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theha1r · 5 months ago

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hm doing some thinking & being all introspective tonight & just ... thinking about my blogs & what i wanna do & what will ultimately be the best for me. like i'm def just staying on steve's blog for a while but when i start to get stir crazy over here & shit ...

idk i love my multi (like pcetstcrtured), i love having a multi like that but sometimes i do think trying to run a large multi with (literally) over 100 muses ends up being detrimental to my writing time & time again. like, it always is a pattern over & over again - i take a break from the multi, come back to it, 'cut down' my muse list, end up adding back all the muses i cut & then getting to a point of being tired, stressed, & overwhelmed & having no muse or motivation for tumblr on any of my blogs ...

it's happened so many times. & so idk. i'm just thinking & thinking maybe i really need to try to set a boundary with myself & genuinely, for real, actually, take a step back from running a big blog like that for at least an actual extended period of time (like ... longer than a month or two) & just maybe try to see if that's better for me. i don't know ...

#( a pathological people pleaser // ooc )#(no one has to read this - this is mostly just a stream of consciousness type thing but yeah idk i'm thinking abt this tonight)#(bc i honestly feel like its trying to run a big blog that that is the real source of the issue & has me burnt out time & time again)#(esp when i think back to like - pre-2020 where i either had solo muse blogs &/or my multis were a lot smaller)#(& i was def getting burnt out a lot less then & everything so idk)#(if i did this though i wouldn't completely abandon my muses on there - they'd still be available for disco writing & i think i'd keep some #on tumblr - like ... i'll still keep a multifandom multi just - a lot smaller of a list. & i'd maybe even put my ocs on their own blog)#(but idk we'll see i gotta think on it all - either way i am just staying here on steve's blog for a bit)#long tags tw

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