#neither of my sisters are like this. I'm uniquely a fucking curse.

[exculis]

Really wish my parents would just like. Check me into a mental hospital and then move to another state and never look back. I deserve to be rejected. I don't belong in a group. I don't want them to keep taking care of me. And I can't experience fucking anything without making it all about me and how I'm the world's biggest piece of shit. Why do any of them want to be around me. Why don't they just say it with their whole chest that they want me gone. Why don't they want me gone.

It's impossible to even count the number of times I have royally fucked someone over. The number of times I've needlessly endangered people. If I really cared about any of them I'd stay the fuck away from them but I'm too selfish to even do that. In 2025 I seriously need to get off the zoloft and get on my local train tracks and lie down and wait.

Change is impossible. I need to be removed from the situation.

[sillylittleguy420]

I'm not usually someone who indulges in crackships - I'm a vanilla motherfucker really and truly, but if there's ONE crackship that I'm ride or die for, it's without a fucking doubt ShinoMaki. Their personalities mesh extremely well, they'd bounce off each other extraordinarily: the Trauma bonding, the banter, the intense training sessions - like this is some primo stuff, I'm genuinely surprised there isn't already a fic about it, I'm probably gonna have to write it myself. Even in a purely platonic sense I think they'd be tight as hell - they both desperately need that support network that really only the other can provide? Even if it'd take a while for both of them to get to that point - even if it has to be forced by some event out of their hands, after that point they'd be thick as thieves. Like they line-up so well, it's unbelievable. Having someone to talk with that can truly and genuinely understand your plight is a blessing - like it's good when people listen, even if they don't understand; but it's that solidarity that forges that bond in fire, even if it's unspoken - which it likely would be with these two. . . And Jesus Christ these motherfuckers need it so badly. God put them in two different franchises because they'd be an unstoppable duo.

Edit: To add onto this - genuinely? There's a lot there - Even aside from the obvious Dead Sister angst, there's the "Having to push yourself harder than everyone else due to your horrific limitations" thing. Sure, Maki's a physical beast thanks to the Heavenly Restriction, but having a fat goose egg for Cursed Energy is still one hell of a hurdle to jump through, and it clearly earns her no respect - And Shinobu had to crawl and gnaw her way up to the top lacking the simple ability to cut off a head, and it clearly BOTHERS her.

I want you to put yourself in both of their shoes - god especially SHINOBU?? Maki's got swagger, she's got confidence, raw hands? She's beating everyone's ass - but Shinobu? Girl is surrounded by super human freaks - comparatively she's normal? Imagine having to stab someone's vitals and poison them to kill a bitch, meanwhile Captain Ball and Chain (Who you respect deeply) can turn a Demon into fine dust by flexing at them. They're both surrounded by exceptional talent, and they're lacking something crucial - although both at the Pinnacle despite it. The Dead Sister things? Other people they KNOW can relate to that, but being """genetically inferior?""" Getting to the top via raw talent despite the overwhelming disadvantages and being faced with even higher peaks you'll never reach because of circumstances out of your control? That's something very unique to them, and neither really have anyone to relate with or understand on that level.

Edit:Edit: because I can't stop myself apparently: I think the beauty of the dynamic...romantic or not is that STRONG foundation of solidarity and even acceptance - of looking out for someone who is just like you. Looking in the mirror and having that strong urge to help your reflection in a way you wish you could help yourself. Shinobu insisting, Maki chastising, both of them saying they don't need help but the other refusing to hear it. The rock and the hard place smashing into each other and actually cracking a bit.

I could honestly go on about this for hours, shit I might. This is one of the my five crackships for a reason, it's good soul healing shit.