#probs not gonna do all the prompts on my list but I'll try

[plootanic]

Goretober Day 1 yippeeeee

prompt was disembowled— also its my first goretober so I'm starting off kinda tame tbh

[whumpsday]

i've got some au ideas that i'd really love to see:D you obviously don't have to do anything with them, but i wanted to share anyways

one where jim is a vampire and kane's childhood best friend instead and comes to rescue him rather than bellamy, who is the human he kept captive for five years. thinking the Bellamy saves kane au but with vampire!jim instead basically

bellamy saves kane but kane is tiny

liz picks kane up instead of jim, though i assume jim would say no to liz doing that if he knew and if he didn't, she'd most likely kill him

jim and kane's roles are reversed. jim is a vampire, born without persuasion and all that. kane is a gift from jim's parents to him, and he eventually escapes. somehow jim is then captured by the hunters (perhaps accidentally walks too far into human territory looking for something or is caught trying to save a human but to the hunters it looks as though he's hurting them), prompting kane to rescue him five years later...

the call between kane and jim all those years later in the bsk au when they hash things out and kane apologises.

what a ptsd episode looks like for human!bellamy after kane moves back in.

once again, don't feel pressured to do anything with these or even acknowledge them. i just got really excited and instead of working on my own stories decided to focus on k&j instead >.<

OOOOH ANON there's some fun stuff in here!! here's the likelihood of me doing these

this is not gonna happen bc tbh i just cannot imagine kane and jim ever being friends naturally. they would hate each other lol. in the human bellamy au, jim didn't show up, but he's a vampire and his parents work as servants for kane's parents. jim haaaates kane.

this is so cute!! this one i prob won't do bc i've already done tiny kane and bellamy saves kane so it'd be p similar to stuff i've already done, but i am rotating it in my head

thissss i'll give a solid Probably Eventually. i have some Ideas for this

this i've been actively planning on doing for a very long time. it's been on the list for over a year i prommy it will happen at some point. except without the gift stuff, the circumstances in which they know each other are very different than how you described, but i do have it planned

this one i prob won't do, but similar things will happen in canon anyway

tbh i don't rly plan to do more with the human bellamy au i'm sorry!

so the ones i'm planning on are 3 and 4, especially 4.

have a good time working on your own stories!! :)

[jaggededges123]

okay okay since i finished another little fic, i'm gonna try to make a little list of the fics i'd like to work on/finish before i continue my tlt journey (am i gonna finish them all? probs not at least not yet, likely i'll do about 3-5 more before i pick up htn but i like to see my options!)

all of them are eighthcest/adjacent unless otherwise specified asdkfljsadfasdf

octa-kiss-eron (eight times colum kissed silas in their lifetime, ends in angst lol)

chastity fic where silas locks himself up when the rush of puberty ends and he's still horny as hell, he gives the key to colum and colum sure is feeling some kinda way about it

modern au crackfic from the shirt's pov

ritual sex because i corrupt everything beautiful that i touch

vampire silas + piss?? why am i writing so much piss already???

the one in which colum gets roofied

sensory deprivation + bondage

and i think i put something in the queue for kiss prompts but i don't remember when that's supposed to come out oopsies, i'll definitely do the ones i get though

htn and ntn have arrived!! i will be reading them the second i stop thinking of pwps and other various small things that don't require too much lore 😌💖 it's hard to keep my little paws off of them but i also really really want to continue to indulge this initial major burst of creativity so i will let it run until it tapers a little

[terry-perry]

Could I also get “Someday my prince will come.” with Charlie, please? Thank you!! 💖 (omg this prompt list is soooo good!! I'm gonna try to limit myself to 4, but you know I'll prob be back for more later on. 😂)

7. “Someday my prince will come.”

Also got a bit inspired by “Something There,” from Beauty and the Beast. It’s one of my favorite Disney songs, and I thought it’d be perfect for Charlie lol

Growing up, you were always a hopeless romantic. You blamed all those books of poetry and fairy tales you read throughout the years that featured far off places and handsome men of royalty that could easily sweep a woman off her feet. It had you yearn for something similar to happen in your own life.

“Someday my prince will come,” you’d claim after reading a story, always doing your best to stay hopeful.

Upon meeting Charlie, however, the love at first sight scenario you had pictured was not what you got. In fact, your first thoughts of him fell in similar categories everyone placed him in: a mean brute that had nothing better to do but drink and cause trouble. It’s why you didn’t fall for his charm when he had decided to make his way towards you, deciding to give him the cold shoulder instead. 

To your annoyance, it only made him want you more. At first, it was simply him wanting something he couldn’t have. But soon enough he started to realize that he was genuinely falling for you. And in doing so, he decided that it was time to stop messing around and try to actually treat you the way you were meant to be treated.

It did the trick since the more you two got to know each other, the more it turned into something else. It all became something new and even a bit alarming at how you began to glance his way, and be unable to shrug off his touch the way you used to. He may have been rude and unrefined at first, but then he became more loving and uncertain with his actions as he always made an effort  to approach you in the sincerest ways he could think of. It made him all the more endearing and hard to resist in your eyes. 

He was still no Prince Charming, but you now saw that there was something in him that the rest of the world struggled to see. Something that was sweet and almost kind. With your feelings now stronger than ever, you wondered how you didn’t see it all there before.

[tumortunes]

aya

i've been thinking that i should get more involved in aya stuff and address my own issues surrounding my cancer. i've really been pushing aside feelings and not making the time or space to reflect on it. it's really easy for me to do. i have lots of friends and tv and books to fill my time with. it's much easier to get lost in a story than in my real life. but maybe i shouldn't. it's probs not good in the long run.

idk if im ready to go back to therapy yet. but i was thinking i could start to journal and self reflect more as an alternative.

im also signing up for more aya things. some webinars, yoga, writing prompts.

everyone keeps saying it's good to build a network of people who are aya and can truly understand what you're going thru. i guess. idk. i kinda shout my issues into the void of the internet and get it out that way. but i think writing a real article and getting it posted/published in elephants and tea would be cool.

i've been reading more elephants and tea stories and there are always a few themes that i dont/cant relate to. the main thing is finding a new normal. what's wrong with my old normal. i loved my old normal. and im kinda back at it. with some limitations but those are gonna be gone really soon. it's just meds and follow up appointments. not being in crowded places and stuff. it's not crazy different from what my life used to be like. plus i respawned back to stanford right at Q1 so it's like im redoing last year. i feel very normal too. no symptoms plaguing me. maybe just fatigue and tbh who isn't tired. i donno. i just dont think that i need a new normal. my normal is just fine the way it is.

one of the things that i was really missing that i used to love doing a lot is shopping a westfield valley fair. i looooooved that mall. and it was so fun to go there to decompress after work. i liked shopping for new clothes or just window shopping, walking around, getting a salted pretzel, going to the movies by myself. it was like my therapy. i loved going to the mall alone with my headphones in. and this weekend nathan took me there! it was different than before bc now the construction is done and they make you pay for parking. but the mall is soooooo nice. i still get lost even tho i would go there all the time. there's new shops too. but my all time fav has always and will forever be cotton on. i've been looking at people creating capsule wardrobes of staple basic classic things that they can easily combine with other items in their closet and i realized that i dont have that. but i want to! so i hella splurged. i made a list of the ideal items i wanted and what stores i wanted to hit. everyone loves artizia so i wanted to go there too. but i ended up finding all of the pieces that i wanted at cotton on and a&f. it was wild. when i got home i took out some clothes that i would donate to make room for my new stuff. and the pieces that really stuck around were other shirts and jeans that i got from cotton on in the past. it's really been a great store for me. their jeans are always a great length. their shirts are super soft and slim. i feel confident in their stuff. i usually dont shop at a&f but tiktok has been talking about nonstop. so i went and they had some good items too. i finally got some beige trousers! and a stain black dress. im very excited to wear these.

one thing that i want to do but i know i cant yet is go to more concerts/raves. i wanna dress up and look hot and feel care free and young and enjoy time with my friends. a list:

-portola fest sf -cochella -hard summer -vegas -outside lands -lollapaloozaa

i'll try out the journaling more and also the aya events. maybe i'll like it.

gonna try and do more of courtney does too:

let my self feel > notice how im feeling > ID what is causing those feelings