#never thought I'd ever get inspiration for a 6th chapter

[decembercamiecherries]

Ao3 Tags: Modern/High School AU, Soulmates

Chapter 6 title: Looking Ahead

Chapter 6 word count: 1,406 –> Total word count: 13,384

Chapter 6 Summary:

"The soul is a bigger mystery than the brain or ocean or even space. There are theories about how and why soulmates exist, but not much else. Like, here—” Killua points to a textbook a few steps away, “—this author suggests soulmates are people who died together in a previous life. They claim souls that enter the afterlife together return to the world permanently linked.”

Gon shudders, squeezing Killua as if trying to meld them together. “I don’t like that. I don’t want to picture you dying in any life.”

An image comes to Killua—Gon laid out limp and lifeless on a white hospital bed, withered away and struggling to breathe—and his blood runs cold.

“No,” Killua chokes out. “Me, neither.”

[trollocks-in-my-bollocks]

20 Questions about writing 2.0

A while ago @lavendelhummel tagged me in her ask post and I want to make a point about my ability to actually react to stuff in a timely manner (rip). I worked a 12h shift today and with an addled brain (edit: lol I haven't managed to post this from the drafts in two days), I'm doing this. This is fun, we are going to have fun now.

1. How many works do you have on ao3?

Officially five. Unofficially there's a secret 6th one.

2. What’s your total ao3 word count?

68,919 words, most of it was written in 2022 when I had a weird year. The country next to us was being invaded by another, people who I'd thought would know better just went fully insane, I felt isolated and I needed escapism. Then next year I moved to a farm in Italy for a month, then to another country to do research for half a year through a dark slavic winter, so being alone was a theme and I was writing most of my fics in those periods when I had no family or social life, just quiet nights and my laptop.

3. What fandoms do you write for?

The Wheel of Time, my plots are spoilery and most of my stories are about the gap between NS and TEOTW or set after TMOL.

4. What are your top five fics by kudos?

Born from Dark Water -- (The Cute One)

2. Dark Matter // Trip Through the Ways -- (The Kinky One)

3. Winternight's Tales -- (a series of short stories with a Moiraine/Birgitte threat in the background, a sort of AMOL fix-it)

4. Rain -- (the Entai One)

5. Il vento non era l'inizio -- (The One Written In Italian People Still Left Kudos On???)

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

I receive the best comments and nearly always reply but sometimes when someone says something incredibly nice I take several days or weeks to reply because I don't want to ruin the impression my fic left in them with an inadeqate reply. I know it's silly.

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

I'm not willing to write angsty endings, we have the source material for that. If I need to choose it would be Il vento non era l'inizio because it's a story about Moiraine leaving Siuan behind in Tar Valon and she's accidentally making it snow (sad cloud dancer moment).

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Dark Matter // Trip Through the Ways has the most optimistic ending compared to were the story is coming from.

8. Do you get hate on fic?

Not really. Someone once freaked out a bit because my characters didn't cuddle but that was more on the entertaining side.

9. Do you write smut?

I try but light knows I'm so bad at it. I probably shouldn't be allowed to write wlw scenes but who else will write that specific story then?? the ethernal conflict.

10. Do you write crossovers?

No :(

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

I think it's natural for this fandom to have this collective meta lore that evolves with time (e.g. we all think it was Siuan who taught Moiraine fishing with her powers) and people take inspiration from this collective pool, it can't be always traced back who had a certain idea first. That being said, I often start my chapters explaining in a short note which author inspired certain characterisations or ideas in my story, just to be fair and mostly because I'm obsessed with these fanworks and I want them to be read and cherished.

I did experience a certain author 'borrowing' very specific world-building elements from me. I didn't really mind it but they could have left notes, kudos or comments or something on the fic they were borrowing from, it wasn't really elegant this way.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

Not to my knowledge, but writing them is already a translation process (pain).

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

No but it would be so motivating to do that.

14. What’s your all-time favorite ship?

Well, Moiraine and the Green Man of course. Siuanraine but I'm not good at writing them so I just binge other authors' stories.

While they never meet in the books, I'm obsessed with Birgitte/Moiraine and how well they could understood each other's pain. I'm actually so obsessed that I have written 37,229 words about the topic. (Most of it is just post-TMOL fix it, they only meet in the last few chapters of the story)

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but probably won’t?

Probably the secret one. Also I always think that the next chapter would be the final one for Winternight's Tales and then the story just takes a turn at its own will.

16. What are your writing strengths?

My worldbuilding and the way I'm writing platonic relationships, probably. I think I'm good at writing entai as well :DDD.

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

The Sex Scenes and my dialogues.. Also I'm writing these long sentences and it's so hard to change that habit.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

I'm constantly writing dialogues in another language. It's hard.

19. First fandom you wrote for?

I've written a ballad for the Stargate fandom in my native tongue when I was a teenager. I got a comment on it on ff.net after I graduated from my bachelors but I was so happy about it :D

20. Favourite fic you’ve written?

Dark Matter // Trip Through the Ways, I laughed so much when I was writing this one.

I'm going to be a creep and just tag the writers here I sort of know and like so much, @lakeofsilverpike @asuitablegirl96, @gabolange @woodytwig @onaperduamedee @poohsticksbridge, @thatordinaryoddity but no pressure!

[willinglyghoulified]

List 5 things that make you happy, then put this in the askbox for the Last 10 people Who reblogged something from you. Learn about your mutuals and followers. 🎠 But only if you want to, just have fun! 💖💖

Awe thank you!~ I love this sm! Answers are gonna get long-winded though T_T

5 Things That Make Me Happy:

Positive Feedback - has to be on the top of my list because this absolutely does breathe life into me. I started writing in the first place to make people happy. I do it because I love it and I want to share that love with others. I want to be the writer that makes people look forward to getting off work to read that new chapter or the reason they stayed up a little too late because they just had to know what happened next. I want my stories to be someone else's escape. And maybe one day, I'll be on their bookshelves, too. ♥

Genuine Friendships - they're so important to me. I'm someone who has very few friends and even fewer family, so if you're close to me, it means something. I'm all about chosen family, and it often reflects in my writing (one of my fav main characters has a tendency to adopt lonely misfits). With my friends, we're either just acquaintances or you're my goddamn sibling, there's really no in between, which is both a good and a bad quality trait.

Fucking Fallout - because it's the most immersive game I've ever played. I know a lot of the games get some hate throughout the fandom, but I genuinely love every installment that they come up with, because it continues the story. Even with all its flaws, I love all of 1, 2, 3, 4, NV, and 76. I'm more partial to 4 because I relate more to their characters, but NV had the superior storyline. ♥ I literally cannot get this game or these characters out of my head.

BTS - Okay hear me out on this one: I know BTS is a stereotypical K-Pop band, but I seriously love them as people. I don't like K-Pop normally, as a genre. I listened to "emo music" growing up (I was born in 1993 so the 2000s was where my favorite music really lied). I was also a troubled kid and I brought a lot of those insecurities and trauma to my adulthood, and my old bands just wasn't doing it anymore. The memories of teen angst mostly stressed me out. But then I found BTS, and their music and messages helped me SO MUCH as a young adult, well into later adulthood (I'm 29 now). I absolutely love them, and they make me happy with their genuine care and messages. Those 7 boys are some of my biggest inspirations in life, reminding me that I can do anything if I try hard enough. But you will NEVER catch me mixing my love for BTS with the Fallout stuff on this blog. I've noticed that liking K-Pop is a quick way to catch hate, so I keep my obsession with them to myself. I'm okay with that; I've done it for the last six years.

My Husband - as cheesy as it is to say, I have the best husband I could have asked for. STORY TIME: I met him in Kindergarten, and he was always getting me in trouble by making me laugh and the teacher kept telling us to be quiet. She had to separate us. I had a crush on him in 2nd grade. Then we didn't see each other again until middle school. We had gym class together in 6th grade. In 8th grade, we became best friends. He dated a friend of ours in 9th, and I thought that would help me get rid of the feelings I had for him because I was terrified I'd ruin our friendship if I made a move. It didn't work out between him and our friend, but he told me in 10th grade that he liked me a lot, and we really understood each other. (Honestly it "helped" that we both came from troubled/broken families and were both below poverty level.) When we got together, we were each other's first EVERYTHING. We were together all throughout high school with no complications, and our peers deemed us worthy of being prom king and queen in 12th grade even though we were the nerds who oftentimes got bullied. It was so surreal. We moved in together after high school. We went through a loooooot of bullshit. Being kicked out of houses, losing jobs, losing family members (deaths and otherwise) and we're pretty much inseparable now. We've been together for 14 years. He's supportive in everything I do, even if he doesn't always understand my obsessions. He believes in me. He knows I'm not going to thank him for doing the bare minimum (respecting me, listening to me, helping me, not expecting me to mother him, etc). He genuinely fucking loves me. And he's pretty damn handsome and funny, too. Icing on the cake. And after losing all the people that we have over the years, we're pretty much all that we've got left. But I wouldn't choose to live this life with anyone else.

[beskarberry]

Holy schnikes batman! It's been a WHOLE YEAR since I wrote Bargaining with Beskar?!

I never ever EVER imagined that my writing blog would take off like it did. When I wrote that first chapter on January 6th, 2021, I thought it was going to get drowned out by much more popular fics, washed away to the annuls of tungler never to be seen again. And that was ok by me, because I wrote it in a frantic haze at 3am because I was literally too horny to sleep and I had to DO something!!

Then I got a couple of reblogs, and some comments, and some followers that are still with me to this day that inspired me to add on to that first chapter (as well as FANART holy shitballs of hell!!), and the rest is history. 152k words and 5 months later I finished(?) that monstrosity on a high and hopeful note because it helped me get through some seriously tough times of my own.

Since the completion of BwB, I've gone on to write various other works for Pedro Pascal's characters, and though I can't thank the man personally for what he's done for me as a creator, I CAN thank the fandom for accepting me into their welcome arms, even when I started dragging eggs and tentacles through the doors...

This fandom, the Mando fandom and the PP fandom, and all the fandoms that are interlinked throughout, has introduced me to some of the most amazing, wonderful, creative, captivating, spellbinding, awe-inspiring, and downright FILTHIEST people I have ever had the absolute pleasure of getting to be friends with!!!

So from the bottom of my heart, I want to say thank you to everyone who came aboard the BwB starship with me, and thank you to those who came later when I started writing other fics and characters.

I also want to thank those who became inspired by my writing to go on to do writing of their own, to write the things they thought nobody would want to read or never thought they could be brave enough to write. And those who were inspired to draw art based on my fics as well! Some of you I have printed out hanging on my walls, but all of you I have saved in a personal folder that I have set as my computer desktop, so I see your art all the time! I love so much :3

This community has grown to be such an integral part of my life, and I was never much of a fandom person until you guys dragged me in here (affectionate) and I can confidently say that I have made lifelong friends because of it!

I work some pretty difficult hours at the hospital, sometimes 70-90 hours at a time, so getting content made and posted has been a real challenge for me, and I want you all to know how much I appreciate not only the people who are still following me, but also those that ARE capable of creating regular content! Thank you for being there when I could not, making amazing stories and fantastic works of art for me to enjoy and love!!

For my writers birthday, all I want is for all the wonderful creators in this fandom to know they're loved and appreciated, and if you want to send me an ask/tag me in something that deserves recognition, I'd love to promote it!

Thank you, I love you all!! Smooches and snooches 😘

Taglist

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