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kingcervix · 1 year ago

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I think it's crazy how much my dysphoria and depression are linked. I was considering detransitioning for safety reasons but I don't think I can, even just thinking about it it brought back my extreme suicidal thoughts instantly. I can either be attacked for being trans or I can just end it all myself, these are my options and I know which one I'd rather pick

#queerhottopic.txt #my dysphoria is normally very low level bc I repress so much of it but christ it really goes down deep #I don't acknowledge it much because it brings up all my dysphoria but I don't pass like at all anyways #but I have short hair and men's clothes and I can pretend for myself that I look a little more like a man than a woman #and that's almost enough for me. if I don't pass normally then I guess I can just stay as I am #but when I do start medically transitioning I'm going to have to give up a lot because so much is riding on me being ''cis''#it is what it is. being trans is a fucking struggle don't let anyone tell u it's easy breezy for everyone lol. as much as I'm proud of it #it still hurts every day. and sometimes I wish I wasn't like this

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