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billfrancois · 2 days ago
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HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!!!
The Pokegals are all dressed up! Psyduck girl is going out as a succubus (Shiny Swoobat) and Slowpoke girl is rocking a cute witch (Galarian Slowking) costume!!!
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snakes-in-mirrors · 2 days ago
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Happy Halloween everyone! 🦇🍷
New prints just dropped - the holiday will end, but the bats will be with you all year round!
🦇 PRINTS: https://www.inprnt.com/gallery/morteraphan 🦇 STICKERS AND OTHER: https://www.redbubble.com/people/morteraphan/explore
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nataliedecorsair · 2 days ago
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For this Halloween, I present you my MRI monster + a little bonus story about it >:) --
It’s the tail end of October, when the days shrink down to thin slices of cold sunlight. The late autumn air is sharp and crisp. It’s carrying the scent of wet, dying leaves; it stirs a strange feeling inside you, a mix of melancholy and restless hunger for something more. An adventure, perhaps... or something darker.
And why not? You’re young, curious and like everything weird and unusual. For you anything out there is a story, and this one could be a story about the unfortunate abandoned hospital at the end of a broken road. Folks say this place is haunted, but maybe no one’s ever dared to find out for sure. You're certain it is time for you to solve this mystery for good.
You ease your way inside. The door gives a long, miserable creak as it opens, as if it hasn’t been touched in decades. The paint, once green, is almost gray now; it hangs in shreds, peeling off the wood like dead skin. The air in the hallway hits you, stale and thick, smelling of dust and something sour. You pull out your flashlight, clicking it on with a soft snap, and the narrow beam cuts through the dark, scanning over pockmarked walls and the occasional room. But, of course, you don't see anything but empty beds, rusty buckets, piles of ragged fabric left to rot. No signs of ghosts or ghouls - or anything remotely interesting, for that matter.
You explore for ten minutes, maybe more, telling yourself you’ll see something any second now. But after the seventh empty room, you start to think there's no mystery at all. Pretty expectable, isn't it? Or what, did you really think you’d find anything but dust, broken glass, and busted syringes? With a sigh, you turn to go, shaking your head.
You take a step into the hallway, flashlight slicing through the shadows, and that’s when you hear it: a low, dry crrrk-crrrk. At first, you think it’s the old building settling. But then it comes again, irregular and jittery, like static: crick-crack, crick-crick-crack. The sound’s sharper now, that unmistakable staccato of a Geiger counter ticking.
Your heart beats faster. You swing the flashlight in the direction of the noise, but there’s nothing there, just the same hollow walls and chipped paint. Crick-crack-crick. Louder now, closer... For a sick, sinking moment, you wonder if there’s something radioactive buried here, and shake your head in disbelief.
"It doesn’t make any sense," you think. "I don’t even have a Geiger counter." But your mind, stubborn as a mule, wrestles to make sense of the nonsense, to catalog that weird crackle and shove it into some drawer that fits. Maybe you’re just hearing things? The building is old, there could be some pipes. It's always the pipes that make the most uncanny noises.
But the thing making that sound... it doesn’t care whether you understand or not.
You run forward, not watching where you're stepping, and a rusty bucket clatters across the floor. You fumble as your flashlight slips from your hand, the beam ricocheting off the walls and scattering shadows like startled birds. You crouch to retrieve it, fingers scrambling over the filthy, dusty tiles. And that’s when you see it, illuminated by the flashlight laying on the floor.
Feet.
They're human, but wrong. Slightly translucent - and shot through with slowly swirling masses of black and red liquid, twisting just under the skin. You look upward, and you make out the outline of a woman in a tattered, filthy hospital gown. Her body consists of that liquid, contained within the thin walls of her grayish skin. Everywhere but her head. It looks like an MRI scan, flickering between 2D and 3D, a nightmare too strange for your eyes to comprehend. Empty white orbs stare down at you, soulless and wide. She has no lips, but her mouth peels back, revealing a row of long, black teeth: it almost looks like a smile. She leans in, and before you can scream, rushes towards you - and the world plunges into darkness.
...You wake up in your own bed, the morning light spilling through the curtains. What a horrible nightmare you just had! Head feels so heavy, it hurts with this annoying, pulsating, throbbing pain deep within your brain. You feel feverish. You got sick, perhaps? It would explain the dream, so realistic - and so ephemeral at the same time.
With a sigh, you brush your palm through your hair, trying to shake off the remnants of sleep... but your fingers snag on something. A clump of hair. You pull it free, bewildered. Since when have you started balding? Confusion morphs into unease as you glance down at the skin of your hand, red and sunburn. Sunburn in October? In this area?
"I should definitely see a doctor," you think, an anxious knot tightening in your stomach. "But not in this abandoned hospital." Nervous chuckle escaped your lips, as you tried to calm yourself down with this silly joke. "I will never go there again, whether it's a dream or not."
…At least, you thought so. -- More spooky art here and here
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artwins · 2 days ago
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blackkatdraws2 · 19 hours ago
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[Toon x Mobster] doodles, sleepy Gavriel Huffman
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A drawing spread regarding the aftermath of Gavriel and Jack's first meeting :3
Gavriel feels little to absolutely no animosity in Jack and his place so his body and mind just goes “safe mode: on” even if he doesn't it want to lol. It's like he's recharging after living in high a stress environment his entire life, he's still tense around Jack but his body is like "it's safe here" and just goes honk shoo honk shoo 😪
I mean, he's always living life staying up late working and managing underlings, doing meetings, keeping up with contracts, having often violent confrontations, meh. Can you blame a guy for being an easily irritable tired prick because of all'at?
Jack being the provider as always YAY
"It's mandatory for all Toons to learn at least basic medical knowledge." YEAH ABOUT THIS. Small worldbuilding drop, the places populated by Toons have insanely high healing properties. Hospitals there are seldom built for the Toons themselves, but more so for the other genres who get injured a lot more easily :)
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0kame-san · 5 hours ago
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Sitting practice🪑
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ahungryspoon · 3 days ago
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almost done with #birdtober 😳 day 30 is a raven~
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nivaris · 2 days ago
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Once a year the little ones, gone before it was their time, have another chance to play.
In memory of my cat Hades
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soma021794 · 2 days ago
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soma doodle
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pepsdraw · 2 days ago
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halloween angels chars belongs to @suweeka
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callivalia · 2 days ago
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Aeolus and Apeliotes Calvalia
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Photo-op with the old boss! 💕
(a birthday gift for @sloanslone !! Thank you for always gracing my timeline with such gorgeous art! I’ve wanted to draw your Aeolus with my Apeliotes (being the master of the winds and the east wind respectively) since the moment I’ve laid eyes on them! Hope you like it!)
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nradiowave · 4 hours ago
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Home fairy
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sooniebby · 18 hours ago
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ఌ 𝐒𝐓𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐌𝐄𝐑
w.c › 11k
warnings › This is an OC. Reader’s last name is Lee. Internalized homophobia from reader. Religious guilt 10x. Thanks @sauvhffp for that Drabble, I borrowed an idea you presented in it. I don’t hate religious people pls don’t think that.
plot › You’re a cog in the machine that is capitalism, wondering if the days are worth it. When you meet a certain man that will make you wish for your mundane life again.
kinks › humping, handjobs, praise, lite pet play, degradation
words to know › Hyung (형) — a term a younger male with call an older male. Seonbae (선배) — term for someone in a higher position, can be work/school. Yeobo (여보) — “darling/honey” only married couples use this term. Gangaji (강아지) — puppy. Eonni (언니) — term a younger girl will call an older girl.
ೄྀ࿐ ˊˎ-
𝗖𝗵𝗮𝗽𝘁𝗲𝗿 𝟭
두통
ೄྀ࿐ ˊˎ-
다가와. 다가와, 자기야.
“Are you that scared of me? Or… are you scared of what this means for you? What you’re hiding deep inside.”
내가 너를 유혹하니?
“When you kneel for your God, do you think of when you kneeled for me?”
너무 순종적이잖아. 맛보고 싶지 않아?
“Kneeling for me in the same room your mother kneeled for Christ.”
그만해? 왜? 나는 진실만 말해.
“You can’t forget me, Lee (Name). Even with my body rotting right outside your door. You’ll find another me.”
“And he’ll break you; showing you true temptation.”
“Yah! Lee (Name)! Wake up!”
You gasped, sitting up. A paper was stuck to your cheek from your drool as you rubbed at your eyes, trying to fight the sleep that was threatening to seep back in. Another slam at your desk caused you to shriek as you glanced over at who was causing the commotion.
It wasn’t your boss, thankfully. But it was still a higher up, Park Minhee.
“Lee (Name), have you completed the paper I sent you this morning? You seem to be comfortably napping during work hours.” She said, raising an eyebrow. Her back straightened as she looked down at you like you were a little kid, not another adult that was only four years younger than her.
“Yes, Miss Park. I did finish it, I sent it straight to the boss.” You quickly answered, pulling off the paper stuck to your cheek. Minhee stared at you for a moment before letting out a humph.
She turned her attention to your colleagues who were watching the exchange. “Don’t follow in Lee (Name)’s footsteps, you hear? When you finish your work early, you will gladly get up and come ask me for more work. Do you understand?”
It took a moment before everyone reluctantly agreed. Minhee smiled, pushing up her circular glasses as she walked off, her heels clicking against the recently polished ground.
Your body felt limp once she was finally out of earshot. You could hear murmuring from your coworkers, a few a bit snarky about Minhee’s attitude being your fault.
“You okay, Seonbae?”
You glanced over to see Kim Eunha. Eunha was recently hired after being an intern for almost two years. It was pure luck she got the job here. Even for you, you were about to quit as an intern before you finally got the job.
Eunha was sweet. One of the only people you actually liked at your job.
“I’m okay. I just haven’t been sleeping well.” You muttered, rubbing the bridge of your nose.
“Oh! Here.” Eunha moved to grab something off her desk before handing it over to you. It was a glasses cleaner. You thanked her, taking off your glasses as you cleaned the marks off them.
Eunha hummed for a moment before grinning nervously. “Uhm, Seonbae. I was wondering if you were coming to the party Friday night.”
“Party?”
“Mhm. It’s being held for Kang Taeyeon’s birthday. She invited the whole department.”
“I don’t think I want to go. No one here besides you likes me.”
“Please?” Eunha frowned, sighing slightly. “You never come to the dinners or parties we hold. It might help bridge the gap if you attend them.”
You knew she was technically right. With you continuously pushing yourself away from your coworkers, the gap was wide.
But you didn’t necessarily feel like bridging it. There was no way you wanted to get close to people.
“I’ll think about it.” It was only Monday. You had four days to think about it. Eunha beamed at your words and eagerly went back to her assignment.
Like you’d actually want to go.
ཆི❤︎ཆྀ
Your family was relatively agonistic when you were growing up. Mom and Dad didn’t care too much about religion to raise you under it with your elder sisters. While your mother’s family were strict Christian conservatives, your father’s family was practically the opposite.
Though you couldn’t necessarily call him your father these days, could you?
It wasn’t until your tenth birthday that something cracked in your family. The once happy family of five soured.
And it was all your fault. That’s what your father screamed every day and night as he cried into a beer bottle.
Your mother was unfaithful.
Unfaithful for so long that your sisters were technically your half sisters.
After that, your mother and father didn’t divorce for some odd reason. Mom began to wallow in self pity about her actions and turned to God. Her once flip-floppy faith turned solid. Anything to make her feel good about herself.
Your father took his anger out on you.
The eldest sister, having reached the age of twenty, was embarrassed by her family’s history. More so that she dared to happily love an affair baby. She hardly talks to you as if you asked to be born from a man your mother fucked on the side.
Everyday from then on, you were dragged to church each Sunday with your mother’s family. They practically beamed at having you at arms reach. Your weak mind took in all of the prayers and sermons to heart, hoping that maybe, just maybe, your family will come back.
Your family would come back once you repented your sins.
Sins…?
Ten year old Lee (Name) was sinful.
Your therapist had laughed when you said that.
You haven’t gone back to see him in over a year. So sensitive you were. The mere thought of everything that you learned being wrong made you feel sick.
“(Name), you made it. Your sisters are already here.”
Your feet always hesitated before you walked into your parents’ house. It was like your body was trying to protect you but you would always ignore it. Your mother rushed you inside as you slipped off your shoes, following after her.
“Afternoon.” Your eldest sister, Yerin, didn’t attempt to look up from her phone.
“Hi, how was your day?” Your second eldest sister, Yena, asked. Yena was staring at you as she picked up her bag from the chair next to her so you could join her at the dining table.
You gave Yena a smile. “It was okay. How was yours?”
“Great! The kids are calming down now that it’s been a month of school.” Yena smiled. She was a kindergarten teacher. Yerin was a lawyer. More meaningful compared to the plain office job you worked. You wished you liked your job as much as Yena did.
Your mother was fretting around as she placed down the dishes for dinner. You almost attempted to help her but stopped yourself, glancing down at your hands. Yena began talking about a “poop incident” at her school a week ago when Yerin finally looked up from her phone.
Yerin looked you right in the eye as she tilted her head. “You don’t visit often; what, found your real family?”
“Eonni!” Yena frowned, stopping her rambling to glare at Yerin.
You didn’t even attempt to say anything. This was to be expected with her. “Is he coming out for dinner tonight?”
“Why? You could talk to him yourself.” Yerin rolled her eyes. “I’m not sure why you don’t talk to him. He raised you, giving you shelter, food, water. The least you could do is act like a son to him. He’s getting stressed out at his job these days…”
You tuned her out. She wouldn’t understand. She had already left the home when your father turned on you. When your father didn’t hesitate to lock you in the closet until your voice was hoarse from screaming and Yena finally came home from her club.
Yerin was just like your mother. Pretending the way your father reacted was normal. Your mother was still oddly religious—fully believing that she had her sins forgiven by her lord and savior. She still dragged you to church every Sunday.
You were sure she was attempting to scout out a good Christian girl for you to marry now. So many of the older church ladies were stopping you after the sermon to introduce you to their daughters.
Your father didn’t come out for dinner.
Your mother kept saying he was just tired.
You weren’t a fucking idiot. That man still hated you for daring to be born and not dying in childbirth.
The food tasted bitter and cold. The cross on the wall of the dining room felt like a curse. Bible verses hanging right in your face. He was mocking you at this point. Why haven’t you been forgiven for your sins?
“How has work been? Have you gotten a promotion yet?” Your mother suddenly asked.
The kimchi in your mouth was so bitter that you almost throw up but you swallowed it down. “No. They wouldn’t give me a promotion so soon.”
Your mother’s eyes narrowed in on your face as her lips twitched. “You seem irritated. Have you been praying? Perhaps you should come to the nightly sermons I mentioned to you. Work must be stressing you out.”
You glanced over at Yena. “Do you go the sermons?”
Yena frowned, biting her lip. “Ah, no. I haven’t been going as often as I should.” She laughed nervously, rubbing at her arm. “But uhm, my husband isn’t exactly all that interested in religion.”
Yerin clinked her chopsticks against the bowl. “Why do you ask, (Name)? Trying to get out of your duty?”
Duty.
It was a fucking duty.
Yerin and Yena weren’t forced by your mom to go to church. But you were. You were dragged there by your arms even if you kicked and scream.
Your father had always told you that he’d never force a religion onto you. Though it was an empty lie, huh?
Deep down, you had a feeling it wasn’t just being an affair baby anymore. Your parents, even sisters, assumed something about you that made you anxious.
Why haven’t you been interested in girls like any other boy?
You were normal. You were fucking normal and you weren’t whatever your family was thinking. The sin of being born to an adulator was already on your record being a ‘homosexual’ of all things was practically a death sentence.
It was normal to not go crazy over any girl just because she was ‘pretty’ in the eyes of the church. You had standards.
“No,” you muttered, staring at the bowl of kimchi. Kimchi and rice. You’ve always eaten this. Always eaten it without a care in the world.
Your throat burned as you vomited on the dining table.
ཆི❤︎ཆྀ
“Seonbae, is this right?”
You glanced over at Eunha, checking the paper she was going over. “The number here is wrong. You subtracted instead of adding.”
“Ah! Thanks, Seonbae.”
It was Friday evening, your shift almost over in an hour. Eunha was still in the belief that you were coming to the birthday party. You didn’t know if you could turn her down. You’ve recently started going to the night sermons your mother was talking about.
They were bothering you—affecting your sleep. You would always come home with this weird ache in your chest that you couldn’t get rid of.
The hour felt long before it was finally over. It was bustling as people immediately got ready to go home for the weekend. You glanced over at the clock, trying to think of a way to excuse yourself when a hand patted you on the back.
“You coming, Lee (Name)? We’re heading to the restaurant!” It was one of your older coworkers, Park Woohyun. The ‘heartthrob’ of the financial department of the company. You understood why. He was handsome.
A few people often asked if he was related to Lee Dong-Wook.
You frowned, “ah, uhm, I’m not sure…”
Woohyun hummed. “What do you mean? I doubt you have anything better to do.”
Your jaw tightened as you heard a few chuckles. Anything better to do. Yeah, he was right. At most you were going to attend the sermon again. But to be told that out loud with the sounds of laughter following was humiliating.
Why did it seem like everyone hated you?
Were they right?
Does your sinful past follow you everywhere that people subconsciously feel it?
“Okay.” You suddenly said, a tight smile on your lips. “I’ll come.”
Besides, you needed to drink.
ཆི❤︎ཆྀ
“Is… this okay?”
His lips pressed against yours before pulling away. The cool air from the opened window eases into the bedroom. It caused your body to shiver as he let out a laugh.
“No. It’ll never be okay. Not if you want to stay a perfect church boy.”
“Then don’t kiss me again..! I can’t do anything else to make Him angry.”
“Don’t kiss you again?”
Hands gripped your shirt, pulling you close against his chest. Nose touching as his gaze bore into yours. His eyes looked blank as he leaned down, his lips teasing yours.
“Is that what you really want, Lee (Name)?”
You can’t remember if you ever responded to his question. The aftermath is all you can remember. He grabbed his backpack and went outside. You watched him get on his bike, the moonlight shining down on him.
There was something he said before biking away. It was hazy in your mind now but the essence was still there.
No matter how much you tried—you’ll never make your family happy.
Then he biked away. You turned to get back inside your house when a crash was heard. Running. You ran not even a few feet to see him on the ground, blood pooling beneath him. A drunk, clumsy driver stepped out of her car as she began babbling something.
All you remember is that the last thing you told Kim Junhan before his death at the ripe age of sixteen was that you would never be a ‘homosexual’ like he was.
“𝙃𝘼𝙋𝙋𝙔 𝘽𝙄𝙍𝙏𝙃𝘿𝘼𝙔!”
The sounds of clapping caused you to jump up, glancing over to see your coworkers had brought out the cake for Kang Taeyeon. You paid them no mind, staring down at your drink. Whenever you drank too much, he would always seep back into your mind.
You downed the drink in ease before asking for another one from the bartender. She raised an eyebrow at you but complied anyway.
The memories of Kim Junhan always felt so bitter.
The bartender placed the drink down. You were about to thank her when she held out a tissue for you. She must’ve noticed your confusion when she just pointed at your face and waited for you to take the tissue.
You took it and began to tap your face. When you glanced at the tissue it was wet. Fuck. You quickly wiped at your face, hoping that you didn’t look overly pathetic. Crying in a restaurant while your coworkers were singing happy birthday.
What a joke.
After the embarrassment began sinking in even more, you drank four more shots until the bartender refused to give you anymore. You were disgruntled with her but knew she was just doing her job. So you gave her the bill and left the restaurant.
None of your coworkers noticed.
You shivered as the cool air immediately attacked you once outside. You were only dressed in a thin white button up and black slacks. Your hands shook as you quickly made sure to put on your suit jacket. Though it did nothing to make you feel warm.
Perhaps you were too drunk but you suddenly felt like crying.
It had been over ten years now since Junhan died. You briefly wondered what day it was. It must’ve been his anniversary of his death. Maybe that’s why. That’s all it is.
You kneeled down and couldn’t stop the sobbing as you curled into yourself. A drunk man crying on the wall of a restaurant.
How pathetic.
ཆི❤︎ཆྀ
Moon Eunjae hated restaurants like this. Cheap and tacky. But more importantly, the rowdy group of corporate slaves that drank until they dropped. Looked like it was on their birthday.
He turned his attention back over to his plate of food, pushing it towards his friend. “Ugh. Eat it for me.”
His friend, Yoonchae, rolled her eyes. “What? Is the food too ‘cheap’ for your liking?” She asked, grabbing his plate and immediately digging in.
“Hey, if you paid for us, we wouldn’t drag you to cheap places,” his friend beside him, Rowoon, laughed. “Not everyone can afford a meal over 100,000 won.”
Eunjae hummed. “It’s just shit. Just because you’re poor doesn’t mean your food has to be shit.”
Rowoon laughed louder while Yoonchae snapped her chopsticks in half. A loud yell from the crowd caused Rowoon to sigh.
“Is this the only time they have fun? They’re so fucking loud.” He whined, shaking his head.
“It’s her birthday, cut them some slack.” Yoonchae muttered as she grabbed a new pair of chopsticks.
Eunjae didn’t say anything. He knew he wouldn’t understand how those corporate slaves would feel being free on weekends. Though he never attempted to understand. He was only twenty-one compared to the group of adults who looked closer to their mid thirties.
He rubbed at his face before standing up. “I’m taking a smoke break.”
“Hope you catch cancer.” Yoonchae said as he walked out of the building.
Eunjae yawned as he made it outside, the cool air hardly bothering him as he dressed in a thick jacket made with fluffy fur. He pulled out his lighter and pack of cigarettes, placing one between his lips as he easily lit it.
He stood there for a moment before hearing soft hiccuping. His eyes glanced to the right and he immediately looked away. Someone crying against the wall of a cheap restaurant that sells noodles that are obviously thirty years old.
Pathetic.
Oh well, he wouldn’t bother them.
His smoke break was needed as he hummed to himself. The calming wind breezed past him when he heard the stranger let out a particularly loud whimper. He was set on ignoring them again when they pulled their head out of their hands.
You were… pathetic.
So fucking pathetic.
But cute.
Like a puppy.
Round doe eyes wet with tears that’s stained your cheeks. Your body heaving as you took deep breathes from your heavy crying. Lips almost in a pout.
Who knew a man could be so cute?
Eunjae was ready to just leave you alone still despite his weird interest in you when your gaze turned over to him. Your body shivered as the wind picked up again. Doe puppy eyes bore into his as you sniffled, curling into yourself tighter to keep your body warm.
He didn’t know what to say. His cigarette was slipping out of his mouth as it parted in his shock.
Your eyes flickered to his face. He quickly wondered if you found him attractive. If you were feeling this odd need to be near him like he felt for you.
“I’m…” You whispered, he noticed your odd movements. Almost sluggish. Were you drunk? He waited for you to finish your sentence.
“Cold.” You lamely finished.
Eunjae didn’t know what exactly you thought he could do about that. But he didn’t say anything. You didn’t look like you’d listen to anything he would say right now. Right now he should be a ‘good’ citizen and get you home.
“What’s your address? You’ll freeze to death out here in such thin clothes.” He said, pulling out his phone to call a taxi.
You frowned, slowly standing up. Your body pressed against the wall as your eyes felt heavy. It was almost as cute as it was pathetic to watch you stumble over to him. Eunjae made no attempt to help you.
He enjoyed seeing you stumble.
Your hand gripped at his arm as you glanced at his phone. Your body felt so heavy that it felt as if you’d collapse if you let go of Eunjae.
“Address?” Eunjae asked again.
“Too far.” You whispered, subconsciously snuggling close to him. His jacket was so warm, so nice. Why couldn’t he share it with you?
“Too far? Come on, tell me where you live.”
“Incheon.”
“Incheon? You don’t live in Seoul?”
“Too expensive,” you whined, glaring at him. “It’s only an hour away… but trains closed.”
Eunjae checked the time. You were right, it was past midnight. No taxi was going to drive a full hour so late as well without some hefty cash. And you didn’t look like the type of be carrying such cash.
The door to the restaurant opened as a man and woman walked out. Eunjae watched them, noticing they must’ve been your coworkers. They looked worried almost scared as they frantically glanced around the street.
He wondered if they needed something until they glanced over at him. The pure anger on their face would’ve terrified him if he cared.
“What are you doing to my Seonbae?” The woman asked, glaring at Eunjae. She reached over and grabbed your hand, pulling you over. You didn’t attempt to stop her, releasing your grip on Eunjae’s jacket.
The man, a similar height to Eunjae almost looked like he was only one step away from punching him. “Were you trying to take him somewhere?”
Eunjae rolled his eyes. So much for helping. “I was trying to take him home. What is he your boyfriend?” He laughed, tilting his head.
“Woohyun Seonbae, let’s just get back inside, (Name) Seonbae is shivering.” The woman said, holding you close.
Woohyun glanced over at you. He only shook his head at Eunjae. “We’ll take him home.”
Eunjae shrugged. He didn’t care about you that much. But oddly enough, he couldn’t help but feel a bit… angry? Maybe it was the fact someone older than him was treating him like a predator.
Respect your elders or something like that.
He tugged at his jacket, holding it in his hands. The cool air immediately attacked him. No wonder you were shivering like a dog. He walked over to you, ignoring the woman’s glare at him.
“Here. Since you liked it so much.” Eunjae draped the jacket over your shoulders, helping you slip your arms in to properly wear it. Your doe eyes stared up at him as he zipped it up, a smirk on his lips. “Just return it to me, Gangaji.”
“Wait,” you called out. Eunjae glanced over at you just before he entered the restaurant. “How can I..? I don’t know your name..”
Eunjae grinned. “It’s in the jacket.”
He walked right back inside, joining Rowoon and Yoonchae. Rowoon hummed as he smirked.
“Where’s your jacket?” Rowoon asked.
“Gave it to someone.”
“You? Giving away your belongings?” Yoonchae laughed. “Why? Was she cute?”
“Very. He was as cute as a puppy.”
Yoonchae and Rowoon shared knowing looks at each other. Despite Eunjae’s ‘nonchalant’ behavior, they knew he must’ve been infatuated with this stranger to give up his favorite jacket.
They made a silent prayer for the poor soul.
Anyone Eunjae liked would often wish they never met him.
❝ 차츰 어둠이 드리울 테니 ❞
You awoke with a groan, feeling a comfortable bed beneath you. Your arms stretched out as felt considerably warm. A grunt left you as you sat up and took a look at your surroundings.
It was a nicer apartment. Your gaze flickered to the window. This was certainly Seoul. Incheon did have the busy streets as well but Seoul was considerably filled with people and cars rushing by.
As you got out of the bed, you noticed you had a large fluffy jacket on. You almost didn’t want to take it off. It was so warm and comfortable. But you pulled it off to see where you even got this.
Oh shit.
Dolce & Gabbana.
Your eyes read the name tag multiple times to see if you were imagining it.
Dolce & Gabbana!!!
Where did you get this?
You gently placed the coat that must’ve cost your rent on the bed and sprinted out of the bedroom. Just even where were you? The apartment was certainly nice but it didn’t look to be anything expensive. Quite small.
“Oh, Lee (Name) you’re awake!” A voice called out to you.
You glanced over to the kitchen to see Park Woohyun wearing an apron. Kim Eunha was right beside him holding a plate of pancakes. The two were smiling at you weirdly. Well, it was normal for Eunha to smile at you like that but you can’t ever remember Woohyun looking happy to see you.
“Do you have a hangover? I have some tablets in my bathroom cabinet.” Woohyun said, nodding towards the direction you came from. You did have a headache but didn’t want to leech on him anymore than you have.
“Uhm,” you whispered, walking over to them. “Did I sleep on your bed?”
Woohyun hummed. “You got my bedroom. Kim Eunha went back to her place but she came back to check on you. You slept in for a minute.”
Eunha hummed, smiling widely at you. “It’s 3 pm!”
Your eyes widen. “3 pm?! Why didn’t you wake me up?” You frowned.
“Why would I? You seemed like you needed the rest.”
“It’s okay, (Name) Seonbae. You had a crazy night, you needed all the rest you could get.” Eunha walked over to you, pushing you to sit down at the dinner table as she placed the plate of pancakes in front of you.
You muttered a quick thank you. “What do you mean? Did I do anything weird?”
Woohyun shrugged. “Define weird. You mean during the taxi ride here you cried that none of your coworkers liked you.” He took off his apron and walked over to you, sitting down beside you.
“I didn’t know you had that impression of me, Lee (Name).” Woohyun said, his face suddenly serious. “Have I been treating you terribly? Why haven’t you told me?”
Eunha sat down across from you, a frown on her lips. “Seonbae, I don’t know what gave you the impression we hated you but we don’t! We’re sorry we didn’t notice when you left the bar… If we were quicker that kid wouldn’t have been bothering you!”
You began to nibble on the pancakes when Woohyun gave you calculated look that was practically telling to eat or else. “What kid?” You muttered.
“The kid that gave you the jacket.” She said.
Your brain was a bit hazy. You couldn’t remember any kid that you spoke to. What kid was he to wear such a large jacket that it practically swallowed you whole? All you could really remember was what the kid called you.
강아지
You don’t know why he would call you a puppy, especially if he was younger than you. You do vaguely remember he didn’t speak respectfully with you.
Kids these days. You shook your head.
“I need to return the jacket then. Did he give his name?”
Woohyun shrugged. “He said it was written on the jacket. Check the name tag.” He leaned in close to you, causing you to flinch. His eyes narrowed in on you before he pulled away. “I think you suffer from low self-esteem, Lee (Name).”
Eunha coughed, her eyes wide. “Woohyun Seonbae! That’s not appropriate to say to someone randomly.”
“But it’s true.” Woohyun said, shaking his head. He was around fifty—probably uncaring about how to properly be a human at this point in life. “Only someone with low self-esteem would blindly believe everyone hates him. I joke with you but you seem to always take it as me punching you down.
“A normal person would tell the other that they don’t like the joke. However, you seem to think everyone else hates you as well. Kang Taeyeon invited you to the party for a reason. She was quite sad you stayed in the corner. It was party, you were supposed to mingle with everyone else.”
Eunha frowned. “Seonbae… This is a lot to spring up on someone with a hangover. Besides, it’s normal to not speak up in a work place setting. You’re our supervisor.”
“It’s not like I’ll fire you because you called me out.”
“Yeah well not every boss is as normal as you.”
You could only stare at Woohyun in shock. The audacity. The fucking audacity to bluntly tell you that you were suffering with low self worth.
It hurt. It really hurt.
Not just because he was your boss saying it.
But because he was right. Your therapist had said the exact same thing.
Were you that miserable that everyone could notice?
It was so fucking embarrassing. Why were you so embarrassing?
You didn’t even notice you were crying until your vision got blurry. Eunha began fussing obviously worried that Woohyun had hurt your feelings. And he did, he definitely did. You didn’t need this so early in the day, even if it was the afternoon.
A slight hiccup left you before you felt a hand pat you on the head. Your eyes glanced over to Woohyun. He looked a bit apologetic as he rubbed your head like you were ten years old.
“Sorry, Lee (Name). I hurt you again didn’t I?”
An apology? He really apologized.
Your lips quivered before you began to bawl. Woohyun and Eunha were shocked and quickly grabbed tissues as you wailed as if you were a baby.
Your dad was only ten years older than Woohyun.
Your dad never apologized like Park Woohyun.
To see someone close to your dad age, someone who could even be your father… To hear those words.
You needed to get back into therapy. You were a fucking mess.
Woohyun let you get cleaned up in his bathroom, telling you to just pull some clothes from his dresser. Eunha had given you a hug before you left. It was embarrassing to cry in front of a man who could be your father and a woman who was only two years younger than you. But it also felt liberating to see them care so much about you.
Did your coworkers… really not hate you like you assumed?
How many situations have you been in that you wrongly assumed the other hated you?
Maybe you… maybe you should make the effort to talk to people.
You shook your head. One step at a time. Your eyes flickered over to the jacket on the bed. You walked over and checked the tag again. Was there any other tag in it? It took a moment of you checking any space on the jacket before you came across a second tag that had the laundry instructions.
문은재
Moon Eunjae? A pretty name. You checked to see if there was any number. There was not. You checked the pockets until you pulled out a receipt. It looked to be from a delivery. The address and phone number was on it.
This must be his phone number. Hopefully.
You grabbed your phone, noticing a few texts from your mother. The familiar feeling of agony began to grow in your chest. You almost wanted to throw up the pancakes you ate.
Was it normal to hate being near your mother?
To even see a message from her and your world felt like it was crashing down.
She had sent multiple messages asking you where you were. Ah, there was another sermon yesterday. Looks like she was practically begging you to join the one for tonight. Why do churches even hold so many sermons everyday? Do people really enjoy that?
You checked the time. It was close to 5 pm now. No way would you make it in time for the 6 pm sermon. You didn’t respond and just decided to attend the usually Sunday Service at noon.
Your body instantly calmed when you decided that but you didn’t want to think any further on why church was so intense for you. You typed out the number on your phone and called it, hoping you could return the jacket tonight while still in the area.
It rang for a moment before it was answered.
“Who’s this?”
“Uhm, hello. Is this Mister Moon Eunjae..? You gave me your jacket last night.”
“Oh, Gangaji. You were able to remember me? Aren’t you a good boy?”
Your face flushed. What the fuck? You weren’t about to let someone younger than you talk down to you. “It’s Lee (Name). Anyway, I want to return your jacket while I’m still in Seoul. Where do you live?”
“Hm, you’re no fun.” He chuckled. “You got my number from the receipt, right? Go to the address.”
“What, but what time—?”
He hung up. That little…
You sighed. The address was in the direction of Incheon actually. So it wouldn’t be out of your way. You dressed in Woohyun’s clothes and put your dirty clothes in a plastic bag Eunha gave you.
It was awkward going back to the living room. Eunha had went back home before it got too dark. You were glad to not have to talk to her until Monday. But it was awkward seeing Woohyun.
Woohyun got up from the couch to let you out. You were set to rush out when he grasped your shoulder, turning you to face him. His face was blank before a slight smile pulled on his lips as he gave you comforting pat on the head.
“Get home safe. See you Monday.”
You definitely did not leave the apartment feeling happy, no you did not.
The address led you to a hotel. You at first thought maybe it was just a fancy apartment complex but the receptionist called it a hotel when you asked. It felt awkward just standing there in clothes a bit too big on your body.
Everyone that walked past was dressed to the nines. Expensive coats. Shining jewelry. It almost felt like a joke that you were even able to stand in the same area as them.
“Gangaji?”
You turned over to see someone walking over to you. You mentally cursed at yourself for responding to the nickname. The person who you assumed was Moon Eunjae grinned, wearing clothing vastly different from everyone else.
A baggy sweatshirt with faded jeans. He didn’t look like someone who could own such an expensive jacket but maybe he was just dressing down. You held the jacket out when he got close, a slight smile on your lips.
“Here… Thank you for offering it to me. I didn’t mean to act so childish last night.” You said, bowing your head slightly. Being his elder, you felt a bit embarrassed he took care of you.
Eunjae looked to be a few inches taller than you. Shaggy black hair. He had sharp dark brown eyes that stared straight at you. His lips pulled into a smug smile as he tilted his head. It took a moment before he grabbed his jacket from your hand.
“Thanks.” He said, his voice smooth and silky. You almost wanted to run out there but couldn’t help but stare right back at him.
He was handsome but you don’t remember ever being phased by a man being handsome. Mainly… only Kim Junhan had ever made you feel this strange way.
Eunjae suddenly hummed. “Do you want to have dinner before you go?”
Your lips parted, ready to refuse. “Yes.”
What?
You followed Eunjae out of the hotel. He didn’t say anything the entire walk. It was only for a few minutes before you reached a small little restaurant outdoors. There was a large tent covering it. A few people were sitting around eating what looked be Korean BBQ.
Eunjae motioned for you to sit while he talked to the owner. The owner almost looked excited to see Eunjae as she immediately pointed for him to sit down as she grabbed a plate of raw meat.
The two came over to where you sat. Eunjae sat down just as the owner turned on the heat of the grill. She handed Eunjae the meat and gave you a smile before rushing off to help some customers.
You reached out to grab the tongs when he did it for you. Your eyes just simply watched as he began to cook the meat. It was usually the eldest that cooked the meat—so to have him do it felt weird.
After a couple were finished he placed it on your plate, motioning for you to eat.
You silently thanked him and began to eat, having not had Korean BBQ in a hot minute. It was better than you remembered. You couldn’t help but flex your hand, shaking it in excitement as you continued to eat. Eunjae knew how to cook the meat just right!
A snort caught your attention as you looked up.
“You act like a kid.” Eunjae said, placing a few more pieces of meat on your plate. “It’s cute. You really are a Gangaji.”
You blushed. “It’s not right to call me that. I’m older than you.”
“Ah,” Eunjae rolled his eyes. “Should I call you hyung then?”
“Well, no, we’re not close.”
“But what if I want us to be?”
You almost choked as your eyes widen. Eunjae smirked. What the hell was wrong with this kid?
“How old are you?”
“Twenty-one. I can legally drink.” He said, motioning to the beer he had ordered.
“Well I’m twenty-five; twenty-six in a few weeks. You shouldn’t speak so informally with me.”
“Why should I speak formally with my Gangaji?”
“You little!”
Eunjae ignored your outburst and placed the rest of the meat on your plate. He turned off the grill and began finally eat his meat that he cooked. You knew the meat had to have been cold by now. You were about to give him some of your meat as it was recently cooked but he suddenly looked up at you.
“I usually stay to people my own age.” Eunjae confessed. “But you’re too cute to pass up.”
“I’m a person.”
“And my Gangaji.”
“Stop calling me that!” You whined, trying your best to glare at him.
Eunjae’s eyes bore into yours. You suddenly felt watched as he just stared at you for a moment.
“Are you happy, Lee (Name)?”
Your eyes widen. It was odd to hear him properly speak to you. To use your name. But to even ask such a question. What the hell.
“Why… Why do you…?”
“It’s just a question.” Eunjae said nonchalantly. “I’m not happy, at least not fully. I think I’m not living life the way I want to.”
“I…”
“Are you living the life you want? Are there any people you should cut out of your life?”
A shuddered gasp left your lips, your eyes wide as you tried to speak. Why did it feel like everyone was suddenly your therapist?!
“I’m.. I’m happy.. I…”
“Are you religious?”
“How..?”
Eunjae grinned. “I don’t think you’d wear a cross necklace if you weren’t.”
You glanced down to notice your necklace wasn’t tucked in your shirt like it usually was. Your hand quickly tucked it away. Looking back up at Eunjae, his face was unreadable as he watched your action.
“It’s… I uhm. I do attend sermons. Are you religious?” You asked.
“No.” Eunjae took a sip of his beer. “Someone like me would burn if I step foot in a church.” His smile didn’t reach his eyes.
It was silent for a moment as he went back to eating his meat. Once he was finished, Eunjae glanced over at you.
“We should be friends. My mom wants me to be friends with more sensible people.” Eunjae chuckled, grinning at you. “Will you be my friend, Lee (Name)?”
You bit your lip. “Ah, but we might not have anything in common…”
“We’ll find something.” Was all he said before getting up, motioning that he was going to pay the bill. You almost shot up at the idea but he didn’t take no for an answer.
After paying, Eunjae walked with you to the train station. Usually silence made you feel awkward or anxious. But with Eunjae, the silence felt peaceful. Your mind didn’t overthink with him.
It wasn’t like he was doing anything. You just felt weirdly comfortable with him. There was an odd disappointment when you finally reached the station. You wondered if you should thank him or something when a hand slithered itself to the curve of your waist.
Your eyes widen as lips pressed against yours. Eunjae was kissing you. Kissing you out in the open. Your hand pressed against his chest but you hesitated for a moment to push him away.
No.
A man’s lips aren’t supposed to feel so good.
You were normal. You couldn’t be…
When Eunjae pulled away, you subconsciously moved forward. Your eyes watched his face as a slight smirk pulled on his lips. He released his grip on you before reaching up and tugging off his jacket.
You watched, sober this time, as he placed the jacket on your shoulders. He carefully helped you put it on, zipping it up. His hands rest on your shoulders before gripping your face, squishing it softly before pulling away.
“Text me when you get home, Lee (Name).” Eunjae said. You tried to ignore the weird way you wished he called you Gangaji again. That was weird, no man calls another man a puppy!
You mutely nodded, feeling cozy in the jacket. “How will you get your jacket back..?” You whispered.
Eunjae grinned. “You’ll call me.” He said. “And when I answer your call, you’ll come running to me.”
“Won’t you run to me..?”
“No,” he laughed. “You better go, the trains about to leave.”
“What about your number?”
“It’s the same one you called. Just save it.”
You nodded but your feet was glued to the ground. There wasn’t anything else you wanted to ask but you couldn’t find it in yourself to leave him. This odd feeling you have. Infatuation probably.
You’ve never felt this way about a woman.
For a man younger than you was insane. You almost wanted to cry. Couldn’t you do anything right?
A hand caressed your cheek, causing you to glance up. His thumb pressed against the bottom of your lip. It gently pried your lips apart before he leaned down, his lips teasing the tip of your ear.
“Don’t look at me like that—I’ll end up leashing you so you’re never away from me.”
You gulped as he pulled away. He didn’t say anything else besides gently nudge you to leave. You listened and quickly walked to train just as the doors open. Just as you stepped inside, you glanced back at him.
Eunjae waved. His lips parting to mouth something.
A blush spread on your cheeks at his words.
Good boy.
Something was awakening within you and it wasn’t going to be good.
❝ 달빛 아래 숨죽인 나 ❞
Sunday Service.
Sunday Service was something you had come to hate. But you never skipped them despite your body always feeling physically sick on Sundays. You had begun waking up early and vomiting the bile in your throat.
When you told your mother she said it was God pushing the sin out.
Whatever that meant.
You sat in the usual back row, right next to your mom. You always sat at the end so you could bolt right out as soon as it’s finished. The pastor was preaching something. The quotes weren’t registering to you.
A tap on your shoulder caused you to sit up straight. You didn’t look at your mother knowing she would be looking at you with anger. The pastors words finally began to settle in.
Genesis 19:26.
Your body froze when the pastor began reciting the verses. Something felt wrong. Very wrong.
You glanced over at your mother and saw she was smiling at you. It was a genuine smile—as if she was happy about what was happening. She couldn’t have…
Memories of after Kim Junhan’s death filled your mind. You had mostly blocked it out at this point but it was all coming back. After the funeral, your mother had pulled you aside to talk to you.
She quoted Genesis 19:26 to you. Reciting it word for word. Then told you that your ‘worldly’ beliefs would lead you to follow in Junhan’s fate. You remember asking her if she thought Junhan possibly loving the same sex meant he had to die.
You remember her face.
Her blank face before saying yes right. Junhan’s parents were only a few feet away from you. You wondered what would’ve happened if you had told them what she said. That their poor son was killed because God believed homosexuality was a crime.
That God created the accident. That the drunk driver probably wouldn’t have killed them if Junhan only kissed girls.
In a way, you began to believe it was your fault he died. Maybe if you pushed harder, let him know he couldn’t live his life his way.
Your breathing was hard. Your hands gripped at your pants as you watched everyone else just say “amen” over and over again. You glanced up at where the pastor was. Your mother was friends with the pastor.
Did she really request him to recite that specific scripture? Would she do that to you?
Did she suspect you were falling back into homosexual thoughts?
You wanted to vomit.
A strangled gasp left your lips as you shot up. Everything stopped, everyone staring at you. You knew you probably looked like a freak. People probably thought you were scared about a homosexual.
You had to leave. You couldn’t be here anymore.
Your hand gripped at the bench as you made the attempt to leave.
“Where are you going? You’re being disrespectful!” Your mother yelled, grabbing your hand.
“Let go of me!” You involuntarily screamed, ripping your hand from her grasp. A needle could be dropped at your outburst. You, Lee (Name) screamed?
Just as you were about to apologize, a hand gently rest it on your back. You glanced back to see someone you least expected.
Standing behind you was Kim Junhan’s parents, Geon and Dohee. Geon gave you a comforting smile as he gently patted your back. You looked down in embarrassment.
“We’ll help him get some fresh air. Please continue on.” Dohee said, smiling. She turned to your mother and gave her a nod before motioning for her husband to help you walk out. Geon practically dragged you out, your legs feeling like jelly.
You don’t remember ever seeing Geon and Dohee at the church ever since Junhan’s funeral.
The fresh air brought a much needed relief as it kissed your face. Geon held you to his chest as you attempted to stand straight. Dohee came over with a water bottle, dapping at your skin with a handkerchief.
“Poor, baby… You’re sweating.” She muttered.
“Are you alright, (Name)-Ah?” Geon asked, helping you to sit down on the outdoor bench. You practically collapsed and went limp, chugging at the water bottle.
“It looked like he was having a panic attack. (Name)-Ah, do you have any medication for it?” Dohee said. You forgot she was a therapist.
You coughed slightly. “Why are you guys here?”
Dohee smiled somberly. “Well, Friday was Junhan’s death anniversary so we came to visit his grave. We were going to go back to Seoul yesterday but I wanted to visit the church to see some old friends.”
“I’m sorry,” you suddenly whispered. “I haven’t been visiting his grave often.”
Geon patted your head. “It’s alright. We know you love him. How have you been? Is everything treating you alright?”
You frowned. How much should you tell them? Back then, they certainly knew your father hated you. It wasn’t exactly a secret. There were so many times you ran to Junhan’s house to stay the night or even weekend to get away from home.
“I just… I just always feel anxious and terrible when I hear Genesis.” You admitted.
“Genesis? Why? It’s simply about disobedience.” Geon handed you Dohee’s handkerchief that you greatly accepted.
You shook your head. “It’s not over the story’s meaning itself… It’s more so on the memory surrounding it.”
Dohee and Geon didn’t make attempt to press you on it, thankfully. Geon went back inside to grab some more water as Dohee sat down beside you.
“Have you been treating yourself well?” She asked.
“Yes… I have.”
“Mhm.” She glanced over at you. “You can always contact us or even visit us, (Name)-Ah. Just because Junhan is gone doesn’t mean we have to leave your life as well. I felt like you were my own son back then. And even now, you’re my son. I worry for you. I want you to be happy, doing whatever you so wish.”
You frowned, biting your lip. “Anything? What if what I want to do is against God?”
“You want to murder someone?”
“What?! No!”
“Then what could it be? Do you truly believe in God? I remember how you speak about God—it’s always in fear. You never seem happy in church.”
You stared at her. “I guess… I guess I didn’t willingly want to go to church. Coming to church makes me anxious. I don’t like it here.”
“Then why come?” Dohee patted your leg. “You’re not a child anymore. You’re twenty-five. I assume you have your own apartment?”
“Yes.”
“Why are you letting your moth—your fear control you?” She gave you grin. “Before you started going to church, you were so bratty. No one could tell you to do anything without getting into a screaming match. You had to be presented a PowerPoint to do anything. I know it’s been too long for you to truly be that person again.
“But I believe you can see your worth. It’ll take time but you need to stop letting God or anyone else tell you what to do.” She sighed, pulling away just as Geon came outside with a water bottle. He handed it over to you.
You stayed outside with Geon and Dohee for a while longer. They told you to visit them whenever you came back to Seoul and left. It almost felt amazing to be with older people who were normal. You thought back to Dohee’s words as people began to leave church, signaling the service was done.
Your mother and her usual group of friends came over with their children. You usually attempted to force a smile but you didn’t this time, too tired to really do anything. So you didn’t even try to stand up when they were right in front of you.
“Lee (Name), are you alright? That was so scary? What happened?” A woman asked.
“Stomach bug.”
“Stomach bug? But why did you scream?” A man asked, one of the older woman’s son. His wife was right beside him, holding their daughter. You knew that’s what your mother was praying day and night for you to have.
“I was going to throw up if she held me back.”
Your mother looked angry but you didn’t say anything to her. The group began talking a bit amongst themselves when one of your mother’s bestest friend came over with her daughter who was close in age with you.
The mother was Sieun. Her daughter being named Gayoung if you could remember.
“(Name), you gave us quite a fright! Gayoung was so worried she was about to rush out to see if you were alright.” Sieun said, subtly nudging her daughter.
Gayoung smiled shyly, pushing at her hair. “Are you okay now, Lee (Name)..?” She whispered.
You knew Gayoung was any Christian man’s dream girl. A pretty girl who was quiet and modest. It wasn’t her fault that her mother was so desperate to marry her off to any man.
“I need to go, the virus is coming back.” You said, standing up. The three women stared at you in shock as you walked away.
It felt absolutely awful to leave them like that but you didn’t think you could handle staying there for a second longer. You just wanted to get home and collapse on your bed before work tomorrow.
You wanted to die.
It took longer for you to get home because of the need to stop multiple times. But you finally reached it. You got inside and kicked your shoes off, sluggishly dragging your body to your bedroom.
You plopped down with a huff, reaching into your pants to pull out your phone. It was around 4 pm.
You attempted to just sleep then when your eyes landed on a jacket resting on your door. It was fluffy and the most expensive thing in your house. Eunjae’s jacket. You slowly got up and grabbed it, hugging it to your chest.
The scent was nice. It must’ve been recently washed before Eunjae gave it to you. You dropped the jacket on the bed and began taking off your clothes. The clothes landed half hazardously around the room. Your finger tugged at your boxers before you slipped it off as well.
A grin pulled on your lips as you crawled into the bed, right over the jacket. You sprawled it out and leaned down, sniffing it. It was soft against your face. A weird feeling was taking you over as sat up.
In your twenty-five years of life you never masturbated.
Never.
Sexual pleasure was wrong.
Or the pleasure you wanted.
When you had moved out, you thought you would finally be comfortable enough to masturbate. But when you looked up porn, you noticed yourself paying more attention to the guy than the girl.
You had never touched porn again after that.
The most you had ever done was with Junhan.
But even then, you two didn’t go far because you were too scared. You had seen his cock and almost attempted to lick it. You wondered how far your relationship could’ve gone if you weren’t so scared about being punished.
Who could even punish you?
Dohee was right—you were an adult. You couldn’t live your entire life hoping to make your parents happy. To get the love from a man who doesn’t even say your name.
You stared down at the jacket. It can’t be too hard to wash a jacket, right?
Besides, it’s really soft. Is this real fur?
You slowly pressed your lower half against the jacket, your cock twitching already from the sensation. A whimper left your throat as you began to grind against the jacket. You started off slow before that wasn’t enough.
You rutted against the jacket, arching your back to get a better angle. It was so soft but that meant there wasn’t a lot of feeling in rutting. Your hand reached down as you hesitantly grasped your cock, shivering at the feeling.
The sensation was a bit much but you began jerking off. Your hips still moved as your toes curled, your orgasm already coming. To think you were missing out on this.
A stuttered whimper left you as you came, coating the soft fur beneath you. You sighed, pulling your hand away. Well, you could again…
You began to rub down against the jacket again, closing your eyes as you tried to reach a second orgasm. Maybe it was because it was his jacket you were using but you suddenly wondered what Eunjae would think if he saw you like this.
Would he be angry? Punish you for running his clothes with your cum?
Would he degrade you? The thought made you whimper—you liked his praise but you wanted to know how badly he could degrade you.
That couldn’t be normal but you were too close to think about the implications of that.
The high reached you quickly once again as your hips stuttered to a stop and you came. Your breathing was heavy as you pulled away, staring at the brown fur that was covered in white.
A weird sense of pride filled in your chest.
Now whenever he wore it, you’d be ingrained in it.
Wow, what the hell were you thinking?
You shook your head. Weird. That thought was weird. You need to take a shower.
And maybe masturbate some more.
Yeah, you have all night.
❝ 달콤한 어둠 아래 마녀들의 밤이 와 ❞
“You okay?” Eunha asked, sitting down beside you.
No, you weren’t okay. It had been over two weeks and you’ve been rutting against Eunjae’s jacket every night like a damn dog. You always managed to cum two times a row, last night reaching three!
You were insatiable. It must be your body wanting to catch up on all the years you’ve missed but it was fucking crazy that it was mostly dealing with Eunjae’s jacket!!
No way in hell you could return his jacket now. You washed it and now it was lighter than normal! How were you supposed to know you can’t bleach fur!
Eunjae would be furious!!! He’d make you pay him right away!
6,408,249 won!
That’s more than your fucking rent. That’s triple your rent!
You were so fucking screwed.
As you wallowed in self pity, you felt a pat on your back. Woohyun sat down beside you as he began eating his lunch. Eunha was still trying to ask you questions but you didn’t exactly want to tell her that you came all over a jacket and it was now ruined.
“Have you gotten back into therapy?” Woohyun suddenly asked. “I know the younger generation is much more mature about going to it. Is it too expensive now?”
“Seonbae!” Eunha glared.
You shook your head. “I won’t be able to afford therapy at this point.” You whined.
“Why?” Woohyun asked.
“Got stuck with a payment.”
“How much is it? I’ll help you.”
“Oh! Me too, Seonbae!”
“6,408,249 won.”
Woohyun and Eunha stared at you as if you were fucking insane. They both coughed before looking down at their food.
“Uhm sorry.”
“Sorry you’re going through that, Seonbae.”
“Thanks for the other anyway.” You muttered, finally eating your salad that you’ve been poking for over fifteen minutes.
That was the reason you haven’t called Eunjae despite wanting to. You practically hovered over his contact information each night before forcing yourself to bed. Why hasn’t he texted you? Why do you have to be the one to text him?
Was he finally taking to heart that you were the elder in the relationship?
Man, you didn’t care about that anymore.
Well, sort of. You still wish he had some respect for you.
The rest of the day was uneventful as you took the train back to Incheon. You actually made it home before the train got filled to the brim with people. Once you made it to your apartment you almost thought about masturbating again.
But no, you couldn’t keep running away from your future payment.
You were an adult. That meant having to face the consequences of your actions.
You changed into an oversize t-shirt and gym shorts. Your phone was staring at you as you hesitantly grasped it. You scrolled your limited contacts before landing on Eunjae’s. Your finger hovered over his contact before you slowly pressed it, anxiety taking over.
It rang for a few moments. You almost wondered if he wasn’t going to answer until it finally picked up.
“Gangaji…. What took you so long?”
A giggle almost escaped your lips but you managed to stop it by biting your tongue. “It’s Lee (Name).” You said, gotta have some form of self respect. “I wanted to know when I can return your jacket.”
“You can return it now.”
“Huh? But I’m back home in Incheon.”
“I’m in Incheon right now.”
“Huh?”
“I was visiting a friend who lives here. Tell me your address.”
You got ready to refuse, it wasn’t smart to tell a stranger your address. But when your lips parted you ended up telling him your address.
Fucking idiot.
“See you, Gangaji.”
It didn’t take too long for him to knock on your door. You had practically jumped up and ran to open it.
There he was; dressed in a simple t-shirt with baggy jeans. He didn’t even wait for you to invite him in. You almost yelled at him for that until he looked back at you and grinned. Wow, his smile must regularly make girls faint.
“Where’s my jacket?” He asked, causing your body to freeze up.
“Ah uhm. Slight problem, when I attempted to wash it I used bleach and now it’s really ashy in color.” You explained, waiting for him to yell at you and ask for payment.
But he didn’t, he looked amused. Eunjae hummed. “Okay. Lemme see.”
You nodded and went to your room. You grabbed the coat, ready to turn back when you see him entering your room. A gasp left you as you almost jumped out of your skin. Eunjae only grinned before glancing down at his jacket.
“Ah, you really did ruin it.”
You frowned. “Yeah… I know it’s over 6,00,000 won… I can’t pay that right now but I can do it in fragments or something.”
Eunjae only tilted his head. “Why did you wash it anyway?”
“Ah! I got it dirty!”
“How?”
“Ah….”
A sly smirk appeared on his lips as he stepped towards you. You flinched, taking a step back. It continued until your legs bumped against the edge of your bed and you fell down. Eunjae took advantage of that and trapped you down on the bed, his hands resting on either side of your head.
“Tell me. I deserve to know. It was my favorite jacket.”
You gulped. His favorite? Oh for fucks sake.
This was going to be so embarrassing. You clutched the coat to your chest as you closed your eyes, not wanting to look Eunjae in the eye.
“I.. got cum on it.” You whispered.
“What was that?”
“I cummed on it!” You cried out, waiting for the anger.
It was silent for a moment. You opened one eye before glancing up at Eunjae. The sight was shocking to say the least.
He didn’t look angry… he looked almost pleased..?
“Did you, Gangaji? Don’t you know that makes you naughty?” He asked, his right hand moving to grab the jacket. “But you were telling me that I have to speak to you with respect… yet here you are, cumming on my clothes like a pathetic dog.”
You whimpered as he pulled the jacket out of your grasp. He tossed it across the room before leaning down, his nose brushing against yours.
“Did you think of me? Or were you just using it because it was so soft?”
Your cheeks flushed. “A.. a few times..”
“A few times…” Eunjae’s hand trailed down your chest, grasping the edge of your shirt. He roughly pulled it up and forced it into your mouth. A strangled gasp left your lips just as you were about to spit it out when he glared at you. “Keep that between your teeth. You don’t want to act out anymore, do you?”
Eunjae smiled when you bit down on the shirt. His hands gripped your gym shorts, pulling them down without any hesitation. You could only watch as he rubbed his palm against your clothed cock. Your boxers were already tight against your skin but felt even tighter as your cock began to harden.
“Cute. I had so many ideas on how you’ll be but you’re already better than any imagination.” He said.
His palm slowly rubbed your cock. He made no effort to take your boxers off even as you began to whimper. Your hips stuttered from the feeling, wanting to just quickly jerk off. This teasing isn’t something you were used to.
No matter the fact it was another man. Despite yourself, you were thinking about how much of a sin this was. How you were disappointing everyone in your family. You were disgusting in the eyes of God.
Tears prickled your eyes as you tried to push the thoughts away.
“(Name).” Eunjae suddenly said. Your eyes opened as you stared up at him. His face was devoid of any emotion as he released his grip on your cock. You could only watch as he reached beneath your shirt. A shriek left your lips when you felt something snap against your skin.
His hand pulled out and in his palm was your cross necklace. You could only watch in awe.
“My poor Gangaji.” Eunjae muttered. You didn’t know if he was actually worried about you or being patronizing. “You’re already broken. That’s no fun.”
He leaned down and pressed a soft kiss against your lips. “I’ll have to build you back up.” He whispered against your lips. A moan left your lips as his free hand slipped into your boxers, grasping your cock with ease.
He quickly jerked you off, your back arching as the orgasm was immediately building. You were withering and moaning beneath him, grasping at the bedsheets beneath you. The shirt had already left your lips as you couldn’t hold back your whimpers.
Your toes curled as he pressed kisses along your neck. It was different with someone else. You thought you were about to die from the pleasure.
“Cum, Gangaji. Cum for me.”
A loud cry filled the room as you cummed, coating the inside of your boxers. Eunjae pulled his hand out as he pressed it against your lips. You whimpered as he pried your lips open, slipping his fingers into your mouth.
It took a moment before you began sucking on them, cleaning the cum off his fingers. Your cock twitched again. You wanted to cum again.
Eunjae chuckled. “Wow, you’re insatiable, huh?” He asked, grasping your bulge again. You whimpered, staring up at him with wide eyes.
He only smirked before rubbing your cock against your boxers. You immediately went into a panting frenzy as he rubbed a quick orgasm out of you. Eunjae hummed, seemingly shocked you came so quick.
“Cute.”
You laid on the bed in a daze, wanting to just sleep. But Eunjae had other ideas as he began to undress you. “Can’t sleep here, you need to bathe.”
A whine left your lips but you didn’t stop him. You felt his arms beneath your body before he hoisted you up.
“Stay awake for me, Gangaji.” He said, pressing a kiss on your forehead. “Tell me the code to your front door.”
“Hngh… 1004.”
“Angel?” Eunjae laughed. “Cute. You really are cute, Lee (Name). I don’t want to leave you alone for a second.”
You hummed. “Then don’t…”
You must’ve fallen asleep because you woke up hours later alone in your bed. You almost felt disappointed but fought the feeling away. It was okay… At least he wasn’t going to charge you for ruining his jacket.
But you still felt so empty.
Your hand reached up to touch your chest. The cross was gone.
And you couldn’t help but feel a little relieved.
❝ 데려가 줘 영원히 마녀들의 밤이 와 ❞
It had been a week since you last seen Eunjae. You almost felt like you imagined him. But his jacket was still at your house, he never ended up taking it.
You would still rut against it to masturbate. It was still so good. But it never felt the same as when Eunjae jerk you off. You had stopped going to church and seeing your parents.
Though there were nights you cried and prayed to push the thoughts away. In your heart, you knew you were gay. You hadn’t answered your mother’s calls. Even ignoring Yerin and Yena.
You knew that would implode on you one day but at least not today.
You came home from work, ready to collapse on your bed once more.
But you noticed there were moving boxes right outside your door. You gasped, wondering if your landlord was kicking you out or worse! Until you punched in the code. It hadn’t been changed. You slowly pushed it open to see nothing had changed.
Then…
You heard a laugh coming from your spare bedroom. There was nothing in there because you could never afford to buy anything so it was your spare closet. You hesitantly walked over to the door, slowly pushing it open as well.
The room was fully furnished. A small little sofa against the wall. A whole desk with a PC and everything. A few more boxes in the room that possibly haven’t been opened yet.
In the center there was someone in the chair.
Your eyes widen as the person took off their headphones before swirling the chair around.
Moon Eunjae stared at you with a smirk.
“Welcome home, Yeobo. Sorry I took so long, I had to break the lease of my apartment back in Seoul.”
What the fuck?!
Finally!! I got Eunjae’s first chapter! I originally didn’t plan for pet play to be his main kink but realized it suited him a lot. 1004 sounds similar to the Korean word for angel (천사) that’s what Eunjae says “angel.” He isn’t as manipulative in this cuz I gotta set things up but he’s gonna turn insane in later chapters. Also, it’s pronounced Gang-Ah-Ji in case you’re confused.
Also I know Genesis 19:26 isn’t about homosexuality, but my grandma used that against me when I told her that I might be trans to persuade me to stay Cis so that’s why I used it here.
Tag list: @joonggphilia @the-ultimate-librarian @smellwell @tehyunnie @ofclyde @iwishtobeacrow @chill-guy-but-cooler @star-3214 @tomoeroi @cherry-blossoms-187 @rhetorical-conscience @mooncarvers-world @euthymiko @kiiyoooo @love-kha1 @remdayz @mello-life25
Translations:
두통 (the title) — headache
다가와. 다가와, 자기야. (Come close. Come close, baby)
내가 너를 유혹하니? (Am I tempting you?)
너무 순종적이잖아. 맛보고 싶지 않아? (You’re so obedient. Don’t you want to taste it?)
그만해? 왜? 나는 진실만 말해. (Stop it? Why? I only tell the truth)
❝ 차츰 어둠이 드리울 테니 ❞ (the darkness is being casted slowly)
❝ 달빛 아래 숨죽인 나 ❞ (i hold my breath under the moonlight)
❝ 달콤한 어둠 아래 마녀들의 밤이 와 ❞ (in this sweet darkness, the witching hour descends)
❝ 데려가 줘 영원히 마녀들의 밤이 와 ❞ (take me, the endless witching hour decends)
Songs used: Reveal by The Boyz and Apple by Gfriend
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leidensygdom · 1 day ago
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Ody, for @poisonghoulart , for the Potluck Secret Satan 2024! I saw the character and I inmediately knew what did I have to draw- And it was a great chance to experiment with a bit of a tarot / art nouveau vibe AND go back to my comfort palette.
Ody is a wonderful Warforged Cleric and (as far as I know) is up to some space travel shenanigans!
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blackkatdraws2 · 2 days ago
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[Toon x Mobster] doodles, not canon (maybe)
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