#probably delete later I'm just. so fucking sick of this goddamn house and it hasn't even been a week.

[mosspapi]

Bruh I am so sick of being forced to eat all the goddamn time. Like. Even ignoring the ED and OCD and autism reasons, I physically just feel like shit all the goddamn time now. If I wanna minimize how nauseous I am 24/7, I can only really sit down and Eat once a day on a good day and the rest of it has to come in like. Little tiny snacks because for whatever reason my body has decided it just doesn't tolerate ingesting food. Probably because I'm so dizzy all the time I feel like I live on a boat in a hurricane 24/7 and can watch the walls sway when I'm bored and my stomach doesn't realize I'm not actually moving. It's been like this for 5+ years and my parents should know this. But I can't do what I want to because they're constantly asking me or telling me to eat things at the same schedule they do and if I say no they get super pissy or nosy or whatever and it makes my life a living hell even more than being in this house already does and I just cannot deal with that. So I just have to be fucking forced to eat shit when I feel like I'm gonna throw up or when I know that eating the way they're telling me to will Make me feel like I'm gonna throw up, and then act like I'm not in physical agony because of them. I'm going to lose my mind holy fucking shit. And again. This is ignoring the mental health issues it's messing with and Also the fact that they are just fully ignoring my bodily autonomy as a fully grown adult man who has been living away from home consistently for almost two years now. It's a fucking nightmare dude. Hell world hell world hell world.