#people who've never experimented outside of societal noms really just don't question anything

[chippedshake]

i'm so so sick of having to defend my sexuality. of whether love exists without sex being a genuine question people ask, of my class treating asexual people like they're from another planet. like, i try. someone says that biologically speaking, asexuality is unnatural because reproduction and shit and i try to play along. i try to act like that isn't what literally everyone says, because maybe if i let them be bigoted for a while, they'll be normal once it's out of their system. but i'm just so tired of it.

i wear a pride bracelet everywhere, i wear aro and ace rings. i live in a relatively safe environment where i can be proud of my identity. but when asexuality comes up i still hide the bracelet and pretend like i'm not ace because people are such assholes.

just because someone doesn't enjoy the same things as you doesn't mean that they can't exist happily. it doesn't mean you have to act disgusted by their existence. "can they hold hands????" "but if there isn't that spark there, then it's just like friendship" have all your romantic experiences been so emotionally pathetic that the only thing to make it stick out from a vague acquaintance is sex? is your life oriented purely towards an animalistic, carnal action?

the way even the teacher - someone i had admired until now - played along, treated people being disgusted by asexuality the same way she had treated them not understanding a complicated word. telling me that ace people shouldn't factor into my comprehension of love because they're just a minority. fuck you. fuck all of you.

fuck you for making me scared to come out. fuck you for making me feel broken. fuck you for making me feel unlovable.