#on another note i just read one of my chapters where fane said 'shem' and I am FLOORED

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It’s always so interesting to go back and re-read my older writing because it’s like some things have changed a lot and other things haven’t. What I see in my writing now is a lot of word play, metaphors, spiraling questions (at least with Fane because that’s how his mind is), heavier descriptions on how a character’s voice sounds (Fane’s ‘softest of the rolling thunder’ or Solas’ ‘silk and lilt) among other things, and lesser walls of text. I also seem to struggle with dialogue now, though. I’m no sure why. Maybe I just like describing the flow of a character’s thoughts rather than them voicing them? Maybe, but it’s something I’m working on! :D

I actually read Chapter 3 of my first main fic with Fane and I was like, ‘Man, I just went for it, huh? No heavy context, no sense of desperate urgency.’ Like, I’m not saying it was bad because to me, all forms of art, writing or drawing, is well done. Quality comes with time and practice, support and passion. I do have moments where I get frustrated and think, ‘This doesn’t sound right. What am I going for? Fuck, I have no idea.’ but if I stop, shift my focus on something other than writing for a bit, and then come back later with a clearer mind, it falls into place. 

Writing and drawing require mental stamina just like sports or physical activities of any kind require bodily stamina. Each person has a different amount and with continued practice, reiteration, that stamina builds, but like a muscle, you have to give your mind a break when it doesn’t want to give into your push. And I’ve found that my stamina ebbs and flows depending on what’s happening in my life. Lately, my writing has been taking weeks to form when otherwise it had been *snaps fingers*, and it’s mainly because of work and because I’m working chapter to chapter. 

Like, I tried to write the first kiss scene for Fane and Solas the other day and I physically couldn’t because it requires build up from several chapters before that I have no clue as to how they’re going to go because they require their own prior chapters to form. I’ve tried to make an outline, but my plot changes on the daily, so nope. XD It’s another thing that’s changed about how I write. I’m more inclined to inch towards originality than sticking to established canon. I’m taking the structure and reworking it like a lot of other fanfic writers do, and it’s hard, and I can’t help but be in awe of how great everyone’s interpretations are of events, of characters, of meta or canon. 

And let me just say, those that say I’m inspiring, well, so are you to me. I only decided to share my works because of half of you that have interacted with me, and let me tell you, it gives me life and so much happiness when I see a note, a comment, or an ask saying I wrote such and such character well or that I have actively made people feel sorrow towards killing the dragons in Inquisition. Like FUCK. I don’t want people to be sad, but was the idea that potent, that gripping that people paused and went, “But maybe it is true!”? Those various things are the reason my writing has evolved and I’m grateful to every single person who continues to listen to me ramble, theorize, and analyze the hell out of stuff that seems thin at the surface. 

Gah! It seems this post got away from me, buuuut...yeah! My writing has changed, improved, and I love everyone! That’s the short version! Hehe. :3 *lays down while pushing a thank you card towards everyone*