#not my proudest work i'm ngl

[apollos-olives]

turned in my essay everyone pray for me

[nico-di-genova]

Stranger in the Mirror - Chapter 2

To celebrate his twenty-second year, Rilian is allowed to enjoy a slice of pie. Gooseberry, smelling of ripe fruit and flakey crust, buttered around the edges. Rilian’s stomach rumbles at the scent of it. He is sure the man who steals his body and mind daily must be permitted to eat, he hardly looks as if he is starved, but Rilian has not once in his long captivity been given a meal. He has not tasted food, or even water, since the green lady first threw a lavish feast for him. One of his final moments of freedom before the enchantment took hold.

So when she comes to him that night, a silver plate with the pie held in her slender hands, Rilian is certain he would have fallen ravenously upon it had his hands been free. Thankfully, they were bound as always, and he could not reach for the dessert the way his stomach demanded.

“It is your birthdate,” the lady had said as way of explanation as she sat in the plush seat across from him and placed the plate in her lap. Her hair was done up in an elaborate style, silver pins that caught in the firelight dancing like starlight amongst her golden locks. It brought to Rilian’s mind the fond memory of his mother, before the lady’s eyes flashed green at him and he was forcefully returned to reality.

“How old am I?” Rilian asks, afraid of the answer even as he requests it.

“Twenty-two I should guess.”

The bile at the back of his throat rises bitter and acidic. Five years he has been tied to this damned chair. Five years since he has tasted food, water, felt the sun upon his face or seen anyone other than this witch and her servants. Five years since he has seen his father. Rilian thinks he’s going to be sick. No, he’s certain of it.

He has not known anything other than damp stone beneath his feet and the heavy scent of wet earth in nearly half a decade. He has not seen the stars since he was seventeen and they lay wide and sprawling above him. He cannot hear them here, buried layers beneath the world and suffocating in the darkness. He cannot hear his mother or the song of her people.

“I have brought this for you,” the lady offers him the pie, holds it out as if he will be able to take it from her. As if his hands were not tied behind his back and forever a raw pink from ropes that are stained with five years’ worth of his own blood.

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[oh-meow-swirls]

i wanna restart my rewrite of 2 but idk what to do about what's currently up of it like. i wanna keep it up but idk if i just add to the existing ao3 work or make a new one-

[chayscribbles]

chayscribbles’ monthly writing update ☆ february 2024

yes, i know, february has an extra day this year, but i'm posting this today bc i won't have time tomorrow lol

☆ STATISTICS.

projects worked on: The Gemini Heist

proudest accomplishment: i... wrote?... i guess??? *can't remember a single thing i did this month for some reason*

books read: Witch King by Martha Wells. i'm ngl, i was lost like 80% of the time, but that might just be a skill issue on my part (it's the kind of book that throws you into the thick of it without holding your hand and listening to the audiobook with the attention span that i have was... probably not the wisest idea lol)

(alhough funnily enough, it's while having this audiobook on in the background that i came up with a lot of my plot thoughts for gemini heist LMAO. either that or while playing zelda.)

☆ GENERAL COMMENTS.

although i did get writing done this month, this update's gonna be short. i don't really have much to say lol

more specific wip-related comments + featured excerpt below.

☆ COMMENTS: THE GEMINI HEIST (draft 0.5)

it's very weird to not be using word count to track my progress anymore. freeing, but weird. i have no concept of how much i've actually done for this wip this month.

i do know i've figured out a bit more stuff about the heist and the lore. i had a big plot brainstorming session and untangled a few scenes. while i know what direction i want the story to head, i still don't know how any of this gets resolved, tho.

and i wrote out a few important scenes. that's progress, right?

☆ FEATURED EXCERPT.

i've been writing so chaotically out of order based on whatever scene i feel most inspired for in the moment that i,,, honestly can't remember what i've written this month vs what i had already written before 🥲 here's a scene that i THINK i wrote in february. Leo and Illiana might be my new favourite dynamic. (for context, Illiana is posing as her identical twin at a party, and Leo is posing as a guest. they came in separately.)

With the bodyguards tailing her the entire way, Illiana slowly made her way towards [Leo]. She tolerated a few brief exchanges with other guests she crossed paths with to appear natural, then, once she was close enough, she slipped the extra comm out of the pocket concealed in her skirt. She made a show of bending down to pick up something, then strode towards Leo. “Excuse me,” she said as she approached. “I believe you dropped your earring.” Leo turned to her, smile strained underneath her veil. “Oh, thank you,” she said, holding out her hand. Illiana placed the comm into her palm, taking care to hide it from the guards. As Leo angled her head away to slip it into her ear, she added, “I must say, your Holiness, this is quite a lovely party.” “Why, thank you, Miss…” She faltered, realizing she didn’t know Leo’s alias. “I’m sorry, I don’t believe I’m familiar with you.” “I’m a business leader from Tharekkan,” Leo said, pressing her palms together and giving Illiana a slight bow with her head. “It’s an honour to be here.” Illiana was surprised that Leo, with all her meticulous planning, didn’t have a fake name ready, and now she was curious. “How may I address you?” Leo’s already tense smile tightened even more. “‘Miss’ is fine,” she replied, practically through clenched teeth.  “No, I meant, your na—” “I’ve been told much about how lovely Fiolsby is, right before the winter,” Leo cut off, an unnatural segue back to the script they had practiced. “But I haven’t had the time to properly see the city.” Now Illiana just had to pry Leo's fake name out of her. “Really? That’s a shame. You know, the gardens offer a wonderful view of the city. Would you like to see, Miss…?” She let her sentence trail off, watching Leo expectantly. “If it’s not too much trouble, I would love that,” Leo replied, to Illiana’s annoyance.

☆ TAGLISTS. let me know if you want to be added/removed to any of them.

general taglist:

@dgwriteblr @the-orangeauthor @onomatopiya @quilloftheclouds @ashen-crest @writeblrfantasy @celestepens @stardustspiral @pepperdee @extra-magichours @avi-why @lefttigerobservation @chazzawrites @bardolatrycore @innocentlymacabre @subtlefires

gemini heist taglist:

@florraisons @akindofmagictoo @cream-and-tea @memento-morri-writes @antique-symbolism @rose-bookblood @afoolandathief @pepperdee @avi-why @zonnemaagd @chazzawrites @analogued @enchanted-lightning-aes @innocentlymacabre @kahvilahuhut @celestepens @cilly-the-writer @extra-magichours @onomatopiya @outpost51 @planets-and-prose

[saryasy]

Fic authors self rec! When you get this, reply with your favorite five fics that you've written, then pass on to at least five other writers. Let’s spread the self-love ❤

hi jo!!! thank you so much and to @writerkenna and @livingincolorsagain for the asks! okay let's see in no particular order:

1. 500 Days of Winter, M, 16.7K

In a small, dark room in the middle of nowhere, just outside Bucharest, two bodies intertwine. The chorus of sounds and three little words plays over and over and over again. They don't let go for one second.

Tomorrow the world will come knocking at their door, their lives will be turned upside down, but for now, they have each other, and for now, that's more than enough.

Or, the story of Sam and Bucky, and the five hundred days that bound them together.

okay I lied I'm starting with quite possibly my favorite fic I've ever written. I've put a lot of work and care into this one and I'm extremely happy with how it turned out. helps that I was possessed at the time and wrote it quicker than I ever would

2. my struggling form, my willing soul, T, 2K

It was hard, being back into the cold, gray world that was his New York apartment.

Sometimes, his eyes would look around frantically, searching for a sound that rang through the stillness. Only for him to realize that the sound came from within; an old memory, laughter and music, dancing, kids running around. A tender touch to his neck. A satisfied smile of finally being home. Eyes as beautiful as the sunset they were watching, just as striking, just as deep.

He could look at nothing else till the day he died, and would die happy and sure that he’d seen the most beautiful sight this world had to offer.

the first fic in my inspired by Hozier series! it was born into existence through sheer stubbornness (and my deep need to do a bucky character study) I kept listening to the song (which I still fucking love) and reading the lyrics and then this happened and I couldn't be happier

3. darling, i’d go through it again (if i could hold you for a minute), M, 1.8K

There’s an irritating feeling in his chest, making it harder to breathe. It was like this when he first stayed home and Sam started going on missions alone - well not exactly alone, but without Bucky. It took some time, but he got to a better point where he could actually breathe while Sam was away.

This is different, though. This isn’t the tightness of chest he’s come to be on familiar terms with, nor is it the forceful beating his heart has gotten used to dancing to.

He wants to voice it, to let it out, but when he goes to, the words lodge in his throat.

another one from the series and my first MCD! I really liked playing with the fantasy elements in it too

4. for all of the things i am (not), G, 1,8K

‘You’ll find the one,’ people like to say, but the thing is, he already has. He was lucky enough to find him in the scorching desert heat; blond locks that looked like they were on fire, a pair of green eyes so captivating, you couldn’t help but follow them everywhere, and a smile that could bring the proudest men to their knees. He found him, but he slipped away from between his fingers in the darkness of the desert sky as he sank to his fate. Forever falling, forever gone.

Or, Sam's grief catches up with him.

had to throw in my only gen fic up to date and ngl I wanna write another one. unfortunately the engagement with these is quite low I find myself leaning towards character studies with background shipping. but yeah would love to do it again

5. Firsts & Lasts, T, 613

You never know that your last time is going to be your last.

Or, Sam considers his lingering feelings for Riley, and his developing ones for Bucky.

look I have such a soft spot for samriley, I love writing them so fucking much. the tragedy is oh so gorgeous. I really hope to write that samriley idea I have one day

[sophierequests]

hey! congrats on 500 <33 could i get a 🌷 not the ghost for this james potter fic? or for this neil perry one?

i don't mind either way ahah :)

reading + reacting to other writers' fics // james potter and neil perry

thank you so much <333

you cannot make me choose between my two golden boys, i refuse. i wanted to read both, but the second link didn't work :( (maybe it's just my wifi acting up again, so don't worry. but i went to your profile and picked your last neil perry fic, and chose that, i hope that's okay <3

those summer nights - james potter

live reaction:

james is the prettiest boy send tweet

oh to spend a summer with prongs

now i want to know what niche records sirius listens to

is that a friends to lovers plot i see

oh no 

lily, i love you

but oh no

maybe more pain than i expected

the day?? oh?

the most ruthless rejection hrfdjffjtf help

the nicknames i am going insane

phone calls <3

hanging up the phone now ljghdslhg

dorleneeeeeeeee yes yes yes

fjdddftdgk i am unwell

he's so sweet, i love him

screaming

my favourite lines:

james potter looks like springtime - eyes dark brown and frowning up at you. skin crinkling at the corner of his lips every time he opens his mouth to speak. 

he’s the kind of boy who makes the august sun bearable. 

the kind of boy people write songs about. 

→ yes.

‘the day’ was the hypothetical moment in which lily was supposed to drop to her knees and confess her undying love to him. he kept talking about ‘the day’ as if his life depended on it. to you - despite your efforts - it felt a little like armaggedon.

on the last day of school, james had asked lily out. in hogsmeade over a pint of butterbeer. and it was the most ruthless rejection you’d ever had the misfortune to witness.

→ oh god

on a whim, you tell him that you love him before you hang up the phone. 

→ crying

james potter, lost for words? a rare occasion. 

→ helpppp

final review:

friends to lovers with james potter is literally the best trope, i loved it so much <333

god, i never felt young - neil perry

live reaction:

can i just say that the header picture is super pretty??

okay back to the fic

neil <333

he is the best boy

neil perry comfort is my lifeline

oh to hug him

winter depression

a mood

and he is down bad

i giggled

god i love him

he is baby girl actually

my favourite lines:

but neil is sunshine. neil is going to be alright.

-> our sunshine boy

neil perry - so beautiful he looks, at your eyeline, so infinite he feels when he's next to you.

-> that's just such a pretty line, i loved it

he is the sun, & with you, he is star struck.

-> crying

febuary is a precipice - jump off and then there is spring, soft and ready to launch into. but sometimes it's nice and safe and easy to stay on familiar ground.

-> mood

so he holds you for a while, easing you into the world.

-> hit 'em where it hurts

and he is down bad. such a pretty nervous feeling in the pit of his stomach, summer smile spreading up his face as he watches your reaction - your laughs and smirks at all his proudest stories, your wide eyes leaving him almost lost for words.

-> simp simp simp

he doesn't know what he'll do either, truth be told. that's something he's trying to figure out - secretly hoping he can spend enough evenings with you to last a lifetime.

-> i'm dhjldgsdhgsljh

final review:

this is just so soft dshldksaglsdh i loved it!! now i want to be comforted by neil perry ngl

→ to my event post!

[aria0fgold]

AO3 Tag Game!

Thank you for the tag @misty-wisp :D This looks so fun!

How many works do you have on AO3?

12! And it's steadily increasing as I get more (and randomly) ideas to write fics bout >:3c

What's your total AO3 word count?

126,004! Whoooaaa... That's a lot :o Ngl, I barely visit the statistics of my ao3 account so I didn't expect that one.

How many fandoms have you written for, and what are they?

Okay, so... it's 5? I think. On my main ao3 account it's 2 though! OMORI and Mahoyaku! Buuuut! I've written for Persona 5 (with Magic Kaito) but I'm... too shy to put it in my ao3 account so it's just in my tumblr. The other 2 is somewhere else... (I've written a oneshot for Genshin Impact in an old ao3 account that I don't wanna open up again cuz it's so embarrassing for me... I don't even wanna read that oneshot, I'd die of embarrassment. And the other one is Honkai Impact 3rd, I forgot where I put that one but I do know I wrote a oneshot with Bronya and Seele for it).

Top five fics by kudos:

It's all from OMORI!

Once again, from the beginning - I did not really expect this one to have as much kudos as it has now, like, tbf yea it's my most well planned one but it's still so crazy to see the kudos on it-- wai when did it pass that number-- I never really check the kudos but wtf happened here.

The Tune of the New Morning - How did this one get that many kudos too??? This is my very first OMORI fic and ngl, whenever I look at it I get the very strong urge to rewrite everything from the beginning cuz of how badly planned it is. If OAFB is well planned, this one is terribly planned. I literally make things up as I go.

Magician in the Mirror - Is in the top 3!!! Lookit!!! :D The work I'm proudest in cuz this is my 2nd fic and also the one I just went ham on! I wanted it out during anni and it was all a last minute thing but I'm so glad it turned out well despite that!

The Pawn and the Bishops - I didn't expect to see this one here but alas... it is... I quite like this one though! It's the first one I've written with a fairly heavy and gloomy atmosphere and I think I did pretty good on it!

And thus, the snake ate no more - I see you're here too... This one is actually like a mix of my planning between OAFB and TNM in which that it's in the middle of well planned and terribly planned. Think of it as the middle child of my longfics. With OAFB being the spoiled youngest and TNM the unplanned first child.

Do you respond to comments?

YES! As much as I can! I like receiving comments and I like responding to them as best as I can but I also get pretty nervous bout it... so I end up barely responding anyway oh boooooo.

What's the fic with the angstiest ending you've ever written?

I??? Don't think? I have written any with an angsty ending yet? I'm a sucker for hurt/comfort so most of the fics I've written so far always had a happy ending so! Maybe in the future 👀 Maybe.

Do you write crossovers?

Is the Kaito Kuroba from Magic Kaito in Persona 5 now as Akiren and Co.'s friend stuff I've written considered crossover? If so then yes! It's actually pretty fun to write one! :D

Have you ever gotten hate on a fic?

I don't think so? Pretty happy that I haven't yet, thank goodness!

Do you write smut?

Nope! I don't know if I would though, truth be told I don't have much knowledge with writing smut, I barely read any stories (novel wise) with it as a guideline cuz I... I can't visualize it well enough, my brain is not equipped for it (I try to read smut and spend the next few minutes figuring out the characters' positions. Yall smut writers out there impressive with it cuz honestly how).

Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Nope and thank god for that!

Have you ever had a fic translated?

I HAVE!!! AM SO HAPPY BOUT IT!!! :D Someone translated Magician in the Mirror to Chinese and it's so cool!!! I think there's only a Chapter 1 of it but it's so cool and nice and sweet and awwwwww.

What’s your all-time favorite ship?

Alright, sit down. This is very important. I need you to listen closely, attentively, and carefully... I Love CaiOwe/OweCai. I LOVE CAIN/OWEN!!! OWEN/CAIN!!! CAIN&OWEN I LOOOOOVVVEEE ANYTHING WITH CAIN AND OWEN!!! It's my all-time favourite ship, nothing can compare to Cain and Owen from the hit japanese game, Mahoutsukai no Yakusoku aka Mahoyaku aka mhyk aka Promise of Wizard. They're my most favourite ship I'd go to war for em, I love em so so much, I adore em sooooooo much, I see any fanart of em and my day gets better immediately. They're my lifeblood, my ambrosia, my everything. I love caiowe/owecai with all my heart...

What’s a WIP that you want to finish, but don’t think you ever will?

Looks at oafb, tnm, and attsanm... I'd like to believe that regardless of how much time had passed, I would be able to finish any of those three though. Hyperfixation gone or not, I wanna finish em!

What are your writing strengths?

I think it'd be monologue? Inner monologue? What do you call that thing where it's just the narrator focusing on the characters' thoughts and feelings and their overall view on the situation??? I think I'm pretty good at that, maybe. And somehow I'm good at accidentally setting things up, I don't know how but I just accidentally do things that connects stuff.

What are your writing weaknesses?

Dialogues... I'm so bad with dialogues most of the time I spend in writing is getting the dialogues right. I'm also really bad at descriptors, I'm bad at describing things so I just try to either describe something as best as I can with the help of searching through the internet or get around that part by just being poetic.

What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fics?

I think it's pretty neat! :o I feel like I've seen fics like that before but can't really remember though I did think it added detail to the story of it!

What was the first fandom you ever wrote for?

Uhhh, I think it waaaaass Honkai Impact 3rd? I think it was the Bronya and Seele fic I've written somewhere that or it was the Genshin Impact fic instead. It was either of those two.

What’s your favorite fic you’ve written so far?

Magician in the Mirror!!! It's my favourite I've written so far and the one I'm proudest of! And a lil biased, but the latest favourite one that I've just recently written is Look back, Orpheus which is a fic for caiowe from mhyk! Once again, from the beginning is the 2nd favourite though :3

Thank you again for the tag! Dunno who to tag though but for anyone that sees this, feel free to do it! :D

[couldntbedamned]

NGL one of the things in my writing I'm proudest of is how I managed to write Dr. Leonard McCoy, Jim Kirk, and Nurse Christine Chapel into Goodbye Grey Sky, Hello Blue and that it works perfectly.

Like yeah, of course they're here too, why wouldn't they be?

It brings me so much joy and I'm so fucking proud of myself for it. 😂

[memelovescaps]

For the writer thing: 🍉 🍭 🌈

(I didn’t read the promos just looked at the emojis ngl)

Hellooooo!! Thanks for the ask!! Yeah the emojis are so much fun lol!

🌈is there a fic that you worked *really fucking hard on* that no one would ever know? maybe a scene/theme you struggled with?

I know I sound repetitive but my longest story "In Need" is the one I'm proudest of but it's also the one I battled the most. Not only with the plot and the character arcs but also with the technical parts. I'm still learning stuff, but this is the one I tried to not just type words onto a word document.

I looked into psychology and trauma response, I researched age regression, I researched how a person like Severus Snape might react to trauma and how he could begin to heal. I watched countless videos of therapists and counsellors who talk about childhood trauma and how to deal with it into adulthood.

And that's just the "plot" part. I also invested in a couple of books for writers, the one that saved my ass was "The Emotional Thesaurus: A Writer's Guide to Character Expression". With this fic, I think I can say I began to take my writing much more seriously, and make it as good as I could make it. It's a learning process though. 🍉in what ways has writing helped you process trauma and/or navigate through your own life?

Great question. I'm not at a point where I can turn pain into something artistic and beautiful, when I'm in pain I do write but it's mostly journaling, talking straight from my heart and vomiting my thoughts onto the page that then I close and never open again, as if it burned.

However, writing creatively is an escape for me. It's a way to connect to the characters I love and the themes and stories I love, and give them everything they couldn't have, everything I could never have. Very often it feels like I'm in a trance when I write, laser-focused on the words and the document, and that's as therapeutic as it can get. So, I'm not sure exactly in what ways writing has helped me process trauma, but it definitely has made me more connected to my own feelings, and being able to have a type of sensitivity that I wouldn't have had otherwise.

🍭why did you start writing? I don't remember, I've just always been a person that has always written. When I was a kid I used to change up the dialogues of movies I saw, or created stories of my own. It's just always been a part of me.

I even remember in class in high school, instead of taking notes, I was writing my own stories. I don't remember why I started writing, but I do remember that there was a point it felt like I had no time to write, and couldn't carve out time to do it. And when I haven't written for a while, I feel antsy. So, I don't know why I started writing but I do know why I keep writing.

THANKS FOR THE ASK!!!

[kvaradonaa]

do you have any paolo and andriy fanfics? i rl miss them ngl

I'm not the proudest of this. That's why I didn't really post it here. I had an idea many months ago, but I kinda dropped it later, and when I returned to finish the second fic, my headcanons didn't fit that idea anymore. But here you go with some angst:

[captainwholecake]

Hello!

So this is a bit farfetched but can i get headcanons of shanks and crocodile reacting to their s/o making them a prosthetic arm (maybe through a devil fruit power or something)

a/n: I think shanks would be so proud and I really don’t know

warnings: does the mention of limbs being amputated count as a warning? Shanks being the horn dog that I think he is

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Shanks

Like I said before mans would be the proudest man alive

I mean Shanks gives off the most supportive vibes ever but still

He would just be smiling his ass off as his s/o does all the stuff they need to do

Strong ‘I don’t really need this because it’s years since it got bite off but they want to do so I’ll let them’ vibes

I'm imagining this man screaming holy shit once it done and he see how it works

Maybe just maybe turned on a bit

Well, it’s shanks what did you expect?

I believe he wouldn’t really use it that much

Like he appreciates it but hes had no arm for so long he probably use it very minor reasons like holding himself while drunk off his ass (i don’t hate shanks I just think hes a alcoholic dilf)

All in all, I think once this happens he will genuinely believe said s/o is the one. It’s not every day your s/o makes you a fucking ARM

Crocodile (dundee)

* ngl this is gif is kinda hot

Most likely the complete opposite of shanks

Not bad or anything just very tsudere vibes from him when it comes to this

Do I think he’d be over the moon tho

I think he’d really appreciate that someone thought of his need after so long of not caring for others (no seriously threw ENTIRE country into a drought so he could take it over)

I JUST NOTICED THE NAME ON THE GIF WTF

anyways, I imagine he would go “I have an hand missing not my whole arm”

And his s/o will like “it’s from you’re wrist down you mf”

He just accepts his fate at that point

And tbh he was impressed like really impressed

He’d probably start acting way more in love with s/o after that and I can’t exactly explain why

A/n: box office is doing great- the 2:15 jurassic park fucked up so they canceled the sps showing moved that showing into the sps theatre and now I don’t if the showing after that are fucked or not

[heckinhacker]

Rakan x Red Panda Vastayan!Fem!Reader - You’re welcome.

word count: 916

requested: yes! by my friend behind anon: "Can I get Rakan x Reader? I mean fanfic, where they fall in love after Xayah abandon Rakan for her goal // the reader is female and she's vastayan sth like ringtail or lesser panda // she met him in the piltover's pub!!" note: I usually make reader gender neutral, but it was specifically for my friend so yeah...sorry--

addictional information: /tw alcohol , /tw break up (on canon character's side, is that a trigger? ;;)

A/N: I'm not really the proudest of this work. I am still fighting with writer's block, so I intented to make a longer one-shot about it, but it became a short one, it doesn't even have 1k words. Kinda dissapointed in myself ngl...

Rakan sighs, looking around pub in Piltover. As expected - everything looks modern’ish, interior is classy, music is jazzy and people are not making that much of a mess around. Mostly drinking, talking normally and joking around - sometimes even dancing, there is a section for that. Even though dancing is something special to his kind - dancing was the only resolution to his actual problem. His heartbreak. Xayah was really busy with whole rebellion thing and it’s really not that he did mind. She did. She knew deep inside that he never was in rebellion for the case - he was there for her. She knew he needed her and he was in pain seeing her struggle with pressure and duties - so she ended their relationship for their own good. She got more space to focus on the main task - he got more space for romantic topics, even though it hurts him now. They didn’t even have a fight about it. It was...generally calm conversation. Even though Rakan cried, she made her point clear - and he agreed. Xayah was always smarter than him, so he knew she may have a point. It hurt, but they seperated their ways. He promised he’ll check on her, she agreed to that, and they became friends. Maybe distant ones, but still, they’re not on ex to enemy relationship, which made him slightly happier.

Slightly.

He could swear that when she ended their relationship, some part of him went missing with her going away. She just took one piece of his heart and vanished from his life.

It hurt.

That's why he danced as long as his legs allowed him, sometimes took a break to sip on his drink. Just to throw everything out of his system. Every negative feeling - he wanted it gone, but longer he danced, longer he felt emptiness in his chest. He had nothing better to do.

He had another break now. He was taking deep breaths because he tired himself by dancing, his thoughts consumed by sad stories. Then a very nice looking girl came by. She had fluffy fail and small, round ears on top of her head. She smiled kindly at him. He would notice another Vastayan earlier, she must've come by a few seconds ago. - Are you okay? You seem sad, kind stranger. - How can you tell I'm kind? - You look like someone reliable, not sure if I'm right. I'm eager to get to know the truth, though~ One's on me!

She called a barman and asked him to refil Rakan's glass, to which he sighed with...relief? - Thank you... - You're welcome. - she said confidentely, asking him now what was wrong. Instead of answering, he asked instead... - What is your name? - I'm Y/N, and you? - Rakan. I'm Rakan. And they talked a little, but he excused himself and went back to dancing, just so he can go back to thinking what was going on and what will happen with his life now.

This one dance took him longer than others, so more people came by, some admired his moves, some ignored him, some even wanted to give him money, but he just got invested into his own thing.

So when he heard some arguement, and key words "stupid animal!" flying around pub, he stopped his motions just to see.

There was that girl again - Y/N - hiding her face as some drunk males threw ugly names at her, just because she was different. Just beacuse she was smaller. It was a good suspiction though. Noone said a word towards him. That's why he stepped in.

- Gentlemen, I beg for your attention. Leave a lady this instant, or things might get violent. - Rakan started, carefully approaching the group.

- And you are?! Her little boyfriend, or something?

- Hrm... - he mumbled, word 'boyfriend' ticking his nerve. He still wasn't over his break up with his...actual wife. - Please, think thig through. I don't want to hurt you.

- Animal like YOU, hurting ME? Hah! - he laughed, too full of himself.

Rakan sighed deeply, making first moves preparing for battle dance. One moment he shows his pretty feathers to those drunkards, another they're sent flying up, Rakan slapping them with his feather cape ocasionally. After they dropped on the floor with loud thump! Rakan looked at other vastaya with kind smile.

- Are you okay...?

- Th...-she stuttered. - Thank you...

- You're welcome. - Rakan patted her back, leading her to bar's direction.

When they sat down, Rakan bowed his head slightly.

- I'm sorry for the mess, boss. - No, no. They deserved it. Any drinks for you two?

And they drank a little more - this time Rakan not leaving her side.

Rakan promised that he'll walk her home. Silence was comfortable, Rakan humming some calm, cultural song of his people. When they were here, she asked him in full honesty: - Do you have anywhere to go? - Uhm...no? Not really... But I'm used to sleep in the wild, it's okay! - No, listen. Come inside. You're after drinking some alcohol, you won't be that aware of your surroundings. Let me do it as a... - No, Y/N, it's okay.

Then she placed her hand on his shoulder, and at this moment he decided to let himself in for tonight. - Let me. Thank you so much for tonight, Rakan...

- You're welcome.

[penrose-quinn]

Pen, NGL I was just WAITING for you to reblog that post... I hope you saw this coming! 😁

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Also, only if you can/want to! No pressure at all!(I'd ask you a lot more tbh you're just so awesome as a writer!)

I hope that RL is treating you kindly. Take care! (Also, please correct me if I'm wrong but you're starting your new job really soon right? May it go swimmingly!! ❤️)

Hi Yoko 💞

Actually, SAME. The moment I saw you rb the post, I felt like asking you a ton of questions because you're one of my brilliant writer moots! No pressure tho! I'm not sure if I forgot to mention it in my ask and I might've gotten too carried away with my excitement haha, but feel free to only answer if you'd like/are able to!

RL is okay-ish now. I'm just gonna savor my last break. You're right! I'm actually starting work tomorrow and thank you for this and for asking!! Wishing you the best and take care too ❤️💜💙

36. What fic are you proudest of?

It's not just one! The fics that I’m proudest of are all of the works I'm able to finish, especially if it's a series or a multi-chapter fic, because I'm one of those writers that lose patience and drop an ongoing story the moment I lose inspiration 😔 That's why I tend to write in one-shots or a series of them nowadays because it's quicker and readers get an ending at least. Green Light is the only exception because I find so much peace in writing it more than the others.

42. What’s your favorite title that you’ve come up with?

I hope you don't mind me going off for a moment because I had two in mind!

It’s Musubi and Saltation. For the former, it’s because the title encapsulates so much about the threads that bind people, time, and events together and the nature of Kenshi’s Inherited Technique to be entwined with fate and how her attachments had become into a curse in her life. One of those attachments is Geto. Musubi [結び] means ‘ending’ or ‘conclusion’ but it also means ‘joining’, ‘union’, and ‘knotting’, almost as if it’s implying that there’s a beginning and end, a connection. On a fun note, all the chapter titles are connected because of the thread radical [糸].

As for Saltation, it means an abrupt evolutionary change, a sudden large-scale mutation, as to reference the nature of the demons in KnY since the focus is on them in this fic. Another meaning for saltation is dance, or at least the action of leaping or jumping. It’s more the former for me because I’m also alluding to Kibutsuji’s surname [鬼舞辻], that being ‘miserable demon dance’.

49. What fic of yours would you say is the best introduction to you as a writer?

This one is tricky! Most of my readers knew me from my Mugen Chronicles series. I don't mind it being an introduction to me, but the thing is it's definitely not something you should read casually since it's the darkest thing I've written. I'm also pretty indifferent to KnY so I sadly don't share the same enthusiasm of the readers who reach out to me to ask about the manga. I just wrote a series and dipped 😔

I'd like to be introduced through Green Light though! It's still in my brand of angst but warmer. I'd argue my whole Bright Light series is an antithesis to Mugen Chronicles. TR broke me so much with the tragedy that it inspired me to write something tender and hopeful for once lol. The issue in this one now is you can't expect a similar fic like GL because it really is that exception among my roster of works that are mostly angst and dark fics.

62. In [insert fic], is there a deleted scene/idea you wish you could have included? Why did it get cut?

I’ll just share about the other installments of the Bright Lights Series because I had some deleted scenes/ideas for them. Sadly, I can’t share much about the Benkei fic yet :((( 

❁ In What We Don’t Talk About, it was supposed to have two chapters: one set in Shin’s funeral and the other was somewhere in the Bonten future – but got scrapped. This is the only bit I was able to finish:

Takeomi thought the sun should fuck off.

The walls were splintered with gold from the blinds though that wasn't what roused him awake.

It was from the sound of footfalls.

Terribly familiar with each slow step that a part of him fell back to rest more comfortably as he slept over the Sano house for a night, second only to the early riser with the bedhead and the peeved face who began to pace around the room.

"Good morning."

But Shin wouldn't greet anyone first. You did.

That was when he truly woke up.

❁ If it wasn’t the Bonten future with Takeomi, I was going to continue on with a different spin-off in the canon timeline which is my untitled Mikey fic where MC stays with the Sanos after Shin’s death. I’m still planning to finish that Mikey fic someday now that we have his POV. The Manila fic for this one, Where I End And You Begin, is screwed-up (because Shin-less MC, Izana, and Mikey are all so awful to each other) and I’m too embarrassed to share more details about it tbh lol. Not sure if I’ll continue it, but I guess I’ll share a snippet:

"Those glasses look stupid on you."

You shrugged. "Mikey likes them on me."

Izana thought you doted on him too much.

"He's not here."

You sighed, removing your glasses in one swift movement and shelving them inside the drawer of your desk. Your eyes were on him, framed alone by the sets of your long lashes, and while you took him seriously, he loathed how he was still seen as that boy you met all those years ago.

You propped your chin over your folded hands. "Are you here just to tell me you don't like my glasses?"

"It's not like you needed them," he stated.

"Ah, an astute observation," which meant you intended to keep them and the impertinence should have you beaten. "What else?"

"You grew out your hair." His eyes lingered on your neck, but Izana didn't contemplate what your throat looked like slit open.

"I'll get it cut some other time."

"You shouldn't."

An order. Though it was one that didn't demand a lot from you and he figured there should be a change in how things were. You should be grateful.

❁ In Couldn’t Tell, I was supposed to write about Waka's mom. She sort of exists but doesn't play a big role. Him and MC were supposed to be that close and it was kind of endearing and sad too (Waka reminds me of Inui sometimes), though I had to cut it off because character-wise, it makes things both more complicated and irrelevant at the same time. He's always given off that vibe that he had to survive on his own like Benkei. Besides, the mother thing should just be between Shin and MC. Here’s a snippet:

The next time this happened again you bought him a candy bar, but Wakasa just invited you over hot pot under the insistence of his mother. You'd return back to being polite around them, but to his surprise, your laugh would echo over the walls from his mother's lame jokes. It's never usually this loud, unless she brought a close friend over. Then she'd sneak him a telling smile.

"Your mom's cool," you said, finding your place on the backseat of his motorbike.

Wakasa told you to never talk about this to anyone, but he didn't disagree. You didn't say a word about your mother.

66. What’s a fun fact about [insert fic]?

I already share a lot about Green Light in this blog. I guess I’ll just add the names of MC’s siblings. I’m not sure what more to share without spoiling.

Maybe, I should write about MC's heroic story (failure story). It went somewhere along the lines of during their high school years, MC kissed one of the girls that rejected Shin. It was more out of curiosity between her and them, but it ended there. The girl was genuinely interested in MC though she figured out that they didn't feel the same way for her after their first kiss. MC didn't tell anyone about it, except Waka.

[storm-leviosa-fanfics]

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Here's your mystery ask Aiza!!

2: Do you focus on attention to detail when you read fics? Are you more or less attention to detail focussed when you write fics?

i will mentally spellcheck fics as I'm reading, and i don't write without researching stuff as i go, so yeah i do focus on tiny details a lot. that being said, i post so many fics unedited it's actually unreal. like unless i've been working on it for months and/or have a beta i can guarantee that fic/chapter is not edited. sometimes i don't even read them over. this either works really well or really badly. perfectionism vs hatred of rereading my own work FIGHT

9: Are there any fics you’d love to see but don’t want to write yourself? What are they?

oh god. yes. so many. normally i don't think of them until i'm already reading them tbf, bc i'm too impulsive to say 'no don't write this' but like god i'd love to see some kind of exploration of actual gotham urban legends - like folktales and stuff - or more stupid sibling hijinks fics a la those multi-media/twitter fics that are so funny but idk how to write at all.

17: What has been the proudest moment for you so far since you started writing?

ngl every time someone is chatting to me and goes 'wait that was you??' about my fics i get a little thrill. it has happened several times now and it never gets old. but the proudest moment, for me, was probably when I did the charity auction thing. not bc i thought the fic was the best i'd ever written, but bc a) someone sought me out to write a fic, b) it did something good for the world and c) it was such a challenge to write outside of what i knew, on top of being the first time i'd written to a brief. it was a great experience all around.

send me asks

[jeongjaebae]

1. Who is your favorite member to write for? Based of the studies of 100 Yale students, they have come to the conclusion that your favorite character is indeed the Korean hottie, male Lee Hyunjae. Would you like to elaborate on this discovery?

2. What character do you find the most difficult to write for? And why, since we know you like them difficult. You like a challenge. But, so do we, so no judgement there.

3. Do you have a favorite scene you’ve written? Scientists have said it to be a scene were Hyunjae is being the punching bag for comedic relief? Is that true? Explain.

4. Did you have any ideas that didn’t make the final cut? We have been notified through our secret source that a specific scene did not make the cut for the Sunwoo Soulmate AU. And with some digging, we have confirmed the fact that you are indeed gatekeeping a very steamy scene. Care to explain?

5. Do you listen to music when writing? If yes, please do tell.

7. What story do you feel the proudest of? We know it's not Take A Hint which is borderline plagiarism, but moreover slander. So please inform the viewers of the fic you're most attached too.

8. Do you prefer writing one-shots or multi chaptered stories? We know you have commitment issues and it will play into this question. But that is ok. Who doesnt have commitment issues in 2021? We support you. We love you.

9. If you had to assign a song to a fic, which would you assign? Why? Do please keep in mind the age of your audience and choose your words carefully as we'd like to make sure everyone is comfortable.

11. How would you describe your style? (Character/emotion/action-driven, etc)

12. Who is your favorite author? Why? What led you to fall in love with their words? What led you to be in love?

13. When did you start writing fanfics? What moved you to become an author of many poetic words? Who inspired you? Did you ever expect to make it this far?

14. How do you feel about your older work? Would you like to burn next to them like everyone else, or do you remain optimistic and see it as growth in progress?

no you didn't. i've been laughing all day already and now we have a hyunjae literature review aldkfja KOREAN HOTTIE LEE HYUNJAE

1. FINE it's hyunjae and he's fun to write ok 🙄 would've said juyeon but i think i'm past that phase :') oh but i also do like writing sunwoo in certain contexts, e.g. you look hideous on me

2. i do like a challenge 🙄 but uh maybe kevin and haknyeon? as most difficult within tbz? which is why they're not on my mlist yet...

3. the sm*t scene that ur not getting 😶 jk hmm i really liked the rooftop scene in you look hideous on me!! but if we're talking hyunjae then it'd be the scene after that, where y/n tells him (and juyeon) what happened on the rooftop and he's just like "sunwoo will be back bc every hour is missing y/n hours" :')

4. AHAHA NOPE not that [redacted] scene, though maybe i'll write it out and put it on the burner blog eventually. i think for the juyeon chem lab one i had more ideas for the scene in the chem lab. for example, y/n gets so nervous and drops some tool into the organic waste (true story, very embarrassing. cute lab partner found it funny tho. pretty sure my TA laughed too)

5. i listen to sad/slow songs when writing angst :') which is also the only time i listen to sad songs LOL. but ngl sometimes music is distracting when i'm trying to hear the flow of the words in my head

7. BORDERLINE PLAGIARISM AHAHA. it's gotta be between my big three (chem lab, soulmates, younghoon) + the jaehyun (soon to be hyunjae) christmas fic? i'll have to reread the younghoon one to judge but since the sunwoo one had more world building, let's go with that

8. one shots 🤡 bc yes commitment issues. although i'm getting better with writing longer word counts!! i know a writer who considers 10k a drabble and um i hope i don't end up like that

9. baekhyun's drown for you look hideous on me 🤡 gives u an idea of what was in the [redacted] scene. AHAHA DEFINITELY NOT AGE APPROPRIATE but yes that's what i listened to when writing that scene hehe

11. umm... dialogue/plot driven? i guess i try for emotions and character development tho

12. u know my fave authors already :') i think the ones i like tend to write very poetically? much description, very flow. and love isn't real 🙄

13. 2011 :') i was inspired by cute kpop boys ok. come this far in terms of improvement in writing? i'm at a plateau now ok 😭 probably peak rn though. i think i finally surpassed my 2017 writing

14. i would like to pretend they never existed but at the same time, yes they are a good indication of growth

[definitelyanalien-maybeavampire]

Hi again antisocial-social media :)

TW: mentions of homophobia and religious themes

[Please scroll to the pink text if you want the condensed, back story free version of this post.]

Hi, so, imma cut to the chase: at work, two of my older coworkers and I got to talking about politics, and things went downhill...

After a brief discussion about where they stand as to who they'll vote for, and who they think I should vote for, we got onto the topic of gay marriage.

I'm pansexual, and I stated as such, which resulted in the Old Testament being brought down on my head. I was asked about having children, asked if I wanted to go to hell, asked if I was really looking for 'a girl', and asked if I knew it was -pause-*clenches fist* *takes a deep breath* *exhales, unclenches fist* wrong. Before we went on our separate ways, they both told me that they would pray for me and my family because we're "nice people".

I haven't seen them since then because they no longer work night shift, but I will be seeing them again Monday, and I'm ngl, I'm freaked out.

Here's where I'd like another opinion and maybe some help

I tend to sing when I'm freaked out because it calms me down, and I'd like to sing pride songs for the next two weeks.

Send me the gayest, rainbowiest, proudest, loudest, queerest songs you know, I'm making a playlist.

I want to show them that I'm unashamed, that I believe love is love no matter what your gender (or lack thereof) or sexual orientation is. I feel like this is the best option I have for fighting back against the machine of society, this is the best opportunity I have for the moment, and I am going to keep fighting for what I believe is right. We all deserve to be treated as equals, we all deserve love and happiness no matter what.

Thank you, you're wonderful and valid, and I hope you have a fantastic day.

Peace.

-Marky

@gay-cottagecore-frog @official-spookifers-child @xx-art-is-the-weapon-xx @genderqueer-turtle @anyone else who sees this and would like to help