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mrtheinsatiable · 1 year ago

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Starting to realize I've been unnecessarily resistant to a lot of ideas because I was just looking at them from an angle I didn't like

The idea of a "purpose driven life" is one of those things. The whole "I was Created for a Purpose" thing didn't vibe with me and also kind of pissed me off and that was pretty much the only context I had for the idea for a long time. And even the more secular version where I create my own purpose didn't work either because I've never felt like I had any particular calling or thing I Have to Do. It also feels dehumanizing to think of it that way, to a certain extent, to have a specific purpose or use like a tool or an object.

But actually a purpose driven life doesn't have to mean Having a Purpose it can just be "doing things on purpose." Life becomes a lot easier and also more fulfilling when you act with intent instead of just letting yourself loose in the day. It's hard to get your shit together when you're winging every second. A sense of purpose doesn't actually need to be deeper than that, I think, to positively influence your life

#of course there's a lot of hardware upgrades I'm gonna have to do before i can actually run that program #turns out the reason you can understand something intellectually but still not be able to enact it #is that the parts of your brain responsible for handling that need to build up enough muscle to lift that kind of emotional weight #you can know everything about the mechanics of a pushup #but that doesn't help with the fact that your arms aren't physically capable of executing it #did you know you can actually physically shrink your amygdala #which is responsible for fight or flight #by intentionally chilling #intentionally developing your brain is a lot more complicated and takes way longer than building muscle #way more steps #and like 5000 different dead ends to run into #but if you set those aside and tackle different problems that are more accessible to you now #later you'll come back to that dead end and realize there's actually a road there now #which whips ass supremely #something you struggled so hard with for a long time suddenly just snaps into place #and you can move forward #it's a great hobby bc you never run out of things to work on #and each success improves your whole life not just one aspect of it

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