#panic attack cus this almsot wound up in the sd/v tags. i don't even post there when i have sd/v content LMAO

[summoning-potema]

i am sooooo sensitive about how i'm perceived at my job i wish i could channel that into actually working harder and being able to focus more on my work during the day

one of my coworkers is a really sweet guy and i get so insanely jealous of how easy things seem to come to him. but he works like 15 hours a day. i don't know if he sleeps. i'm not about that. i like my very distinct work/life balance

but anyway we both pointed out bugs in each other's code today and idk. i'm peeved that he did so in a public channel where i put an update instead of one-one, even though he didn't say *i* had something to fix

me being the big dummy i am read the message wrong and got so hot for a second like. was so pissed off because he didn't message me directly. only to realize that he worded it nicely and said it was his fault not mine 😥 i'm just like. ashamed of me sometimes