#ok i need to do something else. i didn't even finish one fucking application

[mildmayfoxe]

somehow after i finished my orders and did the dishwasher i ended up on the city inclusionary housing program website filling out lottery forms even though i really have other things i should be doing and these forms are so fucking depressing. they want me to include every single penny i own and every single penny i THINK i will get for the next YEAR just to apply to ENTER the lottery! list of employers, list of income, list of assets, list of anticipated changes to income, etc. and if you win the lottery you have to provide them with a full past year of receipts for business expenses and the full NEXT year of anticipated business expenses. like can't you just let me live in a house i can afford. why can't you just LOOK AT MY TAX FORMS!! i can't predict how well my business will do next year! i can't predict if my boss will actually give me any of the raises she told me i was supposed to get! she already didn't give me the one i should have had in june! what the fuck do you want from me. why do rich people get to do whatever they want and poor people have to fucking work for it to prove they need fucking help. i hate it here

[rain-drafts]

The taste of Benadryl on my tongue is bitter. I realized too late that I don't like this course. I'm bitter. Now, I do feel lost with what to do with this realization. I know I have nowhere to go but through. Finish it. Fuck. Would I be happier if I did something I like? I'm not sure. Doing something because of commitment takes the joy out of it. This semester and onward, I'll only have my major courses. Two things: 1) I don't really enjoy them, 2) I'm not comfortable around my classmates. It was my biggest mistake to not socialize with them. I'm two years too late. Onward, I'm sure we'll have a lot of group projects. I just hope it's never a choose your own. Please. I hope the professors are sensitive enough that some of us don't have friends here :) Maybe it's my fault. Here I am again, with that thinking. Always the victim. Yeah, ok. I do recognize my socializing capabilities is laughable. But I'm really trying ok. To overcome myself. No matter what reddit post I read, video I watch, advice I hear--I just can't apply it in real life. I've been to therapy for this reason. It hasn't been easy and it hasn't been going well. The problem is what keeps me from reaching help and implementing changes. Makes sense.

I asked ChatGPT to generate introspective questions...cringe but whatever

Why do you think you initially chose this course, and what changed to make you realize you don't like it now? What emotions are you experiencing when you think about finishing the course? Are they more related to fear, resentment, or something else?

I chose this course when I was 19. I really thought about it. I searched the internet and talked to different people. Of course, I couldn't decide on an answer since I didn't have much life experience. My only experience close to working is when I did a summer internship in high school. It was on GIS. I also didn't choose to internship there because I wanted to. I just didn't have anything else I liked. So, yeah. We were shown what one can do with GIS. I thought it was cool since it was about computers and I thought I liked working away from people. In all my college applications, I put different courses.

So, yeah, I thought this course would make me do that. Bachelor of science in geography. Science. It's in the name. I thought we would be doing that. Wrong. The course is still under CSSP. It's a social science. I'm frustrated with how vague it is. I could careless about the social aspect of it. Minamaliit ko lang ba yung kayang gawin ng major ko? Maybe. My biggest concern is just that, is it employable? I didn't just come here to study. I'm in college because apparently that makes you an acceptable member of society. You need it for jobs. Jobs=money. I don't want to open a business. That's too hands on. That'll take so much of my time.

I feel that I might regret this choice when I graduate. I don't know what to do to not regret it. I don't even want to apply internships or hold org positions because I don't like what they do.

What are the specific challenges you face in socializing with your classmates? How do you think those challenges could be addressed?

What do you feel is holding you back from connecting with your classmates? Is it fear, discomfort, or something else?

How do you usually feel after a social interaction, whether positive or negative? What do those feelings tell you?

Questions about Self-Perception and Growth:

How do you perceive your own socializing capabilities, and how might those perceptions influence your actions?

What small steps have you taken to try to overcome your social challenges? Have any of them brought about even a slight improvement?

How can you acknowledge your efforts and progress, even if they seem small? What might self-compassion look like in this situation?

[finniestoncrane]

Riddlers with S/O who isn't very book smart so people assume she's an idiot but knows a lot of trivias like:

"I mean this saying kinda lost its meaning because (explains) but go on."

"Only thing I know about Pythagoras is that he had a cult and used his cultists to get out of fire."

"Hamsters hibernate so there's a lot of hamsters that we're buried alive."

Trivia S/O

Riddler Headcanons haha this is me and my useless knowledge piled up against what i actually know that is useful, but that's why i'm the token girl on my old man pub quiz team 💚 request info • prompt list • send me a request • kofi minors DNI!! 🔞 cw for nsfw stuff: mostly fluff i think, but you know me

unburied

who the fuck just knows that?

i mean it's kind of good that you know something because he was beginning to worry that you were really stupid

and he didn't mean that to come off so rude

well, maybe he did

either way, it's nice to meet someone else who enters a conversation with a fact no one asked for

one that no one will ever need

congratulations on being his irritating little sidekick

arkham

nothing soothes him more than listening to you tell him stuff

now he can absorb random pieces of information while he works

no more having to decide between welding and holding a book

and you're much nicer to listen to than some audiobook

his hobby is coming up with riddles and questions and seeing how quickly you can answer them

he can handle the more practical or physical applications of intelligence

your speciality comes in handy in so many other ways

telltale

it depends what kind of mood he's in

sometimes a random fact makes him smile

other times, it irritates him

you better not interrupt him while he's deep in thought with some silly little piece of knowledge

but he's open to praising you if it comes in handy

and you'll get a little pat on the head if you do good

"very good, now leave me alone"

capullo

unlike him you're able to be modest about your smarts

which really irritates him because you should brag more

like him

but he will see it as something that he can hold over you

he's still smarter than you and you better never forget that

just because you can answer his riddles, maybe he was making them too easy for you, not because he likes you though

because he felt sorry for you, yeah, that's it

gotham

his little heart would be beating so fast if you answered his questions before he even finished

"did you know houseflies him in-"

"in the key of F, of course, yes, who doesn't know that?"

well no one else he's asked so far, so you've got him intrigued

it doesn't matter to him that you're not an intellectual type

you can match his wits in trivia and puzzles and riddles

and those are the key things he's looking for

twojar

aw, that's really interesting, oh yeah totally!

not patronising at all! you're just very sweet

ok maybe you're just lucky you're cute

but it's ok as long as you know the answer to who is the most handsome

who's the smartest

who had the best glow up

who's better than the joker

(it's him, all of the above)

young justice

wow, you sure can hold a lot of things in your brain

ok but can you answer this riddle?

ok what about this one?

he's not testing you! you don't have to prove yourself to him

he's just genuinely intrigued by your ability to retain so many unrelated facts about stuff that must never come up

at least not in normal conversation

that might be why people think you're a bit ditsy and strange

but that's what attracted him to you in the first place

someone as dorky and awkward as him

dano

ah, info-dumping, his love language!

oh it's ok if you only know a couple facts about each thing

he's more than happy to just throw some questions at you

especially in his down time, a nice break from his more intense work and plans

you're a sweet distraction from the more mentally laborious things he has to focus on

honestly, it's very appealing that people think you're stupid at first

people overlook his true nature too

you're like kindred spirits that way