#not chonny jash related

[ccruelgods]

Society? Don't You Mean Yourself?

[self indulgent semi-vent fic. based on the clicker/self discovery game Alter ego.]

"Come back when you have saved up more EGO, and I will see you agai-"

"wait."

A pause. They could feel the eyes of the other on them. They didn't dare to look up to meet Her gaze.

"..Is there something wrong?" She asks, flipping the page of Her book. The book that She says She has read so many times before, yet doesn't even know if Her memories of reading it are true, or a delusion created in Her desperate attempt to stay sane.

"no. yes—no. not really. i just...have a question." they uttered, focusing their gaze on the bookshelf behind Her, on anything but Her Herself.

"Come back when you have gathered more EGO." She stated flatly, flipping another page. they shook their head wildly, their hat nearly falling off.

"it's important. please. i need to know or else—or else i might go insane!" they borderline begged, voice cracking as they gripped the pouch that lay at their waist for stabilization.

for a millisecond, they could've sworn they saw Her stiffen up, Her judgemental eyes softening briefly

But it was gone in the next second, as She sighed, marking Her place in the book with a finger and closing the book around it.

".....Yes?"

they exhale in relief, but the relief is short lived as the reason they're here is reminded to them.

"those....things, outside. the voices. ego r—the façade calls them whispers. right?"

they see Her eye twitch at the mention of The Façade, and Her only response is a curt nod. they take it as an invitation to continue, speaking in an almost unsure voice.

"if those are whispers...then who's the one whispering?"

there's a long silence, and they immediately cast their gaze back down, not wanting to see Her judgemental stare. a minute passes without a sound, and then, the sound of a page flipping makes them snap to attention, finally looking directly at the young woman.

She, ES, isn't looking at them. She's focused on her book again, face void of expression, as she gives a short response.

"Don't be ridiculous."

they feel themselves growing frustrated.

"no no no no. you called me a wanderer because im—well, wandering, and trying to rediscover myself." they gesture wildly in frustration, and her only reaction is a raised eyebrow, so they continue. "if im the wanderer, and i wander, then certainly the whispers have to come from a whisperer! who else is in here with us?!"

There's a quiet thud as She closes her book. There's another long, painful silence, and they finally dare to look up again.

ES isn't smiling, nor frowning. But her eyes are searching, piercing through them as if trying to see into their very soul for the answer to why they asked such a thing before she speaks again.

"There is nobody here but that Façade, and you and I."

She pauses, and for a moment, her look is almost pitying.

"Perhaps it is playing games with you in hopes to drive you insane—no. To drive you to conform to what it wants."

There's a hint of disgust in her voice, and before they can respond, she clears her throat.

"Come back when you've gathered some more EGO."

this time, they know they won't be permitted another question, and they sigh in defeat, pushing open the door from Her "room" and stepping back into the hallway, listening to the whispering voices once more.

'What Am I?'

[occulee]

As promised, pin designs are live on my Redbubble! You can also get them as stickers :]

[jaggybot3000]

chonny when he’s charming or something idk (RAHHHH I LOVE CHONNY JASH I WISH AUSTRALIANS WERE REAL‼️‼️‼️)

[syllogical]

Skull Kid haters you are on my fucking list

[socialc1imb]

Made up.

whiteboard lore comic? More likely than you think. What.

Do NOT repost my art without asking/without credit.

[0ne-eyed-ghost]

day 21 ? anyone?

anger :] APOLOGIES IM STILL WORKING ON HARMONY FROM AGES AGO !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! fighting colors rn the lineart is however done... so.. im happy w that :] anyway......... i couldn't think of anything that I hadn't already done / drawn mind doing previously so . I remembered that one stupid cat image n was like "oh, time to put my stupid bowling ball over that" tada.... :cheer:

[sploon-fic-fan]

i feel like this speaks for itself

[synthshenanigans]

I was looking through outfits to draw from pinterest and one had a certain title that I couldn't stop myself from using

[residentmara]

full body idea, the first outfit youd see him in before whatever happens.

i have an idea for his new story? but again im still taking feed back/ criticism because im def not the biggest "the before" expert or anything

i have a loose idea that icarus would just be an aimless soul (heh) getting by until he becomes friends with FIF!jash , then meeting his two brothers along the way and then icarus becomes like. the fourth brother /silly but thats just a loose bastardization because icarus is Not a Good Person, or atleast at first.

he struggles with codependency, abandonment and negligence, but at the same time is harsh , apathetic and destructive. icarus doesnt want to push anyone away, he just wants a stable relationship with someone, Anyone, but hes self aware. he knows his flaws, and as a defense mechanism to "protect" himself from everyone, he isolates himself. and yeah, it's bad, but thats all hes ever known. hes never met someone like the solo brothers, where they actually give him room to improve and take the time of day to help him out any way they can, because thats what friends do.

so he also tries helping them, doing small gestures in return. he doesnt understand that their (platonic) love is unconditional, so because he doesnt want to feel like a burden, he tries understanding and also mirroring their patterns.

[disruptivevoib]

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[moonpie016]

Day 4: Light.

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He certainly tried to leave the lights on.

I didn't really know what to do for this one, then I had an idea for the other component (Night, but that's faaarrrrrr down the list).

I don't have much to comment about this, it's once more, just THERE. Still enjoy this though!

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(I'd go on a whole newly found interest ramble again because I'm always finding something that catches me. But not now, not yet anyways. Because it's completely unrelated. :] )

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[love-3-crimes]

♡_♡

(psylla - glass animals)

[chaosxcrushed]

There's a certain CCCC summary video that we really, really like. We think it is a great video for people if they want to grasp the story more clearly, if they're confused, or if they're listening to the album for the first time.

That video being Chonny Jash and the Weight of the Mind on Youtube by W3tBl@nk3t. We think they cover it really well.

However, I'm sharing this for a different reason; they say few certain things that really struck with us until now, that I'd like to share with the fandom. Sometimes, we see people really just.. Miss the point of CCCC entirely, and I'd like to shine a light on what was said here. If you'd like to hear this for yourself on video, the timestamp is 35:57-36:45.

“..I bet we all could relate to that, they are the prime example of the side of you that suffers and the side of you that hates yourself for suffering:

The side of you that just wants to slow down and feel everything even to the unhealthy extent of not being able to do anything else(1), but also the side of you that so desperately wants you to get over it(2).

Sure, laying in bed all day every day to rot isn't healthy, but neither is boiling things down and invalidating your own emotions. Both are paths to inevitable disaster, and that's what Chonny is doing here. Keep in mind that the idea behind this album is being whole, and that means neither of these sides are entirely in the right or the wrong; this album is about inner compromise and acceptance(3).”

1.) The side of you that suffers; Heart. He is representative of Whole's emotions, he holds them. Your emotions can go haywire, especially when one's mentally ill and has no way of their feelings being validated. An emotional person like Heart suffers under the weight of crushing, devastating feelings. He wants to feel things out, have time to just process everything, even if it takes them days or weeks to get over it. It's not healthy, but feeling is what he does, and he wants to help because he knows he has importance. Solely focusing on just your emotions isn't the best thing to do, however.

2.) The side of you that so desperately wants you to get over it; Mind. Many people have been there, have wanted themselves to stop wallowing in their own emotions and just do something else, even to the point where you think feeling things out is unnecessary. This is also unhealthy, but not intentionally. Like Heart, Mind just wants to help, everything he does is in best interest. This is what he thinks will get them to move on the quickest; to leave behind emotions and focus on anything BUT that. Also not the best thing to do.

3.) This album is about inner compromise and acceptance; About being whole. Neither of Heart and Mind are right nor wrong. They have their own ways of doing things, of what they think will help their whole self out the most, but both are unhealthy despite the good intentions. They fight over who's wrong or right, when they shouldn't even be doing so in the first place. It's your thoughts against your emotions, basically; your feelings contradict your thoughts, and it leads to an inner war of sorts. This won't make things better, which is why you can't have Mind over Heart or vice versa; you'll need both of them. In the album, they are only able to be whole when they get along. They harmonize, they 'combine', they see eye to eye with each other and work together instead of fighting over and over. Inner compromise is achieved with this, and acceptance can lead them away from any disaster that there's to come.

What we're trying to say is that mental health is a large thing tackled within CCCC, and yet we see a lot of people who overlook it; thus, end up missing the point of the whole album. We see a lot of people believe Mind's perspective a little too much and treat Heart quite harshly, or the other way where people demonize Mind and say that Heart is perfect, when it's not really that in the slightest.

This is not a hate post towards people's interpretations of CCCC or how they view characters, I'm just saying that people can tend to overlook what's in the very narrative, and we see a concerning amount of people do such.

Anyways. Stream CCCC and put your Hearts and Minds in the get along shirt. Have a nice day.

[randaccidents]

Taxidermy: the activity of cleaning, preserving, and filling the skins of dead animals with special material to make them look as if they are still alive

Had a thought that, during those initial days, when Penitence and Perseverance didn't know what was going on, did it feel like they were working on a taxidermied corpse? Like they were conducting an autopsy to figure out what went wrong?

Im also! Really proud of this piece! Holy shit its actually really good.

Oh and credits-wise, the background images are all under the Creative Commons License and free for public use (aka they're similar to stock images!)

[sneeb-canons]

Heart loves chewing stims, especially with his molars. If he's given hard candy, it lasts maybe 5 minutes before he shatters it. Mind and Soul make sure he has chewelry so he doesn't resort to stuff that might hurt his teeth, but it doesn't scratch the same itch

Mind loves non-damaging pain stims as a reminder that he didn't lose his humanity when he replaced his body with machine. He used to do damaging ones (scalp picking, nail and cuticle picking, etc) but Heart and Soul kept telling him off so he tries to redirect when he thinks about it

Soul loves deep pressure but if anything touches his neck he feels choked for ages afterwards. It's always a thing, but after the noose incident it's worse. He'll curl up with weighted blankets anyways but not do anything to prevent them from sliding towards his throat, which drives Heart and Mind mad. If he falls asleep they usually adjust the weighted blanket(s) so he won't be uncomfortable when he wakes up

All of these brought to you/inspired by my own experiences and stims. And my siblings' responses to them :3

Headcanon #573

[briaryoung]