#on a public server. you ain't doing shit to me

[edenfoxi]

Bro how TF is surviving a cod lobby easier than surviving a Roblox game nowadays?? Like good for the cod community, y'all still got some issues to work out but why'd you shove em all in Roblox???

I nearly got mauled in spray paint by 7 year old mini meanies girls for drawing Squirrelflight from warrior cats bc they thought it was furry art. Even tho it was clearly a feral cat. They hunted my ass down and constantly insulted me for 30 minutes while I sat afk.

(also yes I reported them to Roblox for harassment/bullying, I ain't letting them do that to someone who can't handle it as well.)

[skrunklyskykid]

done with this fandom. probably going to delete my tumblr too. while i'm at it, the way you've treated arayla isnt right at ALL.

she is 12 for god's sake. give her the benefit of the fucking doubt man. she literally has autism??? she is getting shit on for her age (something she cannot control) and what, some bullshit allegations about transphobia? Give it a rest, guys. She ain't transphobic. I have known her for YEARS. this is turning into a psa so dont harass anyone yadayada

this is the 'transphobic comment' in question.

here's some actual context to the image:

one even agreed.

not to mention how byte/lyte literally made a 'joke' about FUCKING HER. Are you braindead??

THIS MF IS 17. GET OUT not to mention how shitty the mods were to her. she joined back to let people know she got hacked.

@/jayflys00 (also the one who has just sent the dm) had a lovely conversation with @/blveblvrr.

I want to make it clear however that Jay was only the middle man in THIS situation. He wasn't given full information on this either. This fandom sure loves to gatekeep shit! oh! and a lovely comment from byte/lyte on a deleted psa from @/shedemonandrea666

so heres some proof that arayla isnt lying about that. disgusting. the announcement on her went a little something like this:

@/unknown-role did not want to make this public whatsoever, but due to this individual spreading out to other members i want to make this for the sake of other's safety and boundaries if this may have made anyone uncomfortable. that is not the purpose of this server.

i apologize in behalf of anyone who may have received any message from the user **@ goofy_mcgee69420 / araylark69 **as she were kicked due to being underage of discord's TOS and transphobic comments screenshots i've received that i do not take likely whatsoever. **this is a safe space for trans and the queer community, any sort of discrimination or taken light of misgendering / deadnaming people is not acceptable. **

please for anyone who may have received a message to not harass or threaten her whatsoever. i do not tolerate that type of behavior despite how immature she may be from this unfortunate situation. please take care of yourself everyone and please if you are underage, leave and return when you are of age. if you do not like anything queer / LGBTQIA+ relations this is not the space for you. thank you. :tsb: 🍔 how on the fucking earth is she DANGEROUS???? brother what the fuck also lookie here:

he didnt even appear. shes not a liar. this guy is 21 fyi T-T and of course, to add to the shittiness of the fandom, he ofc had to send her this lovely message too

how delightful. and, obviously, they just HAD to have a convo with someone else behind the scenes about her.

so thanks very much @/bluesbox, she really LOVED reading this :D oh, and btw? this is the 'annc' that theyre on about.

https://www.tumblr.com/blveblvrr/757724130134097920/hey-yall-its-ur-favorite-yapper-jeremy-here?source=share and then here's her convo with jeremy.

so, can we please stop throwing this at her too? her and jeremy are really good friends now. character development is real. https://www.tumblr.com/blveblvrr/759827128268341248/update-on-the-arayla-thing?source=share plus this shit is nearly 3 months OLD MANNNN LET GOOOO ;-; yall are ridiculous. can people please, please PLEASE leave her alone. this is beyond a fucking joke now. this entire fandom is absolutely ridiculous, and needs to grow the fuck up. i am sick of seeing my friend being torn apart mentally by you morons. she has so much going on and none of you have ANY IDEA. leave her alone. leave ME alone. and last but not least sort out your cesspit of a fandom. there are literal minors with nsfw roles in las gayass as well as an anti british cult. disgusting shit. What's more ironic is that they have other 12 year olds in the server, like @/weeatcement and 'RAMEN AIRFRESHNER'. Hypocrites, am i right? get your asses in gear. this young, and very much talented girl is LITERALLY SHOWING HER INSTABILITY and you are CALLING HER OUT FOR IT???? ARE YOU FUCKING BLIND????? YOU FUCKERS COULD DRIVE HER TO SUICIDE. i'm not talking to everyone here. but a few of you really REALLY need to open your fucking eyes. to those who see how fucked up these people are, please reblog and spread the word. this is an absolute joke.

[toyym]

It's funny how I'm being harassed because I was the only victim brave enough to come out to the public, right?

Literally attacking my friends for something they didn't do, while your being so called attacked for something you did do!

Juni if you don't get the fuck off my page I will take legal actions, this isn't fucking funny. You've been called out and it was over with, you and Asch were the ones who decided to come on my page and continue the shit, ain't that right? Yeah, John told y'all to slit, that isn't my problem, that's not my system. Do I think it's necessarily okay? No. But you and Asch kept harassing me so he took drastic measures he thought was okay.

Literally all you had to do was leave but no you want to start shit, I've told y'all to leave me alone multiple times, even other people have but you don't want to leave, now your saying your already in my servers? Do you really want me to get legal actions involved?

Boost please; @panncaked @dieterbr4vo @theactoractress @infectedrpd

[hiddenshrinestables]

You know what I was going to be the big person. I was going to ignore this obviously pathetic attempt at calling me out for setting boundaries. But no I'm not. Because I figure people need to know what you're saying.

I would love to have posted this as a reblog to your post... so we could have discourse in public, cause I'm sorry, I ain't going anywhere near your DMs so you can try and twist things to fit your narrative. You wanna talk? You talk in public.

But lets play a game. I welcome ANYONE reading this to have a look and see where I as the admin of Equestriad has been 'mean' to everyone. I've reblogged posts that I feel is related to my own feelings, and otherwise been getting on with my life. Sorry you feel threatened by another server but seriously. Get my pretty name out of your mouth, cause it does not deserve to be in there.

You want to drag others through the dirt in a vain attempt to make yourself look good? You Jocelyn are PATHETIC, and from what I've heard ... this ain't the first time you've stirred shit.

I honestly hope you grow, you learn to improve in time, that you do some serious self reflection and self growth. Cause it's you hun causing all the drama in here, not anyone else.

[theghostbunnie]

what's the worst camp camp fandom story you heard? or, what are some bad or wild ones?

You wanna see the longest lists of trigger warnings I've ever written? here we go

TW: ⚠️R*pe, S*lf H*rm, S*icide, Pregnancy, Violence, death, Gr*oming, Abuse, all mentions⚠️ hopefully I'm not forgetting anything

I was recently told a story about this person who was stuck in a ongoing roleplay(s) that just kept getting worse and worse. It involved Max, trans FTM teenager involved with Snake but he was abusive and they were constantly cheating on each other and Max had multiple children with him, Preston, had other partners even. Snake had children with Erin. Alot of it was Max facing alot of abuse and troubles, and physical bullying at school even while pregnant. There was always either a baby on the way or a newborn. David kicked Max out for being a teen parent, turned to alcoholism, Max was constantly going back to Snake, abandoning the kids. David being mad at Max despite doing the same thing. Gwen acted like David, accidentally crashed the car into a hospital with the main cast inside. Snake kidnapped a baby with no consequences. I was just appalled reading them telling me this.

Then there's like the typical "here's like 5 artists that got popular then called out for drawing werid shit of kids or doing werid shit to kids" heard a lot of those stories. Recently had to leave a server bc another one came out, jfc.

I don't have the attention span for fics but I've heard of some from other people that're like "Daniel 🍇 ing David but David is still in love with him," "Jasper 🍇ing David and Daniel comes and kills him and saves David" "Gwen abusing David and Daniel kills her and saves him" I group read a fic when Wattpad was getting streamed on a discord call and it mentioned Nikki Neil and Max all had cellphones and Max decided to run away bc his mom was kinda rude to him and made him do some chores and he's like "I can't take this anymore" and told his friends to runaway with him without actually telling them what they were doing and they weren't even missing for 24 hours and none of their parents called them but it hit the news and the news/even Max's father making a statement was like "yeah Max probably kidnapped those other kids" LIKE HE AIN'T TEN YEARS OLD AND MISSING HIMSELF 😭 the fic was probably written by someone very young along time ago so I don't wanna dig into it too hard but omg

Personal experiences I have are like, on Kik actually when I was first in this fandom my only exposure was basically a public chat on Kik and then later amino. Max fangirls had little to no boundaries with Max RPers and I had a problem saying no as a kid so it got me into some wacky adventures!!/neg

Like a problem we had in that GC was people coming in with their OCs and like the most openly triggering backstories ever speaking on them loudly and like making their OCs cut n stuff and a friend I had at the time literally blew a fuse and basically told them "you are RUINING my one safe space do you srsly have to bring that in the RP"

We had a Nerris RPer who would make her have full violent breakdowns and I don't even remember all the details but it got so bad and us being all young and stupid tried to handle it THROUGH RP IN CHARACTER TO AVOID DIRECT CONFLICT 😭 I remember Rping as Nerris' parents getting called to pick her up and take her back home bc she couldn't control herself. It made things worse.

This one person had an OC who was Daniel's and David's baby they found in a dumpster and throughout the course of that RP they kept ageing her up and she went from being a baby herself to being a teenage mom of two. I remember my friend rping as the social service worker who came and took her kids after I had Max call her in.

Same OC did the "storming off dramatically" thing and I tried to be nice and have Max follow her and they had her respond "turns around with a bow and arrow and shoots you directly in the eye and doesn't miss" and jasper and Gwen got their date interrupted to take Max to a hospital and recon that it ALMOST* got his eye bc he would've IMMEDIATELY DIED realistically.

On amino there was this one max fangirl RPer even my current friend now had a run-in with and at the time I had even heard stories about how she would go into group RPs and cause a stir.

Like wanting Max to date her and when he refused she killed herself and then started rping as her OCs brother and berating and harassing Max for "killing his sister"

She joined MY rp once and I panicked bc I always delt with things THROUGH my character or ignoring it. But this RP was a personality swap and Max was a really sweet kid and she always wanted to be right on his hip, trying to interact with him.

So I made him, (who was currently in the mess hall attic) fall through the ceiling and onto a table so I didn't have to talk to her OC

[holopossums]

With the recent vent, bro, I feel you there. You first don't feel safe in a server thats for anyone because the kids there bully you for your age, calling you all sorts of terrible shit (welcome to why my age is "adult" now) so you go to an adult only server, hoping ✨finally✨ you have a safe space, only for kids to violate it and access the server when they shouldn't in the first place.

Oh, thank you for your empathy and understanding! I'm sorry you've had to deal with this too. Glad to know I'm not the only one, though. Us adults are really in the trenches here.

I sat down to write a more in-depth response and was going to go with my typical "Oh I haven't been bullied, it's not that bad" shtick I normally do. But if I'm being honest with myself, that's not true at all. I have to start admitting that I've been a target for tons of dumb crap as well. I just rarely talk about it since it's all been more private drama on Discord, not anything public.

A lot of younger folk, both kids and younger adults alike, have lied to me and about me a surprising amount over the past 3 years I've been a part of the TMNT fandom. It's been multiple instances. Usually it's due to me being a mod or setting a boundary with them. Sometimes I'm even just standing there. They do this when they don't get their way or they mess up and point fingers. I have adult friends who have gone through similar experiences. It's really fucked up, and I hope one of these days it stops, because I'm tired of it.

It's part of the reason why I don't interact with kids on a personal level and will only be in adult servers now. Sadly I've found it's not exclusively a kid problem either, it's an issue of maturity that extends to some adults too. Very disappointing, from my perspective. But eh, there's always gonna be shitty folk around, that's how it goes.

Regarding kids getting into adult spaces and lying about their ages, yeah it really sucks. It's unsafe for them. And it doesn't just affect the kid, but also everyone else there too. It definitely feels very disturbing to know what a minor saw that they shouldn't have seen, and it weighs heavily on my mind. Even though it's out of my control, it's a horrible feeling. And it does make me feel unsafe and paranoid. I just want my own kid-free space, man.

And yeah, I feel ya. I wish I could be more secretive about my age too. Unfortunately, I doubt I could hide it well. I talk a little too white millennial to come off as any younger than I am. Easier to just disclose it. Besides, it makes it easier to find folks my age in the fandom, which I desperately need. But for you adults who don't want to say your age, definitely do it! It ain't worth the trouble.

In any case, I hope things get better for all of us adults who are not doing anything wrong and just minding our own business, regardless of who's around us. We deserve better treatment.

[opwolfe]

Tw; vent post

Soooo that guy I liked? Total fuckboy LOL, I gave his ass as many chances that I could and he STILL decided to be stupid as fuck. I ain't your fucking mom, I'm sure as shit not your fucking girlfriend, and I'm DEFINITELY not your friend anymore if this is how you treat them all, dpmo.

On a slightly related note, I ended up having to ban two guys from my server for trying to incite shit with me and fear monger me into like??? Something??? No idea tbh. But this GROWN ASS MAN (21, I'm 18) is trying to use the fact that I liked that dude into whatever it is he wants (genuinely have no idea) and is basically grooming a minor into doing his bidding (not sexually or romantically, he's basically whispering into this kids ears and making him do things such as; inviting an alt into our server (banned in seconds), talking shit about me in public (never verbally), and burning down my base and killing my villagers in an mc server, simply because i banned him from our discord, which is liked the funniest shit ever to me because I literally can't care any less about what he's doing, YOUR 21 AND HES 14 BROOO GET A LIFEEEE.

This is a message to skroud/ludwig and osama/jebingus, I've been building a case and getting in contact with the servers higher ups, keep doing shit and you can say bye bye to your position in shock (skroud) and your nonbanned accounts (osama) :3

[benjaycaptain]

Did you hear about them making a new descendants movie? Kind of feels like a cash grab…what are your thoughts?

oh nonnie, i mod a descendants server, so yes i am very aware of new descendants stuffs, unfortunately lmao

and like i try to keep telling them, the very first movie was a cash grab. the two following it were cash grabs. any and all printed related material are cash grabs. there ain't nothing involved with this franchise that isn't a cash grab lol

that being said, i have no thoughts on the new movie because i go into things, especially dcom and similar things, without expectations. does me a world of good cause i find doing so helps me enjoy them more lol

tho, i will say, i kinda of wish they hadn't cast brandy or paolo. not because i don't adore them -- i very much love them and the '97 cinder/ella! i grew up on that shit! but their casting and the pics that came out of it broke containment of the descendants fans/fandom, and so now i feel like people who do not know the series will be tuning into the new movie expecting a full on direct sequel to the '97 film when it very likely will not be. hell, i even think their casting was just a publicity thing, and that they won't even be in the movie that much [after all, look at the screen time of any adult in the series in comparison to the kids].

but only time will tell. i don't even remember or know if the movie has a release date yet, but either way, i will be tuning in

[hdawg1995]

i am having THOUGHTS about my mental health and if i don't get them down in a place that is semi public my brain calls it a waste of time so HERE WE GO!

legit i opened a note doc to write this all out but brain was like "you're wasting time you're wasting your life" like bruh you are my brain no we fucking ain't- ANYWAY

I'm doing this thing and i can already see the problems with it but i can't talk to anyone about it because it is a PROBLEM and last time i talked to someone about it they insisted it was NOT A PROBLEM which it TOTALLY IS!

I'm load! very load! i laugh and it sounds like a squeaky toy or a husky barking! I talk and talk and TALK AND TALK AND NOW IM YELLING AND I DIDN'T NOTICE MY VOLUME GO UP AT ALL! i'm trying so hard not to be load i am trying i really am!

i fucked up one time and got scolded by my friend who had to go server owner on me and it woke up some stupid bull shit from my old friend group but MY POINT IS WHEN THAT HAPPENED I JUST AVOIDED THE VOICE CHAT.

ITS VERY DUMB BUT I FIGURED "no one is treating my volume like a problem and i'm getting mixed signals cause when someone else is load its joked about and everyone turns them down but when IM load i get scolded" and then when i explain i have issues controling my volume i get "no you don't" or "you can be load just tone it down when you're asked" I THOUGHT I DID! I THOUGHT I DID INFACT TONE IT DOWN BUT APPARENTLY I WAS JUST LOAD.

IM LOAD!

I DONT WANT TO BE LOAD!

anyway it happened again- i was load playing a video game and was told "can we not fucking scream?" so i muted myself and just left the voice call when i was done playing because i'm too dumb to control my volume and also not allowed to be load cause again why do other people get to be load and we make jokes but i'm load and get scolded????

ANYWAY ANYWAY MY POINT IS GUESS WHAT IM DOING AGAIN? TATS RIGHT IM AVOIDING THE VOICE CALL!

this isn't good! this is bad even! my instinct is "oh i am a problem, i need to remove myself" but all thats doing is teaching the people around me that they can't call me out for my bull shit or tell me to quiet down!!! WHICH IS NOT WHAT I WANT!!!!!!!

google how do i control my volume so i don't end up yelling and upsetting my friends???

GOOGLE HOW DO I CONTROL MY VOLUME SO I STOP THINKING I HAVE TO LEAVE THE VOICE CALL???

bonus: how the fuck do i talk to my friends about this so they can help me (if they want) and not scold me like a annoying child?

they say they want me around and they like it when i get excited but being excited = load and volume is hard to control WHAT THE FUCK DO I DO??? i'll just get "you're not load" and then BOOM IM GETTING SCOLDED. hEY I HATE THIS.

*screams*

[sinnabee]

FAQ

Are you accepting commissions?

No, I'm not right now. tbh commissions stress me out a lot lol, and i kind of function on a "i can only get myself to work on this if i am personally invested in it" type basis, and people like to commission for fandoms that i'm not always in - which makes it super hard for me to work on! AHH. if i ever do open them up though, you'll see a post about it! :D

Update: I am! Currently they’re closed to the larger public, as I’m doing limited comms for some friends in discord servers first as a bit of a test run. (You might have seen me post a few things!!) But it’s been going well! I think once I’m through with these, I’ll open up comms for realsies. ^^ Keep an eye out for the post!

Can I repost your art on Instagram/Pinterest/Tiktok/Wherever?

Nope! (: Don’t even bother asking lol! Idk why you’d want to repost it at all tbh, i am not that popular, most of my art is sketches bUT IF you feel the need to, just know that I’m not cool with it! I don’t really want my art on platforms that I’m not also on, and even if I’ve got an account there, well. My brother in christ, if I wanted it there, I would have posted it!!! I don’t care if you give credit, or even link back to my blog. Just…don’t do it, pal. thanks.

Do you do drawing requests?

Yep! Not all the time - only every now and then, and I usually only allow for about 3 requests. I make a post every time I open them up, and it's usually updated (all the slots filled) within a few hours or so. If you don't see a recent post about requests being open, or see it on the pinned post announcements, then they aren't open atm. :)

Do you draw NSFW?

This is a new development - but lmao yeah I do! However, you almost certainly won’t be seeing it show up on my art blog here. For the most part, I try to limit myself to “suggestive” rather than straight up nsfw when I post art. That means I won’t really be taking requests (or comms) for NSFW, either, not to mention I’m only just getting a handle on drawing it.

That being said - PLEASE don't send me messages about NSFW things, or with NSFW content or images. I’m talking asks, mostly. That shit gets deleted fam. >:T That would include like, something super gore-y or needlessly gross, btw. I'd rather just avoid people trying to show me that stuff all together.

Please also don’t send me unsolicited NSFW, either. I love my followers! But receiving like - explicit excerpts or images from someone I don’t know, but that follows me, is very jarring.

Again, that being said - if you want to write or draw something based off of one of my more suggestive doodles, just let me know!!! I’d LOVE to know!!!Asking for permission and then writing and posting something to Ao3 or what have you is a totally different ball game than dm-ing me something unprompted/un-solicited.

Do you reblog NSFW?

Like I’ve said before - I have zero problem with NSFW. I’m not going to reblog explicit NSFW content here - if I ever had a need to, I guess I’d make a side blog for it? BUT

Every now and then I might reblog some suggestive content or something with some partial nudity. Whenever that happens, I’ll tag the post for people who want to avoid that content - typically with these tags!

#cw partial nudity

#cw nudity

#cw suggestive

#cw slightly NSFW

If you don’t want to see them, please go ahead and blacklist these tags! I know most of my followers are here for Sun and Moon content, so I’m giving y’all a way to avoid this stuff. ^^

Do you have a twitter?

yeah i have a twitter, and it's the same username as here, but i uuuuuh barely use it? lol. it doesn't really get updated much;;;; i MIGHT start using it more for sticker stuff tho, so we'll see. i won't STOP you from finding it (it ain't hard) but like, idk why you'd want to atm

Why do you love bees so much?

okay like have you. have you LOOKED at them??? they're just fat little boys. bumbling little lads. they buzz and they collect pollen and make honey and are just wonderful all around. how could i NOT love them. also at this point it's like, My Brand™ lol. I prefer to go by Sinna but you can't forget the bee. LOVE bees. :D

[violentviolette]

All the dumbass anons blaming you for endangering the minor or whatever need to STFU, like if you point out someone is being abused, and it leads to them experiencing worse abuse, it ain't your fault for pointing out the abuse, it's STILL THE ABUSERS FAULT

Ppl really be showing their ass up and down round here

deadass anon. people want to make this all my fault so they don't have to look at their own behavior and choices that lead here.

a lot of the people criticizing me have a lot to say about what I "should" have done and how I "should" have handled this situation and to that I say, then why didn't u? if u have aaaaaallllll these ideas about how this situation should have been handled then where were yall? why did u do nothing?

most of the people criticizing me are Tonys friends and supporters and they mostly feel that I should have handled this privately (of course) and to that I say that people DID try to be nice and handle this one on one.

when Tony first made this minor a mod on your-aspd-dad so many people voiced concern and opposition to this that Tony actually had to address it directly. it did nothing but make excuses as to why it was okay to put that much pressure and responsibility on a child and ignored peoples concerns

Tony then went on to make the minor a mod in its discord server where they were forced to interact directly with a child rapist who had raped multiple people their age.

so what other options did I have besides public shaming? Tony refused to listen to the multiple people who had been coming to it over and over again to voice concern over its choices and behaviors. it has proven time and time again that it refuses to change.

what they're really saying is I should have just shut up and done nothing like they did and allowed Tony to keep abusing people and creating toxic spaces that actively harmed people. and to that I say eat shit

[ikemensengokufandom]

I have no intention to reblog her post on tumblr but you guys can see how self-entitled this woman is.

Firstly, the way you phrased "I have my rights to voice out my opinions as a whaler." You DID NOT indicated that "how unnatural it looks" or "angle seems odd" from the beginning.

FYI, you're the one who started this comment thread?

^ Need a reminder? Here you go 🙂

Secondly, you said you spent money on the game, but not to be passed off with such manner with the art. Excuse me, did you even know what's the baseline and how does it actually works within the industry? Your first respond was "They photoshopped it" instead of what you explained about the unnatural pose etc.

Firstly, not just PAPER but in EVERY aspect of the gaming industry, reuse of material is somehow the norm. One way is to save cost, time just so that the developers are able to quickly produce the product.

No, I'm not siding the developer on this. But do note that they are a company themselves and it's their job to milk consumers' money, and they're not the only company that are doing that. And to justify the pricing based just on artwork just shows how plain ignorant you are because you don't just fuckin' compare the pricing based on artwork. Developers in general have to be constantly active with different servers, and not to mention the new functions they added on etc? That's how you see whether if a game is worth paying for.

And to you being a whaler and spending 10k gems and all, it's your choice whether to spend or not to spend the money. PAPER did not force anyone of the players to spend couple of hundred bucks on their game. If you have problem with it, you can don't spend any dime on it, or just give up on the event right? 🙂 sure, we all know how shit PAPER are in terms on how they treated their consumers lmfao, trust me even I have problems with them but did I rudely shut off the others just so I can argue my point to prove that I'm right just because "I'm a whaler and I spent hell lot of money so I'm the king everyone must bow down to me?" Excuse me, you are not the only spender in that game.

The reason why the admin were pissed is because you acted on your own accord with your superiority complex and pissed off the other members. Ouch, you do know that CN and EN fandom are of different culture and opinions right? The admin were not being rude towards you at the beginning, it is you who 作死 that couldn't tolerate the facts that they cared for other members in the group.

Oh and please don't use criticism as an excuse, because your first response towards the other member(s) who disagree with you was "If my comment bothers you, you may skip it." Criticsm and nick-picking are whole lot of different meaning, but instead of criticsm and learn how to tackle with it, you got salty because not all of the members accepted your so-called criticism.

While you told others to skip your comment, you on the other hand didn't follow what you've preached and in fact somehow stalked Yume's account just because she removed your comments and what you did was "Fuck you" while she is just doing her job as an admin, aka SHE CREATED THE GROUP. So what, she has no rights to rant on her OWN FACEBOOK TIMELINE RIGHT AFTER YOU CUSSED AT HER RUDELY? 🤷‍♀️

So you're salty just because she did her job and prioritize the members instead of saying "yes" to the big whaler? What logic is this excuse me? 🤷‍♀️

And FYI to the group rules:

RESPECT EVERYONE'S LIKE: Lol you didn't seem to respect other people's views and opinions from the way you spoke. You told people to skip your comment yet you have rights to voice out, like wow as if the others' opinions are inferior 🙄

NO HATE SPEECH OR BULLYING: You just told admin to "Fuck you" and had proceed to stalk her facebook timeline and posted it on public 🙂

And now you're trying to victimize yourself just so you can mislead the others? Oh no, you're not getting away for that 🙂 You started the thread, you disregard other people's view while you expect the others to respct yours with that self-entitled attitude of yours. For someone who's from Singapore like me, older than anyone of us AND a long-time player, you should be ashamed of yourself.

And one last thing I would like to add on; you argued your point AS A CONSUMER while SHE ARGUED HERS AS AN ARTIST HERSELF. You claimed that they only take side to people who followed their scared rules, so does this sound like she's taking any sides?

Oh nooo.... Don't try to get me into "don't twist my words" and "I sabotage you" or calling others "crazy, delusional" etc once you lost an argument. That bullshit and attitude of yours has been lingering for YEARS until 都看的出来了. I honestly do not want to give a shit about this, or even write a tumblr post to rebuke yours as I do not want to get involved with you again. However, after 5-6 years you still have that shit self-centered fragile heart that still wants to twist the tales and portray yourself a better person? Sorry, you don't do that towards my friends.

This is not what you did few years ago anymore. Nobody's a young, ignorant dumbfuck anymore and your same old "twist the tales" methods ain't gonna work anymore. A few members are already pissed off with you way before this minor issue, and the admins themselves have high tolerance to bear with you and not kicking you out.

Sure, leave the group, nobody cares 😂 we are thankful for that lols.

And yeah Yume blocked you because unlike you, we can just simply delete someone like you from our life instead of being vengeful as fuck. Go ahead, continue to write a long-ass twisted tales about how shit you got treated in that group, or stalk someone's facebook timeline to justify yourself. If you can rant in your platform, so can us 🙂

奉劝您老人家一句，做人善良一点。 您别气坏了身子啊~ 不然就像您所说的，容颜会越来越老的，不是吗？

您要活在您自己的世界，那请便。我们这种人对您来说只会把您的地盘弄脏了~ 这样莫须有的罪名，老娘们可承担不起啊~💁‍♀️

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Okay rant incoming. No reblog or 🔪🔪

Do not fucking reblog this. This is my personal trauma, read at your own risk and it's time for Dante over sharing time. It goes in circles but I haven't spoken about this shit at all personally and I'm just so so so tired and upset.

Cw for rape mentions, abuse mentions, csa, and a lot of my trauma. Skye do not look at this.

I just sit here, constantly reminded that she still had a platform and did the exact thing to freshly turned adults almost a decade later and blames her mental health/memory issues for assaulting and grooming people.

It's apparently abelist to say she assaulted you bc she "can't remember doing it" and you the victim are "obviously lying"

This was the same person who encouraged her friends to bully my ass for shipping mostly m/m stuff and at the same time bullied me into letting her do whatever /she/ wanted and to control what I watched/read.

The same person who used me, a freshly graduated abused 18 y/o with trouble communicating and problems reading people, to get at my friends who were still in highschool, all while talking the talk and walking the walk as a feminist, a savior of women's rights, the only "not fedora bro" person that existed on Tumblr! (she was not presenting feminine at the time, and was very attractive and charming)

She had so many underaged victims and used their terms and the like to get at real people. She straight up told people "this fictional content is bad and fucked up and depraved" and then would go and do what was in that content. And I mean she'd verbally tell you you were DISGUSTING or FUCKED UP for liking stuff like that, and would go and do worse to real people.

I do not trust people who are verbal to the point of attacking people over this sort of content. I can't trust them. I really can't.

Just block them, and don't fucking bring "gross ships" up in public servers! You mentioning ships that are like that is only going to trigger people who are legit triggered by it my guy, and you make yourself look immature AF! If you know it's wrong irl and causes a LOT of issues/discourse, there's 0 need to fucking bring it up to a large audience without consent.

The people who do this shit are one of the following:

1. Someone who hates the ship and wants everyone to know it/agree

2. Someone who feels the need to comment on how they're "surprised this ship exists! How could anyone write this!!!" Bc they're apparently new to the internet/fandom

3. Someone with interpersonal communication skills who DOES like the ship and doesn't realize it may be in poor taste to share it like that (this happens almost never, but I've seen it once or twice)

4. People trying to actually start shit in a large group

It's why I have RULES in the fandom servers I'm in that state EXPLICITLY:

there is to be no shipping discourse. If it's a ship known to cause problems/have a lot of fucked up elements or content (think age gap (minor/adult but aged up) or incest ships) don't bring it up! This isn't the place for it! I don't care the opinion, these types of ships cause issues and trigger a lot of people, so don't bring them up!!

Like as an example: I can't do teacher/student ships for personal reasons AT ALL and they make me feel gross and can trigger me on a bad day, but I ain't gonna go find someone who writes that stuff to tell them how "morally reprehensible" they are. I don't go comment on every fic with that tag to tell people to get help or fucking die.

Focusing on that shit when it makes you uncomfortable is just going to make you feel worse. If you don't see it or acknowledge it, your mental health will do SO much better.

I've found that with a large block list and blocked tag list, I feel a lot better mentally bc it reminds me "I can find the stuff I do like, and this isn't my adult life in the real world. This is a fucking Hobby"

It also helps to assume the best in people, and I can't do that with people incredibly verbal/hostile to people who ship/like things they don't like.

If you tell someone they are "literally a fucking pedophile" for liking idk fucking narusasu bc "oh my God they were CHILDREN" when most of us grew up watching it at the same age as the kids, I'm going to block you bc you're making a fucking accusation I can't fucking stand behind.

Real pedos exist. Real groomers exist. They will do whatever they can to hurt people.

I was groomed using Homestuck and cosplay. My abuser and groomer would send me explicit texts teasing cosplaying certain characters. She would never follow up and would fish nudes from people (minors) like this. Does this mean Homestuck and cosplay should be banned?

I have a friend who was groomed using dangan ronpa bc she liked one of the characters who was her age at the time. Our abuser and groomer would tease her with "oh maybe I'll cosplay him then, but only if you're a good girl for me" and yet nobody said anything bc most of us were still in high school or hadn't been out of HS long enough to know this was wrong.

We just liked the attention from someone who was masc, bc she targeted people who didn't have good relationships with their father figures.

She knowingly preyed on abused femme presenting people with parental issues. People who had mental disabilities (autism mostly) and who were all under the age of 20, but mostly under 18.

She sex trafficked one of my best friends.

She touched my underaged friends with my little siblings sitting right in front of them (She did not care that my mother was nearby. I didn't say anything bc I was too afraid and it had already started. She used fear to scare any of us from speaking up)

She assaulted so many minors that when I made a callout post about her, I got equal number asks of "she would never" and "I was 14 when she used me as a sex slave"

And yet she knew the words. She knew the phrases. She was PC, a feminist, against rape fantasies and everything deemed any bit problematic.

Yet she still raped my friends. She still touched children.

She still did what she did and no matter how much she denies it, she is a monster of a human being.

After I called her out on Tumblr in 2014, which I only did bc she was using her blog to get nudes from people and plan meetups with minors, she still managed to get enough following to become a mod in a popular lesbian gaming discord and subreddit a few years later, and did all of it again in 2020. To so many other people.

I cried reading the subreddit I found.

She wants to deny everything she did, to call me a liar, but I have video and picture that prove she was there when these things happened. She did not want pics taken while she was at my house for "stalker reasons"

I realize she didn't wanna get caught now.

I hate her.

I hate myself for this. I hate myself for not having it as bad as the people she actually assaulted.

I hate that I got off easy with just mental and emotional abuse and gaslighting and grooming.

I cannot trust people who speak out as venomously as she did against "problematic content"

The people who do horrible things irl don't get cancelled. They keep doing what they can. And they find sneakier ways to keep doing it. They keep their audience and move on.

The people who enjoy shit that's fucked up in fantasy are some of the nicest and most comforting and accepting people I've met, they understand it's just fantasy and make sure people KNOW it is fantasy. They're usually marginalized, disabled, abuse victims, ect and they get told to kill themselves, to delete. They lose their jobs.

This is not okay.

My abuser still walks around, still exists in fandom spaces.

Every time she gets accused of stuff people don't take it seriously bc of how often the term gets tossed around.

I knew a group of cosplayers who called someone a pedophile simply bc they didn't like them and wanted their accounts to get deleted.

I knew a group who would explicitly go into questionable fic tags and "try to find where the author lives/works"

Stop making the terms ""rape" and "pedophile" a joke. Stop reporting fic tagged properly of like older aged up teens to the fucking FBI. Stop telling people to kill themselves. Stop doxxing people minding their own business.

Stop hurting actual victims. Talk to people who work to help victims on what actually helps. Talk to therapists and research fiction vs reality stuff before spouting shit that makes people afraid of you.

Whatever.

God that long Twitter thread post got me remembering the fucked up shit my ex abusive friend put me through