#please kids. don't turn to alcohol as the solution to your problems. it unfortunately does fix mine but causes. other problems. | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

sciderman · 7 months ago

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I didn't want to ask about the hospital stuff, but I'm glad to hear you'll be getting treatment!! And I really really hope it goes well and helps you feel better, you deserve a less stressful life, a beautiful life free of the brain bees. My heart is with you!!

thank you so much anon!! i've been doing SO much to quiet the brain bees and it takes so, so much out of my day to keep those brain bees quiet. cannot WAIT to not have an active beehive in my skull.

#i need to be sedated.#i've developed so many bad habits over this time just trying anything that would quiet the brain bees. often it's alcohol.#alcohol is the only surefire thing so. i suspect i should be medicated. not self-medicated.#please kids. don't turn to alcohol as the solution to your problems. it unfortunately does fix mine but causes. other problems.#i'm so exhausted and cannot wait to have a quiet brain again. my brain used to be quiet.#i miss how my brain was before. my brain is SOO awful now.#well no. it's not my brain even. my brain thinks so rationally but my body doesn't.#brain can say “nothing to worry about” but my heartbeat says “AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA”#guys i am SO exhausted. i'm so bone tired.#i'm so tired of the fight. i can't wait to win.#i want to win.#i need a WIN.#sci speaks

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