#ope it's me talkin about my biofam trauma again feel free to ignore

[dredshirtroberts]

been working on a response to my dad's passive-aggressive request that I "just think about" if there would be a good time for them to come visit "sometime this summer" "probably on a tuesday/wednesday" which essentially amounts to "I no longer have any desire to have any form of relationship with you."

it is...very difficult to just state the facts of things, and not go on long tangents about how exactly they have wronged me. I could probably just send something short sweet and to the point like "Do not come visit me, I no longer wish to have a relationship with you" but like...i don't want to field questions, so I want to say up front like...where this is coming from without just giving the whole life-story (you'd think they'd know it already...but i guess they'd have had to pay attention to me in order to do that so like. jokes on me).

i also need to go through all the email that is being sent to the address that is technically controlled by my father, and make sure i get the important shit routed to a new address/inbox so that in case they go more aggressive than passive aggressive in their response, I don't lose a lot of important correspondence.

I'm just. I'm tired. I'm so tired of this. They exhaust me. Thinking about them exhausts me. i just want them to leave me alone and i really thought maybe they'd do what they did when i lived an hour away and just ignore me and let me live my life without talking to me, but I guess i gotta be direct with them. Just like...jesus fuck i'm so tired.