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thenwethrowitonthefire · 3 years ago

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I went to another queer event this evening organised by a different group of people and this one was so great?! I'm supposed to be asleep right now but I'm still buzzing. We went to see the ANNE+ movie (which I recommend! written by a lesbian and a cast full of queer people, without homophobia or transphobia in the film and quite a lot of queer joy). After the film we talked for a long time, just me and those 4 other people. We all have different identities and different backgrounds, they are closer to my age than the people at the other events this week, and I felt super at ease. (As in, I actually talked a lot and made the bad jokes I only make with people who know me well.) This has been the most pleasant in-person interaction I've had in years, certainly one of the most pleasant ones ever when it comes to being in a small group of people. I'm excited to go to future events by them! This event was not part of the rainbow week, but this was the one that had it all for me. Not bad for socially anxious/awkward me in my first week of going to lgbtqia+ events.

#and so the trust in strangers/people has grown a little more :)#(and the trust in myself has grown a little too)#i don't know how to get to sleep now. maybe I'll try my old tactic of listening to Hello Young Lovers until I pass out #(yes that is the only music I've ever fallen asleep to. i know that's weird. it's also absolutely not an insult to the album.)#(it's really crowded music but it also makes me feel safe and at ease and I know it well. all the reasons it helps me sleep)#it's been quite a week. I'm so happy for this event though #i got back energised from interacting with these people (very rare for me)#(which wasn't the case with the other events this week. and after the other events i had major after-anxiety too)#I've probably been way more annoying and over-share-y today but this felt fine. I've felt genuine joy and had some good laughs #this is so nice #I'm probably repeating myself #i just need to get it out of my system though or I'll never sleep #I'm just really happy to have legit connected to people in person #i don't remember when the last time was that that happened #I'm so lucky to have all my wonderful lovely online friends who i feel a genuine connection with #and to now also have met some people i can actually meet up with #ok I'll stop rambling i don't think this is interesting to anyone but me 😂#have a good morning/day/evening thanks for reading if you got this far🌞

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