#pile up that angst bois

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examine: dave -goldenrabbitasylum

            Ah. Dave. The relationship you have with him is a bit.. complicated you supposed. Had it not been for you finding him on the side of the road- he’d be good as doomed at this point, destined to rot in a mental health institution. You can’t say that he doesn’t upset you or even unnerve you at times but- despite his past, you find yourself really enjoying his company. You walk a fine line with your morale with him. You find him being the exception to every single rule you’ve placed down for yourself and a lot of the time, it scares you. You know he’s not dangerous, well.. not to you at least. There’s some strangely mixed vibe you draw from him. 

            He’s got you wrapped around his finger.. and that scares you. Not in the traditional way, but a way that makes you uneasy- yet feel safe at the same time. You try to push away that feeling of that he’s “dangerous, he’s unstable, he’s a ticking time-bomb,” from your mindset, due to those words being applied to yourself. You often have to be the big one, the strong one, when it comes to him, and you wouldn’t be lying if it’s exhausting. He doesn’t know how to give much in return but- somehow his companionship pays off. 

            He’s a child murderer, a delusional nutcase - whatever anyone else would call him - but all that comes to your mind is that he’s Dave..

            He’s the closest you’ve had to a friend in a while. 

            And that scares you.