#only for you to read 200k words and find that - HEY - this story isn't actually done!

[squarebracketsmileyface]

hi :) i just wanted to drop in and say that SIL haunts me /pos. i read the entirety of it over the course of a day, and i am so serious when i say that very few pieces of writing have moved me to tears like it did. the way you portray jay makes me feel like maybe i’m not alone in how scared i get about getting attached to people. thank you for writing something so emotionally resonating (and hot!! haha), i can’t wait for the next chapters :)) lots of love!!! <3

Writing Sorry, It's Locked has honestly been so amazing for me, and knowing other people enjoy it for the same reasons I do, for the way they can relate to how I write the characters, is so special to me. Like, it's kinda a given that when you write a story you put a little bit of yourself in all the characters, that's how you make them feel real, but SIL especially has been me doing that. Like, I started off mostly only doing that with Jay, but as the story got more and more involved I ended up relating so heavily to all three of Jay, Alex and Tim, even though their story has ended up completely wild at this point lol. It definitely started off meant to be pretty simple and stick fairly close to things/feelings I've experienced myself... then it ran the fuck away from me and now is nearly to 200k words so the story had to get a bit broader lol. I haven't experienced that much in my life yet 💀

But seeing other people relate to different characters in S,IL, especially people relating to Jay is so special to me just because of how he started out. Sure, he isn't so predominantly similar to me now, he's grown hugely into his own full character, but I can't quite shake off the whole "yeah this guy is basically just my self insert character" because that was my first impression of him in S,IL, y'know? First impression, even of fictional characters you yourself are writing, stick like fucking glue.

Sorry, anyway, I'm so glad you like Sorry, It's Locked and that you can feel a bit less alone with being scared to get attached to people because of it. You're definitely not alone. Getting attached to people is fucking terrifying, but usually you'll end up finding someone you can get attached to without anything ruining it and eventually it can stop being so terrifying, whether they're platonic, romantic, sexual, queerplatonic or whatever else with you. It's fucking great when you find them and you realise that "hey, this might not end terribly. This might actually be amazing."

[electron-road-suspect]

Fic asks: 🤡🛠🌞💖

🤡 - This is going to sound a little egotistical but I make myself laugh all the time with my writing. I figure, if I don't find it funny, who will? But I have to say my absolute favorite exchange is this one:

"That's great Jure wow hey," Nace says. "But we really need to go now." Jure is not paying attention. "Look, look, Paul, it's my BAND. These are the guys, man!" Paul looks dubious. "There's only one guy here." Jure looks around, surprised. "Wha- Where is everyone?" "Back at the hotel," Nace says, even though he actually has no clue. "They went to sleep because the shuttle leaves at seven. Remember?" Jure turns to Paul. "What time is it now?" he asks. Paul checks his watch and stares at it, trying to focus as his arm bobbles in the air. "Two forty-five," he finally manages, and Jure turns back to Nace with a pleading face. "That's so many hours, Nace!" he says. "So. Many." Paul nods sagely.

🛠 - Oh, this is genuinely hilarious. I use Windows Notepad to type fanfic. I started it this way because my license for Microsoft Word is through my workplace and I thought I might absolutely die if any of my fanfic somehow ended up on my work OneDrive. I feel like at this point it would probably be worth it to download an actual word processing program that isn't tied to my workplace, but here I am, still writing in fuckin Notepad.

🌞 - I write when the mood strikes me but usually that is at the end of the day. I won't lie to you, I do some writing when I'm at work, but most of the heavy lifting comes when I'm off the clock and have the evening to myself. Then I let whatever I've written breathe and then I post it in the morning.

💖 - I have always been a voracious reader of fanfic but I can be quite picky. I will read anything, but it's hard for me to find things that I LOVE. So I'd been thinking for a while of writing my own fanfic so that I would always have stories I wanted to read. I kinda knew I'd be good at it but I was very, very hesitant. So I decided to write a test chapter (chapter 2 of my Kinktober fic, actually) and posted it in the K Discord and got a really positive response from someone who said "mmmmmbbbut what if instead i told you that this absolutely does not suck and that maybe we should speak about it always and maybe there should be a 200k 30-chapter version".

And here we are now.

[aksannyi]

*pokes*

if you’re not going to finish the fic or provide a resolution to the story you’re writing then please don’t mark it complete. if i wanted to wait 7 years for the next installment, i’d fucking read game of thrones.