#not so subtle nod to shepard at the end 😂
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[Read it here as well on ao3.]
Honesty is Key
Pairing: Scott Ryder/Jaal Ama Darav
Rating: T
Word Count: 1,487
Tags: Mass Effect: Andromeda, Pre-Relationship, Slight Angst, Angst with a Happy Ending, Communication, Loyalty Mission, Post-Jaal Ama Darav: Flesh and Blood, Emotional Hurt and Comfort
Scott couldn't take it.
He had been so close to losing him. His stomach churned at the thought alone. His hands shook, yet no amount of deep breaths or calming thoughts helped soothe his nerves.
Adrenaline coursed through him, showing no sign of letting up.
Scott had barely stepped foot on the Tempest before he was already rushing off to the bathrooms in quick, long strides. The others called out to him, but he ignored them. Their words were garbled, unintelligible. It was like listening to someone from underwater.
Thankfully, no one was in the restroom.
Using the codes that Kallo had given him, he overrode the Tempest's protocols and locked the doors behind him. Bile started to rise in the back of his throat, leaving a bitter taste that lingered on the back of his tongue.
Taking his helmet off, Scott tossed it aside. It hit the floor and cracked, but he couldn't find it in himself to care right now.
He had been so close to losing him.
Both of his knees buckled, and Scott barely had enough time to brace himself against the sink before they collapsed entirely. Running shaky fingers through his hair, he glanced up and met his eyes in the mirror. They were red, swollen, and puffy. Tears had started to stream down his cheeks without Scott even noticing.
His face was as pale as a ghost, and his stomach continued to churn until finally he gagged.
All he could see was that bullet slicing through Jaal's cheek, over and over again. If the shot had been aimed slightly more to Akksul's right, then he—
Before Scott could even finish that thought, he was stumbling through the bathroom. He fell to his knees in front of the toilet, and his stomach heaved.
By the time his stomach was empty, his throat burned, and his vision blurred.
He couldn't stop trembling from head to toe, feeling as if he was coming apart at the seams.
"Pathfinder," SAM said through their private channel, "your vitals are consistent with those associated with extreme distress. Should I alert Dr. T'Perro?"
"I—" Scott managed to scrape himself off the floor, careful of the shards scattered around from his helmet's shattered facepiece. "No, I'll be fine."
Eventually.
Scott rinsed his mouth out at the sink, nose wrinkled in disgust.
Cleaning up as much as he could, Scott figured he could come back later and finish up.
Of course, the second he stepped out the door, he bumped into Jaal's chest.
Well, that dashed any hopes he had of making a quick escape to his quarters. Not that he should have expected any different. Jaal wasn't the type to avoid an issue when he could confront it instead.
At the sight of Scott's blotchy, tear-stained face, Jaal frowned.
"You are upset," he stated.
"Yeah, no shit."
It took Scott a whole minute to realize that he had said that aloud instead of keeping it to himself. Jaal blinked owlishly at him in shock, but Scott averted his gaze, sinking his teeth into his bottom lip.
"I'm sorry," he muttered, face flushed with warmth compared to mere moments prior.
Jaal regarded him in confusion.
"Why are you apologizing for speaking your mind?" he asked, utterly baffled.
Right. The angara value openness and honesty.
Scott could work with that.
Hopefully.
"Mind joining me in my quarters?" Scott asked, eyeing the empty corridor with suspicion. Knowing his crew, he might not have them in his direct line of sight at the moment, but that didn't mean that they weren't listening in somehow. Call him paranoid, but Scott wasn't taking any chances. "I want to talk about what just happened out there."
At that, Jaal shifted uncertainly, wringing his hands together.
"Okay," he whispered, "but are you certain that we have to have this discussion alone?"
Scott narrowed his eyes at him, arms crossed over his chest.
"I would prefer to be alone, yes."
"You're upset with me," Jaal noted, but was he right?
Yes, no, maybe. Scott didn't know, but he wasn't going to have this conversation out in the open.
"Come on," Scott grumbled, dragging Jaal into his quarters alongside him. Once they were inside, Scott sealed the doors. "In you go."
"Scott—"
"Not. A. Word." Jaal snapped his mouth shut, and Scott jabbed a finger into his chest. "You are so—" Reckless, stupid, careless... There was so much he wanted to say, but it was near impossible to settle on one word alone. "—infuriating!"
It was nowhere near enough, but it would have to do for the moment.
Without thinking, Scott kicked at a nearby box. He didn't notice until it was too late that his body was thrumming with biotic energy, his frame enveloped in a bluish light. He sent the box flying into a nearby wall, where it shattered into little pieces.
Scott watched it fall apart, but he didn't feel much satisfaction from the act. Instead, he felt numb. Numb and drained.
Turning back to Jaal, Scott let his biotics fizzle out.
His face crumpled.
"I could have lost you," Scott whispered distantly, his voice thick with exhaustion. "I almost lost you."
Repeating it didn't help any. Reality refused to set in entirely. He still struggled to comprehend everything that happened at the Forge.
In the blink of an eye, Jaal had Scott wrapped up in his arms. Scott choked on a sob, burying his face into the crook of Jaal's neck.
He took a deep breath, Jaal's sweet, warm scent a constant reminder that he was still there. That he was alive.
"I don't have many people left that I care about," Scott whispered, finally giving voice to those feelings that had been bottled up for so long. "My mom and dad are both gone. There's no telling when Sara will wake up." He swallowed thickly past the lump in his throat. "You and the crew... You're all that I have left. My friends, my family, my colleagues."
He pulled away, just enough to stare pointedly into Jaal's bright blue eyes.
"And so much more," he breathed.
Carefully, he traced his fingers along the underside of Jaal's latest wound. At first, he flinched, but Jaal grabbed Scott’s hand and held it there before he could pull away.
If anything, he leaned even further into his touch, and Scott melted.
"I'm sorry to make you worry so," Jaal said, "but I'm grateful that you trusted me enough to refrain from bringing harm to Akksul. I know that it had to be a difficult decision, but acting against him would have only strengthened the Roekaar's cause. You did the right thing."
"Perhaps," Scott grunted, "but that doesn't make me feel any less like shit."
Jaal chuckled.
Tightening his arms around him, his rofjinn draped over Scott’s shoulders like a warm blanket, safe and secure.
Scott snuggled in close.
"Doing the right thing won't always feel fulfilling," Jaal said, "but thank you. Not only for that."
Scott furrowed his brow.
"What else do you have to thank me for?"
Jaal beamed.
Truth be told, he had no right to look that happy, not when Scott was mad at him. Sort of.
"For being honest with me." He shrugged. "I've noticed that you've been opening up more and more lately, at least compared to when we first met. It means a lot."
"Well, uh..." Scott trailed off, clearing his throat. "No problem. My family were never really the touchy-feely types. It's definitely new territory for me."
"Yet you take to it so well. Even when you're enraged, you're radiant."
Scott sputtered, then unraveled himself from Jaal's embrace, keeping a hold on his hand.
"Alright, on that note, it's time to go."
As he pulled Jaal along, Jaal grumbled in protest.
"Hey!" They exited the room together. "Where are we going?"
"To have Lexi properly clean and disinfect your wound before I kiss you, and neither of us want that." Before Jaal could get too hurt by that statement, Scott clarified. "Not until I've showered and brushed my teeth, at least. I'm a mess."
"Oh!" Understanding dawned on Jaal, but he decided to take a risk. "And after that? Will you kiss me then?"
Of course, about half the crew decided then —of all times— to emerge from the Crew Quarters, all of them stopping short when they heard Jaal's exclamation.
They tossed Scott teasing glances.
"Yeah, Scott," Vetra called out, "when are you going to give Jaal a kiss?"
"It would be rude not to," Peebee said.
With his cheeks lit aflame, Scott gaped like a fish out of water, opening and closing his mouth as he struggled for words.
Why did he suddenly feel like it should be against the rules to bully the Pathfinder?!
Eventually, he said, "I should go."
And he hurried back to his quarters, tripping on his feet as their laughter chased him off.
#mass effect#mass effect andromeda#scott ryder#jaal ama darav#rydaal#scott x jaal#my writing#my fanfic#not so subtle nod to shepard at the end 😂#self reblog#queued post
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