#never thought I'd panic over the colour of fucking heart emojis until she sent me a YELLOW ONE

[lunmelia]

I dont even watch spn nor in extension do i ship destiel (bc not in the fandom itself, you can clearly see from my blog xD) but bro when I saw that scene abt Cas confessing and I thought to myself "damn sounds like something i wld say to my friend" and thats how The Scene made me have existential crisis over my feelings for my friend and thus made me realise shit I do love *love* him after all and even I didnt notice it. Idk what i was going for here i am currently just hoping yall get ur ending

Hey! Sorry for the late response, been busy with a short course but I didn’t forget about you. I’m going into what I liked to call “spoiler lockdown” tomorrow, wherein I will be completely off any form of social media for two days to avoid spoilers for the finale. I live in Australia so the episode comes out on Friday night for me, but spoilers start circling around on Thursday, so, completely offline for two days. So here’s me replying before I shut myself off from the world. 

Anyways! I’m gonna be real with you for a quick sec. You should say something. Take it from someone who had a crush on one of her best friends but never said anything, you gotta say something. I mean with me it wasn’t a “oh shit think I’m in love with her” thing it was more a “I wonder what it would be like to date her” thing so it wasn’t too serious, but there was a lot of wondering and at least one time where I almost kissed her. The friendship and feelings dissipated, we’re currently trying to get back to the friendship we had, but dude it’s so annoying to have that “what if” constantly in the back of your head. So take it from someone who didn’t say anything, you should definitely say something. 

It really is better to be honest about these kinds of things. You don’t want to regret not saying anything like I do. It’s really annoying. So my advice, if you’re looking for it idk you can tell me to shut up but just in case, my advice would be to sit him down and just be honest. Tell him what you’re feeling, give him time to process and ask him how he feels about this (don’t just shove him out of the way three seconds later and get sucked into a gooey black void like Cas), and together you can work out where to go from there. Whether you both want to see where a romantic relationship can take you, or if you have to... work your feelings back into the platonic type of love. From someone who had to do the latter out of necessity (because she got a boyfriend just as I started going “jeez maybe I should say something”) it is possible. Just a bit awkward for a bit. But whatever happens, it’s going to be okay. 

I wish you the best of luck with this. If you ever need to talk more about this to someone, my inbox is always open. Trust me I know how goddamn annoying it is to want to talk about your crush but you can’t because the one person you want to talk about it to is your crush!? UGH. So yes my inbox is always open. 

Serious talk over...

lmaooo yeah who the fuck knows what’s going to happen JHGKJHSKGHSKD dude I want it to happen but I’m starting to have serious doubts and you know what? I prefer the doubt over the hope. At least I won’t be disappointed if nothing happens. 

If nothing happens though this will be the... greatest queerbaiting story in the history of queerbaiting. How fucking amazing (sarcastically) would it be for them to queerbait these two for years, LET ONE OF THEM SAY I LOVE YOU, then NOT let it happen SHDGHSDJKGHDASDF god I’m gonna be so pissed. But not really at the show? I’m gonna be more pissed at the network. Because the writers, the actors, the fans can want something but the network always has the final say. You know, they have to get approval for brains on the ceiling. If the network says no, it’s not going to happen. To have gotten Castiel saying “I love you” directly to Dean, we are extremely fucking lucky. Realistically, I’m not expecting anything. 

Unrealistically? GOD I HOPE THEY REUNITE AND DEAN SAYS IT BACK SJKDHGSHDGHADJKGH