#personally I only eat home made always but that's because I'm allergic to most food

[thesinglesock]

I'm curious about this in general but also about how much this is a cultural thing or not, so if you vote please reblog with your answer and where you're from in the tags

[thatsgay-writes]

Day 12

PREVIOUS

The days after finding water we're pretty chill, minus finding out that Jeanette's body was gone. There was still some obvious tension between you and Toni and Toni and Martha and Shelby. You hadn't really interacted with either Toni or Shelby in the past few days either, opting to hang around Fatin. You hadn't talked to Toni because you didn't know what to say after the argument the two of you had and you had revealed your feelings for her in front of everyone. Shelby on the other head, had seemed to be the one ignoring you... Well maybe not ignoring she was just very short with you which was totally against her personality. You all had also made a schedule, seeing as you were going to be here for a while. Everyone got one chore a day and every once and a while a day off. Today happened to be your day off and you were glad, your chest pains had been happening more often and that concerned you.

It also concerned you that you didn't know when you would be rescued. The hospital, who was against the retreat but couldn't exactly do anything about it, had given you medication to help with your problem. It was enough pills for three weeks, just in case, but they had been lost like the rest of your stuff. You had checked the pilot bag that held all the medical stuff you guys had but it didn't have what you were looking for either. You've managed to hide coughing up blood by coughing into the elbow of you red shirt or spitting it out while in the woods. You had also been losing your appetite, which has been harder to hide. You'd force down some food and pretend like it was a lot so the other wouldn't worry. But today, luckily, you were starving and prepared to fully eat whatever Rachel brought for food.

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"Let's feast!" You hear a Rachel suddenly yell as she stand on top of a little hill, carrying what looks to be a big amount of food. You stood up and attached your leg before joining everyone around the fire. You watch, mouth watering, as Dot cooks all the mussels over the fire. When they're done cooking, the mussels are laid out in a big pile in the middle. Everyone stared at the pile wondering who will go first, since they all understood how little food they had been finding the past couple days. "Eat as much as you want guys, there was enough of them to fill 3 more bags. I just ran out of room." At Rachel's words you all dive in and eat the mussels, except for Shelby. "Why aren't you eating any?" Leah asks as she looks suspiciously at Shelby. Not this again. You think as you eat your tenth mussel, what could you say you were hungry.

"I'm actually allergic to shellfish. Ate one at a birthday party and my throat swelled up like a balloon." Shelby responded as she watched everyone else eat. "That's rough." You say as you grab 3 more mussels. "Damn y/n. Is it good?" Fatin asks jokingly as she grabs another mussels for herself. You roll your eyes and let out a chuckle as you flip her off before grabbing more food. "You know what this looks like..." Toni says, grabbing everyone's attention with a smirk. You mentally facepalm because you know exactly where this is going. "A pussy!" Nora yells out causing everyone to laugh, the girl had definitely come out of her shell more the past few days. Toni nods her head before licking the mussels shell provocatively. "I bet y/n knows what that feels like!" Dot yells out causing everyone to make an "ooo" sound like kids when their peer got in trouble. You and Toni's face both heated up at Dots words and you made sure to give her a hardy punch in the shoulder.

"Can you all stop!?" Shelby suddenly yells out causing everyone to freeze and look at her questioningly. "Shelby, chill out we are just having some fun." Dot says, not really understanding what all the fuss was about. "I am chill, I just don't find that very amusing." Shelby responded, her voice getting a little harsher when she says the word that. "What do you mean by that?" Toni asks as she send you a quick look and you almost immediately understood where this was going. The look was one you or Toni would give the other when known homophobes where in the area or if the two knew you were being judge for doing pda. Was this why Shelley had been short with you the past few days? You did not like where this was going and neither did Toni. "Just... pornographic gestures. I'm from a very Christian home and no one ever does things like that."

You wanted to believe Shelby, you really did, but it explained why you always felt this weird vibe from her. "Don't lie Shelby, I always knew I felt some sort of vibe from you, it's clear now what it was. Toni and I have felt that vibe enough times to know what you really mean." You say, glaring at Shelby. "What... What are you guys trying to say?" Martha asks getting worried now. She knew what you meant when you said vibe, you and Toni had both told her about it. "She's a fucking homophobe." Toni spits out glaring at Shelby. You nod you head in agreement, putting back the mussels you had picked up before all this started. Martha's eyes go wide and she sends a Shelby a pleasing look, hoping she'll deny what Toni had just said.

"Look..." Shelby says as she lets out a big sigh. "I have no hate in my heart for y'all. It was just that I was taught that that way of life is a sin." Toni immediately jumps up and point her finger angrily at Shelby, "Why you little..." Toni was too mad to even finish her sentence. Martha had dropped her head in disappointment and let Fatin wrap and arm around her in comfort. The rest of the girls were just watching as everything unfolded. "I feel sorry—" Shelby starts to say, digging her into an even deep hole. "Fuck you." Toni interrupts her before storming off, you nod your head repeatedly in agreement, not looking at anyone as you finish putting your leg on and following after Toni.

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"Toni. Toni. Toni!" You yell as you follow the girl. "Goddamn leg... Goddamn sand..." You mumble as you follow Toni down the beach. Luckily, she does finally stop after she deemed that she was far away enough to breathe. Toni kicks the sand angrily, as she stares out into the water. "I can't fucking believe this, no I can I just hoped..." Toni trails off as she wraps her arm around herself. You walk up to her and wrap your arms around her in a comforting hug, "I know, I know..." "We just get so much shit at home..." Toni trails off as she lets herself relax into your hug. "I know." You say again because that's all you can say. You relax for a few minutes before you get hit with a sudden nausea.

"Oh fuck." You mumble out as you unwrap from around Toni and throw up near the two of you. "Y/n?" Toni reacts in shock as she watches you kneel over as you try and spit out the taste of vomit and blood. Toni ends up turning around to throw up as well. "I didn't know you were a sympathetic puker..." You try and joke as you take deep breathes and slowly lay in the sand, feelin exhausted from throwing up. Toni wiped her mouth before turning back around, "C'mon, we can't stay here the heat wont help at all." Toni says as she pulls you to your feet, trying to ignore how she slowly started feeling worse. Toni has to practically drag your body back towards camp. "Help!" She yelled out as soon as she saw people and Fatin came running over. She took your other arm and most of the weight so Toni could relax some.

Luckily, the other girls seemed to be doing better than you and Toni. Both you and Toni were splayed out on the ground with Martha sitting near by as the other girls moved around the camp doing whatever.  "Come on, lay on your side y/n." Martha mumbles worriedly as she listens to your labored breathing. Toni was at least a little more responsive and had tried to swallow water, while you didn't even react to someone moving your body. "Fuck, she's getting worse..." Dot said as she walked up to check on the three of you. "Where the hell is Leah with that medicine!?" Fatin almost yelled as she looked between you and Toni. Right as she said that, Leah broke through the tree line and ran towards Dot. "Why are they all dirty?" Dot yells out as she roots through the bag. "Only 2? I thought we had 3, I know we had 3!" Dot pulls out two tablets of halophen. "It's obvious who needs them the most." Shelby stated as she sat a little ways away from the group unfold. Dot bites her lip and looks at Martha, "Martha, you good?" "Yeah, I'll take a Pepto."

Dot nods her head and turns towards Fatin and hands her one of the tablets, "Figure out a way for her to take it." Fatin nods her head as she looks down at you. "Toni, I'm going to need you to take this." Shelby said as she took the other halophen tab from Dot. "I'm not taking shit from you." Toni says as angrily as she can. "It'll save your life Toni. Take the damn pill." "Should Shelby really be the one doing this." Rachel questions. "Am I not allowed to help her!?" Shelby says exasperatedly. She climbed on top of Toni and held her nose closed until she opened her mouth. As soon as she did, she stuff the pill in her mouth and covered it, forcing her to swallow. Shelby got off of Toni and turned her attention to you, ignoring how the other girls were looking at her.

"Have you gotten her to take it yet?" Fatin shakes her head no, "She's barely reacting to anything. I'm surprised she's still conscious." The girls sat silent for moment contemplating what to do. They start to panic when you cough up more blood. "Here, give it to me." Dot says as she snatches the tab and a nearby rock. She starts to crush the tab up as much as possible. "Just pour some in front of her nose and breath deep." The other girls don't really question Dot's idea and just follow what she says. "C'mon y/n, just one big breath and then you'll start to feel better."

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You were leaning heavily against Toni as you and all the girls sat around the fire. You were still exhausted from today's earlier event. Luckily, they associated you coughing up blood to throwing up to much and you didn't have the heart to tell them otherwise. No one knew about what was wrong with you except for the people at the hospital and yourself. You were finally clear to sleep by Dot because she wanted to make sure the meds had actually worked and that you wouldn't fall asleep just to never wake up again. You were almost asleep when Toni suddenly stands up yelling Martha's name and running over to her. You shake yourself awake and shakily stand up to see what was happening. Your heart stopped when you noticed that Martha had fallen and made no attempts at getting back up.

"Toni you were dying!" "Who cares? I don't matter! fuck, I don't matter. I don't fucking matter."

NEXT

[lorenzodemedisi]

Won’t Forget You.

PAIRING.

Steve Rogers x Rachel Summers (Earth-818)

SUMMARY.

Rachel Summers was beyond the state of shock when the famous Captain America felt from the sky and burst open her ceiling to plunge hard on her living room’s floor. She’s been alone for so long that she completely forgot that in the outside world life was going by. Little did she know that by helping the super soldier in great needs she would yield her own shell in front of the bluest eyes and a killer smile.

A/N.

FLUFF, Fluffy, Fluff and a bit of Angst! ( wow i’m shocked )

That’s right I'm writing a fluff piece for a change, I'm impressed with myself. My anxiety and depressive ass can be happy sometimes *O*. Anyway, this one-shot will probably evolve into a series...Maybe. But, I fell in love with Rachel Summers when I was reading an X-Men comic last summer and I really wanted to see more of her but there isn’t so much stuff about this character, so here I am, writing a Steve x Rachel. if you want more information about her, here’s a link or just ask me. As always thank you very much for reading, it means a lot to me. Don’t hesitate to give your thoughts, comments, and feedback! I hope you enjoy my fluffy piece. 

A lots of Love. Lex. xxx

WORDS.3597ish. 

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Steve Rogers groaned, exhausted and wounded, he felt a cold cloth wiping his forehead. He tried to move his head and opened his eyes, feeling a soft cushion behind him.

« Don’t move. » A soft and feminine voice instructed him. « Your injuries are pretty bad, it’s better if you don’t move. »

But Steve will have none of it. Opening his eyes, he growled low and deep when his vision hit the soft light coming from the rustic windows and a blurred sight of a red-haired woman.

« N-Natasha? » Steve whispered closing eyes, feeling a huge headache creeping inside his brain. « I wished. » The woman chuckled softly, putting the wet cloth in the small bowl on the bedside table. As she saw Steve turning his head toward her, the woman frowned. « I told you, not to move soldier. Don’t let me uses my power on you. » She scolded her eyes becoming gold but when Steve smiled at her words, they turned into a soft blue again destabilized by his reaction, she sighed. « You sound like her. » Steve informed her, his voice raspy and tired. He frowned closing his eyes « W-Where am I? » He asked. « In a safe place. » The woman whispered, looking at the soldier wounds on his hand. « And why… » Steve swallowed, licking his lips. All his body was hurting like hell. Which is good right? It meant that he was healing. « A-And why should I trust you? » He asked, turning his head once again toward the stranger.

He opened his eyes, seeing more clearer, he met her deep and clear blue sight. She was red-haired and a halo of light was around her head, making her looked like an angel. She smiled softly, her eyes were bright and her skin seemed smooth and soft like silk. She was beautiful.

« Because I didn’t kill you when you burst through my ceiling in the middle of the night. » The woman replied shrugging her shoulders.

She smiled one more time before raising from the chair taking the bowl filled with dirty water and leave the room where Steve, tired, get back to sleep. He was badly wounded. Rachel didn’t know from where he came from, but last night he just fell from the sky and dropped on the ground of her living room, making a huge hole on her cabin’s ceiling. Bloody and unconscious, she took him in. Because that was the right thing to do.

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Steve Rogers woke up a few hours later, feeling better. Opening his eyes, fully this time, he could see that he was lying on a bed, in a small but very well-decorated room. The walls were only woods, with very beautiful paintings tied on them. The light was less bright and the sun was still up. He put himself on a seating position and looked at all his injuries. His hands were bruised raw, and he felt his ribs burning a bit. His headache was just a dull feeling at this point, and a few cuts on his arms and legs but nothing that his body won’t heal alone. As the door open, Steve took the green sheet, and cover his naked chest seeing the pretty woman from earlier enter with a food tray in her hand. She laughed looking at his reserved reactions. If only he knew what she had to do, in order to help him heal him last night, she thought shaking her head.

« Don’t be such a prude, Captain » She chuckled putting the tray on the bedside table next to him. « Who are you? » Steve asked dead serious, his tone hard. He was thinking fast. Well, as fast as his brain could allow him right now.

He already had spotted the potential threat in the room and possible exit. The woman, even though she seemed really nice and pretty, was a potential threat.

« I’m Rachel. » She smiled, extending a glass of water to him. « Only a few, sip.» She advised him. « I made chicken soup and garlic bread. I hope you not allergic to either of those. » She winced, tucking on her long blue skirt.

Steve looked warily at the food, but his stomach betrayed him as it growled with hunger.

« I can’t get allergies, thanks to the serum. » He informed her, siping his drink. « Right. » Rachel nodded, then took a seat at her usual spot next to the bed. «Do you remember what happened last night? » She asked gently passing him the hot bowl of soup.

Steve shook his head as he put the glass on the small table and took the hot dish in his hand. He took the spoon Rachel offered him and start to take a hot and huge mouthful of the food. He hummed surprised by the delicious and amazing taste of the meal. Rachel chuckled softly seeing him enjoyed what she had prepared.

« Well, according to the news, you and your amazing friends were attacked on your Quinjet last night. It seemed that it was a terrorist group, named H.Y.D.R.A, I think. » Rachel explained to him, watching him eat.

Steve stopped to move, the spoon mid-air as he remembered everything that occurred last night. His team, the Avengers were going home from a successful attack on an H.Y.D.R.A base, and then dozens of men coming from nowhere attacked them, blowing a hole on the small plane. He remembered sending Nat and Clint to safety inside of two Stark’s capsule thing - it was like a small plane for one person. Thor took the fight outside flying in the sky taking most of the men with him. Tony putting on the suit followed the God. And Bruce took this unfortunate moment to change into the Hulk, compromising the all plane already in a wreck. At that point, Steve had already taken down, most of the remaining men. But the Quinjet was crashing, with the weight and angriness of the Hulk. Steve's only way out, was to jump out of it before it exploded on the ground. He remembered jumping, falling and then nothing. He looked up, his eyes catching Rachel’s gold one. He blinked once and they were back into their original blue one.

« Whoah! You guys can surely make every battle into an epic fight. » She muttered, amazed. « What? » Steve frowned. With his super-hearing, he had heard every word the red-haired woman had whispered. « What? » She exclaimed a little bit louder. « I mean, don’t you want to call someone. I don’t know, any member of your Team, perhaps? » She smiled, licking her lips. « Yeah, sure. » Steve suspiciously watched her. And then he remembered the conversation they had earlier « Don’t let me uses my power on you. » She had said to him. Taking a mouthful of the soup, Steve, almost, forget his thought. Tasting the salty and flavorsome soup on his tongue. « But after I finished this miracle. » He hummed taking another spoon.

Rachel discreetly sighted. She had almost been busted.

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« Stay put. » Maria Hill advised him. How could Steve stayed put? Half of his team was M.I.A. Apparently, Clint was badly injured, his pod crashing on some rocks or something and Maria Hill told him to « stay put » when he called her through the phone and she said that she will call him when she would have more information. Steve will have none of it. Raising, he put back his undershirt lying at the foot of the bed. He walked difficulty but with purpose to the open door but froze dead in his tracks. He was completely and utterly shocked to see this woman, Rachel flying. Yes, she was flying her body floating in the air, her head raised and inspecting the huge hole, oddly it looked just like his body, on the ceiling. Steve caught the sight of his shield, resting next to the chimney. He took it, without making any sound, but he didn’t know about the second wooden plate next to the blue carpet who creak loudly once you step on it. Rachel heard it, lost control of her levitation, and dropped dead on the ground. She aimed the couch, falling on it hard then bounced once and put her feet on the ground.

« Are you insane, sneaking on people like that? » She yelled, outraged. « You will tell me who you are right now before I knocked you to the ground. » Steve command in his Captain's voice, raising his shield in attacking mode and making a fist of his other hand.

He looked dangerous, in front of Rachel who gasped seeing the huge metal disc being waved in front of her face. She backed away raising her hands in front of her chest, protection mode, and bite her lips.

« Ok, ok. I will tell you everything, but please, Captain, put the shield down! » She exclaimed, making a move toward the ground. « Are you with H.Y.D.R.A? » He asked making a stepped toward her. « No! » She cried out, making a stepped back. She took a deep breath, understanding that he won’t let go of his shield. « My name is Rachel. Rachel Anne Summers and I’m a mutant. I know I will sound completely crazy but - » She licked her lips, her hands were shaking a little. « Try me, I’ve seen a lot of crazy and weird stuff happened. » Steve encouraged watching her warily, up and down. « I’m not from this reality ok? » She sighed. She looked at him frowned and tucked her skirt into her hand. « There is a lot of alternatives reality where, alternate us, exist and have done other choices than we do in our own reality. For example,  where I’m from you are dead. » She explained, shrugging her shoulders. « What? I-m…» Steve stuttered, shocked by the revelation Rachel was telling him.   « Yes, that’s a story for another day, but all you really need to know is that: I’m a mutant and I have powers. » She stated flexing her fingers a bit. « Like flying? » Steve asked nodding at the open ceiling above them. « It’s a little bit more complicated than that. » She grimaced a little thinking about all the Phoenix subject and her statue as an Omega Mutant.  « I need to seat down. » Steve informed her, his head throbbing with his headaches from his injuries but also because of thinking too hard. 

Aliens, alternate realities, H.Y.D.R.A… the modern world was being more and more complicated. He was about to seat down on the couch, putting his shield on the floor but a boiling sound made Rachel jumped on her feet and clapped her hands together.

« Not here, Captain, the milk is ready! » She exclaimed pulling on Steve arm’s for him to rise from his spot. « I don’t understand, why I can’t seat here if the milk is ready. » He frowned feeling his headache returned in full force.

Rachel smiled before walking through a door behind the couch under the bewildered look of the Captain.

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Steve faintly smiled as he now understood better the excitement of the woman. Seating on the porch of the small cabin next to Rachel, he sighed. Oddly for him, he was happy. A hot cocoa mug in his hand and the beautiful sunset behind the breathtaking landscape of woods was a quiet and enjoyable moment. Rachel smiled seeing him smiling and took a sip of her beverage. It was one of her tradition when the sunset came, she sat alone on the stairs of her porch and watched the beautiful scenery with hot cocoa and only the quiet sound of the wood for company. 

« What’s a mutant? » Steve asked after a couple of minutes of silence. 

Rachel took a deep breath, maybe it was better to be alone. 

« It’s a person born with a DNA slightly different from the usual combo. » She explained looking at birds taking a flight on the pinkish sky. « It’s their DNA, that gave mutant power. It’s completely random, a baby could be born with a mutant’s DNA whereas his parents are normal. » She turned her head to looked at him. « Unlike you Captain, I was born with my super-powers, thanks to mom and dad. They were mutant. » She took a sip of her drink, winking at Steve who only grinned. « Why are you here then? And not on your own Earth? » Steve asked, putting his cup on the wooden floor. « War happened, people who didn’t understand the mutant, killed us or imprisoned us. » She revealed dropping her eyes on his cup. She huffed seeing he had already finished his drink. « I’m kind of familiar with that. » Steve raised his eyebrows, resting his back again the pillar behind him. « My parents where afraid for me, so, with the help of another mutant, they just send me here. I was eleven. » Rachel bit her lips, feeling the tears threatening to fall on her cheeks, but she held them, not wanting to cry. « I was taken by Nick Fury and the S.H.I.E.L.D organizations, that’s how I know Natasha Romanov. » Rachel revealed, nodding her head.

She took a sip of her drink, looking at the trees in front of her house. Soon she would have to cut some of them because of the Winter coming. Steve was surprised, he knew Fury had some very odd and mind-blowing secrets of his own, but he didn’t imagine that kind of secret.

« And so you’ve been alone since then. I mean without your family and friends from your own reality? » Steve asked her, feeling a bit sorry for the woman who rescued him. « I don’t mind being alone. » The red-haired shrugged. « It’s when I do my best thinking. » She replied with a smile.

And I don’t have to hear all the internal thoughts of other people, she sadly reasoned.

« Yes, me too. » Steve sadly smiled, looking at the view in front of him.

It’s been a while since he didn’t just stop, and enjoy simple life things. Like a good view, a good beverage. He turned his head looking at the woman next to him who after putting her drink down had a chocolate mustache on her lips. A good company.

« You have a small something on -» Steve smiled pointing at his own lip. « What? » Rachel frowned, wiping her lips, a soft pink blush on her cheeks. She had taken most of it but not all of it. « Just- » Steve pointed his finger at her own lip, but she missed the spot again. « Wait, here. » He whispered, wiping the chocolate with his thumb, his eyes watching her.

He took his finger into his mouth licking it. Rachel's eyes went back and forth between his pink mouth to his blue eyes. She was strangely closer to him and could see a hint of green into the clear blue that was his eyes. Steve felt drowned toward her, her sweet vanilla and bit spicy scent feeling his nose. Suddenly, he felt dawned by her, and her aura. She seemed to be everything that was holding the epitome of his happiness on her lips and he had to touch them.  Rachel Summers was a mystery, some kind of girl coming from another reality. But she seemed genuine and took him in and patched him up when he felt into her house without any question ask. He didn’t know if he trusted her. He didn’t know if he could but right here, right now all Steve Rogers needed was to let go, for once and enjoyed the sweet and romantic moment. So he leaned his head toward her face as Rachel closed her eyes. He brushed hir lips, asking her, a quiet question. She felt butterflies into her stomach before pressing her mouth on his; raising her hand to softly stroke his clean-shaven cheek. Steve kissed her even more but a faint sound made her broke the kiss.

« Umm…It’s my phone and it’s probably for you. » Rachel flushed, her eyes avoiding to look at him.  « I’m gonna go answer. » He told her, before rising up and entered into the house.

Rachel took a deep breath. What was that? Eyes wide open, she shook her head and bite her lips. Putting her head on her knees she watched the sunset, a shy smile on her lips. 

I just kissed Steve Rogers!

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And now, he was leaving. Rachel’s compass in one hand, and one of the many maps, Nick Fury had given to her when she moved into this small house, in his other hand. His full suit on, and his famous shield on his back, Steve was ready to join back his team. According to Maria Hill, a Quinjet piloted by Tony was waiting for him a few miles away from Rachel’s cabin. He couldn’t lend next to the red-haired woman’s house because they were some kind of shield force around her home. When Steve confronted her about it, she only shrugged turning her back to him. Steve took his helmet and put it around his face. Rachel looked at him in the dim light of her living room, the only sound was of the cover-up brushing the wood’s ceiling. The night was now set around the woods and Rachel for the first time, felt empty and lonely. Strangely, sadness filling her cores, even though she met Steve less than 24 hours ago and he’s been conscious for 5 hours of those. She liked those moments she had been with him. 

« That’s ok if I walk through this shield force. It won’t hurt me? » Steve asked suspiciously, sorting his helmet on his neck. « Why do you ask me? I don’t know anything about this shield thing. » Rachel waved vaguely her hand above her head. Steve pursed his lip, knowing deep down that she didn’t tell him all the truth about her powers. « All I can say is that you traversed it last night, just fine and without any complication. » She smiled pointing at the ceiling.

Steve chuckled softly under his breath. She was right. He licked his lips watching her fully. Wearing a long blue skirt with a white crop top, she avoided looking directly in his eyes. Rachel was the kind of woman who was independent, funny, sweet but also mysterious. And he really wanted to decipher every bit of secrecy she was hiding behind these big blue eyes.

« I’m gonna be back, you know. » Steve informed her, with a knowing smile. « No, you won’t, Captain. » She replied, sad. « But that’s ok, I won’t forget you.» She winked.

Steve laughed, before turning around and stepped outside in the cold and icy wind of the woods. She was wrong he will be back, he knew it deep down. 

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Rachel Summers was again, levitating by the time Steve was back. But this time, she was flying outside next to trees, with a huge blade in one hand. Steve was looking at her, she hasn’t changed since the night he left her a few months ago. He told her he will be back and there he was. Steve needed some short but good holidays after the Ultron affairs. And after taking the lead of the new Avengers Team, he just left leaving a note to Natasha explaining that he will be back in a couple of weeks. And he couldn't think of anything better place than Rachel Summers’s cottage as a holiday location. Rachel heard a faint crack sound. Someone was there, turning quickly in the air she was ready to attack, her blade up and her fist being immersed into a faint golden mist, but she was shocked to see Captain America smirking at from below. Confused, she lost her balance and concentration and started to fall but this time there wasn’t any couch to fall on to. Rachel started to panic, crying out loud she already saw herself crushed on the floor. But then she saw the outstretched arms of Steve’s as he ran to caught her into his stronghold. Rachel’s body felt right into his figure, but her descent was fast, made the soldier lost his footing and fell to the ground, the red-haired woman above him.

« I told you to not sneak up on him, Steve! » Rachel yelled, hitting, softly his hard chest as she raised to look at his laughing face. « And I told you, I will be back. » He replied still laughing. «  Hey, Rachel, it’s the first time you called me Steve. » « What are you doing here? I saw the news! Are you ok? » She frowned looking at him, annoyed but searching for some injuries on his body.

He wasn’t wearing his suit, but a soft blue shirt and a pair of jeans. Steve looked rather normal dressed this way. Not like the bossy and always serious Captain. 

« I want to know more about your Earth, the other reality. » Steve softly smiled, pushing a stray of her long red hair behind her ear. « And also, about you. » Steve looked at her blushing under his deep gaze.

She pushed herself from his body, taking his hand into her own and lift him up.

« I told you my story if you told me yours? » She asked, crossing her arms on her chest, smiling at him. « That’s fair. » Steve conclude, taking the blade who fell next to them. « Let’s start with this. » He waved the weapon, raising an eyebrow.  « Alright. » She nodded biting her lips. « But I need hot cocoa, do you want one? » « Yes, please! » Steve almost yelled.

Rachel laughed in front of his excited face. She hasn’t forgotten him. But it seemed that he didn’t forget her either.

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[maretsuki]

Tagged by @jvplter - I don't usually do tag games but I'll do this one for you bc you're a bro and Ily ♡

Favorite snack? - Probably doritos bc. Doritos.

Favorite place to go on vacation? - Home. XDD I don't like travelling much, I prefer to stay at home and relax when I get the chance.

What's a song that makes you dance immediately? - Planetary (GO!). i'm not emo i swear i just love this song

Tea or coffee? What kind? - Coffee! I usually have half coffee half milk with some sugar, but only because it's super strong coffee. I hate bitter things but I'm addicted to caffeine-

Do you play an instrument? - No. Everyone who does is so talented tho and I'm just here like 'wHAT THE FUCKKK THATS BEAUTIFULLL'

What's your favorite type of personality? - Idk! I tend to like everyone as long as they're not like, a genuinely mean person--

Favorite comedian? - Torn between Bo Burnham and John Mulaney!

Gummy candy or chocolate? - oh noooooo do i have to choose??? If i had to pick one I'd have to say chocolate but I love gummies too--

What did you 'want to be when you grew up' as a kid? - I used to want to be an artist, now I'm working on being an author :3

What's your favorite physical feature about yourself? - Idk, ig my hair is nice sometimes??? I don't like the way I look fbnr

When was the last time you watched a show or movie on the tv? - Long enough ago that I don't remember-

Unpopular opinion? - 4 genders. No more, no less. Male, female, androgynous/hermaphroditic, and neutrois/sexless.

Are you scared of bugs? - Less scared, more grossed out. You don't know where they've been, you really gonna let them crawl on your stuff?

Cats or cats? - Cats. I love dogs too but. CATS.

Are you allergic to any foods? - Red cabbage, but other than that, none that I know of.

Does the description of your star sign match your personality? - Sortof? It matches more if you take into account more than just my sun sign. (If anyone wanted to know, I'm Aries sun, Capricorn moon, Taurus ascendant. Mutuals get to know all 12 :3)

Favorite type of accent? - Idk, all accents are really cute tbh-

Name the first song that comes into your head! - Idk uh- In Flames by Digital Daggers? That's a good song-

Who is the sexiest famous person to you? - Idk, I really don't pay any attention to celebrities so I don't know many but tbch Billie Eilish is really hot (I'm under 18 and about her age so you can't yell at me for this, its only creepy if you're older than her)

Cake or pie? - I'm honestly not a huge fan of either. I love brownies tho ♡

When was the last time you read an entire book? - Uhh Ready Player One for english class a few months ago- (it's a really good book! And I have a whole essay on how the movie ruined it.)

Favorite junk food? - hmmmmm chips ig?

Do you like your height? - No, I'm too short and it triggers my dysphoria rjjs

Apples or oranges? - Apples for eating since there's no pith, but orange juice will always be far superior to apple juice.

What's your favorite personality trait in a person? - Open-minded.

Do you like salad? - Salad is the worst thing to ever claim to be a meal aside from grits. We don't even talk about grits.

What person inspires you the most? - Idk, a lot of people inspire me. I don't think I could pick one who inspires me most, haha-

What's a song that has made you cry? - Waving Through a Window from Dear Evan Hansen. I don't like the musical a lot anymore, but that song still hits close to home with my SAD.

Aaaand finally done!! And I'm tagging @transboisarecutetoo , @kanethetranswolf , and @colliewolf !

[monochromatic-stardust]

THIS! All of this!!!!! I don't see enough of this!!!

My parents were damn good about food and our relationships to it, to the point where it took me YEARS longer than my peers to associate the word "diet" to some (often fad-like or not wholly scientifically/medically sound) restrictive way of eating rather than just... you know, your diet, as in the foods you eat?

I had a nutritionist and dietitian for a little while a couple of times in my life, and every time it's happened they all have basically told me that BECAUSE I was raised with such a healthy relationship with food (added bonus being years in dance so I KNOW my body and what it needs) that if I had a craving, listen to it. Everything came down to eating what your body asked for, but always portion concious/control and moderation.

Unless you're doing some activity that's either very intensive or that's extended over long periods of time in a day (or are like little me who had an intensely fast, very high metabolism rate naturally who also did ballet, so after a class or particularly a dress rehearsal, 9 year old me at like 50lbs could put away a large Double Quarter Pounder w/Cheese meal plus 2 apple pies and MAYBE a little more because yeah, I actually DID need those calories, though mom tried to get me home to a home cooked meal as often as she could, if I was STARVING, she wasn't gonna make me wait to eat) that is burning a bajillion calories because you're a friggin' gymnast or martial artist or whatever, you probably don't NEED to eat an American restaurant plate sized portion (most of which are ACTUALLY designed to make sure you have left overs....) when you crave something.

My momma made sure to introduce us to a wide variety of foods when we were very young (think baby food age young) so that we would be open minded about eating (and always ENCOURAGED, but never forced, us to embrace "The Try Three Times" principle, which was to say that if we tried something and didn't enjoy it, to be willing to try it two more times over the years to adulthood, as tastes change with age etc, before we finalized the idea that we didn't like something), but she basically let us eat what we asked for as little ones because a child with no taught food biases, or "forbidden" foods, is going to seek what they're craving, and cravings in a healthy person are simply our bodies telling us what we need nutritionally.

There weren't really "taboo" foods or things that were terribly restricted for us, other than for allergy/cost reasons, and while we never had to clean our plates, eat veggies first, eat something we didn't want to/didn't like, we were also raised with ideas like "if you don't like X ingredient in a dish, it's otherwise enjoyable, and it's reasonable to do so... pick it out/off," but if it wasn't viable, we could make ramen, cereal, etc instead without issue.

I'm not going to say this is the PERFECT or the ONLY or THE RIGHT WAY to raise kids, but food is food. There isn't anything inherently "good" or "bad" about natural foods. Unless you're allergic or have a health issue that requires you to avoid foods, there's no reason to teach children that food has a moral value. It doesn't. Let them enjoy their lives without feeling guilty for doing something essential for living.

my approach to teaching my 3 year old to have a healthy relationship with food

preface: i experienced a lot of food restriction, food moralism and food insecurity as a child, and i believe that these factors led to my development of an eating disorder (orthorexia), which i am still recovering from. i am saying all of these things as a parent who wants to innoculate my child against the food moralism that i suffered.

what i do:

i don’t ever force her to eat anything. i will try to persuade her to try something, or to eat more of a thing she knows she likes, but if she still won’t eat the thing, i don’t push it. parenting involves a lot of choosing your battles, and it’s more important to me that she feels respected by me than that she has another bite of a carrot at that particular moment.

we don’t tell her “eat your veggies first” because we don’t want to present eating vegetables as a chore. she likes a lot of vegetables already, and there’s no need to set them apart from other food. we give her a multivitamin to make sure she gets enough vitamins and minerals

we’ve never treated candy or chips or any food as a special reward that she has to earn. if she can have it whenever she wants, then it doesn’t take on any kind of enticing sense of “this is forbidden.” and if she wants to eat an amount of candy that might make her sick, we tell her “i don’t think it’s a good idea to have any more right now because you might get a tummy ache.” and she trusts our judgment.

we will sometimes make small snack trays that have crackers, cheese, raw vegetables and sliced deli meat, and she’ll munch on them. we teach her that she needs to consume carbohydrates, protein and fat to take care of her body, and if she’s been eating exclusively carbs, we remind her that she should eat something with protein and fat, like cheese or peanut butter.

if she doesn’t like a food, we don’t make her eat it. we might ask “do you want to try it again” but we respect her “no.” if she doesn’t like the dinner we made, we’ll let her eat cereal or a sandwich (or something else quick to prepare). because we don’t want her to associate dinner time with conflict. she’s much more willing to try new foods if we don’t pressure her or make it a big deal.

we don’t describe any foods as good or bad for her, because we don’t ever want her to feel guilty for eating. we teach her about the comparative nutritional value of foods without judgment. since we’re not disallowing her from eating any particular foods, she won’t have a drive to eat tons of forbidden “"bad”“ food when she’s older and we’re not present.

[rana-capito]

blue, navy blue, i'm as blue as i can be, cause my steady boy said "all of them", one hundred something questiiiions

1: How tall or short do you wish you were?I’d take a couple more inches but like this is fine2: What’s your dream pet? (Real or not)It would be so cool to have a snake…but a dog is also really good…3: Do you have a favorite clothing style?cool jackets are cool…for myself I like target man tshirts4: What was your favorite video game growing up?I had these Magic School Bus computer games that were truly excellent. there was one about whales and dolphins and one about rainforest animals5: What three things/people do you think of most each day:idk…the Majority of my thoughts are either very self-centered or just the song that it’s time to have in my head6: If you had a warning label, what would yours say?fuck idk. warning: occasional stupid bitch 7: What is your opinion on [insert person/thing here]?hmm! vague8: What is your Greek personality type? [Sanguine, Phlegmatic, Choleric, or Melancholic]I got sanguine on a quiz I took once and I like that because I like blood9: Are you ticklish?yeah, not Extremely tho10: Are you allergic to anything?guinea pigs, cats, pollen11: What’s your sexuality?i’m Gay12: Do you prefer tea, coffee, or cocoa?Tea13: Are you a cat or dog person?they are both good and i really like both…i’ll say dogs because i’ve been seeing a lot of very good ones lately + the cat allergy14: Would you rather be a vampire, elf, or merperson?VAMPIRE15: Do you have a favorite Youtuber?I watch beckiejbrown a lot and I think she’s cool16: How tall are you?5'7"17: If you had to change your name, what would you change it to?Benjamin..perhaps…but there’s too many bens so I guess I’ll just have to be Larl18: How much do you weigh? [Only ask this if you know the user doesn’t mind!]between 144 and 150 pounds19: Do you believe in ghosts/spirits?eh…nah20: Do you like space or the ocean more?The ocean..has more animals in it21: Are you religious?non22: Pet peeves?when people call frogs venomous or spiders poisonous23: Would you rather be nocturnal or diurnal [opposite of nocturnal]?diurnal…i like Sunshine24: Favorite constellation?i like cassiopeia she’s spiky25: Favorite star?uhhhh I don’t have one26: Do you like ball-jointed dolls?i think they are..flexible?27: Any phobias or fears?MIRRORS IN THE DARK MIRRORS IN THE DARK scary. 28: Do you think global warming is real?yeah lol29: Do you believe in reincarnation?not really30: Favorite movie?hmmm. i liked inglorious basterds a lot but i’m mostly saying that because i can’t think of any movies that have made an especially big impression on me at the moment31: Do you get scared easily?..yes i’m sensitive32: How many pets have you own in your lifetime?1 frog 2 tortoises 4 guinea pigs & a lot of fish33: Blog rate? [You’ll rate the blog of the one who’s asking.]8/10 content is great but posting frequency is too spread out34: What is a color that calms you?green like my room at home35: Where would you like to travel and/or live?I want to go to like..australia. or some other place with cool and weird animals!36: Where were you born?atlanta :P37: What is your eye color?brown38: Introvert or extrovert?IntroVert39: Do you believe in horoscopes and zodiacs?not really but i like to read things about them anyway40: Hugs or kisses?WHY not both41: Who is someone you would like to see/visit right now?clarissa…so far away…an entire TIMEZONE42: Who is someone you love deeply?Antonie Hvan Leeuwenhoek43: Any piercings you want?maybe something extra on my ear?44: Do you like tattoos and piercings?they’re cool45: Do you smoke or have you eiver done so?i neiver have done so46: Talk about your crush, if you have one!sexy. very shapely calves. extremely good at calculus and physics and programming. 47: What is a sound you really hate?when my shoe scrapes on the sidewalk48: A sound you really love?the echoes from the main staircase in the mlc49: Can you do a backflip?no :(50: Can you do the splits?no51: Favorite actor and/or actress?i like..karla souza52: Favorite movie?this has been asked previously and i still don’t have a good answer. 53: How are you feeling right now?cool! kind of tired54: What color would you like your hair to be right now?uhh this color’s good55: When did you feel happiest?jeez idk that’s pretty hard to answer56: Something that calms you down?my green chair in my room at home57: Have any mental disorders? [Only ask this if you know the user doesn’t mind!]i do not58: What does your URL mean?it’s vaguely homestucky59: What three words describe you the most?cool. sexy. innovative.60: Do you believe in evolution?hell yeah61: What makes you unfollow a blog?content that i don’t like or no content for a long time62: What makes you follow a blog?content that i like63: Favorite kind of person:cool person64: Favorite animal(s):guinea pigs. orcas. cane toads. naked mole rats.65: Name three of your favorite blogs.teensplop.blogspot.com is my ultimate favorite blog ever. my favorite tumblrs are of like random people who i follow and i would feel weird @ing them66: Favorite emoticon:girl with carrots67: Favorite meme:bode was pretty good68: What is your MBTI personality type?i think i got infp when i took it69: What is your star sign?capricorn70: Can your dog roll over on command, if you have a dog?i don’t have a dog :(71: What outfit out of all your clothes do you like to wear the most?dark gray vneck from target and my Excellent jeans72: Post a selfie or two?i’ll do that..later73: Do you have platform shoes?no i’m tall74: What is one random but interesting fact about yourself?my blood type is A positive75: Can you do a front flip?into a pool or on a trampoline76: Do you like birds?hell yeah! i wanted to be an ornithologist in 6th grade and if that ended up being my life i would be satisfied and happy77: Do you like to swim?Yeah Put Me In The Water78: Is swimming or ice skating more fun to you?hmm. i guess swimming? ice skating is very fun though. and it has to be the correct context of swimming like the water is clean and i can swoop around in it79: Something you wish didn’t exist:*****es80: Some thing you wish did exist:my huge future muscles81: Piercings you have?one in each earlobe82: Something you really enjoy doing:dancing in a loud bar83: Favorite person to talk to:different people have different good talking qualities but there is a special kind of conversation i can only hold with my sister84: What was your first impression of Tumblr?this sure is The Place For Fanart85: How many followers do you have?15086: Can you run a mile within ten minutes?hmm…i feel like yes but i would be very tired after87: Do your socks always match?almost always yes88: Can you touch your toes and keep your legs straight completely?i used to be able to but no longer89: What are your birthstones?i think turquoise?90: If you were an animal, which one would you be?something sneaky and timid and nocturnal91: If a flower could aesthetically represent you, what kind would it be?it has 5 smooth white petals and a smooth green stem and i was so into it for like some time in second grade92: A store you hate?urban outfitters93: How many cups of coffee can you drink in one day?ideally zero94: Would you rather be able to fly or read minds?fly95: Do you like to wear camo?not particularly96: Winter or summer?summer for sure..i like Sunlight97: How long can you hold your breath for?i don’t feel like testing this rn98: Least favorite person?let’s say johnny rives99: Someone you look up to:my veterinarian cousin is cool100: A store you love?binders is pretty cool101: Favorite type of shoespumas 102: Where do you live?in a College Town103: Are you a vegetarian or vegan? If so, why?no i love MEAT104: What is your favorite mineral or gem?star sapphires are pretty cool?105: Do you drink milk?on occasion106: Do you like bugs?yeah :)107: Do you like spiders?yeah :)108: Something you get paranoid about?people thinking i shouldn’t be in a place109: Can you draw:yeah i think so110: Nosiest question you have ever been asked?nothing comes to mind111: A question you hate being asked?what kind of music do you like?112: Ever been bitten by a spider?maybe…i had this huge itchy leg bump the past few days that i think might have been from that113: Do you like the sound of waves at the beach?yah it’s nice114: Do you prefer cloudy or sunny days?mmm sunny115: Someone you’d like to kiss or cuddle right now:Antonie Hvan Leeuwenhoek116: Favorite cloud type:Ummm ones that are interestingly shaped! not just stratus. everything else is cool117: What color do you wish the sky was?blue is good118: Do you have freckles?yah119: Favorite thing about a person:do people like actually have an answer to this in mind120: Fruits or vegetables?VEGETABLES121: Something you want to do right now:eat dessert122: Is the ocean or sky prettier?mmm sky!123: Sweet or sour foods?sweet…124: Bright or dim lights?uhh depends on the mood125: Do you believe in a certain magical creature?…no?126: Something you hate about Tumblr:some of the discussions on here happen in really weird and negative ways but i’m pretty much never involved so whatever127: Something you love about Tumblr:lots of nice content128: What do you think about the least?i don’t fucking know since i’m not thinking about it129: What would you want written on your tombstone?something about science contributions maybe130: Who would you like to punch in the face right now?i’m not in a really violent mood rn131: What is something you love but also hate about yourself?nothing comes to mind132: Do you smile with your teeth showing for pictures?yeah133: Computer or TV?computer IS tv134: Do you like roller coasters?yeah :D135: Do you get motion sickness or seasickness?sometimes…not recently136: Are your ears lobed or attached?lobed137: Do you believe in karma?eh138: On a scale of 1-10, how attractive would you say you are?this really varies but like in the middle somewhere. not a 1 and not a 10 for sure139: What nicknames do you have/have had?sarah calls me em…that’s it140: Did you have any pretend or imaginary friends?hmm sarah and i had an imaginary little sister named lucille and an imaginary dog named ruby141: Have you ever seen a therapist/shrink?non142: Would you say you are a good or bad influence to others?i try to be a good influence?143: Do you prefer giving or receiving gifts/help?i like…giving ;)144: What makes you angryjohnny rives145: How many languages do you speak fluently?One146: Do you prefer boys, girls, and/or non-binaries?i’m a lesbian147: Are you androgynous?hmm i think i’ve reached that somewhat148: Favorite physical thing about yourself:i like..my feet149: Favorite thing about your personality:i try to…be nice150: Name three people you would like to talk to right now in person.julia clarissa sarah151: If you could go back into time and live in one era, which would you choose?i’m good staying here thank u152: Do you like BuzzFeed?it can be entertaining but i don’t think it’s good153: How did you meet your spouse/girlfriend/boyfriend/partner? [If you have one.]introduced by a mutual friend is the most basic explanation154: Do you like to kiss others’ foreheads or hands for platonic reasons?yeah!155: Do you like to play with others’ hair?yah156: What embarrasses you?being in the gym157: Something that makes you nervous/anxious:the gym158: Biggest lie you have ever told:i can’t say it here…it’s illegal159: How many people are you following?130160: How many posts do you have on your blog(s)?4,507161: How many drafts do you have on your blog(s)?2162: How many likes do you have on your blog(s)?27,596 wow163: Last time you cried and why:thursday night and i have no Fucking clue164: Do you have long or short hair?short165: Longest your hair has ever been:i think it got past my boobs in the first semester of 9th grade166: Why do you like, dislike, or have neutral feelings about religon?i don’t really have any religious affiliations at all so. neutral167: Do you really care how the universe and world was created?..yes? like i think it’s cool and stuff168: Do you like to wear makeup?Not like, regularly, but I like doing my 3am editorial looks169: Can you stand on your hands or head for more than thirty seconds?No170: Did you answer the questions you were asked truthfully?mostly. i didn’t think Too Deeply

@shovelthefries

[taeyangdyb]

Giving love a shot The Final chapter.

*months later*

Our kids are turning a year old, Jaeha and I still not really communicating, and that’s one of the things I hate the most. The past few months has been some what good and bad. 

Unless it has something to do with the kids, she literally shows that she doesn’t care.

Chacha: you guys haven’t made up yet?

Jay: what makes you say that? 

Chacha: you always look like shit when you two argue. 

Jay:…

Chacha: just go make up man

Jay: *gets up* I’ll head out first 

Chacha: okay

Driving home I already know by the time I get home, she will already put them to bed. 

*home* 

Jae:*sitting on the couch with a computer on her lap, a glass of wine next to her*

Jay: hey 

Jae: hey *continue her eyes on the computer* 

Made my way straight to the bathroom, I showered but then just let the water run. 

While later, she walks in, brush her teeth and walk out. Getting out of the shower, her light was off the only thing, on is the light from my bedside table. 

I’m just gonna go to sleep, I don’t wanna have fight with her, but I really hate going to sleep without talking to her. I’m gonna attempt to talk to her, no guaranty 

how far I’ll get with that.

Jay: how was your day?

Jae: the same ever since I have kids, take care of them during the day, try to do as much work as possible at night. yours?

Jay: great 

after saying great I realized that I shouldn’t have said that, I’m not sure why, but I feel like an ass, because I haven’t been much help with our kids

Jay: Jaeha look, I know things hasn’t been well between us, and ..

Jae: and?

Jay: and we need to talk, things can’t continue like that

Jae: not really in the mood to talk right now

Jay: not in the  mood to talk?

Jae: that’s what I said, I have more important work to do

Jay: you picking you work over me?

Jae: picking my work over you? 

Jay: I just want us to clear whatever misunderstanding that we’re having.

Jae: Jaebum you pick your work over your kids, you’re in no place to judge anyone.

Jay:did you really Just say that?

Jae: did I stutter? 

Jay: I do spend time your time with the kids

Jae: really? okay if you say so, and that will be the end of this conversation 

Jay: I’m not done talking

Jae: I AM, goodnight.

and yes that ended the conversation. 

*next morning*

wake up next morning Jaeha's not on the bed. check outside, they all dressed and getting ready to leave.

Jay: good morning

Jae: morning

Jay: you guys going out?

Jae: yeah, going to the hospital, Jaehin has been acting funny, Hoon's not eating right, and Jaehee's having reactions to I’m not sure what. so I’m going to see what’s going on.

Jay: Allergies?

Jae: I hope not

Jay: mind if I come with you?

Jae: can you shower and get dress in 30 minutes? I need to leave while they’re in the mood, and everyone clothes still clean.

Jay: okay.

I showered, and get dress..

*Jae’s Views*

making our way out all three of them wants me to pick them up, 

I can’t carry all three of you at the same time even if mothers are super heroes without capes.

*hospital*

I dont think any parents wants to take their kids a to the hospital to find out they have a million things they’re allergic to. 

What annoys me is that all 3 allergic to something different, as if I didn’t have enough on my plate. 

After the hospital we went to he’s parents, so I can go, and buy everything for them.

*phone rings* 

Jae: hello

Dad: hey how are you? 

Jae: hey daddy, I’m good, Just came from the hospital 

Dad: why? are you okay? 

Jae: yeah, the kids had to get check up, because they’re were fussing. Turns out they’re allergic to a lot of things, the food they eat didn’t go with them. Now I’m going to change everything,  from formula to what they eat.

Dad: I’m sorry

Jae: it’s alright.

Dad: are you planning on going back to the office?

Jae: yea, I just need to have them back to health so I can take them with me

Dad: you taking them with you?

Jae: yes, my office is big enough, I can watch them while I work.

Dad: I’m not sure-

Jae: Daddy I’m already doing that, I watch the kids. They’ll be fine, i just need to rearrange the office a bit. Besides Mr.Kim is with me. 

Dad: if you want I can come give you a hand

Jae: no I’m alright, the last time i ended up watching you and the kids

since we’re out I’m going to go to his parents house so they can watch them, so I can go back out to buy the things for the kids.

Jay: why are we going to my parents? all they’re going to do is nag

Jae: ….

*Jay’s View*

we get to my parents house, and I am invisible. after getting the kids out, I must say that it’s sad that the kids, don’t really recognize me. My parents doesn’t even care that I’m here.

Jae: well, I’ll see you guys in a bit

Mom: you going out again?

Jae: yes, I have to go buy the new things for the kids

Mom: you can get those later, just relax a bit

Jae: if i get too comfortable, I won’t be able to  move

Dad: send Jaebum to go get them

Jae: it won’t take me long, I’ll come back sooner, besides more familiar with the kids stuff.

they were all playing as soon as Jae head for door, all three of them bust out crying, following her. nothing and no one can make them stop.

Jae:*sits on the floor* okay you guys win, I’m not going anywhere. okay, yall happy now?

I feel so alone in here. I can feel how disappointed my parents are. after a while Jaeha and the kids fall asleep, now i'm waiting for them to wake up so I can go home. 

Dad: how have you been?

Jay: here working

Dad: just working?

Jay: yeah, I have a lot going on in the office right now.

Dad: is everything okay?

Jay: there’s always ups and downs in this business.

Dad: do you want to talk about it?

Jay: there isn’t much to talk about

Dad: fine don’t tell me anything, but at least talk to your wife

Jay: I’m not going to make her worry-

mom:*walks in* you don’t want her to worry? you think not telling her is gonna make her worry less?

Jay: Mom, can you please keep it down?

mom: keep what down? I’m not like your father who’s going to keep his mouth shut, is work all you think about now? when was the last time you spent time with your family? your wife? when was the last time you spend time with your kids who’s growing by the minute? I swear she married the wrong person

Jay: mom coming from you that hurts

mom: really? how do you think she feel? everyday raising 3 kids who barely see their dad. how does do you think her family feel knowing she’s being treated the way you’re treating her?  I’m not her mother and I’m upset.

my mother did not filtered anything, my dad on the other hand not saying anything cause he knows she’s right. I waited for them to wake up to go home. 

*later* 

Jaeha wake up and start changing diapers.

Jay: need help?

Jae: no thank you,

Jay: Jaeha I’m-

Jae: PARK JAEBUM NOT IN THE MOOD

and that was it….

* in the car on the way home Jae’s Views*

Jae:*phone rings* Hello

Mark: hey

Jae: wassup?

Mark: having a drink

Jae: you home?

Mark: no

Jae: you want to come over later?

Mark: you okay

Jae:…

Mark: I’ll see you later…

I’m mentally and physically exhausted 

I’m just done with so many things. Jay an I are not communicating, I don’t know  how he’s doing, if everything’s alright with him emotionally, physically, or professionally, but to tell you the truth, that’s not my main concern. Reason why, I have three children who can’t talk, can’t do anything for themselves who needs my attention, I’m not going to fight with Jaebum over that.

*months later* 

The time has going by so fast, my babies are weeks from their first birthday, learning to walk, i’m happy yet. Right now I’m planning a party, I am so excited. I mean I could get someone to do it, but it’s more fun than my work. 

Unlike my wedding I took the lead on everything till I passed out, this time I’m getting a little help. Over the past few months, my friends scratch that, they’re more than friends now my family has been soo helpful in helping me with the kids. Yori, Ailee, and Jimin learn to change diapers, feed, well learn a lot about Children. 

Instead of going to the club, the guys babysit while I work. Byul and I have play dates I’m just looking forward for our next generation to complete. i’m just happy that my kids won’t be the youngest ones, like i was

I have weeks to start getting things ready for the party. I’m doing it at my house, maybe when they’re older I’ll do their party somewhere else, but right now it’s how to turn a not to kids friendly to kids friendly. 

Byul: so what do you you have in mind? 

Jae: nothing

Jimin: Nothing? 

Jae: absolutely nothing, that’s why you’re all here, Something kids friendly.

Mark: what’s the age range of who’s coming? 

Jae: I don’t care anyone who wants to

Ailee: Jiyong kids are coming? 

Jae: he’s going to be out of town but Liz’s coming with the kids. 

Byul: his kids are the cutest thing. 

Jae: yeah I can’t wait for my kids to get older, speaking of older, still no ideas? 

Joon: just have a carnival, kids love that stuff, you have a large place, to put mini rides.

Jae: I’m not going to mess up my lawns, the Gardner work hard on that thing. 

Eric: not on the lawn Jaejae, *sigh* besides the pool area where else do you know about this place? 

Jae:… isn’t all of it grass? 

All: NO!

Okay I think I need a tour of my own house. We sat down and brainstormed.

*moments later* 

We agree on a fun zone theme, except no clowns I just don’t like clown. Just as we ended our conversation, they walk in. 

Simon: you’re here? 

Jimin: I’m here

Chacha: why didn’t you guys tell us you were here? 

Ailee: did you tell me where you were all day yesterday? Last night? This morning?  

Eric: it was just a question 

Ailee: shut up 

Eric: okay 

I don’t think anyone will mind them, it’s just hormones, they’re  pregnant. I on the other hand just going to stay calm and quiet. 

Simon: so what are you guys doing? 

Jae: figuring out what to do for the kids first birthday. I want invitations, but got nothing plan. 

Loco: did you come up with anything? 

Jae: both yes and no. But I’ll figure something out, like always. 

Joon: we have to get going 

Mark: yeah I need to go find a clown 

Jae: Mark I love you, but don’t make me go to jail for killing you. 

Mark: I’m kidding 

Jae: you better, I’ll walk you guys out.

*outside* 

Eric: look Jaejae I know you’re married and all but-

Jae: you’re worried? 

Eric: we’re all are. 

Joon: we’re not saying anything because you’re a strong woman 

Mark: but there’s soo much a person can take. 

Jae: I’m this strong because I have you guys on my team, I know you guys have my back regardless, because of that I can’t break down. Even if I did you guys won’t let me fall. 

After they left I went back in, the guys in the kitchen. 

Jimin: Jaeha I think I’m going to need one of your drivers to get home. 

Should I tell her that her husband is in the kitchen? I don’t want them to be fighting with their husbands just because things are bad between Jaebum and I. 

Leaving someone to watch the kids, I need a drink and a nap. I grabbed myself a bottle and sit on a balcony, and a load of shit just keep going through my mind. 

Simon: mind if I join you? 

Jae: sure

Simon: *joins her* what are you doing up here? 

Jae: nothing, just enjoying the view. 

Simon: it is a good one. 

Jae: did he sent you up here? 

Simon: no? What makes you think that? 

Jae: no reason 

Simon: look I’m just worried 

Jae: about? Me or Jaebum? 

Simon: both of you. 

Jae: I’m done Simon

Simon: Jaejae I know thing’s have been a bit hectic between the two of you, shit i think we’re all going through the same thing, but-

Jae: Simon, i don’t care about my relationship with Jay. I gave up on that, he’s been treating me like Shit for What? 10 years? It’s something I’m use to. What pisses me off, is that I asked him to spend  one out of the seven days with his kids, that’s all I asked for and he couldn’t do it. 

Simon: what do you mean you give up? You’re going to break up or get a divorce? 

Jae:…

Simon: woah, it gets to that point? 

Jae: might as well 

Simon: you think that’s going to solve anything? 

Jae: at least I won’t be in a one sided relationship. 

Simon: you think Jay doesn’t care about you? 

Jae: I don’t care, it don’t matter to me anyways. Simon I have 3 kids, I have a job. Jaebum think he’s the only person who’s having problems with his work? You how many people I’m responsible for? I’m responsible for everyone that works in the company, I’m not in my 20’s anymore, I can’t keep chasing after him, I have better things to do with my time. I am responsible for other people’s families, I just cant 

*later that night* 

♤Jay’s views♤

I don’t think I need anyone to tell me that my marriage is on a rock, because I know. And I feel like it’s already too late for me to do anything about it. 

Tonight is the first time in a while that I come home early. They’re already starting to look like their mother, full head of hair, it’s kind of sucks to say that I get the girls mixed up, more like it’s embarrassing 

Jae: are you going to shower? 

Jay: you wanna go first? 

Jae: alright

Normally Jaeha would be in the shower for an hour, but strangely she got out in 20minutes. After we both showered, she went out and brought all three of them in the room. 

Jae: you guys mommy have to work, please behave. 

As energetic as they look, I doubt they’re going to stay in one place. 

Jay: need help? 

Jae: with my work or the kids? 

Jay: kids? 

Jae: ..okay but you might want to take your nose ring out. I learned that the hard way. 

Jay: okay. 

Jae: they’re not hungry, so they should be fine.

Jay: and if they cry? 

 Jae: they have snacks, but be careful they’re allergic to a lot of things, I labeled everything; well they’re in colors. Purple can only eat what’s in purple containers, same for the other two. Don’t share the cups or spoons. 

Jay:….

Jae: Jaebum please don’t make me have to go to the hospital tonight, I have a lot to do right now. 

Jay: okay

Jae: by the way, Jaehin’s wearing purple Jaehee’s wearing yellow. 

Jae left the room to go to her office to work, now spending time with my kids, I notice. Even at a young age, their personalities are already so different. 

I get along with the girls, but Jaehoon is really not friendly, I guess with me, cause he’s the happiest baby with his mom. 

*hours later* 

It’s currently 11pm they’re worn out, after four hours of playing. Hoon fell asleep while playing on his own

Jae:*walks in* 

Jay: you finish already? 

Jae: yeah it was easier since I was not multitasking. *looks over to Hoon, who wakes up at the sound of her voice* you were waiting for me? 

Hoon:*crawls to his mom* 

Jae:*pick him up* my big boy

Jay: he is not very friendly 

Jae: he’s independent 

We get the kids ready and put them to bed.  Back to our room, it’s like there’s nothing to talk about. 

Jay: how was your day? 

Jae: good *on her phone* you?

Jay: I’ve had worst, but the day ended better than I expected. 

Jae: that’s good. 

Jay: yeah 

*awkward silence* 

Jay: do you want to watch a movie? 

Jae: I doubt I’ll gonna be able to stay away for that.

Jay: oh okay

Jae:*phone vibrate* if you call me at this time  means it’s good new

Mr.Kim: well after negotiating for hours, he agrees to close the deal with you.

Jae: for?

Mr.Kim: half a billion

Jae:*shocks*billion with a B?

Mr.Kim: yeah

Jae: great

Mr.Kim: good now all you have to do is take the papers so you both can sign them

Jae: what? I thought you said that he agreed?

Mr.Kim: i never said that he sign them, he’s going to the airport at 7:30 AM, be at your office by 6:45

Jae: 6:45 AM? come on you know i cant be up that early? and to get all the 3 kids ready imma get there at 11

Mr.Kim: I will be at your house at 5:25, be ready*hangs up*

Jae: just great

Jay: you okay?

Jae: I have to sigh a contract tomorrow early in the morning, I don’t want to drag the kids with me

Jay: I can watch them

Jae: huh?

Jay: don’t worry, how back can it be? .

Next morning Jaeha woke up early get ready. Left me note. First person to wake up is Jaehin, she is such a happy baby, and loves  music. We can tell where she gets it from. 

Then Mr. Introvert Hoon wakes up, he starts crying and would not come to me. I had to call someone else to feed him. 

*hours later* 

How hard can it be? Pretty damn hard, I’m not sure if they’re walking, crawling, climbing in stuff. 

Simon: hey

Jay: what are you doing here?

Simon: come to check up on you. How’s your first day of being a dad? 

Jay: first day? 

Simon: yeah

Jay: it’s interesting

Simon: How? 

Jay: well, the girls are friendly, this boy is straight up mommas boy.

Simon: speaking of momma’s, how are things with you and your wife? 

Jay:  we’re good… I guess why?

Simon: You sure? I talked to her the other day

Jay: you talk to my wife?

Simon: dude she and I were cool before even dating you. 

Jay: okay, 

Simon: okay since you said that you guys are okay.

Jay: well what did she tell you? She and I didn’t really talk. I asked her if she wanted to watch a movie, she said no. That’s all it didn’t seems like there was a problem, Why? What’d She say?

Simon: Well from what I heard is that she waved the white flag 

Jay: white flags? 

Simon: surrender? Defeated? Yield? She gave up. 

Jay: what? 

Simon: I even asked her, where or how does she see you guy’s future? she said that she doesn’t want her kids to grow up without their dad. 

Jay:*sigh* 

Simon: look man, we all know you work hard for the company, but at the end of the day if something happy to the company you can always start over, it’d be hard, but you can still start over. look at these three kids, even if one of them don’t like you, can you imagine your life without them? most importantly this woman, who’s been struggling with you for ten years, ten years man. if she decide to leave no ones going to stand in her way, no one’s going to blame her either

Jay: …….

I got nothing, literally…

*20minutes*

Jae: hey guys- omg

triplets:*comes to her holding strawberries*

Jae: I refuse to let you guys touch me im wearing white…..or not *sits on the floor* you guys owe me a shirt. so how was it?

Jay:…fun

Jae: nice work out uh?

Jay: you’re a superwoman Jaeha

Jae: no I’m a mother, and you don’t feel tired unless theyre all asleep and you’re like wow, what just happened? you breath and they wake up and you have to do it all over again. 

Simon: I should leave you guys be

Jae: no no don’t mind me, I’m gonna put these minions to sleep and and take a nap, i have work later

Simon: work? you work?

Jae: yes, I work when I put them to bed,  work for like 5 hours go to sleep and do it all over again

Simon:*shakes his head*

Jae: I'l get someone to clean this up, while I shower them.

Jay: need help?

Jae: you can shower him

Jay: he don’t like me

Jae: thats my boy

Jay: what?

Jae: nothing, just bond with him. 

Jay: Jae?

Jae: he’s an introvert likes grapes, cars, and books.

Jay: Jaeha?

Jae: okay how about we start small like bathing all of them together

we showered them, and all three went to sleep easily. Simon left, i could not shake that conversation out of my head.

*later*

*Jae’s views*

you all know i don’t drink coffee so I’ve been running on E, my eyelids are heavy has heck, I’m hungry. im just blah

Jae:*puts her hair up*  I need a vacation

Jay: where do you wanna go?

Jae: away from here. 

im gonna run me a bath and just soak.

following weeks as been… I’m not sure what, Jay’s around….a lot. i don’t have problems with him, i just dont want him to start and quit in the middle, but more importantly, my minions birthday is in a few days i couldn’t be anymore excited. with just a few days to go, im feeling all kinds of pressure, and not too mention my mother.

im gonna skip all the parts where I pull my hair fighting with people, to the party day. I’m praying everything go well, but the kids are just over that many people, were not feeling it. some get use to it, others also attach on me like a monkey.

*hours into the party*

Joon: oh oh

Eric: *looks over to Jaeha and Jay* you didn’t say that they were coming

Jae: I didn’t know they were coming, *looks at Yori*

Yori: this time it’s not me

Mark: I invited them,

Jae: Mark? 

Mark: we might as well celebrate wit all our friends.

all our friend? but he brought everyone who makes it clear that they don’t like Jaebum? I know i'ts been hard on the guys knowing how things are with Jay, they cant say or do anything but to remain quiet, but dang.

Ian: I never thought I’d live to see this day

Jae: what are you doing here?

Ian: Jaeha we’re frenemies, and in front of frenemies is the word friend.

Jae: after knowing you for almost 4 decades that’s the first thing you say that I agree with.

Ian: I have my moments

Jae: that is true

Bobby: Jaejae

Jae:*blush* hi

as always whenever there anything we always end up separate in groups, Jay and his friends and I and mines

I’m so glad some of my friends come, as always they come to look for trouble. I’m still a married woman but damn he is ….

Liz: where’s the kids?

Jae: with their grandparents somewhere

Ian: are we going to drink apple juice the whole time?

Jae: did you want me to spike the kids drink with alcohol?

Ian: that wouldn’t be a bad Idea

Bobby: please don’t ever have kids

Ian: who’s going to compete with Jae’s kids? besides my son will be with one of her daughter

Eric: lost your chance

Jae: oh no

with that they have an hour length discussion 

Jae: now I need a drink.

the rest of the day went fine, the kiddies had fun now heading out. i had to leave my friends to see my guests out. i get invited to soo many play dates that involves being out, but im just not going to expose my kids out like that.

besides Jiyong’s wife who feels the same way about the kids in the public eyes, i have decline all of them.

now everyone at the same table, it’s scary because they’re not not really fond of Jay, anything the can do to push his button they’ll do. lets see what kind of mess I’ll get into over some really good wine. and yes i made sure that my kids are set for the night, cause their mom’s about to get drunk.

Libbie: Jaejae, what did you give them for their birthday?

Jae: 9 months in my stomach, 18+ hours in labor, all these countless nights of sleep, and $25,000  each.

Joon: first bank account?

Jae: yeah

Yori: that little?

Byul: little?

Ailee: she had close to a million

Yori: but she’s an only child

Jimin: but she can afford to give them a million each

Jae: how you know how much i have in my account?

Eric: can you or can you not able to give a million each? 

Joon: out of your personal account?

Jae: yea, 

Mark:but since we talking about money, how about a toast to Jaeha who close an important deal, while taking care of three infants by herself.

all:*toast*

Jae: thank you, but I didn’t do it alone. My mother in law was very helpful, my father in law and my dad were not really helpful but they enjoyed drinking together, and tell me when the kids poop or vomit, Jay helped….when he could. and you guy are great.

*Jay’s View*

the more we drink the more they talk. as always we feel like outcasts. by we, it doesn’t include the pregnant women

Boby: So Jay are you guys planning on having more kids?

Jay: uh?

Jae: this factory is close, and will no longer be open for this kind of business. my tubes and everything else in there ties.

Nat: I’m thinking about getting married, what you guys think? like honest opinion

damn are we that bad?  they all stay quiet, i was at least expecting a word from Byul.

Libbie: Jaeha you’ve known to be brutally honest

Jae: *sips* 

Nat: it’s that bad?

Jae: there’s up and down, some people has more down that up. everyone has their own luck.

Ian: im guessing your luck still suck?

Jae: you can say that *lol* but it’s not new it’s been a roller coaster from the start.

Bobby: so if you could go back would you change anything?

Jae: no, not that I know of. actually i guess i would give it a bit more thoughts, and counseling would’ve been good.

Ian: can I ask you a personal question?

Yori: it’s even more shocking that you’re asking for permission

Ian: when was the last time you had sex?

shit it’s been months

Jae: about 6

Ian: hours?

Jae: i think a nurse dropped you on your head, I’ve been running around like a chicken all day. when did I have time for that?

Bobby: six what?

Jae: do I have to answer that?

Libbie: yes

Jae: six months

Ian: the fuck?

jae: we’re both busy people. when he comes home i’m asleep, and when he gets home i’m asleep and when I wake up he already go. speaking of which? I’ll be back, I need to see my kids to sleep

Nat: do you have to?

Yori: yeah, she got a momma’s boy 

Jae: you gone wish you had one *gets up and walk*

I just know they’re gonna go off, to stay clear I just talk to my friends, but didnt last long.

Ian: so Jay?

Jay: what

Ian: are you cheating or something?

Yori: Ian!

Ailee: don’t answer that

Bobby: why not?

Jimin: not you to, whether he was cheating of not it aint your business

Bobby: *looks at Mark*  I don’t get how you do this man. you know, even if the majority of us were after Jaeha, we knew we had zero chance, but we were all rooting for you.

Ian: you were the closest one to make the cut.

Mark: I’m leaving

Joon: dude no way Jae’s gonna let you drive in this state

Mark: *takes his phone and keys* 

Eric: dude, your drunk and pissed off, do you really want Jae to go sit in the hospital all night? she had a long day. just put your stuff down and go walk it off.

Ian: you dont want her suffer do you?

Mark: you say one more thing, I swear i’ll punch you in the face *walks away*

how did that escalate so quickly? 

*soon after* 

Nat: here she comes, first person she gone ask for is Mark

Jae: okay what I miss? wheres Mark?

Nat: told yah

*Jae’s Views*

Jae: dang i cant leave you guys alone for a minute?

Libbie: actually you were gone for 20.

Jae: so what exactly happened? What did you guys say to him? I know Mark better than anyone here, no way he would just walk off unless you pissed him.

Ian: we were just talking and he got mad.

Jae: guys, I’ll provide you all with rides to go home, I’m gonna call it a day. the rest of you if you wanna sleep over, you know your ways around here

goodnight.

honestly right now i know me and Jaebum are not in the right page right now, but regardless I’m married to him. I was not forced to, and  it wasnt an arranged wedding, whatever the fight is it’s our business. I don’t need their opinions on it, or how to deal with him. 

*Knocks on door*

Jae: can I come in?

Mark: it’s your house

Jae: is everything okay?

Mark:  everything’s alright

Jae: you don’t seems alright to me

Mark: Jaeha I said I’m alright, okay if you don’t mind i would like to be left alone. please?

Jae: okay, sorry

*hour later*

after finally getting to my room, Jay was sitting out in the balcony drinking as if he just buried someone. and at this point I get enough of all of this. I dont want to sleep in the same room, I don’t even wanna be in that house right now. 

Jae:*takes her keys and leaves the house*

*Next Day,* 

Jay: any of you guys seen Jaeha?

Byul: the last i spoke to her she said that she went for a drive

Joon: when was that?

Byul: yesterday, well this morning since it was at like 3AM. 

Gray: you guys fought?

Jay: no, I was drinking, i don’t even remember seeing her

Yori: I’m sure the last person she spoke to was Mark, so what did you do?

Mark: nothing, I was not in the mood to talk, so I told her to leave me alone. 

Byul: while you guys argue i’ll go check on the kids.

*meanwhile Jae*

I spent the night in my car thinking about what sin I commit in my pass life to live such a miserable life. Right now i want to go back to tend to my kids. I do have people who help me with the kids, they do have a nanny i just want to be part of my kids life as much as i can, but right now I just want to go home and rest.

getting home everyone just sits on the couch as if they’re waiting for a missing.

Jae: what?

Mark: where were you? you had us all worried

Jae: I’m grown I don’t have to answer to anyone, B did you check on the kids?

Byul: yeah, they’re fine. in the playroom. 

Jae: okay  thank you *walks off to her room*

I take my hour long bath in my old bathroom, put on a tank top and short. I don’t feel like eating but since I missed breakfast I’ll have lunch.

….

Lunch was quiet, everyone just silently eat their food, after I finish I said bye to everyone and head back to my room. I know th kids are fine if i let them see it would be it, I wont be able to go rest.

walking in the room Jaebum is already on the bed, I went in the bathroom to thoroughly dry my hair. close all the blinds and windows in the room and get on my bed. sitting on the bed i can hear Jay sniffing, in all the 10 or more years that I’ve know him, that the first time I think I’ve heard him cry.

Jae:*fixes herself on the bed, her head on his chest and legs over his, arm wrap around him*

Jay:*hugs her*  Jaeha I-

Jae: don’t..

Jay: *kisses her forehead*

Regardless of what happens to me and Jay in the future, whether I want a divorce or not, no matter what happens I will always have a soft spot in my heart for him, I know that we’re fighting right now, but I still wanna see what the future have for us, whether it’s good or bad, I will always love Park Jae Bum …. ♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡