#oh i also wanna write one abt him being kind of a tsundere tbh

[alterlifes-a]

stardust. anyway since i’m already on my laptop ( dw i’m hopping onto mobile again after this post ), i wanted to talk about tooru’s side that he tries to keep hidden. namely, the trait which ties in with his ability to “ see ” the fourth wall and thus know that he is an oc ( though, admittedly, how in parallel motion starts, and how i play it on this blog, is that he can only know via intuition; as i’ve stated numerous times, the moment that tooru fully realizes the true nature of his existence is when he crosses into that despair event horizon—ergo, having him know that the entire universe he lives in is an amalgamation of his actions ( that is, that it exists because he selfishly wished it so ) from the get-go wouldn’t bode well. there wouldn’t BE a tooru to write if that was the case ). yeah, i’m talking about tooru’s inherent nature to be a huge hecking troll. sounds ridiculous, right ? and honestly, i do play it off for laughs, but one HUGE recurring motif i’m trying to instil in my canon is the notion that everything is a subversion. are clichés inevitable, either way ? yes, of course. our ability to create as humans, while impressive, is still limited. but what i want to do is take the clichés which have been done to death, as well as different archetypes, and paint them in ways that you could never think would come from these kinds of characters. heck, you could argue that it’s why i write tooru to be so multifaceted and realistic; it’s because he isn’t JUST an archetype to be filled in a story. he is his own person, and he has traits which both gravitate, and deviate, from his role as the typical “ love interest ” in his story. so how does this exactly connect to tooru being the way that he is ? well, that’s it. he’s the love interest. they’re supposed to be dainty—the ___ in distress, the one who the hero wins at the end, like a trophy. they are kind and gentle and that is both their strength and flaw. but not a flaw in a super bad way; they are simply “ too nice ” and that is the trait which leads them into getting whisked away by the bad guy. and tooru encompasses that. he is too nice, too loving, trusting, and naive. but being “ too nice ” is not his greatest flaw. it’s being so kind to the point where it reaches levels of ( sometimes destructive ) self-sacrificing tendencies and a borderline martyr/hero complex. as a character, love becomes that which personifies itself as him, but also that which causes his downfall most of the time. tooru as a character subverts stereotypical tropes, not in just doing, but by being. he is not the damsel or what have you in distress. he doesn’t need anyone to save him—and fittingly, the person he needs saving from isn’t even the machinations of the universe, or the original tooru, or masumi. it’s himself, and he’s going to be his own hero. and subconsciously, he knows this. and that is exactly why tooru is such a troll. allow me to elaborate and connect the dots even further, though. because tooru is a spin on your typical cliché, he, in turn, loves subverting tropes, himself. he likes to render the smooth-talking character speechless. he likes to make the often stoic and stone-faced characters get angry. he likes making the easily-irritable, explosive people laugh happily. and so he does whatever he can to do just that: subvert those tropes. make people do things that they aren’t wont to do. his entire goal is to have them act out of character. and yes, part of it does tie in with his romanticization of things ( i.e. he wants the tough asshole to have a heart of gold, he wants the villain to do a heel-face turn because he got through to them ... ), but overall, he kind of just ... finds it fun. maybe it’s because he’s competitive. maybe it’s because he gets riled up during sports, enjoys provoking the other team. either way, tooru loves doing that. he likes to trick people, and it’s even better because he’s a kind person, so no one would expect it. they see tooru and they assume he’s another pastel pink, “ teehee ~ ! ”, overly and overtly kind, one-dimensional shoujo kind of character—definitely not the type to go out of his way to piss people off. but that’s what he does, because turning stereotypes on their head, both in other people, and how others interpret him, is honestly so fun to him. admittedly, however, i think he wouldn’t do anything to other kind people like him ... he’d mostly enjoy poking fun at and trolling the mean-spirited / “ tsundere ” / stoic people. it’s ironic, both because he, himself, tends to be a tsundere at times ( dependent on who he’s with; again, this is due to him wanting to subvert his own cliché and thus he acts rude and abrasive when you expect him to be gentle all the time ), and because he gets pissed when they don’t fold. speaking of; this can also be doubly subverted if he’s talking to someone who is literally a stone wall—i.e. they won’t fall easily to his provocations. so instead of breaking the stoic and getting them mad at him, tooru actually gets frustrated, instead. it’s because they’re ... subverting his attempt at subversion. OK, i think that’s all i wanted to say, thanks for coming to my ted talk.

[kuronokiseki]

Best Usagi+Misaki Moments (imo)

Yo back with this kind of post again!!!! The last part of the trilogy I guess?? (No!!!!!!!! D:)

Misaki ver: https://kuronokiseki.tumblr.com/post/617551810336555008/best-misaki-moments-imo

Usagi ver: https://kuronokiseki.tumblr.com/post/618193516175196160/best-usagi-moments-imo

Warning: Lots of large images again~ Plus my ramblings :v

Look someone is having a crush ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) 

I’m a strong believer that Misaki is the one who falls first and this is another evidence. I think the reason is because Usagi showed his true nature and it made Misaki fall in love ❤️ 🥺 The older played a big role in helping him getting to a top uni despite his Ds so I can understand how much that will mean alot to Misaki! And this extra chapter? It speaks alot abt Usagi’s kindness. The great lengths he went to make up with Misaki for comparing him with his crush. He pretended he just happened to be there, he apologized, prepared a scarf and hot buns for Misaki beforehand in case he was cold... Awww he’s so sweet how could Misaki not fall in love :”“(

I’m talking abt this!

I do want this plot point to be fleshed out more tbh. Of Misaki hating Usagi at first, then slowly exposed to his kind-hearted self like this and boom he’s in love~ 😳 Wouldn’t it make an interesting enemies-to-lovers? And Misaki pining for Usagi pining for Takahiro but all of them are clueless of this little love triangle hnnnggg I wanna see more of this dynamic

HAH you think I won’t include this scene despite already done in the previous versions no no no IT WILL BE A HUGE CRIME

I also strongly think that Misaki cried for Usagi not just bcs he was being Misaki, it’s also bcs of his love for him :”( How could you not think Misaki is already in love with Usagi when he was thinking “If only I could stay with this person forever. I want to become someone special to him...” and they can’t stop hugging each other (urgghhh the melodrama it hurts)

Imagine feeling heartbroken but you’re not the only one crying... And you’re not facing it alone...

Misaki im-not-gay-4-usagi Takahashi

I totally lost to him! But how can I not to that smiling face? >:////( - Misaki, the tsundere kween

“Not to Takahiro. Not to anyone.” :”“”“““O

Usagi - >:}

Misaki - >:///( 

Best quotes in a single panel

Misaki asking Usagi for a date :”““v

Usagi and Misaki having a disagreement

(argh why this pic is so smol) they’re being cute ^w^

Studio Deen didn’t animate this scene >:(

Usagi: *smiles*

Misaki: 😳 ❤️ 🧡 💛 💚 💙 💜 🖤 💔 ❣️ 💕 💞 💓 💗 💖 💘 💝 💟 

Annnnddd this scene is soooo much more emotional in the manga. The whole chapter is like a DOUBLE KILL and the fandom was tremendously shook when it first came out in 2012... Me too, was amazed at how superb the writing is, and in awe of how genius Nakamura is... (when handling Romantica lmao)

Haha brings back memories. This was back when we had to rely on scans translated from chinese to english. Even tho now I know how get my own copy and read it by myself, but I’m still thankful for the scanlation groups that never cease to exist and keep the fandom well fed :”( Big thanks to them!

ONCE AGAIN I HAVE NOTICED THAT THIS SCENE IS CHOU YABAIIII omigod look at how Misaki is drunk in pleasure and his lusty eyes looking at his hubby hngggg

THIS CHAPTER CAN BE A WHOLE MOVIE. IT’S SO GREAT. STUDIO DEEN EVEN THO IM DISAPPOINTED AT HOW S3 WENT BUT THANKS TO THE PLOT GETTING BETTER AND BETTER AND MISAKI IS THE FOOKIN MVP PLS MAKE S4 BCS THERE ARE PPL WHO WONT READ THE MANGA PLS PLS MAKE THEM SHOOOOK

That’s what you get for having an boyfriend yearsss older ;-)

Misaki giving Usagi a hj 👀 👀 👀 

I noticed that in future chapters, Misaki will do whatever Usagi tells him to during smex. Hmmm Usagi why don’t you teach him how to top or power bottom you in that way then ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) or at least, teach him HOW TO SUCC

This is an intense chapter but all I can think of is this panel like SIZE DIFFERENCEEEE

Usagi and Misaki’s “breakup“ XDDD and Misaki’s cute little hmph hmph omg how could I not love this boiii

Some ppl in the fandom: OMG USAGI DESERVES BETTER!!! MISAKI DOESNT RETURN HIS LOVE!!!! >:”“O LOOK AT MY POOR BOI NOT BEING APPRECIATED ENOUGH AND IS UNHAPPY WITH MISAKI >:”(

Usagi:

(But seriously, when this chapter first came out I dived into Mangago to see if anyone’s excited as me bcs of the great writing but nooooope ppl raging abt Misaki not saying I love you in s3 ep 9 which recently aired at that time... I’m going to make another list which is Worst Romantica Moments (imo) and voice my rants further there ._. )

HOLDING HANDSSSS

Look at how he had to bend down to kiss him haha Misaki so smol

SIZE DIFFERENCE AGAIN OMG IM LOVIN THEIR 1 FOOT HEIGHT DIFFERENCE

And shall I point out something up to debate? xD WHO REACHED TO HOLD HANDS FIRST

Misaki’s best christmas gift ;-;

Happily bantering ;;-;;

Oh Nakamura, pls dont end Romantica as soon Takahiro knows. I’m happy enough with fluffy chapters like this, them being sooo in love and happy with each other ;w;

KISSING WHILE STROKING EACH OTHERS’ HAIR AAAAAAAHHHHHH SO SOFT SO FLUFFY SO DUJQJDQQKWJDKHDUWQHDKWQD

And how can I not include this golden scene.

Misaki: (OMG USAGI-SAN’S PP HAS GROWN SO BIGGG >//A//<)

Usagi: ...Misaki y so tight