#oh god i’m so sorry that you have to put up with me ahahaha ily

[selfcareparker]

LMAO YOU ACTUALLY PUT THE TW VIOLENCE HAHAGDSHS

so the better university is in germany.. you already live in germany.. but germans aren't good as good at english lol and lemme get this straight- UNIVERSITY IN GERMANY IS- wait shit Imaooo i read that wrong, I THOUGHT IT WAS 75¢ HDJSHS like 3 quarters😭 but that's still less expensive compared to the US, 75€ is about 90$ here... i just googled it and (apparently) college is typically around $27,000 in my state (22,588€ i think lol) but wowee gee whiz. i think waiting till you’re physically there is the best decision though, just really seeing how it is, how you like it and stuff. BUT WAIT Imao i'm rereading what you said as i'm responding, but the university sounds good!! hopefully your professor isn't the one writing the english on the website Imaoo. your english is fine hdhsjsh & why are you up at 3am😭

i'm literally jumping around udhsj but no that did absolutely make sense hahah i just really enjoy talking to you & wanted to tell you what's up lol but yay we're around the same age hdhagajs

+ yes i have !!! thank you LMAO I BET YOURE NOT THAT BAD JHDJS that whole paragraph actually made me laugh. dude i could neverrr write a script where people have to act it out? lmao it would not be pretty (though i need to work on that) well if you’re not good at acting, you’re hella good at writing (I FINISHED THE ENTIRETY OF UR PETER MASTERLIST AND I AM EMPTY & I AM SCREAMING- i’ll send in another ask on my favorites and all my replies bc WAH they had such an affect on me.......... it’s not ok. like affectttt)

HAHHAA “trash garbage” yea... she was helpful in helping me get my first lead on stage but yea that school as a whole was pretty 💩 but honestly thank youuu <3 my new favorite thing? “thump them in the eye with a sharp metal rod” i think i have one in the basement LMAO

that was a joke...... i think this will also need a tw..... but all my asks are messy lmaoo- not me missing the heritage thing in the tags: that’s so cool!! i’m guessing you’ve been the england since your mom is british? knowing two languages sounds so cool😔 and you speak really good english btw (is that rude-) OOHH so you’re german bc you were born in germany but none of your blood family is german & ur mom is british? bRO that’s so cool like literally 😎 i wanna travel so bad and the UK is first on the list (probably in two years.. i do really wanna study abroad or be a foreign exchange student or something) then Jamaica (bc that’s where my mom is from and i’ve never been) and then all the pretty countries lol

have a good day/night idk lol it took me really long to write this + idk why jdhsjshsj

- lovely anon 🥰

OKAY HI OMG (I was about to say giiirrrl but i never asked for your pronouns or anything so let me know if it’s okay if i say giiiiirl in the future lol)

I saw this at 3 am and got so excited lol but my sleeping schedule has been so awful lately that I forced myself to sleep instead of replying to this 😔

Okay so... if you put it like THAT then yes, the university in germany sounds a lot better lol. But yeah like you said I won’t fully decide until I’ve actually been to university (well, it’s online but ykwim) and that starts in april and honestly i can’t wait sksjshh but yeah i’m like 90% sure that i’ll be staying here already. And yes let’s pray that it’s not one of my professors who writes the shit on the website sishshg😭

also what you said about wanting to be a foreign exchange student or studying abroad... i felt that. but even if i end up studying in germany, with my degree, you have to either do an 8week programme (program? idk) where you go to an english speaking country,,, or you do a whole semester studying abroad so i’ll probably go to england one way or another lol and i can always do my masters in the uk (if i do a masters degree i haven’t even figured out what i’m doing this year let alone in three years loll)

Also I really have to stop saying lol so often lol

Also I have to stop saying also at the beginning of every sentence lol

Also (😔) i enjoy talking to you too 👉🏼👈🏼 you don’t know how happy i get whenever i see that you sent me an askd sjsjhshshs

And yupp i used to go to england like three times a year but because of cov*d i haven’t seen any of my english relatives since 2019🥺🥲 BUT the uk is so so so nice i love London but I also love the country side and esp the north of england 🥰🥰🥰 (that’s where most of my relatives are) and yes you deffffff need to visit one day!!!!!!!

Also (also is such a good word tho sksjsh) likeee i definitely don’t think it’s rude when people say my english is good dkdhsg so thank you 😌 but if you heard me speak english irl, i don’t have a german accent or anything and i’m 100% fluent but writing like this is different because it’s like... it’s not an essay so obviously not every sentence has to be 100% grammatically correct but i always worry that, because people know english isn’t my first language (only because i’ve told them), people think my english is bad and that i’m making mistakes when really it’s normal to just.. not use 100% grammatically correct word constructions all the time if that makes sense...? (I don’t think it does 👁👄👁 this was the worst paragraph i’ve written in my life i’m SORRY ksjshs, usually i’d delete this but i feel comfortable talking to you so even if it doesn’t make sense i’m not deleting my rantssjshsh)

And yup, speaking multiple languages is (in my opinion) one of the coolest things ever, i’m fluent in english and german, i had latin from year 7-12 so even though it’s not a language that people speak anymore, learning latin was one of the coolest experiences of my life (which sounds so lame dkshshs) because obviously in all the roman languages soo many words come from latin, so sometimes when i hear/read words in languages that i don’t even speak i can tell what it means thanks to latin. I can also kindaaaaaaaa speak/understand italian (where like 90% of words are the same as in latin or even some english and german words so i never had to study the vocabulary in school skshsh) and a liiiiiiittle tiny bit of french and serbian. I know quite a few people who speak 3+ languages because a lot of my friends are the same as me and have parents who aren’t german so they speak their dad’s language, their mum’s language AND german and it’s like the most fascinating thing in the world for me

I HAVE TO STOP TALKING NOW I’M SO SORRY WHATDKSKSJSNSMHDS

And ooohhhh my mum’s best friend is from Jamaica and my mum has allllll these beautiful pictures from when they went to jamaica together when they were younger (goals)🥺🥺🥺 so i really hope you can visit one day✨✨✨ (i wanna go to jamaica too one day sksjs but i think it’s even cooler if you’re like actually jamaican obviously and it’s linked to your heritage)

OKAY THIS IS LONGER THAN SOME OF MY FICS I AM SO SO SO SORRY SKSHSBAKSKSHSJAHAHABA but i enjoy talking to you so i shouldn’t really apologise but still like what was the point of all my rambling? Nothing basically dksjsh also I feel like i keep talking about myself but idk what to say and likeee i don’t even know, so how has your life been since covid? (That’s My attempt to ask about YOU lmao tell me whatever you want about yourself sksjsh)

Okay byeee 💖💖💖💖💖

Edit: i realised i haven’t said anything about you finishing/reading everything on my peter masterlist AHSJSKKSBSBSSBSB thank you thank you thank you, sooo i can’t promise anything but i will most likely post a new fic this weekend... but idk if it’s going to be good? I randomly started writing it last night and i definitely like the plot but i’m always so insecure about my actual writing and wording but yeah... ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[snickiebear]

Hi bby! 1, 2, 3, 6, 16, 27, 29, 33, 35! 🖤

mittens!!! loml!!

1. From one to five stars, how would you rate your writing? (No downplaying yourself!)

oh goodness... um, i’d say a 4?? yeah, that sounds about right, only because i often make so many tense mistakes and even when i edit there’s always something to fix. and just,,, im still learning a lot (aren’t we all). plus, sometimes the stuff i put out needs so much more work (see: my recent shisaku fic... i want to tear it up and put it back together.. ugh.. also wt&r, just everything)

2. Why do you write fanfiction?

OH GOODIE! i just... well, i wrote a lot when i was twelve-fourteenish, then kind of on and off through the years. never really had anything to ground me and get me to take writing seriously. and then i found naruto and sakura who has so much unused potential and it just made me so angry to see her treated that way. 

point being, the naruto fandom (more specifically the sakura fandom) rooted me down and allowed me be able to grow as a writer even though i’ve only been posting since january my writing style has changed so much, and i can physically feel myself becoming a better writer. 

plus, i just love it. the thrill of being able to use these characters and pairings and do what i want with them?? i drink it up, i love it!!! its so freeing and such a great way to really dig deep within writing itself. 

3. What do you think makes your writing stand out from other works?

i think its just the way i word things, you and a lot of others call it poetry but meh i just call it fancy words or word vomit from my brain AHAHHAHA

also, my thing is God Killers, God Eaters, and Angry Wrathful Women at this point, so maybe thats another thing?

but honestly,,, i have no clue... you’d have to ask my lovely readers, im so thankful for them 😭

6. What element of writing do you find comes easily?

plot probably. this changes often though. usually when i have an idea, the rest comes to mind and i jot it down and come back and change things and stuff, so thats usually pretty easy tbh... at least for now LMAO

and inner dialogue, inner struggles, showing the entire internal thing. its fun writing that angsty part of a story, the small insights into a character’s mind, how miserable and alone they feel. or, perhaps how happy they are, overjoyed and at peace. 

OH AND WORLD BUILDING. i pride myself so much on my world building. i honestly think thats one of the better things im good at! just weaving small details into the text, and subtly building a world within your mind, oh i love it so much!!!!

16. Any guilty pleasure trope(s)?

mmmm nothing really comes to mind? men simping for women who could kick their ass? tho idk if thats really a guilty pleasure....am very fond of same age aus, sometimes mafia aus too... ummm,, yeah

(probably big dick tenzo tbh... and the fact that kakashi’s face is a legal weapon AHAHAHA,,, and broken, vunreble men. also, shattered, all consuming women.)

27. What’s the nicest comment you’ve ever received?

oh god... i cannot chose! you, ele, al, and hika leave the kindest comments, and literally any comment on the things i write just make me so so so so so HAPPY. i just them more than kudos tbh. 

but! one comment on the intimacy of being understood i always come back to. it was left by GuardianMars and they wrote that the fic was like a “love letter to the pairing.” and that well. i think about that comment all the time. 

there have been so many others comments that have utterly touched my heart and that i will go to read on terrible, horrible days and i value ALL comments. especially those who say “i’m rereading this again” or “i’ll read anything you put out” that just. there is something so intimate about that, that utter faith and loyalty that i do not know what to do with. 

its so touching and makes me truly believe in the good of the world. 

29. Have you ever gone outside of your comfort zone for a fic? How did it turn out?

yes! i am attempting to get better at writing smut because ol&w is going to have some fucking in it so i experimented in that shisaku fic and just..... yeah idk man. idk... its something i do want to get better at cause, meh why not? and i want to write some good porn for my readers damnit! HAHAHA 

33. Is there anything you wish your audience knew about your writing or writing process?

hmmm,,, probably that i stress so much and yet so little at the same time? allow me to elaborate! i stress so much about whether my writing is actually good or if people are just being nice LMAO and also posting, i get cold sweats and a thumping heart and yiKES

but also, i enjoy writing so its like “fuck you (jk ily guys) imma write what i wanna!”...do you see my issue? HAHAHA

also, im a planner. most of the time, and a lot of the details in my more serious fics (ol&w) are blink and miss details but they’re important and i LOVE foreshadowing!!!! like yes, i will vaguely mention something and itll simply come back with a vengeance! 

35. Ramble about any fic-related thing you want!

aaaaaa okokok thank you for this ask LMAO i just love talking about writing and rambling (as i often do,, im a long winded person, im very sorry)! 

but anyways! my summer semester just started up and i’m taking three purely online classes and the college im attending (im a dual enrollment student; meaning a high school and college kid,, taking advantage of the system!) fucked up my schedule so! im taking two TWELVE WEEK CLASSES that will end in AUGUST???? and then my fall sem starts five days later so... no summer break for nadia! yay...

writing will be very slow and updates will be too, which i am so sad and frustrated about because i’ve finally hit a paved road and now we’re driving into the forest! all bumps and bruises damnit! BUT worry not! i (as i said above, am i severe planner. every day has a plan, i am also an avid lover of lists also. i have lists for EVERYTHING) am working out a schedule so that i can get all my school shit done as soon as i can (while not failing) and write while hopefully not burning myself out.  

ol&w is such an intricate fic and im truly trying to give it the justice it deserves,,, im just hoping that my dear readers can bear with me HAHAHAHA there is honestly so much going on in that fic; shikamaru’s development, the underlying plot, the hate to love build up, the world building, and then laying down the foundations for the next fic (because yes, this is supposed to be a trilogy.. question is; will i be able to write it?) (answer: maybe. hopefully. i desperately want to but it might take some time.)

BUT ASLO i have so many oneshots i want to write! kisame week! kakashi week! kibasaku long fic! and not to mention my og work that i plan on rewriting and putting up on ao3 because a few people showed some interest. there is just so much to do and write and i am itching to do it all! but. well, but school, and the exhaustion of insomnia, and the weight of stress, sigh. 

shit sucks, it is what it is. but writing is like my safe haven and i just love pouring all myself into my fics and then baring my soul to you all and you take a peek and decide to keep looking. that is my favorite part of this little pocket of tumblr. 

this was not really... fic related? more like a dump of issues! so sorry about that AHAHAHAH 

anyways! thank you so much mittens! :)))))))))

pick my brain!

[ober-affen-geil]

My Roswell Rewatch liveblog

1x05 AKA People Go Into Places That Would Kill Them If This Was Horror

I feel for the sunburn Isobel is gonna have later. can they get sunburned?

Max coming through with the logic, thanks boo

LMAO THEM WITH NOAH AHAHAHA GOAT YOGA MICHAEL FOR FUCKS SAKE

*shared look* god peak sibling rep here

First of all, Liz looks amazing. Second, I literally have that outfit and nothing has ever made me happier

this jumping the gun on “rosa is sleeping with jim valenti” still makes me mad. its a really big leap smh

the fact that the batteries still work in that thing is incredible

HEY KYLE WHAT HAPPENED TO GOING TO WORK

“Healing what others believe to be irreparable” foreshadowing 

GRANT GREEN ILY

also wait who records a podcast in a crowded diner

bro you are a terrible liar

There is. a lot of green around this cabin for New Mexico. Like I know they shot on location but. >.>

KYLE AND LIZ IDIOT YA DETECTIVE STORY FANS FFS

*chants* KYLE AND ALEX KYLE AND ALEX KYLE AND ALEX

“She could be the trouble” OH WOW OK WOW WOW WOW 

Ok boys I love you but why on earth did you leave the truck behind and run instead of DRIVING IT TO ISOBEL

yes alex call him on his shit

love how kyle just asks alex to help him move the table. doesn’t bother to ask about if he can, doesn’t infantalize him because of his leg, just asks him to help him move it. beautiful.

“not gonna let anything bad happen to you” *shares look with Michael* UH HUH OK

YES alex babe look at you immediately putting two and two together and deciding to investigate later YOU GO

HAHAHAHA I’m sorry Liz smashing through a window with no hesitation in a parallel to Kyle’s thing earlier will never fail to make me laugh

THREE JUMPSCARES IN A ROW YOU GOTTA BE KIDDING ME

“I’m intrepid” liz omg

god the significance of those shared looks after Isobel makes that slip of the tongue UGH ACTING

Poor Alex, he’s just sitting there awkwardly while Kyle has a lot of very personal revelations

“Alien fake news” AHAHAHA

“Every doctor and general who investigate the original crash, dead” YEAH NO SHIT THAT WAS 70 YEARS AGO

“Sometimes you keep things from the people you love for their own good” *michael looks at isobel* YEAH

Michael closing the tailgate before max drives off is ME

I really don’t understand the logic of dragging all the stuff outside to set fire to it, why not just burn down the warehouse? drama? probably the same reason the car blows up so spectacularly tbh

Alex bb I love you so much

kyle come through hell yeah besties again i am HERE FOR IT

rip grant green

wonder if Kyle is gonna get roped into being the pod squad’s personal doctor in season 2.

MICHAEL DAMMIT give your sister a tshirt or something smh ffs

“you have to tell me the truth” YEAH NOAH AND WHAT WOULD THAT LOOK LIKE HUH

has Kyle had any sleep at all??

YES ALEX YES but why tf was that there in the first place

the way these two scene are inter cut i mean wow the tension

“Love makes you do things. Beautiful things and terrible things. Things you would never do.” LOVE this quote

“secrets are just gonna tear us all apart” CRIES

Max looks so broken UAGH

[seventeen-teen-teen-trash]

Ahhhh i actually cant believe that Vernon's is over?? It was so good,,,,,,,(all of your au's are amazing) It hasnt felt like that long ahhhh and now its moving onto the next one,,,,,, bittersweet, bittersweet :') - sushi anon ♡

me too ahh i loved his au sm.

@tinyglasses said:Awwwwwwww that was so cuuuuute!!!! 😍😍😍😍 *Aggressively applauds you*

lmfao thank you thank you.

@lilili-yabaets said:the update. the final one. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

me too.

Anonymous said:AHHHHHHHH THE ENDING OF VERNONS AU WAS SO CUTE!!!! DEFINITELY ONE OF MY FAVES! Although all of your aus are my faves 😂😂😂 ily so much!!

awwwww yes thank you :’) his au was definitely a wild ride. ily2!!!

@laragazzadifuoco said:JOSHUA WANTS TO CHANGE FOR THE GIRL HE MET, I CAN'T WAIT TO READ HIS AU *_* and by the way I loved this ending with Vernon and Cinnamon kissing and eating Ice cream!!! *_*

YES. GET READY FOR HIS AU. YOU’LL BE PISSED BUT SMITTEN AT THE SAME TIME. IT’LL BE GREAT.

@skytimil said:Oh Gosh the sweetness I'm in loooove 😭💞

omg me toooooo. I love this concept of Vernon

Anonymous said:Idk if it’s just me but......... Joshua was so cute in the last Vernon post im PUMPED for Joshua’s texts to start!!!😊 yayayayayay

ahahaha. me too!! but we all should rest. lol for your sake of angst

Anonymous said:Hhh, that au was so good, I love,,, - sunflower anon 🌻

ALSO IM SO GLAD YOU'RE GETTING SOME REST NOW BB, TAKE YOUR TIME AND LOOK AFTER YOURSELF. WE'RE ALL SO GRATEFUL FOR WHAT YOU'VE DONE - sunflower anon 🌻

THANK YOU BBY AHH YOU’RE SO SWEET AND KIND. MY HE A RT. :’)

Hi! I'm here just to say that I love your AUs and that I have followed you for quite a while but just now though about telling you that. And well, abt Vernons AU... daehoon (idk if it's well spelled) what a bitch! Also, I'm super excited for Joshuas AU! Hope u have a good day and take care of yourself! Sorry for the long message😌 (just gonna put an anon noun here hehe) - Chanon

hey bby!!! thank you so much for keeping up with my blog and reading everything!! it really means a lot ty ty tyty :’)

@ganseylil said:Yes! Coco is such a great movie!!

it really was!!!

Anonymous said:THAT FLUFF IN THE END MADE MY HEART DJIEJSJDJDKWJDIJDDJDJJD

same. it was well deserved after all of that angst.

@wendrauhl said:damn, jihoon, wonwoo, seungkwan, hao, cheol, jeonghan, hansol, soon, and there's already only 5 members left 😩😩 i remember when you announced you'd made the jihoon one jsnsjsd i was like omg a college jihoon series and then you started writing for all the other members???? i'm lucky enough to have been here since you started the college aus and i got to see good ideas after good ideas, the plots are amazing and imo orignal, oof can't believe it's been like 5months-ish? i think? ily 💕💖💘💓💘

awwwww yes! I’m so proud of how far I’ve come without giving up. like surprisingly, the au’s take a lot of energy to make. cause there’s a lot of behind the scenes of like me plotting, finding the right pictures, setting up the social media, and then I’m always answering your guys’ asks :) I’m just really thankful I can work hard for all of you. :’) thank you so much. Ily2!!!

@mysticmakertraveler said:Awww, it's end already.. But i'm excited for our fuckboy joshuaaaaa >///

me too :) you guys aren’t ready tbh

@svt-angel said:AWWWW THIS END WAS JUST SO CUTE AND BEAUTIFUL AND PERFECT 💖💖💖 take a good rest now bby we love you 😘

I’M SO GLAD YOU GUYS LIKED IT. and i’ll rest, don’t worry I love you guys too.

Anonymous said:hello the golden vernon au has ended i died thank u love u :* and hmmm 16 u say? close (kinda) but noooo muahahahaha (guess again muahaha ull be hella surprised hah) love lots -happy anon :)

hahaha i love you too! and hmmmmmmmmmm.... 14? 19?

@joshoonuihan said:I WENT SWIMMING AGAIN... But this time with goggles :3

CUUUIUTTEEEE

good lmao. don’t burn your eyes. and thank you :’)

@run-out-of-ideas said:OH MY GOD AGAJSNBVHSJDBSZ MINGHAO JUST DROPPED HIS MIXTAPE AHHH MY BABE❤️💓💕💖

ohhh I haven’t gotten to listen to it yet. I will eventually :)

Anonymous said:awwwww great job babe the ending was so cute!! 💞💞 ~ highkey fangirl

thank you bby!!! it really means a lot. :)