#probs dehydration and bad nutrition but it's gonna be awhile before I can do food allergy clinic

[yther]

I'm not gaining any strength anymore and it's so fucking frustrating.

it took so much less effort when I was doing weights but my joints are myeh atm and at this point the more I endurance type exercise the more exhausted I feel overall... over weeks

I can walk p steady pace 3hrs or 6hrs, sometimes as much as 10hrs and lotsa hills but I have the distinct memories of my body fitness shifting previously (like being able to lift a big thing or hold something up... generally stronger ankles and knees.. I felt powerful). I am pushing myself as much as ever but I feel like it's getting harder and I'm terrified/facing worst fears abt missing out on non-chronically ill life

fuck fuck fuck

I wanted to snowboard and this summer I wanted to cycle to get more comfy on the road with cars

I hope? this is just a bug or idk... more temporary. maybe some long covid shit that will subside but?????

I am SO TIRED of being stuck and confined only to places my legs can get me

I a m s o tired