#natashaspencers

[natashaspencers]

natalie dormer, queer, female + she/her ― hey look, it’s natasha spencer! they’re thirty-five years old, they’ve lived in shrike heights for eight months, and they’re currently working as legal counsel for the mall. i heard they’re pretty uptight, but i think they’re so caring at the same time. can they make it out alive?

for more context, visit blake’s intro !

tw under the cut: mental illness, divorce, parental death, domestic abuse

> nat had always been the most practical member of the spencer family. even her parents were a bit ditzy at times, the two of them caught up in the glitz and glamor of los angeles. nat was much more realistic in her expectations for her life, not believing that romance was as perfect as her parents made it seem nor that she would end up rich and famous like them. she wanted to have a simple life, a quiet job, and to use her mind in new and challenging ways. 

> she was old enough to see how her mother’s mental health declining though not old enough to help. it made natasha feel useless, helpless and trapped in place. her parents’ marriage fell apart in real time for natasha, and after her mother left, she withdrew even more. practicality. reality. that was what would keep her safe. 

> when it came time for her to go to college, she went to northwestern university, just outside of chicago, and far from her family’s public life and the never ending grind of living in los angeles, she found herself. she no longer felt like the weird one in the family, the one with her feet planted firmly on the ground rather than floating in the clouds. she excelled at school, and she made time to call her family every weekend and talk to her younger siblings. her dad, she could go without—and the wounds in their relationship would forever go unhealed. 

> she was in her second year at law school when she got the call about her father. already worried, the tragedy at jonestown only left her more confused and scared. losing her parents had left her with mixed feelings—her resentment for her lost childhood to their marital problems didn’t quite outweigh the grief, but it came close. all she knew was that she wasn’t going to let her siblings go into foster care, so she dropped out of law school, got a job as a waitress, and took them in. 

> nat wanted to be the parents to her siblings that her parents had never been for her—she waited on them hand and foot, giving up the rest of her life to make sure that they made it through high school and college, doing whatever was needed to make sure they were healthy and as happy as they could be in the wake of such a tragedy. 

> once they had graduated high school and nat no longer needed to keep such a close eye on them, she went back to law school. that was where she met her future husband. she rushed into the marriage too quickly; she’d never had a serious relationship and she was desperate for someone to help her shoulder the incredible burdens that had been placed on her. archer, her husband, proved to be nothing more than a lying scoundrel who liked to solve disagreements with yelling and a closed fist rather than a clear and rational discussion. 

> she stayed for what now seems like far too long, looking back. she divorced her husband last year and moved out to shrike heights to be close to her siblings. a well-paying job at the new shrike mall couldn’t hurt either, though she has certainly had her work cut out for her in the legal department. 

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nat is @natashaspencers and felix is @felixcarter !!

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