#my uni's comics library might have copies of some of them but that would really only be accessible to me and people at my uni

[monsterhugger]

i'm considering typing up my BL Research into a more tumblr-friendly format i feel like ppl might enjoy reading it

[knjredwluv]

Red. [1]

Red (n.)

Red could signify the color of love, passion, determination, and strength. Red could also signify blood, fire, war, desire and energy. Red is an emotionally intense color.

Title: Red

Words: 4.7k

AU: Yandere/Obssessive relationship 

Characters: Jungkook x Reader. Hoseok x Reader. OT7.

Warnings: 17+ explicit language, angst!angst!angst!, slight implications of smut, some fluff and soft moments (super fucking sappy), noona kink (if you squint reaaaaally hard), yandere/obsessive relationship (this isnt a healthy relationship and i dont promote any of this), mentions of killing, hallucinations, has very descriptive angst!!

Summary: “After the things that happened, you decided to start anew. Everything was how you thought it would be; it was simple but perfect–until you saw your name on a black envelope. Out of curiosity, you opened it; and now, you wish you didn’t.”

LIST FOR RED

CHAPTER 1

You held your phone to your ear using your shoulder. You huffed as you tried to multi-task being on the phone, walking to class and carrying a shoulder bag, laptop, books and a cup of coffee in your arms. “Can you please just do it? I have to head back to Jimin’s because he left his wallet.”

“____, as much as I love you, I will not go to your brother’s house without you. You know the look he gives me for being with you already– and you want me to go there to drop off your boxes for you.” You chuckled as he rambled and emphasized on the task you requested him to do.

“Babe, that’s just how he looks at everyone, okay? And plus, you’re bigger than him. I remember having a man for a boyfriend not a baby.” you giggle as you teased him.

“For fucks sake, ____, Your brother is a fucking cop. He looks like he hates me and he is a licensed official who can put me behind bars for, I don’t know, laughing at you when you do some stupid shit” You laugh at this because you know you’re one hell of a klutz.

“I’ll give you a blowjob if you do it” You whispered into the phone, nonchalantly. As expected, there is a small pause until you heard a groan.

“Fine, I’ll do it. You owe me big time, baby girl.”

You ended the call and texted your brother saying that Jungkook is heading over to drop off your things for your parents.

—

Bro

[12:34] Y/N: yoon

[12:34] Y/N: Jk is heading over there to bring my stuff

[12:35] Y/N: u home right?

[12:37] Bro: Nah

[12:37] Bro: not home work called but Mina is home she shuld be awake

[12:38] Y/N: Mkay ill tell him

[12:40] Bro: 👍🏻

—

Jeon♡

[12:45] Y/N: Hes not home but Mina is

[12:47] Jeon♡: Ok yessssss

[12:47] Jeon♡: but im still expecting something 👀

[12:47] Y/N: fck outta here jeon and do what u gotta do

[12:47] Jeon♡: Damn ok live u

[12:47] Jeon♡: love*** ♥️♥️

[12:48] Y/N: 🥰 love you 2

—

You shoved your phone in your bag and walked to the library. The weather was really nice. it complimented how you were dressed up for today.

Thank God, it was just for today.

Your Art Club meeting is really gonna screw you up. You really hope you ace this meeting since you stayed up all night making the power point. You’re also drowning yourself in caffeine and hoping it doesn’t spill on your new blouse. The branded shirt costed you more than your monthly grocery; and it’s not like you find it a hassle to be stylish but it’s definitely something different. It’s way different than the go-to vans and a pair of jeans with the Uni’s hoodie. Oh how you wished that’s what you were wearing right now.

After the meeting, you walked up the steps and opened the door to the University’s library. You were greeted by Namjoon, who was on his way out.

“Hey, ____. What brings you here? It isn’t Thursday today, is it?” He asked you casually while checking his Gold Casio watch. Namjoon is used to your frequent visits to the library. After working in the library for 4 out of 5 years of his Uni life, he’s accustomed to seeing you on the same desk, at the second floor, by the window. Sometimes, you’re caught doing homework, checking out Literature books or books of Art History, or probably just reading a comic book or webtoon that Jungkook told you about.

“Oh no, It’s Tuesday but I just needed to catch up with some work” accidentally bumping your elbow to the door causing you to almost drop your books but luckily, Namjoon’s instincts were fast. You quietly thanked him. “I got math to do”

“Well then,” He turned and waved “Ms. Ryu is expecting me. Good luck with math”

“Alrightie, see ya”

You walked to your usual spot and placed your laptop on the desk. You opened it and typed in the password. You grinned at the screensaver.

Oh god, it never fails to make you smile.

It was a screenshotted picture of Jungkook with ice cream of his face on your second date. It was a funny memory if you recall what happened.

“Stopppp, you’re going too hard. I might fly up” You said giggling and holding on the seesaw like it meant your life depended on it. Technically, it kind of did.

“Okay okay, i’m sorry” he said laughing at how you looked.

Both of you continued using the seesaw while casually talking about nonsense like what if aliens came and decided to rule Earth or if there was a zombie apocalypse, what you would do.

“Now that I think about it, I would find it weird that there’s two grown adults using a seesaw and eating ice cream– BUT CUTE” saying it with emphasis.

“Your right, it’s not something you see everyday” He shrugged and laughed and went back to lick his ice cream.

“Yeah, you don’t see muscle pig tatted good looking e-boy eating ice cream while using a seesaw, everyday” You teasingly said.

“What was that?” He said looking at you. You knew that he heard because his ears were starting to turn red but it didn’t stop his lips altering to a smile hearing the compliment. It was probably even boosting his ego hearing that the girl he likes called him good looking. He knew that and he always, mentally, thanked his parents and the Man above for mixing his genes well.

“Huh?” biting your lip, smiling and trying not to laugh “Oh nothing” shaking your head. You took out your phone to take a snapchat video of him holding onto the seesaw with his ice cream cone on the other hand.

He urged you to repeat it, not because of what you said, but because of how the blush crept up your face as you said it. He noticed how red your cheeks has gotten and how you adorable it is to see you this flustered.

“Say it” he whined, exaggerating the act knowing that he was being recorded. He bounced a little hard on the seesaw which caused you to jump a little. He smirked at your shocked look.

“Hmm, You wanna play that game huh?” Still taking a video, you playfully copied what he did to you which caused him to jump a little forward and the ice cream on his hand, now on the ground. His chin and mouth covered in with the dessert and his black shirt having evidence of the incident.  

“Awwww Jungkook, I’m sorry” You cooed and pouting at him. You couldn’t help but giggle at the sight in front of you as you walked towards him, zooming into his face. He had a fake pout and a slight smile. Putting your phone at the back of your pocket, you took the napkin from around your cone and started to wipe his chin.

“I’m so sowwyyy”

He stared at you mischievously. You glanced into his eyes and continued to wipe his chin. He pulled your wrist down and held the sides of your face and gave you a peck on the lips. You gasp at the sudden kiss but also the feeling of the sticky sugar treat around your mouth.

“It’s okay, now we’re even” He said laughing at you, with the little pout on your face.

You smile at the memory. It reminds you how lucky you got when meeting Jungkook because not only is he caring, smart and loving, he can also be a dickhead who doesn’t take people’s shit. The duality, right? But hey, with the exception of your brother, Yoongi. He kind of isn’t ashamed to admit to you that your brother is quite intimidating and, sometimes, scare him. You’re pretty sure your brother also enjoys seeing Jungkook shit his pants whenever he sees him. His career choice, of being a police officer just adds up to the thrill of it. Although, Jungkook could be a bit younger than you, it doesn’t stop Yoongi from being protective of you. But that’s only if he is judging based on façade. Besides, he’s known Jungkook for long enough to know that he’s a keeper.

The loud sound of a book falling by the computer area brought you back to reality. You sighed and took out your math handout and begin on working out the problems.

“Now back to this shit.” You muttered. You didn’t mind doing your assignments and homework but what really irked you is that your professor never collects it. It was just the usual. He gives out assignments, expects you to do them and then pop quiz at the end of the month.

Taking a break, you leaned back into the chair and took a sip of the ice coffee you brought. You looked around while stretching and cracked your joints. It sent you a wave of relief throughout your body after solving, for God knows how long, algebra equations. You checked your phone and realized you’ve been sitting down, doing your work for 47 mins.

You stared out the window enjoying the scenery of the field and the school’s garden. What caught your eye is a group walking to the parking lot, but in this group you saw someone who thought would be familiar. You tilted your head trying to identify this person. It made you move closer to the window and you sat there with your chin on your hand, squinting your eyes for better focus. It was as if you were burning holes into this person’s back. Ironically, It was like he felt the heat behind him and he turned around. He turned around to face who could be his friends. Seeing his face, it sent chills down your spine. Blinking and shaking your head, thinking that you could be hallucinating or day-dreaming. You looked up again and couldn’t make out who they were because their friends were blocking the one who you wanted to see. Your mind became blank once again and you looked at your ice coffee.

“I really shouldn’t be drinking you, you’re starting to make me see things” you thought.

You thought that it could be the coffee. It’s already your 4th cup for the day. Although, at this rate, you don’t know if your body is immune to it because you still feel sluggish as you did this morning. You hold your head with both hands, elbows on the table, feeling a slight headache. It’s like feeling all your brain cells dying because of the caffeine overdose. You decided to shake it off and continue doing your work.

You were startled when the chair in front of you and beside you was pulled open and there sat Jimin and Taehyung. Your hands placed on your chest, you swore you that you just let out a loud shriek causing people to look at your direction.

“What the fu– don’t just randomly do that you shitheads” You whisper-yelled. You try to recover from the sudden appearance of the playful couple.

“We saw you here, hope you don’t mind we come and join you on your little study sesh”

“Not at all” You said “Oh yeah, here,” You searched in your bag for the thick leather wallet and handed it to him “Good thing you came”

"Thought you would be in class?” You asked while he shoves his wallet at the back of his pocket

“Well we finished early, Mr. Xing said he’s gonna call off for the day”

“Yeah, Poor man, been coughing all day and couldn’t sound out a syllable”

“What’s up, ____. Looking like you were shitting bricks before we gave you reason to shit bricks. What is that?” He came closer to check the assignment I was doing and to his dismay, it was math.

“Oou, well, that explains, but you good?”

“Yeah, head hurts and was thinking ‘bout some things” you mumbled.

“Well, you gotta stop overthinking, it gives you wrinkles. ‘N you know what they say about wrinkles~ they’re a sign of old age~”

“Wow, Thanks Tae” You rolled your eyes, chuckling at the two. You stayed in the library with Jimin and Taehyung talking and doing assignments and projects.

Now, you are found in Jimin’s car, releasing stress by singing your souls out to 2000s R&B. You insisted that you walk but, of course, he didn’t take no for an answer.

You were born in Daegu but your family moved to Seoul when you and Yoongi were very young. A few years ago, you decided to move in with your brother and his wife. Despite being born in the area, you felt out of place until you met Jimin and Taehyung. They were your the first set of friends that you met when you moved to Daegu. It was an easy friendship because not only that they attended DAU, Daegu Arts University, you three have the same Art History class. You’re not gonna lie but you might have had the slightest crush on Jimin during first year of Uni–that was until you find out the two were together. Hey, it didn’t hurt though, the two were like soulmates.

Checking your phone, you saw time was only 4:27 PM. You sighed realizing that you’ll have the apartment to yourself until Jungkook comes home, from his shift at the tattoo parlour, later tonight.

He was already working there when you met him. He moved away from Busan to pursue his dream in music. He asked his parents if he could move to Daegu and attend DAU. Of course, it took a toll on his parents but they let him do what he wanted. The best thing they could do was support their son on his dream; He aced a job at a tattoo parlour and he has little shows at the bars downtown, all while he was studying. He realized that it gave him satisfaction and he, secretly, took a break from school–which now, it led to him being a full-time worker at the well-known tattoo parlour. He finds that it’s nothing different if he would have finished; seeing that he didn’t need to be a college graduate to get his job. Despite those circumstances, his creativity and love for Art and Music gets him paid; and that’s what matters to him and you–that he’s happy.

“Alright,” You shut the door and tapped on the trunk “thanks boys, see you tomorrow?”

“Yeah, bye, _____. Sleep well tonight, You look too sleep deprived”

“I will, drive safe, text me when you’re home”

You walked up the stairs and reached your apartment. You entered the code of the door’s lock and the door makes sound, signaling you that the doors open. You entered, taking off your shoes and hanging your coat on the coat rack. Walking towards the living room, you put your bag on the ground next to the counter which separates the living room and kitchen. Plopping down on the couch, you sighed in relief of the feeling being home and laying at the soft surface. You focused on listening to the humming of the air conditioner and then you felt your eyelids becoming heavy with every tick of the clock.  

You were awoken by the smell of food and it made you realize how hungry you were; smelling the food definitely made your stomach growl that you felt the strong vibrations. You sat up and looked around and adjusted your vision to the light. You turned around and saw Jungkook’s back. You stood up and quickly stretched and walked towards him. As you approached him, he turned around and noticed your sleepy figure about to engulf him, which was intended to be a back hug.

“Hi sleepy” He says. He placed the spoon and tupperware on the counter, hugged you back in return and left a kiss on your temple. You hummed and just hugged him tighter. Inhaling his scent of body soap and aftershave.

“Mina gave me some food when I went over there; She said you should try it and gave us a lot of it” You hummed in response.

“What is it?” Your voice husky from sleeping

“It’s a chicken stew. C’mon, get ready we’ll have dinner in a few, I’m already making rice”

“I wanna stay like this still” Your hold became tighter and he just rubbed your back. Your hunger was replaced by the feeling of ease and comfort in his embrace. You moved your face from his chest and faced him with your eyes closed and smiled at him.

“Don’t forget your little promise, baby.” He said while placing kisses all over your face. His hands sliding up and down your back and moved to grope your ass, giving it a little slap. Your eyes opened and fake disappointment washed over you.

“I really thought it was going to be a sweet moment, Jeon. You really had-” He cut you with a peck on the lips.“-to say that.” He chuckled.

“C’mon, Noona, I can be really sweet.” You rolled your eyes at him.

“Oh my god, you’re really fucking lucky I’m a sub or else, i would have-” You cut yourself off and you smirked at him.

“Hm, feisty now, isn’t she?” You remove yourself from him and grab a cup to drink a glass of water.

“I’m sorry, JK. I’m exhausted today. I promise, on date night, okay?”

“Something happened today? I saw how busted you look on the couch when I came home– didn’t wanna wake you until I finished heating up the food” Now it was his turn to hug you first. He sat on the stool and pulled you by your shirt and wrapped his arms around your waist. He stared at you with his doe eyes until you finished drinking and placing the glass on the counter.

“Just a club meeting but I didn’t sleep last night. I had to finish the powerpoint and afterwards, I went to the library to finish off somethin’. Jimin and Tae was with me though, no worries. They dropped me home too so.” You sighed and look at him.

“That was the meeting you were talking about right? How was it? How’d it go?” He asked

“Remember the man I told you about?” He hummed in response “Well, he seemed really impressed with my presentation and the art display we made and he spoke about visiting again,” You began playing with the long strands of his fluffy, wavy hair “He said that he’ll think about doing a workshop, all expenses paid, for learning art techniques and maybe even visiting the national museum”

“I’m proud of you, ____. I know you worked hard for that. You know, being the Co-President of the Art Club.” He gushes as he rubbed circle with his thumb on your waist.

“Oh my– stop, let me get changed” You tapped his chest and leaned forward to peck his nose. 

You walked out the kitchen and headed to the bedroom and stripped to your underwear. You grabbed a towel heading to the bathroom for a quick shower. You gargled with some mouthwash and change into some boy shorts and Jungkook’s oversized sweatshirt.  

---------

“____, the table’s ready!”

“Coming, coming!”

You skipped to the kitchen and sat on the high stool opposite of Jungkook’s. You both ate dinner and shoving the last chunk of carrot into your mouth, you stacked the dishes and placed them in the sink.

“Are you scheduled to play tonight?” You asked turned your head to him as you washed the utensils.

“Yeah, Hyung said to meet at the subway. I’ll probably head out at around 30 35 mins from now?” He said questioningly, turning to look at the wall clock. It was currently 7:50 PM.

“Yup, in 30 mins or so– oh and please don’t wait up for me again. Am not sure when I’m coming but I’ll come home before it hits 1, okay?” He informs you while he removes his top and heads to the bathroom.

A little story of Jungkook and Seokjin’s relationship, Seokjin is Jungkook’s good friend who helped him move to Daegu. Jungkook and Seokjin were pretty much like roommates before you came into the picture. Besides being roommates, the pair were performers at the local bar.

That’s also how you met Jungkook. You saw him and Seokjin performing a ballad when you were with your group of friends. Eunbi, your close friend and also Seokjin’s girlfriend, introduced you to them that same night. You thought he was very attractive–like duh, who wouldn’t? You both talked and got to know some things about each other and it led to both of you exchanging numbers, texting often, meeting up for coffee or lunch. Several months later, that’s when he decided to ask you to make it official. You would visit their apartment often; it can be whenever they practiced ballads and their self-composed songs or you guys decide to have a movie night with Seokjin and Eunbi. For others, it may sound like the relationship was rushed for deciding to live together 1 year and 3 months into the relationship. It didn’t feel wrong though–as cliche as it sounds. You felt that this new start was something just like you imagined it would be.

You were snapped out of your thoughts when Jungkook bent down to grab his bag that was next to you and to kiss your forehead.

“I’m heading out.” He slings the big black backpack on and walked towards the door. He stood by the front of the door struggling to put on his sneakers. “Sleep early my love” he sang stretching out each syllable. You giggled at the soft curse he did when he nearly stumbled over the slippers behind him.

“Take care,” You turned your head to look at him and to surprise you noticed his outfit.  “Oh my.. Please tell me you have a light shirt in your bag. You really gotta stop wearing all black. It’s too dark outside kook. Trust me, I’ll really buy you some twinkle toes” You said worriedly, remembering the incident that almost happened a few days ago. Stupid driver + Late night + Boyfriend in dark clothing + Walking = Not a good combination.

“Don’t worry, _____. Look, I got the shoes with the light reflectors. It’s not twinkle toes but it’s something” He smugly said with hands on his hips. You couldn’t help but laugh at him.

“Okay, love you, text me if anything. Go sleep early for real, it’s an order”

“Love you too” You said sending him a flying kiss, to which he pretended to catch and smack on his cheek before he closed the door.

You decided to get ready for bed. You turned off the lights in the living room, kitchen and the mini hallway. You walked in the bathroom to do your skin care and brush your teeth. You walked in the bedroom while using your phone, checking for updates on your social media. Peeling the covers open, you laid down and tucked yourself in. You set an early alarm for the next day and put your phone down. You stared at the wall, deep in thought. You were reminded of the familiar face you saw when you were at the library. Yes, it’s been almost roughly 5 years but sometimes you can’t help but remember the painful memories. It was still vivid to you. You rubbed your face with your hands.

“I can’t believe you would do something like that. Do you not trust me?”

“___, What the fuck are you talking about? I trust you! Why are yo-” You scoffed.

“What do you mean, what the fuck I’m talking about, you know damn well what the fuck I’m talking about.” You turned to face him.

“____.” He calmly looks at you and held your arm but you pulled away.

“Why the fuck would you send threats to my classmate? I told you we were just doing a project and it’s not like we were alone… I don’t even know him that well for you to accuse me of something”

“I didn’t even accuse you of anything, ___. Stop saying shit right now.” He rolled his eyes and turned away from you. You looked at him is disbelief.

“So texting someone like ‘hey, im ___’s boyfriend, and i need you to back tf away from her. I see the way you look at her’ blah blah blah and ‘if not, i know where you live and i swear ill torture tf outta you’ is not a threat? You’re already accusing me and someone else for doing something we didn’t do” He noticed your rage and turned around and walked towards you.

“___, It’s not like that, i prom-” You cut him off

“And you pulled a knife on him…” You say softly.

“W-what? H-how… What are you saying right now, ___. You sound stupid” There was a pregnant pause until you couldn’t hold back a hiccup. Your tears running down your face.

“I saw you. In the parking lot. After you dropped me off, I was gonna run after you when I saw that I left my bottle behind and there you were…” You looked up at him with glossy eyes

“There was my fucking boyfriend with a knife on my classma–” You jokingly said, with enthusiasm, as you turned around waving your arms towards your boyfriend as if you were talking to an audience. You nervously chuckled at the situation. You were in disbelief that you couldn’t even finish your sentence. You choked back the sob.  

That night was when you realized your boyfriend was fucking crazy. He was out of his mind. It was just like what those movies would talk about when the lead character has a girlfriend and she’s literally crazy; doing anything to get his attention. Except it was the opposite, it was him and definitely not you. What scares you the most is that, it happened, not twice, but more than 5 times. It’s not like how the movie depicts it to be anymore. It’s reality and much more scarier than that. He doesn’t know but you know he’s the one who stares at you from across the room of where you sat. You know, that he’s the reason why some people don’t talk to you the way they used to. It was all because of him your life started to feel like a living hell.

You shook the memories away. You checked your phone. 9:39 PM.

“That’s the past” You muttered to yourself.

“That’s way in the past, ___. You’re here now, Almost 5 years. You’re just hallucinating this again” You sighed. You reached to the nightstand and drank some water. You opened the voice recording app on your phone and clicked on the file that Jungkook made.

He knows about your story. He knows about everything. He knows why you moved and why you decided to change your life; and you loved how supportive he was of it. You can’t stress enough how thankful you are to be with someone like Jungkook.

File: a_lullaby_for_my_someone.mp3

“Hi, _____” His clear voice filling the quiet room “,I know you aren’t sleeping right now–and that explains why you turned to this recording, Ha. Anyways, That’s why I made this very special lullaby for you. Here’s my rendition to our song…”

And that’s when he started strumming the guitar.

Put your head on my shoulder

Hold me in your arms, baby

You placed your phone on his side of the bed and hugged a pillow. Finally adjusting your sleeping position, you closed your eyes and your previous thoughts were pushed aside as you focus on your boyfriend’s singing

Squeeze me oh so tight

Show me that you love me too

Your breathing becoming slower and free from panic

Put your lips next to mine, dear

Won’t you kiss me once, baby

Just a kiss goodnight, maybe

You and I will fall in love

[aroaessidhe]

50 bookish questions

@violaeade tagged me in this a million years ago

1. What is your favourite book and/or book series of all time?

hahaha God i don’t know,,. Gonna say like, chaos walking or mortal engines but that's in part because I've loved them for so long and reread them a bunch. there are so many more recent books that I love too

2. What is the longest book you have ever read? How many pages?

.according to goodreads stats it’s A Dance With Dragons at 1125

3. What is the oldest book you have ever read? (Based on its written date)

I have no idea tbh, I haven’t read that many old books. lord of the rings? - I checked goodreads and apparently the oldest book (on my goodreads anyway) is the hobbit so there we go

4. What is a book series that everyone else loves but you do not?

a whole heap of them tbh. but I don't really bother with popular books I don't like? If I don't like them I just. Don't think about them for the most part

5. What book or book series would you like to see turned into a film/ TV series?

idk??? to be honest I can’t really think of any. Maybe in other lands because I'm thinking about that a lot recently and it is the kind of format that would suit episodes, I feel?

6. What is your favourite stand-alone book?

uhhh gosh maybe The Wind City or Radio Silence

7. What is a book that you feel glad for not reading?

acotar

8. What is a book that you feel guilty for not reading?

I mean there’s a billion books I want to read but haven’t yet, but that’s only because I haven’t had the time.

9. What is a book you have read that is set in your country of birth?

The Shattering, The Wind City, The Halfmen of O (kinda....it's mostly in another world but they start off near nelson which is where I & the author live so i wanna mention it)

10. What is a book that you own more than one copy of?

Pantomime and Shadowplay by Laura Lam, because I bought the rereleased versions

11. What horror book made you really scared?

I don’t read many horror books?? I'm sure there's a few but I can't think of anything

12. What book do you passionately hate?

c*ptive pr*nce

13. What is the biggest book series you have read? How many books are in it?

the edge chronicles has what, 14? if you count all the shadowhunters books there’s about that many too..... I read a significant amount of the warriors books when I was a kid but I can’t remember how many

14. What book gives you happy memories?

Chameleon Moon/The Lifeline Signal are good and happy

15. What book made you cry?

What book didn’t make me cry is the question. Recently,  In Other Lands (I’m pretty sure I cried throughout 60% of it) and Eliza and Her Monsters

16. What book made you laugh?

man i’m gonna say In Other Lands again, when I’m not crying I’m laughing (or both)

17. What is your favourite book that contains an LGBTQ+ character?

like 90% off the books i read have lgbtqia characters

18. Have you read a book with a male protagonist? What is it?

(i love how there’s this question but not female protagonist....as if male protagonists are less common or something.....?)

19. Have you read a book set on another planet? What is it?

Fourth World (and like many others lmao)

20. Have you ever been glad to not finish a series? Which?

I only read the third Throne of Glass book because I assumed it was a trilogy and thought I might as well finish it but boy am i sure I stopped there

21. Have you ever read a book series because you were pressured?

I don’t think pressured necessarily but ones that are super popular like throne of glass, game of thrones

22. What famous author have you not read any books by?

probably a bunch

23. Who is your favourite author of all time?

I always say like, Patrick Ness or Scott Westerfeld for these because they both have so many books I love? but there are so many authors I love who are not...white dudes, who I probably love more they just, only have a few books out so far

24. How many bookshelves do you own?

At my parent's house, two big ones and a small one, and at uni three small ones. (all of which are overflowing)

25. How many books do you own?

Maybe 400? At least as many ebooks.

26. What is your favourite non-fiction book?

I don’t read many

27. What is your favourite children’s/middle-grade book?

is the edge chrronicles middle grade?

28. What is your next book on your TBR?

uhhh I kinda don't have a specific order but one of these: when dimple met rishi, meg & linus, noteworthy, the library of fates, shadow run and ramona blue

29. What book are you currently reading?

the raising by steven dos santos! came out ages ago and I just...never got aound to finishing the trilogy oops

30. What book are you planning on buying next?

probably something from here

31. What was the cheapest book you bought?

I get a lot of ebooks on amazon when they’re on sale for <5 (or free sometimes)

32. What was the most expensive book you bought?

gosh idk. I try not to buy books more than $22 (which is pretty cheap for nz tbh) but I’ve gotten the occasional $35-40 one. not recently because I am a student and Cannot Afford That

33. What is a book you read after seeing the movie/ TV series?

Howl’s Moving Castle, though not immediately

34. What is the newest book you have bought?

Venturess I think? oh wait I preodered Warcross too... (I always preorder things and they usually come out of order so I forget)

35. What three books are you most looking forward to reading this year?

Warcross, Not Your Villain and Mask of Shadows are a couple

36. What is a book you love that has a terrible trope? (Love triangle, etc)

probably a bunch, but I can’t think of anything specific

37. Have you read a book in a different language? What was it?

I don’t know any other languages so nope, unless you count translated versions (or comics with an english translation throughout the entire thing)

38. What is a book you’ve read that is set in a time period before you were born?

gentleman's guide to vice and virtue

39. What book offended you?

same answer as #12

40. What is the weirdest book you have read?

ya know I'm sure I've read a bunch of weird books??? but nothing comes to mind

41. What is your favourite duology?

the scorpion rules, adaptation or the abyss surrounds us

42. What is your favourite trilogy?

gosh uh,,, micah grey

43. What book did you buy because of its cover?

Tbh We Are Okay is the first thing that comes to mind, it’s so pretty.

44. What is a book that you love, but has a terrible cover?

a lot of indie books (though definitely not all!) do, and that’s understandable. tbh there are a lot of trad published books with Bad covers too. I'm a design student and I'm picky. (But I try not to judge them publicly)

45. Do you own a poetry anthology? What is your favourite poem from it?

nah I'm not really one for poetry

46. Do you own any colouring books based off other books?

nope

47. Do you own any historical fiction?

a bit

48. What book made you angry?

the sequel to love in the time of global warming tbh....it;s Not Good

49. What book has inspired you?

the wicked lovely series and micah grey series are the two things I’ve done more fanart for than anything else so I’m gonna say those

50. What book got you into reading?

there are different levels here because I’ve always read a lot, but probably the more significant ones are like.. the edge chronicles, inkheart, maurice gee books when I was younger, and then around maybe 10-12ish I just?? wanted to read but didn’t like the look of any books I found. my mum bought me mortal engines and sabriel and forced me to read them and they’re still some of my favourite books ever so there we go

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@annawrites​ tagged me!

Rules: answer all questions, add one question of your own and tag as many people as there are questions. wtf who has that many friends

i’m tagging...nobody, i just spent an hour filling this out and i don’t care. do it if you’d like

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1. coke or pepsi: i don’t like any kind of coca cola flavoured soft drink regardless of what it’s called

2. disney or dreamworks: i don’t think i could accurately identify a dreamworks movie without looking it up first. i don’t particularly care about who made what. i do like a lot of animated movies though (i’m forever crying about the fact that rise of the guardians isn’t on finnish netflix. no i do not know who made that movie.)

3. coffee or tea: hot chocolate

4. books or movies: books

5. windows or mac: windows, i don’t like macs much. my current laptop is a chromebook though. i have mixed feelings.

6. dc or marvel: both? i have read far more marvel comics than i have dc, and i do like (most of) the movies and the netflix series, but i also really like the flash, legends of tomorrow and supergirl (esp supergirl!), so...i’m not really fussed either way. 

7. x-box or playstation: i’ve never even seen an x-box with my own eyes. playstation i like! i wish i had one.

8. dragon age or mass effect: neither. i don’t play games. see: i don’t own a playstation.

9. night owl or early riser: neither? staying up late is pretty boring and i like sleeping. my sleeping patterns change depending on what my daily routine is. i have no problems getting up early if that’s what i have to do.

10. cards or chess: i don’t really care. 

11. chocolate or vanilla: chocolate, though i like both

12. vans or converse: i don’t know what vans are. i have a pair of red converse because i like the look, but my most favourite (and comfiest) pair of shoes are my blue adidas classic sneakers. (until this winter my winter boots were adidas as well.)

14. fluff or angst: FLUFF, always, forever

15. beach or forest: forests actually terrify me. beaches...well, depends. i don’t like sunny summer beaches much (esp if crowded with people), but i love the sea and seaside.

16. dogs or cats: both <3

17. clear skies or rain: i don’t like Weather much to begin with because dressing for the weather is a pain in the ass, regardless of if it’s 30+ degrees or -18. i like the indoors best 80% of the time.

18. cooking or eating out: eating out, or alternatively somebody else cooking for me. i just cannot be arsed with cooking. i love cooking for other people, but for myself it’s just so much effort. i love eating out because delicious food made for me to my specifications by somebody else? sign me the fuck up.

19. spicy food or mild food: both! although i have a spiciness limit. if the food is so spicy that i can’t taste the actual food then it becomes pointless. (i do have a relatively high tolerance so i have to say though, at that level, spicy food gives me pretty serious appetite and digestion problems that persist for 1-3 days so i’d rather not over do it on spiciness...) i’m also picky about how the spiciness is achieved - various peppers have their own flavours and aren’t just BURNy and i do Not like jalapenos. they taste vaguely vinegar-y and acidity to me. no thanks. 

20. halloween/samhain or solstice/yule/christmas: er, halloween isn’t a thing here (aside from the commercialised version of it, which can die in a ditch). next weekend is fastelavn though, which i love. (i probably even love it more than christmas because my family usually gets together for buns, and it’s low-key and no-stress with zero expectations or anything, which is great. also buns.) i’m trying to figure out if i can be arsed making buns in the tiny shitty kitchenette here or if i just shouldn’t bother because i’d be eating them alone anyway

21. would you rather forever be a little too cold or a little too hot: i am always a little too cold. by choice.

22. if you could have a superpower, what would it be:  i’d love to be able to teleport because fuck transport time and money, but honestly? i’d probably turn down any and all superpowers if i got the offer

23. animation or live action: both. though i’m pickier about animated movies than live action. 

25. baths or showers: showers! though i’d love to have access to a bath tub just because i really want to try one or two of the lush bath bombs. for the ~experience. (i generally don’t like baths, the water gets cold too fast and it’s boring just lying there.)

26. team cap or team ironman: i am tired of this discussion

27. fantasy or sci-fi: fantasy! i like sci-fi too, but fantasy is generally where it’s at for me

28. do you have three or four favourite quotes, if so what are they: yeah i probably have a few, but i don’t make a habit of memorising them. but hey, i retweeted one from goodreads yesterday that went like this: “if there’s a book that you want to read, but it hasn’t been written yet, then you must write it.” toni morrison.

29. youtube or netflix: well, these are two wildly different things for completely different purposes???? what even

netflix, because i actually use it more or less every day. youtube i only open every now and then to listen to music.

30. harry potter or percy jackson: harry potter. despite it’s problems and all the other shit that’s coming out, harry potter has been important to me in so many ways for so many years. whereas the pj books were just this random series i read one time and didn’t like much.

i actually actively hated the first two pj books. i vaguely started liking the series at the labyrinth book (book three? four? idk) but that has more to do with my thing for labyrinths than anything else (and iirc the labyrinth wasn’t even that well executed in the book? it’s been a while, i don’t remember. or care. but just. labyrinths as devices are fucking awesome.) i liked nico when he was introduced, who was like a little angry gay baby, or something, i wanted to protect him. (when i later found out that he is actually gay and i wasn’t just projecting, it made me happy), and if iirc i liked the last book of the first series. i haven’t read anything else, because i just...can’t be arsed. sorry. i mean, i do kind of want to know how my little gay son nico is doing, but do i want to sit through another five books or so of frankly mediocre writing to find out? no i don’t.

31. when you feel accomplished: when i finish writing a story. other times too, but mostly from writing. it’s just really satisfying declaring something finished. 

32. star wars or star trek: i don’t really care either way. 

33. paperback books or hardback books: paperbacks. they’re smaller, which means i can cram more of them into my apartment, and cheaper, which also means i can afford more of them. i can appreciate a pretty hardback, but i generally think they aren’t worth it. big, heavy, unwieldy and expensive. nah. i’ll take a paperback any day.

34. to live in a world without literature or without music?: i could live without music, but if you want to take literature away from me you might as well just kill me and get it over with.

35.  what’s one thing you hope to accomplish in life?: i don’t know??? i’m more or less a day to day person, and i’d very much like to get a stable, permanent job (and income) right now. that’d be grand. like yeah sure i’d also like to become a published author some day, or get a phd, or travel to certain places and learn more languages, but those are all??? so uncertain?? like i can’t actually spare the headspace to try to make all of them of happen. i just want a job please.

36. who was the last person to make you laugh? probably my students in class last week

36. which is better: sour or sweet candy? I don’t like candy

37. do you believe in aliens? yeah sure

38. dawn or dusk? both are great

39. piercings or tattoos? i don’t have any strong opinions. i have my ears pierced and i’ve been planning to have my lip repierced ever since i had to take the piercing out (cheesegrater effect) (six years ago?) but that never happened, and now i don’t care. i’d like to get tattoos someday but until i can settle on a design or placement i don’t think it’s going to happen.

40. physical book or kindle? both, except i don’t own a kindle and never will. i have an ipad. it does have the kindle app on it, for the rare occasions all i can get is a .mobi file, but i actually prefer to buy my ebooks off Kobo because they are not amazon (their reading app is also great! i like it so much better than the kindle app) or directly from the publisher (in which case i’ll open the .epub in the ibooks app already on the ipad). the ibooks app is p great as is as well, i can’t complain. i also have a bluefire reader for DRM protected ebooks (mostly relevant while i was still at uni and would download time sensitive and DRM protected academic articles and books from databases with restricted access) and an account with Bookmate (digital library).

paperbacks are easier on my eyes, especially in the evenings, but i have about 100 books on my ipad at the moment and i really, really appreciate that given that i currently don’t have space for that many physical books.

41. fantastic beasts or cursed child: are we talking fantastic beasts the book or the movie? because i don’t think i’ve read the book. i’m pretty sure i don’t even own a copy. i also haven’t read the screenplay for the movie. the movie was ok. i had a few big problems with aspects of it, but others were p cool. as for cursed child i haven’t read it and will likely never get the chance to see it either. 

42. rock or pop music: both? sort of ? i have a wide but picky taste in music, across several genres and subgenres of pop, rock and metal. but i wouldn’t say that i like a whole genre...because there’s so much i don’t like. <.<

43. big cities or small towns: both tbh. i come from a small town (less than 4k inhabitants) and i’ve lived most of my life in small towns and in the countryside. i like it, it’s quiet and there’s a different community feel that you don’t get in larger cities. but i’ve also lived in copenhagen for the past 7 years or so, and i’ve come to depend on a lot of big city conveniences. i’ve bought a flat in copenhagen as well, because lbr with my degree my job options are in the big cities, not in the countryside, so... 

44. girls? yes

45. volcanoes or black holes? volcanos

46: Favourite language (either to listen to, or that you can speak): that’s...not... i like (and dislike) languages for different reasons v.v 

i love finnish a lot because it’s a very systematic language (everything follows a rule, with very few exceptions), and because the logic of it is very spatial, if you can put it that way. the way finnish phrases a lot of things is by placing it in some kind of spatial context. it’s very logical to me, someone who’s very spatially and visually oriented in general, so it’s something that i just instantly understood and loved about the language (meanwhile my classmates were struggling because the finnish “way of thinking” is fundamentally so very different from the way scandinavian (and, i’d say, germanic) languages think.) and also i love it because i love grammar and finnish has so much of it, and so many exciting constructions and shit, it’s great.

47: sun or moon? both

48: perfume or cologne? perfume, though i only use men’s perfumes these days so i suppose technically they’re colognes??

49: favourite season? winter

+ my question:

50: what’s your favourite kind of landscape?