means—as I’ve learned—a  procrastinator. To know that I have managed to commit to something so long and dedicatedly
it means soooo much, and truly it is because of love. My love for the cast of characters the incredible Fuyumi Ono has created in Ghost Hunt, and the love of my loyal readers. It’s emotional to feel such a strong love of something, and then get to share in it with such a special group of people—what a gift! Ah, I’m getting choked up
brb

Okay, this might be coming across kind of sentimental and thus lead you to think I’m about to say this is the end of my writing on Ghost Hunters, Lies, & Money—but actually it’s the opposite!! I am here, ahead of my BIG announcement, after a year of not posting, to hard core reaffirm my dedication to GLM. In fact it is because of my BIG announcement that I am even more focused on GLM. So what is this BIG announcement
?
[drum roll]
I am writing a novel!! A bona fide, original, novel. I am a ball of nervous energy announcing this and I wanted to tell you, my dear readers, first. Many of you have been following GLM for years and years and have been my motivation that has resulted in every chapter I’ve ever posted. Your support, your kindness has made such a difference in my life. More than you know. Because of you I’ve kept writing all these years
when I could of just not? I could of just let work take over and never practiced the thing that I am most passionate about: writing. But I have you. And knowing that, I kept going: someone out there wants to read what you’re writing Amber!
Fear & doubt are real things I live with every day (an authorly occupational hazard??), but with every interaction with you my dear readers, those fears and doubts get smaller. I have been working with a wonderful mindset coach since September who has helped me throw into clarity all that I am grateful for and what I want my future to look like. I face a lot of uncertainty, but this I am sure of: I am so thankful for you my dear readers, and I would be honored if you stayed by my side through my new adventures in novel writing.
I am at ground zero when it comes to my novel and I would really love to share my experience every step of the way with you. I have opened a new Tumblr blog to document this journey and I plan for it to be an interactive and fun space to share my writing updates, get your input (very important!), share spoilers and previews, ramble incoherent writing things, ect. If you’d be interested in coming along with me learning step by step what it takes to write a novel from scratch, I’d love to see you there :)
So what does this mean for GLM??
UPDATES.
Because of my novel writing goals, I’ve had to come up with a writing schedule. And this (of course!!) includes GLM. In fact, it’s a necessity. Writing a novel is frankly pretty terrifying. I know I can do it, but I am waaaay out of my comfort zone. But writing GLM? That IS my comfort zone. Writing GLM will be so good for me, it will preserve my sanity. Nothing like a dose of Naru to cheer you up :) But I digress
back to the point: updates! From now going forward through the month of January (and beyond), I will be dedicating Saturdays to writing on GLM. I will post my writing updates here of course and we can scream together as things are really ramping up as we head towards the climax of this case
ahhhh! If I am mathing correctly
you could roughly expect chapter 35 in time for Valentine’s day: I love you here is a new chapter! That’s just 6 Saturdays between you and the next chapter! WOW.
My dear readers, I don’t know if this rambling post conveyed it, but— whether you choose to follow me on my novel journey or not, thank you for being here. Thank you for reading my writing. Thank you, thank you, thank you. I’ll link you to my novel writing Tumblr below, which will have more details about the general premise of my novel soon (think rom-com/kdrama), and I will see you again Saturday for a—gasps—GLM writing update!
Later lovelies! xoxo
Ambernim8 | novel writing blog of yours truly
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bittersweet-folder · 8 months ago
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hi!
tell me your favourite writers on this app and what you love about their writing!
go!
Aww thank you for this questionđŸŒ·â™Ąâ™Ą. Here's the list <3
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@hoshifighting :
I love her writing. When when I say it I really mean it. Her writing really portrays her creativity and style. They can be slow paced but they'll keep you hooked till the end (if you are patience). I love her slow burn fics as well. They are just so well written, like so very well written. And what really amuses me was her being so active from the start. Trust me I really want that being consistent about my writing but I just can't. And it's actually really tough to be consistent. And her smuts- hmmmmmmmmmmm imma be straight forward- they make me blush real bad also wet sometimes đŸ«¶. đŸŒ·
@pan-de-seungcheol :
Soo I've read many of her smuts before actually following her in this new blog i created after deleting my previous one. I may not read the angst fics (there's a reason behind it. Everyone have there own reasons) but I love love the smuts written by her. Pan your polyamory representation something I really loved because usually I see a negative representation of that. Your smuts make me wet, to state it quite straight forwardly. Your writing really does things to me (now why does this sounds like confession letter 😭). They are really well crafted. đŸŒ·
@tomodachiii :
I discovered her fics recently and I'm in love. I love domestic scenarios especially when it has a really Asian household setting (because I live in one+ I'm the oldest daughter đŸš¶đŸ»â€â™€ïž). And see if anything I feel seen but I really love the comforting feeling it gives me while reading them. Sure it leaves me with a bittersweet moment where I really do sit and think "wow it would be great if I actually experienced that kinda affection" but honestly that's how good writing is supposed to make you feel. I really admire her writing style. đŸŒ·
@diorkyeom :
I love her writing style, her ideas, her fics, the plot everything literally. Her Seoksoo fics made me giggle, blush, bury my face and scream to the pillow and what not. I just lovee her way of portraying soft fluffy affectionate moments. I'll cry. I've even read her fics staying up late at night because Im fucking invested 😭. They are just so nice and sweet and soft. And the literature references she uses at times as well it makes me feel seen and happy. (Ps - I'm an English major who's first ever written fanfic was a Minwon fan fiction. It is not finished yet)đŸŒ·
Some more mentions for fluff writers (who may also post nsfw fics in their blogs too):
@seokminded : her writing style is simple yet very effective. Her fluff scenarios are so fucking cute I might cryđŸ˜­đŸŒ·.
@wifeyoozi : your consistency in posting I swear🛐 . Im a big fan of your imaginessđŸ˜©đŸŒ·. (Especially the nsfw ones they are like very very, idk I've lost words, they feel very real)
@onlyhaos : Liddy I'm soft for your writing. Your fluffs are so cuteeeeeee. AHHHHHJHHHHHHHHHHH okayyy take loveđŸ˜©đŸŒ·
@nonuify : I literally followed you few minutes ago and I have reblogged one of your nsfw imagine before. I really love them. Take love đŸŒ·đŸ˜©.
MAKE SURE TO CHECK THEM ALLL OUT Or I'll haunt you in your nightmares 😀.
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dream-a-little-longer-1 · 2 years ago
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Hello! Your writing is amazing, it always makes me smile when I read ^-^
Can I request William and Moran with a sweet female s/o? Like, William is seen as a smart, logical guy and Moran is like the big, tough guy but the gang sees them trailing behind their s/o like a lost puppy asking for affection.
Thank you!!
Hi!!! omgs, you'll gonna make me cry!!i made this blog JUST to make ppl happy and smile 😭😭😭😭
Awww such a cute idea!!! it'll be my pleasure to write it for you!!!
Ps : extra romantic!!
Love, Luna
✧*.ïœĄ*♡✧*.ïœĄ*♡✧*.ïœĄ*♡✧*.ïœĄ*♡✧*.ïœĄ*♡✧*.
William
‱William can always control his cool even in the worst situations,we all know that
‱the world can come crashing down,and the man wont bat an eye
‱but with you
‱William feels so lost
‱its not often,that you see a man like William fall in love, specially this hard
‱to feel so attached to someone
‱the feeling of wanting someone
‱William isnt used to it at all
‱but he doesnt try to shake off this feeling,nor get rid of it no
‱he grab at it with both hands,and lets himself feel the love he always feels when he sees you around
‱to the outsiders,it may be dumb,to see a brilliant man like William,falling victim to love
‱his family and friends watch in awe,how his eyes always search for you in the crowd
‱or how it fallows you wherever you go with something close to yearning deep within them
‱its funny
‱its unusual
‱but to William,it doesnt matter what the whole world will say about it
‱he will continue to love you to his heart content
Sebastian Moran
‱Sebastian,a player,never one to set for someone
‱finally falls in love,hard,when he lays eyes on you
‱since he's been with so many women,he knows what he's feeling for you isnt just a simple and passing feeling
‱since he'd never felt like this toward anyone before
‱so he decides to play along;not knowing that he'll fall ever harder for you when he starts knowing you better
‱so after that,he starts getting attached to you by hip
‱always following the sound of your voice or your laughter
‱always trying things that makes you happy,just to see you smile so brightly
‱its a hilarious sight,really,to watch a man like Sebastian
‱strong, merciless
‱someone that can snap a man's neck with only one hand
‱follow after you like a lost puppy
‱always seeking your attention,always needing to be near you
‱but for him,its the first time that he's ever felt so happy being with someone
‱so he decides to follow you,even if you're planning to walk till the end of the world
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kithtaehyung · 2 years ago
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HAPPY NEW YEAR RYEN 🎆🎇( its 2023 here already and want to start the year with thanking people who carried me through last year) I hope this new year treats you well and help you archive everything you want o⁠(⁠(⁠⁠^⁠▜⁠^⁠⁠)⁠)⁠o
When I say I definitely would not have been able to survive this year without your blog ( both you and your writings ) I truly mean it (⁠ξ⁠‿⁠ξ⁠) simply saying this may not make you realize how much you helped me but now you are basically my older sister which I never had àȄ⁠‿⁠àČ„ ( yes claiming you as my sister now hehe) *send you a hug and a hundred*
It's also been one year since I discovered 3tan cause I found it like a month after it was posted, so 'happy 3taniversary' and to discovering your blog (⁠ ⁠â•č⁠▜⁠â•č⁠ ⁠) my first story was actually 'ugh f*ck' ( talk about an introduction) before I read 3 tangerines like a few days later and realized you wrote both stories (⁠≧⁠▜⁠≊⁠) I end up reading rest of your masterlist after that (⁠✿⁠^⁠‿⁠^⁠) and end up commenting for the first time ever which was how comfortable I feel around here (â ă†â Ï‰â ă†â ) Thank you again for the amazing stories you give us which I'm sure take lot of brain power and thank you for creating this loving community too (⁠äșș⁠ ⁠‱͈⁠ᮗ⁠‱͈⁠) I hope you are proud of what you did this year even though you may have regrets. Just know you made a person who lives oceans away from you happy and inspired multiple times throughout the year (⁠◠⁠‿⁠◕⁠)
Excited to see what another year with you brings and to start a new chapter of my life ⁠(⁠^⁠o⁠^⁠)⁠I have not been excited for a new year in years cause nothing seems to be different anyways but things will be very different this year I'm both excited and scared but hopefully I can make it work and get step closer to how to the life I want to live (âœ·â€żâœ·)
ps. My commentary is coming along , I seems to have underestimate how burnout I was but I have started multiple chapters and they are all coming up together. You can expect to get them all this month hopefully (⁠っ⁠.⁠❛⁠ ⁠ᮗ⁠ ⁠❛⁠.⁠)⁠っ
-🍯
HONEY BABYYYY omfg i smiled so wide when i saw this message i'm screaming !! first, i'm glad that you're actually excited for this new year and going for the life you want to live. i'm doing the same, so let's go for it together :D
thank you so much for reaching out. when i tell you that you and your feedback box commentaries have been the fuel that keeps me going, i sincerely mean it. i spent so much time going through your feedback and squealing/laughing/crying the whole way through. no matter what i was doing - even if i was on my afternoon runs - i would get the emails and stop what i was doing to read them<33 and then would go back and read them again later in the night when i had time to settle in and read a lot more relaxed. each time, they have given me much joy, so thank you endlessly.
i can be the older sister you've never had! of course i can be that for you, babe. you're so sweet. i'm glad you were able to find this blog (and ahahaha both ugh f*ck and 3tan?? what a combo!) it's been a joy to have you. you never fail to mention the work and brainpower that writing this series takes, and it makes me feel better each time. this does take a lot of me so thank you for highlighting those aspects of the process. you've made this person happy, too. happy new year and i'll be thinking of you when i see fireworks🎆🎇
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tinyboxxtink · 4 years ago
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"Clueless" *Part 3*
Okay so my dog ended up being totally fine, and luckily I had most of this written beforehand. <3
PS- REALLY shouldn't have watched the actual movie while writing this...lulz. Count how many actual lines from the movie you catch.
Part 1
Part 2
Part 4
Tag List:
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@chasingeverybreakingwave
@wanniiieeee
@milkshqke
@gibbs274
@aprildecker-blog
@objection-argumentative
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@stars-in-the-skies-world
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He drove back up the Beach House, but you and Ariel had abandoned it for a loft in the city, no forwarding address. He asked himself why he was putting so much effort just to get back in contact with you. He couldn’t explain it, it was like something against logic.
He dialed Ariel’s number.
IGNORE.
Redial.
IGNORE.
Text: “Answer your phone!!!”
Redial.
“What do you want?”
“I want to talk to Y/N,”
“Well she doesn't want to talk to you,”
“What did you tell her, Ariel?”
“The truth,”
“I don’t...I can’t even begin to imagine what that means in your language,”
“Oh whatever Raf, what does it matter what I told her? She’s MY friend, not yours!”
“You don’t OWN her Ariel,”
“Don’t I?” She smirked. “I feed her, I clothe her, I give her a roof to sleep under. I even gave her a cute necklace with her name on it, like a collar,” she smirked.
"You're evil," he sneered.
“I’m a saint,” She scoffed. “Do you know where that girl would be without me? Do you know the years it would take in a therapist's office to heal the emotional trauma I so selflessly saved her from? Her life will be enriched and better because of me, how many girls can say that about you?"
“Oh right, like helping her hasn’t served you any purpose?”
“What purpose could it possibly have?”
“Please, if I ever saw you do anything less than 90% selfish I’d die of shock,”
“Oh that would be reason enough for me,”
“Look, I get it. You've never had a mother so you're treating her like your personal Barbie doll,"
“And what, you wanna be her Prince Ken? Or, lawyer Ken,”
“She’s NOT a Barbie doll!”
“You’re right, she’s not. So I’m not going to let you play with her emotions,”
“What does that even mean? For fuck’s sake Ariel, I just want to be her mentor,”
“Really?” Rafael could hear her rolling her eyes through the phone. “You’re trying THIS hard to mentor some girl you met less than 24 hours ago? REALLY,” She chuckled.
“I may not be ‘Harvard’ smart BRO, but I’m not stupid. I know when a guy has let’s say, less than moral intentions with a girl,”
“It’s not like that,” He growled. “She’s a sweet girl, Ariel. And I’m not going to let you try and change her into your clone,”
“Wha--my clone? Please, Raf she could NEVER reach my level. Believe me, I’ve tried for four years. She’s a good sidekick,”
“This isn’t over,”
“Isn’t it? You have ZERO idea where we are,”
“Please, there’s maybe 5 places in Manhattan you’ll go, and they’re all on the Upper East Side. It’s not hard,”
“Well then, I guess we’ll see who’s better at hide and seek!”
CLICK.
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Ariel rolled her eyes with a smile just as you walked in the living room.
“Who was that?” You asked, toweling your hair from the shower you had just exited.
“Mom,” She rolled her eyes. “She wanted to make sure we weren’t tearing this place up,”
“Oh?” You asked, suddenly hopeful. “Was she going to ask Rafael to check?”
“What? NO,” Ariel shut down that thought quickly. “I assured her she didn’t need to send that dog over here to sniff around you anymore,”
“Ariel,” You rolled your eyes with a sigh. “I’m a big girl,”
“I know sweetie,” She walked over and scrunched your face. “Such a big girl,”
“Whatever,” You rolled your eyes again walking back to the bedroom.
“Hey
” Ariel grabbed the TV remote. “Do you wanna watch Clueless?”
“What? 
.Why?”
“I don’t know, you mentioned it yesterday and now I can’t stop thinking about a young Paul Rudd,”
“....Who looks exactly like present Paul Rudd,” You laughed.
“I know right? I want the magic face cream he must use,” She giggled as you both sat down on the couch to watch the movie.
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“See, Cher isn’t a bad person, right? She saved Tai,” Ariel gestured to the TV.
“Am I Tai in this situation?” You eyed her.
“Well, yeah,” She shrugged. “Duh,”
“I’ll take it, I love Brittany Murphy,” You shrugged.
“RIP,” Ariel made a sign of the cross with a kiss looking up to heaven. “We should pour one out for her,”
“On your mom’s thousand dollar rug?”
“Okay, so maybe just pour one for us,”
Her phone vibrated wildly; it vibrated so hard it fell off the coffee table onto the floor. You picked it up to put it back, but you happened to glance at the screen.
BHOLE BARBA: You can’t keep her from me forever, Ariel
Wha
.keep who from him? You? Did...was he...did Ariel
.?
“Alright, who’s ready for mimosas?!” Ariel said in a singsongy voice as she returned with two flutes of champagne.
“What is this?” You held the phone up to her. She read it, her eyes grew wide.
“I...He’s talking about the Adele CD I borrowed from him forever ago, he’s weirdly possessive about ‘her’,”
“Ariel,” You interrupted her with a stern face.
“What?” She played dumb.
“...How could you do this to me?” You asked with a hurt expression.
“Do what?” She rolled her eyes with a laugh. “Protect you from my loser ex brother?”
“You--! Oh my god,” You couldn’t believe it. Your own best friend was trying to mess with your happiness?
“Oh come on Y/N, it’s not that big of a--” She rolled her eyes with a laugh, pissing you off even more.
“It IS a big deal!” Tears stung your eyes, you hated that you started crying when you got angry. How pathetic was that?
“Why? You can’t possibly be in love with him or something,” She scoffed.
“NO! Of course not,” You crossed your arms. “But he could help me with school, with my career! Don’t you want me to get a good job, eventually move out of here?”
“Maybe I don’t!” She yelled suddenly.
“...What?” You asked in disbelief.
“Look, Y/N,” She sighed. “I...you...we both know under normal circumstances, we would never be friends,”
“...I mean, I guess
” You shrugged.
“Oh come on,” She gave you a look. “You’d have to explain every sentence you spoke to me,” She had crocodile tears rolling down her cheeks.
“Oh come on Ariel,” You sighed and sat next to her. “You’re NOT stupid,”
“I’m stupider than you!” She cried.
“...More stupid,” You corrected her.
“See?” She sniffled.
“Okay, but-- still,” You took her hand. "You're my best friend. Do you think that if I don't have to live with you anymore, I won't be your friend?"
"Maybe
" She looked at the floor.
"Ariel!" You cried. "Really? Come on,"
"You come on!" She was actually getting upset now. "Look, Y/N. I don't have...friends,"
"What?" You snorted. "You have the biggest social circle I know!"
"Yeah but--" she tried to find the right words. "They're not like
.friends, friends ya know? They're more like
. followers, or leeches, of--"
"Sycophants," you chuckled. She did surround herself with as many people who would tell her she was amazing as possible.
"I don't know what that means but probably, yes," She nodded. “You’re the only one who I can actually talk to, you’re like my little sister,”
“....Right, so
? You think I’ll just give all that up if I move out? If I don’t need you financially anymore?”
“Maybe
” She mumbled. “But ALSO, if that stupid asshole gets into your head about me!”
“Oh God
” You put a hand over your head. “Ariel,” You took both of her hands and looked at her very seriously.
“You are my absolute best friend in this entire world, no
’boy’ could change that! I’ve known you so long, I know you completely. Nothing he could tell me would make me turn on you, I swear it,”
“Really?” She raised an eyebrow at you.
“Really! You held a hand up like an oath. “AND, even if-- WHEN, I get financially stable and can live on my own two feet, I will ALWAYS be your friend,” You used the oath hand and placed it in hers again. “I swear it,”
“....Okay, but absolutely ZERO sleepovers here,”
“Oh, my god, ARIEL,” You gasped. “I JUST want to talk to him about law stuff!”
“Yeah, that’s what he said too,” She rolled her eyes, not believing either of you.
“He did?” You felt your face fall.
“Ah HA! See? Disappointment!”
“Shut up,” You hit her. “I don’t care, we should just be professional anyway,”
“Uh huh,” She nodded sarcastically.
“Are you going to give me his number or not?” You gave her a look.
“No,”
“ARIEL,” You crossed your arms.
“No, then you’re going to immediately call him and give him ALL the power,” She wagged a finger at you. “I’m going to give him YOUR number, and if he calls you, he calls you,”
“Ariel
” You gave her another look.
“What? You don’t believe me?” She feigned offense.
“I really don’t,” You shook your head.
“Alright FINE,” She pulled out her phone and opened her texts with Rafael, typed in your number and hit SEND.
“Happy?” She showed you her phone.
“....Maybe,” You hid the giddiness that was building in your stomach.
Almost IMMEDIATELY after sending the text, your phone lit up wildly.
“Good god I’m gonna get out of here before the nerdy phone sex starts,” She ran out of the room with her mimosa in tow.
“Shut up!” You hissed, mentally preparing yourself for this phone call. The phone call you’d been waiting for for days, even when you thought he was a “player”. You took a deep breath and hit ANSWER:
“Hello?”
“Y/N?”
“Yeah who’s this?” You asked coyly.
“It’s...Rafael, Barba
”
“I’m sorry, who?” You teased.
“Ariel’s
.brother?” He skipped the asterisk that went along with “Brother”.
“Ohhhh right right right,” You nodded, keeping him nervous. “Yeah, Ariel told me all about you,”
“I knew it,” He growled thinking about Ariel and her lies. “Whatever she said, she’s lying,”
“Oh so you don’t want to be my mentor?”
“Wha--?” He was shocked. Did Ariel actually change her mind? Or dare he think...a change of heart?
“Yes! I mean, I do! I absolutely do!” He may have said that a little too overzealous, so he dialed it back. “I mean, if I have some time I’d be up for it, if that’s okay with you,”
“I might, maybe
” You were twirling your hair in your fingers. “When do you think you might have time?”
“Well you know I was thinking--” He started, but there was a knock at the door.
“Oh sorry, one second,” You got up and walked over to the door and swung it open to reveal Rafael standing there, right in front of you. He was dressed in a black suit with a pink tie. As amazing as he looked in street clothes, you thought you might mount him right there in that suit.
“I have some time right now,” He smiled, acting as if he was still on the phone. You couldn’t help yourself, you leapt into his arms and kissed him, HARD.
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“Hello? Y/N?”
You snapped back to reality, Rafael was talking to you on the phone.
“Oh! Um, Yeah, sorry what?”
“I said I have some time right now, if you wanna meet for coffee or something,” He half laughed, still enchanted by your awkwardness.
“Yes! Sure! I...let me just get dressed, just text me the address, I’ll meet you in a few,” You were so glad he couldn’t see how beet red you were from that little fantasy you had just been in.
“Sounds good,” You could hear him smile; even through the phone it made you weak in the knees.
You hung up and ran to Ariel’s room, hoping she’d help you get dressed.
What could you wear to impress him?
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x-lulu · 4 years ago
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hii y’all, so I wanted to say thank you to some people and wish them a lovely new year. we of course have to deal with time zones and different religions that have influence on when the new year starts, so i’m just gonna post it now.
I love you all, to some I talk every day, to some just a few asks so now and then and others presence I just enjoy on my dash, nonetheless I love all of you and I’m grateful you put up with my shit haha x
I also wanted to say a quick thank you to all the lovely anons, your asks make my day and I’m honoured that you take time to send me some :) so thank you and I hope y’all have a lovely 2021!! ofcourse I wish everyone a happy new year as well, all my followers, everyone on this site, no matter who you are have a wonderful 2021 and may you get all the love and happiness you deserve x
@rafej-cambanks​
dani, my older and wiser sister! I love you, I haven’t been texting you as much as i used to sorry, i think we’re both quite busy. anyway this doesnt make me love you any less, i love you lots bby! you were one of the first people that welcomed me, supported me and cared about me, most important of all, you were the first that gave me the feeling i wasn’t completely worthless and that you did that means so much! you are such a talented person and your writing is incredible!! but the most amazing thing about you is how lovely of a person you are. you care so much and you’re there for everyone, you defend your friends and anyone who needs defending. you always know how to cheer me up with pics of your lovely princess, chels is just absolutely gorgeous!!! I think you’re a wonderful friend, someone who you can laugh and cry with, thank you, im grateful i’ve met you this year and i hope that there are a lot of conversations to come. have a lovely new year babe
@deionswannabegirl​ 
bubba, bella, how gorgeous are you ma’am????? i dont think it’s fair for the rest of us!!! i dont know where to start, you honestly mean so much to me. which may suprise you because we havent talked that many times, but i loved every single conversation we’ve had. you really helped me become the person i am, you helped me feel comfortable with my sexuality and gave me the confidence to come out to my parents, ill forever be grateful. but apart from how much you helped me, i think you are such a lovely woman, who sadly had too many things thrown at her by life. Im so sorry you’re having these hard times and i wish i could take those away from you. you are one of the most beautiful persons i’ve ever met, inside and outside!! you’re funny, you’re caring, you’re intelligent, you’re talented, you’re loving, you’re amazing bella and im honoured to have my cuddle bear be named after you hahah. I love you bub and i know it can be hard to talk to people or ask for help or just a distraction, because sometimes we dont need help or dont know what to talk about, i just want to let you know that i will always be here and i promise you can talk about anything with me, you are so strong love and i believe you will get through this and that you are gonna make beautiful memories, i love you! may 2021 be a year to make wonderful memories and may you get the love you deserve and you deserve lots of it <3
@aquariusholland​
kyr! hi! i love you and every time i see you on my dash i get a smile on my face. you really have your own sense of humour and randomness, both which i adore. your jokes make me laugh in public and people are like wtf she laughing about haha. i relate to a lot of things you post haha and while we might not talk that much, i feel close to you. you kind of feel like a sister to me haha. you’re also a queen and come up for yourself and your believes, but also in a respectful way and i just admire that about you. I hope you have a wonderful new year and that it exists of a lot more of your random asks ;)
ps. can i call you kyr bear? idk i was thinking about you and my mind went to kyr bear hahah
@https-luna
lunaaaa bby! we both thought the other didn’t like them haha, but gosh i love you 👉👈 we haven’t been talking for that long yet i think two weeks maybe? idk but you’re already really important to me! i wish i could do more for you than just listen and maybe give some advice, but sadly i cant hold you in my arms and protect you from the world. i will however always do my best and ill be here for you no matter what. you deserve the world my love and things will get better and im here along the way and so are lots of other people, you really are loved bubba!!! i also started watching hannah montanna since you mentioned you loved that show ;) and finally someone with the same love for the little mermaid hahah. I hope that in 2021 we can get even closer, but i think we’re going down the right path <3 i love you and wish you a wonderful new year with lots of love, healing and health, because you deserve it so much! you’re also so strong and i fully believe that you will get there x
@sortagaysortahigh
hey love, we don’t really talk but i wanted to add you to the list. i really admire you!! you stand up for what you believe in, you educate so many people and do what’s right in this world!! you love your friends and i believe you’d anything for them!! you’re also hella funny and seeing you in my dash can make my day. i just wanted to tell you that you’re a wonderful human being and you make the world a lot better!! i hope you keep being the amazing person you are and i wish you all the love and happiness in the world!! also you’re a badass haha, happy new year angel đŸ–€
@annab-nana
anna bby, you’re the sweetest person i’ve ever met!! i love interacting with you so much, you always bring a smile to my face and i believe you do that to a lot of people. you’re an incredible presence on tumblr and in the world, i believe you make everyone’s life a bit brighter and i hope i can do the same for you. on top of that you’re also hella talented, idk what god thought when he made you ;) I love that we have gotten closer in the past few weeks, i cant believe that i hadn’t made the connection between you and your sideblog hahah, but now i know you and im grateful for it!!! you’re a loving, caring and supporting lil bean and i love you! i feel like i can come with anything to you and you’ll be there for me and that is an amazing feeling, so here just a reminder that you can also come with anything to me <3 i hope 2021 is gonna be a good year for you, you deserve it!! 
ps - you’re absolutely gorgeous
@mxltifandoms06
hi sweetheart!! when i think of christmas i think of you ;) (i wrote this when it was almost christmas not new year haha) you’re such a cozy and sweet human being!! you’re supportive, caring and loving!! you always make my days better and i’m so grateful to have met you!! also your dog is just the most adorable ever!! im so glad you decided to come in my ask box and start interacting, i love you babe, i hope all the love you give you’ll receive in 2021, you’re deserving of a lot of love <3
@killingbxys
my queen! hi! we don’t talk as much as I would want to, but gosh i just have a comfortabel vibe with you, i feel like i can come with anything to you and every time i see you on my dash, asks, dm anything it brings a smile on my face. i’ve said it before, but you’re that one friend who you can both laugh and cry with. i feel like you’re this amazing presence here on tumblr and everyone is grateful to have you x i love you babe and i hope we will get closer in the new year :) if you’re up for that as well ofcourse hahah, im not going to force you to be friends with me (well... maybe i am... but we’re not gonna talk about that...). I wish you the best and i hope 2021 will treat you wonderful x
@jellyfishbeansontoast
izzy hi!! babe i love you and all your randomness, every time i see you in my dash i get a smile on my face!! also your work is incredible!!! and i love seeing you simping haha!! your whole blog is basically a mood and i love it đŸ„° thank you for being your lovely self!! i hope you’ll get the love and happiness you deserve and i also hope to get closer in 2021 hehe ;) you’re just this amazing person and im honoured to be moots! have a lovely new year x
@demxters
elle my love, if we’re gonna talk about lovey and talented people ofcourse we have to add you to the list. you’re one of my favourite writers of all time, your titles, your aesthetic, your concepts, your way with words, it’s all so perfect!!! you always amaze me and then we started talking and omg you’re such a sweet person and every time i get an ask or a message from you it puts a smile on my face. i’m grateful i met you this year and i wish you all the best, i believe in you, you’re so strong!! i know you go through some difficult stuff, but i will always be there for you, remember you are worthy and so loved!!! i love you, have a wonderful 2021.
@pink-meringues
pink gosh im gonna miss you so bad, but i’m also really proud of you for doing what’s best for you and i really hope it will have positive effect on your well being and your happiness!! you’re such a loving and welcoming person!! thank you for being who you are and making so many peoples lives better, we all care about you babe!! have a lovely 2021 <3
@sunsetholland
hey love, if i’m gonna be honest here, you were the person who gave me the confidence to start being myself on this site, you probably don’t remember but once you send me an ask and wished me a lovely week, which brought a smile to my face!! that was the moment that i decided to be myself, thank you for that!! apart from that you are so freaking talented, i say it all the time but your work is like reading poetry, how you come up with your sentences i have no clue, but it’s wonderful and i’m amazed every time!! you’re also a lovely human being and your posts on my dash always make me smile!! i hope you have a lovely 2021 babe, i love you <3
@skiesofthesketchy
sky my love, you’re such a loving and supporting human being. you really bring peace on my dash and give me a calm feeling!! I honestly still can’t believe that my tumblr crush knew who I was and wanted to talk to me haha. I’m obsessed with your work and there are so many people who admire you, which you totally deserve!!! It’s almost unbelievable how talented you are haha and your music taste is also on point!! and how cool is it that you can play the guitar and have a job to do with music, I love it and you’re so talented and well deserving of every good thing that comes on your path. have a lovely new year x
@cognacdelights
hi bub, you’re one of my role models 🙈 you’re a classy badass who I admire so much, you’re one of the most talented persons I’ve ever met! you’re also so lovely and sweet!!! and you’re a really fascinating and interesting woman as well!! I wish you all the best my love, remember to take some time for yourself and try to ignore those toxic people, you’re more than enough and deserve to feel happy and loved
@mind-with-a-melody
tess, i know you haven’t had the best time lately and i wish 2021 could be a whole new start for you, sadly mental health doesn’t work that way. however i really hope it will be better for you and you’ll learn to have hope and maybe love yourself, because you are so worth it. you are beautiful on the inside and on the outside. you send love to people and make others peoples days better and that is the most wonderful trait someone can have, i believe in you, you are strong and even tho it may not feel like that but it will get better and i’m always here!! you’ll get help along the way, from me but also from so many other people who love you!! i hope 2021 will treat you better, you deserve all the love and the happiness ma’am, happy new year!!
@all-alone-he-turns-to-stone
hi audrey, we haven’t talked that much yet, but you’re the first blog i followed on here. you’re so talented and seeing you on my dash always brings a smile to my face. so i decided to send you an ask and then i found out that you’re a lovely human as well!! i wish you the best for 2021, you deserve all the happiness and love in the world!!
@nxsmss​ 
well lara, where do I start, last but definitely not least. I just had to put you last because I knew your message would be one of the longest haha. it feels so weird for someone to accept me completely as who i am, but you do exactly that! okay now im starting to cry again, but you mean so much to me. you’re the best that happened to me in a long long time and you’re honestly the person who helps me the most, gives me the best feelings, it’s incredible how much talking to you can cheer me up and when i think about you i start to smile (and sometimes cry hahah, jeez i come over like a cry bby, i promise im not hahaha). you’re one of the most loving and caring persons i’ve ever met. you were so welcoming since the first time we met and i feel like we kinda immediatelly hit it off. we didnt have that ‘how are you and where do you live’ kind of conversations, while there is nothing wrong with small talk, i feel like we pretty much immediatly started being our weird selves around each other and i love it. we have like three dates every week haha and those are honestly what gets me through the week. and we basically interact almost every hour, no matter if it’s trough text, snap, tumblr or tiktok hahah. ive never felt more myself, more loved or more capable than with you. on top of that you are hella talented, wise, intelligent, gorgeous, pretty much perfect ;) i absolutely love everything about you, from the clumsy stuff you do to the sweet good morning and good night messages, from the random snaps to the deep conversations, from the weird asks to just basically acting like we’re a couple hehe. i just love everything and i cant imagine my life without you, im never letting you go babe. 
@dmonchld @jiaraendgame @vintageobx @rafeyybabyy @camillemonty, @amorejjaygron​ 
we may not interact that much but every time I see you on my dash or asks or something it brings a smile to my face!! 
also @dmonchld you are my icon 🙈 and i admire you so much, im just a scared lil bean which stops me from interacting with you hahah, but you’re so strong and brave. i think you are a wonderful friend and just an incredible person in general
@jiaraendgame your music taste is just on point!! and im so grateful for you, when ive posted about tough subjects you comment and even when we didnt know each other you supported me and comforted me, thank you, i think you are this amazing person and i love every interaction with you
@vintageobx and @rafeyybabyy you guys were some of the first people I started talking to and you’ve always been supportive thank you for that!! you’re both really kind and i hope 2021 will treat you with nothing but love 
@camillemonty and @amorejjaygron you both make me feel welcome on this site and I’m really grateful for that!
i wish you all a wonderful new year and may it be filled with love, laughter and making wonderful memories 
i love you 
btw i started writing this like a month ago, because i never work on the stuff that i need to work on and knew i wouldn’t be able to finish it if i didn’t start already haha, so yeah, with some people the relationships might have changed a bit, like we’ve already become closer, but i think it’s all pretty up to date, but if it isn’t then you know that that’s why <3 and there are probably a lot of errors because it’s barely proofread and i’m a horrible at typing so that’s that 🙈
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kodzuken-chan · 5 years ago
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Hello~!!!!!
I'm working on MJ's scenario currently , but I'm so busy with my finals to complete it, bit ofc i will....until that time , i will share with you something I've always wanted to do🙈
I will write how do i expect Astro members to act around you in different situations based on how do i see them from my perspective 💕 i hope you like it~!
PS. Its not an imagine so that's why i haven't posted it on my Scenarios blog😊
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MJ
So Mj would be the type who always jokes around and make you laugh in various ways
He sucks at cooking even when he tries to surprise you, the kitchen ends up being messy, but you'd still love it
Whenever you're sick, he would ask either Rocky or Eunwoo to make you some soup , since he sucks at cooking
He would make weird sounds and faces just to make you forget the pain of the illness
On dates, he'd love to wear couple matching outfits with you, Honestly it would be so cute
When he does sth he likes, he'd be too serious about it and makes you always wonder is that my Emzayyyy?but still looks awesome
Myungjunie special hugs and kisses whenever you're super sad or super happy~
Always locks you between his arms whenever you're crying and buys you some ice cream later
Plays with your hands and you do the same when both of you are cuddling at nightی Mj has the most beautiful hand i have ever seen
Teaches you how to hit the highest note while singing and gets impressed.
Dates are always on Carnivals, but, you have to see the doctor after visiting the haunted house, you must check your ear drums later
May give you lots of tinny soft ppuppu's
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Jinjin
The SOFTEST PUPPY PERSON ON EARTH!
Kind, Sweet a Gentleman+ his personal Charms
When he's with you, He'd be soft and would look like a teddy bear that you don't want to stop hugging it.
Can cook a bit, and sometimes makes you some Sandwiches
Dates are always in Nature, either on land or sea, and you both take pictures of the views+ some selfies together.
Whenever he pins you on the wall for a kiss, you always end up laughing on his highet with him like monkeys, tho you're shorter than him but its still funny for you
But sometimes being pinned to the wall be jinwoo was a serious thing, he'd just give you that look that which makes you fall for him even harder
Will listen to all of your problems and helps you with the biggest smile ever!
You're sad!, No! no! not with Jinwoo bcs he would just let you in his embrace until you feel better . LOL I'M MOONBIN BAISED
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Eunwoo
Literally a Gentleman
Tries to act evil when he teases you sometimes but fails and end up being so cute, and it turns to be you who is teasing him
Would take you for shopping as dates and buys you everything you want, as you both holding hands
Would carry you on his back while walking on the beach, and tells you that he will throw you in it, but then he just says I'm joking bcs you're cute
Takes you to fancy restaurant for dinner, and later when you're done and head back to the car, he will kiss you passionately, okay wait i blushed
Brings you a ring on your anniversary, with your and his name letters carved on it
Would play in your hair but ends up sleeping before you, and you will observe his handsome face
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Moonbin
His name is CuddlekissBin
He loves to cuddle you no matter what, being all lazy is his favorite game
And he also loves to give you many kiss whenever he has the chance to do it
If you're feeling hungry don't worry, with bin you will have a stomach full of food
But he will also takes you with him to work out, but when he sees your tired pouty face, he'd stop you immediately to take some rest
Likes to comb your hair, he is in love with your hair, he'd also ask you to dry it for you after showers
You both like to stay home, so you have home dates, watching dramas and mostly Animes
You like to draw animes to and sometimes you create imaginary webtoons, he would do some aygeo just to let him read it
He won't leave your side if you're sick, he'll give your medicine and will massage your head and body
If you cried, he'd kiss you, and give you the best back and front hugs in his embrace, king of Hugs
In your heart , he is your Mermaid Prince
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Rocky
This boy is literally the cutest, he might act manly and serious but deep inside he's just a crackhead and cute
Cups your face with his wide palms when you cry and pulls you in his embrace
Gets jealous easily especially if you were hanging out with his members
Loves to walk along with you in the park with his arm over your shoulders, he will be like see! She's mine
Loves to make his moms recipes for you and waits for your reaction after eating, gets super happy when you say its delicious
He likes to sleep on your lap, when you watch movies at night, during your picnic and also in the practice room on the sofa
Loves to dance and teaches you some of their song choreography, when you dance it perfectly, he'd be SUPER PROUD and would brag about it.
Gets you a similar Ring that he wears in his finger but with his name inside it, he's inside your ring even if he's not around
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Sanha
He'd play the one who's hard to please, but he's too cute and soft
You like to pinch his full cheeks but he doesn't, and he'd give you his pouty face asking you to stop, but you'd still do it, its fun to tease him
In your free time, you both will play some video games ofc you end up loosing but he becomes happy like a baby when he beats you
He'd fight anyone who makes you cry or sad, don't underestimate him, he's trained by The MOONBIN
He brings you all kind of stuffed animals and dolls for your birthday
You both sneak out at night to eat candies, teases you bcs you're short and you can't get them from the shelf, bcs he too long
Many challenges of doing the cutest agyeo and you're always the winner
You're dates mostly are going to Random places and also doing Random stuffs
Whenever you go out you both hold hands and call it a date , even if you went to drink water from the fridge
Plays guitar/ sings for you before bed time, and sometimes you make song covers
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skzshortcake · 4 years ago
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may.... i’m so sorry you’re feeling so doubtful of yourself. if it makes any difference, i think your blog is super cute! your layout is amazing, i love the colour, i love your writings and the way you respond is always so precious and kind and it makes my day 💛 plus your writing literally helped me out of such a terrible time and i’ll always be grateful for that. i can’t cry easily but i cried that day bcs i felt comforted and it made me feel lighter. and that’s a very big deal đŸ„°
you’re allowed to feel sad about this. it’s okay. everyone doubts themselves every now and then but please don’t be so hard on yourself. your blog is amazing and your tags are just fine. but also, reorganising the tags is also an option.
but really, your blog is special the way it is. it’s your blog. it’s a piece of you. it’s unique and nothing like anyone else’s. and i think that’s amazing in itself.
i hope you feel better soon
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your writings are the right amount of cheesy!!! they’re so cute. please don’t put yourself down like that :( i love how cheesy they are! it’s not annoying at all. especially when u write about chan. like he’s a cheesy person already so it fits so well 😂😂
no but really. your writings are great and the more you write, the more you’ll improve. so please don’t give up on yourself
p.s. *whispers* my opinion’s pretty legit i’ve got a degree in literature and creative writing. i know good writing when i see it 💛
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đŸ„șđŸ„ș no i’m getting tears! baby you’re so sweet, thank you for always being so encouraging. I think i’m kinda in a weird place right now where i’m not feeling good about my writing and just everything about my blog and me in general, but I think i’ll turn around sometime soon? I hope so.
jeksjssjsj I guess I just like to write cheesy and sappy things because it makes me smile and makes me feel soft? I know a lot of people don’t like cliches and a lot of the things I like but sometimes I just wish I had the ability to write angsty things, or even could write some soft things better like my bby @luminois .
I do agree that i’m improving though! I look back at my recent writings and only dislike them a little, compared to hating things from further back so that’s good at least!
I think you’re very unique and your asks always make my day, you’re so sweet and uplifting and you have a good spirit. good things are in your future, angel!!
ps: that makes me so happy that you like it!! i’m really glad that people find comfort and solace in my writing, thats what I wanted this blog to be when I made it. I started it with the intention of storing fics I wrote that made me feel calmer and distracted from my sickness. I never expected that many people would find it, but i’m really thankful that it serves that purpose for you as well!! đŸ„ș💝
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kuviras-eyeliner · 4 years ago
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Hey! I just found your blog and I was wondering if I could get a LOK (and atla if you’re comfortable with doing both and it’s not too much) matchup? I’m a 5’0” girl with really short dark brown hair and brown eyes. Im kinda curvy and not 100% confident in my appearance. I’m a FLAMING bisexual. I’m a Ravenclaw, personality type INFP-T, and my friends tell me I’d probably be an earth bender. I love reading, writing, singing, listening to music, and watching movies and musicals. I also really love physical affection (both giving and receiving, ngl probably touch starved a bit over here). I love any and all animals SO MUCH. I can be kinda silly sometimes but I know when to get serious. I’m pretty protective of the people I’m close to. I’m also kind of stubborn. I have a small obsession with dragons and kind of just mythical beings in general. I usually feel happy when I make others happy. And I guess it might be helpful to mention that my main love languages are physical touch and words of affirmation. And idk if this will help but I am a switch. I don’t really know what else to put on here so yeah! (PS YOUR NAME IS REALLY PRETTY!! And I’m also gonna send a request after this cause I’d love to read your writing!)
Bby I’m so so so so so so so so sorry that this took so long! Haha I’m just glad we’re finally here, let’s get to it!
I match you with...
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Sokka!
Yes, our precious boomerang man would definitely be one of the most perfect matches for you. You kind of seem like the type of person that would get really hyped up about something during a call with friends, try to explain it, but end up talking so much that you take up the entire call? Haha maybe I’m wrong (but that’s honestly something I’d do), but either way, you seem like such a chill person, if I knew you in person I’d love to hang out sometime. Anywho, Sokka, the one and only Armbender would be the member of the Gaang to fall in love with you. Since Sokka was really, really developed so amazingly, I’m going to make this one prettty long, so buckle your seatbelts and let’s get to it. As we all know, Sokka is one heck of a precious warrior who has gone through, well, a lot. He always makes people laugh, and considering romantic relationships, I’m pretty sure everyone would want to be looked at the way Sokka looks at Suki. Sokka is someone who will immediately start crying even when he hears anything about you being negatively thrown, or if you ever feel hurt. He’ll make sure that if you ever feel down, he’ll cry with you and tell you that it’s going to be alright. He also loves your eyes-- the tone and shade of brown, with small tints of black and when they light up against the sun is what makes him want to throw his arms around you. And when he sees that smile in your eyes? Yes, definitely, he decides that there’s nothing more beautiful than that. He thinks your smile is the most beautiful thing about you, and the truth is, he doesn’t care at all about how you look! As long as you’re the same, talented, outstanding, charismatic and sweet person you were from the start and you are comfortable with yourself, he doesn’t care. And if you don’t feel that way, without manipulating you, Sokka will care for you until the end of times until you know that you feel safe. When you feel tired and useless, he’s always going to be the first person to notice. When he sees you not acting as you normally do, even when you say, “I’m fine,” he’ll always be the first to grab your shoulders, pull you into the softest hug in the world and say, “you’re not. It’s okay to feel that way,” and trust me, and can and will listen to you for hours, days, weeks, months, and even years if he has to! The fact that you love animals sometimes really ties in with his meat jokes, so he might tease you a bit on that and say, “what a beautiful dog that is. I wonder what would happen if I just, ya know, accidentally-” (*this is when you’re supposed to judo-flip him,,, lightly-) Sokka is always laughing in that wholesome Sokka way he does, and no matter what you may go through, he’ll always make  sure that you feel safe and comforted around him. He honestly believes that it’s so amazing that you’re capable of doing so many different things. And even though Sokka isn’t one to make a big deal of fictional and fantasy-like phenomenons, he’ll make an exception for you, and he just makes this cutest face when he tries to understand the idea of fantasy creatures. “A- a what? Okay, look, I know dragons are real, but how- how is there a scientific explanation of a horse with a horn?? Doesn’t it like- hurt?? I don’t understand,” and you kind of have to explain the same idea multiple times, but every time he acknowledges your ideas. 
Alright, 682 words, let’s go! I hope this was enough, and yep, feel free to send in that request! And thank you so much you’re too sweet ;U; I honestly hope you’ll come back some time because WOW, your vibes are amazing?? I hope you’re doing well, lemme know if you ever need anything!
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iconastrology · 4 years ago
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So, I decided I waned to start a blog, I wasn’t really sure about what, I just knew I wanted one, so, here I am, trying this thing I’ve never even thought of before. I think I will start introducing myself so here it goes: I’m 13, I live in Argentina so I also speak spanish (for some reason I feel more comfortable communicating in english but if you want, we can talk in spanish), I love reading, I am a huge fan of Emma Watson, Jennifer Lawrence, Emma Stone, Mila Kunis, Natalie Portman and a million more actresses I could just go on and on about, but I don’t wanna bore whoever is reading this. I curse a lot, I’m very impulsive, I cry in secret because I am actually ashamed of having feelings, I despice them; I like writing, but I don’t think I’m really good at it. I am an astrology nerd and I live associating people, books, movies, characters with zodiac signs. I love space, the sky, the stars and evetrthing that has to do, not only with astrology, but also astronomy. Since I was like 5, I’ve been a One Direction fan and the obsession everybody thought was a phase has not faded away. I am a feminist, I talk about that a lot and I feel like it’s an extremely important movement. My favorite book authors are Stephen King, Virginia Woolf (who, I just found out, died on my birthday but some 70 years before I was born), John Green, Isabel Allende, Jane Austen and Vladimir Nabokov. My favorite animal is the octopus, I have a giant one painted on the wall behing my bed. My least favorite is the snake, I actually have Ophidiophobia, which is the irrational fear of said animal. I want to travel to Italy and England more than anything, I hope someday I’ll live in Europe. Now, to really talk about me as an astrological individual. I am what people would say, a textbook Aries: Yes, I am the stereotype of my zodiac sign, an impulsive hothead who is also a huge softie on the inside. I get angry easily and I also am extremely agressive, sometimes without meaning to, but I can say I am working on that. I tend to obsess over stuff like books, movies, celebrities and scientific facts a lot which would also mean I am extremely intense. My mind is working constantly, I am doing maths in my head 24/7, for example, right now I am calculating the average of words I’ve written basing on how many there are per line. Some of the words people have frequently used to describe me are: Crazy, smart, violent, kind, funny, nice, obsessive. I always say the phrase “not to brag” and I end up bragging. My favorite zodiac sign is Capricorn and despite my former hate towards Leo, I now find myself loving its qualities; even though I have a least favorite I will not share it because I don’t want to hurt anyone. I keep a journal but not those pretty ones you find on pinterest, it’s just a way to let my messy feelings out. Some of my favorite movies are The dead poets society, Call me by your name, La La Land, Black Swan, The Rocky saga and multiple Disney movies including Tangled, Beauty and The Beast, Mulan, Little mermaid and Hercules. I wish I were a lesbian, but I can’t control my feelings, so for some strange reason I could say I am either straight or still not sure. I keep watching Brooklyn 99 over and over again, it is my favorite show and I feel I shoud say that, unlike many many other people, I hate the TV hit show Friends, I just cannot stand it (I love Monica and Chander tho). I want to meet a Gemini so bad, but I still haven’t so, if you are a Gemini and you are willing to stand me for a little while, please let’s have a conversation. People usually say I have a lot of self esteeme but I atually think that’s a cover for all the horrible things I think about myself. Whenever I find something good abut my own person, a trait I like, I can’t help but highlight it constantly, but I don’t think that tiny bit of self love makes up for all the other self hate. Weirdly, I am not an anxious or depressive person and lately, I have been strangely happy. I love talking, as you may have noticed and I so strongly hope this blog thing will work out. Well, I believe there is not much more to say since I have written a gigantic paragraph full of whatever that is. Nobody follows me but it’s nice to get this all out not only to yourself, with the hope that somebody will read it. Anyway, I still don’t know how to use this app but I suppose there are direct messages or something like that, so, whatever way there is to communicate, mine is aways open.  Ps. I’ll see what I’ll post as we start moving on, I can’t plan shit.
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Hey :3 first of all I wish you good luck for your blog! Hopefully you will have a lot of fun! I would be so happy if you could write a scenerio with Hari spending some time with his long time crush on the rooftop of a very high building to watch the stars. How would he try to make her understand that he fell in love with her? ❀
YES I CAN..... if it is not good i am really sorry i am new to this but Hari needs love just like everyone else. Also Thank you so much that means a lot to me!!! Ps bold text is gonna be Hari thinking in his head.......
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Come on Chrono we are almost there just a couple more stairs and we can relax (y/n) said.
Alright alright im coming stop it's been a long day overhaul made me run so many errands today im exhausted "but its all worth getting to spend my evening under the stars with you"
As we walked out of the door to the roof i droped the blanket and Chrono took off the back pack with the snacks. After everything was set up we sat down and just stared at the stars and lights over the city listening to the cars drive by under us not a care in the world.
So since you have been running errands all day i figured this would be the perfect get away since we are best friends "i wish we were more then best friends so much more" Yeah of course Chrono said staring at (y/n) while she stared out into the world. I miss us just hanging out now overhaul has you always running around and i never get to see you it sucks. Do you remeber when we used to just lay on the couch and cuddle and watch movies and overhaul would walk in and scream like a girl and run away because of the germs. Chrono laughed saying yes while scooting closer to (y/n).
Damn i should have brought a jacket its chilly (y/n) said as Chrono started to take off his jacket to give her she stopped him NO WAY then you will be cold ill survive im a strong independent woman thank you. Chrono then decides this is his chance to get a lot closer to (y/n) and unzips his raincoat and pulls (y/n) to his chest and holds her there while she trys to squirm away.
Chrono stop (y/n) says giggling you may get my germs and then overhaul will have a hissy fit "kai is the last thing on my mind honestly im trying not to kiss you youre so warm and soft and shit my face is on fire" Overhaul doesnt matter to me right now its me and you (n/n).
God i hope he doesnt notice how bad i am blushing i love him more then life itself and i cant get the courage to tell him im an idiot he probably already has someone.
Hey Chrono can i ask you something? Yeah of course dork why couldn't you. As (y/n) looked up at Chrono she lost all hope as she drowned in his beautiful eyes and decided im gonna do it hopefully i dont ruin or friendship. (y/n) leaned in and kissed Chrono with as much passion as she could all the while Chrono is in shock "SHE IS KISSING ME HOLY SHIT HOLY SHIT WHAT DO I DO" when he didnt kiss back right away (y/n) pulled away and started to get up to leave fearing as though she just lost her one true friend. Chrono grabbed her wrist as she was walking away snapping out of his shock and kissed her with just as much passion. When they broke apart they were both breathless (y/n) i have loved you since that day we watched that stupid vampire romance movie please be my girlfriend i hate the idea of someone else holding you close and kissing youre soft tender lips everynight, i want to be the one that you rely on to cry on their shoulder to hold hands and take showers together and just do the couply stuff with. At a loss for words all (y/n) could do was pull him close and kiss him with the tears streaming down her face from overjoy of finally getting Chrono to herself. Chro... Stop chrono is not my name for you anymore its Hari or daddy im kidding but seriously dont call me Chrono is Hari im youre boyfriend and i love you.... The rest of the night was spent with more kisses and cuddles.....
Sorry if it sucked i hope you liked it...
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thestudyfeels · 6 years ago
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How To NOT Be Depressed.
(Or If You Prefer — How to Be Substantially Happy About Life.) 
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WARNING: This is one rollercoaster ride of a post. Proceed with extreme caution. For some, the staggering levels of insight may induce true purpose and re-establish their warrior spirit. For others, side effects may include grammatically incorrect hate or aloof eyerolls. We advise exiting if the said group includes you, for we're very tired of cleaning vomit off the seats.
Step aboard at your own risk.
If you’re one of the brave souls who stayed back to join us, I congratulate you for even I am scared of how crazy this post truly is. Alrighty then, kick back and relax folks, today we’re having a mature, adult conversation. Merely another cheery afternoon spent talking about life and its realities. Not too bad, eh?
Before we begin, spoiler alert! For those of you already turned off by the mention of 'depression’ and packing their bunnies to leave, sit tight. This ISN'T really about depression. This is about HAPPINESS. No clickbait. That got your attention, right butterfly? Nice, now stay.
A welcoming, maybe demanding A/N: Do me a favor and read this in one go. Maybe even plug in those headphones and listen to the songs dedicated to each part as you read. It's long, you have the new Riverdale episode to catch up on, but don't hop away just yet because (I had a couple moments writing this, alright) it's life changing. You'll prolly cry a few tears of realization, nod all nod-able body parts in agreement, beat your chest at random instants 'cause the hype’s too real, and perhaps, if it isn’t too much to hope for, finally go change your life for the better. In case you've forgotten, this'll remind you that there’s always hope, that you're a born conqueror, and you were made to THRIVE, not survive. Convinced? Kay, roll the cams.
   To clarify first-hand, no, I'm not depressed although I’ve experienced mild depression for a period before. Glad to say I'm out of it but I still struggle with tackling what I'm about to detail next.
Insert bitter voice, it’s this: My life is nowhere near I want it to be. Though I know vaguely what I wanna do, I haven't yet figured out how the hell I’m supposed to get there, or how my dream life is to be sketched out. It’s all a blurry mess. Which, to put it bluntly, hurts. I HATE feeling powerless and worthless, roaming about aimlessly.
There are many such moments where I hit the brakes to wonder why I’m not living THE Life already. There have been several times when I curl up and cry a frickin’ Amazon. There are horrible nights where I'm shaking with emotions, but they won't release, leaving me choked. (
not in that way, you hoes. Um, just ruined the dramatic mood with a lame dirty joke, sorry.)
   They say talking helps and that's why I figured I'd drop in. But perhaps more importantly, I wanted to hang because no matter how unfocused the lens may seem at my future, I don't consider myself a dopey loser incapable of the crazy dreams or wild bucket lists I fantasize about– and I thought I'd skip along to remind you that neither should you. (Or maybe I just came to sniff the new appetizers, who knows?)
PS: I also broke a sweat listing six ways to get outta depression– alternatively, to be more of a conqueror– because y'all are always pestering me with asks that go “how do I conquer omg send supplies” (Like, imagine a conqueror saying that! Oh, the crime, the atrocity!)
So yes, you're welcome. Have a feast with this litness.  
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The main reason behind people being so frightfully sad, I’ve found, is a huge lack of fulfillment. We don't do what we love, for either— [ 1 ] we aren’t living life the way we want to (since we keep doing things we feel we're supposed to do) OR [ 2 ] because Mama, Papa and Mrs. Carter next door feel that struggling is the only way, and project their traditional beliefs onto us. Either way, whether or not we consciously realize this, subconsciously, we're all hurting because of it. Badly.
That lingering feeling of emptiness never seems to leave. You feel drained every night when you drop into bed, not because you gave it your all, but because you couldn't. And so, we do the next best thing. Drugs. Maybe not literally, but figuratively. We numb out this subconscious pain by binge watching Netflix shows. We deaden ourselves to that discomfort by reading smut in the bathroom or by playing dumb video games all day. We try (and fail) to extinguish this feeling of not ‘being enough’ by having silly flings or fake friendships.
And ultimately, we NUMB ourselves out to LIFE for we can't bear to live the way we're living. There's a reason why “How to Stop Procrastinating” posts are so popular (they’re a blogger’s most foolproof way of paying the month’s rent, and yes, even I'm guilty of a couple). We’re constantly having FOMO and tuning into others' highlights on social media– completely missing out on our own lives in the process. We fail to realize that the culprit is lack of genuine purpose more than zero self-control (or maybe it’s both, but that’s a tale for another day).
[On a side note, obviously I did generalize a bit– video games can be a passion for you, watching shows a way of winding down. But for most, they’re only DISTRACTIONS, just another way of ignoring the calls of life by hanging up the phone.]
   And here's the bitter truth about depression: The longer you wait to start living authentically, the more you start tuning out the inner cries wanting change, the faster your dreams start to ebb away, and the more you'll want to become insignificant. And to me, that's the scariest part of this journey to my dream life.
Nothing frightens me more than knowing that the moment I stop pushing, the very moment I give in to distractions and fears, my goals will stop manifesting themselves and I'll be stuck in this small town with its small people eternally. And THAT, I'm certain, won't be any more fun than working your way through a soggy ham sandwich, ironic as soggy is what life has become. (Yes, I have a thing against soggy sandwiches. They were a kid's worst lunch nightmare.)
   If you relate, and I’m sure you do (it’s probably why you stopped scrolling through cheesy fanfic for ten minutes to read this, I know you amigo) — here are six ways to NOT be depressed. Or more accurately, to gift wrap yourself some sweet ol’ happiness.
You're a Samurai and the Following Be Your Katanas —
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Hol’ up. The second you reach the End Card, I want you to drop your Cheerios and implement at least THREE of these six strategies. Just follow the Takeaways, I've made this really simple. And as a rule, one of them has to be this one. (Look, don't whine. If you wanna climb outta that dark hole, you gotta put in some effort. So pop that booty, and let’s get down to business!)
Here’s the most truthful, though cheesy thing I’ll ever say: I would be nowhere I am today without this blog. If not for it, I would most likely be weeping in a dug-out hole somewhere, drowning in my salty little pond of tears and chiming every loser’s favorite words (“there's no point”). Creating this blog gave me a definite purpose – putting out fiery content, dipping myself deep into my newly found passion for writing and influencing, and connecting with other conquerors on the platform.  
I meet a lot of folks, whether at Sad School, Mouldy Mall, or Boring Bus stop, who always seem to be in a state of death-inducing boredom. When asked about their favorite thing to do, they’ll mumble “sleep” or “food” like Siri narrating your cat’s evening routine. And then you see adults, dragging through life mindlessly. Utterly clueless, floating like a piece of driftwood in an ocean bubbling with life. My sympathy quota gets overdosed everytime I think about it.
   To spell it out, find something to do. Anything! Learn a language, try some ballet, take pictures of your neighbor's rose garden, make an art piece and show it to your mom, stitch buttons onto shirts for fun, heck, make an entire shirt out of buttons, take a break from reading smut to write your own, frutify your farts, WHATEVER, just get up and move.
And here’s why – nay, not to keep you engaged or make you feel less worthless, not that bullcrap. It’s to put in gear the journey of figuring out what is the shite that you love doing. Too often we get stuck thinking about what our oh-so-great passion is. Get this, passion is energy. A spark for something. A magical fortune cookie which, when cracked, seems to explain everything, gives you the very reason for being alive. You can only feel that fire, that wild love, when you actually do it. So get cracking is all I’ll say!
Takeaway:
Attempt something. Nah, scratch that, imagine you’re in a sweet shop with shelves lined with free samples and try everything. Pick up that Polaroid cam, take that dreaded history course, buy that children’s cooking kit– in short, start working. Pull out all the stops, get curious, and get creative. In the process, if you promise to try hard enough, you WILL (money back guarantee) find out what makes your little heart burst with mad happiness and would willingly do for free, if needed, because you really are that crazy about it. And that, my dear, will be your oh-so-great-indeed passion. Have no doubt, you’ll never be “bored” again.
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Real talk, having a dream is a big deal. And unfortunately, I’ve witnessed, rarely anyone has one to begin with. They’re either more dead than the cheap skeleton I bought for Halloween or believe they have a dream, but in reality, it belongs to mom, dad, or Uncle Sammy. Listen, doing something for someone you love (my Uncle Sammy used to supply me with cold cash whenever he came around, loved that guy) is great! YET, if you’re willing to throw away your life to fulfill others’ expectations, convincing yourself it's because they love you, even when YOUR lonely heart craves bigger things than just a marketing job, then you, my friend? Are the biggest fool. Don’t get offended, we both know it, this girl needn't ramble.
Recently, my relatives were over (nope, sadly not Uncle Sammy) and my cousin and I had a chat about life (correct, I grab every opportunity to do so). It wasn't very exciting I must say, he kept staring off into the distance (I wonder why), but what he SAID is what I'll talk about. After I’d gushed about my dreams, he asked skeptically if being an influencer would still be an ambition two years from now when I graduate. I raised my eyebrows, mock hurt, like eff you son, I ain’t giving up on my dreams! But that question got me thinking.
Life is wild. Unpredictable. An unexpected call, a single person, a random BLOG POST (cough) – can turn your life upside down, sometimes in the affirmative, other times not. This variability of life isn’t uncommon, and everyone experiences some part of it– unpaid student loans, failing startups, talent and art going unnoticed in industries dominated by wealth and connections, you name it. If all of that doesn’t make you run for the Himalayas and abandon any dreams, throw in a quick side dish of dysfunctionale famiglia with a sprinkle of self-image issues.
It ain’t easy, darling. The world is one cruel headmistress; it loves slapping awake the daydreamers and wishful thinkers. That hasn't ever actually stopped the dropouts and class clowns from building castles in the air though. And the common blueprint you notice they follow? Let me introduce you to
  Madness. Obsession. Maniacal obsession, to say. (Yes, I'm done playing with my words.)
   I struggled writing this point. A pestering voice in my head kept mumbling – They'll go back to doing the same sad shit anyway. Um, does anyone even read your posts? Lol, call yourself an influencer, hun. Hesitation started creeping in. Then the irony of the situation struck me. I laughed, shook my head and got back to typing.
We ran out of juicy gossip weeks ago, so here’s your tea served cold: insecurities and self doubt WILL get in the way. That whiny voice was just a mild version of what you face when you go all in. Fear traps you in its cage, and those who prattled behind your back now progress to talking shit in your face. Criticism and self doubt resurfaces, so unless your defenses are strong, you'll be crushed. Destroyed REAL quick.
When hell breaks loose (oh honey, and it WILL), your self defense comprising of maniacal obsession must be well learnt. Let them attack, mock, heck, drag you away from the desk and hurl you at the top of a damn mountain, but you better STILL hike back down, show them the middle finger, and continue working. That's how bulletproof you've gotta be. That's how madly do you have to love your dreams. And if you really think this will be a cake walk or want to continue complaining about Stuart being born with a silver spoon, hop off the train already. Your destination isn't on the tour list.
Look, my dreams terrify me. But they certainly make me feel more alive than complying with what every parent said about getting good grades and holding together a roof on my head. My ambitions set me free, give me a reason to fucking live. And yet, every now and then, something makes me question them. A fear engulfs me, some doubter proclaims I suck, someone I love is so blinded they can't see my vision. And that's okay. My defenses are way stronger. The next day rolls round, and you'll find me hustling again, thriving again. All because I know that even if no one reads my posts (the worst case scenario, I know y'all love me lol), someday in the future, someone will. I know that even if I’m not an influencer yet, if just one reader becomes a conqueror because of my words, it would be a win. A big win. I'd have done my job. All because I’m wildly, yes maniacally, obsessed with my dreams.
So hey, cousin? This influencer thing? This will be my dream long after I've graduated. Till the day I die, and maybe even then I'll rise from my grave to give a dead pal a lively pep talk. My watchtower has just been upgraded, so thank u, next.
Takeaway: 
“General, we've arrived!” Finally! Position those cannons, Martha, let’s talk them through the defenses. All aboard? AHOY MATEY! (wait, that was one for the pirates). Step one, dare to create a dream in your mind’s eye. The bigger, the crazier, and the scarier, the better. Doesn’t matter how impossible it is, don’t care how many voice their opinion against it, just imagine, keep a million possibilities in mind.
Once you see the life you truly want (you’ll know, everything will seem to zing)— have a sip. Become OBSESSED for that life. Thirst after that vision, itch to manifest it, and pine for the satisfaction that’ll come to your soul once it’s made a reality. Fall madly in love with the process and how magical it feel when you do it. And THEN, bellow a loud war cry and charge headfirst into battle, shields held high at all the criticisms. We conquerors never cared much for them anyway.
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(play ♬) Picture this: forehead stamped with beads of sweat. Calloused hands working their fingers to the bone and eyebrows furrowed in deep concentration. Conjure an image where powerful beats are pulsing hard in your ears, synced with your own elevated heartbeats, and you’re thriving. Performing. Winning. Guess the secret to that? Preparation. Champions prepare. You can’t throw anything to the winds or rely on ‘luck’ or chance to conquer.
Tough days are in everyone’s calendar, be it your extra cheerful neighbor, Sally, or lone wolf classmate, Derrick. We’ve all found ourselves sulking over an awful situation, scooping into mint ice cream to forget mistakes, errands, and ghosting exes. Yet guess what? The solution isn’t the proclaimed “be positive!” or “It all happens for a reason, don’t you worry” - the key is coming up with a method to dodge the discouraging effect these hiccups have on us.   
So every bad day, I bring out a mason jar containing a knot of chits and one secret letter which is, on most days, kept hidden on the top shelf of my cupboard. I make myself comfortable on the bed, read all my bits of paper carefully, including the letter addressed to yours truly, close my eyes, and mentally fight back whatever’s bringing me down.
A short while later, I get up, now a warrior, and go slay the rest of the day like it was my last one on this planet. That jar is my jar. A Conqueror’s jar. One look at those powerful reminders, and I’m grounded once again, the beast within me now unleashed to kill.
Takeaway:
Honey, go get yourself a jar. Along with some papyrus and ink. Then start jotting down. Document past victories, future visions, fears that mean zilch to the person you’re about to become, batty goals you’ve still gotta chase, reminders that the majority will never understand what it is you’re tryna do here, and how that’s perfectly alright 'cause you'll find your conquerors, your squad one day. Create your victory jar. And then go knock ‘em down dead. Bad days stand no chance against you. You’re a winner, a fucking rebel. Go take what’s yours.
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Y’know, I’m perfectly aware that many muggles reading this will whine that dealing with depression ain’t no piece o’ pie and it’s hella hard to get up and take the crown when you feel like a pile of dino dung.
Stop it. Get some help. (See what I did? Like Michael- ok ok, calm thyself.) For real though, and I’m tired of repeating this with my kitten stamped microphone (but I’ll keep at it ‘cause it’s that significant) – whining is WORTHLESS. It saps up precious energy that could be used to make life a scrumptious smoothie. (Loothie? As in life + smoothie? Right, yes, I’m shutting up.)
And even THEN, we find denizens complaining about slow WiFis and thin crust pizzas and how the market’s down and the government’s incompetent. Because blabbering makes us feel important. Heard. But keeping yo’ trap shut and actually doing stuff? Hustling for your dreams when nobody’s watching? Actually walking the talk? C’mon, Emma, don't be naive, ain’t nobody getting recognition for that.
Trust me, I get it. The world is yet to become a feminist, turns out your boyfriend was cheating on you while you were looking up wedding dresses, mommy’s a drunk loser, and idiots are being voted into office. It’s a lot to handle. But thanks to our immense and ever increasing population (we folks really love our rumpy pumpy, can you tell) — there will surely be one chum, facing exactly the same misfortunes as you, but still turning up at every party and bulk-spamming his friends with puppy pictures while you sit and wail. (One Moaning Myrtle is enough, thank you very much.)
Look, I’m not undermining your worries or obstacles. I’m only reminding that you have the marvelous choice of positivity. To CHOOSE hope and a better future when others won't. To FIND (and it's always possible) something to look forward to even when the to-do’s a big snore. To KNOW, deep inside, that you're a magnificent conqueror, no matter what mess you’re in at the moment, and that the world dances to your rhythm. Realise that it's up to you to let yourself be happy. At any moment, you have the very say-so to get up and start rocking. Dumbledore said it himself, “It is our choices, that show what we truly are, far more than our abilities.” So choose better, and you’ll unconsciously do better as well. And yes, that being said, this is the last HP reference, don't fret. Be positive instead. (Edit: Ha, look at these quips, the girl's all grown up now.)
Takeaway: 
Your new occupation is to be a sunflower. If you think back, you'll probably recall Miss Honey rattling on about phototropic movement in AP biology. No? Me neither. Point is, sunflowers always face the sun. Put them ANYWHERE, hide them in the dungeons, throw them in a trash bag and shoot it off to the moon, they’ll still turn around and face the sun. No matter what. And taking inspo from that, you too can stop scripting creative soliloquies for being depressed. Happiness is YOUR right, YOUR priority, don't let anyone take it away from you or diminish its importance. DON’T let sadness ruin your vibe, do what you've gotta do to protect yourself. Track happiness in yo’ journal, set 84 reminders on your phone, and tattoo “Long as you’re beaming up at the sun, all the shadows will be left behind” on your boobs. Do whatever, just don’t turn the corners of your mouth down. You’re so pretty this way.
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The other day, I was doing the deathly PliĂ© Alternative Heel Lifts (these names, I swear) and my legs felt dead. Gone. Put to sleep like the Wicked Witch of the East. Now obviously, the timer wasn’t not even halfway done yet, but my cheeks were already flushing red like dear Santa, and NOT because I was high on choco chip cookies. I sighed, and at that point, I was so over giving up. All this while, I’d been whining and protesting because my muscles felt sore, but in that moment, I made up my mind. I bit my lip and kept going. On and on. Keep pulsing, you got it, don't stop, was the mantra I kept chanting.
   Won’t sugarcoat it, I honestly hadn’t died this much since that time Miss Honey buried me alive with trig assignments. My legs were now basically Play-doh and I was shaking, fighting for balance. A few seconds in though, something crazy happened. My legs went numb. My grumbling mind quietened and the pain vanished. That evening, I had the upper hand, not my physical perceptions of myself. I was powerful. Flawless. (Hey Santa, do you even lift bro?) Real talk, I was in the Zone, bitches.
I’m not sure if that was the result of excessive pain or because Wonder Woman’s spirit possessed ma bod, but staying loyal to my love for metaphors, I’ll use the experience to explain what I’m tryna get at here.
   Look, here’s the real deal — if all of the greats gave up the second things got frowny, we probably would have no one to worship. Nix role models, nix inspirations, none to stalk on Insta - we’d all be bumbling about like Sad from the even sadder Emoji movie (no shade, emojis be lit).
And that'd be very sad (pun definitely intended). Hence, cue some tangible ways to boosting your grit, so that you can be your own superhero:
1) Get yo’self a goddamn motto,
2) Know your “Why,”
3) Repeat the cycle till it’s in your blood. Btw, Shawn, if you here, I’m still a single pringl—HEY PAL I SEE YOU, DON'T SCROLL.
Seriously, don't brush these prime steps aside. We're always going for the advanced modes, and deeming these basic levels a waste of time. Well guess what, compadre, YOUR LIFE IS A GODDAMN WASTE O’ TIME IF YOU DON'T HAVE YOUR BASICS RIGHT. Excuse my outburst, but listen. You can’t do a hundred bicep curls on your first workout if you haven't lifted anything more than a crisps packet. Likewise, if you simply jump into Life one day, and decide “ok, here it is, 12 habits to build, sleep schedule to fix, man to ask out, let's go,” you ain't getting nowhere, chum. Start small. Take baby steps. It's clearly not as fun (definitely negates the bragging on Facebook part of it) but it'll stick. You’ll create a consistency that not even Grandma's cake batter can achieve.
1. Talking mottos — For context, a motto that I always mutter (my mom thinks I'm cursing, oh what a bad child) every time I spill milk while making coffee is “Do more. Give more. BE more.” Not only does it help me stay right on track for the rest of the day but it helps me clean up my mess, figuratively and otherwise, or I’d just be sitting in a puddle of spilt milk, cursing adulting for real this time and with more laundry to do.
2. Why you need the Big Why — Owning up, I’m guilty of attempting to learn Welsh for less than 48 hours because I hadn't a single reason to speak the language. A similar thing happened with half of my 2018 resolutions, which had a bunch of rubbish like “Floss daily”, something my eyes got trained to skip because, um, who the hell flosses every day?
Lame humor aside, I still workout almost daily because I have my Why straight. 1) I want to feel good about my body and get closer to the confident badass I envision my future self to be, 2) I simply HAVE to sustain my health to live to build my legacy and fulfill my dreams of opening a bakery at 90 and 3) Because I’m an influencer, and want to walk my talk and be the inspiration people need. Those are the reasons as to why I turn up to my yoga mat everyday, shut my jabbering mind, and keep on pulsing. This “Why” strategy applies to everything. Wanna get outta depression? Why? Wanna lose 20 pounds? Why? Wanna listen to your dentist’s desperate pleadings and floss already? WHY EH? Unless you know your intentions, you’ll give up at the first chance you get to not act on your goals. And watch out, because there'll be a LOT of those.
For me, leaving a legacy behind means more than having a slice of cake or missing a workout because there’s a fun movie playing. Find what's important to YOU, make it your why, and go marry your goals.
3. And then, Repeat — Bear in mind, if you're not living your best life yet, there are NO weekends. NO work-shy days. No weak days, no pick-me-up days, no eat-candy-do-nothing days. Everyday is a damn Monday. EVERYDAY is life or death. Every holy day you wake up is a chance to push your limits, challenge your mindset, and see how far you can go. And every 24 hours, when the cycle starts again, it’s your mission to race to build a stronger, wiser and crazier you.
And who knows, perhaps one day, you and I will just be casually sipping tea in our dream home, laughing at how the milk is still being spilt but knowing, proudly, fiercely, that we’ve come so far, even though there’s still more left to do, more to give and so much more to be.
Takeaway: 
Quit quitting. You're, guaranteed, 20x stronger than you think. I doubted I could go through with the workout, it seemed beyond my present physical capabilities. But I did, because I treated it as life or death. Understand this, the second you start making excuses, for being depressed, for taking an unnecessary day off - you give away your power. You are a very powerful being. You're limitless, capable of everything.
I'm not throwing these words around to make you feel cute, I actually mean AND believe them. There’s so much that's been done already— the iconic four minute mile by Roger Bannister, invention of the light bulb, cars, toothpaste and other junk, people who lost both legs and climbed Mt. Everest, we sent a man to moon in frickin’ 1969 (50 YEARS ago), some ran a 26 mile marathon with zero training, love and hope is still strong in this world, oh let's also add coffee and motivational music— and YOU think you can't finish a workout or get outta depression or meet your idols or marry the man of your dreams or become the artist you wanna be? Ridiculous. Don't give away your power that easily, this ain't no charity shop.
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(play ♬) Having personally dealt with unwelcome yet familiar feelings of emptiness quite often, I’ve now reached a point where each bad day is simply a reminder of how long my journey ahead is, and just how badly I want to reach my destination.
We finally near the end of this novel of a post (thanks for sticking around, bud), and my best advice would be this: Rather than wallowing in self pity and throwing one-man parties because your life is so awfully dreadful, know that even when life throws you to the floor, long as you can look up, long as you can read an entire book about defeating depression (cough)– you can GET UP too. Let those emotions of sorrow and frustration blaze up into a roaring, crackling fire that doesn’t consume you, but instead, urges you, fuels you.
Lately, no matter how much shit I go through, how many arguments I tumble into, or how barren my dreams look sometimes, I don’t break down. And no, it wasn't always like this. I never even had aspirations to name two years ago. Six months back, it had become a night routine to cry. Not anymore.
Now, every setback and every failure only pushes me to be stronger and give more than I ever gave. The day I made the decision to Conquer (truly, madly, deeply, with all of my heart) was also the day I said a big, loud ‘fuck you’ to every resistance that was to cross my path. I had finally understood that life was nothing but a battle of WILLS, that it was all in or nothing, and I made up my mind once and for all to NEVER give in to depression, or to society, or to anyone who tells me I cannot make it.
I had conquered depression. There was no looking back now.
Takeaway: 
Here’s something no one will tell you: the key to bringing depression to its knees is seeing it positively. Pretend that it's a friend continuously sending strong, aggressive signals urging you to be happy. And what do you do when a caring friend throws some holy light? You listen, push past your ego, and follow accordingly.
And if that parallel seems unconvincing, here's another one (sup, DJ Khaled. This post is turning musical, sorry): it's scared of you. Depression is scared shit of you. Y'know how bullies are, right? Majorly insecure, self-loathing too perhaps, hardly fans of self love, and always trying to numb all that subconscious pain by inflicting pain on others. Depression has the same instruction manual. Your fears and doubts are your (pathetic) bullies, and depression is the big ol’ crony who does the dirty work for 'em.
Whenever you decide shit this is it, I'm going for it, they go paranoid and try stopping you because they've seen no better. And if they succeed, BOOM, you're depressed, paralyzed, your qualms reigning over you again. Don't let them in. I'll say it a thousand times if I gotta because I want (HAVE) to see you conquer – you're so much stronger than you think you are. You can do so much more than you think. It's all in your head! Don't just sit there, click away, and go back to living a sad life. You’re better than that. DO better than that. You’re meant to freaking CONQUER, straight-up dominate, my pal. Pay heed to that voice craving freedom. You got this. And you better know it.
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One thing’s fixed like the (beloved by all) proportionality constants in Physics, you will come across depressing mornings and sluggish evenings even in the future. I assure you. Lots o’ bad hair days in the calendar, sis. But here's what you’ll do: you'll deactivate the miserable thoughts, keep a cool head, remind yourself that this is yet another test (better, rap your new mantra) and USE that hurt, pain, and anger to create a fervor and passion that wreaks havoc on its obstacles and drives you to accomplish EVERYTHING you've ever wanted to do. The easy choice would be to just give up, bellyache about the situation, and want sympathy for your worries. Yet, what you'll never do is
 exactly that.
Rule 1) NEVER give up. Stand your ground. Have faith in your strength. Know that you'll have your way soon enough anyway. Rule 2) NEVER complain. All it does is drain your energy, that precious fire you could to high jump your way into the clouds. Makes you a pathetic wimp too, definitely not something you want on a warrior’s resume. Lastly, Rule 3) NEVER seek validation. From anyone. It sure feels nice to be acknowledged and encouraged, but grasp this— this is your journey. YOUR life and YOUR vision. Validation won't get you anywhere, for there'll never be enough of it.
Cuz Marty, if you're tryna bring something new, different, and authentic into this world – you'll most likely be hated on badly, before you'll be loved madly (hi, me a rapper). Learn to invite hate instead—IMPORTANT: hate from others, not yourself. Sounds counterintuitive, but this is the real tea: hate is good. It means you're standing up for something, refusing to fit like a puzzle piece in society, and being UNAPOLOGETICALLY yourself. And it’s certainly a sign that you’re on the right path if you can ignore that hate and stick your tongue out at it.  
Yet another reason to never seek validation is simply this: you have to fight for yourself. In order to meet your own expectations, reach the doorstep of the best version of you, and transform this world, you'll have to go wildly IN. Toil and hammer away. Shut out all the haters and non-believers, listening only to your gut. Importantly, learn to accept the rejection slips, validating yourself not with what Molly says about it being okay, but with the reminder that your time is coming soon. Depend on yourself. Validation will NEVER be enough.
I get it, it's a lot of homework, but perhaps you already realize that it’s THIS work that'll change your life forever. Not “how to not procrastinate, Jesus take the wheel” or “HELLO, life's a mess so here are ten things to do (you won't believe number four!)”. Clickbaits don't work, stop believing that a fancy planner is going to be your savior. There is no rule to making your life a masterpiece. You'll have to get to know yourself and your dreams (journaling, meditation, silent pondering), build the work ethics and the mentality needed (lots of work in this one, yet no strict framework to go about it) and GET GOING.
AND with that firework, I'll begin to slip away now. Again, I won’t say it’s easy, that’s cock and bull. Life’s no fairytale. You will never feel ready to start bringing your dreams to fruition. But, my darling (I’m being so nice yo, follow me), you must. You must force yourself to work for the future you want till it becomes a habit, an obsession. The world badly needs heroes; confident people who can stand for themselves so that others can stare at first, maybe even hate a little, but then follow because they seem unstoppable and are, truthfully, having the most fun at life. YOU'RE one of them. No validation, just plain facts.
You see, conquering is a LOT of blood and sweat (K-pop, anyone? BTS? Lmao, this is me tryna clickbait y'all to read). Even getting up will seem huge when you're just starting out, and this is one long road, dear pal. Still then, I have enough faith in you to hope you don't give into your fears, I hope you willingly chase discomfort, and I hope you find the courage to do all that you want to do, while that heart's still beating.
I hope you conquer. I'll do too, and I'd really like to see some familiar faces during the ride.
Peace, amigo.
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A loud ass A/N: And now, we come the most important part of this post. WAKE UP Luke, stop snoring, and take some notes. Remember kids, I won't accept anything but an A.
   If you couldn’t identify yourself throughout this post and currently are scoffing like um woman, that's not really why I'm depressed, hang in there a sec. Yes, you can stop singing It Ain’t Me now. You've a very nice voice by the way.
I'm not a doctor, and I don't have enough exposure to know why so many earthlings are depressed today. HOWEVER, by talking to many, following their stories, watching and reading stuff – I do know with firm conviction that a majority suffers from severe unfulfillment. Don't believe me? A study shows 85% of the working class worldwide hate their jobs. Do you realize what that actually means? EIGHTY-FIVE PERCENT of the THREE BILLION PEOPLE employed today, hate being employed in the first place! They do it for prime survival, to sustain themselves. And that's just jobs. I won't scare you, but 50% (yes, HALF, you heard that right) of students HATE going to school. Kids waste SEVEN hours of their life every day going somewhere they dislike, doing something they hate. Who's singing now?
People find themselves trapped in golden handcuffs, taking the paycheck despite the passionless job. They push aside the art and business they love, to become a slave of good ol’ cash. Several surround themselves with negativity and get frustrated when unable to escape the choking (no, not THAT kind again, hello someone pour holy water over this post) atmosphere. An innumerable are forced into taking up courses that they don't care about under parental pressure. The reasons are endless, and I don't think I'll amuse myself listing all the sad excuses.
This has always been the story. Hundreds of influencers have preached the same words I’m tryna put into your head here and you’ll yourself say you’ve heard this a million times. YET, you’re dissatisfied. YET, you feel like crap everyday, feeding yourself the same lie that the next day will be better, that you’ll get up tomorrow– while you let life beat the shit out of you.
That’s why, all of my words, everything you’ve read today - all of that boils down to just one single question. A difficult but necessary choice. Will you let this happen to YOU? Will you, seriously, even after this wild ride together, go back to doing nothing and being nothing? Will you, for real, continue deceiving yourself, sacrifice your happiness for the sake of pleasing everyone else, and remain a statistic on a website?
   (play ♬) If you’re not sure of your answer, read: Look, making you feel guilty is not my intention, because that’s not how this works. I need you to understand instead. Guilt wears off, it’s only understanding that brings about change. So, just for old times’ sake, I’ll rant a bit more (ik, just can’t seem to leave y’all).
You’re so, so young right now. More than half of your life is yet to be experienced. None of this probably makes much impact right now but it will the day you die. Remember, on your deathbed, you won't EVER look back and say, “Damn, wish I'd spent more time at the office. Saved up just one more dollar. Could’ve got that promotion before Amy.” Nay, it won’t even be on the calendar. That day, one foot in the grave, you'll reflect and wonder why the heck you didn’t let yourself be happier. Why you took up that lacklustre, soul-sucking architect job when all you've ever wanted to do is keep laughing. Why you didn't ask your crush out, why you were so afraid to walk up to that audition, because dammit, you could’ve been running your own comedy show by now. Why you dragged around a karaoke machine all this time instead of singing your own song. Why you couldn’t love yourself. Why you submitted. Why.
And the moment you realize that you hadn't lived a life for you, you’ll be crushed. Broken. The arthritis in your grannie joints won't even compare and neither will the mild dissatisfaction you’re feeling right now. Those whys will haunt you, they'll terrorize you, break you. It'll hurt tremendously to know that there isn't a single thing in your long life that you could call completely your own.
 With every death today so many dreams are left unachieved, crazy things left unchecked on the bucket list, and unique potential left unexpressed.
DON'T let that be you. Please. I'm still a mess myself, struggling to reach class on time and studying subjects that aren't exactly fun, when all I want to do is create content (read: fireworks) that is at a level of insanity, influence folks to do better, hold crazy world tours and meet-and-greets to give hugs, and get an adorable puppy so I can create a dogstagram (yes, I'm that mom). Sure, I could declare it's too hard, hang onto small-minded and negative people who whine endlessly, and follow the crowd, getting lost in it, with ease.
But I won’t because I can’t take the burden of those regrets. That painful unrest and discontent that nothing could cure, not drugs, alcohol, buddies, not even true love. For then I’d be just another drone, my controller in the hands of society, forcing me to see the world through its eyes. I can’t give in because I’m scared, terrified even, of wasting away this one life doing the bidding of others- folks who won't even notice when I’m gone.
It’s easy to be depressed and crib your entire life. It’s easy to think you’re worthless and that trying is pointless since nothing ever goes your way.
But perhaps, if you rise, if you simply DECIDE to have the audacity to fight for what you believe in, if you work and focus on becoming better, things will go your way. Life will bend to you, in awe, at your incredible relentlessness. Life will take one look at you, wonder who the fuck is this person? How the fuck are they so incapable of giving up? And back right away. And then perhaps, life will be such a blast for you that depression would become the past you never had.
   I know you can get there, conqueror. It’s time you knew it too.
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The Bubble Trap & How To Get Out Of It — One of my classics. Everyone is in one of these 'bubbles’ till they consciously do something about it; that's just how it is. Are you still in one? (Someone teach me marketing, lmao.)
The 5 Biggest Regrets of The Dying (from Greatist) — I LOVED reading this. Pretty much all you need to cut the crap and do meaningful stuff. Read it, memorize it, work it.
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And that was it, it's a wrap! Martha, shut the cams, Henry, pause the audio, and Nandita, I know you're pretending to be deaf, but Mom's yelling something about doing the dishes. Better skip along.
And you, fellow conqueror? Keep slaying life, doing the work and making it count. I hope you're well, stay strong and go conquer life. ✧
I'm sending you so much love, see you soon.
— Nandini 💌 (ÂŽïœĄâ€ą ᔕ â€ąïœĄ`) ♡
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sin-zawa-blog · 6 years ago
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Congratulations on your blog! May I request an Aizawaxstudent!reader where the reader is jealous or insecure about their feelings for their teacher after seeing Ms. Joke? Please and Thank You! Happy sinning 😉
Thank you! I’m pretty nervous about sharing my writing with everyone since I think it’s kind of weird, but I’m also really excited! Of course, you can, my little sinbun! I feel every blog has a weird name they call their followers and for that reason, you shall all be my sin bunnies! And if it’s already taken, well, fuck. 
I hope you enjoy it! :D
PS: I literally refer to Reader as “Reader”. I just prefer it over using Y/N.
-x-o-x-o-x-o-x-The reader felt shame for having such a terrible feeling bubbling in her gut. A feeling so strong that it felt as if someone had punched her right in the chest, ripping her heart out, and leaving her a  hollow shell left to rot. She just couldn’t help feeling sick to her stomach every time she looked at them – every time she looked at her; the definition of beauty, with her silky long seafoam green hair that bounced with every boisterous laugh that would spill out of her throat and into the air around her, captivating everyone near and far, including the man of her unrequited affection – man, not  boy.
The envious feeling only grew tenfold when she watched his reactions, how he patiently waited for her to finish her sentences before offering some short remark in return, and how every now and  again he would show a flash of amusement behind his tired eyes that she would kill to have directed at her, if only once. Jealously and envy swirled together in the pit of her stomach in a violent dance that had her choking on her own breath. She hated herself for feeling this way, hated herself even more for letting it affect in such a crucial in her future career as a hero. People around her were being taken out left and right in an all-out battle royal, but she herself was too busy ogling her teacher and his voluptuous friend, who was sitting just a little too close for her liking.
Reader felt
helpless. 
She knew that her feelings were irrational, and something that could never be returned; a sad, one-sided tale of love and taboo, that would never be written. She was briefly pulled out of her self-inflicted agony when her third target began to beep, signaling her elimination. Reader’s eye widened as she looked into the eyes of one of the Ketsubutsu students, grinning triumphantly at her defeated. 
She
lost? 
Reader frowned, again looking to the stands where Ms. Joke stood cheering and praising her student on a job well done while throwing small,  playful jabs Aizawa-Sensei’s way.
Reader and Aizawa-Sensei locked eyes, where shame, met disappointment.Reader hung her head and walked away trying to fight back tears and the bile that threatened to crawl out of her throat at any given moment.
Reader avoided the waiting room where she knew all of her friends who passed would be. So far, she was the only one to fail, and she didn’t want to deal with any of it. She was well aware that she screwed up but not even the fact that she flunked could drive the feeling of jealous rage out of her. The reader took comfort in the security of the locker room, finding it surprisingly empty which really  didn’t shock her since those who have passed and failed headed straight to the waiting for for food and rest, and to not cry about a man twice their age who would never be interested in a pathetic  little girl.
Reader hiccuped, swiping the hot tears from her red and puffy eyes that burned and itched the more she rubbed at them. Once she started, she just couldn’t stop. It was as if the dam containing all of her emotions finally burst and was spilling out in fat teardrops that rolled down her flushed face. If anyone were to see her right now they would assume she was upset because she failed, and not because she was jealous of the attention her Sensei was giving to another woman. The gut-wrenching sobs continued to pour out of her as she placed her head in the comfort of her arms and drew her knees to her chest, cursing herself for being so damn stupid.
“So this is where you ran off to.” Came a deep tone laced with boredom that seemed to echo of the locker room walls.
“It’s not like you to act this way. You’re one of the few out of the class that actually uses their brain, especially in moments as crucial as today. What happened? You seemed distracted.” He said, shuffling closer to her, and crouching down.
Reader’s heart thundered against her chest and her breath seized in her throat; it amazed her how just his voice alone could bring out strong emotions inside of her. She slumped against the locker she leaned on for support, hiding her eyes behind her hands as if they would mask her pain and heartache. She didn’t want him to see her like this! To see her so weak, so vulnerable, looking like a  scared little girl; she wanted him to see her as grown, mature, enticing? – like Ms. Joke! That’s how she wanted to be seen in the eyes of Aizawa Shouta, but she was nothing like that, and they both knew it.
Reader chewed on her lips feeling the tears begin to flow again. Reader shook her head and babbled under her breath words that Shouta couldn’t understand. Shouta sighed, allowing her to pour all of her emotions out even if he couldn’t understand what she was saying, he had a lingering thought of what it could all possibly be about. It didn’t take a genius to figure out something as simple as a  schoolgirl crush
but Shouta believed this case to be a little more extreme, and something that needed delicate handling. He gently pried her hands from her face revealing her swollen red eyes and puffed out cheeks that he found to be quite adorable.
“I can’t help you if you don’t tell me what’s wrong, Reader,” Aizawa said, brushing a lock of hair behind her ear.
His hand held her face for a lingering moment, absorbing the warm that pooled from her blushing cheeks. She sighed, leaning into his touch as a way to savor a moment that she would never get again. Reader pulled herself away from his touch with reluctance, though his hand lingered as if waiting for her to return to his touch and cleared her hoarse voice that suddenly felt too small.
“It’s
nothing, Sensei, really. I’m just upset at myself for getting distracted, is all.” And for letting you down, she wanted to add but remained silent.
“That can’t be all.”
Reader bit her lip. No was her chance! She could finally tell him and get it over with. She could finally let out everything that has been eating her alive since she met him and maybe, just maybe he would
she mentally scolded herself, knowing that she was being foolish.
Reader opened and closed her mouth like a fish out of water. Her fists tightened at her sides and her mouth formed a tight line. 
What are you doing!? 
Open your mouth and speak you, idiot! 
Again she tries but nothing. 
Frustrated, she runs a hand through her hair that has long since fallen out of place and sighs. 
You’re hopeless, she thinks to herself.
Reader thickly swallowed. 
“Even
even if I told you the truth, it isn’t as if anything would change.” She spoke in a broken tone. “It’s much easier to fabricate a lie than to face the reality of a disappointing truth, isn’t it,  Sensei?”
The room was thick with unmasked tension and a dead-silence that weigh heavily in the air. Reader cradled her knees to her chest and looked away from the eyes of Aizawa Shouta that has filled with pitty – that is what she wanted to see; she didn’t want to be pitied by the man she had fallen in love with, all she wanted was to be loved by him.
The sudden lifting of her chin and dark eyes gazing into her own snapped Reader out of her cloud of depression. Aizawa held her chin firmly between his long, slender fingers, showing a flash of concern and guilt that made her heart skip one too many beats. Reader lifted her hand in an attempt to push him away – to push away the reality of the situation – but Aizawa grabbed her hand and held it in his own, gently, as if she were made of glass and would crack if he held on too tightly. 
The world around them seemed to freeze and Reader could practically feel her blood pumping in her ears. She wanted to look away but she couldn’t, his eyes captivated her; everything about him captivated him. As id her body were acting on its own accord she too reached out, and gently cupped his stubbly cheek, inching her fingers upwards to the scar that maimed the underneath of his eye  as a reminder of the sacrifice he made to keep them safe from harm and invoke a feeling inside of her that not even that of All might could bring about.
“You.” She breathed. “You’re on my mind, Sensei. I-I know that it’s wrong, but, I just can’t help it! The truth is, that
that I have really strong feelings for you, and it’s not some stupid schoolgirl  crush – there real!” Reader cried out, clutching her chest. “I can’t stop thinking about you and I really can’t explain it but when
when I saw you with her, with Ms. joke, I just got really jealous and angry because I wanted it to me! I wanted it to be me you look at that way!”
Reader whimpered and shook her head as the tears began to fall once again. 
“And I know that it’s stupid because why would you choose to fall in love with some stupid kid who can’t even control her own emotions?! I’m not as pretty as Ms.Joke or as cool or as funny! I’m just a stupid kid that’s way in over her head, right? But it’s all true and, and –”
Her words were smothered with a kiss. It took her by surprise. So much she even let out a squeak that was muffled by the older male’s mouth; the kiss was scruffy and tickled her face. The reader was frozen, having never experienced a kiss, let alone attraction so strongly towards someone. Should.. she kiss him back? She really wanted to, but it was like having him kiss her made her brain lose all function.
Aizawa sensing her hesitation pulled back and studied her face.  Her eyes were wide and her face was tinted red, which he thought looked cute on her. Again he brushed the hair from her blushing face and gently wiped the tears from her eyes.
“Sorry,” he chuckled, “I couldn’t help myself. It would be improper for me to let you take all of the blame when I was fully aware of your feelings.”
“You were?” Reader’s eyes widened.
“All you staring and blushing gave it away.” He smirked. “A part of me knew that I should diminish your feelings before they grew out of hand, but the other more illogical part of me dismissed those  thoughts because I started to feel attracted to you, as well.”
Aizawa sighed and brushed a hand through his hair. 
“I told myself that it was unprofessional and that it was more trouble than it was worth, but it did little to my growing affection and feelings for you and that’s why I began to distance myself from  you, however today, when I saw how upset you got over the thought of Joke and me, all reason went out the door
and here I am now. I think you’re smart enough to figure out what that means,  Reader." 
Aizawa sighed. "I guess I got a little carr –”
It was Reader this time who silenced him. Her lips smashed against his in a hasty and sloppy kiss that had her tumbling into his lap. His lips were cold and chapped, not warm and soft as the books always said they would be, but she didn’t mind. Slowly and unsurely Reader put her arms around his neck and poured her heart into their forbidden kiss. 
Aizawa chuckled and grabbed her by the waist and pulled her close. He found himself reluctantly pulling back from the kiss and burying his nose in the crook of her neck; his breath warm on her skin.
“Sensei, won’t the others start to notice how long we’ve taken?" 
"I’m not in any hurry.” Aizawa purred against her skin, leaving butterfly kisses on her exposed skin; Aizawa nipped at her skin, running his tongue over the flesh he wanted to bruise and mark as his own.
Reader groaned and knotted her fingers in his hair. Aizawa growled sinking his teeth into her skin, taking pride in the moan that vibrated from her throat and out of silky lips that he wanted to turn from pink to purple.
“S-Sen-s-e-i!” Reader whimpered.
Aizawa paused, taking hold of her chin and locking their eyes together. “Call me Shouta,” he murmured, brushing his lips against her. “Now, scream it for me, Reader.”__________________________________
I’m not very confident in my writing but I love doing it and I hoped I was able to deliver what you wanted! You never specified any sexy moments, so I left the ending open, but if requested I would be happy to write a sequel for it! :D
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nochuuuenthusiast · 6 years ago
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hii~ so i got tagged by @snugglemejeon thank you so much ! i think this is really cute hehe (to the people i tagged: i’m sorry if i tagged you and we haven’t talked that much... i don’t know that many people on tumblr... and also, you don’t have to do this challenge, so feel free to ignore it !) 
rules are: (1) tag the person who tagged you (2) answer the questions (3) tag 10 people (sorry i don’t know that many people here on tumblr so i’m only gonna tag one or two :( but ps! if you wanna be friends with me, don’t hold back and just talk to me hehe) 
(1) how tall are you? 
i haven’t checked in a bit but i’m about 5â€Č2″ (ish) so that’s around 158cm (*sighs* yeah i know... i’m pretty short) 
(2) what color and style is your hair?
i actually got a haircut yesterday before my blackpink concert hehe so now my hair is layered and it goes a little past my shoulders. i didn’t start growing out my hair until late last year since i used to always cut it short (like, a little above my shoulders) so yeah... i used to dye my hair a longgg longggg time ago but now it’s its original color which is dark brown 
(3) what color are your eyes? 
a solid brown (not totally light, but not too dark) (my mom has really pretty light brown eyes but they didn’t get passed down to me so ahhaha *cries*) 
(4) do you wear glasses? 
yes, but no (?) i have glasses but i don’t wear them 24/7 since my eyesight isn’t that bad... i only wear them in class when i’m too far away from the board. i have kinda circular, brown glasses (lmao, i know no one asked but...) 
(5) do you wear braces?
i used to wear braces a couple of years ago so now i just wear my retainers once a week (you’re supposed to wear them every night but whatever,,, i’m pretty lazy and irresponsible and my teeth haven’t shifted sooo once a week will do ahah) 
(6) what’s your fashion sense? 
i care about how i dress but i don’t worry about how i look all the time soooo... i’ll sum up my style in a few words: 26 year old single korean girl walking to an aesthetic cafe on a sunday afternoon. yeah. that’s basically my style. lol i hope you guys understand what i mean... if not, i’m terribly sorry
(7) full name? 
only a few people on tumblr know my name... but i don’t want to reveal it here since i know everyone can see this, and tumblr is the only social media platform where my identity is hidden sooo... 
but if you want to get to know me and learn my name then you can definitely message me or send something to me :) i’m nice, i swear
(8) when were you born?
july 2001; i’m 17 ;) 
(9) where are you from and where do you live now? 
i was born and currently live in los angeles, california however, i am 100% korean. both of my parents were born and raised in south korea. and yes, i am fluent in korean. 
(10) what school do you go to? 
i am a highschooler. and that’s all i’m gonna say. skool sucks :P
(11) what kind of student are you?
i would like to say that i’m more of a hard worker than a naturally smart person, but i am currently getting straight As and for those of you who live in the us, i’m taking 5 APs (which totally sucks :’( but i’m handling them kinda well... i think). and i don’t really like being complimented because one of my biggest fears is of me becoming arrogant so let’s move on,,, pls. 
(12) do you like school?
hell no. but i have to deal with it since everyone does so :/// school isn’t that bad if you daydream and think about bts all day hehe. but in all seriousness, i think school is okay if you have the right friends to hang out with and talk to 
(13) favorite subject? 
history!!! i know this is really weird since not a lot of people like history, but i love ittt!!! i think it’s really fun since it’s kinda like one big story of our world (i’m sorry, i’m such a dork)... i took ap art history last year and i fell in love with it! 
(14) favorite tv shows? 
i used to watch kdramas a longgg time ago, but i kinda stopped but idk why... but my favorite tv shows are friends, the office, stranger things, jane the virgin, etc, etc... i can literally name so many tv shows that i’ve watched but then i’d go rambling on and on and on and i don’t want to bore anyone...
(15) favorite movie? 
forrest gump !!! (and also, did anyone see the two bts movies? i watched both of them at cgv and i literally exploded when i saw the members... okay, moving on (sorry... i get off topic really easily)) 
(16) favorite books? 
i read a book called “pachinko” by min jin lee over the summer and it was so! freaking! good!!! i highly recommend it everyone~ it’s a historical fiction novel about 3-4 generations of this korean family who lived in korea and then moved to japan. it takes place a little before the korean war and it talks about the discrimination that koreans faced in japan at the time. i recently went to the library to check it out since i wanted to read it again but they didn’t have an english copy of the book so i’m reading it in korean at the moment. 
(17) favorite pastime? 
rewatching and rewatching and rewatching bangtan. oh, and streaming their new album ;) oh, and stressing over the new test questions on the fan cafe that the staff upload every week (i need to level up but the test is so hard... i cry every time) 
and writing for this blog! i originally made this blog to de-stress and write some scenarios and reactions and i didn’t know that people would actually like them and respond to them,,, so hey, thank you :) you make me happy every day 
(18) do you have any regrets? 
yes. too many to count. but i’m not gonna sit here and list them all lol
(19) dream job?
i don’t really know... but something in corporate law (?)
(20) would you ever like to be married? 
yessss! have you seen my entire blog??? it’s an entire fluff kingdom!!! i mean, i know that marriage is not just one big fluff and i know that it’s tough, but i would still like to get married one day 
i have my own little fantasies about how married life would be, but that’s a little secret so i’ll save it for next time ;) 
(21) would you like to have kids? 
as much as i love kids, i’m not too sure if i would want any... i mean, obviously my answer will change in the future, but i kinda want either no kids or just one kid... the responsibility of being a parent kinda freaks me out...
(22) how many?
oops, i kinda answered this already in (21) but i’ll answer again anyway: 0-1 
(23) do you like shopping? 
no, i absolutely LOVE shopping. i think i’m addicted lmao. 
psssss: i know no one asked, but my favorite retail shop is madewell
(24) what countries have you visited? 
ahhh finally... the question i’ve been waiting for... so if you get to know me, i really really really reallyyyyy love traveling and i’m so grateful for all the opportunities i’ve been given to travel at such a young age. 
so, let me just list all the places i’ve been to (an i know not all of these are countries, or out of the us, but just hear me out,,, okay?) : france, italy, south korea, mexico, us (hawaii, nevada, utah, etc (lol, i can’t remember all of them)) 
my favorite location out of all of these places is definitely italy <3 (italy has my heart)... i stayed at rome and i also visited pompeii and positano (which were absolutely stunning and beautiful). i went to rome last spring (around april/may) and i personally, really love sightseeing and history and since rome is full of those two things i reallyyy enjoyed it there. oh, and don’t even get me started with the food <3333 
i also really loved france... i stayed at paris and my favorite thing about paris was definitely the louvre museum (once again, i love art history) as well as this place called montmarte (ahh! it’s so pretty) 
and last but not least, (as much as i love love loveee south korea) i really enjoyed mexico! i love calming, relaxing vacation spots so i got to go to cancun (twice!) and snorkel and swim and see little fishies in the clear turquoise ocean... yeah, i miss it there... :( 
(25) scariest nightmare you have ever had
i would totally tell you guys, but it was too complicated so i’m not even gonna bother. 
(26) any enemies? 
i am a lover, not a fighter (hehe)
(27) any significant other?
does jungkook count? lmaooo it’s a joke... he doesn’t even know i exist lol. 
my answer is no. 
(28) do you get along with you family?
yes, yes i do.
(29) do you believe in miracles?
i believe things happen for a reason... so does that count? 
last but not least... (30) how are you?
i’m actually doing pretty well :))) i was in this really big emotional slump that kinda felt like a roller coaster ride last year, but i’m over it now so... yeah... i doing pretty well :) 
okay, so now that i’m done, i have to tag people, and like i said, i don’t talk to that many people on tumblr since i’m a loser lol so here are the people i’ll tag (sorry, i’m not gonna tag 10 people) : 
@pjmochii @jsuga @kpopsffct @ anyone who wants to do it... 
but yea, i seriously don’t know that many people since i haven’t been on tumblr for a long time, so i’m sorry to the people who i tagged (if i haven’t talked to you a lot, i’m sorry... i’ll try to be a better person and try to talk to you more ...) 
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queenofmahishmati · 6 years ago
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❝ Hey there lovelies, 
You guys are STARS for making me reach this milestone!! I’m still surprised that this blog has reached so far ((given the terribly mixed bag of content i post)) but I’m grateful to each one of you for bringing it to this point. I owe you all one and I thought I would do a little giveaway. To appreciate you guys for sticking by me despite all the weird things I post, for standing all my rants and for staying even when I take my own sweet time finding my way back to the blog. Each one of you is so damn special. What wouldn’t I give to know you all individually?! That’s why I’m making this a wee bit personal. I will take a single request from each one of you, be it an edit or a drabble fanfic of anything of your preference from my fandoms. You can always check my navigation for links to them or read under the cut. I will take requests till the end of this month, Sep’18 :) Finished requests can be found here. 
Send one of the following to make a request here ⇱
— ☟ for a url moodboard or a character moodboard
— ☌ for a character edit of your preference
— ☆ for a drabble fanfic from the listed prompts below
Once again, thank you all so very much from the bottom of my heart. I love you lot!!
~ sharme ♄
Ps. For drabble requests, please read under the cut.
I will write for baahubali, klaroline, got7, marvel cinematic universe, indian mythology, harry potter and any south indian cinema that I have watched or know of. Send me a number from the following and the pairing (character x character/reader, or a ship from the fandom) you like and you’re welcome to add any other details you want to include like a particular scenario, a fusion or alternate universe. Cheers :)
1. “Do you want me to leave?” 2. “I swear it won’t happen again.” 3. “I’m not jealous.” 4. “You can’t keep doing this.” 5. “I’m going to take care of you, okay?” 6. “You can’t die. Please don’t die.” 7. “You did what?!” 8. “Were you ever going to tell me?” 9. “Don’t ask me that.” 10. “I might have had a few shots.” 11. “What’s with the box?” 12. “Say it!” 13. “I could kiss you right now!” 14. “Are you done with that?” 15. “Are you still awake
?” 16. “Excuse you?” 17. “This is all your fault!” 18. “I shouldn’t be in love with you.” 19. “I could kill you right now!” 20. “Just admit I’m right.” 21. “That doesn’t even make sense.” 22. “That’s irrational.” 23. “Just pretend to be my date.” 24. “Are you really going to leave without asking me the question you’ve been dying to ask me?” 25. “When you love someone, you don’t just stop. Ever. Even when people roll their eyes or call you crazy
 even then. Especially then!” 26. “I think I’ve been holding myself from falling in love with you all over again.” 27. “I’m not going to apologise for this. Not anymore.” 28. “That’s almost exactly the opposite of what I meant.” 29. “It must be hard with your sense of direction, never being able to find your way to a decent pickup line.” 30. “Can I sit here? The other tables are full.” 31. “You weren’t supposed to laugh!” 32. “This is, by far, the dumbest thing you’ve ever done.” 33. “I’m not going to stop poking you until you give me some attention.” 34. “These stars are nothing compared to the ones I’ve seen in your eyes.” 35. “Before I do this, I need you to know that I have always loved you.” 36. “Did I say that out loud?” 37. “Do you think they could have loved me?” 38. “Everyone keeps telling me you’re the bad guy.” 39. “How long have you been standing there?” 40. “Have I ever lied to you?” 41. “Have you lost your fucking mind?” 42. “His ego is so visible; I can almost watch it grow.” 43. “I am not losing you again!” 44. “I don’t know why I’m crying.” 45. “I had a nightmare about you and I just wanted to make sure you’re okay.” 46. “I just need to be alone right now.” 47. “When I picture myself happy
 It’s with you.” 48. “I made a mistake.” 49. “I may be an idiot, but I’m your idiot.” 50. “I need you to forgive me.” 51. “I see the way you look at me when you think I’m not looking.” 52. “I think I’m in love with you and that scares me half to death.” 53. “I’m flirting with you.” 54. “I’m not good enough for you.” 55. “I fell in love with my best friend.” 56. “I’m sorry, what? I keep getting lost in your eyes.” 57. “I’m up to the challenge.” 58. “I’ve been in love with you my entire life. Ever since the day I first met you.” 59. “I’m yours.” 60. “If I didn’t know any better, I’d say you were trying to seduce me.” 61. “If you go anywhere near them, you’ll have to deal with me!” 62. “It’s okay to cry
” 63. “What do you mean? It’s exciting!” 64. “Talk to me.” 65. “Look at me—just breathe, okay?” 66. “Look, I don’t have much time, but I wanted to say I love you.” 67. “Oh my god! You’re in love with them!” 68. “Well, this is where I live.” 69. “We finish it the same way we started—together.” 70. “What are you afraid of?” 71. “You are the single best thing that has ever happened to me.” 72. “You deserve so much better.” 73. “You don’t have to stay.” 74. “You don’t know you the way I do.” 75. “You fainted, straight into my arms. You know, if you wanted my attention, you didn’t have to go to such extremes.” 76. “You need to wake up because I can’t do this without you.” 77. “You shouldn’t have even been there!” 78. “You weren’t supposed to hear that.” 79. “You’re safe now. I’ve got you.” 80. “Teach me?” 81. “We’re in the middle of a thunderstorm and you want to stop and feel the rain?” 82. “Looks like we’ll be stuck here for a while.” 83. “Just once.” 84. “I can’t believe you talked me into this.” 85. “It’s not what it looks like.” 86. “I got you a present.” 87. “Hey! I was gonna eat that!” 88. “See, now, what that so bad?”.” 89. “You’re the best part of me.” 90. “I don’t want to think about what I’d be like without you.” 91. “Can I hold your hand?” 92. “Let’s move in together.” 93. “It’s a real shame nobody asked for your opinion.” 94. “What time is it?” 95. “Just wait a second.” 96. “Here, let me.” 97. “You’re so cute when you pout like that.” 98. “Hold me back!’ 99. “I don’t care what they said, it doesn’t mean shit!” 100. “I adore you.”
(( prompts credits © )) 
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shcjfrance · 7 years ago
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I warn this will be a long and especially the last message I will post on this fanbase. Last message, simply because I decided to stop the fanbase, even if this decision will surely seem to you abrupt, it was made after careful reflection, months to question myself to finally decide to continue. But today the decision to stop has become the only solution for me. I got to the point where holding the fanbase became too difficult on my own. Not out of Shinhwa's disinterest, on the contrary my love for Shinhwa dates back of so long and only grows over the years; but mostly because I'm exhausted, and some other problems that I talked about not so long ago, like the fact that I ask not to repost my links without credits or to upload elsewhere etc etc (I do not want to talk about them anymore, because I just do not want to remember them) Holding this fanbase is hours and hours of my time, everyday, for years, and now I'm not so happy to do it anymore, it's make me feel sad and I'm just not good enough at it anymore. Some of you are already aware of this, especially the translators, I wanted to give myself time to think about this decision, at least until the next comeback and Shinhwa Broadcast, I wanted to finish on something "big" and not like that, but I can not take it anymore. Believe me, this decision was very difficult to take and hurts my heart, I want to cry by writing these words, but if I continue, I will end up remembering only the bad times and I want to remember only the good things, Shinhwa Changjo France held a big place in my life and my heart, it's been 6 years, 6 years of my life it's not nothing. I started when I was 18, and I was around 14 when I first started a French translation blog. The closing represents a big page that turns for me, it may seem selfish for some, because without wanting to throw flowers to myself, I know that I contribute a lot about the videos of members TV SHOWS, and I risk making things difficult to those who don't know how to have them other than with my links. I'm sorry and I'm not asking you to understand my decision. Clearly in this decade to hold a blog, fanbase on Shinhwa, there have been ups and downs. But I have always been able to count on the majority of you to cheer me up, support me, and thank me every day for what I was doing and it will always be warm to me to remember all this. Even when I had a bad time in my private life, those who have not been following me for a long time surely do not know it, but when I had my cancers, I always had a good time thanks to all of you, because the fanbase was my only way out of my daily life that was more than rotten at the time. I met so many incredible people via the internet and in real life via this fanbase. For all this, I will never be grateful enough to you. Thanks again. I think I have reached the point where I simply want to support Shinhwa by being a mere fan without obligations to anyone. All I can say is that I can not wait to continue supporting Shinhwa and the members with you all, because as long as Shinhwa is there, I have no reason to leave. I'll be there, even if it's as anonymous, maybe you will see me on twitter with my personal account shout out how great the comeback is, or that Junjin is so perfect xD I have so many people to thank and I'm so scared of forgetting names that I'm just going to say thank you all for all these years. Thank you. Jenny of Shinhwa Changjo France.
PS: I will let all my SNS, videos accounts open, maybe this can still help some of you.
Je prĂ©viens ceci sera un long et surtout le dernier que je posterai sur cette fanbase. Dernier message, tout simplement car j'ai dĂ©cidĂ© d'arrĂȘter la fanbase, mĂȘme si cette dĂ©cision va sĂ»rement vous semblez abrupte, elle a Ă©tĂ© faites aprĂšs mĂ»res rĂ©flexions, des mois Ă  me remettre en question pour finalement dĂ©cider de continuer. Mais aujourd'hui la dĂ©cision d'arrĂȘter est devenue la seule solution pour moi. J'en suis arrivĂ©e au point oĂč la tenue de la fanbase est devenue trop difficile Ă  moi seule. Non par dĂ©sintĂ©rĂȘt de Shinhwa, au contraire mon amour pour Shinhwa date depuis tellement longtemps et ne fait que grandir au fil des annĂ©es; mais surtout car je suis extĂ©nuĂ©e, et quelques autres problĂšmes dont j'ai parlĂ© il n'y a pas si longtemps, comme le fait que je demande de ne pas reposter mes liens sans crĂ©dits ou encore d'uploader ailleurs etc etc (je ne veux pas plus parler d'eux, car je ne veux simplement pas me souvenir d'eux)
Tenir cette fanbase c'est des heures et des heures de mon temps, tous les jours, depuis des annĂ©es, pour qu'au final je ne sois plus si heureuse de le faire, que cela me zappe le moral et n'en suis tout simplement plus Ă  la hauteur. Certains d'entre vous sont dĂ©jĂ  au courant, notamment les traductrices, je voulais me donner du temps pour encore rĂ©flĂ©chir Ă  cette dĂ©cision,  du moins jusqu'au prochain comeback du groupe et Shinhwa Broadcast, je voulais finir sur quelque chose de "grand" et pas comme cela, mais je n'en peux plus. Croyez moi, cette dĂ©cision a Ă©tĂ© trĂšs difficile Ă  prendre et me fait mal au cƓur, j'ai limite envie de pleurer en Ă©crivant ces mots, mais si je continue, je vais finir par retenir que les mauvais moments, hors je veux me souvenir des bonnes choses, Shinhwa Changjo France a tenu une grande place dans ma vie et mon cƓur, cela fait 6 ans, 6 ans de ma vie ce n'est pas rien. J'ai commencĂ© quand j'avais 18 ans, et j'avais autour de 14 ans quand j'ai commencĂ© un blog de traduction en français. La fermeture reprĂ©sente une grosse page qui se tourne pour moi, cela semblera peut-ĂȘtre pour certains Ă©goĂŻste, car sans me vouloir me jeter des fleurs, je sais que je contribue beaucoup concernant les vidĂ©os des Ă©missions et que je risque de dĂ©semparer ceux qui savent pas comment avoir les Ă©missions autrement qu'avec mes liens. Je suis dĂ©solĂ©e et je ne demande pas Ă  ce que vous comprenez ma dĂ©cision. Clairement dans cette dĂ©cade Ă  tenir un blog, fanbase sur Shinhwa, il y a eu des hauts et des bas. Mais j'ai toujours pu compter sur la majoritĂ© d'entre vous pour me remonter le moral, me soutenir, et me remercier au quotidien de ce que je faisais et cela me fera toujours chaud au cƓur de me souvenir de tout cela.    MĂȘme quand j'avais des malheurs dans ma vie privĂ©, ceux qui me suivent depuis pas longtemps ne le savent sĂ»rement pas, mais quand j'ai eu mes cancers, j'ai toujours pu compter sur vous pour tenir, car la fanbase Ă©tait mon seul Ă©chappatoire Ă  mon quotidien qui Ă©tait Ă  ce moment lĂ  plus que pourri. J'ai rencontrĂ© via internet et dans la vie rĂ©elle tellement de personnes incroyables via cette fanbase. Pour tout cela, je ne serai jamais assez reconnaissante envers vous. Merci encore. Je pense que j'ai atteint le moment oĂč j'ai simplement envie de soutenir Shinhwa en Ă©tant une simple fan sans obligations envers quelqu'un. Tout ce que je peux dire c'est que je suis impatiente de continuer Ă  soutenir Shinhwa et les membres avec vous tous, car finalement tant que Shinhwa sera lĂ , je serai lĂ , mĂȘme si c'est anonymement, peut-ĂȘtre que vous me verrai sur twitter avec mon compte perso crier Ă  quel point le comeback est gĂ©nial, ou que Junjin est tellement parfait xD J'ai tellement de gens Ă  remercier et j'ai tellement peur d'oublier des noms que je vais simplement dire merci Ă  tous pour toutes ces annĂ©es. Merci. Jenny de Shinhwa Changjo France.
PS: Je vais laisser tous mes comptes vidĂ©os, et rĂ©seaux sociaux ouvert, peut-ĂȘtre que cela peut encore aider certains d'entre vous.
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