#people are hard and I'm glad they resonate w you!!!!

[novakiart]

You draw Spideypool the exact way I'd imagine their government assigned artsyle to be. /vpos

Seriously though your art style is incredibly pleasing to look at I love how you draw people!!

this is the sweetest thing anybody has ever said thank you so so much I am now imagining movie deadpool getting ID'd but his pic is just this

[moonchild033]

5H Placements and It's Related Notes 🫶🩷🫣

(These observations are based on the whole sign system, sidereal charts and all obs are subject to change with other aspects in the chart, so don't conclude anything with a single placement, take whatever that resonates and leave the rest,hope you enjoy giving it a read, take it lightly!) ❤

This post includes the topics:

Planets in 5H, 5H placements who should be careful with gambling and addictions, 5H Planets and Children (Part 1) and BONUS POINTS

(I'm glad to make a post after a long time but I swear I felt extremely tired and half slept through it lol, so if u notice any English mistakes, look past it lmfao 🤣🤣🫠)

Let's start with planets in 5H:

5H SUN - Late pregnancy can be seen, either by their own decision or medical condition. Even if the sun is exalted, 5H suns are prone to argue and have difference of opinions with their father and the same could happen to them with their children, kids might be rebellious. Can be advantageous in terms of landing govt jobs. If u r in medical field, this placement can bring fame. They won't hesitate to do anything that makes them happy, they're adamant and stringent in pursuing the things they like, even in love, they might like the chase but also feel like their ego is hurt if the love is not reciprocal.🧡🧡🧡

5H MOON - They can be constantly thinking abt real estate, buying lands, generally constant thinking abt future.They have this urge to succeed in arts, fine arts and literary industry. Can be interested in agriculture, in this generation, they can be the ppl who like to have indoor plants or do terrace gardening as hobby.🩵🩵🩵

5H MARS - The multi-talented, independent, cool person in ur neighborhood. They have the enthusiasm to learn new things everyday, they hate to say 'idk', instead they put much efforts to learn various things.They don't get demotivated after failures or give up, the tendency to fight it all until the end can be seen. The downside is that in a love relationship, they might take hasty decisions on both entering and leaving a relationship.♥️♥️♥️

5H MERCURY - Jack of all trades, the difference between mars and mercury here is that mars puts hardwork to learn many things but mercury playfully masters educational knowledge and extracurricular. That one internet kid explaining physics equations and painting like a pro at 7yrs old🥲 They actually enjoy doing it, likes to feel intelligent for the love of the knowledge and not for fame or ego boosting. As kids, they could've been the ones showing magic tricks to other kids at school 😭😆 They're great at performing magic tricks as mercury is a playfully cunning planet.💚💚💚

5H SATURN - They might feel competitive with relatives, that feeling to become the best in their family will always be there. They would want to provide a luxurious life for their kids but feel bad or blame themselves if they couldn't do that. They are introverted and have hard time involving in leisurely enjoyments, so they can be seen as a boring or a very serious personality among their friends. They focus only on their own family and constrict their other circles, whether it be interacting with neighbors, friends, colleagues etc, they could be the type to go to office and come back straight home everyday religiously. A point to remember is to not expect too much from children and be satisfied with your old age life with them w/o having any expectation, whether it be materialistic or emotional needs, depending on yourself is the key.💙💙💙

5H VENUS - Lovely person, period. They are the people who always seem to be happy and try to make others happy too. Women with this placement have the girl's girl type of friendships where the girls are truly by their side. Can be known for their perfume like a signature or use a generous amount of fragrances like their life depends on it. The downside is to be careful in love relationships, this can give multiple relationships if Jupiter or 7H lord is not aspecting it. They could change hairstyles, dressing sense frequently, even updating the next model of their mobile phone even when it's perfectly working. Even if they're not rich or couldn't afford the rich stuff they like, they would still buy things that atleast appears rich, the end note is that they like to display their refined taste. Their hidden secret could be that in one point of time, they could've had an obsessive crush on a person with huge age gap or in a taboo type of relationship.🩷🩷🩷

5H RAHU - That one person who never listens, they question each and everything earning angry response from their parents or authoritative ppl but they really don't understand why other ppl are getting upset bcoz they will be lyk, 'What happened? I just wanted to know why🫠' but others might feel lyk they just like to oppose every little thing deliberately w/o much reason. If you have this placement and feel like you've to keep your relationship a secret, then it's definitely a bad relationship for you, it might be a forbidden fruit. We all would've done few things that we hide from our parents but this placement can enlarge that list, their parents just don't know abt a lot of hidden things they might do, this doesn't mean they're doing some criminal activity, this just means that their household can be traditional or strict and they could do some outrageous things that won't sit well with their parents.They might question religious practices, traditions and God, if this rahu gets lots of aspects from others, this could also develop into a God complex personality.🤎🤎🤎

5H KETU - The recurring but less spoken part abt this placement is the fate of easily getting caught for their mistakes, they would feel lyk their friends are doing much more errors but they're escaping, but this person gets caught red handed. Hence refrain from saying lies, gossiping or deliberately committing any mistake bcoz ur name will come up in speakers while those with u would get away with it🔊 😭🥲 Don't think my friends are here, we're doing it together, if something goes wrong, you would become the one carrying the blame, so be cautious and do a favor to exclude yourself from circles who drive you in wrong ways, doesn't matter even if it's just a minor thing. Even though you are generally a reserved person, problematic men would come to you in the disguise of matching your taste, they could look like they're matching your taste but like a serpent, after their skin sheds, they would become a different person who can damage ur very idea of luv (this is not to scare u, this is a friendly reminder to be cautious of chameleon like ppl when entering relationships). There's another point to remember, u would find it difficult to differentiate between good and bad ppl, so even if a good person approaches, you would lose them or upset them tremendously due to ur suspicious nature, you could question them a lot, asking for constant reassurance to the point of frustration. The good side of this placement is being talented in occult sciences and deep thinking ability, the tendency to pick up a thing and learn abt it from the roots. They would be blessed by ancestral God, praying in their ancestral temple often will be beneficial.🩶🩶🩶

5H JUPITER - 9th aspect of Jupiter falls on ascendant, hence they would be religious, have optimistic outlook on life, even though they're lucky, they themselves wouldn't trust in it, they r the type of ppl who think their own hardwork will get them to great heights. Even if this 5H Jupiter is debilitated, since he aspects and strengthens the ascendant, all ill effects can be overcome by this person, they have an unwavering strong personality to do so. They've taken this birth to enjoy the fruits of their past lifetime, so simply refraining from damaging distractions would keep them lucky in all endeavours.💛💛💛

(I know that I wrote very less for some planets above and more for others but it's just how my brain worked in the moment, I'll reblog and let u know if I add more or write extra about the less written placements in another post 🥺🩷)

5H placements who shouldn't be involved in gambling/sharemarket or any games that revolves around the concept of luck/guesses and be careful with any type of addictions or relationship with wrong ppl:

Saturn, mars, rahu, ketu, waning moon in 5H

5H sun (only) if in conj. with the above mentioned planets.

5H lord is Saturn or Mars and it is exalted.

5H lord conjunct with a debilitated planet or itself being debilitated.

5H- Pregnancy and Children🥹🩷:

5H SUN - Your children might want to get out of your embrace pretty soon, they want to fly high, go out and explore this world when you're not ready to let them go from ur grip. They could argue with you about how they want to be more expressive and enjoy everything life has to offer, u want the same for them but the sun being your natural soul significator, it feels like you're letting go a part of ur soul. Your child could be a natural leader, a sunshine in disguise. You can conceive late, you could enjoy lots of lovemaking sessions but the number of children can be less, mostly one or two, if two, the elder child will assert their dominance to the younger one, doesn't mean they would rule over them but they'll definitely show that they're the elder one and demand respect, but on the other hand, they're protective of their younger sibling too.❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥

5H MOON - If u r a woman having this placement, learn to say NO and discuss about pregnancies, whether you want another baby or not. Eventhough this is a nice placement, later it can sometimes manifest into being treated as a baby making machine with or without being realized, so be ready to question yourself whether YOU want it. These mommies can be very affectionate and want more babies but learn to consciously differentiate between whether you love the act or you really want to raise babies as 5H being house of romance and lovemaking too, don't mix both in an emotional entanglement. Waxing moon will give smooth and normal delivery, waning moon can give some difficulties but probability of normal delivery can be high. You can have a loving relationship with your children, they can be homebodies too, the children can prefer the cozy home environment where you create a loving atmosphere. You can have more number of children, possibly many females or the first one being a girl baby.🥹🫶💙

5H VENUS - Your children could be a pain in the ass if you aren't well settled but this placement it is highly unlikely that you don't accumulate wealth over time. With this, you yourself will be bling-bling, you would double that for your child. This can manifest into you matching outfits, handbags, coolers and hairbands with your kid. During pregnancy itself, you could buy a lot of things beforehand for the arrival of the kid (which is common) but the things you buy might be overboard. These ppl are also prone to feeling inferior about how your body changes after childbirth, can do mommy makeover. You could expect lots of gift giving love language from your partner during pregnancy, on the downside, refrain using pregnancy or the child as a point to demand any luxuries from spouse. As venus aspects 11H, you could especially buy a car after first child. Possibility of female children is more.😍🥰🥰

5H MERCURY - Your children could be the type to recite about how their day was as soon as they come to you from school, as this would be the type of atmosphere you would've created. You would've established a safe and open communication space for your children where they feel comfortable with sharing. One thing you should remember is, when ur child says something to u alone and lets u know that they don't want u to tell it to the other parent, either you don't tell or share it with ur partner w/o ur child's knowledge according to whatever ur parenting technique is, but the point is to NOT betray ur child's trust when they TELL something bcoz u would be a person who has an amazing communication with ur partner too, u might be lyk besties gossiping together, this could make the child feel like you're not on their team or u and ur partner exclude them (which can be hilarious but it's a CHILD). U can have an equal number of male and female children but the gender of the first baby can be guessed here based on the aspects 5H receives.😃🤗✨

5H MARS - Your children will try to take care of u in their own way but don't do the parenting mistake of ordering them around, definitely not gonna work out here, it's either their way or highway. Number of children might be less, one or two male progeny can be present. More possibilities of delivery being medically assisted, even if it's not c-section, some medical assistance could be given to help. Your child can mirror you a lot, if you get frustrated and throw your phone, they might do the same bcoz they actively pick up patterns and copy them enthusiastically (all kids do that to an extent but with this placement, ur kid can be alert in taking in the environment shaping their behaviour). As a child, ur kid can be competitive but can be very anxious too, the nervous energy will be high if mercury is making aspect or conjunct, teach them calming exercises and encourage. You could be the mom who's fit even after a delivery, santoor mummy. On the downside, remember to not fight with your partner excessively infront of kid as 5H mars is a love-hate relationship, just every aspect of romance including the act and arguments everything is explosive, it can result in your kid disrespecting your partner.🫶😸💖

(I'll write the remaining planets in this list in the new post or add it here and reblog, I just got too tired, periods suck I swear 🫠😭🤗🩵)

EDIT: Find the remaining planets here! 🥳❤️‍🔥

BONUS POINTS FOR TODAY:

5H Placements who have the ability to guess what's gonna happen in the near future and protect themselves & their loved ones from unfavorable events are---

5H stellium, many planets in 5H lord's nakshatra, 5H lord exalted, 5H ketu 🥳🥰 (Fire ascendants to an extent if their 5H lord is not debilitated)❤️‍🔥

Even though Jupiter is male planet, if it's in 5H, the person has higher chances of having more number of female children but incase of aspects, if Jupiter aspects your 5H, higher chances of male children is present. This is an exception when it comes to 5H being putra sthan and possible gender of babies guessed based on the gender of the planet present there.🥳✨♥️

NOTE: I'll make another post for ppl who have empty 5H, on how to interpret 5H themes based on their 5H lord placement and aspects, this post is focused on having planets in 5H 🩷🫣

That's all for now sweeties, hope u liked it! 🩷🩵

Let's Learn and Grow Together 🥰

With Love-Yashi ❤️‍🔥🫣

Masterlist 💖

[azulcrescent]

Heya! Been a fan since you initially started the cute anime girl comic back on TWITTER. When it was STILL TWITTER. And I just wanted to say that every time I see your art come up, on any social, it just brings me a lil ^w^

Thank you for continuing to create and share with us over the last 5 years and beyond, please never stop. Your art, your doodles, your scribbles, your stories-everything you've created has resonated with and will continue to resonate with so many people and I'm so glad that your art exists.

Thank you for the kind message! I'm glad my art could bring you joy! Sometimes its hard to create, but I try as much as i can and messages like yours are very encouraging, thank you!

[whimsicalcotton]

i have so much brainrot and i'm so chill with it, thank you for real 🫡✨

ch 7. incredible. amazing. "brazenly, foolishly, helplessly persistent" altered my brain chemistry. plus the end, the vibe you captured in max not knowing/trusting rachel is real and just in her head. haunting. truly, so so insanely, freakishly good.

so so love/happy to be mutuals with someone else who loves and leans into the whump of it all as much as i do!! looking forward/hoping for a goopy, all-ecompassing, max-getting-the-comfort-she-needs/deserves-from-them-both payoff (not projecting at all fs). i can't say how many times i've reread pm, and how so many of them were specifically for the emotional h/c and phenomenal physical connection you write when max first wakes up and hugs chloe, and for when chloe comes and scoops them from the junkyard. i don't think vibrant or resonant are necessarily the right words, but they're all i can think of right now. not like it feels like i'm there, but it's all so real and wonderful that it feels like i could be, which is a, clearly, indescribably amazing feeling for me as a reader.

idk how much you're engaging with Double Exposure atm, but the two songs they're released are so marrow max coded. like, the refrain of September esp goes so hard and all of So, This is Lonely. my stomach hurts in the best kind of way.

shhdjdjsbdhdgd thank you 🥺🥺🥺 glad to hear you like that line especially it was one of favorites. and i do so love to cause unhinged amberfield pain <3 teehee

also hell yeah whump appreciators 🤝🎉 earnestly this AU is 100% just me indulging my unending love of whump so i'm glad other ppl are enjoying it too lol. and djsjdidjdjjshdhd you have no idea how much that means to me,, writing fic for me has always been a "i want to Be Here a little longer" kind of thing so it makes me rly happy that i can also like. drag other people into my vision w me. if any part of that makes any sense whatsoever djdjdhd

and i haven't been like. all over DE but i'm getting plenty of news/updates from my lis mututals (thanks y'all love u <3) i Did however have the opposite experience recently where i thought one of my marrow songs (Introducing Jonah To The Whale by Everybody's Worried About Owen) might wind up being a fitting song for DE!Max

[youremyheaven]

girl your moon post was so accurate for me too! my father has rohini rising and is such a narcissist and a master at gaslighting. he resorted to manipulating ppl's perspective of me ig so they wouldn't believe me when i started calling him out after a liiiifetime of his crap. he is extremely two faced and a lot of ppl find him really sketchy, but those he manages to fool he fools really well. the only positives of this is that at least i can see these patterns in people easily. frankly, confronting a liar is so taxing bc even if you do manage to outsmart them they'll just make some excuse. like girl. i also know this hasta moon girl that is a pathological liar and every time i see her i just can't take anything she says seriously bc i just always feel like she's lying out of her ass ab the most menial stuff. her family has had issues w her bc she skipped school for months and no one knew ab it bc she would tell such bold lies like, "call my teacher. here, have the phone so you can talk to her ab my grades" and everyone was like, ig she's doing well in school otherwise she wouldn't offer to call? i genuinely worry thinking ab what if i have a kid and they have a moon nakshatra and express it negatively like this omg i'll go crazy. anyways thank you for your post it was so interesting to see such thoroughly explained examples 🤍 it reminded me of ariana grande as well who just seems so shamelessly manipulative to me too. like when she's like "for total transparency i'll say that..." i'm immediately like ok. so you're lying 😂

im glad 😭😭😭that my Moon post resonated with so many of you, it means so much to me

Im so sorry about your father. I agree with what you said about confronting liars, I confronted someone about something deeply hurtful that they said to me and they literally said "i don't remember" 😭😭 idk how these people sleep at night bro like do they not have a conscience??

I'm happy every time some shady person is exposed in the media, including Ariana who I've found sus for yearsss ,, it's so hard to be an intuitive bc u can't even explain why u feel the way u do so no one believes you when u say that somebody is not what they seem on the outside, u get torn apart for speaking the truth but sooner or later the truth will be seen and will be heard and I truly believe that.

I hope you remain protected from abuse of all kinds in the future and always surrounded by kindness and support. 💛💛

GIRLIEEE what u said about kids is sooo 😭😭I do think about that from time to time but i believe that kids are a manifestation of our karma so the more we focus on bettering ourselves and thereby bettering our actions, we can design our lives to be drama free. What kind of children we have depends on what kind of parents we're capable of being (and you are completely in control of how you behave/treat others) so don't feel too powerless about ur future kids!!! Focus on yourself and your healing and the rest will flow💛💛💛 also if you believe in manifestation 👀just believe that you'll manifest healthy and wonderful children

This blog is a hobby of mine but what makes all my research and writing meaningful is the fact that not only do I get to learn more about astrology, I get to reach people who perhaps might benefit from the things I share. I love to hear about your guys experiences related to the things I post bc sometimes I genuinely wonder like is anyone even reading my 5k words slander on a nakshatra lmfao

Thank you so much for taking the time to tell me about your experiences, I appreciate it so much 💛and i believe many others will also feel seen

[celestie0]

https://vt.tiktok.com/ZS2RSBkv1/

Ellie I’m gonna cry I was never into any of this stuff until kickoff like the trajectory of my brain chemicals has just been manipulated by ur writing I’m so hyper fixated and ofc the reason I was reading fanfictions in the first place was bc I was victim to the gojo girl labotomising pandemic that came with jjk season 2 like after growing up and being out of anime and all for a good year and a half and then that happened so suddenly when I was literally reluctant and cynical in watching the season on a whim and next thing I knew I was deranged in my gojo/geto/satosugu obsession but girl if I had one wish and I’m being so fr rn like if it had a time limit and I couldn’t have a family discussion to deeply contemplate what would be the most worthwhile wish that they dictate to me, if an angel came down to me and I had like 10 minutes and I had something in my system so I don’t freak tf out and I’m feeling chill and don’t think about being selfish then you’d think I’d wish for gojo to come to life and fuck me into the earth but the logistics of that are fucked so I’m pretty decided that I’d either wish for kickoff gojo to be my bf irl or to be y/n in kickoff and be written by you <3

moral of the story now I love ur fic and version of the characters more than the actual series

I’ve used my sign off too often I hope this isn’t annoying or creepy im just going into college/uni next year and I have a lot of dreams and aspirations so ig kickoff rlly resonated with me in that way

this isn’t the fat ask that’s pending hehe I just wrote this sitting on the doorstep of my house with my shoes still on cause I just got home

imma need a good relaxed night to get that down but I’m sorry I didn’t offer my support earlier I’m glad sm people did bc even though my possessive nature makes me think I’m ur biggest fan the truth is a lot of people are as taken by you and ur work as I am, I just should of typed up something on the matter as soon as I saw ur post but I rlly wanted to put thought into it and any kind of writing is a real chore for me so I’m waiting until I have that down time

ik it’s not much to anticipate but it’s important to me lol I wanna be here for u along with the many other anons

also that TikTok was random but this Olympic lovey doveyness is making me sick while im in such a state

this was never suppose to be this long I belong in yap jail

-spinster anon or wtv

AW SPINSTER ANON!! THAT'S SO SWEET PLEASE!! OF ALL THE WISHES YOU COULD HAVE!!! (yes def look out for your family first though xd...although i can't lie and say i wouldn't at least THINK about wishing for gojo to come to life and put me in a mating press)

TO SAY YOU LOVE THEM MORE THAN THE ACTUAL SERIES CHARACTERS i'll sob stop. and aww i'm so glad kickoff is resonating w you as you start your journey to college!! that's really why i started writing it. there was so many things i wish i had done differently and also so many things i think i took for granted in college, but also so much to celebrate and find joy in! it's hard especially when you don't quite know who you are or what you want and yea i think that's kind of a theme in kickoff, and will be through to the end, but anywho i'm like being very preachy rn haha i wish you best of luck in starting college <3

and aw that's sweet bb thank you, i appreciate you. honeslty the thought enough and to know you love my works is so much support enough!! :'') i appreciate you. and yes that olympic couple was sooo cute i love the way he just picked her up how cute.

[swallowtail-ageha]

Happy birthday! <3 Months ago, I was intrigued by your Pre-Raphaelite pfp when I saw a reblog from your blog, and that's when I decided to visit this page.... And so glad I did! It's insanely cool to read not only your takes, but your personal thoughts as well! Your approach to pairings and characters interpretation is something the fandom is sorely lacking, whether it's Bloodborne or other Soulsborne. Glad to be mutuals with you >:3

Thanks!!!

Oml the preraphaelite pfp thing ahxhchajdj i wouldn't call myself an expert or even a nerd on it but i love the movement very much so i was like "oooh MUST be my tunglr.hell pfp" i am glad it actually piqued your interest!!!

For the takes thing tysm too!! I admit that like. I have only started posting constantly my thoughts about a year and half so ago (i was mainly a lurker before) and i genuinely. Genuinely didn't expect they'd resonate with people! Mainly because i (in fandom) tend to lean really hard into the mindfuckery of things + tend to mix it w fanfictiony stuff and the themes that keep fascinating me or (with irl stuff/discourse) i tend to word stuff really badly and am extremely verbose sometimes i'm surprised people even *get* what i am talking about sicjsjwc

Glad to be mutuals w you too! I also love ur approach w storytelling and headcanons sm and your eagerness to talk with others about them!

[yinyuedijun]

Hello mao! Just read your new fic (translation). Firstly, i think you write in a rather intelligent way, which is rare on this app, and i really like it. It adds depth and makes me feel more invested in the story.

Secondly, talking about native languages; in my case, despite growing up here my whole life, i still can't speak my native language (konkani) out of fear I'll get the grammar wrong. The same goes for the other language i grew up learning (hindi). I can only understand both the languages for most part, after learning it in school and listening to other people speak, and some basic communication. My parents, although being natives from here, grew up in different parts of the country and later settled here. Hence i ended up learning English as a default. When I went to live in a different state for college, my friends there would ask me to speak a few words to them in konkani but i was too embarrassed to say anything, in a way that I'd find it strange hearing those sounds from my mouth (and pronouncing something wrong).

Idk if this is similar to experiencing cultural loss. I feel stupid that i grew up here and yet feel rather detached to my culture for most part. Even more so after being more exposed to online fandoms, because whenever my country comes up, my culture is something many would've not even heard of. It's kind of like a minority of sorts.

Okay sorry this is such a rant i hope this isn't a problem (just felt i could share this here)😭

Thanks for reading all this if you did.

hi nash!!! thank you so much for reading translation, I'm glad you found it well-written and engaging 🫶 I actually feel there's a ton of skilled writers with intelligent writing styles on this app actually 😅 but it's an honour that you feel I am among them!

I do totally feel that what you are describing is for sure a kind of language loss! I had a couple of other people share similar anecdotes; they didn't leave their country per se but they moved within the country or they were educated in english and now they have a very hard time with their mother tongue. the dialect that I speak is actually in decline in its literal originating city due to government policy. language loss can in happen so many different types of contexts but I think so many people who have experienced it can relate to, like, the anxiety over getting it wrong, or the embarrassment of not being at the level of a native speaker level even though you are technically native speaker. and I feel one's relationship w language can get so strange if no one else has heard of your language in these online spaces, because then it's almost like a part of you isn't seen!!

anyhow what I'm trying to get at is, I'm very grateful that you read my fic and I'm so happy that you felt it resonated ! thank you so much for sharing your experiences w me 💞💞

[rounderhouse]

your hedaras heresy resonated a lot w/ me because i also had a past with an abusive relationship. i am in a better place now but a lot of the things hedwig was thinking appeared in my mind too while i was recovering. i appreciate you showed how hard can recovery be especially if you are still fearing retaliation from your abuser even if they are no longer in your life. and i appreciate that you showed that sometimes you need help on your journey of recovery. thank you for writing that story i hope it will resonate with other people like how it resonated with me. who knows maybe even help somebody still struggling

i'm really glad to hear it resonated so much with you, thank you 💙 a lot of it came from wanting to give Hedvig the agency that I feel like she never really got in previous works, and wanting to explore what it feels like to claw back your personhood bit by bit -- a continuous, painful process, but one that's, in the end, absolutely worth it. again, thank you -- and i hope you're doing better now

[etheries1015]

hi, i just came across your mc w arachnophobia imagine and i wanted to thank you, i barely ever see anyone get it, and though i wasn’t fond of all the brothers’ reactions, Satan’s stood out to me and it just felt comforting, perhaps its because i was recently panicking but i appreciate it so thank you, hope you’re having a good day!

I'm glad it resonated with you to some degree. Like I said I wrote that like almost 2 yrs ago so I'm sure I could have edited it to be more accurate with current lore that came out in obey me, but I got a little lazy, haha. Yeah its really hard for people to understand it, I'm surrounded by people who like to tease me for it but its much worse than they think. Glad you liked it! Hope your day is going good as well.

[marvellovelacevt]

Thank you for sharing your introspection on this post (for those who missed it): https://at.tumblr.com/marvellovelacevt/707838783056461824/8o6fu1lv0bbf

I found this very intriguing! So, do you feel like there's a lack of more precise labels to cover your experiences and identity? Or is it a lack of representation of your experiences and identity? If that made sense. As in, is it hard for you to find people who speak of experiences and identities that *match* yours?

"Is using catch-all labels like 'non-binary' or 'queer' hampering my ability to understand who I am as a person?"

—I thought this was really interesting. In cultural anthropology (I only took a beginner course, so I'm not speaking as an expert), there's discourse of whether language determines a group's culture or if culture determines a group's language. What you just said makes me think of that very thing, as it sounds like language is shaping the "culture" (though in this case, I'd say your "understanding") of your identity, whereas your identity should be shaping the language.

i'm glad it interested you!

so, my relationship with my gender, sexuality, and self-image is really really complicated. it's less that i want a precise label for my identities and more that i don't want to have to use a label at all while still having control of how my identity is perceived. my identity is really hard for me to put into words sometimes even when they should feel concrete!

the term nonbinary can spark a lot of speculation about an identity when you lack a precise label. nonbinary is an umbrella, after all. there's a belief held by a lot of people that nonbinary is "diet woman", when that's demonstrably untrue as a whole and especially for me. if i'm thinking as my identity as a set of sliders, the slider for my internal identity skews very slightly masculine of center. but then, my outward appearance doesn't reflect that, and i don't want it to. presentation-wise, i skew more feminine. naturally, people are going to see me as "diet woman", and for that, i can't fault them. but they're objectively incorrect about their assumptions!

my gender is quite possibly the most difficult thing about myself to truly define because when i look at more precise labels, none of them reflect how i feel, because when i think of gender, i break it down into several parts; the internal, the presentation, and the performance. the performance aspect of my gender is the most unknown to me because i don't really register how i act at all. i am a blind spot for my perception. it doesn't help that because of One Very Specific Mental Illness I Have But Will Not Disclose, i tend towards being a social chameleon.

my sexuality is easier for me to place, but it's still very messy to define. in short, i guess that, on paper, i am biromantic and demisexual. i resonate with those experiences the most. but also... i don't? not entirely.

it's less an attraction to specific genders that i feel and more an attraction to queerness in every aspect. i consider myself t4t as long as i've gotten to know someone. especially in regards to other nonbinary or gender non-conforming people. when i think of the possibility of dating someone who is cisgender or when a cisgender person takes an interest in me, i feel like something hits a panic button inside of me and i feel like i have to leave the situation immediately. this happens most often with cisgender and heterosexual men, but it happens regardless of whether it's a cis man or woman and regardless of sexual or romantic orientation. it mostly ends up being a circumstance of cishet men being very common to encounter and them seeing queer, vaguely feminine people as something interesting and fun.

and so that's why i say i'm queer and not biromantic demisexual. but then, that also feels like a cop-out?

i have a lot of thoughts and feelings about my identity and i wish i had a better word for it for convenience. a label is convenient. but i also wish i didn't have to want a label for that convenience and that i could exist using broader labels without feeling like my identity is speculated about or doubted, you know? like personally i think "unlabeled" as a term/label fucks hard but then it also has a reputation of celebrities using it to foster speculation and parasocial relationships with their fanbases and then feeling it gives them a free pass to comment on queer issues or queer media in a way that makes them look really close-minded (not naming names. if you know you know.)

so, i guess my introspection is more about exploring why i feel like i have to need labels in the first place.

[guidingthulite]

Lemme preface my uh… preface? With the fact that I had to put my response to your response in a Google Doc because I wrote Too Damn Much for the ask box LMAO. And I wish I could provide such delightfully long comments and commentary for what’s to come, but I don’t know how often I’ll have the time or energy to do so, so I hope that this is enough for the future moments when I’m unable to :,D I was struggling w/ adding the link, so I hope you can copy and paste all of this, but remove the gap between the https and the rest :D https:// docs.google.com/document/d/1wx9Cp3cMcMTcxa3XuWqkjTv-_olb5fTmCl6E9kMJCB4/edit?usp=sharing And oh! Thank you for your discretion :D!! I appreciate it. I probably should have specified that I would have been chill w/ it, but that’s on me XD. You’re welcome to publish this too, btw!!! I don’t mind. Your followers would probably have zero context, so it’s coolio B)

awww, it's okay! i am just so darn glad you did decide to react to my stuff <3 made me so happy! hehe

LINKS ON TUMBLR ASKBOXES ARE HELL UGH I UNDERSTAND YOU

and do not worry bud! my followers seeing this like. alma what are you talking about. what's this from jregbre

"I've been rereading your response HASHDKJASHD. It makes me ecstatic and kick my feet from happiness!!"

I LOVE HOW TWO-WAY THIS IS LIKE. i am happy you like my stuff, and you're happy that i'm happy you like my stuff-

"I don't know how I'd survive my family seeing a future partner and going, "Yeah, I can see how similar he is to [Insert A Character That I Like Here]," BAHAHAHA"

that is a fear i also share... my brother specially since he's the first one to ever know about characters i like. he's usually annoyed bc i ramble a lot but when i get a partner it's gonna be like

(pictured: us when he finds out i went out to date a person similar to the characters i ship w/ the charas i relate to)

"The way you write Saki makes it easy for me to resonate with her :D!! We're like kindred spirits in this fic XD"

we could say she's... resonating with you? eh? eh? okay, i'll see myself out... i think not many people exploit saki's potential bastardness... the ones that comes with being a little sibling. i have not met a single little sibling who isn't at least A BIT of a bastard

"He WOULD be so unchivalrous if he were to let his pre-pre-engagement partner be undignified in front of his future in-law!!"

meanwhile he's almost eating his cereal face into the bowl but saki thinks it's funny so it's all wins!

"Yes!!! I couldn't help but giggle extensively from this fic because it's too damn cute!! You really do put the FLUFF into fluff."

D'AWWW... THANK YOU!!! i try to make things that bring out good feelings. you know, like laughter and... fluff responses? i think? i genuinely can't write hurt/no comfort. there's gotta be comfort. i make tsukasa trip and akito spawns in his room to give him a kiss on the forehead

"Ayo..? This isn't a part of my response, but I'm listening to my audio as I read your live blog to respond, and Nene's in... the library..? Where Touya works 👀??"

toyan*ne might not be popular but it's popular in my heart. i have to put on the work when no one else will HFHFRHJGHR

"And Touya was busy on the day of their double date 👀👀👀???"

i did not think of what toya was doing that night but now he was on a videocall with nene playing competitive puyo puyo (they kept ending in a tie. rui was awake at like 5 am because he's rui and saw her room still had the lights on. he's gonna tease nene SO HARD about it next time they see each other)

"I'm honored to know that you think I make an amazing An and Kohane!! I'm so grateful that some of the coolest and cutest characters sound like me so that I can do them justice ;-;"

your kohane impression was so sweet! and your energy matches an super well! i can't help but keep telling you ✨✨✨

"Being let in on the club about That One Line That Made Me Smack My Mic is so cool!! And dude, whoever made That Line deserves a bit of a medal because it's so perfectly dramatic. I love that shit!"

hehe. i don't like talking about the source (... more like the creator's other works) because they're very, really, honestly super special to me but they're also... um... really something. and one of the games needs a warning for like, every trigger ever, and i'm like. ok. this is not everybody's tea and it has some moments that make even me cringe as well. but if you do not like it i will cry-

"I've always wanted to say a line like, “WHY DON’T WE STOP TALKING FOR A WHILE.” for so long, Blueberry!! Thank you so much for writing it!! This line always makes me laugh so much... especially since it reminds me of Reigen from Mob Psycho 100 HAHAHA"

BECAUSE REIGEN IS ICONIC HONESTLY no wonder he keeps winning tournaments!!! i have not finished mp100, but i really like him bc my sister told me he's like mob and i'm his reigen and i'm like oughhhhhhh oughhhh you're so sweeeeeet

"*Nods* You're so right. You're so right! Akito has been dying a slow death this entire double date (I love that for him) and Tsukasa Is Just Like That."

i think someone described my fic as "making akito suffer in the sweetest way possible" and yeah. yeah i think that tracks

"BAHDHAHAHA I'm happy that you enjoyed my little Akikasa tangent there!! And thank you so much for the refresher, omg. I can't believe I forgot that moment.... it make me go WILD when I read it BAHAHHAHAHAHA. Akito was so romantic there... like, even I was flustered!! Damn, dude!!! You went hard there!!!!!"

because it was so nice!!! and sweet!!! it made me go like AUGHGHGHGH akik ASAAAAAAAAAAAAA

and don't worry, i keep forgetting about those kind of things too... but i like that in a sense, y'know? you get to experience it all over again!

but i'm glad you liked it!!! i aim to be sappy in the most best (? way possible!

"Akito's so gay that Mizuki can feel it through a screen, MILES away? Damn... yeah....... he really DID do all that. Bravo Akito 👏"

akito recieves a DM from mizuki in the middle of the night that says "hey can you stop being gay for a sec? i can't sleep" and akito doesn't even deny he just goes "FUCK YOU AKIYAMA" and turns his phone off

"When I started clapping, I had finally figured out that I could get my Cute Aggression (← which is a real thing) out in a way that didn’t involve decreasing the durability of my desk B)!!!"

OHHHH, SO THAT'S WHAT THAT WAS! yup, i know about cuteness aggression, when i read about it i was like "oh yeah. that makes sense huh." my fic keeps being a hazard for both humans and inanimate objects (your desk)...

"Ah, you caught me! I often ship two characters that I relate to!! I call it self love B)"

that's very sweet! i don't usually do that- i relate to both minori and tsukasa and when he encouraged her in the anniversary event i felt like.

but if you do that honestly? better for you, you get to enjoy more ships! AND you feel appreciated x2!

":O tHERE’S MORE?? YAHOO!! THIS IS THE BEST NEWS I’VE GOTTEN ALL DAY!!!"

yup, and a mafu-kasa fic that's finished... in spanish. i still have to translate it but i keep getting sidetracked and translating random comics i find on pixiv to practice my japanese... sob

"I RESPECT THAT TOUYANENE GRIND 💪! I don’t know much about either of them, but I do appreciate gamers being in love B)"

ah at first it was because i didn't ship their most popular (respective) ships, and i was like. oh they interacted a bit maybe i can ship them- but then i was like YOU KNOW WHAT THIS IS ACTUALLY VERY GOOD WOAH

"You are!! I’d give you a medal for being entertainingly violent if I had one >:D"

aw, i'm content with you considering me for the position hehe!

As I’ve said earlier, your enjoyment for what I’ve done makes me so damn giddy :>!! I’m honored that I could make you smile so much

OF COURSE??? seeing someone enjoy my works so much makes me explode out of happiness! i want you to know how much all of this meant to me!!! i was like this the whole time

(the bunny stickers representing exactly how i feel once again)

YET AGAIN thank you so, so much! i this made me super happy!!! thank you for doing this!!!

[poohbea]

Hi Pooh! No matter how you’re feeling, just know that your feelings are 1000% valid & im more than willing to throw hands w anyone who thinks otherwise 🫡. I just saw your partial hiatus post today but it hits home so hard that I have to let u know that you’re not alone!!! Interactions and engagement on this app is a disaster and unfortunately, it brings to some relief that someone is feeling this way too. Even tho I wish that none of us have to feel this way 🤧🤍 our works are like our children ya know and when ppl don’t like our kids… damn 😮‍💨 I have works that do rly well in numbers and I’m rly grateful for it but I can’t help but feel unappreciated when I post new fics that I really worked hard on, just for it to go nowhere. N I’m sure you are feeling the same way. You know what you need the most, do what you need to do, everyone will gladly wait for your return. I’m a newer follow, but I hope I can see you again soon 💞

hi my angel, let me first welcome you to the blog so happy to have you here. your sweet words mean a lot, i'm glad to be able to resonate with so many people. i'm currently in and out of the blog, so i'm around but fic posts are super slow/spaced (because life is life-ing), but i'm here thus a partial hiatus cause i'm not gone gone hahaha.

you are so right, our works are our kids, we put out blood, sweat and tears into them and it's disheartening when they don't get the interaction you feel they deserve, i think that's the main part of why i took this partial break in the first place, to just take that step back and ask myself 'who am i writing for?' and 'why do i need validation for something that i'm doing for me?' - i guess everyone falls into that trap of social media where you want to be recognised and seen, but at the end of the day all that matters is you and your happiness and well-being.

i hope to see you around the blog, my love, thank you for the love and support ♡

[woundthatswallows]

i just wanna say THANK YOU!!! after following u i started listening to hole because u talk about them so positively. honestly i avoided listening to them for sooooo long because of cl but now i’m like holy shit i should’ve been to listening them all this time. literally my new favourite band everything about them hits so hard !!!!!!!!!!!!!

omg no worries lover <3 i woke up abt 2 mins ago so u r good 🖤 i'm glad that they've resonated so much w u!! i think that's the beauty of the band all their music hits so hard (lol....) w so many people .. truly band of all time <33

[gingerbreadmonsters]

hii!! I'm so sorry for taking so long to respond, I've been a little busy and I didn't want to rush a reply but I hope you've been good the last few days <3 have you been up to anything interesting since uni ended?

ooh I won't go on for too long about kpop because you'll never hear the end of it 😂 I really like bts and blackpink too!! mmh I'm multifandom for the most part, but my mains are twice, nct, enhypen and gidle, they're all really good groups if you wanna check them out. and its pretty funny because you're joining kpop right in the transition from 3rd gen to 4th gen haha, so there's a lot going on to see!! twice's 'formula of love' album is incredible if you want to listen them more, every song on it is so damn good, I play it all the time. 'cruel' is a very good song if you don't want to listen to the full album. also 'verse 2' by jj project is a super good album but very different from 'normal' kpop, it's more chill than pop. it's one of my faves.

and here I was saying I wasn't gonna talk a lot about kpop 😂

ALSO I've been meaning to look into redacted asmr but I haven't had the chance to yet, I don't really know much about asmr but I lowkey wanna get into it. I've heard a few of the anime guy asmr's, is it similar to that? but anyway, I read green umbrella trees it was so cute and pretty, you're writing is absolutely amazing. I fell in love with the way you described him touching the readers body, I literally don't know how else to explain it but it was like I was reading the best poetry in the world. I wanna know who made you feel love the way you do because I can really see how beautiful and precious it is in your writing. and I can't wait for the beach simeon fic! I'm in a whole beach mood since the weather has been pretty nice lately, so I am ready for it!!!

also your mum sounds so cool haha I hope your easter is lovely tomorrow if you're celebrating it <3

- 🌻

baby!! hello 🥰🥰

lmao so i said i was going to rest my ankle, turns out that is a little bit difficult when you are on holiday with your parents in spain 🤡 valencia is very lovely but i am walking at about 0.5 mph so plenty of time to smell the metaphorical roses?? i get back today so this coming week i'm going to meet up w some of my friends from sixth form which will be nice :) how about you?? any plans while the weather's still decent?? 🌤️🌤️

UMMMM???? listening to 'cruel' literally right now and this is an entire BOP *added to playlist* 🕺🕺🕺ooh i've heard good things about nct, will add them to the list 👌✌️

😭😭 i'm so glad you liked green umbrella trees!! ik the redacted fandom is p small, so it's very reassuring to know that you liked it anyway 🥺🥰 i am blushing v hard

i think i get a lot of my ideas about love from reading fic tbh - i have no real experience with romantic love irl (unless you count the one or two crushes i had at school lmao it's definitely not from real life i am so very very single lmao), so i feel very attached to the idea of love as something fantastical and strange and somehow comforting - something alien and unusual and that makes your head spin, but that feels like home. you don't need to look too closely at my writing to see that i like to compare feelings that are very zoomed in with much larger, grander concepts - to take green umbrella trees as an example:

"he takes the universe in his stride - it follows behind him, waiting on his word, lapping playfully at his heels. [...] your world is the size of his voice. your living room is the size of his love. your heart is the size of his hands. you measure the whole world to him, and nothing ever compares."

"elastic snaps against skin. outside, the sky stretches on forever."

the bits that resonate the most with me when i'm reading tend to be quite tactile - the connection between touch and trust and vulnerability.... when i actually think about it, it's quite unusual for me to get very close to people?? like?? so describing skin contact of any variety holds a lot of weight to me, and that's the feeling i want to put across :)

SIMEON BEACH FIC!!!!! im very excited for this one hehe 🤠🤠 lots of ice cream and sunshine and goodness to come (although it's really hard to not call it sun tan lotion?? i think that's just a uk thing and i'm worried that it might come off as the wrong thing, so now i have to call it sunscreen) 🏖️🏖️🏖️

and yes happy easter my love!! hope you have a gorgeous day tomorrow (regardless of whether you're celebrating anything or not :D)

(let me pop this under the cut bc i RAMBLED wow)

REDACTED ASMR!! i have no idea who this anime guy is lmao i don't listen to very much asmr in general ok so i only discovered it very recently on youtube, but bro?? it's actually really good?? the guy who does it, erik, is so big-brained and has the most incredible storylines and universe (plus his voices?? 😘😘 obv idk much about regional american accents but imo he is UNCLOCKABLE WOW) - i think i spoiled summarised the marcus storyline in this post!

the basic premise is that a magical, "empowered" society exists alongside and hidden from our normal "unempowered" reality - each "main character" has a listener who functions as a character of their own, and all of these characters are involved in various different storylines that overlap with others (e.g. the 'inversion' arc). it's a MASSIVE universe but it's actually not that hard to get into - lmk if you want me to break down an order that i recommend, bc this post is already v long lmao

(for context: this is a list of i think most of the characters who have listeners?? there are lots more - all with distinct voices!! claps to mr erik!! - who are supporting/background characters but do not have listeners, who aren't here. listed as "character name (listener nickname)".

the DAMN boys (elementals): lasko, damien, huxley (plus gavin, an incubus) - these guys all have one listener, called freelancer/deviant

the solaire clan (vampires): vincent (lovely), sam (darlin')

the shaw pack (werewolf shifters): david (angel), asher (babe), milo (sweetheart), plus sam's listener darlin'

the office boys: aaron (smartass), ollie (babe/mentor)

miscellaneous other?? (includes 'the balance', 'sadism's hold', and 'project meridian', plus some extra): elliott (sunshine), blake (bestie?), ivan (baby), vega (warden), avior (starlight), marcus (love), geordi (cutie)

it's such a wonderful fandom and literally everyone in the tag is lovely - highly highly recommend 😍😍

[horde-princess]

re: your posts about noelle's memoir, the imagery is obviously about their religious trauma but its really neat to me how its resonated with so many people in different ways? it hit me really hard because I'm trans and feel like i didnt really get a childhood because of that so i rly relate to the like. there is a part of you missing that everyone else has and youre never going to fully get rid of it thing (all of her autobio stuff is so good and is like. 90% of why i picked up art again lmfao)

absolutely!!!! ❤️💖 thank you so much for sharing that w me.. yeah noelle has this talent for expressing things in a universally relatable way bc the symbolism in her art can be interpreted in multiple ways like, i think gender identity is something thats prominent in her work across the board since shes been on a journey with that as well. along with sexuality and religious trauma and mental health, all 4 are intimately related so the symbolism gets pretty layered and with she-ra at least it has created a rly vibrant fan community :) idk exactly what my point is lkjdfd but i love your thoughts on this its really important to talk about. and im soo glad you decided to pick up art again!!!!! id love to see some of your work if youd like to share!