#not just because i can't convey the beauty in my life in j words but because i don't wanna read other people's words and have it sink in

[mydr3aminvi0let]

I LOVE MY LIFE rrrRRRRRRAAAAAA

[dreamland-arcade]

in the long term, our history has been a bit... rough. but i'm incredibly thankful that we were able to turn it around. you are one of the bestest friends i've ever had, and i have loved every second we've interacted. you've taught me so much, from systems, to animated hasbro shows from the 2010's i've never heard of - and i am eternally grateful. every conversation i have with you is like eating cotton candy - it's an invigorating and enthralling experience, and time just melts away in the moment. all we have is each other, and whatever random topic we talk about that day. i just wish i could be there for you more, especially in some of your darkest moments. i care for you deeply and i wish to ensure your safety no matter what. we might not be dating, but i wish to love you as if we are - respecting your boundaries and constantly fighting for your comfort in every situation. i love you, deeply, truly, and sincerely. i'd spend 48 hours straight talking to you about whatever crosses your mind that week. you mean so much to me, and i would quite literally not be who i am today without you. thank you, and i love you. 💖🧡💛💚💙💜

btw the Saturn was better- /j

Agh, I wouldn't even know how to respond to this! So many emotions in one ask, I can't pinpoint it. I will say, I do agree on our history being the way that it is, meeting through one person and both finding out together he's a shitstain in white underwear, and it sucks to have everything you knew be ruined by someone like that. But as the saying goes, the show must go on, and go on it did.

I'm happy I was able to introduce you to things you never thought existed, and then in turn, open your mind to a whole world of possibilities. We may have disagreements, and we may do things to hurt each other unintentionally, but is that not what friendship is? Even at our lowest moments, I still yearned for the times we weren't constantly walking on eggshells, or just being afraid to interact. I've gotten better at using my words correctly, so I can properly convey my feelings than just saying some off-handed comment and expecting you to not be hurt by it. Still sorry about that by the way.

I truly only wish to be loved in the way you can express love. I'm not good at the romance stuff, I never was, but even if we are friends, I still want to feel that love, to show that, our relationship is deeper than what it looks on the surface. That it's complex and scary and beautiful and simple. That it's, in essence, us.

I am the most thankful to have met you, because without you in my life, god, who knows what I'd be. You introduced me to some of the most wonderful people, and I'm finally happy that I'm surrounded by such colourful people who want to share as much love as they can possible, in their own way.

Thanks for coming into my life, I owe you a million hugs.

(The Saturn was also a commercial failure ;3 /lh)

[terrm9]

Everything. Your specialty is literally everything. From fluff to angst, everything you come up with is so perfect in every way possible. I reread your fics all the time and each time, it feels like the first time reading them. The emotions I feel while reading your work is unbelievable. I can't believe you can convey so much just through words. Your writing is so beautiful and poetic. Reading your fics feels like... I don't know how to describe it. It just feels like floating through the universe in the best way possible (and I know this makes zero sense but I genuinely don't know how to describe how it feels) Your writing is pure magic. I know I said this a couple of times before but trust me when I tell you I will probably never find the words to tell you how perfect your writing is. I could spend hours, days, weeks, years, even my entire life trying to find the right words to tell you how I feel about your writing and how much I love it but it will never ever be enough It's delicate and ethereal and so unbelievably beautiful and just everything good in this world. And don't even get me started on how much I love your OCs. I feel in love with Chiara after reading the first part of Already Gone (which I was just rereading last week). She's just... stunning. And I'm not talking just about how she looks but more about her personality. She's so caring and loving and so perfect and I adore her more than words can say. Also, I feel like she would give the best hugs. Chiara and Ethan's relationship is everything and they will always have a very special place in my heart. The communication, the little moments, their love, their understanding of each other, how they can read each other from just one glace, it's unreal and it's perfect. Same thing goes with Lina and Tatum. Their relationship is also so dear to me. It has a bit of edge to it (I don't know why but I just feel that way) but that's what makes them so special and I love them so so much. Lina also captured my heart. She's an incredible person and she's so precious and she deserves the world and J would gladly take. a bullet for her. In conclusion, everything you create, Terr, is perfect in every way, shape and form. I will never comprehend how talented you are, I just can't. You amaze me every single time you post something even if it's not a lot like your micro stories

(P.S: please ignore how long this is)

Maurine❤❤❤ I am sorry for responding so late, but I have been rereading this message every day ever since you sent it. But I took several screenshots to make sure I don't lose it and now it's time to respond haha

You know how much I love you. You are this amazing, brilliant, caring person that always manages to spread light and brightness, even when life is dull and hard. I adore and appreciate you so much and to say that I am undeserving of your kind words is an understatement. But please know that the fact that you took your time and energy to send me this is making me so grateful, so emotional and so so happy.

In times when I don't feel like tumblr-ing anymore, it's this kindness that keeps me here. You are an angel and I will never stop talking about how grateful I am.

I am so, so proud of you and I will keep being proud of you forever, because you are a gem and everyone around you, tumblr-like and real life-like, is fucking lucky.

Love you, you beautiful, precious darling❤