#pallasperilous fic

[pallasperilous]

I finally had the privilege of arting for @deancaspinefest! I loved drawing for @fallenangelandpie's canon-divergent fic Djinn and Tonic, which is full of post-15x18 Dean pining (mmm yes my favorite kind of pain). It also deploys one of my favorite devices from the show, djinn-induced dream worlds, as a pathway from self-destruction to self-acceptance. And also kissing. I loved getting to play with visual distortions, divergent styles, and surreal image elements, and it was an even bigger bonus to include a nonbinary hunter character. I hope y'all enjoy the story as much as I did!

Read on AO3.

[deancaspinefest]

Djinn & Tonic |  Not Rated |  20,106

Author: Fallenangelandpie Artist: PallasPerilous

Dean regrets not being able to tell Cas that he loves him. He is trying to live life for Cas, but when he hears about a djinn in town he gets the wild idea that may just give him the opportunity to tell Cas his feelings.

Link to fic | Link to art (also on Tumblr)

Pairings: Dean/Cas Warnings: N/A Tags: Hurt/Comfort, Post-Canon, Fix-it

[theweeping-whistlers]

The Daily Fanfic Rec #17

Fandom : Supernatural

Site : Ao3

Title : Boneless Wings

Author : PallasPerilous

Summary :

For those of you perving along at home, Dean could absolutely provide a list of the hundred or so ways that having a boyfriend with giant fucking actual wings is super hot and/or awesome.

This is not that list.

Notes :

This is peak. Not just peak comedy, but peak representation of assbutt-ness. This not only should have been an episode. This should have been the pilot episode of the last season. Dean and Cass are more than just two peas in a pod in this fic. They are two dudes, turned best friends, turned lovers, and Dean is learning to cope that Cass is part bird. I love this fic. You will also most likely love this fic if you want a good laugh.

[destieltaggedfic]

Wing Fic - Part 5

White Lightning – kilvmaim   Ao3

Set 15x20 didn’t happen AU.  Its taking a while for Cas’ grace to stabilise after Jack got him out of the Empty. But when Dean touches him one day after his wings have popped out (although still imperceivable to Dean) Cas realises that Dean’s touch feels good to both his wings and his grace and its going to lead to them finally talking about what he said before he died.

Word Count: 33k                              Graphic Sexual Acts

Household Objects – tikistitch   Ao3

Nonspecific timeframe.   When Cas turns up with a mysterious wing injury and downpowered, Dean insists that he travels with them for a while and they accidentally amass a collection of magical items on their hunts which will end up helping as more angels are injured by these strange things.

Word Count: 35k                              Graphic Sexual Acts

Those Aren't Your Wings - allthebeautifulthings9828   Ao3

Set S9.  Dean has always been able to see Cas’ wings.  But the wings he has when he becomes an angel again are NOT Cas’ wings.  Dean doesn’t like the change

Word Count: 3k                                 Graphic Sexual Atcs

Boneless Wings – PallasPerilous   Ao3

Nonspecific timeframe.  Look wings are great, Dean just sometimes wishes his boyfriend didn’t have them, because there are a lot of issues that crop up in your daily life when there are 2 massive feathery wings that need attention.

Word Count: 4k                                 Non-Graphic Sex

Morning After – lizleenimbus   Ao3

Nonspecific timeframe.  It’s the giant wing blanket that gives away exactly who Dean drunkenly fell into bed with last night.  Of course there is the issue that he shouldn’t be able to see them.

Word Count: 4k                                 No Sex

[queermania]

Girl I know you read more than just Ninety One Whiskey don't lie

i mean yeah but most of the fic i've read is popular and has already been rec'd a bajillion times anyway. nobody is gonna discover a new gem through me lol

there are only a handful of fics that i can even name off the top of my head because i like them enough to think about them (in a positive way) and they are as follows:

ninety one whiskey by komodbits

the issues series by everandanon

the dean winchester beat sheet by saltyfeathers

down to agincount by seperis

with interest by everandanon

the cheapest room in the house by biggaybenny

epistolary by tiamtv

occursus by pallasperilous

fools and pilgrims by lagaudiere

christmas countdown by ozonecologne

of shampoo and fruit flies by almaasi

[profoundbondfanfic]

Everybody's Got a Hungry Heart

Everybody's Got a Hungry Heart by PallasPerilous (@pallasperilous) Rating: Teen Word count: 18k

Dean is jumpy as shit. Why one possibly Icelandic beep-boop specialist has him on edge while Mick Jagger’s own vocal coach barely got his heart rate over 55bpm is a goddamn mystery. Maybe it’s the harp solos from that sample track; maybe Dean’s nervous that this is his last shot and if this guy can’t save Dean from filling out the back end of his contract with “Best Of” and “Live In Concert” compilations he might as well walk into the fucking sea.

This is a brand new offering from the one and only PallasPerilous, featuring her signature snappy wit and spot-on character voices, managing such literary magic tricks as describing entire musical genres in ways that instantly make you say "I know that song!"

It's always fun to watch these two numbskulls dance around each other, but in this one, you get nervous motor-mouth Dean who's hanging on by a thread and trying to deny it every second, contending with cucumber-cool eccentric probably-genius Cas who's his last hope before he slips into irrelevancy. And obviously it turns out Cas is completely right about what Dean needs, and it's not at all what Dean, or anybody else, expects.

The way Pallas has constructed a whole history and an entire life for Dean, Cas, Sam, and even Crowley is really something special. Possibly my favorite inclusion is Rowena, who never actually appears "on screen" but who has her wiggly little nose in everybody's business. Definitely treat yourself to this little gem!

[billiewena]

anyways, stream 50 Ways to Lose Your Lover by @pallasperilous (aka the first fix-it fic that made me laugh instead of cry, much needed at the time)

for @dadstiel and @hellodean’s fic celebration weekend

[fanfic-corner]

Lesser Known Destiel Fics pt 3

You guys really liked the last list... so here are some more lesser known Destiel fics! This time, we're doing ones with less than 10k hits :)

You Deserve To Be Loved by sandean_cas (1k)

Castiel senses Dean's longing and meets him on the bridge.

Loving Castiel by dinluke (1.9k)

“How did you find me?” Dean asks. Castiel squints and looks at him like he’s the sun.

“Your, uh, yearning was pretty loud,” he says sheepishly.

Mister Scarecrow Hates Halloween by Carrieosity (3.1k)

Castiel hates Halloween, so being roped into working in costume at a pumpkin patch has him seething in misery. And now, of all things, the object of his unrequited crush is walking toward him, and Cas is praying the costume will hide him just a bit longer.

Boneless Wings by PallasPerilous (4.3k)

For those of you perving along at home, Dean could absolutely provide a list of the hundred or so ways that having a boyfriend with giant fucking actual wings is super hot and/or awesome.

This is not that list.

Grace by july_19th_club (5.1k)

A man dies. What happens next will shock you.

a covenant of salt by museaway (5.1k)

They didn’t put up a tree on Cas’s first Christmas in the bunker.

Enhanced Extraction Techniques by goldenraeofsun (5.7k)

The Empty takes Meg’s shape, Samandriel’s, Duma’s, every one of the thousands of angels Cas killed up in heaven. But in the middle of lecturing Cas in the form of Balthazar, it explodes in a burst of light and sound.

Dean Winchester stands in the aftermath.

New All Over Again by Castielslostwings (5.7k)

Dean and Cas as childhood sweethearts separated as teenagers who have been searching for each other for years without success. Against all odds, they reunite in the middle of Times Square at midnight on New Year’s Eve.

The Cry of Elisha after Elijah by intothesilentland (5.8k)

The kicker is, Dean had been trying to live.

Really live. And not bite out in anger at the fraying of his heart: Cas, gone, Jack, gone—all that was left was him and his brother, and Dean had been trying to live, in spite, in light of that.

In a world like the unsteady first steps of a child, apprehensive arms and hands cradling the air around them, ready for a slip, excited for a step, Dean had been trying to walk forward, too. Though every step had meant every pain.

Upon his death, and arrival in heaven, Dean sets out to find the angel. He has to tell him. Cas has to know.

(un)conventional by imogenbynight (6.1k)

Spec Lit Con--Speckly Con, to it’s regular attendees--is an annual weekend-long event held in Chicago, dedicated to science fiction, fantasy and otherwise speculative literature. This year Dean's favorite author, C.J. Novak, is appearing as a panelist. Naturally, he shells out the cash for an all access pass.

Event Horizon by Winglesss (6.4k)

Castiel couldn't have helped his sister. That's why being offered a chance to help somebody else dealing with suicidal thoughts he took it without hesitation.

When he gets the first text from someone who needs his help, nothing goes as he expected.

My Own Little World by tale_to_tell (6.8k)

Castiel stumbles into a local café in order to avoid the rain, and during the process he meets a very attractive barista by the name of Dean Winchester. It doesn't take long for Castiel to fall in love with Dean's wit and charm.

Too bad that Dean has a boyfriend.

Lost and Found by whelvenwings (7.7k)

“Chuck Shurley? Sure, I’ve read his books. Kinda Vonnegut, but like, Kilgore-Trout Vonnegut, you know?” Dean took another gulp of his whisky, and smacked his lips like an adult. The guy sitting beside him at the bar, however, did not look suitably impressed. In fact, he was staring down into the bubbles of his cider, not even noticing the way that Dean was smiling at him, giving him the eyes.

“I thought his stuff was pretty good, in a kinda metamodern way,” Dean added airily, and a little more loudly.

The guy only nodded gloomily. Dean almost clicked his tongue against the roof of his mouth in frustration. C’mon, dude, I’m trying to impress you. Twenty minutes of talking and all Dean had to show for it was a weird first name, a series of dour stares and the strangest need to know more about this – Castiel.

In the House of the Rising Bun by starryiedd (9k)

Dean Winchester only has three rules concerning the cafe he and his brother Sam own, "House of the Rising Bun".

1. Any and all opportunities to make a pun will be taken.

2. Free regular coffee with your student ID (If you want some of that fancy nonsense you gotta pay, sorry kids).

3. Anyone and everyone is always welcome.

Between Dean running the shop full-time and Sam helping out whenever he isn't in class, there really isn't a whole lot of time for romance for either of them. But that all changes when they gain a new regular - some writer from London - who may or may not have the bluest eyes Dean's ever seen.

Once Upon a Time in a Christmas Bakery by noxsoulmate (10k)

What would Christmas Time be without a little fun in a Christmas Bakery?

akasha by quillquiver (14k)

Five years ago, an angel fell off the coast of Cannon Beach, Oregon.

Dean’s coming off a vamp nest in Boise when he gets the call on his Other Other Cell: two dead, definitely his kinda thing. But when he arrives in town, what originally looks like a cut-and-dry case soon turns up more questions than it does answers: What kind of monster uses medical equipment to exsanguinate its victims? Why is this monster here in the first place?

And what the hell is up with the witch at the end of the street?

Something Icky This Way Comes by almaasi (21k)

Charlie Bradbury is a professional investigator of supernatural happenings, and Dean Winchester is her work partner and best friend, currently bunking in their office. Requiring insight for a particularly bizarre case on the night before Halloween, they call their go-to FBI lab guy, Castiel – who Dean hates. Totally and completely despises. And yet somehow they’ve always gotten along perfectly well in the heat of the moment. Anyway, there’s an ectoplasm-producing rabbit high on catnip floating around the office, and the creature’s predicament really needs to be addressed, or Charlie’s Halloween party will have to be cancelled. And nobody wants that. Least of all, Cas.

Serendipity by whelvenwings (23k)

Stuck on opposite sides of the country, Dean and Cas make big sacrifices to be together at a special time of the year. However, when they realise that their joint idea of paying a surprise visit to each other's faraway home has left them still trapped miles away from each other, they have to find some way to meet in the middle - and it has to be before midnight if it's going to be perfect...

Lucky Winner by natmoose (31k)

Dean wins a trip to Paris. In and of itself, that’s an amazing thing, but the problem is: he isn’t in a relationship with Lisa anymore, and the trip requires a romantic partner. The obvious choice is Cas, his roommate and best friend of 3 years, but coming with that are some very very complicated feelings and things Dean absolutely doesn’t want to deal with.

But Dean isn’t selfish and also really wants to give his overworked best friend a well deserved holiday, so the only and best solution is to take Cas to Paris, romantic theme be damned. What Dean doesn’t know is that their whole trip will be documented by a photographer from the company - so to avoid their vacation being cut short, Dean and Cas will have to convincingly play a couple.

4545 by anyrei and queerwerewolf (120k)

Albert Einstein predicted that, while he didn’t know with what weapons World War III would be fought, World War IV would be fought with sticks and stones. He wasn’t far off.

Humanity is surviving in a world without daylight, in a society where emotions are a luxury no one is allowed to have. But how important is surviving when you have nothing to live for? Two hunters find the answer to that question when they stumble over a miracle in the shape of a strange, blue-eyed man in a beige coat bearing… chocolate? Whatever that is.

I hope you enjoy reading these hidden gems! Thank you to all the amazing writers who share their work with us, and happy reading!

[stoneantler]

Cas studies fic recs!!

Most of these turned out to be Cas angst, which is a kind of Cas studies, right?

these are organized by length. the stars note which fics are my absolute favorites.

Under 10k

Stories Are Made of Mistakes by wildhoneypie ✨

thee human Cas fic, featuring Cas being weird and idiosyncratic and Dean being completely head over heels in love while having no idea they’re dating, 6k

Occursus by PallasPerilous

post-s15e20, set in heaven, featuring Cas and Dean having an insane little conversation about angel trueforms and the handprint, 4k

Gone through the glass again by communistmishacollins

the author calls this: “A three part love letter to Castiel Gayngel of the Lord.” featuring human Cas and his human friends, 4k

Get Out In Times of Declared Emergency by Jayne L

Cas deals with the aftermath of being possessed by Lucifer and the resulting depression, 6k

built to roam by sleepyvan

author’s summary: “Cas’ Farewell Tour.” pre-s15e28, in which Cas tries to take a little of what he wants most before the empty takes him

Between 10k and 50k

Cuckoo And Nest by komodobits ✨

a fic about Dean needing Cas to stay and Cas needing Dean to tell him he’s wanted, my ultimate comfort fic, 10k

Scratchmarks by Bookkbaby

do you want some angst in your endverse threesome fic? do you want 2014!Dean with emotional intelligence and endverse!Cas hurting loudly? this fic is for you, 11k

The River by hal_incandenza

an incredibly good rewrite of s15e9 “The Trap,” dealing with Cas’s grief over losing Jack and Dean’s control issues with god, featuring bamf!Cas and hurt!Cas, 16k

Kingdom Come by ahurston ✨

author’s summary: “Cas wakes up on the coast of Maine. He makes his way home.” post-s15e18, Cas comes back from the empty and Dean comes to get him, 17k

He Can’t Sleep by 6or3dom ✨

ANGST angst angst, featuring human!Cas and Dean try to make their relationship work and it mostly goes poorly, they’re both astoundingly fucked up and for once it’s Cas struggling to talk about what’s wrong, 18k

The Tunnel of Love by xylodemon

a soft lovely get-together case fic, not strictly Cas studies but well worth a read, 21k

These Are Not Real Problems by Annie D

author’s summary: “Castiel used to be a god. Dean took that away from him, and now Castiel’s stuck in a hell of his own making. Future!fic, post-season 6.″ 30k

if it all fell to pieces tomrrow by spocklee

author’s summary: “After the Empty, Cas has to spend time alone. Orpheus tries to convince Eurydice over the phone that it’s okay to turn around now.” Cas struggles with being happy after coming back from the empty, 42k

To Be Restored by serenityfails

post-s15e18 fic where the empty sends Cas back in a different vessel, there’s a lot of Dean struggling with gender and sexuality, not strictly Cas studies but gives me a lot of trans!Cas feels, 47k

Superheroes verse: part 1 There’s A Limit, part 2 It’s The Fall That Kills You, part 3 Superheroes, part 4 Hole In Your Soul by strangenessandcharm (on dreamwidth) ✨

This series is from 2009 and it’s the first spn fic I remember reading. Lot’s of angst and whump. Cas becoming human in the worst way and Sam struggling with a magical sickness. It doesn’t have to be read in order and part 4 is my favorite.

Over 50k

These Forsaken Lands by destielpasta ✨

post-s9e18 a case fic about Cas’s guilt for what the did to heaven and his run as god with a side of MoC!Dean, a bittersweet ending, 53k

Galveston by lunarriviera

Cas built a life away from Dean, then Dean walks back into it, also a love letter to Galveston, Texas, 56k

Tall Grass by aeli_kindara

thee gardener Cas fic, featuring slow burn and found family, not strictly Cas studies but well worth the read, 57k

A Winter’s Tale by NorthernSparrow ✨

author’s summary: “Cas is sick and Dean finds a journal that Cas kept about his time alone as human.” a season 9 au that tries to make Cas’s time as a human more realistic (an subsequently much more angsty), gen!fic with a focus on Dean and Cas, epistolary, 64k

Memories Bring Back Memories (Bring Back You) by sobsicles

a fic that answers the question, “who are Cas and Dean without their memories? who are they to each other without all their baggage?” 66k

the cost of a thing by quiettewandering

a case fic where Dean and Cas have already fallen apart and they learn how to come back together, 74k

Human AUs

Honey-Baked by mishaminion69 and sydkn3e  ✨

a human!au where Cas and Dean are childhood friends and live in a cabin together and Cas is a stoner and Dean loves him dearly and they keep getting in their own way, a get-together fic, 89k

Love, Take Your Toll by aileenrose

a human!au where Cas is a lonely toll worker and Dean is his favorite motorist, 8k

BONUS

Down to Agincourt by speris ✨✨✨

A fic that’s about learning how to live with yourself after the world has already ended, Yes, it’s a million words and a WIP. Yes, it’s completely worth it.

[pallasperilous]

In a wanton display of extra-ness I have recreated the Rowena concert poster which plays a minor, but I would argue pivotal, cockblocking role in my recent Rock Star!Dean Destiel AU, Everybody's Got A Hungry Heart (original post with the fic) Can't you almost smell the musky branded incense at the merch table? Can't you almost visualize the extremely tiny pants worn by her cadre of backup dancers, all of whom appear to be dating each other? Imagine the mid-song costume changes. The special insurance necessary to cover all the fog machines. The sparkly purple grand piano with a velvet chaise longue installed on top which she likes to heavily imply was a gift from Prince. 2015 was a hell of a year. And, as an extra-extra bonus, here is a photorealistic recreation of Dean's response to seeing it

You may continue about your business now, thank you

[deancaspinefest]

Djinn & Tonic

Author: fallenangelandpie | Artist: PallasPerilous Posting on Saturday March 4

Dean regrets not being able to tell Cas that he loves him. He is trying to live life for Cas, but when he hears about a djinn in town he gets the wild idea that may just give him the opportunity to tell Cas his feelings.

Keep reading for a sneak preview!

One hundred and eighty two days had passed since him and Sam had finally brought God to his knees and Jack took control of Heaven. A little longer since he had he lost Cas. The first couple of months were the hardest: Sam moved Eileen into the bunker, and, while Dean was happy for his brother, he couldn't be around anyone in a happy relationship. Not after losing Cas and not being able to tell him that he loved him back. Dean hid away in his room, phoning Cas's number just to hear his voice on his voicemail. He cried himself to sleep every night as he prayed, hoping that maybe, just maybe, there was a way that Cas could still hear him. He prayed to Jack for a while, too, to have him rescue Cas and return him to the bunker alive, but Jack never answered. Sam and Eileen poured through every book in the library, trying to find any way of rescuing someone from the Empty, but they could find nothing. Dean knew there was no solution in the bunker, as he had been pouring through the same books as they slept. Night time was the only time he left his room. The bunker was quiet and he would draw his fingers over the carving of Castiel's name he had etched in the table as he would sip his beer. He stopped watching the security footage of that night after a while. It broke his heart too much to replay one of the saddest nights of his life. Sam locked the door to the dungeon after he found Dean passed out amid a pile of empty beer bottles. He locked the key away in his room. Dean never mentioned it, but he was secretly glad that his brother had done that. It was hard even just walking by that room.

 [continue reading on Ao3 on Saturday March 4]

[eddiemunsonsmiddlefingers]

I just hit a follower milestone. It doesn't actually matter which one at this point, but I decided to take the opportunity to procrastinate yell about some fantastic people I know/still know because of this hellsite:

@archiivael says what she means but she isn't nasty about it (even when she thinks she is), and has a wicked sense of humor to boot. She's also the most even-handed, inspirational, no-bullshit leader I've ever had the pleasure of working with in fandom. She runs an 18+ Destiel Discord server that I help mod and the culture there is A+ phenomenal, in very large part because of her leadership.

@unforth is a talented author in her own right, but the thing I am scandalously inspired by is how she looked at queer fandom, and looked at the publishing industry, and looked at queer fandom again, and said "what if I gave all this talent a place to shine?" And then she did. She made a real, actual company called Duck Prints Press which helps fandom creators get published, with a big focus on vibrant representation of all types of humans, identities, and sexualities. Go check it out!

@skyisverybored started sending me asks a little after Heartstopper came out, and then we started DMing, and now I'm like "What even was life before Sky fell on my head?" They're compassionate. They're intelligent. Their sense of humor is a 10/10. They see through the bullshit. They're resilient. They're fucking brave. Every day I get up and go check to see what they're up to / how they're doing, and I am so inspired by their journey.

@kazshero isn't super active on Tumblr, but we see each other every day elsewhere. She's been in my life longer than she hasn't...which still doesn't feel quite real given I met her when I was 17. She's kind but no bullshit, organized but understands chaos, gets my niche Wheel of Time references, and has the most amazing accent. This only scratches the surface, tbh. Love you, K. <3

@leafzelindor is on my GISH team as well as the Discord I hang out on every day. I could go on about her for days, but I admit I'm not sure how much she shares with the public so I'm going to stick with the fact that I'm just so glad she's been in my life for the years I've known her, and I hope someday we get to meet for real.

@pallasperilous went from "a published author, how intimidating??" when she first popped into my life to "gossiping about the feral peacock that lives in our city" and incoherent "help I can't remember the name of this Photoshop tool" (that'd be me, not her) shockingly quickly. There are so many little things I could put in here, honestly. I can't believe we're friends. Okay, I'm gonna go now.

@jemariel and I have known/known of each other for a long time, and the more I get to know them, the more I want to know. They're such a great human and they're talented in so many different ways, but for the purposes of this post, I'm going to focus on the fact that their writing is mind-blowingly good. Seriously, if you haven't inhaled Jem's entire library of works on AO3, what are you even doing with your life? Go. Read. Enjoy.

@slytherkins is someone I don't talk to one on one all that often, but they're constantly in my notes and I'm in theirs fairly often as well, and I just super appreciate their presence in my life. They're also an EXTREMELY talented artist; every time their art floats across my dash I am so, so impressed by the life they breathe into the characters we all love.

@sapphirecobalt-1 and I didn't talk much before Heartstopper and ST4 came out, but since then we've been batting likes and comments back and forth like cats with smol fuzzy toys. They've become one of those people that I'm like "I bet saph would like this" when I'm reblogging something, and then I giggle like a loon when it turns out that I was correct.

@ao3soidade wrote one of my favorite Steddie fics (Are You Flagging?) and opened the door to a Stranger Things community that I simultaneously deeply enjoy and am occasionally intimidated by (affectionate). I enjoy her/our ST rambling and rants on Discord and the stuff she shares on Tumblr, too. The moral of this particular story is: leave detailed comments on fics you like, friends. You never know what might happen.

@eddiemunsonlives I have no idea if this blog is a single person, or a group, or what, but they reblog an absolutely incredible amount of quality Eddie and Steddie content. Whenever they pop up on my dash I know I'm about to enjoy a god damn Thanksgiving feast. Also somehow we're mutuals, which blows my fucking mind. I'm not sure what I did, but I'm glad I did it? :P

@itztigress3 and @northofantastic are two people I wish I knew better because they're up in my notes all the time and seem like great humans. I sometimes catch myself grading the quality of my original posts based on whether they interact with them, which is kind of hilarious. Perhaps I shall begin an affectionate bothering-them-about-everything countercampaign. *squints*

@taimproblem hasn't updated in years and faded off Discord as well when life got busy, but I can't make this kind of post without giving a nod to what a powerful impact he had on my life. We used to write together almost daily and he introduced me to one of my favorite artists (iamx). He also cracked the closet door that led to me being where I am today by simply existing, and that's...that's far from small. I hope you're living your best life, Aaron. You deserve everything good.

I am definitely missing people who deserve love and attention, but my kid is yelling at me and my cats are yowling and my house is still a disaster so I'm cutting off now. If we talk/interact regularly and I didn't mention you...I'M SORRYYYYY I promise I still love you @_@

[destieltaggedfic]

I love your rec lists, especially since we like a lot of the same fic tropes! Do you have any recs for fic about Cas rescuing Dean from Hell?

oh this was good. I found a fic that I apparently hadn't saved, but really enjoyed the first time I read it, so thanks for this request.

Paved with Good Intentions – crystamartin   LiveJournal Ao3

Set Pre S4.  By the time Castiel found Dean in hell, he was a demon and needing rehabilitation before being taken back to earth.  It takes them spending 5 years in purgatory to restore the soul of Dean Winchester.

Word Count: 30k                              Graphic Sexual Acts

His Damned Soul - spacegirlstuff   Ao3

Set Pre S4.  An angel rescues The Righteous Man from hell, but needs his help to get them both out.  A bond is forged in the process.

Word Count: 1k                       No Sex

With This Stab I Thee Wed – TheSilverQueen   Ao3

Set S4 AU.  If Dean had known that stabbing the angel in front of him was going to leave them married, he probably wouldn’t have done it.

Word Count: 8k��                                No Sex

How I Met Your Brother – Tibbins   Ao3

Set S14.  As Sam is grieving for the hunters killed by Michael, Cas recounts for him the story of the assault on hell to rescue The Righteous Man.  (I also recommend reading the fic this is a missing scene from Let the Actions Speak)

Word Count: 10k                     No Sex

Marked - Blind_Author   Ao3

Set S5.  After getting free of Gabriel in Changing Channels, Cas recounts the story of how Dean was rescued from hell and how during the process Dean was so clingy with Cas that the only way he would go back to his body is if Cas promised to leave some of his Grace with Dean, creating the handprint.

Word Count: 4k                                 No Sex

Occursus – PallasPerilous   Ao3

Set Post S15.  Reunited in heaven, Dean asks if he can finally see Cas’ true form and offers to show Cas his soul in return, only to find out that Cas has always been able to see it because of the bond that formed between then in hell.

Word Count: 4k                                 No Sex

to hell and back – myaimistrue   Ao3

Nonspecific timeframe.  Safe in their bed, Dean likes it when Cas tells him the story of how they met in hell.

Word Count: 1k                       No Sex

Begin Again - Faster_Than_the_Speed_of_Sound   Ao3

Set Pre S4.  Having expended the last of his energy freeing Dean, Castiel needs time to heal himself and Dean’s soul before they can escape hell.  Sheltering in a cave while they are healing they get to know one another and fall in love

Word Count: 14k                     No Sex

[ersatzangel]

January and February 2022 Fic Recs

Last year, I wanted to do monthly round ups of fics I enjoyed reading during that month then talked myself out of it. This year, I forgot and now we're more than a week into March and maybe this is a bit late but here are some fics I enjoyed reading in January and February this year!

one and the same by vaudelin | rated T | 6k

Dean can handle how his knee creaks whenever the weather changes. He can handle the dull throb that builds as the day goes on, his thigh begging him to rest after he’s been up on it for an hour or two.

He’s fine with it all.

Cas has always given up more than his fair share for Dean anyways.

Dean’s not about to beg him for what’s left.

Funny Bone by PallasPerilous | M | 4.9k

It wasn’t even a particularly creepy skeleton; it was in kind of a “just chillin’” pose on the floor. One ankle was still locked up in a heavy iron cuff, at the end of a short chain leading back to the wall. Snoresville, as dead stuff goes; Dean’s seen worse at Disneyland.

It was the skeleton’s comment about Dean’s ass that really livened things up.

Carve Your Name Into My Arm by Misachan | T | 7k

When a fast talking witch hexes Dean to get rid of all his scars, he's surprised to find that includes the handprint, too. It's not until Castiel shows up that he realizes just how much trouble they're actually in.

That Black Dog Ache by SaltyWords | E | 28k

A simple case turns Dean upside down as he attempts to deal with the effects of a particularly strange love spell.

Don't Your Cry No More by FagurFiskur | T | 5k

It’s been three weeks since Chuck’s defeat and life has settled into a routine. Or maybe not a routine so much as a holding-pattern because Dean will be fucked if this becomes his new status quo.

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A rewrite of the Supernatural finale. Takes elements from the episode but shapes them into a different story.

The face of heaven. by orange_crushed | T | 9.7k

“This is the best day of my life,” Castiel tells him, when he comes back. “You’ve been so kind to me.” His cheeks are glowing a little from the cold, or maybe just because he’s an otherworldly being full of light. Dean doesn’t know. “If I burn another million years, I won’t forget it.”

“Oh,” says Dean. “Good.”

(In which Castiel is a fallen star.)

Love Languages by tiamatv | T | 9.1k

Castiel has always known that there are things that Dean can’t say.

So when he says "I love you," he never expects he'll hear it back.

Closer by SaltyWords | E | 2.8k

Dean knows there’s a whole lot right with a little experimentation, he just needs a little extra convincing for this.

Mutually Beneficial by ourlastnonsense | E | 2k

So the sex is fine. Good. Mind-blowing, honestly. And it's not complicated, at least while they're in it.

It was supposed to be a one-time thing, and then they just... didn't stop. Two warm bodies and two cold hearts. Mutually beneficial fucking, and their chemistry has always been something freaky, so. Dean's been getting his money's worth.

Except. Except they share a bed at night, even though Cas doesn't sleep. They don't cuddle, really, just rest in the same space. Dean's not under any delusion that this is love, or that it ever will be. Neither of them are human enough for that. But it is something.

keep my love close to yours by lookforanewangle | T | 2.2k

“I made a deal,” Cas says again, “when Jack was dying. A deal with the Empty. When I– when I finally felt happiness, true happiness, it would take me, in exchange for Jack’s life. I had to do it, Dean, and I won’t let you tell me otherwise.”

“And...and your happiness...is–”

Cas looks up at him sharply and Dean stutters to a halt, stomach fluttering anxiously. “Oh,” Dean says dumbly.

Oh.

or: Dean tries to confess to Cas in Purgatory, and Cas tells him about his deal, plus everything after

[destielfanfic]

Good Things Do Happen

Good Things Do Happen - post 15x18 fic rec list with Cas being rescued/  already back from the Empty. Hopefully way less angsty than our previous  Happiness isn’t in the Having - 15x18 coda fic rec list. We all deserve good things. <3

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ours is the fire, all the warmth we can find by xylodemon [M, 6,800 word count] Dean POV, grief, #reunion

Sam brings it up as they're driving back from the steakhouse in Mankato. Dean cuts him a sharp, sideways glance. "You think I should what?" "I think you should try journaling." "Why the hell would I wanna do that?"

the rhyme of salvation by LymeandCoconut [T, 6,200 word count] Dean POV, #winged!dean, #reunion

“Nothing human can exist in the Empty,” Jack replied, shaking his head. “It would just - spit you back out, and probably kill you in the process.” “Then -” Dean pulled in a deep breath. Made his choice. “Then make me not human.”

Enhanced Extraction Techniques by goldenraeofsun [T, 5,800 word count] Cas POV, #reunion

The Empty takes Meg’s shape, Samandriel’s, Duma’s, every one of the thousands of angels Cas killed up in heaven. But in the middle of lecturing Cas in the form of Balthazar, it explodes in a burst of light and sound. Dean Winchester stands in the aftermath.

For Love by Bookkbaby [T, 1,200 word count] Dean POV, #reunion

With Chuck no longer a threat, there's just one thing left to do: get Cas out of the Empty.

Nothing Equals the Splendor by RurouniHime [NC-17, 7,700 word count] Dean POV, #djinn dream, #wing!fic, #reunion, smut

Maybe it’s the cynic in him. The hunter, always under the surface of any quietude he ever found. Or maybe it’s just that he has always had trouble with blind faith. But after a while (a blink? A decade? A century?), Dean raises his eyebrows, looks around, and says— “Uh. No.” It’s so close. Just so slightly imperfect. And maybe, he analyzes, maybe that’s the final knell of this bell called contentment. Dean’s experience with happiness has always been that last rise in the road, right before it turns. Right before fate comes barreling around the corner head on. He turns in his spot on the bridge, and suddenly Sam is like a cellophane film through which he can see the light streaming, and the taste of cheap beer on his tongue is much, much older a memory than it should be. “Oh, you’re good,” he says, and means it.

Up to Date? by whelvenwings [T, 5,200 word count] Cas POV, Dean POV, texting

It's three months after Castiel was brought back from the Empty after confessing his love to Dean, and things are awkward between them. They haven't talked about it. Castiel can feel how much Dean wants to, but he won't let himself, and Castiel can only wait. But one night, with Castiel halfway across the world, he gets a text from Dean that might change everything - even if Dean didn't quite mean it to.

The Novel by FriendofCarlotta [NC-17, 4,600 word count] Dean POV, #domestic

Dean, Cas, Sam and Eileen are happily retired and living their best lives. There's just one problem: Sam has decided to commemorate the Winchester brothers' adventures by writing a novel, and it's not very good at all. AKA the episode coda where 15x20 was nothing more than Dean reading a draft of his brother's first novel and becoming increasingly appalled.

Sorry Jimmy by K_K_TiBal [T, 2,200 word count] #heaven, #trueform!cas, #humor, #jimmy, #reunion

Based on the tumblr textpost: jellydeans: so are cas and jimmy novak just up in heaven existing at the same time; katebushstandean: #jimmy moves to heaven timbuku so that dean stops trying to make out with him every time they run into each other at the heaven grocery store. Thanks for letting me write it, guys!

Fifty Ways to Lose Your Lover by PallasPerilous [T, 1,106 word count] #humor

Castiel's love confession scene is proving difficult to nail down. SURELY the characters will settle down in the next draft. SURELY.

Other useful resources - there’s no time in the world for me to read all lovely season 15 coda and fix-it fics, so, check out these AO3 tags by yourself!

Episode: s15e18 Despair

Post-Episode: s15e18 Despair

Episode: s15e20 Carry On

Episode Fix-It: s15e20 Carry On

Post Episode: s15e20 Carry On

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end of year fic rec round-up: 2021

i did not read or participate in as much as i wanted to this year, but i fully uphauled my life back across the world so let’s just say i was extremely busy!! that said, i found time to completely nonsensically get dragged into spn fandom-fandom without ever watching an episode, so how busy was i, really. 

here’s the list of things i read & loved this year! if you want a summary & more comments about the fic, click on the original rec link. otherwise just go and read em. they’re all good. 

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ready to shape the scheme of things by @justlikeeddie // a knight’s tale // geoffrey x william // explicit // 4.5k // original rec

light my fire by @hallo-catfish // goon // xavier x doug // explicit // 3.7k // original rec

occursus by @pallasperilous // supernatural // dean x castiel // teen // 4.3k // original rec

four-letter word for intercourse by @bendingsignpost // supernatural // dean x castiel // explicit // 194.7k // original rec

honey i saw love by @hallo-catfish // matthias et maxime // matt x max // mature // 90.2k // original rec

said we’d walk together come what may by @youabird // it // richie x eddie // teen // 8.5k // original rec

there’s only one sure thing that i know by @blinkiesays // supernatural // dean x castiel // explicit // 20.3k // original rec

under the midnight sun by @northernsparrow // supernatural // dean x castiel // explicit // 232k // original rec

bottled by @the-omnishambles // supernatural // dean x castiel // mature // 12.2k // original rec

while it’s dark by @iampeevee // withnail & i // marwood x withnail // explicit // 2.2k // original rec

the burning from within by @drawsaurus // dune // paul x duncan // teen // 5k // original rec

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and my own fic from this year, two little smidgens from new fandoms:

avoir trente ans // matthias et maxime // matt x max // mature // 16.9k //  matt and max spend the weekend together. max tries to reconcile his feelings with his plans.

le temps qu’il faut // disco elysium // harry x kim // teen // 5k // winter is tough and so is kim, but a lot can change in ten days.

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that’s it! thank you authors for providing emotional support fanfiction! happy new fucking year!