#new pfp and I can't recognize myself...

[eri-pl]

Some smol Valar

[the-acid-pear]

Just had an insane dream where the two main realities were Me Lost In A Maze and Me Being Socially Awkward On Tumblr.

The Tumblr part was somehow more twisted at turns, because there was this one friend who asked me to make a post of them making a joke implying they're available and then a DIFFERENT mutual and friend asked me about them (being a little, tiny bit racist I think too but not maliciously just in the "I have no clue who this man is why do we need to hook up"). As I tried to blow MYSELF up with my mind another mutual bestie announced he was gonna start playing FNAFB, because for the last 3 nights in a row that game has been in my dreams, and this was no exception. His bit was the most calm no talking to me just gaming also FNAFB which is usually an RPG was now a 3D side scroller with these abstract, simple and natural yet dimly lit areas and huge enemies, which i reasoned with saying "must be the final mix, a lot changed in the remake :)". Also he has changed his pfp but not entirely he just upgraded the model which was so silly and jarring 2 me. There's another occurrence but that happens in the maze.

How I ended in the maze I'm not sure. I remember however I was in this like, starting room, and Golden Freddy's head who threatened me (not w yiffying my dick something less scary) and told me to count the pancakes on a woman's plate. I giggled bc i didn't take him seriously, I didn't take most of this too seriously, maybe I signed up here willingly, and aside from going those are like 8 pancakes aren't they? I asked if she'd be the key to leaving to which he didn't answer but I assumed to be true.

From there I started running down these backroom pools eske places like these long tiled halls with cool blueish lighting. I saw a lot of faces I knew but I can't recognize the main girl who was grabbing me by the wrist and dragging me along. When I think of it too hard I think she might've been me but then it's like no it's someone else I knew this girl idk from WHERE... (Which is a new one I always recognize ppl from my dreams). Also ran into The Milf Indeed but she had no pancakes though I think she was my childhood's bestie milf who I never got over she was such a gorgeous tall woman. Also uh ... Yeah my closest friend from highschool. He was there.

I think it's worth admitting I was getting kinda emotional here despite being forced to run thru these places being held by the wrist and then being given confusing directions like I was in TSP (which I naturally did wrong just like my man 🫡) bc i was like I'm really enjoying my time here with you guys :) they ignored me tho. Anyway after going like "I TRUST MY GUT FEELING MORE THAN Y'ALL" and going down a third door in the middle I ended up in this dark room.

I think the dream transitioned with me going on Tumblr and the above I mentioned happening but when I got out I realized this was some sort of water filtering room? It was kind of ship-like. It's really hard to explain. Like there was this circle in the middle held by these beams (on the floor, all of them) and I think that's where the water came and left. Touched a button on the wall and the water started raising and I freaked out bc this was meant to be a fun game and now I could actually die. I started looking around and found this little contraption that asked for a code OR an USB. Also a little dog was scratched in the USB slot which was cute. But I had NEITHER because I did NOT talk to the milf! And I was SO upset about this like am I going to die now because I soft locked my ass irl?! Like this already seemed to Not be the place I'd be in hence the escape route but I didn't pick it so 💥

So I started looking for ways out and I was gonna cut a cable to put to a phone (a cordless one) but then i realized Hey I Have My Phone I'd Go Ask On Tumblr! And this is where I saw the third mutual but also where the FOURTH comes in after I was like dude I'm stuck on this maze and it's filling with water and I missed the hint can you help me out and give me the code?

And this man was so powerful actually I was physically outside the room and found myself now next to him sitting on a couch. He was wearing this mostly unbuttoned plaid shirt and was double his real size and also hairier. I was eating this pudding like white thing with a very thin and small spoon. He started rambling about telephone car services and then brought up something about his boobs and when he did that I was not eating my pudding but him w my stupid fancy spoon except it has the exact same consistency (also I hesitated at first before actually doing it bc he seemed ok with it) so I kept eating and he kept rambling about god knows what and then at the end (bc i was visualizing all of this but it was actually just an ask he was answering as I was hallucinating this) he was like oh yeah and the code is [word] and suddenly he was intact and I had only been chewing my pudding thing. And I was like THANKS 👍 and left and when I put the code I woke up.

And I woke up an hour later than usual because of this, too.

[bee-saucee]

Fanfic Writing Resolutions 2024

With the start of 2024, I wrote out some of my personal writing goals for the year and thought I would share them with you all! I don't usually make posts like this but I hope I can inspire other writers to make goals for themselves in this next year and have a greater sense of accountability for myself.

Some writing accomplishments from 2023

I learned a lot in 2023 as a fanfic writer and I'm proud of what I did! I deleted my Wattpad to start fresh with a new writing style, posted my first three fics to Ao3, applied to two zines and got accepted as a pinch hitter for one, grew my Tumblr account, started a Twitter, commissioned several artists including my current pfp for a new look, and started writing more consistently again!

This post is pretty long so here's the short list:

Create and refine a writing process to have a written process outline that makes writing simpler

Watch a video and take notes on a writing topic at least once a month centering predominantly on craft but also on storytelling

Apply to at least two zines

Post on Tumblr every other week

Build out my Twitter

Keep better track of my writing habits 

Bring fun back into the writing process

1. Create and refine a writing process to have a written process outline that makes writing simpler

When I refer to my "writing process" in this goal, I'm talking about 1) my outlining process and 2) what goes on off of the page such as how often, when, and where I'm writing.

To address the outlining portion of this goal, I plan to intentionally try out different outlining methods. My balance of plotting and pantsing is off but I can't find that balance until I just try stuff out! I want to try a lot of existing outlining methods and hopefully combine the facets that I like about various methods I've tried over the course of the year to get a mix that is tailored to me and how I like to write. I think it is also important to think out and write down the outlining methods I try so I can replicate or change my process iteratively. I've found that not having a outlining process that makes writing easy and enjoyable for me is the biggest reason why I've started and dropped so many projects this year!

Regarding the off the page process, consistency is my main goal. I just kind of squeeze in writing whenever I can or feel like it but that means that writing has often fallen off my radar. I want to set up specific times to write every day, but to be frank, I'm not sure when or how the best way for me is to write as I haven't experienced next semester's schedule or my post-college routine at all! I'm fine going with the flow on this one, but again, I've gotta be intentional about it.

2. Watch a video and take notes on a writing topic at least once a month centering predominantly on craft but also on storytelling

I've been writing stories ever since I was a kid but this year is really the first time I'm trying to do it more seriously. My public school and even college education has not fully equipped me to write creatively so I recognize that I have to learn about all of the parts of creative writing I don't know!

3. Apply to at least two zines

Contributing to zines have always been a super big dream of mine so I will keep on monitoring upcoming zines and hopefully find two I can apply for this year! Getting accepted isn't even the goal for me, I think that there is a lot to learn in the application process itself and I can't get accepted to a zine unless I try!

4. Post on Tumblr every other week

It's really important for me to build out my social media presence but I also value the lower stakes creative fun I have on Tumblr! So the goal is to write in a chill manner as I currently do for Tumblr and grow my reach at the same time! I just love making people smile with my stories.

I think the best way for me to post consistently on Tumblr is to introduce writing warm up exercises into my writing routine and share them on Tumblr. I can also use extra time that I have on breaks to stock up a bunch of Tumblr posts I can share in the future.

5. Build out my Twitter

I don't get Twitter at all and I'm not a super big fan of it but this is such a big space for the bnha fandom! I think I definitely am holding myself back particularly when it comes to zine applications by not having a Twitter presence. So I hope to not only understand twitter but post at least once a week and retweet or comment on posts at least every other day.

6. Keep better track of my writing habits 

Both when I write consistently and inconsistently, I wish that I kept better track of how I spend my writing time because it is so precious. I want to use the often limited time that I have to work on the projects I truly want/need to work on. I'm thinking that logging what I write through Google Calendar could be easy and effective, but we'll see!

7. Bring fun back into the writing process

When I've tried to focus more on "professionalism" and "writing well" I sucked all of the fun out of writing and I basically stopped for a year or two. I don't want that to happen to me again because writing is so therapeutic to me so I'm going to focus on editing less for craft and instead keep my eye on the concepts and feelings behind what I write.

Writing is so so hard but I think that fanfiction is such a beautiful and powerful form of creation. I hope that I can keep up with these goals to continue to participate in this creative process that I have come to love dearly and make more content that brings a smile to people's faces.

Thanks for reading! Check out my masterlist for more.

[wellhalesbells]

I hadn't realized you changed your pfp and I was SO CONFUSED like WHO IS THIS IN MY NOTIFS and then I was like ahh ok name hasn't changed I got this, haha, I'll send a note about how off my rocker I was for a second but I've been using the "tumblr unfucker" for months now so when I clicked to your profile, I thought I somehow got... redirected... to... your.... TWITTER??? Do Not Want but no it's just tumblr being tumblr(TM). 😭

I HAVE RUINED LIVES, this has been made clear to me, lolololol. I didn't really intend to change my avatar. Somehow in my brain, I was like: oh, this is just for mobile, not for the whole thing and no. That was not true even a little and I have no idea where that original image exists now - I know it's somewhere and I'll have to dig and I am just.... entirely too lazy to do it. Which means - GREAT NEWS - I don't recognize myself on my dash anymore and constantly am like: did I see this already? I should reblog this? ...... I have reblogged this. This is me. Good news, self, we're still into the same stuff but also.... not as smart as we thought.

Also. Can't figure out how to get rid of the tweeter bird as the image for my homepage. No idea. I like the rest of the theme, especially since I left Twitter because it's a wreck of a thing, so it's like nostalgia without having to be on a site run by a capricious billionaire. But yeah. The bird has won. I can't find it and I'm pretty sure, even if I could, it would defeat me regardless.

[dailybotany]

Thank u for ur blog : ) My dashboard was severely lacking in plants. Do you have some favorite plants? Either specific species or families or maybe just broad groups like conifers, aquatic plants, succulents and all that. I'm assuming Larix are one of them?

Thank you for following!! I'm so happy that people are excited to see more plants on their dash :D

Oh boyyy. What a question, ye gods. I think what it comes down to for me is that I pour a lot of energy into plants (and other organisms tbh) that don't get a lot of love/attention otherwise? So while I absolutely am not immune to charismatic megaflora (trust me--thinking for too long about getting to see redwoods and Joshua trees makes me genuinely tear up) I tend to put a lot of my energy into the little guys that are overlooked, either by a lack of research on the species/group or a general lack of affection from plant enthusiasts.

So I am absolutely entranced by woodland understory plants and by grasses, sedges, and rushes (so much fun to ID, I swear to god). Mosses get a little too small for me, but that's mostly because my hands shake too much for microscopy. I love weeds and nuisance plants. And while I can't say I get the same rush of joy on seeing them, I am fascinated by invasives (and by how and why we categorize plants as invasive or not--but that's a whole separate thing!).

Ultimately, my favorite plants are the ones that I know the best--the ones I grew up with and the ones I've only gotten to know recently, the ones I've conducted research on myself and the ones I've never gotten to work with. My favorite plants are the ones that I could recognize anywhere and that I have fun facts, qualities and characters locked and loaded on.

Familiarity breeds fondness, and the thing that excites me the most about going into botany as a field is that I will never know every one of them. There will always be new faces for me to learn, new ways of life to explore. My favorite plants are the plants I will learn tomorrow.

So TLDR, I can't pick at all and have way more thoughts and feelings about plants than I have words or time xD

P.S. Larix is definitely one that I love, but I'm gonna be honest: I picked it as my profile pic because I'd just taken a really nice picture of some new cones last week. So it became my first Plant of the Day post, because it seemed fitting to make a post about my pfp (and because I was struggling to pick!).

[jpn-langblr]

get to know me real quick

Well, @aro-langblr put one of these up and invited anyone who felt like filling the prompts out to do so, and I thought y'know, it's been a little while since I put up some sort of get-to-know me thing, so here's me answering these!

Why did you choose your url? because this is a Japanese langblr and it was available!

Any side blogs? this is one! my main is @maybesteverogers, so if you see that in your notifs, that's me. apart from that, I got @smilepng (aesthetic/happy place), @dungeon-apprentice (D&D) and @readingsometimes (bookblr; very slow)

How long have you been on Tumblr? since early 2013. kill me now

Do you have a queue tag? yup! it's "キュー"

Why did you start your blog in the first place? made this langblr at the same time I started uni as a way to stay motivated and encourage myself to revise Japanese.

Why did you choose your icon/pfp? @papbricot made it for me as a gift! it's a reference to my previous url, uni-venture. unsure what to do about it when I eventaully finish uni...

Why did you choose your header? Japan scenery pretty

What’s your post with the most notes? this april fool's post from three years ago

How many mutuals do you have? 11, just counted

How many followers do you have? been sitting comfortably at 4k+ for some years now. I'd probably be at 5k if I weren't so liberal with the block button. it's really cool, there are a handful of urls in my notifs I can recognize even from when this blog was super new in 2016 - you guys are pretty cool <3

How many people do you follow? 359. damn, I should thin out this list. now 249! never too late to spring clean

Have you ever made a shitpost? see question 8

Did you ever have a fight/argument with another blog once? some people got big mad at me a number of years ago because I made a list of English words I felt were so poetic and obscure that perhaps there were other, more commonly used and easily understandable synonyms you could choose when writing academically. to facilitate understanding and all

How do you feel about “you need to reblog this” posts? sends a big "I don't think I can't argue well enough for my cause to convince anyone so instead I'm going to try to guilt trip you" signal. I deliberately don't reblog them.

Do you like tag games? most of the time!

Do you like ask games? also most of the time. I don't like them if they're overly long - 20 prompts is more than enough

Which of your mutuals do you think is Tumblr famous? none! i'm not mutuals with any Tumblr famous people haha

Do you have a crush on a mutual? nah, I've never understood that tbh. like, I don't know anyone here well enough to have a crush?

I tag: ya, gonna leave this open to anyone who feels like it as well~