#ngl this was hard LOL i don't have a lot of songs for these letters ☠️☠️

[moumjn]

tagged by the lovely @valenight to post a song for every letter in my url !!

M - maybe my soulmate died, by iamnotshane (maybe my soulmate died, i don't know / maybe i don't have a soul [...] what if i never let you in? / and you're with somebody who did)

O - ok, by mating ritual (shoutout to the amv that introduced me to this song)

U - u broke my heart, by hana weiss (u broke my heart 💃💃 / no exaggeration 🕺🕺)

M - making a lover, by ss501 (💞💘💓💗💖💓💘💞)

J - just one yesterday, by fall out boy (anything you say will be held against you / so only say my name !!! 🗣️🗣️🗣️!!!!)

N - night dancer, by imase (such a good highway driving vibe..)

tagging (if u want!): @revelationtour @mangopit @pecuirlig @luckilyiambrave

[woozi]

i agree how you described twt, sometimes everyone's just ready to fight it seems, i've genuinely had fun on both platforms at different times but now it's just too much on stan twt (no space for difference of opinion djsjdjj) it's good to know you're having fun as well :3 & omg i've seen few of my moots starting to give svt their attention after fallin flower dropped, everything abt it is <3333 the song, mv, choreo i love it.

hdjdjddkdjdj " virgos 😐 " also me in next breath "happy birthday mark :D i love you so much 🥺💕💗" any virgos reading this i really hope you enjoy your month to the fullest djjdjd <3. righttt?? you're correct abt mark's temper being very virgo djdjdkd.

your line screams hard-working people <3 jihoon, jaebeom, jeonghan the 3Js <3. isn't jaebeom also an infj? (i don't take mbtis seriously but at the same time it also makes me happy if it ends up matching someone i like djdjjd) chan & yugs 🥺 these two imo have the sweetest personality, like the one which makes you feel welcomed & they also have the cutest laugh 🥺.

i love jus2 <3 focus on me is one of my favorite kpop mvs of all time & also drunk on you??? i love this song so much, very sexy of them. the vibes, style and everything w/ their album, i want more songs like that. and for when i am feeling melancholy i need more songs like jjp's verse 2 😭💔 but i am also okay if they don't want to go back to these units bcoz everything so far they've been giving is just as great <33 ( maybe in future we'll get blessed w/ features 🥺)

honestly g7 as grp and individually have won me over with their music style, even if i don't like full album ik there will be 3-4 songs which will be exactly what i like to listen to, all of the music they've released individually i've liked it so much. there is this song of youngjae's, titled "i'm all ears" i had no idea of its existence until it popped up in my spotify i'm so glad it did, it's been in my playlist ever since. there was also a time when i was obsessed with jackson's 'on the rocks' djdjdk.

aww <3 the live performance video of 1° has mark as thumbnail so for long time i used to associate this song with him jdjddk. i think the only j*pe thing i'd miss is got7 studio live sessions 🥺. RIGHTJDKSKS aju nice's mv is very cute djjddk I love it, in reality its reverse tho, i see them and boom! 💖💛💗🤍💕💙

it was the year they won first bb*as award so that gave them the exposure, and no i don't follow them anymore. mixed feelings abt them, very negative feelings abt f*ndom fjdjdjd. i do miss what it used to feel like liking them sometimes. at that time i never thought i'll willingly drop them from my interest (i've stanned zayn since 2012 first him as grp member then solo. sometimes thinking abt it gives me a whiplash hddjks it's been 9 years, really thought it would be same with them too but it didn't happen)

i've had falling in love by yugs and in to you by jaebs on loop for days djdkdk i really love these two songs and also air by bammie <3 (i'm slow jams kinda person djdjdk :3)

(bam released the most fun album & title this year idc abt others, ribbon is one of the soty) also special mention of look so fine & running through the rain. yes! you do make sense they feel organic & very them.

exactly 😭 it's more believable when they drop stuff out of nowhere like encore 😭😭. the way youngjae posted his letter on twt too ddjjdkssk the announcement & release of encore is such a 'you just had to be there' situation the excitement, nervousness, confusion and everything 😭 sometimes i can't with them. also is the bibi with mark on ost, the same one you mentioned in last ask? the ost is really good <3, it must've been fun to see it happen (if its same bibi).

making a whole ass playlist just for me???? 😭😭😭🥺💗 yza you're so sweet nooooo 💖

and don't worry abt replying late jdjdkdjd i mean it, sometimes my friends text me after weeks and i'm am the same. it's really okay <3. i hope this week is treating you kindly, take care yza - 🪂

p.s ( just saw last post djjej) - it was me who manifested more bunny dino <3 manifesting even more <33

i was on stan twt during my younger years too and it was v fun and memorable to me ngl <3 idk what happened though.. it's evolved to be.. Something Else.. i still see a lot of good people there though 😭 and now that i'm in my Hag Era... idk it's just too fast for me now 😭 it's still my go-to place for updates though nothing can top twitter on that dept

and ms fallin flower.... i feel like everyone was blown away by it (based off of what i see carats when talk about it) and rightly so!! she SERVED. the looks too oh my god. it's another factor i look forward to and enjoy so much when i watch their performances!!

u know what? virgos 😐 indeed KJJKDFJKFDJKFDKJ i want to slander virgos today because it's their season and no one slanders them that often so <3 ABOUT MARK'S VIRGO TEMPER THOUGH... i know i've said i enjoy seeing it sm but whenever i think abt it i cant help but say that.. I Love His Temper <3 he doesn't get pissed off in a scary and douchebag-y way it seems so... contained?? IDK HOW TO DESCRIBE IT he punched an a/c though so that might not be the perfect word to describe him lmaoo <3

THE J TRINITY HFDJFJDJHDF BESTIE UR MIND IS SO!!!!!!!!!!! honestly... maybe it's the acts of service for me <3 JKDFKJFDKJFJKD i think this is just my eldest sister and savior syndrome speaking though kfjkdkjf ALSO OH MY GOD THE WAY U NOTICE THESE THINGS <3 THAT'S SO SEXIE OF U!!! and yes he used to be an infj!! there was an interview that's more recent wherein he mentioned that he's now an enfj though but i cant rmb which interview it's from :/ ALSO MOOD FKJJKGJGKF i dont believe in mbtis too but im just... a little obsessed w it for the fun of it all <3 and the way u described them </3 what if i tear up a little </3 I LOVE CHAN'S LAUGH SO MUCH BUT IM SO SOS O GLAD U BROUGHT UP YUGYEOM'S LAUGH??????????? IT'S NOT TALKED ABT ENOUGH LIKE...... HELLO!!!!!!!!!!! one of my bird moots said he sounded like a schoolboy in choir 😭😭😭😭😭😭

GOD UR TASTE!!!!!!! what if i start falling in l*ve a little :/ what then :/ focus on me was ahead of it's time and people fucking slept on THEM i cannot fucking believe this. this has to be some kind of sick joke 😭 ALSO HAVE U SEEN THE CHOREO FOR SENSES!!!!!!1 INCREDIBLE!!!!!!!!!! holy fuck!!!!!! sorry for the expletives but like.... holy SHIT they did THAT!!!!!!!! ALSO UR SO RIGHT </3 jjp verse 3 when... ALSO did u know i let go of the jjprojects url... thats the worst mistake of my life KDKJDSKJDSJK also agree wholeheartedly <3 i think they're all trying to find their footing this time around as soloists and im so proud of them for that!! i'll stand by my jus2 agenda though bc they're almost in the same company so maybe.. i might have hope left 😭

SO TRUE BESTIE!!! the same principle goes w svt for me as well <3 got7's such a flavorful group musically like... all of them have the capacity to go solo and they're still considered flops.. waht the fuck <3 ALSO OMG FJDKJFKFJD YOU'VE HEARD The Song!!!!!!!! maybe he'll be releasing something along those lines <3 esp now that he's supposedly coming w an album KJSJKDJSK on a similar note.. do u also listen to jamie (the other artist on the song) <3 NOO SHUT UP THIS CANNOT BE FOR REAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 i was obsessed w on the rocks too 😭😭😭😭😭😭 IT WAS MY FAVORITE ON THE MIRRORS ALBUM HELLO??????????????????????????? im proposing to u rn

ok now i have to watch all the live vids again JKDSJKSJDKDSKJ ik keep saying 'ur so right', 'i agree', and 'so true bestie' but im gonna have to say this again bc i LOVE LOVE LOVE live sessions sm no matter the artist. i also just am a little partial to live bands in performances like that in general so JDJKKDSJDS

the way you're saying these cute things abt the svteenies.. </3 giving me heartache!!! i'd bully them though i can't coddle them anymore <3

not the fandom JKFDKJFDKJFDKJFKJF ok but i think it's mostly their younger fans tbh. it wasn't this bad before.. i also really liked bts during their debut days. their songs were really good!! i kind of lost interest though and couldn't really get into them although their songs slapped lol. my irls are still into them though so i still hear about them. 9 YEARS............................... wait oh my god it HAS BEEN a little over a decade since 1d was The Thing huh 😭 now i feel kinda old lmao. and i totally get that feeling </3 it really do be like that sometimes JKFDJKJKFD

you really ARE keeping up w the sevens oh my god how are you doing it!!!!!!!!!!! it's like getting svt content now at this point but more complicated bc u need to get the updates from different sources JDKJSDKJJSKD love ur song choices too <3

ALSO FULLY RELATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! when i saw bam's teasers... the aes was my cup of tea and THE HIGHLIGHT MEDLEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i can't fucking get it out of my mind it's objectively one of the best things i've seen from kpop in 2021. i'm super impressed <3 love how abyss really supported bambam on this. they really went all in for him!!

I KNOW GKJDFJDK I GOT SUPER ???????/// DURING THE TIME EVERYONE THOUGHT THEY WERE DISBANDING LMAOOOO they pulled a move that's so unheard of though no one really expected That. i respect jaebeom so much for handling all the paperwork and shit behind the scenes it must've been HELL!! ALSO IT MEANT I CRIED FOR NOTHING THEN 😭😭😭 AND YES OH MY GOD IT'S THE SAME BIBI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THE SHOCK I HAD WHEN I SAW THE LIST????????????????????????? thought i was gonna black out like,,, mark,,, AND BIBI??????????????? she's fucking phenomenal how is she just a YEAR older than me.. INSANE!!! ... and i also thought jackson was gonna have an ost for this movie.. idk why it wasn't released though i didnt look into it :/

i had a rough few days so i'm not yet finished with the playlist (my laptop's Dead i am still trying to revive her and uni's starting soon 😭) but for the mean time, here's another one that some people from caratblr previously asked for JDSJKSDJ these are mostly english songs though its not my k-playlist KJDSKJSDJK

i do hope this week gets better!!! and i hope that you'll have a fun one too <3 thank u for being so patient w me 🥺 i just get so many messages and find the need to recharge FDKJDFJK

ALSO I FELT LIKE IT WAS U!!!!!! OH MY GOD, i even searched my blog for the word manifest but for some reason your ask didn't come up in the search so i didnt mention u in the tags so i wont misattribute if it ends up not being u 😭 thank u for manifesting this chan for me he's my little... hop hop now ig... 😭

[water--gang]

for now they are close here too!! I mean I can wait but you absolutely have to get your first one as soon as possible :') the choice of the studio is super important!! you have to make sure the tattoo artist has a style similar to the one you like and that they make you feel comfortable!! so think carefully <33

ooh sweetie it's totally fine to be scared!! but I don't think that I have a high pain tolerance either and I really felt nothing sjkghl (of course it's different for everyone!) and AAAH i wanted to ask you what are you gonna get!!(so please feel free to share all the tattoos you have in mind🤧) I'm so happy you're just as curious about tattoos as me lol okay so I have just 3 tattoos and they are all pretty small! the letter J (the initial of my brother), the word 'hesperus' from a poem I really like and the latin quote 'hic et nunc' (my favourite one so far but that's another story for another time fellas)

i don't actually know if they're closed here. I'm planning to message to one studio tomorrow to ask if they are open haha i don't really know... how to choose because I'm looking at everything online sjxnjs and the style... well. i have my own design and it's very very simple so i think any tattoo artist can do that? they have a couple people working in the studio, i looked thru the profiles on their site and based solely on that i liked this one lady. i also saw one of the tattoos she's done is like... just lines and not some intricate picture so yeaaa i prolly wanna go with her!

oooh those sound really nice! mine are a biT biGgEr ahhaha.

ahhhh I've loved tattoos for so long man, i can't wait to get my first one uwuwu

hmm well this first one is gonna be on my forearm, now i don't remember if that's where the pain is worst or okay sjdnjs I've looked at some many pain maps but i still don't remember smh

I'll put the tattoos under the line so people don't have to scroll so much to skip this djxndn

aight so

firstly. the one i wanna get first! also the first tattoo i came up with hehe i have pictures for like... 5/6 of them. i drew all of them on myself so they look scuffed but they'll give you the general idea yaknow

i drew this on myself like 2/3 years back. i included the second picture just cause i think it looks cool but yea the first one is the version I want. for now hehe i actually have plans for modifications i could get for this one :))

i also have recent pictures from like idk 5 days back but they include two more tattoos as well so I'll keep em for later

secondly. my finger tattoo! probably the second or third one I want to get. i say or third because I might get a matching tattoo with my best friend first. anyway here starts the theme of stars that carries over a couple of the tattoos sjdjjs

tiny and simple. but i love it! i love the stars and the moon which is why I want to have this one uwu also i love finger tattoos and this is the best I came up with jsnxn

this brings us to another one which i actually want to get at the same time as the finger one because it's gonna be on like... the thumb? it's a symbol! here I'll give a picture if the symbol only and later on I'll give pictures with it on the thumb. cause those are the ones that include the first one as well haha

these are on the left hand btw

moving on to the next one. this one is a text tattoo! a lyric tattoo if you call it that. from my favorite song uwu it will be on the right handy thumb to wrist area. i tried writing it on myself but I'm right-handed so you can see how that would go awfully sjdnns

so yea excuse the awful writing please sjnxns if you can't decipher it, it says Step out of them Voices. placed somewhere around that area, it was hard to really choose properly since I was writing with my left hand sjdnns

next up. a small one behind my ear. a lil star! yes. i love stars a lot sjxns was thinking i could get this one sometime without anyone knowing and waiting till someone notices it sjxnd i told have a picture for this one cause... yea it's behind the ear. or like you know somewhere behind there cause i just think those are cool

last but not least. the chest one! it's not like a big complex piece tho. just a sun and some stars. because. once again, i love stars sndnd and just the sky in general you know. I'm in love with the sky uwuwu which is why I have so many pictures of it on my phone from when I go on walks ahahhah

and here we have it. please excuse my awful skin jsndjd i don't expect to get all these tattoos anytime soon because of the price so I'm hoping my skin gets sorted till then you know xjdj

also apologies for how scuffed it looks jsnxnd ngl drawing on your chest is vErY hard. i drew the sun off of a reference i found but i was honestly rushing thru it cause it was... just difficult and i knew i wouldn't get it right anyway sjdnd

the placement isn't gonna be 100% like that cause once again, i drew it on myself sjxnd i want the sun on my sternum, I'd love to explain the exact place but uhh... i can't sjdjd and yea i want the eight stars around it. most likely more spaced out because I feel like this is... too close together, it would look better further away from each other. and the place for them would be like under my collarbones?? cause collarbones hurt a lot right?? ehh well I'll just have to handle it somehow. but yea! that's my six planned tattoos ahahha

now for the whole left arm. aka the three tattoos in one pictures

sorry about the even more scuffed sketch of the first tattoo jsbdns i did that during class cause I was bored and wasn't exactly trying to be precise ahhaha

but yea that's how my left arm should look after I get all of these uwu

andddd here are my plans for adding onto the first tattoo

in this picture the three lines just go all around BUT my plan isss... i want the lines to come together and intertwine on the other side of my forearm, i want them to come to one point where they're like knotted up andddd i want a flower to like rise from that point, i want it to go down to my hand, with it's end on my wrist probably, don't want to it to go all the way on the hand.

i have no idea if that was understandable enough. i suck at explaining sjdjsn but i think it would be pretty??? and i think it goes with the theme i gave it in my head pretty well

so... yea

those are my tattoo plans ahhaha i love talking about tattoos sjdjjs

sorry about the long ass post

— admin

[kyunsies]

hello friend fam <3 <3

never apologies for being late, i always take ages and it's nice waiting for you, like a little letter :)

sigh - they're okay, but they're going to see a lot of specialists and it's just a lot of pfaff you know? and then how long things take always makes stuff an issue or more of an anxiety thing? thank you for asking though <3

ahsjdakshdk ok it is called encephalitis lethargica - i'm sure youre medial brain can do way better in learning and understand it than i can. but yes i do worry - i get so weird about dirt haha like i had sitting near windows sometimes because if all the dirt by the windows lol. let me know what you think though haha XD

OH MY GOSH i hate all nighters - you talking about that as a kid reminds me of that! do you have to do lots of all nighters these days? i agree though. i'm trying to prioritise sleep more these days: have you managed to get more sleep this summer? when i was a kid i had to do the same arty things that i do today so i was working really really late so i could do it all alongside school stuff. youre childhood sounds nice though! what jobs did you do when you were 15? was it something nice? family trips to the beach?! that sounds so so beautiful and wonderful and like a dream! we don't have nice beaches here (or not many, anyway) it's probably been like, three years since i've seen a nice one! is san diego far from where you are? i think in europe i'm used to everything being close so a short trip for you guys sometimes means a lot longer in distance than i would think?

you did sport??!?!? omg what sport did you do? that story about your mom though T.T oh my gosh, that made me so emotional. parents really do so much for us, don't there? i do worry cause we are all so busy these days and i couldn't imagine fitting a kid in it! but then other friends do so... it must be doable??!

BIG AGREE ON THE RELIGION GROUNDING YOU THING. but also as women we feel like we have to soft and apologise all the time? like all of that stuff just layered on top of each other makes it super super vicious you know? but omg i still apologise for things i don't need to as well. it's too ingrained in me lol XD

i get over anxious about EVERYTHING? like all the scenarios pop into my heart and they become a whole thing before they have even vaguely happened? so yes yes i get you so much. whenever you feel like it gets too much for you please just keep offloading onto me, i'm always here to listen, or i can always come off anon to help you :) :) you're the first in your family to do health sciences!? that's amazing!! you're trailblazing then, you know? if it helps, i have several friends how are doctors and a cousin who did medicine though she isn't a doctor now and they have all got through it, and had great careers and made it through! you can do it! and i know some of them were like partying every day or got no sleep or did a bunch of extras and they still made it! so you can make it! i might not know to a t what you're going through but i know you can do it because if some of them managed to slack off and made it through, you with how much you care means you will make it! but understand the anxiety so much <3 i'm sorry bub, sending hugs.

YES TO REVERSE LAMPSHADING! that is basically my summer look haha, i own a million pairs of baggy jeans but in the end it's all for lampshading!

OMG I SAW you got the jo malone perfume! did you have a great time in the end! OMG YAY OKAY EUROPE TRIP OMG YAS SO EXCITING!! it looks DELICIOUS, bluebells are one of my fave flowers, ugh it sounds so so beaut. are you vibing just wearing it around? do you spray perfume on your pillows? i do sometimes. how long do your perfumes last you? they literally last me years, but i don't wear them everyday to be fair.

universe still confuses me a bit ngl i'm not a fan of the UI - but they honestly work so so hard! like even on an app song the MONSTAs just BUST IT OUT, and it was all so different from the OOAK stuff too! they are just incredible!! even more hyped for another album!! HELLO MADCH'S MOM! i am okay. i've had to wear a bunch of supports and bandages to help me through work a bit (it's not serious, just for protection kind of thing, and my new agent really has been great so that is an up? but it's only monday, sometimes things get really slow on monday and nothing much happens til wednesday - our wednesday last week was really busy and we got really great clients and fingers crossed one soon might be in kpop! but it's a slow thing to sort out, this stuff takes weeks. how is she? is she doing well? are you both going through the week well? take the best break ever before uni, i hope you treat yourself with everything you could possibly treat yourself with. these are always so so long but i love them, it's always wonderful hearing how you are!

LOTS OF LOVE <3 TAKE CARE!!

OMG I FORGOT TO ADD MY EMOJI TO THAT LAST ASK MADCH IT WAS MEE - 💥

ANGEL !!!!!!!!!!!! I WANT TO APOLOGIZE FOR TAKING ABSOLUTELY FOREVER ;____; i know i sound like a broken record but i’ve been trying to finish up a lot of things at work bc TODAY IS MY LAST DAY !!!!!!!!!!!!! and when i get home i’ve been going out a lot to eat this week hhhhh so i just haven’t really had much time to answer this correctly but im here OKAY !!!!!!!!!!!

your family member is in my thoughts and prayers hun !!!!! :( i know how much something like this can affect and take toll on the whole family ,,,,,,, it really takes a village ;____; so i’m hoping for the best and that the specialists are really able to pinpoint and help them out to the fullest of their abilities !! and u always know i’m here if u ever need to talk about it <3 

omg encephalitis ;____; it’s really dangerous regardless of what kind lol and i actually learned a lot about encephalitis during my pediatrics course last year bc children get sick all the time yeah? with like ear infections and head colds a lot and the reason why it’s so dangerous is bc the brain is ofc enclosed in your skull so like natural laws of physics when your brain expands and is inflames (i’m sure u know this but anything ending in -itis means inflammation of some sort) the soft tissue has no where to go so your brain ends up pushing against your skull ultimately causing possible future ischemia and permanent brain damage ;____; but this is why it’s so important to know signs !!!! increased cranial pressure fever and EXTREME lethargy !!!!!! and i looked up how they usually treat this type of encephalitis and it says antiparkinson drugs which is really interesting to me but encephalitis lethargica can also cause spastic movments of the limbs so this all makes sense ;____; ANYWAYS sorry this was kind of just a talk with myself lol so if TLDR: don’t be nervous about getting it from dirt LOL you won’t get it i promise !!!!!!!! <3 

omg yes all nighters are the absolute worst !!!! i never actually pulled an all nighter all the way believe it or not !!! not even during finals week ;____; my brain stops working at midnight i cannot and will not work myself to death LOL :’) and maybe ppl don’t think that’s very ‘nursing student’ of me but i never pull all nighters ;_____; and maybe that’s what’s the difference between me being a B student instead of an A student but i would much rather not feel like garbage the next day to take an exam than study as much during the day as i can and at least feel READY for the exam the next day ,,,,,,, does that make sense?? lol but i have managed to get a little more sleep this summer but i have this problem where i try to get 7 hours of sleep but i keep on waking up feeling like i haven’t slept at all ;____; also SDFKLJ the jobs i did in high school were the worst lol like my first job was at panera bread (idk if they have that around u but it’s this made to order resturant that used to be good and has ‘healthy’ foods but no one wants to admit it’s gone down the drain) and i was SO excited to work there bc one thing they do nicely there is make their own baked goods so i always wanted to work the bakery but i ended up at the cashier and no one taught me how to do it and i was so bad at it i hated going to work ;____; i quit after like a month bc no one cared about me i felt :((( and then after that i worked at my friend’s parent’s resturant as a hostess and that was nice but i only worked on fridays and i didn’t make that much money ;____; and THEN my last job in high school my mom wanted me to work in her office so i worked with the sales department i think ? i was too young to understand lol but basically if a vendor had a complain about how a product was received they would send a complaint and i would have to fill out a form and send to the head of the department or SOMETHING along those lines !! i made $12 an hour so i wasn’t complaining hehe 

and yes ;____; my family vacations were always fun !!!!!!!!!! i really loved the tradition we had every year <3 we would go to the east coast actually (virginia beach) and it’s a hot spot for a lot of ppl !!!!! there are these real estates along the whole coast where everyone basically rents houses so we would all chip in to rent a big house for the week so it wasn’t too expensive (we have a lot of family members lol) and we would just spend our time there <3 san diego is sooo far from me LOL i live across the states from it (i live in the midwest) so i’ve ever only been there once !!!! i understand not having a lot of ‘ocean beaches’ just like u !!!!! however my state is surrounded by 5 massive lakes and i mean MASSIVE (you could consider them oceans since u can’t see across from them and they can produce like 100 ft waves lol we have freighters that ship materials from them) ,,,,,,,,, i might have given away where i am from ;) 

also YES i did a sport all my life up until this year bc my uni scholarship has ended and my career is officially over :’) don’t laugh lol but i bowl !!!!!!!! i know it sounds silly but if you could only see what the collegiate atmosphere is like ,,,,,,, it’s really special :’) i’ve had professional coaching ever sine like the 4th grade and worked my way up to receiving a scholarship so anything that helps me out paying for college is nice hehe ,,,,,,, i have some clips of me bowling on my instagram but if anything i would want to show u privately as opposed to being so public LOL ;____; BUT YEAH that story about my mom :((( when she told me when i was older i really felt so sorry ,,,,,, parents go through it all don’t they?

about the anxiety thing !!!!!!!! honestly for me it’s very burdensome ;___; i worry about it a lot and i know ppl have it much worse than i do but i fear it’s something that will get in the way of reaching my full potential if that makes sense? and like i said i never used to be this way ,,,,,,, it’s definitely bc of nursing school and i’ve had some things happen to me that probably have given me some emotional trauma but i really hope i am able to conquer these feelings in my future somehow :( and it’s definitely added pressure knowing im only 1 of 2 ppl in my entire family who is in the medical field (like i said my cousin is in med school but it’s sooo different , she never had to finish her career in the short amount of time i have HELL this girl won’t even be able to do half the procedures that  do) so her experience is totally different than mine, she can’t relate to me. she also hates nurses lol so ,,,,,,,,,,,,, :/ it’s just a lot to think about i know u must be so annoyed with me saying all of these things :( but i just want everything to work out ; like this whole summer my mom and i have been talking about where i should live after i graduate bc with nursing you can really live anywhere but we were on the topic of DC and i’ve never really thought about living there just bc of the political climate of it all might stress me out lol but one of my close friends was interning there this summer and she was offered a job already and i told her that there was a children’s hospital in DC that’s really good and i was like hey . IF i can actually land a job in the NICU out there do u think u would want to live with me ?? AND IDK i just want everything to work out i really do :( and a couple days ago i asked one of my professors if i could do my preceptorship in the NICU bc she works at a hospital that i was at last semester and if she knew anyone who would be willing to preceptor me and ,,,,,,,, i think that would help me SO much when i graduate with some NICU experience ,,,,,,,,, idk babe ;____; i really appreciate you wanting to talk to your friends to help me out hun :(

but anyways on a lighter subject lol YEAH i got the jo malone perfume ;____; i’ve never been in the actual store before bc in the past they just had their little stand alone counter in our department store bUT GOING IN THERE WAS SO LOVELY and !!!!!!!!! im so obsessed with my scent i picked out !!!!!!!!!! honestly i’ve never heard of bluebells before lol but gosh evey time i put it on its instant serotonin boost ;____; i vibe with it every day !!!!!! i don’t put it on my pillows or anything bc i have an essential oil diffuser in my room lol but it’s totally my jam ......maybe my signature scent ?? i love it so much !!!!! and i think this scent lasts the longest on me but i always can’t really smell it anymore after like 5 hours i would say LOL but that’s just my nose getting used to it ;____; i wish i could smell it on me forever :((((

omg universe app (derogatory) i really am not a fan of the whole thing LO but i do agree they literally went so hard for just one singular song !!!!!!!! and they make me proud and they amaze me with everything they come out with but at some point i’m just not surprised anymore ;____; they’re so so good, they always work hard GOSH i love my monstas ;____; BUT OH MY GOSH WAIT UR COMPANY MIGHT BE DOING SOMETHING WITH KPOP THAT’S LITERALLY SO COOL AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH <3 fingers freaking crossed babe !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i know it’s friday and u said ur wednesdays were always a little busy, how was it this time this week? was it a good busy?? i hope so ;____; but i am doing well bubbie my mom is doing well and i hope nothing but good things happened for u this week hun !!!!!!!!! these are always SO long but i always look forward to them :) kinda like waiting for a present from santa and then opening it to realize it’s so much more than what u have hoped for <3 i hope u have a great weekend full of relaxation and i will be here okay !!!!!! i’ll be better answering next week since i don’t have work <3 I LOVE U THE ABSOLUTE MOST AND HOPE U ARE TAKING CARE MY LOVE !!!!!!!! MWAH MWAH MWAH !!!!!!!!!!!