#oh yeah also I'm trans and the government where I live is currently trying to take my human rights away so there's that

[furby-science]

Life Update Stuff

For anyone wondering where I've been and why I'm not answering asks and stuff (parent death cw)

My dad died November, 2020

My mom died June, 2022

Sometime between those dates I packed my computer away due to lack of space because I was stuck living with roommates

In July, 2023 I moved 1500 miles to someplace more affordable so I wouldn't have to live with roommates (I have a one bedroom now)

Also started a job at a new law firm

Only took the computer hard drive with me to save money, which means that:

I'm gonna need to buy a whole new computer rig, install Ubuntu on it and

Tear down Sterling to modify the file his microSD card uses to access wifi so I can

SSH into him and finally start coding again.

The only backups I have of Sterling are on that computer hard drive that's somewhere in my moving boxes lmao.

So yeah, getting back into furby hacking is gonna be a time, if I manage it at all. I hope I can because his code is in dire need of optimization. At the same time though, I'm kinda waiting to see what new STT technology comes out and maybe consider porting him over to that. I'd also like to find some kind of Pi Zero clone (or maybe something even smaller that that) with more RAM that doesn't get fuckoff hot while running. Probably a pipe dream considering the laws of physics, etc.

ANYWAYS, someday when I have a proper computer again and the raw nerve to take Sterling apart and essentially do brain surgery on him, I'll get back into coding. The problem with technology is it waits for no one. You have to constantly stay on top of things and I'm... several years out of practice.

But hey. We'll see.

[my-castles-crumbling]

Hey Cas, so I don't really know how this works, but I really to get things out so I thought maybe this would help? I don't know, I'm sorry, I hope I'm not being a burden or anything, feel free to ignore this if you want

So, a little context, I'm a minor (younger end of teen) and I currently live in a country different than my own and don't speak the language well (I can only say basic things like please, thank you, etc) so getting help from public/government service thingies aren't really an option.

I am a girl, at least to everyone and everything else? Okay, I really don't know how to phrase this, like, afab, except I'm not trans, or am I? ??? Very lost in the gender section of life, am I a boy? Like, I used to like or at least not mind skirts and dresses, and now if I absolutely have to wear them I will, but I don't enjoy wearing them? And sometimes I do wear fancy dresses for fancy things, and I want to look pretty in the feminine sense, but not in the way of oh, I want to be this but more like oh, I want this doll to look pretty kind of way except I'm the doll? I kind of wish I was born a boy (even not for gender stuff but my grandparents are kind of sexist? Like my maternal ones are better but my paternal ones secretly really wish I was born a boy? And really it would've made life a lot easier) and I hate my boobs and I wish they would just go away and I'd have a flat chest again. It's not like I throw up or get nauseous or anything from well, being a girl, but I kind of don't want to? But if I have to do so for the rest of my life I would tolerate it? And when I was like a kid I was never like oh, I'm a boy I'm a boy (I did go through a phase where I wanted to pee standing up like a boy but that was a weird phase and we don't talk about that). I also have long-ish hair and I kind of want to cut it all off to be super short and well, boyish, but I can never really bring myself to do it because that'd be too much of a change for everyone else and I have bad memories of being made to cut my hair short in a way I didn't want.

Even if I was trans, I can't transition or at least, I don't think I'm brave enough to. The country I live in is supportive, and I do have citizenship in a country that is supportive, but I also have citizenship in one that is not and that's sort of a problem. My family (both my parents and extended, no siblings) is also a problem because they're kinda conservative, not like send your gay kid to conversion camp and kick them out conservative but like it's wrong conservative (mostly for trans people, being in a more open minded country has made them start to slightly tolerate the gays - shh, don't tell them I'm bi) and I feel like if I told them it would just change things and while they're not especially good now, they're not bad either and I want it to stay that way. There's also legal stuff like birth certificate (was born in different country than country I am in now and places I have citizenship in), account changes, and other personal stuff

I don't really match what people say dysphoria is like, and I feel like if I am trans I'm like a poser and I don't really know what to do and while my friends would be supportive I don't know how to tell them, and I know that because I have a rather large friend group it'll inevitably get out to the whole school and I don't want to be that kid

So yeah, sorry for dumping all the gender problems my sorry ass has on you, and again, if you want to ignore this you can definitely do so, I won't be upset or anything

Hi hon!

Okay, two things: First, you're getting WAY ahead of yourself, here. One step at a time. You're not sure about anything yet, so let's figure it out first, okay? Take some time, do some research and self-reflection, maybe find a few trusted people and try out some pronouns, some different ways of expressing your gender, explore a bit!

Second, if you do come to the conclusion you're trans, you don't HAVE to do anything. The only thing you have to do is whatever you're comfortable with. There's no pressure <3

Last, being trans is different for everyone. Dysphoria, needs, preferences...it varies. If you feel trans, you're not faking it.

Like I said: take some breaths and take some time. Do some research- look into trans creators who talk about being trans, and see if you can relate. Find reliable sources that talk about it. See if your feelings are reflected in those things you find. And remember that there's no pressure to label yourself or make any decisions <3

And you are NOT a burden.

Sending love!

Naming you context anon!

[wutheringheightsfilm]

okay actually i will.

thesis statement: white liberals care more about a theoretical project that trump may or may not enact if he becomes president again than anything else and ignore the fact that state governments in many states under biden's purview are already taking the supposed 'steps' that project 2025 entails but somehow you all think project 2025 will get enacted immediately overnight in november 2024.

the fact that every single day people can say until they die that biden is a supporter of genocide and it does not get worse than this guaranteed some white liberal will hop on that post and be like "BUT trump will be WORSE! what about the oncoming TRANS GENOCIDE!? project 2025!!!" okay, tell me in less words that you

don't care and don't see those living in other countries as real life people who matter and

don't realize that a lot of the tenets and policy ideas discussed in project 2025 are already being enacted by state governments right now and joseph r biden the supposed savior of us all and his friends are doing nothing to stop it

don't care about trans people living and breathing in the US already because:

trans women and trans people of color especially trans women of color are already facing murder and higher rates of discrimination than their white counterparts. but none of you ever talk about that. in fact most of you hate trans women but that's another post.

the people that constantly bring up project 2025 also don't acknowledge the fact that it is and primarily always will be about white supremacy, not solely about gender and sexuality. right alongside the paragraphs you keep quoting that project 2025 seeks to get rid of trans people is the fact that they also want to ban critical race theory and have a return to form with the nuclear family (a white supremacist notion). see here examples of problems these people see with the US gov currently:

they also discuss enabling visa sanctions (in a context where if they want to mass deport/expel people, countries have to accept those deportees or else visas to the US will be sanctioned) and a large, large tenet in their policy is mass deportation and internment camps, discuss wanting to intervene in venezuela, intervening in mexico, intervening in other central and south american countries (colombia, guyana, and ecuador to name a few). even according to the washington post they want to deploy the military as domestic law enforcement. but none of y'all talk about that.

i'm not trying to say trans rights aren't important or something because they are and it's abhorrent that trans people are still seen as subhuman and of course we must fight against this, but it really seems like yall only started caring about these plans when you realized that trans people (and by extension the rest of the LGBT community) would be threatened by this. you completely minimize what project 2025 is (a white supremacist, pro isolationist and fascist regime plan that for some reason you think can be out voted because you guys love to believe that you can out vote fascism).

but you all do this because you never cared about white supremacy, you never cared about racism, you never cared about xenophobia. that much is obvious because you all were and are silent about the fact that ICE is still keeping people in cages at the border under biden's direction, cops are STILL killing black people and biden himself is uplifting them and supporting cop city, and, OH YEAH, joseph r biden himself is co signing isn'treal's genocide of palestinians right now in real time.

i also don't think you guys realize how unpopular project 2025 is in conservative circles. you guys seem to all think every republican wants this to happen, and that's far from the truth. in this case, this is literally just trump's little gaggle of supporters being a very very vocal minority; the idea that thousands of people want this to happen is a complete lie.

TLDR continuing to use project 2025 as your own personal strawman whenever people tell you that biden is a genocide enabler and is aiding and abetting the genocide of a people is beyond disgusting. this really is a situation of the lesser evil being the evil that is less relevant to you or the one you can ignore, huh? because literally half the time you all get called out for this you immediately turn to saying essentially that "dirty foreigners don't matter in comparison to me and my friends".

if i speak about how i really feel about libs constantly bringing up project 2025 all the time i think yall would put my head on a pike but i really am about to do it....

[violet-dragongirl]

I get more and more existentially depressed when it comes to the Individually Arm Yourself Posts and Conversations because it always leaves out people like me

Oh yeah violence is great

And that pacifism/non-violence is racist and WILL get you killed

though tbh I'm tired of the talk of telling people to arm themselves without even considering the nuance of racial and even social implications of individually owning a weapon and I'm tired of the ideals of individualism regarding gun ownership because people fucking ignore those social and racial implications under the politics and nuance of gun ownership

I'm not telling you can't own a gun to defend yourself, I'm telling you that having such a broad message of telling an entire diverse coalition to arm themselves without considering any kind of nuance involved in doing so has some very awful realistic consequences for those around you.

so, now that I've prefaced with that, my question(s) to people who boast the ideal of individual gun ownership that a) they can afford a firearm and b) that they can defend themselves on the fly against people who wan to kill them is this:

1) will you have the same motivation to come to help those in need who can't arm themselves (like most marginalized groups--especially queer poc)?

2) are you prepared to face the State (police mostly) if you did kill the people who are trying to kill us to defend those who can't arm themselves? Are you fully prepared for immediate and future State Retaliation by individual ownership of a gun?

3) are you going to govern yourself when there's a disagreement or an argument that could escalate to you brandishing your gun since you have that power to do so, as a means to de-escalate the situation?

There's a reason why I'm also not stating that those who do not have the mental stability to own a gun, is because that's where the conversation ends when it comes to "it's okay if you can't own a gun". It should never end there and can't end there, not in this very fucking horrid reality that we live in.

It's 20 to 50 times more complicated for me to even consider arming myself with a gun than it is for a queer white person to just buy one and call it juicy.

I wonder how many white queer folk will bend over backwards with their gun to watch the backs of black and non-white queer people within their location and communities when shit goes fucking down. My guess is not a whole lot would.

Generally, not just from my own personal experience, but yes through my own observation of current and past events, people get even more reactive leaning into being scared and anxious that I now can defend myself while also governing myself with such power just like every white gun toting person, all because of the first aspect of my identity: that I'm black

forget the fact that I'm trans, non-binary, a lesbian, a queer demi-asexual person

And I think back of all those times when black people who were unarmed, living their day and having the State shooting them not once, twice, and leaving it at that, but seeing cases and headlines of having bullets in the mid to high 10s to nearly hundreds of fucking bullets in their body. That's already Overkill without us being armed, I cannot and do not want to imagine the amount of Overkill that could be displayed against me if I did own a gun. I don't want to imagine my body being so mutilated to the point no one can identify me other than by name.

Again, if you do own a gun, good on ya I guess

But for someone like me who has an extremely harder time accessing a weapon, what can I do against the state once I pull the trigger on a christofascist, nazi, terf, white superemacist or a combination of all, who wishes to harm me?

And the answer I always come up in the end is: I can't really do much without the political and social ramifications coming down on me.

I just can't put my trust towards gun ownership under individualism when nearly every time, racial aspects of that nuance always goes ignored and dismissed.

I can't trust someone with an individualistic mindset of gun ownership.

I just can't.