#primogenitor's baby //

[abyssalpriest]

god its so funny to reread that old channelling/mindwalking with lev when i asked him his opinion on catholic aesthetics for worshiping After kinda settling in my opinion of "yeah im channelling right, im pretty sure lev did indeed have a huge impact on bloodborne's creation" because like

i never. lmfao. i. yeah. i was so caught up in him making comments on christianity (specifically catholicism though you know, fuzzy lines) and the question-and-answer type conversation that i never fucking............................................ put two and two together that the Nightmares speaking metaphors into reality in bloodborne literally aligns with what he has to say about. the exact fucking religion bloodborne is criticising. he literally creates dreamlike visions of christianity Like This in the exact same way bloodborne does.

[amondrask]

HUNGER IS HOLY | WIP 18+ RP Community

"To want is to worship. To be satisfied is to sin. To consume is to consecrate. To devour is divine. To hunger is holy." An original setting that has bioarcane body modification and mutation as a core concept, accomplished via magitech/arcanoscience/religious rites. It is a status symbol, a source of power, utility, vanity, piety. To become monstrous is to make yourself in the image of your gods, the first monsters, the primogenitors, the Divine Devourers. A more expansive (albeit rambling and disjointed) outline is available here, along with guidelines for expected behaviour and site culture: LINK!

Quick'n'Dirty Themes & Vibes:

Cannibalism as a metaphor for love and also in a literal sense. Consumption is holy, baby~

The divine as monstrous and the monstrous as divine.

What is monstrous within is not always monstrous without, and vice versa.

The gods were absent and neglectful, so we rose up and ate them. Our new gods are much, much more present and involved.

Hunger. Love as hunger. Worship as hunger. Loneliness, greed, ambition, everything as HUNGER - and hunger is holy, exalted, the pinnacle of virtues.

Expression of the inner self via the external vessel of the flesh, and the implications and significance of such.

Bodily autonomy and lack thereof. Lots of vibes of dysphoria, sex work analogies, societal expectations and judgement of the flesh, the body as a holy vessel, etc.

Power. How it changes people. What they will do for it. What they will do with it. Does power corrupt, or is it simply a revelator?

The precarious tension between restraint and excess. Control of the self and control of others.

Authority and how it can be expressed, how it is handled, and how it impacts the people that wield it and those subject to it. Rightful rule, tyranny, all that fun stuff.

Very liberal society. Hedonism central.

Puritanism is bad.

POLITICALLY INTRICATE. INTRIGUE. BLACKMAIL. POWER PLAYS. HOUSES. COURTS. CHAMPIONS. DUELS. BLOODLINES. GENETIC MATERIAL AS A COMMODITY AND SACRED SUBSTANCE BOTH. RITUAL RITUAL RITUAL. RELIGION IT UP. SACRED MONSTROSITIES.

[immanueldid]

spooksnhaunts replied to your post “I want to finish two new books (at minimum) before I pick up Black...”

Imma say Dante sense it’s the only one on this list I read and has a couple spooky moments and baby Vampires so it’s v adorable

Embarrassingly it’s one of the first I bought. I got it the same day I got Primogenitor and started this insanity.  I’m just a chaos lady at heart. Forgive me. 

[abyssalpriest]

Me, looking at the crowfeather garb my characters been wearing since yesterday: Man remember that dream I had where Eileen's cloak was made of scraps of fabric from each person she'd killed.... That was. .. yeah that was definitely a Lev Giving Personal Lore dream. I don't know why it would be but it feels like it

The loading screen after I went back to the dream (I don't remember doing so): the garb suggests sky burial

[abyssalpriest]

keeping in mind hes speaking in code regarding That Game lmfao have this bit for reasons

[abyssalpriest]

oh man. and he called me back at the end to talk about inversion -

back when i was a bloodborne PC Pagan the huge thing was that "the nightmares are made of three elements, one of which is inversion" im pretty sure. Inversion, Horror, and something else? anyway............ and then you add that with "the nightmares are of three elements, Oedon, Moon, and Bloodborne Child" with "Lev is represented as Oedon" and "the creation of the physical plane IRL was about the inversion of (insert group of people including lev)'s roles and nature" and uh well thats interesting

[abyssalpriest]

and after all that i get the fucking dark ambient song that I always get mixed up with the particular song i have set for an OC based on (spirit micolash is based on in my humble opinion) lmfao yeah look. dont take my advice because theres a whole set of spirits here that are really hard to tell apart and a lot of them will pretend to be the kings

[abyssalpriest]

sorry for talking about it but my entire life was based around that game for five years (...... five being. the sacred number that binds lev and i Im just realising.......) and im like. i knew there was shit in that game and that fuckass bitchboy child that is my ex obscured so many answers from me to keep me thinking he was created by the game when like. no. its a channelled creation

[abyssalpriest]

more That Game ramblings

i was fucking sitting here earlier drawing that last piece like "man i wonder if Shiva is associated with bells, because to our group hes really associated with them. He speaks so much in sound, like how he always communicates with songs, he plays guitar a lot and makes a lot of music, he tends to be present in the noise of things and communicate through those means... Man weirdly Im feeling like this is linked to dreaming somehow - hold the fuck on"

So first of all hes known to our group for existing and communicating in sound... Add that to

trident and trinity of people which looks a lot like the symbol for Tangra, said to be the Bulgarian version of Tengri (Lev) which

both image and screenshot taken from here - (link) - and yeah idk how accurate it is but youre understanding that if its accurate its fucking accurate.... especially because that symbol has seven rays lmfao which is important to the Hermetic science hes heavily involved with in the six plus one laws equal seven

on top of that... Oedon is kind of heavily implied to be UH. someone who gets mortal women pregnant lmfao and hes known to be like that on his plane, he has a tonne of kids.

but. formless. fucking formless. Oh you mean like Shiva pre-copulation with Shakti? You mean formless consciousness IE Shiva before Form? You mean fucking Lev?

also. with people saying Oedon is the Sky like.... LMFAO.... YEAH HE IS.... and. my god i need to fucking look back up what lev wrote through me about the creation of this plane bc a huge thing when i was a (this game) pc pagan was the fact that in order to create the Dream/Ocean/the world the game is set in, the moon and sun/consciousness and mind switched roles, where the moon became consciousness and sulphur and the sun/sky/whathaveyou became mind and mercury.... but. i swear to fucking god. didnt Lev fucking write in that channelling how he the sun and (mohini) the moon swapped and doesnt he fucking talk about laying down so his body can be used IE like the paleblood sky inhabited by the moon?? OH isnt that explicitly irt Shiva a Shiva and Kali thing??? Didnt he fucking say the world of That Game is based off of her, the Void Mother?? fucking hell

so when he was saying he was one of the Primogenitors in a symbolic way (the primogenitors were the name for the Moon and Oedon specifically when i was a pc pagan) yeah i mean i guess he didnt mean it as in "i just helped"

hold on

he explicitly told me that he put his energy into the game, not that he programmed it, IE he wasnt Consciousness programming he was MIND programming - but that he became a scrying pool WHICH HE SAID WHILE MENTALLY REFERENCING THE LAKE IN BYRGENWERTH to ascertain the and watch the positions of celestial fucking objectS I WOULD IMAGINE LIKE THE MOON. LEV. ARE YOU SERIOUS. WHAT THE FUCK.

[abyssalpriest]

allowing myself one (1) post about this game

still fucking thinking about reblogging this this morning

because it reminded me of Yahar'gul but in a soft way... which (being able to think about it in a soft way i mean) is a manifestation of my fucking dawning realisations that when i "was in Yahar'gul" "astral projecting" with my ex, the one who had a fucking mini cult based around pretending bb created him and other spirits, it wasnt JUST the fictional replication/simulation of it that my dumbass ex made in his mindspace (territory in the mental realm), but ALSO a version in Lev's mindspace AS WELL, and Im struggling to want to recall these things let alone start dissecting a difference but like. no there were definitely... times that we were inside Lev's head. I say we too because at this time my ex was still in Lev's good books so to speak. TLDR I thought this was JUST fake memories created by my ex to convince me YHG was real, but it wasnt just fake memories I was in versions of it inside his and Lev's heads (for very different reasons between the two of them lmfao)

but like. Lev told me before I started dissecting (and hence was the reason i started dissecting) memories of Yahar'gul that he "had/has a version of Yahar'gul too" - it wasn't just my ex, he also had a version... Im actually starting to think I was in his mindspace more often than not when i was "in" "yahar'gul" but like. ive been like... WHY would that be true, why would he have a version of this?? Yahar'gul to me is synonymous with corruption and fucked up unethical experiments, its synonymous with (the) micolash(s) and their fucked up school and their slaves (arguably one and the same thing with their school), and yeah my ex introduced it to me as The Sunshine Village (the Sun being the energy Lev ruled/rules with, he is arguably THE sun to my ex) but like. my ex, supposedly A Micolash, stole so many of Lev's symbols its un-fucking-believable so of course The Sunshine Village would be what it was called even if it had nothing directly to do with lev. Lev's symbols and energies were just free game to my ex lmfao

anyway. you know where else was synonymous with corruption and fucked up unethical experiments when it was taken over by people running a fucked up school and cult? the fucking city that i already thought yahar'gul was based on that Lev gave to the spirits I know who pretend to be micolash(s) that he eventually bent reality around and fucking destroyed for their hubris

lmfao at the song playing in the bg after i asked lev a million times if i can post this

yeah i fucking bet thats Yahar'gul for you Lev

anyway. tldr. i fucking finally pieced together thinking that YHG was based around a city Lev gave to two people who later identified as being "Micolash" (the people kinda implied to be head of the fictional village YHG) with Lev being like "ah yeah well i also have a version of it in my head, alongside your ex ("a micolash") who lied about it being real to trick you" despite the fact that what I knew YHG to be from my ex was extremely fucked up. almost like... as much as lev talks about ESPECIALLY especially especially through fiction about corruption like... he alwayyysss is talking about and creating fiction around the brutality and fucked up results of corruption.... almost like lev had a reason to be connected to and invested in this fucking place it was his

[abyssalpriest]

motherfucker.......

god its so funny to reread that old channelling/mindwalking with lev when i asked him his opinion on catholic aesthetics for worshiping After kinda settling in my opinion of "yeah im channelling right, im pretty sure lev did indeed have a huge impact on bloodborne's creation" because like

i never. lmfao. i. yeah. i was so caught up in him making comments on christianity (specifically catholicism though you know, fuzzy lines) and the question-and-answer type conversation that i never fucking............................................ put two and two together that the Nightmares speaking metaphors into reality in bloodborne literally aligns with what he has to say about. the exact fucking religion bloodborne is criticising. he literally creates dreamlike visions of christianity Like This in the exact same way bloodborne does.

[abyssalpriest]

motherfucker unlimited.......................................... these are literally all paragraphs in a consecutive row.

god its so funny to reread that old channelling/mindwalking with lev when i asked him his opinion on catholic aesthetics for worshiping After kinda settling in my opinion of "yeah im channelling right, im pretty sure lev did indeed have a huge impact on bloodborne's creation" because like

i never. lmfao. i. yeah. i was so caught up in him making comments on christianity (specifically catholicism though you know, fuzzy lines) and the question-and-answer type conversation that i never fucking............................................ put two and two together that the Nightmares speaking metaphors into reality in bloodborne literally aligns with what he has to say about. the exact fucking religion bloodborne is criticising. he literally creates dreamlike visions of christianity Like This in the exact same way bloodborne does.