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saccharine-pink-lemonade · 4 days ago

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deleted snippet from ch5 of the last night fic

And it’s just all the more reason that Jason should have come back, should have given him relief, but-

He hadn’t.

That was never the intention. It was never supposed to go like this. He was supposed to crash on Stephanie’s couch, for a while, and then he’d--

Dick looks at him, too. Stares long and hard. Jason thinks, maybe, he looks like he doesn’t quite believe Jay is real. Regret tastes bitter in his mouth, itches against the back of his throat. Its uncomfortable, and aches something awful, like a jammed finger.

“Morning,” Jason repeats, and hates how his voice drifts in and out on the vowels, like he almost whispered it. His palms start to itch, dully.

Crystal sighs, quietly. Jason’s lungs fill with more guilt -- that he’s put her and Steph in such an impossible situation. Because there were ten million other fucking choices he could have made, but he managed to make all the worst ones.

deleted bc i didnt like the way they sounded in this order -- i reworded & reordered them slightly so that they'd fit nicer in the chapter

#still havent finished ch5. the length of this fic might have to be drastically longer than I thought it would be #the idea was to wrap up in ch5 with the brekkie convo and that would be it. that's the fic. vaguely hopeful ending w/ a healing fic after #but Jason's nightmare took more words than I thought it would. and he just. keeps. ruminating. like boy we get it ur super guilty #<- I say like i'm not the one writing him this way (he has a mind of his own sometimes istg)#he's defo gonna be a lot more angsty than I was counting on meaning imma have to add more chapters. and since i was doing povs a certain wa #mostly just to scratch the itch in my brain tbh. i hate disorganized povs in the same fic for some reasin.#imma have to do a steph and a babs chapter before getting to dick. and tbh i feel like i can only end the fic with him or jay #so jay is gonna go over the pre-convo breakfast ruminations. and steph is gonna go over the convo #which tbh that has the potential for yummy guilt angst which would be so fun #but now i have to find something for babs to cover. either the drive back to her own house and talk with her dad #or she drives dick and jay to their house. which doesn't make sense cause dick drove himself over #but don't think she'd wanna part w/ them yet. sigh thinking thinking #feel kinda bad tho cause i have to put a pin on writing for a bit to lock in on school & volunteering & henna prac #its gonna be a wacky wacky time. but in the meantime have a random snippet cut from that maybe end-ish of ch5 #if one of my 2 followers on this blog read all the way thru that. ur a real one and tell me what u think i should do w/ barbara's chapter #oh also side note if i do keep going dick's subsequent chapter is gonna be the drive home and/or talking 2 his parents #deleted snippet #sunlight au

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