#or are young enough/new enough in fandom that they dont know this was actually the most we'd get at the time

[wingsofhcpe]

actually there's a huge difference between queerbaiting/"Hey guys look how gay these two are haha they're definitely gonna end up together, give us views uwu oh- never mind oops they're going to superhell" and "Hey it's 2004-2012 and there's no way we can get away with having our protags/main couple be two gay men but we really want to show these two are soulmates so we'll do it through subtext and underlying messages and by literally telling you over and over again their relationship is the most stable and important in the entire show, and the ending will imply they lived and died together", and it's insane that some of yall don't see how these two are not the same fucking thing.

[gu6chan]

ouaaaaaghhh i've been on a bit of a pokemon binge lately......... i should crack open my old pokemon games and take a peek at my teams :,) i wish i still had my old copy of conquest and black 2 though............ :(

[lorelaiislatte]

Do you think there's a chance a streaming service will pick ncis:h? I've signed the petition but do we dare to hope? I'm tired of this happening all the time. I just dont understand. It was doing fine in ratings and it's a part of a franchise that keeps getting more spin offs? How that makes sense? Do you know the ratings compared with the others ncis shows? Sorry im asking you but im not from usa and i have no idea how american netwoks work. So sad rn.

okay SO i am also not from the us but have done this dance before sooooo:

1) from what i’ve heard, they were planning to move either another ncis show (i think sydney?) or another cbs show to paramount plus - which they now are no longer doing. in theory yes, this opens up the possibility for ncishi to move over there; in practice, i’m not holding my breath, as typically that negotiation would happen before a cancellation announcement

2) how does it make sense? the honest answer is that it doesn’t. like, it really doesn’t. it’s been holding steady at sixth of 14 cbs shows in the ratings (which is a brilliant number, ensures it’s profitable, and is also impressive for a procedural that’s still relatively new). it’s been beating a LOT of other crime procedurals in viewership and viewer retention, and reviewers have been singing its praises. i think this is why it feels so much as if it’s because they just view this show as less valuable (socially and economically) than their usual white guy cop shows; it’s very difficult to argue that your profitable, successful show is too expensive when you’re flying cast and crews across - or, potentially, internationally to - australia, to continue a less-highly-rated show with no issue.

3) as far as ratings go - ncis hawai’i episodes were pulling in as many as 10 million viewers last year (s2 e10 came in with 10.5 mil, as per variety telecast viewership reports) which has it going toe to toe with the core ncis (seems to pull approx. 8-10mil per episode, via hollywood reporter). for the 18-49 demographic across us series, ncis hawaii is ranking at #13 of #21 as per tvseriesfinale.com - this is significantly above ncis sydney (renewed, #15), and elsbeth (#19, renewed), two other cbs shows, one of which in particular is incredibly expensive. crucially, ncishi has actually increased its viewership, which is VERY difficult to do on a year to year basis. its up by 4.18% among 18 to 49 year olds - for comparison the core NCIS is down 0.83% and fbi international - a competing show - is down by 3.73%. bear in mind that even a single percentage point represents hundreds of thousands of viewers.

i also want to point out that ranking at #13 isn’t strictly representative of viewer numbers, it’s about percentage of viewers that are within that core age bracket. the neighbourhood is ranking at #6, but only pulling in 4.8 million viewers - ncishi is at #13, and pulling in 5.2 million. ncishi pulls in over half a million more viewers than four shows ranked above it in that chart.

so essentially - it doesn’t make sense. from any perspective. it doesn’t make sense from a business perspective (ncis sydney is more expensive to produce and brings in approx. 200k less viewers than ncishi, and ncishi crew had already agreed to a shortened, budget-restrained final season), it doesn’t make sense for a ratings perspective (it continues to outperform many of cbs’ own shows, including ones that have been renewed), it doesn’t make sense from a social perspective (people are loving it, even outside of our fandom spaces).

objectively, it’s a really, really bad move by cbs. i also thought being part of a franchise would be a kind of safety net - fool me once, i guess. all the evidence suggests that they just don’t care enough about ncishi, especially when they’ve got their bullshit white guy ncis origins show, a young sheldon spinoff (?? who asked?) and a plethora of other cookie-cutter shows they can just keep going with. and we can make a pretty educated guess as to why, when the main things that set ncishi apart from the other ncis shows are its diversity and character dynamics

(edit: it was pointed out that people aren’t being flown to sydney from the us, which is true, and bad phrasing on my part - but many are flown across australia at seemingly similar costs to mainland us/hawai’i flights, and i believe not all of the leads are based in australia either, so i’ve updated that bit for clarity. apologies!)

[ifyoucandaniel]

You. Person. You like. Batman. How does one that exists in a country where comic books r ridiculously unaffordable understand the Batman world enough to read fanfiction of it.

…..i’m going to be so brave and vulnerable with you guys for a second here: i read fanfiction before i read the comics.

do i recommend? not really, however i had the same problem where it was too expensive to buy every single volume i needed to read to get into them, i didn’t have ANY idea of where to start, and i actually stumbled across the fanfiction before i really realized what i was getting into. initially i watched like,,, so many youtube’s on the chronological order of batman comics and very quickly realized there was so much i didn’t even know where to begin. however, now i either read them online through, ahem, illegal means, or i use the DC universe app and just read through the individual volumes! i know i’m going to be the worst batman fan ever when i say this, but since you’re so right and comics are ridiculously expensive and unattainable (seriously tracking down the issue where tim and kon meet for the first time was a pain in my ass), i say just read the fanfiction?? like it’s hella confusing at first, but it’s so worth it because the found family and the tropes are just so good. and a lot of fics are so AU they can be read with no knowledge of the DCU. i’m not saying DONT read the comics, but it can take AWHILE to catch up on all the content of the past like 80 years to understand every character and their story, and personally i was way too impatient to stop reading fics and start reading every comic connected to the batfam. but also, again, i did not realize what i was getting into until i was already hooked and confused as fuck, so maybe take it with a grain of salt :)

but for sure if you’re wanting to read the comics first (good choice, but lots of content and WHERE THE FUCK DO YOU START) i say read that shit online lol. if anyone has an easier way of accessing them, i am begging to hear it, but what i typically do is go to twitter or here and search what i’m looking for (like chronological order of young justice comics, or chronological reading order for tim drake, whatever i’m wanting to find) and then usually people have blessedly compiled a list of all the issues by name and number and i can find them online that way! figuring out where to start and what’s canon and what’s old stuff that they’ve decided doesn’t count anymore is,,,, rough. i still don’t always know what’s going on with what’s new 52 and what’s pre :’)

if you’re just wanting to know enough to get by with reading the fanfics, i say either just jump in and have a sink or swim moment where you just figure out what you don’t know and look it up on fandomwiki, or you can also like watch youtube’s of the characters entire story arcs?? i don’t know if that’s normal but i do that a lot for fandoms lol. i did the full sink or swim where i just completely figured things out through osmosis and was very confused for a BIT. ummm otherwise i’d say read a few comics that are central to the characters and? maybe read some wikis??? depends on how confused you wanna be lmfao

but it’s worth it!!! 100% the vibes are so good and i don’t think i’ve ever consumed more content for a fandom in like ever :D the characters and the tropes and the angst and the found family 🤌 it’s all very good and very worthwhile

[n0-1r]

i have a love hate relationship with the young justice show

on one hand it's a great introduction into dc with (mostly) fun and (kinda) likable characters

I've already made a post about how this show is not really beginner friendly but anyways, on the other hand the plot doesn't really let you enjoy the main cast as a whole and instead has 50 different plotlines at the same time and even veers off the main characters in the third season.

wait let me list my gripes with this show

1. mischaracterisation or a lack of characterisation

yj is infamous for not caring at all for it's main cast in the most recent seasons, all while tripling and even quadrupling the size of the cast. Of course there's bound to be some mischaracterisation but when the main cast is a mismash of various teen heroes from various eras of dc their character arcs get completely thrown off and even rewritten to be such unlikeable people (cough cough super boy cough cough miss martian) i mean how are you going to make a show and have your main characters be completely unlikable and even hated by the fandom.

2. lack of focus on the main cast

ooough young justice season 3 oooooh 👻

such an infamous season. i guess the character arcs of all our main characters being completed makes it slightly more okay but having this season focus on two more completely new casts of characters, one of which is very hated by the community, and having them go through two very different storylines, well the plot is vaguely the same but the character arcs are so different. And if that wasn't enough season two is a mess of yj throwing a band of characters at you and expecting you to immediately know who these people are, which leads me to my next point but first,

I must confess, i watched this show for two particular duos (cough cough birdflash cough cough timkon) well you know how well both of those went so im probably just salty about that.

3. the timeskips.

5 YEARS. 5 WHOLE YEARS BETWEEN SEASON 1 AND 2

oh my goodness so much happens in those 5 years, people are introduced, people leave and people DIE and so, so many plot holes that are just summed up to 'eh something must have happened off screen'

don't even get me started on that mess of a game that was supposed to patch the gap between these two seasons (ok i haven't actually played but have you seen those reviews, i must just read the fandom wiki)

another one of young justice's most 'iconic' features is it's perfectly linear storyline and continuous progression with absolutely no outrageous timeskips. we have characters popping out of nowhere i mean who the hell is spoiler- WHAT DO YOU MEAN THIRD ROBIN oh and miss martian changing her appearance every season, honestly i think shes getting uglier and i didn't even know that was possible (ok i guess she looks fine in the last season)

so you see, i dont really need to explain how bad the timeskips in this show are.

ok wait this has been just a post of me shitting on young justice uhhh guysss yj is sooo good you should totallyyyy watch

ok wait if you're just getting into dc young justice is a good watch but take the characterisation with a grain of salt okay, please trust me when superboy and miss martian are not like that. and kal is great but garth was actually the first aqualad and i hate to break it to you but artemis does not exist and spitfire is not real

so moral of the story, watch teen titans instead 🔥🔥🔥

[bridgyrose]

Taiyang: a character analysis

Taiyang is a more complicated character than I think a lot of people in the fandom want to admit. And a lot of that comes from the little that we know about him and how he raised his daughters.

For instance, our first real intro to who Taiyang was in Yang and Ruby’s life was in Yang’s speech in Burning the Candle.

Yang: Ruby and I grew up in Patch, an island off the coast of Vale. Our parents were Huntsmen. Our dad taught at Signal, and our mom took on missions around the kingdom. Her name was Summer Rose, and she was, like... Super-Mom: Baker of cookies and slayer of giant monsters. And then... one day she left for a mission and never came back. (looks down as she says this, and Blake looks sorry for her) It was tough. Ruby was really torn up, but... I think she was still too young to really get what was going on, y'know? And my dad just kind of... shut down. It wasn't long before I learned why. Summer wasn't the first love he lost; she was the second. The first... was my mom. (Blake looks amazed at this information as Yang keeps talking) He wouldn't tell me everything, but I learned that the two of them had been on a team together with Summer and Qrow, and that she'd left me with him right after I was born. No one had seen her since.

In all of this, we find out a few things about him. The first, he had lost two wives, one that ran out on him and the other disappeared on a mission. And because of that, we also know he fell into depression. The second thing we learn was that he did shut down because of it. We don't exactly know what all that means, but it's a pretty safe bet that he was there, present, and still taking care of Ruby and Yang, but clearly just a shell of who he had been.

After that, we dont really find much else out until he sent Zwei to Ruby and Yang, doing it in a way that seemed pretty normal to how he does with everything Zwei could need. And even at that, there's still not much.

Then in volume 3, we learn a bit more about him through Ruby. He's still teaching at Signal, still taking missions, he presumably taught Yang to fight since Ruby specifically mentioned that he taught Yang a lot... basically giving a rundown that he's been there for them. And once we actually meet him, he's there for his daughters again, concerned about them.

Ruby had been in a coma for a while, he had checked on Yang and gave her space to give her time to let herself catch up to her new situation... and for the most part, he ends up protective if his daughters. He's glad their home, he glosses over what happened at Beacon in hopes to keep Ruby out of trouble, and isn't exactly happy to be pulled away from Ruby so Qrow could try to explain everything. Even when Ruby left, he became worried about her safety and rushed off to find her, unable to stop her.

And things get even more muddled as we see him in volume 4. He's still there for Yang, presumably helping out where he can with Vale, but still there for his daughter. So much so that he had wanted to go out of his way to get Yang a combat prosthetic and was glad that Ironwood beat him to it, even if Yang wasn't exactly happy about it. He's able to joke with Yang once she's feeling a little better, still worries about Ruby bit acknowledges he can't leave to be there for Yang, and starts helping Yang with training again once she uses her prosthetic.

What really muddies everything for him is how little we actually know about how things were when Taiyang was raising Ruby and Yang. We get from Yang that she had pick up the pieces and raised Ruby, but we never get much more out of her about it. And despite all of that, Taiyang still seemed to be present enough to care about them, read to them, take them out to Boba, and was there every step of the way with them growing up.

Even with the misteps, (Yang running off with Ruby, the advice he gave Yang (still good advice but definitely not what she needed to hear at the time), hiding bits of the past to keep away from them..) he still managed to be there and despite Yang and Ruby acknowledging a lot of the hurt they felt, he still has a good relationship with them.

I know this is probably going to be kicking a hornet's nest, and this definitely isn't meant to change anyone's views, but it needs to be laid out that a lot of Ruby’s and Yang’s homelife is a puzzle missing a lot of pieces. Maybe one day we'll get the full story, but until then, I think it's safe to say that Taiyang was an okay father dealt a really shitty hard, unintentionally hurt his daughters, but raised them the best he could given the situation.

[chaserofstars11]

✨Intro Post ✨

me

heeey! i'm lea, (pronounce lee, lee-uh, lay-uh, or wtv idc it's not my real name ;)). I pretty much go by she/her, but all pronouns are ok!!! (so are all gendered terms, including girl/guy) I am bi, and super accepting/open. dms and asks are totally welcome! i live in north carolina (US), so EST. i've just started writing fic on ao3 so link: https://archiveofourown.org/users/chaserofstars11 i'll make a masterlist once i write more i have a gorgeous goldendoodle so there are goldendoodles in the photos <3 (not mine tho :( )

music/books/movies/shows

i love renee rapp, taylor swift, conan gray, queen, paramore, mo schulte, phoebe bridgers, lana del ray, maneskin, yungblud, acdc, honestly basically anything

fav books are: six of crows/grishaverse (leigh bardugo is a goddess i luv all of her creations), age of legends trilogy, little women, lockwood & co, divergent, the hobbit, the book thief, carry on, becky albertalli's books, literally so many more

shows/movies: i love/have watched friends, the office, parks & rec, the good place, ncis (literally my fav), shadow and bone, young royals, heartstopper, good omens, and other stuff

ngl taladega nights is my comfort movie (so james of me, ik) but I also love harold and maude, mean girls, and any cheesy romance movie ever

that was long, so picture break! these are all from pinterest, not mine :)

fandoms/ships

I am mostly just in the marauders and soc fandoms, but also a bit of golden trio and pjo. ( i am so serious when i say fuck jkr. i don’t support her ideals or her work, i am simply talk her characters and making them gay and trans in spite)

I love most marauders ships esp starchaser, rosekiller, pandalily/marylily/pandamarylily, and dorlene (dw, i like wolfstar too) My favorite fics are Art Heist Baby, crimson rivers, anything by damagecontrol, anything by MesserMoon (esp kyd and ohb), anything by maladaptivewriting, anything by Solmussa, and anything by lynxindisguise (PSA i have not read atyd. ik, ik, i'm just not mentally prepared yet. same reason i haven't read choices)

my fav golden trio ships are luna/ginny, harry/draco, and ron/hermione

soc ships are obvi wesper, helnik, and kanej (plus zoyalai ofc)

dni

if ur mean/disrespectful/homophobic/misogynistic/sexist/transphobic/racist/or have anything bad to say/or are creepy

otherwise, i love to interact, have chains, be tagged, or anything. i am kinda new to tumblr tho, so not sure how everything works. I won't interact outside of tumblr or ao3 unless i actually know you

thx for reading <333 i hope you enjoy the weird shit i post :) I might end up posting my art... I dont know if im brave enough. but you can read my writing!

[olderthannetfic]

I hope you dont mins me asking

But how would you suggest the best way to not be so anxious in fandoms these days.

It just seems like im going to be bullied out of fandom for even wanting to be in fandom. Regardless of the kind of content i like or how i like it. Its just seems like people who are in fandom dont want to themselves and not really about older or newer fans not wanting more new fans... Just.. They dont want fandom to exist at all anymore. If thta makes sense

Ive been in fandom for years but only recently bacame an adukt and now i really wanna start getting more involved.. I recently started a series oneshot fic thats gonna take alot of time.. But i havent even posted an actual chaoter yet and i am so afraid of gettijg a bunch of shit for it.

Its not meant to be anything explicit infact i made it very sfw bexause thats what i wanted.

But what of someone decides hey fuck you this sucks and now im going to make up reasons that your fic is (ableist, racist, homophobic stuff like that). And i just... I want to write.

Years ago i was in a much older fandom(transformers g1 if you can believe it) and it was so nice there. Maybe its because i was young but theres wasnt nearly so much anti bullshit that there is now especially in newer fandoms.

I know theres like block and ignore and delete comments but... I dont want to deal with it. And i probably know there isnt realky anytjing i can actually do about it

Its just so bad. I want to participate in fandom, but fandom is so terrible these days. Ive seen so many of my favorite artists fucking dissapear over being bullied for something they said years ago thats now considered "worthy of being tortured alive" for saying.

I just want it all to stop. I thought fandom would get better as it became more popular. Artists would have more freedom and stuff.

Instead im afraid im going to get bullied for a fucking teen rated gen fic with zero shipping, zero dark theme, and zero sex on the off chance someone thinks its not good enough. Suddenly its not appropriate for teenagers for some dumb reason

When i fucking was one two years ago. (like mate i was reading robot porn at ELEVEN)

Im so tired. I think the only good thing about the fandom im in is the fact the creators of the media are actually super chill and even supportive about fans selling fanworks and comms of characters and stuff

This was supoosed to be a simple question but ig im just so sick of how fandom is that i ended up ranting about it.

--

Getting more popular makes things much worse, not better.

But overall, anxiety is about you and your internal emotional state.

There was always danger of being attacked. It looks different now, but fear isn't more or less justified in the present day. The actual level of danger isn't the issue here.

[meruz]

another ask post

i mean i also read it because a friend whos rly into queer SFF fiction circles recced it but she did kinda lead with "the writer used to write hs fanfic...tasmyn..taz...?" to which i replied

of COURSE I read the locked tomb because i heard taz had written a book. of course. ill consume most any media made by a beloved homestuck bnf. thats also why i played undertale. and read like..snotgirl. and idk... watched the new dub of neon genesis evangelion.

if u made homestuck fanwork 10 years ago and havent even made it since chances are I still remember and I love you for it.

sdlkfhsg its funny you sensed that because that drawing did in fact start kinda more........ well, I'd be lying if I said my hands never wrought a drawing toeing over the pg-13 line LOL...

NOT to say i have a secret stash of porn or anything. in general im more interested in the implication of sexuality or mature themes over any explicit depiction. like everything i draw is so softcore itd almost feel silly to make a nsfw acc for anything.

but im not rly jumping to post anything on main either bc i get the sense i have a lot of kids in my social media following. it varies from site to site and fandom to fandom but the themes in my work often circle around childhood, coming of age etc and in general i like stories about kids so the fandoms i draw for have a lot of kids in them. even stuff like IT (stephen king) which is about kids but isn't necessarily for kids.. there were a lot of kids in that fandom lol.

actually thats why ive been censoring swears in comics lately because the tmnt fandom comes across to me as a little young...IDK I've had MULTIPLE people ask me what "sodomize" means because of the joke in this post and I'm like... I Cannot be the one to explain this to you. you have to look it up on your own klfsdhsdg like i wouldn't be doing this if i were doing a comic for mgs or even homestuck wherein the characters textually swear constantly LOL but sometimes u gotta change tacks depending on the faces u see in the crowd yknow.

i HAVE been thinking abt drawing nsfw of sunspot/richard rider/kobak from x-men red just because that comic seemed to be really asking for it. who knows.. if the need rly arises maybe my separate account policy will change.

its rly more a matter of the fact that i havent read/watched much of any other iterations... im sure id like most lol. I like most things related to my interests regardless of quality. i rly like the marvel ultimate alliance games for instance. sometimes seeing my fave guy is enough he doesnt have to be well written LOL. i dont exactly have a wealth of free time tho thats the real impediment.

i did watch the 2007 movie on new years eve and found it quite charming overall. and i have read about 30-40 issues between the mirage and idw comics. still feels like im barely scratching the surface but i liked em. i rly want to read all the sophie campbell stuff bc i think her work is interesting. jason aaron will be a mixed bag i think lmao. i say as the worlds biggest Wolverine and the X-Men (2011) fan.

hmm this is kinda hard bc i feel like i naturally draw very loose and the hard part for me is tightening it up. maybe some suggestions tho...

1) hand excercises. i think its easy to forget this when many artists sit in front of the computer all day but drawing is a physical activity u do with ur actual...bodys...muscles lol. if u feel urself tightening up it might help to strech (any google search for "artist hand excercises" should yield good results) or do a page of loose practice strokes like..big circles. long lines. scribbles. that kinda thing. whatever feels good for ur hand. this is also just good to do as a general warm up before u sit down for any drawing sesh.

2) draw further away from the canvas. as a general rule...when ur painting traditionally you do the big strokes with your whole arm outstreched and a long handled brush. and when you do the details its smaller wrist movements and a shorter handled brush. so it might help to take a step back or push back from ur chair a little.. or hold ur tablet a little further away. and hold your pen further away from the nib.

3) change mediums / brush types. some brushes and mediums are more suited to loose sketching and some more inclined towards detail work. so changing ur tool could help. also! i personally have this problem where sometimes if im using a brush i feel really familiar with the pressure to make a "good" "finished" "perfect" drawing is greater... if i want to force myself to loosen up ill switch to a tool i dont use as often so it feels like the pressure is off. a lot of times for me this is switching from digital to traditional. but sometimes its switching from a small pen to a big marker. or a smooth pen to a textured one. or a nice brush to a shitty dried up marker.

but also every body is different so i dont think these tips will work for everyone. u should listen to what ur body and mind tell u and how drawing feels to you

bro just sign up and set it up i dont think theres much to it... i dont rly think too much abt my itch.io store because its digital goods so u just upload the file and let it do its thing. no distribution work needed on ur part. youll notice i barely even advertise my itch unless i have smth new on there lol.. its easy. but good luck!!!

idk if im the best person to ask this im more a comic fan than i am a comic professional... a comic hobbist.

well. scott mcclouds understanding comics and making comics are good books on the craft. i think i had to buy them for a class in art school once.

other than that idk just keep at it. comics are really laborious i think for a lot of people the hardest part is sitting down and doing it.

i think a lot of people have a very instinctive understanding of how to read comics and what they look like so whatever you think seems like good way to tell the story you have in mind, its probably right. if u get stuck, study comics that have done something similar. most people in comics are relatively self taught and actually it can be problematic bc you can tell when a lot of comic artists are all copying the same like 5 old white guys LMAO. but on the flip side if you make sure to reference and study broadly your comics will almost assuredly feel unique.

sorry im responding to this anyways. this is just a really nice ask. i like when people reference my older work bc i feel like sometimes theyre subtly implying it wasnt very good LMAOOO. but its true! at least compared to the work i make now ^^ and the fact that im still making art is whats keeping me from being embarassed abt how much of my old art just floats around online lmao im never ashamed to be growing and learning. isnt that a nice thought <3

[bluravenite]

Hey loves, I hope you're doing great and of you aren't, please take a minute to breathe and hug yourself and say "I love you, it'll pass"

Now I'm going to leave a little vent about burnout and self worth as an artist on Tumblr <3 for anyone who might feel like their struggles aren't valid or seen enough, and not worth sharing

So... Every time I ask for requests I get a little bit of burnout because I'm convinced only about 3 people are going to reply with asks that say things like "dew in slutty crop top" "mountain with flower" "a ghoulette existing"

Instead I get super lovely prompts that I actually get exited about and want to make fully fleshed pieces but they're so exhausting, because I have like 10 wips already and I'll never post enough art for people to enjoy.

So now there's already 20 old ask requests I never replied to and 20 more new ones that I'll never be good enough to draw and post, and it really messes with my brain when I know I could also just say "hey here's a quick doodle of this" and people will still enjoy it, and that I dont have to be so elaborate and that I dont owe anyone anything and that people will still be there for me no matter what...

I feel like I can complain a lot here sometimes but I like to be transparent... I struggle a lot with mental health and self worth especially when it comes to art...

I never want to stop drawing and I'm grateful to everyone for their support, but I also feel like it's important to acknowledge that I feel like this and that others might too and we're allowed to feel that way... and we're allowed to fall in and out of love with your hyperfixation's fandom and purge your followers and block people who made you feel horrible and make long complicated posts about it.... because it's Tumblr... it's my little piece (and peace) of mind, and you should get to see several sides of me... silly goofy, tired and burnt out, caring and gentle... and any other you may catch a glimpse of (murderous intent when my friends get mean anons🙂).

But at the end of the day... I'm just another human... I'm not perfect, I'm very young, I have a long way to go and a lot to learn and a lot to heal and get over with. And I'm very grateful to be able to share my art here, and that ghost (the band) was a gateway into discovering parts of myself I didn't know existed before, and also learning that a lot of bad things happen in life and that suffering is just a part of your growth.

So thank you reader, I love you too☀️🪼🌌

[kindestegg]

What do you think of Collie going back to the sky. Because the way I see it, he's either all alone up there (probably not good for a young child) or he's gone back to living with the other collectors/archivists (which is probably also not good), Maybe he has found a guardian up there who aren't like his old siblings, an entire species of people can't all be bad, right?

hmmm... well first of all, i would like to say i personally never was a fan of the whole "collectors are emotionless assholes by default but our colly is ⁂⁕special⁕⁂ so hes different" like THATS SO STUPID!!! AND DEFEATS SO MUCH OF THE PURPOSE OF IT BEING IMPACTFUL HE CHOSE BY HIMSELF TO BE GOOD! i think the collector/archivist species is likely very very complicated and has a very rich history and hierarchy we just will never know abt in canon bc 1. theyre not the focus here and 2. well it kind of. ended. so.

BUT WELL. RIGHT! COLLYS FATE! SO UHM.

well. i have good n i have bad feelings about it.

ill start with the bad: i do wish we had seen more of him in the future timeskip, and that he had gotten a more permanent residence. i thiiink the archives are still intact around the titan skull (dont quote me on it though id need to look again), so, no reason why my future idea couldnt be canon with him living there n repurposing them. i think theres definitely a better solution than just sending him away, he couldve still had his little corner to learn stuff, just closer to the ppl he loves n that DO love him back.

HOWEVER.

heres where the good starts: i think it was actually a good idea for him to not become a noceda or a clawthorne. first of all because there was not enough of a bond between himself n those families to want to adopt him, specially there was a lot of trauma involved that cant be erased with how much he wishes to be good for them now. they still clearly care about each other, but theyre not family, maybe theyll never be, n thats fine. theres also another reason, but going into it would require... me being pretty bold about something thats been nagging on my brain ever since the episode aired, and actually talking about that might devolve into a bigger post in and of itself. i MAY make that post in the future and lose my fear of talking about, but im being cautious for now. all im gonna say about it atm is that if they had made him a noceda or a clawthorne, making him kings sibling, it wouldve made things... very awkward. and bad. so.

i think theres also a pretty fatalistic pessimistic way the fandom seems to be viewing this end: its never stated colly went back to the archivists at all, just "the stars", and its not even immediately after the finale events neither is it permanent- he had to have stayed around at least long enough to make that new portal door, and he visits frequently if king mentioning him being around to do something for luzs bday is any indication (not to mention that book lilith was holding that seemed to be about titans and collectors - i think colly mustve helped with info for that right).

me and the archive house server have actually been discussing this quite a bit, and we have reached the conclusion that the best way to describe this was that they "pulled a snufkin". collector is a space vagabond that travels around once in a while and then eventually always comes back to tell of their spoils to the people he still cares about most. and while that may not be satisfying to people who wanted him to be lovingly adopted into a welcoming family, i think its a good enough fate considering he might not even want a family out of the clawthornes, but rather just to be close to king.

and im sure maybe in the future he might decide to settle again at the isles for a more permanent residence. the future is in OUR hands now! we decide what to do with these characters and their future lives, and ive got a LOT of ideas.

[horizon-verizon]

Recently there's a new term in fandom (team Greens "book purist") and i look up to some "popular" team greens account who consider themselves as these "book purist" since i join asoiaf fandom i never knew about them blogs (most of them appear after Ryan Condal show).

and i notice the way their thinking "Mushroom is TEAM BLACK" and every bad thing he said about Rhaenyra is true because he claim to love her "he was on her side", or "it was Rhaenyra's son the one who sit in the throne the WINNER could change the history, and Rhaenyra aCtUaLly mOrE hOrRible than she was in f&b"?

Yes he said he love her but he is a COURT JESTER he didnt sit in council like Eustece was most of his version is just he try to be funny and pervert, he was never a team black as Eustece as official member of team green, people could look up at his asoiaf wiki (not wikifandom thats fanmade and 100% is not accurate).

When i first read dance the first thing i did was to match those two version with what actually happen after, not choosing which version is actually true.

One of the examples was the "fall apart" between Criston and Rhaenyra obviously because she refused him, Criston was always on Rhaenyra's side back then they had to mention he unhorse Alicent's brothers and Cousin (as far as i remember) he doesnt have fondness to Alicent, they are close that even Rhaenyra calling him "my white knight" (understandable she was young) even Alicent seem to dislike him "ser criston save the princess from her enemy and who save her from Ser Criston", and that man whole arc was literally on mission to destroy Rhaenyra's life, he was also the one who convince Aegon to usurped Rhaenyra keep talking about Rhaenyra's wanton way, insulting Laenor who is long dead, her children from Harwin and than how Rhaenyra and Daemon would turn the Redkeep in to brothel, isnt the fact that she is woman is not enough? This man had vandeta over her not even Alicent who hates Rhaenyra hate her and everything about her this much, even the last thing he sees is Rhaenyra's banner.

If Mushroom version is true he had NO reason to hate her this much, hurt feeling because Rhaenyra chose her throne over him? Bfr Rhaenyra chose her throne over Daemon (Rhaenyra could just runaway with Daemon since this two want to marry each other) it was her father who threatend her that she going to lose the throne or agree married to Laenor the man who she previously insult.

Now it's hard to even have a decent discussion about dance topic because they didnt know how to read history book and most of discussion rn is fill with post "anti team greens" "anti team blacks" tags when it just text from the bible itself unless it was propaganda who came from those individuals mouth not George.

I dont even like being associated with team blacks because how insufferable some of them rn, even though I agree Rhaenyra should be given the chance to sit on the throne peacefully.

Well, Mushroom was totally in Rhaenyra's "team", and thus "team black", but he and Septon Eustace both have the roles of being eyewitness or primary eye witness accounts of some behaviors, events, etc.

As Mushroom as the court jester, Eustace was the royal confessor, in that he heard several some family members confessions (think Catholic confessions) and thus some deep secrets or thoughts...and only when they made confessions....but would Daemon, Rhaenyra, etc confess anything to him, esp when Rhaenyra gets older? No. Mushroom is valuable because since he is a fool and courtiers tend to ignore fools while speaking any type of way about anything in front of him, he more than most people would have access to some hidden or secret stuff even as he tends to exaggerate. Septon Eustace also still has a limited access to secrets, but I'd argue Mushroom has a little more to give in terms of dynamics between people bec though he turns everything into a joke or exaggerates or gets too unrealistically sexual he still doesn't try to over-moralize or thinks as narrowly about human behavior as Septon Eustace does. What is true, though, is that he's till prone to lying and it's pretty easy to see when he exaggerates versus outright lies versus gives salient observations or stuff that could have happened because he is so theatrical about some of what he says and we can see where he's intentionally performing and when he's not; Septon Eustace always believes what he puts out is "the truth".

Eustace was against Rhaenyra; Mushroom, as I said favored her and preferred she become Queen AND more important, Eustace also wasn't always there to witness some events he claimed happened or such and he had his own Faith-led/sexist biases (Rhaenyra with Mysaria [both of the accounts b/t them after the Fall of King's Landing]; how the throne cutting Rhaenyra is a "sign" of her defiency as a ruler; her weight and eating habits to say she is deficient being a sexist argument as well as logically fallacious).

Also, it's not Eustace who mainly provides information of what goes on in Viserys & Aegon II's council meetings; that's the grand maesters Runicter, Mellos, and Orwyle, who all wrote royal decress and decisions as well as part of their job.

I believe a lot of team greens (I mean the fans, not the characters) want to use Mushroom as a bonafide, 100% reliable source is he is the one who gives us the false account of the Brothel Queens which works to make Rhaenyra seem the most evil person around AND he is the one who claims Sara Snow.

[skinnytuna]

(i'm anon who replied to your long post about audience validation and art)

thank you for your response, it's very interesting. it's actually kinda funny because I used to be a person who never, ever shared anything I did with other people (online or in person). I wouldn't talk about the media I enjoyed or showed the drawings I made. it always felt too intimate - I was only doing it for myself and so having other people's eyes on it wouldn't add anything to my enjoyment apart from shame from not liking or creating the 'perfect' thing. if I imagined what I would do in the future, it was only from the perspective of what I would actually create, rather than the validation it would give me.

and then my world view flipped, I guess as I became increasingly exposed to online validation. I still dont share anything I make but if I (indulgently) daydream about creating something, it is rarely purely the process of creation that I think about. I cant separate the stuff I do and the response I would get like I could as a kid. this is probably partly because of watching numbers rise online. but maybe it could also just be the sad reality of transitioning into adulthood? when you are young the stuff you make is never going to get you shit. but when you are older, you are expected to view the world with a transactional slant: whatever you give, you must get back in return.

idk how into fandoms you are but I love them because they are a way to remove that dependence on transaction (both monetary and inter-personal validation) we have. obviously, fandoms mostly exist in an online world and so some people are going to be more successful at creating than others (and some people might even manage to make a tiny amount of money) but mostly they are pretty equal. most artists (fic writers/fan artists) are only creating for the sake of creation. they like something, want to improve it or want to explore a world and so they create. some fanfic writers will never get past 100 kudos on a single work, but they still write thousands and thousands of more words. this is because, for them, writing is a hobby and a way to have fun. they are literally unable to monetise it, and the possible size of a response is often limited by the tiny size of a niche fandom.

fan fiction is wholly and unapologetically amateur. it can be a great quality, but writers have the freedom to create imperfect things and learn as they go. there are no critics, book sales or best seller lists - you can just make shit and put it out there if you want.

idk if any of that made sense but yeah

it's funny you say that about adulthood because there are so many like. 13 year old rappers now who are solely in it for the money or dont understand why they are doing it and their parents are encouraging them to do it for the money so like. childhood for us was very different to what childhood currently is, right now this year.

but i personally cant remember a time when i wasn't desperate for validation like when i was playing guitar when i was 8 or 10 i still had that "i hope im good enough i want to be good enough without trying" feeling it's just the people i wanted to impress were like, authority figures. i wanted my guitar teacher to think i was cool. i wanted my moms friends to think i was funny. i'm still afraid of doing anything i haven't already learned how to do, writing is the first New thing i've attempted in maybe my entire adulthood.

it's kind of funny, when i was younger i didn't realize how bad i was at writing music and that's the only reason i stuck to it long enough to learn anything. i was like laughably bad at it in high school and no one really went out of there way to grab me by the shoulders and say "hey! you suck at this! stop!" though a bunch of people did tell me it kinda sucked. i mostly just thought they were wrong. they weren't. but now part of me doesn't believe i could ever be any good at something that isn't that. like when i write fiction i know on a cognitive level if it ends up being good it's not because i worked hard or earned it or anything it's just a complete fluke. and i don't even really believe people when they tell me it's good. even though obviously i'm only posting it so people will tell me it's good.

in a way i feel like i'm sort of shifting back to the way i was in high school... every piece of art i make im like "this is the best shit ever" and then i post it and if people tell me it sucks im like "lol. incorrect. your tastes are Unrefined" and then i keep making more whatever crap whatever. which honestly is the best way to live i think. i have some people in my life who really like, respect and admire that i make whatever the fuck i want without ever really considering whether or not i should. which is funny because i have a lot of people in my life who are like, Normal artists, who Think before they make something, and try to make Good Things and i envy them greatly because it really comes through in the work.

though obviously as an evil bastard communist i am a strong believer that "Bad" Art Is Radical and "Good" Art is Bourgeois Idealism and i find myself constantly torn between, the allure of timesinks and iteration and the mystique of hyperprolific stream of consciousness artists and i feel like i'm the worst of both worlds by not being fully one way or the other! but i guess not everyone can be Lil B and not everyone can be Frank Ocean and some of us need to sit in between those two extremes...

look at all this me talking about how i never stop and think about the art while i'm stopping and thinking about the art... i'm an Olympic level liar rn.

i've never read a fanfiction in my life (outside of like.. homestuck smut when i was fifteen. which i guess Technically Counts.) but as the form is widely derided i'm sure it has the most artistic merit of any thing. i think a lot about what a world would be like where money and art are completely unrelated. and all art exists completely separate from how much dollars it can make a corporation. would being popular even matter? would people still seek fame... complicated questions. Way if we pees form butts

[dearweirdme]

I've come to the conclusion that people don't like jungkook's music because it's in English. I've tried to give people the benefit of the doubt, but when you truly look at it that's what it comes down to. I have a feeling that if Seven and 3D were in korean majority of people who hate it now would love it. The biggest argument i always see is that they dont like it because its talking about s*x, and conveniently those same people praise like crazy. Like crazy is also a song about s*x lol it's just in korean. Now with 3D, I understand JH verse is a bit controversial but I found it SO funny how a majority of people who were hating on the verse switched up once there were ai covers of rapline rapping the verse. It just further proved that the lyrics weren't necessarily a problem if a bts member would rap it. I genuinely find this so weird and off putting... it seems like some army just don't want bts to get out of the kpop bubble. They only want korean lyrics and korean artists to be featured. Idk it just is a weird take imo.

And I'm not trying to silence anyone because everyone has different tastes, but honestly the criticism jungkook is getting is out of hand. I didn't like all the members' releases, but I don't go out of my way to write these long think pieces that are borderline hating. I just don't understand the point of it? Is the goal to make jungkook release music they like instead of what his artistic heart wants?

Also, this post is just in general. This has been on my mind lately, especially with how solos have reported 3D on kcharts and are trying to cancel jungkook's 3D performance on the music show.

Hi anon!

I think it’s complicated being Jk right now. Even before Seven came out, the whole fandom was basically sure that out of all members, Jk was probably going to do best solo. I don’t think anyone is actually surprised at how well bis songs are doing. There was this expectation and it came true. At the same time though, when that expectation came true, people started to say that Jk was getting arrogant. Certain remarks of his were emphasized to proof that he was.

What it felt like for me at that point was that people didn’t mind him doing well, but they minded that he wasn’t being humble enough in their opinion. I think Jk was just feeling very proud of himself, and deservedly so. To me it looks like Jk is really happy being a part of BTS. I think he had a bit of a hard time at the beginning of the year knowing he wasn’t going to be doing what he was used to, and I think he felt really insecure. So for him to have worked through that, and to come out of it with a big hit.. that’s really something.

Right now, the discourse is a bit different. It’s very much about his image (girls everywhere) his lyrics, and him doing collabs. I think the shenanigans paired with the not so great reception of 3D lyrics was a bit of a sucky timing. They seemed to intensify each other.

Jk has talked about wanting to show himself to us as a grown up. He specifically mentioned a few times that he is now 26. By singing these songs, he’s claiming a certain adulthood (and no, that’s not the reason for him picking those songs. It’s a side effect). It’s an important thing for him I feel. He’s always been the maknae and I don’t think he’s always liked being the youngest and having been told what to do. He couldn’t even work out as much as he wanted at one point because it wouldn’t suit his young image. Jk smoking, Jk telling us he knows some might not like what they see.. it’s all him showing he’s a grown up.

People’s negative response to Jk these days do come from a place of insecurity I think. New things are often scary to people. Scared for what Jk’s succes might do to BTS, scared for who he’ll become. It’s unnecessary imo, I still see the same Jk from before.

[arttrampbelle]

Srry for the very heated. Very real. Very raw. And cery fucking angry vent below. Im sick of this shit in the mortal kombat "fandom" on here.

Cw: vent. Im Really fucking angry.

gonna ignore the trash heap dumpster fire that is the mortal kombat fandom and write my own mk stuff.

Thats the only mk that exists. The mk in my brain n heart.

Sorry not sorry but mk sucks now. Ed boon legitimately doesn't know or care to listen to the real fans. (He had the audacity to basically say street fighter was outdated when he hadn't done anything worth a lick of fucking damn in 30yrs that was decent and didn't backtrack on. Gameplay and story. Fuck off ed boon you boomer pathetic ass peice of trash. Go suck a fat dick n die. Fr.)

Oh yeah and called street fighter anime like when wtf is he doing making all the characters look so damn young like that sus af boon. Real sus.

Nrs has their egos so far up their asses. And so do these new "fans" who don't bother to care because they wanna just fuck a fictional character. (Dont get me wrong. I self ship,i love the characters too. But i actually have a working brain to know. There is more going on then whatever the fuck im oogling at you twats! Like fucking stop looking at your pathetic blorbos for five fucking seconds and look at the bigger picture here! Thirsty ass bitches. God damn. )

So yeah. Any mk stuff from mortal kombat is gonna be my own writing. So nrs can suck it. New fans can suck it and fucking die in a dumpster fire. They can kiss my whole asscheek.

Fucking ruined scorpion. They will fucking pay for that. Fucked over everything and everyone.

Kung lao. Got fucking nerfed....AGAIN!

Raiden reduced to bitch boi.

Liu kang need a say more?!

Shang tsung. A pathetic welp. Wtaf?! Also why tf is kronika back?! That absolutely makes no sense. Period. Yup. As i suspected. They lokified him. The fans are not villain fans unless they look "pretty" enough for them. Grossly making him like a teeny bopper. Like wtaf is wrong with y'all?! Shang tsung isn't supposed to be a fucking babyface. You weirdos!

Shao kahn. A diablo genshin impact villain rip off.

All the women have same face syndrome. Looking like kim k Instagram models. Gross. Like im sorry. They all look gross and dehydrated to me. All the same body types. All "conveniently attractive". Yeah. 30yrs and they still have yet to make a character look "average" or a character with a larger body type,fat character that wasn't a joke character or thrown to the side. Cant ever make the women normal looking. Nope gotta appease the loser men with porn models. And anyone who is a woman who falls for that shit. Thinking its hashtag girlboss doesn't help this. No. What would be. Is actually hiring and PAYING actual real woc models and voice actors to be in your games. But nope.

Nrs is lazy pathetic pos guys. Who just want money.

All the asian guy characters look like they took Lewis tans face and copy cut pasted it. Fr. They dont look good. At all. They do not look like they have any personality. Period.

Johnny is the only one that is different. Ofc the only white guy is done decent. Because they cant of course fuck up their precious little white dude to project their insecurities on. (Course they did fuck him up because everything thqt made johnny special is now gone. He just some douche who looks like jc)

The shokan are tiny af. Pathetic. Weak. Ugh.

And they wanna disguise this horseshit as something groundbreaking when it's not really. Most fans are not gonna pay and arm n a leg for a shitty game that you guys legit fucking ruined integral lore to.

All hiding it behind "oh but its a new world" no honey its a entirely new game Franchise only using mortal kombat in name brand alone.

Its not even mortal kombat anymore.

ITS SOME PATHETIC ASS DUDES FANFIC FROM A DC FANS BASEMENT ON WATTPAD.

So yeah im pissed.

So anything from me. Mortal kombat related.

Will be from my own writing.

Until nrs can actually pull their heads out their ass and clean house.

I wont be buying anything official from them. Like merch n games. They can suck it. All movies will be pirated. Etc.

I will play the shit i have,and watch and stick to the 95 movie n be done with it.

Fucking hell. They ruined scorpion!

Im just pissed.

[dateamonster]

i actually want to elaborate on this a lil now that im more awake lol. consider these the footnotes. additional reading if u will.

this is not necessarily abt characters that like get shit on for having realistic responses to trauma or character flaws or dubious morals that make the audience uncomfy, though thats an important conversation in and of itself.

im specifically talking abt the way girls, in fiction as well as irl, are held to much higher standards of maturity and emotional intelligence than their male counterparts, and therefor get treated a lot harsher when they fail to live up to that standard.

not to even speak on how this is compounded x1000 with girls of color but thats another conversation.

mabel is sort of the most obvious and easy example to give in part because if how crazy harsh she was treated by the fandom but also because like. she is literally the deuteragonist alongside her identical twin brother who shares a lot of those normal impetuous tween traits and was never treated anywhere near as harshly for it.

as a slight aside, i remember alex hirsch once responded to a fan asking what it would be like if mabel was the more serious twin and dipper the more silly and comedic. he answered that if they were the show would basically just be any other sitcom (if someone has a link to this btw lemme know i dont have it on hand) which, yeah! it is a way more common dynamic for the boy character to be the goofball and the girl (when one is even present) to be the eye-rolling serious intelligent type. its something we're finally gradually starting to move away from now, but the longtime prevalence of that gendered characterization i think should tell you something about why people still seem to get all frazzled over a girl character who isnt essentially the mom figure to the boy character. or doesn't eventually change ("grow") to inhabit that role.

for those just tuning in, my original comment abt the mabel pines effect was in response to a post about sarah from the movie labyrinth. this phenomenon is not new. not by a long shot. if anythings changed, its that people have started to couch their reflexive casual misogyny in softer more intellectual sounding language. lots of "i just dont think her character arc shows enough overt growth for her to be good representation for young girls" or "i dont know, i just get an uncomfortable vibe from her behavior" over "shes such an annoying bitch".

imo, the sentiment has stayed the same tho.

What’s the Mabel pines effect? I’ve never heard of that before

its not like a Thing im mostly just like cheekily referring to the sort of phenomenon of people being super disproportionately critical of tween/teen girl characters who like act immature or make impulsive emotion-driven decisions. you know like teens do.

im sorta using mabel as an example because the way fans treated and tbh continue to treat her character to this day is one of the most egregious examples of this behavior ive probably ever seen. the way i still see posts from ppl claiming the end of gravity falls was bad because this twelve yr old wasnt suitably Punished makes me feel like da joker babey.