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We Can't Be Friends

Eiji Arashiba x F! Ex Girlfriend Reader

-ANGST FANFIC-

Note : The title I chose for this is quite random so I’m going to put it out as plainly as I could. I’ve been listening to the song by Ariana Grande a lot of times, even though I’m not a fan of her anymore but her music still kinda hits. The song ‘We Can’t Be Friends’, I wanted to use that idea for this fanfiction. When I began to listen to the song a bit more, I started to relate to the concept in some way. So if you ever been through a breakup, with or without a reason. This fanfiction is for you 💔

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Do you know what hurts more than a breakup? 

When you start to think about the person you’ve been constantly spending the rest of your life with, making memories with them while they spoil you with the gifts and all that romantic stuff. Now those days are over. 

You and Eiji broke up due to personal reasons that can’t be fully explained because it’s just too much to put out since that day when you two parted ways right after Eiji passed on his Cerberus divine tattoo to that kid Yamato Kai and sort of ‘fake his death’ but that wasn’t the reason why you two broke off the relationship. It was never that. It’s complicated to say. You and Eiji had been together for four years during the Akatsuki conflict. You love each other so deeply the two of you were inseperable. You don’t even fight and yet Eiji allowed you to join his team Helios, he doesn’t care if you don’t fight or not. All he cares about is trying to spend some time with you when he wasn’t so busy with things in the Akatsuki Ward. 

Ever since Eiji Arashiba ‘came back from the dead’, the two of you gained the opportunity to talk in private on the rooftop. Kazuma and the others left you two in peace. The conversation was quite long, the day turned night with the little snap of heartbreak consuming over you. You felt heartbroken telling Eiji that you’re planning to leave Akatsuki and move back to Shibuya, your home. Moving back in with your grandparents, you contacted them before Eiji’s return. 

Eiji tried to conceal that stinging heartbreak when you told him that you’re leaving the town. You could see it right through his broken blue gaze. Not only was he visibly upset but you were too. Breaking down, crying in front of him. Eiji holding you close to him was the last time he ever hugged you. You wish you could be friends with him but if you do, you can never truly be your full self when you’re around the man you once loved. 

That one last kiss was the sign that the two lovers departed, going their own ways. Never to see each other again…

A couple of months later, ever since you headed back to Shibuya to live with your grandparents, you constantly couldn’t seem to stop thinking about Eiji. All the memories flashing in your head, the times you’ve spent some time with him. Tore your heart apart. Every single night, you would cry dampening the pillow and keeping your cries quiet so your grandparents don’t hear you. They often wonder if you’re doing okay, worrying about your well-being completely. 

Wishing things were different with Eiji but it was far too late for that. Even so, everything won’t be the same as it was before. 

Wanting to be friends with your ex is not the thing you wanted. I mean, you could pretend but that will hurt you even more. Being around him and talking to him once again. If that happens, you know you will never be your full self around him. Your true self. Aching inside with a non-stop heartbreak, thinking about your first love. Everything hurts. Your silent sobs tearing your stomach, your whole entire body.  A river of salty tears falling down on your pale brown cheeks. You’re never going to love again. You promised yourself that you would never love anyone else. You loved Eiji Arashiba, you still love him…

Back in the Akatsuki Ward, things remained the same. Since Eiji was no longer Cerberus, he didn't do much besides managing the Titan cafe along with his best friend Kagami. He helps out Kazuma and Yamato sometimes but has been told not to overdo it since he no longer has a divine tattoo but honestly he’s not bothered by it. 

While Kagami is trying to put a stop to the magic bullet he shot Eiji with, Eiji goes out on the roof to get some air and to take a smoke. He wanted to be alone for a moment, smoking his cigarette as he puffed out a small mist in the air, thinking about that certain someone he can’t get his head out of. 

….He was actually thinking about you… 

Eiji tried so hard to forget about you but how can he? When you’re the only thing he ever thinks about….

His first love…

Every sleepless night, he would often think about you. His memories with you flooding through his mind. You were the only person that truly makes him the happiest man alive. Eiji never had any room in his heart for romance and all that stuff. He was never personally interested in relationships  but that’s when he first met you. Everything changed, His whole life. 

Now…all those momentous days are over since you two went your own ways. Kazuma and Kagami would never try to forcefully get him to forget about you because they both know how much you mean to him. Yamato was the same, he also knows how much Eiji treasures you very much. 

Eiji will never love again. Not because you two broke up. He only has that special place in his heart for one single person. You. Never again will he ever fall in love. He doesn’t want to be with anyone new, someone that isn’t you. 

Same goes to you too, you’re never going to find love because you still love the man whom you will never be with again. You could wait for his love and he could do the same but knowing that it will never happen. 

With the cloudy dark skies shadowing over Eiji taking a long puff from his cigarette, he wondered if you’re eating well or have been doing okay while living with your grandparents. He missed having breakfast every single day with you, sometimes at Titan cafe or at home. He missed the feeling of you waking up first before him every morning. Giving you morning kisses and hugs, all that lovey dovey stuff. He misses you very terribly. 

A single tear dropped out from his eyes. Eiji rarely even cries. Normally he doesn’t like to show his true emotions around anyone he knows. Worrying that he might be judged for it. He’s always so aloof around people but he still takes pride in fighting for his loved ones. With or without Cerberus, he will never back down without a fight. 

Still willing to fight for you, even though you’re not with him anymore. He never stopped loving you, not even once. Eiji promised himself, only to himself, that he will never love anyone else. 

He loved you, he still loves you…

a/n - Okay I just want to apologize for not writing for a really long time. I've been lacking motivation to do one but not only that; I've been struggling with my mental health, losing my interest in doing things I love. Not eating enough and I'm trying so hard to work on my appetite.

I haven't been feeling like myself lately, almost quit editing, nearly everything. Yet I still do it because it makes me happy??

(SORRY FOR RUINING THE MOOD)

I'm also sorry for making Eiji ooc in this dry-depressing fanfiction. I know this doesn't look great but honestly I don't fucking care. I wanted to write this because I was lowkey depressed. I was fucking in a low mood even though I wasn't showing it. I don't know when I'm about to writing another once...so yeah...

Anyways...take care of yourselves...

[saving-empress-ac]

I shall take this as a peace offering from all the angst in the past episode.

PROJECT SCARD STAFF, a big THANK YOU for this scene.

I screamed my lungs out for this. I mean, who wouldn't??