#not my edit but i didn't post the source bc i don't want op getting like. ambushed or w/e

[silenthillmutual]

i just wanted to thank you for talking about how underdiagnosed ocd is because the worlds perception of ocd had be convinced there was no way i could have it but after looking into it ive realized it is exactly what i have and exactly what has made my life hell for . well my entire life. its so frequently waved off as "just anxiety", even when i was having panic attacks so bad i couldnt function id get told other people have it worse and im just overdramatic. its been legitimately life saving to know that i have ocd. some of my intrusive thoughts put me in a really really horribly dark place before i knew they didnt reflect who i actually am.

that's exactly why i talk about it as often as i do. i don't think it's anyone on here's particular fault for not knowing they have ocd, but i do think it's something not a lot of people would ever consider because any anxiety they have gets handwaved. and bc so many people on the internet aren't aware they have it, they sometimes do and say things that are very much symptoms of ocd, and it hurts to see that. it took me a long time to get medicated + treated for it that i was, like, physically shaking when i finally got the damn diagnosis. it was literally ruining my life between the bipolar and the constant intrusive thoughts. i was taking 8+ classes a semester and blowing up all of my relationships and self-harming and not sleeping and spending every single hour of the day either with someone or with the tv on bc i could not stand to be alone with my thoughts, while basically being gaslit by my mom abt it (for reference she's a therapist so she knew damn well it wasn't 'just anxiety'). and i think a lot of people w ocd

the post was inspired by seeing this meme edit blow up on twitter btw.