#not repulsed at himself because of what he's done- nono he doesn't care abt that. revels in it. revels in showing YOU it.

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i want to grab you in my fist and squeeze just GRRRR

im at the LIBRARY CHEESE this isn't the TIME for you to make me want to talk about how FEITAN and his PRIDE affects his ABILITY TO FUNCTION AS A PERSON and HOLD RELATIONSHIPS AUGUGHIEENNJNJNJEGGNRBGRRGGR SNARRLSSS

i do like to imagine the duality of being a shared darling of feitan and chrollo

for your birthday chrollo takes you to the most expensive restaurant he can find, having spent hours researching your tastes so that he knows what starter, main, and dessert you’ll like, what time you should eat them, etc.

then he’ll take you for a walk across the beach, or to the top of the mountains, anywhere he’d know you’d love. when you’re there he’ll present his gift, something heartfelt and personal, and no doubt very expensive. after all this, he’ll bring you back to the apartment he keeps you in where feitan is waiting after having completed a job.

he got you like. idk. a microwave meal. one that’s probably out of date and has a suspicious stain on the packaging. maybe he’ll put a candle on top of it but it won’t be lit, you’ll be lucky if it’s even out of its box.

yes if you don’t seem pleased feitan will be upset and grouchy for the rest of the week.