#once when i was 14 i had a dream where i was a whumpee who wasn't allowed to make eye contact with people

[rainbowsandwhumperflies]

The Winged Servant - 10

content warnings: mentions of murder, non-human whumpee with non-human injuries, dehumanization

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It wasn’t until hours later that someone tall walked in, his perfect posture and unreadable expression reeking of confidence. I immediately ducked my head down, but he didn’t glance at me, his platform boots coming to a stop in front of the queen.

“Kieran,” she acknowledged, not looking up at him.

“Lucia. Pleasure to see you again. Your status as a former ruler means that I am required to show a certain level of respect for you, but please know that will not protect you from the consequences of breaking the law. It will only protect me from spitting on your grave.”

I tried desperately to remember what Prince Ryan had told me about Keiran last night. Someone had their information wrong, because he’d just called the queen a former ruler when her family had had the crown for sixteen generations. We’d come here to overthrow Keiran—that meant he was a king, right? Of what country? We hadn’t driven far enough to have left Sathenn last night, had we? All of Sathenn was the territory of the royal family, forever, but Kieran was a king somewhere, right?

“Lucia, your charges against the kingdom are as follows,” the man—Kieran—continued. “The murder of seven people last night, the-” He abruptly cut himself off, and I glanced up to see his eyes fixed on me.

Fuck.

I leaned further forward, straining my wings in an effort to stay balanced, hoping desperately that he’d continue whatever he was doing before. It seemed to have the opposite effect. “You have wings.”

I swallowed nervously. “Yes, sir.” His boots had spikes on them. I couldn’t tell if they were just decoration or if they were strong enough to be used to hurt. Decorative spikes could still hurt, but it’d ruin them to be used like that. That might not stop him, though. With boots like that, he wouldn't even have to crouch down to draw my blood, it'd be so easy. If he kicked me, it would- well, it probably wouldn’t be good, exactly.

Kieran glanced between me and the queen. “Lucia, where the hell did you get an angel? I can’t- You know what? I don’t want to know.” He crouched in front of me. “Hey. Angel. What’s your name?”

“Onyx. …Sir.” I didn’t lift my head up, hoping it would disguise the way my voice shook.

Obviously, it didn’t work, because his voice was gentle the next time he talked. “Okay, Onyx, my name is Kieran. Can you tell me what happened to your wing?”

“... Pardon?”

“Your wing. The broken one.”

The broken one. Right. Right. “That wasn't from last night. It’s been broken as long as I can remember, sir. It doesn’t hurt anymore. It was broken as a preventative measure, so that I couldn’t fly.”

“So that you couldn’t- Jesus. Okay. That’s sadistic. You’re going to need medical care for that, and for- what happened to your arm?”

My arm was from last night, but it was difficult to remember what had actually happened. It was a sword, I thought, probably, because Prince Cardan had… fuck, what had happened? He’d resisted the handcuffs, right?

“Sometime today, Onyx.”

“My apologies, sir. It got scraped last night.”

“Right. Medical care. Is anyone else in here injured?”

“Ryan fucked up his arm,” Prince Cardan blurted out, and Prince Ryan turned to glare at him.

“You fucked up my arm. Are you snitching on me to Kieran to get back at me for not letting you kill him? Is that what this is, you little piece of-”

“No one is snitching on anyone,” Kieran said firmly. “For better or worse, no one is treating anyone without explicit consent. Ryan, would you like medical assistance?”

Prince Ryan spat at Kieran’s boots.

“Fine by me,” Kieran muttered. “Onyx, medical care?”

I glanced at Prince Ryan, on my left, and he sighed. “They won't be able to do anything about your wing, but you can go if your arm hurts.” He was annoyed, maybe with his brother and maybe with me, but he wouldn’t have said I could if he hadn’t meant it. I wouldn’t get in trouble for going.

“Untie the angel and help him to the infirmary, please,” Kieran told a guard. I wouldn’t get in trouble from the royal family for going, but I supposed that he had made no promises.

“Onyx,” Prince Ryan said quietly, and I glanced back at him. “Do what they tell you, yeah? Be nice and compliant for them. Don’t get hurt.” Don’t get punished, he meant. Do what they tell you and stay out of trouble.

I could do that. I knew how to do that.

Prince Cardan laughed. “It's an angel, Ry, not some priceless artifact. Does it matter?”

Prince Ryan didn't give an answer, and the guard didn't wait for one anyway, ushering me out the door.

~

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[redrobinhoood]

Index | Whumptober2020

Whumptober is now over! Thank you everyone for the love that’s been shown to my fics on here. This has been a very good writing challenge for me. I feel like I’ve learned a lot about my writing style over the course of this past month and what types of stories are the most compelling from your comments and reactions, so thank you for hopefully making me a better writer!

So as to provide the best reading experience, the index is a summary of every work I did for Whumptober and lists out the all characters, pairings, additional tags, triggers, and level of whump so that you may make an informed decision about what you would like to read. Feel free to ask questions, or for more summary/description if you are unsure if you would like to approach something, in the comments of this post or through DM or ask.

AO3 Index Link

* Lighter whump

** Eek but they at least kinda get their shit together

*** I kill or graphically traumatize someone here

Full index under the break

Single-character focus

No 31. TODAY’S SPECIAL: TORTURE ** | Tumblr | AO3

Left for Dead

TW: None

Boba Fett

Description: Left to die, Boba Fett refuses to do so.

No 19. BROKEN HEARTS *** | Tumblr | AO3

Grief | Mourning Loved One | Survivor’s Guilt

TW: Character Death, Depression

CC-5052 | Bly / Aayla Secura

CC-5052 | Bly. CT-6734 | Galle, CC-3636 | Wolffe, Aayla Secura

Description: Bly finds himself in the same situation that he once put Aayla in when he returns to Felucia.

No 1. LET’S HANG OUT SOMETIME * | Tumblr | AO3

Waking Up Restrained | Shackled | Hanging

TW: Psychological Trauma

CC-2224 | Cody. CT-7567 | Rex, Alexsandr Kallus, Sabine Wren

Additional tags: Retrospective

Description: Captured by the Rebel Alliance, Cody thinks back on the events that led to this moment.

No 25. I THINK I’LL JUST COLLAPSE RIGHT HERE, THANKS ** | Tumblr | AO3

Disorientation | Blurred Vision

TW: Graphic Descriptions

CT-5555 | Fives & CT-0408 | Echo

CT-0408 | Echo

Additional tags: Canon compliant

Description: Echo makes a mistake at the Citadel and waits for Fives to save him from it.

No 26. IF YOU THOUGHT THE HEAD TRAUMA WAS BAD… ** | Tumblr | AO3

Migraine

TW: None

CT-0408 | Echo & CT-5555 | Fives, & CT-7567 | Rex

CT-0408 | Echo, CT-7567 | Rex

Additional tags: Canon compliant

Description: Trapped inside his own mind, Echo relives his final moments of freedom.

No 28. SUCH WOW. MANY NORMAL. VERY OOPS. *** | Tumblr | AO3

Accidents

TW: Character Death, Graphic Descriptions

CT-5597 | Jesse & CT-6116 Kix

CT-5597 | Jesse

Additional tags: Canon compliant

Description: Pinned down, Jesse thinks back on the events leading up to Order 66.

No 20. TOTO, I HAVE A FEELING WE’RE NOT IN KANSAS ANYMORE *** | Tumblr | AO3

Field Medicine

TW: Needles, Drug Use

CT-6116 | Kix. CT-5597 | Jesse

Description: Kix fights to keep his brothers alive on Umbara, but gives them peace when he cannot do so.

No 14. IS SOMETHING BURNING? ** | Tumblr | AO3

Branding

TW: None

CC-4477 | Thire. Jek

Description: Thire finds that the Emperor has found a solution for telling the identical clones apart.

No 8. WHERE DID EVERYBODY GO? *** | Tumblr | AO3

Abandoned | Isolation

TW: Death, Depression, Graphic Descriptions of Violence

CT-7567 | Rex. Ahsoka Tano

Additional Tags: Post Victory and Death

Description: Rex returns to the wreckage of the Venator once Ahsoka falls asleep to mourn his brothers.

No 29. I THINK I NEED A DOCTOR * | Tumblr | AO3

Intubation | Reluctant Bedrest

TW: Mentions of Death

CC-3636 | Wolffe. Boost

Description: After suffering serious injuries at the hands of the droid army, Wolffe finds himself on the road to recovery.

Friendship focus/pairings

No 15. INTO THE UNKNOWN ** | Tumblr | AO3

Possession | Alt 10. Nightmares

TW: Violence, Implied Character Death

Barriss Offee & Ahsoka Tano

Barriss Offee, Ahsoka Tano

Description: Ahsoka dreams about Barriss Offee and the tipping points in their friendship.

No 24. YOU’RE NOT MAKING ANY SENSE * | Tumblr | AO3

Sensory Deprivation

TW: None

Barriss Offee & Ahsoka Tano

Barriss Offee, Ahsoka Tano

Description: Imprisoned for her crimes, Barriss tries to sort fact from fiction as she finds herself deprived of her senses.

No 7. I’VE GOT YOU * | Tumblr | AO3

Support | Enemy to Caretaker

TW: Wounds

Cal Kestis & Merrin

Cal Kestis, Merrin

Additional notes: Fallen Order Spoilers

Description: Merrin goes to see Cal with thoughts of Dathomir on her mind.

No 18. PANIC! AT THE DISCO ** | Tumblr | AO3

Panic Attacks

TW: Panic Attacks

Cal Kestis & BD-1, & Merrin

Cal Kestis, BD-1, Merrin

Description: With all distractors gone, Cal’s thoughts wander to old trauma and old wounds.

No 12. I THINK I’VE BROKEN SOMETHING * | Tumblr | AO3

Broken Down | Broken Trust

TW: None

CC-2224 | Cody & Obi-Wan Kenobi

CC-2224 | Cody, Obi-Wan Kenobi, Ghost Crew (all), Millennium Falcon crew (almost all)

Additional tags:

Description: The Ghost receives a transmission concerning a former Jedi, a farm boy, and the Death Star.

No 30. NOW WHERE DID THAT COME FROM? *** | Tumblr | AO3

Internal Organ Injury

TW: Character Death, Graphic Descriptions, Blood

CC-2224 | Cody & CT-7567 | Rex

CC-2224 | Cody, CT-7567 | Rex

Description: Cody tells Rex of a new Separatist weapon. Later, Rex comes face to face with it.

No 4. RUNNING OUT OF TIME** | Tumblr | AO3

Collapsed Building

TW: Blood, Mentions of Death

CT-27-5555 | Fives | ARC-5555, CT-5385 | Tup, CT-6116 | Kix, CT-5597 | Jesse. CT-7567 | Rex, Anakin Skywalker

Description: Rex sends some of his best men to steal data from a recently abandoned Separatist base.

No 13. BREATHE IN BREATHE OUT * | Tumblr | AO3

Oxygen Mask

TW: None

Plo Koon & CC-3636 | Wolffe

Plo Koon, CC-3636 | Wolffe

Description: Captured during the infiltration of a Separatist base, Plo Koon chooses to save the lives of his men over his own.

No 23. WHAT’S A WHUMPEE GOTTA DO TO GET SOME SLEEP AROUND HERE? * | Tumblr | AO3

Exhaustion | Sleep Deprivation

TW: Depression

CT-5555 | Fives & CT-0408 | Echo, & CT-5385 | Tup

CT-5555 | Fives, CT-5385 | Tup

Description: Following Umbara, old nightmares come back to haunt Fives.

No 2. IN THE HANDS OF THE ENEMY ** | Tumblr | AO3

“Pick Who Dies” | Collars

TW: None

CT-7567 | Rex & Anakin Skywalker

Anakin Skywalker, Ahsoka Tano, CT-7567 | Rex, Obi-Wan Kenobi

Description: Anakin is forced to choose between three of the beings he loves.

No 16. A TERRIBLE, HORRIBLE, NO GOOD, VERY BAD DAY * | Tumblr | AO3

Hallucinations

TW: None

CT-7567 | Rex & Anakin Skywalker

CT-7567 | Rex, Anakin Skywalker

Description: Rex and Anakin find themselves doused with hallucinogenic powder while pursuing Asajj Ventress.

No 9. FOR THE GREATER GOOD *** | Tumblr | AO3

“Take Me Instead” | “Run!”

TW: Character Death

CT 7567 | Rex & Ahsoka Tano

CT 7567 | Rex, Ahsoka Tano. CT-6116 | Kix, Anakin Skywalker

Description: When their ship comes under attack, Rex and Ahsoka desperately try to hold off the droids from the control room.

No 21. I DON’T FEEL SO WELL * | Tumblr | AO3

Hypothermia

TW: None

CT-7567 | Rex & Ahsoka Tano

CT-7567 | Rex, Ahsoka Tano. Anakin Skywalker, CC-2224 | Cody, Obi-Wan Kenobi

Description: Rex and Ahsoka find themselves stranded on an ice moon after escaping from Separatist forces.

Romance pairings

No 5. WHERE DO YOU THINK YOU’RE GOING? *** | Tumblr | AO3

On the Run | Failed Escape

TW: Character Death

CC-5052 | Bly / Aayla Secura

CC-5052 | Bly, Aayla Secura, CT-6734 | Galle

Additional tags: Worse Than Canon

Description: Bly decides to take the execution of Order 66 into his own hands

No 27. OK, WHO HAD NATURAL DISASTERS ON THEIR 2020 BINGO CARD? ** | Tumblr | AO3

Earthquake

TW: Suicide

CC-5052 | Bly / Aayla Secura

CC-5052 | Bly, Aayla Secura

Description: Trapped by a collapsed building during an earthquake, Bly and Aayla take different approaches to their survival.

No 6. PLEASE…. ** | Tumblr | AO3

“Get it Out” | “Stop, please”

TW: Blood, Mentions of Death

CC-2224 | Cody / Obi-Wan Kenobi

CC-2224 | Cody, Obi-Wan Kenobi

Description: Obi-Wan and Cody lead a mission to scout out what appears to be an abandoned Separatist base.

No 17. I DID NOT SEE THAT COMING * | Tumblr | AO3

Blackmail | Dirty Secret

TW: None

Rey / Ben Solo | Kylo Ren

Rey, Ben Solo | Kylo Ren

Description: A reminiscing Kylo Ren is interrupted by a call for a momentary truce following the near extermination of the Resistance.

No 3. MY WAY OR THE HIGHWAY* | Tumblr | AO3

Manhandled | Held at Gunpoint

TW: None

Riyo Chuchi / CC-1010 | Fox

Riyo Chuchi, CC-1010 | Fox. CC-5869 | Stone

Description: It’s the weekly bounty hunter break in in the Senate. But this week, Commander Fox finds Senator Chuchi to be one of their demands.

No 10. THEY LOOK SO PRETTY WHEN THEY BLEED ** | Tumblr | AO3

Blood Loss | Trail of Blood

TW: Blood, Graphic Descriptions, Character Death

Riyo Chuchi / CC-1010 | Fox

Riyo Chuchi, CC-1010 | Fox.

Description: Commander Fox leads an assault on a team of bounty hunters who have infiltrated the Senate.

No 11. PSYCH 101 *** | Tumblr | AO3

Defiance | Struggling | Crying

TW: Character Death

Riyo Chuchi / CC-1010 | Fox

Riyo Chuchi, CC-1010 | Fox

Description: The Chancellor learns of Commander Fox and Riyo’s relationship and orders his property to be destroyed.

No 22. DO THESE TACOS TASTE FUNNY TO YOU? * | Tumblr | AO3

Poisoned

TW: None

Riyo Chuchi / CC-1010 | Fox

Riyo Chuchi, CC-4477 | Thire

Description: Thire watches over Riyo at a senatorial gathering after she receives another threat on her life.

[trekkiehood]

Secrets Leading Home - SPN Fanfic

@febuwhump : Day 14 - Can't Go Home

Title: Secrets Leading Home

Fandom: Supernatural

Words: 1.2k

Setting: S1e9 Home

Whumpee: Dean

Caretaker: Caleb

Other Characters: Sam

Ship: None

Ao3 Link

Summary: So not only is his brother apparently psychic, but his very psychic brother wants him to go back home. It's all too much. He calls Caleb.

Trigger Warnings: Panic attack

Authors Note:

Another really short one. Most of these probably will be but it's still content lol. This one is kind of jumbled but it's intentionally that way.

This episode was hard to fit into the Brotherhood because of how uncompliant with the plot it is lol.

Anyway, please enjoy!

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Dean was spiraling. There was no way. No way. Sure, Sam had always been different. He'd always been sensitive to psychic tendencies but he'd never… this was Caleb level crap. These were psychic visions. Sensitive nothing.

And now… now they were on their way home. The only place that had ever been a home. The place Dean had sworn he would never go back to.

Sam was still watching him, looking for any condemnation. Sure, Dean was freaked out. But his best friend was a psychic; it certainly wasn't going to affect his view of his brother. But… but it was all too much. He needed a minute to regroup.

"Finishing packing up I'm going to go grab us some grub."

His hand was on the door when Sam's voice reached him. "Dean…"

"We'll figure it out. This doesn't change anything." Even though it definitely changed everything. Did the Brotherhood know? Did Dad?

Sam nodded still looking like a kicked puppy, but Dean was too busy focusing on breathing to be able to give proper comfort.

He tried not to slam the door behind him but he honestly wasn't sure how successful he was. He was on autopilot. Get in the Impala. Start her up. Pull out. Drive.

Dean didn't know where he was going. Just that he needed to be away. Who knew that after months of wanting nothing more than to not be alone, he'd just want a moment by himself. He pulled off at a random road and got out of the car. He began pacing beside her. Trying to think. Trying to process. Sam was having visions. True, I dreamt it, it happened the exact same way, visions. And now he was dreaming about home. Dean's home. Sam wouldn't remember it but… but it was home and he couldn't go back there. It was all too much at once.

Dad wouldn't answer even if he called, he decided, pulling out his phone and flipping it open. There was no point in that. Jim? He hadn't exactly been checking in with the Brotherhood on a regular basis. And he couldn't just start spouting off Sam's secret. That crossed out Mac too. As helpful as he would be… he just couldn't deal with the Scholar right then.

But he had to talk to someone and deep down, Dean knew who it was going to be before he even opened the phone.

The first call went through to voicemail. Dean's hands were beginning to shake. Even if Sam was having visions not every one of them would come true, right? They didn't have to go.

The second call rang through but also ended at voicemail. Sure Caleb never talked about the visions that didn't come true but that was because they were pointless. Not worthy of conversation. Not because every single vision came true. The women in the house, in his house would be fine.

The third call answered on the second ring. "What's wrong?" Caleb was out of breath, and his voice spoke of all of the hidden fear and panic Dean was feeling.

"Do all your visions come true?" He blurted out, his mind so jumbled he couldn't straighten out why he was calling.

"What?"

"Every time you have a vision, does it happen?"

"What? I mean- yeah, I guess. They're typically recurring until it happens or whatever I'm seeing is taken care of."

"But not all your dreams are visions. Some of them are just… just dreams." His panic was rising. He couldn't go back there. He just couldn't. He didn't care. He didn't care about the new family living in his house. He didn't care what was in it. If it was the thing that killed his mother and Jessica then he wanted to be as far away from it as possible.

"Yeah- Deuce, what's this about? What's wrong?"

All the tension he was feeling couldn't be held back. "Did you know?!"

"Know what? Dean-"

"That my brother is a friggin' psychic!" He exploded, finishing with a heaving breath.

The silence on the other end sent a different kind of sting. He slowly slid down the side of the impala, running a hand through his hair.

"You did." He sighed.

"Dean-"

"Does the Triad know? Does Dad?"

"Dean listen-"

"Was there an article about it in the Winchester's Lives Are A Wreck Weekly and no one told me?"

"Dean!"

The man in question stopped. He stayed silent until Caleb continued.

"It's never been a secret that Sam was… gifted."

"Gifted? Yes. Brilliant? Yes. Sensitive ? Yes. Psychic? No ."

Caleb sighed. "Tell me what happened? Are we talking telekinesis, telephethy-"

"Visions, Caleb. We're talking seeing things before they happen!"

Silence was heavy on the other end. "Did he- did he see Jess-"

"Yes! I mean he's just now deciding to tell me but apparently he had them for weeks before it happened and he had another one last night and- I can't do it, Damien."

Caleb's voice became slightly panicked, misunderstanding Dean's distress. "Woah, man. Can't do what? Deuce, you've been dealing with me for years. I get it, it sucks, it's sudden, but he's still Sam."

"I can't go home, Damien. I promised I'd never go back there. I can't just- go! And just because Sam says something is in the house? They should have let the stupid place burn. It's their fault for moving into the stupid place."

"Home? Lawrence? Sam had a vision about your house in Lawrence?"

"He-he thinks- he thinks it might be-"

"The demon that killed Jessica."

"And mom." he added in a whisper.

"You don't have to go back. I can take care of it."

"No! I don't want you-" anywhere near there . And wow that felt stupid.

"There are other hunters, Dean. Call Jim. We can tell him that I had a vision."

Dean let out a sigh he hoped didn't sound too much like a sob. "Sam will never go for it. It's his vision. He'll want to see it through. Especially if it is connected to the demon."

"I can come down. I don't like the idea of you guys facing this thing alone. Especially if it is the demon- "

"Forget it. I'll figure something out." But he knew it came out less reassuring and more in need of reassurance.

"Dean, I know you're probably freaked out right now. But everything's going to be okay. Just take a breath, man."

"My psychic brother just told me I had to go back to a house I swore I'd never return to to possibly face the thing that killed my mom. How is any of this okay!?"

"It's going to be okay because you've still got me and Sam is still Sam even if his psychic powers have finally come out in full force. And as for the house… I really don't think you should go at this alone. We know Johnny's been looking into demons and wanted you left out of it."

Dean felt drained. He couldn't continue this conversation. He shouldn't have even started it. Caleb was firmly on John's side in this instance and Dean didn't have the energy to argue it.

"I'll call you when we know what's going on."

"Deuce-'

"And keep this between us, yeah? Shouldn't be hard, it seems you've had lots of practice keeping secrets over the years."

"Dean-"

Dean didn't let him finish, shutting the phone. He was too angry, too confused, too tired to listen anymore.

He needed to grab some food and get back to Sam. Dean Winchester was going back home.

~TH~

Dean is just stressed rn lol. Valid too. Like suddenly finding out your brother was psychic while being told he had to return to the place of his trauma? Yeah that's rough.

And keeping secrets for Dean's sake is common in the Brotherhood and it's always frustrated me.

Let me know what you thought!

Tomorrow's covers a dark topic but I hope you guys will like it.

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Jamie