#opposite: musesinked

[softdrabbles]

"you don't," they paused, shaking their head, taking in the woman's face, her perfect features. features that haunted them, "have to say anything. i want to make things right." there was still so much left to discuss between them but that could wait for at least another day or two, once knowing the outcome of their meeting. it was as if amelia was trying to prepare herself for the worst, something they'd seen before with her and for someone who had been hurt so much, they understood. she was so incredibly strong, yet still so fragile. "that's not an option for me right now. i don't think she'd be able to resist the good press that would come from the research being here, grey-sloan helps lead the charge against parkinsons."

the way their bodies came so perfectly together, it was as if no time had passed at all and it had finally given kai peace. their heart raced as amelia nuzzled closer into them and gently they placed a soft kiss to the top of her head. kai's cheeks warmed, a smile crossing their lips upon hearing the surgeons words, "you should feel that way everyday. i still stand by what i said, you are a queen." they spoke softly, their hand moving to caress amelia's cheek, "i know, i do too."

Was she hearing things? Surely she had to have been. "Kai.. I don't know what to say." For once, she was entirely lost for words. In the past this kind of commitment would have scared her. Only with Kai, everything was so new and different. They had given Amelia the courage to step out of her comfort zone, to be true to herself. That was why losing Kai, was all the harder. "And if Catherine doesn't offer her support? Then what?" There it was, that fear.

Melting into Kai's embrace, she always felt safe in their arms. Nuzzling her face into the side of Kai's neck, she breathed in their scent. "The feelings you make me feel, is honestly indescribable. I need this to work."

[torturedmuses]

@musesinked

❛  for  the  record ,  i  don’t  want  you  out  of  my  hair .  ❜ ( yelena to kate ! )

“Is that so? ‘cause it seemed quite the opposite to me.”

[softdrabbles]

"you did and i shot you down." they had been so set on the job in london that amelia's proposition of staying in seattle with the promise of research funding fell on deaf ears. "and you have scout, i know. i'd never expect you to travel that far for me." jobs were disposable, a love that they shared, was not. "i've got a meeting with catherine fox tomorrow. i want to split my time between labs. i'll still oversee everything there with scheduled visits and meetings but i need to be here too. i'm hoping she'll offer me some funding to let me work out of grey-sloan, with her top neurosurgeon in hand with the lab in london."

instinctively kai leaned into amelia's familiar touch, a reassurance that they had made the right decision to fight for their relationship. "i miss us too and for you, it was a constant ache, my entire body missed you." gently they reached up to take amelia's hand in their own, "i missed you when we were apart before but this was something else entirely. i understand why you wanted to know where feelings came from as a kid. here," gently, kai pulled her into their body, wrapping their arms around her, embracing her warmth, the smell of her hair, everything that she was. "we can make this work, we have to try."

Amelia’s heart was racing, feeling Kai’s eyes on her was burning into her very soul. Finally her head lifted, gaze meeting the others. “I should have fought, I know that.” She took a deepened breath, exhaling just as quick. “Kai.. I wish I could say I’d be able to cope with the distance, but it’s not just a different state. It’s an entirely different country, thousands of miles away.” There she was again, trying to justify her reasons for running from their relationship. No, she wouldn’t let herself do that again, ruin the best thing to happen to her.

“I can’t stop thinking about you either.” Amelia admitted, going on to place a soft touch against their cheek. “I really have missed you Kai, us.”

[softdrabbles]

the lack of support from amelia when breaking the news about their job offer had hurt. it was the biggest opportunity of their career and yet there wasn't one ounce of encouragement from their girlfriend. with meredith and maggie leaving, kai understood the timing could not have been worse but it was still hard to have the person they love shut them out and accuse them of abandoning her.

kai could see amelia looking anywhere but at them and it was just about as awkward as they expected it to be. the words that followed caused their breath to hitch ever so slightly, "amelia.." tentatively kai took a step towards the woman, hoping to catch her gaze, desperate to see the woman's blue eyes looking back at them, "i never wanted to hurt you, please know that. i ran every scenario over and over through my head, trying to find a way to make us work that was fair. i still do because the only thing i can think about in that lab is you."

Seeing Kai again had been difficult, the sudden reappearance of her ex brought up old wounds, as well as guilt. Amelia’s abandonment issues had been the reason behind the break up. Both her sisters had moved state and the neuro surgeon couldn’t deal with the heartache of losing someone else. Instead, she broke her own heart.

Loosely her shoulders shrugged, suddenly finding herself unable to look Kai in the eye. “Your cat wasn’t the only thing that did..”

[softdrabbles]

"you are anything but stereotypical, amelia." kai had been anxious to return to seattle with how things had ended with amelia. they thought being further away with their head buried in the lab would help the feelings they had for the neuro chief pass, yet the lab acted as a constant reminder of her. the time they'd spent together. "it seems like my cat had a lasting impression on you."

Open starter .

“ Guess I’m the crazy cat lady now. Huh, I really am fitting those typical stereotypes now aren’t I? ”