#otp; one swallow doesn't make a summer

[neroushalvaus]

An important poll number two. Read the answers before answering. Some of the answers can coexist but choose the one that feels the most true to you, and elaborate if possible.

Answer "Did Philip love Thomas?" -poll here.

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I am really REALLLLLY torn between window sex and enemies to lovers one bed. Pls help 🫶🏼

Hell's Kels I'M BACK and ready to tackle this puppy!!!!

Let's do window sex since Snitch beat you to enemies to lovers one bed. And let's do wolfstar.

Okay apologies in advance but for some reason these drabbles make me want to write the kind of wolfstar i usually avoid in my bigger projects: canon, angsty, fucked up. Cw: rough sex

Setting: Canon, OTP, the scene in the kitchen after Harry arrives at Grimmauld Pl. Molly is trying to protect Harry and doesn't want him involved in the Order. Sirius wants to include Harry in everything. Molly says some fucked up shit about Sirius not being a good godfather bc he's been in azkaban. Remus plays referee, tells Molly to back off, and "Sirius, sit down." (BARK BARK).

Later, after everyone has left or gone to bed:

Remus waits for him in Sirius' room. He's sat in the chair in the corner, book open on his lap, staring patiently at the door.

Shortly after midnight, it swings open, Sirius swaying slightly and flushed with whiskey.

"Oh, now you wait for me." Sirius' voice cuts sharper than his mother's rings across the soft flesh of his cheek.

Remus doesn't rise to the bait. "We need to talk."

Sirius stalks toward his wardrobe, peeling layers off haphazardly, stumbling a little, tugging his muggle jeans off. "Like fuck we do."

Without warning, Remus stands and shoots a sobering spell directly at Sirius' stomach. He yelps and clutches his belly, face like murder when he looks up at his former friend and long-ago lover. "What the hell was that for?"

"I told you," Remus replies mildly. "We need to talk. And we're not doing it while you're half off your tits on Orion's stash."

"Merlin, fucking fine! What do you want? Tell me off some more? Honestly I'm quite all right there, ta very much---"

"I'm sorry."

Sirius scoffs, a broken, barking sound. "What?"

Remus inhales. "I'm sorry. For all of it. I haven't told you that. I'm telling you now."

Sirius, tall, broad, all long hair and dark beard and flinted eyes glowing in the low candlelight, rises to his full height, squares up against this shell of a man with too-soon gray hair and wrinkles in all the wrong places (forehead, mouth).

(the knees of his trousers.)

"Why now?"

"You needed to hear it." Remus shrugs. "I needed to say it. So here we are."

"And where were you before? Last night? And the night before that?"

"I needed to think."

"In the Tube loos?"

Remus flushes and looks away.

"That's what I thought. Get out."

"No." Remus steps close, into Sirius' space. "I'm not letting you go again. This time, we're doing this together."

Sirius tries to back away, but something won't let him. His stubborn pride, his arrogance---

His nearly twenty-year devotion to a werewolf in sheep's clothing.

"Kiss me," the disgraced prince demands.

The unfaithful supplicant obeys.

AND FOR THE SMUT:

Sirius puts him on his knees immediately. They are jealous and petty and Sirius needs to fuck the taste of all these other men out of Remus' mouth.

It's not enough.

He hauls Remus up by his hair, swings him around until they are directly in front of the night-dark bedroom window overlooking the shabby square below.

Sirius can see their own reflection in the glass more easily than he can see the muggles straggling to and fro on this sticky summer night. But he knows they are there. Even if the enchantments over Grimmauld Place completely obscure them from the public eye--

Remus and Sirius know they are there.

"Show them." Sirius growls, pushing back in, hitting the back of Remus, throat, making him gag. "Show those filthy muggle men whose cock you belong to. How sweet you take it for me. They're not getting your mouth ever again. This mouth is mine. Fucking--mine--"

He thrusts hard on the last words, emptying hot and hard down Remus' throat.

He chokes it down, coughing and sputtering, but swallows it all nonetheless.

"Say it," Sirius growls overhead, panting and sweaty.

Remus swallows again and opens his mouth, voice absolutely wrecked. He loves it. "My mouth is yours."

"Good." Sirius strips off the rest of their clothes. "Now turn around, hands on the window," Sirius murmurs as he sinks to his knees and licks his lips. "Time to show them who owns this arse, too."

hee hee thanks for playing <3 xoxoxo

[neroushalvaus]

An important poll. Read the answers before answering. Some of the answers can coexist but choose the one that feels the most true to you, and elaborate if possible.

Answer "Did Thomas love Philip?" poll here.

Even if I happened to think there were right and wrong answers, I would keep my opinions to myself for now.

[neroushalvaus]

Richard and Philip somehow meeting each other at a time when things between Richard and Thomas are slowly falling apart & they talk about how difficult Thomas is to be in a relationship with & their conversation is basically just Tango Maureen from Rent

[neroushalvaus]

Tired: Philip isn't a nice person because he planned to marry Mary for her money, and he broke up with Thomas & burned his letters

Wired: Philip isn't a nice person because Thomas wouldn't have been attracted to him if he was

[neroushalvaus]

I have had this fic on hold for waaaayy too long because the chapter has few missing scenes that I have not managed to write out but damn I wish to go back to this ⬇️

[neroushalvaus]

I don't remember if it was me or my galaxy brain s/o who first came up with this headcanon, but I am sure that Thomas has at least once called Philip "princess" in a derogatory way and Philip thought it was kind of hot

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I don't have fixed pet name usage headcanons for all the Thomas ships but I am a firm believer in the fact that Philip calls Thomas 'Darling' most of the time and when he says 'Thomas' it's like Uh Oh A Serious Discussion Time kind of thing

[neroushalvaus]

I mean as sad as the "We shall do very well together, won't we..?" "Ah, Thomas, your grace" is, I can also see Thomas not seeing it as sad at that point of his life. In my mind he and Philip have this relationship in which they pretty much think they're smarter than anyone else and they both get a kick out of pretending to not really know each other in front of other people. I can see them having a laugh about it later, maybe Philip pretending to forget Thomas's name again and Thomas calling him "your grace" cheekily, because it's their secret, they know something the others don't know, and it makes them feel smart and special.

[neroushalvaus]

Finally posting the first chapter of my fic that's loosely based on this post right here:

[neroushalvaus]

Quick question, which "you" do Thomas and Philip use in Finnish? I need the answer. For science.

You say "quick question" like that's an option. But yeah, they use the informal you.

(note that this time these subtitles are provided by our national public broadcasting company, this is tax payer money making sure we get the best subs possible)

When they are in front of other people, Thomas uses the formal you and Philip uses the informal you.

Usually it's safe to say that if one were to use someone's first name (with no titles) when speaking to them, one would also use the informal you. That's why Philip uses the informal one with Thomas from the start, since Thomas is a footman and is always called by the first name. This is also why Philip uses the formal you with all of the Crawleys, he isn't on the first name basis with any of them. So yeah, this implies Thomas and Philip are very close and if Thomas were to call Philip something, he'd use his first name. There are exceptions to this rule, for example the subtitles for the most part make Anna use the informal "you" for Bates after they marry even though she still calls him "Mr Bates".

Later on, when Thomas is promoted to valet and is known as "Barrow" upstairs and "Mr Barrow" downstairs, he should technically be addressed with the formal you all the time by everyone (good for him). For example, when speaking with Jimmy, Jimmy uses the formal you and Thomas uses the informal you.

So it is kind of simple, the formal you is a sign of respect or it means there is a certain distance between the speakers. And that means you get to do some really cool things with it if you want to.

For example, when Thomas is Robert's valet, he should get addressed with the formal you all the time, but when O'Brien steals the shirts and Robert is irritated, the subtitles have him addressing him with the informal you. I believe Thomas is the most "mis-you'd" person in the Abbey, matching well with how he is also often called "Thomas" when he should be called Barrow or Mr Barrow. On the flip side, when Jimmy says Thomas is "a real pal", he switches to the informal you as well, matching with him using Thomas's first name, and in that scene the switch serves to show that they're friends.

I'm sorry, you were only asking about the best worst boys and I gave you an essay, I've recorded these episodes so I was ready to come bearing screenshots... Hope you're fine with this answer too!

[neroushalvaus]

@lesbian-duke-of-crowborough once said that this post is Thomas as seen by Philip during their break up and I haven't stopped thinking about it since, nor have I stopped laughing my head off

[neroushalvaus]

Sometimes I think about how the first kiss in Downton Abbey happened between a duke and a male servant and how the show really went downhill from there.

[neroushalvaus]

Me and Fellowes may not always see from eye to eye, but there is this one thing he has written down that I can truly relate to:

Yes, Jules. You are right. That was amazing.

[neroushalvaus]

I do not remember if I've made this post before or just written this point in my drafts many times, and maybe this is just my crowbarrow shipper brainworms acting up... But to be honest, even if it was true that the Thomas/Guy ship was just the Thomas/Philip ship wearing a fake (pencil) moustache, would that be so bad? I mean, to me, the biggest problems of crowbarrow are

1. If Thomas had gotten his way in s1e1, he would have been Philip's servant (huge power-imbalance and I personally don't think either of them were mature enough to navigate such a relationship healthily at that point)

2. They were dicks to each other (we only saw this happen during a break-up, but still; it tells something about a relationship how quick they were to act like that)

3. Philip did not want to continue the relationship with Thomas.

But with Thomas and Guy none of those problems is an issue? Even though Guy offered Thomas a job, they will simply have a professional relationship on top of the romantic one (or the job will be being a homemaker; I find both possibilities very compelling). And when it comes to problem number two, they were nothing but kind and respectful towards each other in the movie. And then there is the fact that Guy really, really wants to take Thomas with him. Guy has chosen him, Guy wants to be with him.

Like I get it that this would mean that Thomas gets a slightly altered version of the future he wanted for himself in season one, but is it really a bad thing? What Thomas was asking for in the episode one was a better job/position than he had and a man to love him. I think those are more than reasonable things for him to want and I don't think it's bad that he got those things in the end. I actually find it quite admirable that despite what six seasons of Downton Abbey did to his self-confidence, he still has a clear view on what he wanted and what he still deserves.

[neroushalvaus]

girl help 42% of my spotify wrapped is directly from my crowbarrow playlist